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,9 A C\NTRY :]E SPEE* & PRESS >E SO COMPLETELY SUPPRESS$ AS 9 ,RUSSIA IT IS NOT SURPRIS+ ?AT ! HUMAN M9D %\LD FE$ ON FANCY & \T ( IT WEAVE ! MO/ 9CR$IBLE /ORIES4 ,ALREADY1 DUR+ MY FIR/ MON?S 9 ,PETROGRAD1 ,I WAS AMAZ$ AT ! WILD RUMORS ?AT CIRCULAT$ 9 ! CITY & W]E BELIEV$ EV5 BY 9TELLIG5T PEOPLE4 ,! ,SOVIET PRESS WAS 9ACCESSIBLE TO ! POPULATION AT L>GE & !RE WAS NO O!R NEWS M$IUM4 ,EV]Y MORN+ ,BOL%EVIK BULLET9S & PAP]S W]E PA/$ ON ! /REET CORN]S1 BUT 9 ! BITT] COLD FEW PEOPLE C>$ TO PAUSE TO READ !M4 ,BESIDES1 !RE WAS LITTLE FAI? 9 ! ,COMMUNI/ PRESS4 ,PETROGRAD WAS !RE=E COMPLETELY CUT (F1 NOT ONLY FROM ! ,WE/]N WORLD BUT EV5 FROM ! RE/ ( ,RUSSIA4 ,AN OLD REVOLUTIONI/ ONCE SAID TO ME3 0,WE NOT ONLY DON'T KN[ :AT IS GO+ ON 9 ! WORLD OR 9 ,MOSC[2 WE >E NOT EV5 AW>E ( :AT IS HAPP5+ 9 ! NEXT /REET40 ,H[EV]1 ! HUMAN M9D WILL NOT BE BOTTL$ UP ALL ! TIME4 ,IT MU/ HAVE & G5]ALLY F9DS AN \TLET4 ,RUMORS ( ATTEMPT$ RAIDS ON ,PETROGRAD1 /ORIES ?AT ,Z9OVIEV HAD BE5 DUCK$ 9 0,SOVIETSKY S\P0 BY SOME FACTORY WORK]S & ?AT ,MOSC[ WAS CAPTUR$ BY ! ,:ITES W]E AFLOAT4 

,( ,ODESSA IT WAS RELAT$ ?AT 5EMY %IPS HAD BE5 SI<T$ (F ! COA/1 & !RE WAS MU* TALK ( AN IMP5D+ ATTACK4 ,YET :5 WE >RIV$ WE F\ND ! CITY QUIET & LEAD+ ITS ORD9>Y LIFE4 ,EXCEPT = ! L>GE M>KETS1 ,ODESSA IMPRESS$ ME AS A COMPLETE PICTURE ( ,SOVIET RULE4 ,BUT WE HAD NOT BE5 GONE A DAY FROM ! CITY :51 ON \R RETURN TO ,MOSC[1 WE AGA9 MET ! SAME RUMORS4 ,! SUCCESS ( ! ,POLI% =CES & ! HA/Y RETREAT ( ! ,R$ ,>MY FURNI%$ FUEL TO ! OV]-EXCIT$ IMAG9ATION ( ! PEOPLE4 ,EV]Y:]E ! ROADS W]E BLOCK$ ) MILIT>Y TRA9S & ! /ATIONS FILL$ ) SOLDI]S SPREAD+ ! PANIC ( ! R\T4 

,AT SEV]AL PO9TS ! ,SOVIET AU?ORITIES W]E GETT+ READY TO EVACUATE AT ! FIR/ APPROA* ( DANG]4 ,! POPULATION1 H[EV]1 C\LD NOT DO ?AT4 ,AT ! RAILROAD /ATIONS ALONG ! R\TE GR\PS ( PEOPLE /OOD AB\T DISCUSS+ ! IMP5D+ ATTACK4 ,FI<T+ 9 ,RO/OV1 O!R CITIES ALREADY 9 ! H&S ( ,WRANGEL1 B&ITS HOLD+ UP TRA9S & BL[+ UP BRIDGES1 & SIMIL> /ORIES KEPT EV]YBODY 9 A PANIC4 ,IT WAS ( C\RSE IMPOSSIBLE TO V]IFY !1 RUMORS4 ,BUT WE W]E 9=M$ ?AT WE C\LD NOT CONT9UE TO ,RO/OV-ON-!-,DON1 ?AT CITY BE+ ALREADY )9 ! MILIT>Y ZONE4 ,WE W]E ADVIS$ TO />T = ,KIEV & !NCE RETURN TO ,MOSC[4 ,IT WAS H>D TO GIVE UP \R PLAN ( REA*+ ,BAKU1 BUT WE HAD NO *OICE4 ,WE C\LD NOT V5TURE TOO F>1 ESPECIALLY AS \R C> P]MIT WAS TO EXPIRE )9 A %ORT TIME4 ,WE DECID$ TO RETURN TO ,MOSC[ VIA ,KIEV4 

,:5 WE LEFT ,PETROGRAD1 WE HAD PROMIS$ TO BR+ BACK FROM ! ,S\? SOME SUG>1 :ITE FL\R1 & C]EALS = \R />V$ FRI5DS :O HAD LACK$ !SE NECESSITIES = ?REE YE>S4 ,ON ! WAY TO ,KIEV & ,ODESSA WE F\ND PROVISIONS COMP>ATIVELY *EAP2 BUT N[ ! PRICES HAD RIS5 SEV]AL HUNDR$ P]C5T4 ,FROM AN ,ODESSA FRI5D WE LE>N$ ( A PLACE TW5TY V]/S .<AB\T ?IRTE5 MILES.> FROM ,RAKHNO1 A SMALL VILLAGE NE> ,ZHM]5KA1 :]E SUG>1 HONEY1 & APPLE JELLY C\LD BE HAD AT SMALL CO/4 ,WE W]E NOT SUPPOS$ TO TRANSPORT PROVISIONS TO ,PETROGRAD1 ?\< \R C> WAS IMMUNE FROM ! USUAL 9SPECTION BY ! ,T*EKA4 ,BUT AS WE HAD NO 9T5TION ( SELL+ ANY?+1 WE FELT JU/IFI$ 9 BR++ SOME FOOD = PEOPLE :O HAD BE5 />V+ = YE>S4 ,WE HAD \R C> DETA*$ AT ,ZHM]5KA1 & TWO M5 ( ! EXP$ITION & MYSELF W5T TO ,RAKHNO4 

,IT WAS NO EASY MATT] TO 9DUCE ! ,ZHM]5KA PEASANTS TO TAKE US TO ! NEXT VILLAGE4 ,W\LD WE GIVE !M SALT1 NAILS1 OR SOME O!R M]*&ISE8 ,O!RWISE !Y W\LD NOT GO4 ,WE LO/ ! BE/ P>T ( A DAY 9 A VA9 SE>*1 BUT AT LA/ WE F\ND A MAN :O CONS5T$ TO DRIVE US TO ! PLACE 9 RETURN = ,K]5SKY RUBLES4 ,! J\RNEY REM9D$ ME ( ! ROCKY ROAD ( GOOD 9T5TIONS3 WE W]E HEAV$ UP & D[N1 J]K$ BACK & =?1 LIKE SO MANY DICE4 ,AFT] A SEEM+LY 5DLESS TRIP1 A*+ 9 EV]Y LIMB1 WE REA*$ ! VILLAGE4 ,IT WAS POOR & SQUALID1 ,JEWS CON/ITUT+ ! MA9 POPULATION4 ,! PEASANTS LIV$ ALONG ! ,RAKHNO ROAD & VISIT$ ! PLACE ONLY ON M>KET DAYS4 ,! ,SOVIET (FICIALS W]E ,G5TILES4 

,WE C>RI$ A LETT] ( 9TRODUCTION TO A WOMAN PHYSICIAN1 ! SI/] ( \R ,ODESSA ,BUNDI/ FRI5D4 ,%E WAS TO DIRECT US H[ TO GO AB\T PROCUR+ ! PROVISIONS4 ,>RIV+ AT ! ,DOCTOR'S H\SE WE F\ND H] LIV+ 9 TWO SMALL ROOMS1 ILL KEPT & UNCLEAN1 ) A DIRTY BABY CRAWL+ AB\T4 ,! WOMAN WAS BUSY MAK+ APPLE JELLY4 ,%E WAS ( ! TYPE ( DISILLUSION$ 9TELLECTUAL N[ SO FREQU5TLY MET 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,FROM H] CONV]SATION ,I LE>N$ ?AT %E & H] HUSB&1 ALSO A PHYSICIAN1 HAD BE5 DETAIL$ TO ?AT DESOLATE SPOT4 ,!Y W]E COMPLETELY1 ISOLAT$ FROM ALL 9TELLECTUAL LIFE1 HAV+ NEI!R PAP]S1 BOOKS1 NOR ASSOCIATES4 ,H] HUSB& W\LD BEG9 HIS R\NDS E>LY 9 ! MORN+ & RETURN LATE AT NI<T1 :ILE %E HAD TO ATT5D TO H] BABY & H\SEHOLD1 BESIDES TAK+ C>E ( H] [N PATI5TS4 ,%E HAD ONLY REC5TLY RECOV]$ FROM TYPHUS & IT WAS H>D = H] TO *OP WOOD1 C>RY WAT]1 WA% & COOK & LOOK AFT] H] SICK4 ,BUT :AT MADE !IR LIFE UNBE>ABLE WAS ! G5]AL ANTAGONISM TO ! 9TELLIG5TSIA4 ,!Y HAD IT CON/ANTLY ?R[N UP TO !M ?AT !Y W]E B\RGEOIS & C\NT]-REVOLUTIONI/S1 & !Y W]E *>G$ ) SABOTAGE4 ,IT WAS ONLY = ! SAKE ( H] *ILD ?AT %E CONT9U$ ! SORDID LIFE1 ! WOMAN SAID2 0O!RWISE IT W]E BETT] TO BE DEAD40 

,A Y\NG WOMAN1 POORLY CLAD1 BUT CLEAN & NEAT1 CAME TO ! H\SE & WAS 9TRODUC$ AS A S*OOL TEA*]4 ,%E AT ONCE GOT 9TO CONV]SATION ) ME4 ,%E WAS A ,COMMUNI/1 %E ANN\NC$1 :O WAS 0DO+ H] [N ?9K+40 0,MOSC[ MAY BE AUTOCRATIC10 %E SAID1 0BUT ! AU?ORITIES 9 ! T[NS & VILLAGES H]E BEAT ,MOSC[4 ,!Y DO AS !Y PLEASE40 ,! PROV9CIAL (FICIALS W]E FLOTSAM WA%$ A%ORE BY ! GREAT /ORM4 ,!Y HAD NO REVOLUTION>Y PA/-!Y HAD KN[N NO SUFF]+ = !IR IDEALS4 ,!Y W]E JU/ SLAVES 9 POSITIONS ( P[]4 ,IF %E HAD NOT BE5 A ,COMMUNI/ H]SELF1 %E W\LD HAVE BE5 ELIM9AT$ LONG AGO1 BUT %E WAS DET]M9$ TO MAKE A FI<T AGA9/ ! ABUSES 9 H] DI/RICT4 ,AS TO ! S*OOLS1 !Y W]E DO+ AS BE/ !Y C\LD UND] ! CIRCUM/ANCES1 BUT ?AT WAS V]Y LITTLE4 ,!Y LACK$ EV]Y?+4 ,IT WAS NOT SO BAD 9 ! SUMM]1 BUT 9 ! W9T] ! *ILDR5 HAD TO /AY HOME BECAUSE ! CLASS ROOMS W]E NOT HEAT$4 ,WAS IT TRUE ?AT ,MOSC[ WAS PUBLI%+ GL[+ ACC\NTS ( ! GREAT R$UCTION 9 ILLIT]ACY8 ,WELL1 IT WAS C]TA9LY EXAGG]AT$4 ,9 H] VILLAGE ! PROGRESS WAS V]Y SL[4 ,%E HAD (T5 WOND]$ :E!R !RE WAS REALLY MU* TO SO-CALL$ $UCATION4 ,SUPPOS+ ! PEASANTS %\LD LE>N TO READ & WRITE4 ,W\LD ?AT MAKE !M BETT] & K9D] M58 ,IF SO1 :Y IS !RE SO MU* CRUELTY1 9JU/ICE1 & /RIFE 9 C\NTRIES :]E PEOPLE >E NOT ILLIT]ATE8 ,! ,RUSSIAN PEASANT 
CANNOT READ OR WRITE1 BUT HE HAS AN 9NATE S5SE ( RI<T & BEAUTY4 ,HE CAN DO WOND]FUL ?+S ) HIS H&S & HE IS NO MORE BRUTAL ?AN ! RE/ ( ! WORLD4 

,I WAS 9T]E/$ TO F9D SU* AN UNUSUAL VIEWPO9T 9 ONE SO Y\NG & 9 SU* AN \T-(-!-WAY PLACE4 ,! LITTLE TEA*] C\LD NOT HAVE BE5 MORE ?AN TW5TY-FIVE4 ,I 5C\RAG$ H] TO SPEAK ( H] REACTIONS TO ! G5]AL POLICIES & ME?ODS ( H] P>TY4 ,DID %E APPROVE ( !M1 DID %E ?9K !M DICTAT$ BY ! REVOLUTION>Y PROCESS8 ,%E WAS NOT A POLITICIAN1 %E SAID2 %E DID NOT KN[4 ,%E C\LD JUDGE ONLY BY ! RESULTS & !Y W]E F> FROM SATISFACTORY4 ,BUT %E HAD FAI? 9 ! ,REVOLUTION4 ,IT HAD UPROOT$ ! V]Y SOIL1 IT HAD GIV5 LIFE A NEW MEAN+4 ,EV5 ! PEASANTS W]E NOT ! SAME-NO ONE WAS ! SAME4 ,SOME?+ GREAT MU/ COME ( ALL ! CONFUSION4 

,! >RIVAL ( ! ,DOCTOR TURN$ ! CONV]SATION 9TO O!R *ANNELS4 ,:5 9=M$ ( \R ]R& HE W5T 9 SE>* ( SOME TRADESM51 BUT PRES5TLY HE RETURN$ TO SAY ?AT NO?+ C\LD BE DONE3 IT WAS ! EVE ( ,YOM ,KIPPUR1 & EV]Y ,JEW WAS 9 ! SYNAGOGUE4 ,HEA!N ?AT ,I AM1 ,I DID NOT KN[ ?AT ,I HAD COME ON ! EVE ( ?AT MO/ SOLEMN FA/ DAY4 ,AS WE C\LD NOT REMA9 ANO!R DAY1 WE DECID$ TO RETURN )\T HAV+ ACCOMPLI%$ \R PURPOSE4 

,H]E A NEW DIFFICULTY >OSE4 ,\R DRIV] W\LD NOT BUDGE UNLESS WE GOT AN >M$ GU>D TO ACCOMPANY US4 ,HE WAS AFRAID ( B&ITS3 TWO NI<TS PREVI\SLY1 HE SAID1 !Y HAD ATTACK$ TRAVEL]S 9 ! =E/4 ,IT BECAME NECESS>Y TO APPLY TO ! ,*AIRMAN ( ! ,MILITIA4 ,! LATT] WAS WILL+ TO HELP US1 BUT-ALL HIS M5 W]E 9 ! SYNAGOGUE1 PRAY+4 ,W\LD WE WAIT UNTIL ! S]VICES W]E OV]8 

,AT LA/ ! PEOPLE FIL$ \T FROM ! SYNAGOGUE & WE W]E GIV5 TWO >M$ MILITIAM54 ,IT WAS RA!R H>D ON ?OSE ,JEWI% BOYS1 = IT WAS A S9 TO RIDE ON ,YOM ,KIPPUR4 ,BUT NO 9DUCEM5T C\LD P]SUADE ! PEASANT TO V5TURE ?R\< ! WOODS )\T MILIT>Y PROTECTION4 ,LIFE IS 9DE$ A CRAZY QUILT MADE ( PAT*ES4 ,! PEASANT1 A TRUE ,UKRA9IAN1 W\LD NOT HAVE HESITAT$ A MOM5T TO BEAT & ROB ,JEWS 9 A POGROM2 YET HE FELT SECURE 9 ! PROTECTION ( ,JEWS AGA9/ ! POSSIBLE ATTACK ( HIS [N CORELIGIONI/S4 

,WE RODE 9TO ! BRI<T FALL NI<T1 ! SKY DOTT$ ) />S4 ,IT WAS SOO?+LY /ILL1 ) ALL NATURE ASLEEP4 ,! DRIV] & \R ESCORT DISCUSS$ ! B&ITS1 COMPET+ 9 BLOODCURDL+ /ORIES ( ! \TRAGES COMMITT$ BY !M4 ,AS WE REA*$ ! D>K =E/ ,I REFLECT$ ?AT !IR L\D VOICES W\LD BE ! SIGNAL ( \R APPROA* = ANY HI<WAYM5 :O MI<T BE LY+ 9 WAIT4 ,! SOLDI]S /OOD UP 9 ! WAGON1 !IR RIFLES READY = ACTION2 ! PEASANT CROSS$ HIMSELF & LA%$ ! HORSES 9TO A MAD GALLOP1 KEEP+ UP ! PACE TILL WE REA*$ ! OP5 ROAD AGA94 ,IT WAS ALL V]Y EXCIT+ BUT WE MET NO B&ITS4 ,!Y MU/ HAVE BE5 SABOTAG+ ?AT NI<T4 

,WE REA*$ ! /ATION TOO LATE TO MAKE CONNECTIONS & HAD TO WAIT UNTIL ! MORN+4 ,I SP5T ! NI<T 9 ! COMPANY ( A GIRL 9 SOLDI] UNI=M1 A ,COMMUNI/4 ,%E HAD BE5 AT EV]Y FRONT1 %E DECL>$1 & HAD F\<T MANY B&ITS4 ,%E WAS A SORT ( ,PLAYBOY ( ! ,EA/]N ,WORLD1 ROMANC+ BY ! H\R4 ,H] FAVORITE /ORIES W]E ( %OOT+4 0,A BUN* ( C\NT]REVOLUTIONI/S1 ,:ITE ,GU>DS & SPECULATORS10 %E W\LD SAY2 0!Y %\LD ALL BE %OT40 ,I ?\<T ( ! LITTLE S*OOL TEA*]1 ! LOVELY SPIRIT 9 ! VILLAGE1 GIV+ ( H]SELF 9 H>D & PA9FUL S]VICE TO ! *ILDR51 TO BEAUTY 9 LIFE2 & H]E1 H] COMRADE1 ALSO A Y\NG WOMAN1 BUT H>D5$ & CRUEL1 LACK+ ALL S5SE ( REVOLUTION>Y VALUES-BO? *ILDR5 ( ! SAME S*OOL1 YET SO UNLIKE EA* O!R4 

,9 ! MORN+ WE REJO9$ ! ,EXP$ITION 9 ,ZHM]5KA & PROCE$$ TO ,KIEV1 :]E WE >RIV$ BY ! 5D ( ,SEPTEMB]1 TO F9D ! CITY COMPLETELY *ANG$4 ,! PANIC ( ! ,TWELF? ,>MY WAS 9 ! AIR2 ! 5EMY WAS SUPPOS$ TO BE ONLY #ae V]/S .<AB\T N9ETY-N9E MILES.> AWAY & MANY ,SOVIET ,DEP>TM5TS W]E BE+ EVACUAT$1 ADD+ TO ! G5]AL UNEAS9ESS & FRI<T4 ,I VISIT$ ,WETO%K91 ! ,*AIRMAN ( ! ,REVKOM1 & HIS SECRET>Y4 ,! LATT] 9QUIR$ AB\T ,ODESSA1 ANXI\S TO KN[ H[ !Y W]E DO+ !RE1 :E!R !Y HAD SUPPRESS$ TRADE1 & H[ ! ,SOVIET ,DEP>TM5TS W]E WORK+4 ,I TOLD HIM ( ! G5]AL SABOTAGE1 ( ! SPECULATION & ! HORRORS ( ! ,T*EKA4 ,AS TO TRADE1 ! /ORES W]E CLOS$ & ALL SIGNS W]E D[N1 BUT ! M>KETS W]E DO+ BIG BUS9ESS4 0,9DE$8 ,WELL1 Y\ MU/ TELL ?IS TO ,COMRADE ,WETO%K910 ! ,SECRET>Y CRI$ GLEEFULLY4 0,:AT DO Y\ SUPPOSE-,RAKOVSKY WAS H]E & TOLD US P]FECT WOND]S AB\T ! ACCOMPLI%M5TS ( ,ODESSA4 ,HE PUT US ON ! RACK BECAUSE WE HAD NOT DONE AS MU*4 ,Y\ MU/ TELL ,WETO%K9 ALL AB\T ,ODESSA2 HE WILL 5JOY ! JOKE ON ,RAKOVSKY40 

,I MET ,WETO%K9 ON ! /AIRS AS ,I WAS LEAV+ ! (FICE4 ,HE LOOK$ ?9N] ?AN :5 ,I HAD LA/ SE5 HIM1 & V]Y WORRI$4 ,:5 ASK$ AB\T ! IMP5D+ DANG]1 HE MADE LI<T ( IT4 0,WE >E NOT GO+ TO EVACUATE10 HE SAID1 0WE REMA9 RI<T H]E4 ,IT IS ! ONLY WAY TO REASSURE ! PUBLIC40' ,HE1 TOO1 9QUIR$ AB\T ,ODESSA4 ,I PROMIS$ TO CALL AGA9 LAT]1 AS1 ,I HAD NO TIME JU/ !N1 BUT ,I DID NOT HAVE ! *ANCE TO SEE ,WETO%K9 AGA9 TO FURNI% ?AT JOKE ON ,RAKOVSKY4 ,WE LEFT ,KIEV )9 TWO DAYS4 

,AT ,BRYANSK1 AN 9DU/RIAL C5T] NOT F> AWAY FROM ,MOSC[1 WE CAME UPON L>GE PO/]S ANN\NC+ ?AT ,MAKHNO WAS AGA9 ) ! ,BOL%EVIKI1 & ?AT HE WAS DI/+UI%+ HIMSELF BY D>+ EXPLOITS AGA9/ ,WRANGEL4 ,IT WAS />TL+ NEWS1 9 VIEW ( ! FACT ?AT ! ,SOVIET PAP]S HAD CON/ANTLY PA9T$ ,MAKHNO AS A B&IT1 C\NT]- REVOLUTION>Y1 & TRAITOR4 ,:AT HAD HAPP5$ TO BR+ AB\T ?IS *ANGE ( ATTITUDE & TONE8 ,! ?RILL+ ADV5TURE ( HAV+ \R C> HELD UP & \RSELVES C>RI$ (F AS PRISON]S1 BY ! ,MAKHNOVTSI DID NOT COME (F4 ,BY ! TIME WE REA*$ ! DI/RICT :]E ,MAKHNO HAD BE5 OP]AT+ 9 ,SEPTEMB]1 HE WAS CUT (F FROM US4 ,IT W\LD HAVE BE5 V]Y 9T]E/+ TO MEET ! PEASANT LEAD] FACE TO FACE & HE> AT FIR/ H& :AT HE WAS AB\T4 ,HE WAS UND\BT$LY ! MO/ PICTURESQUE & VITAL FIGURE BR\<T TO ! =E BY ! ,REVOLUTION 9 ! ,S\?-& N[ HE WAS AGA9 ) ! ,BOL%EVIKI4 ,:AT HAD HAPP5$8 ,!RE WAS NO WAY ( KN[+ UNTIL WE %\LD REA* ,MOSC[4 

,FROM A COPY ( ! ,IZVE/IA ?AT FELL 9TO \R H&S 5 R\TE1 WE LE>N$ ! SAD NEWS ( ! DEA? ( ,JOHN ,RE$4 ,IT WAS A GREAT BL[ TO ?OSE ( US :O HAD KN[N ,JACK4 ,! LA/ TIME ,I SAW HIM WAS AT ! GUE/ H\SE1 ! ,HOTEL ,9T]NATIONAL1 9 ,PETROGRAD4 ,HE HAD JU/ RETURN$ FROM ,F9L&1 AFT] HIS IMPRISONM5T !RE1 & WAS ILL 9 B$4 ,I WAS 9=M$ ?AT ,JACK WAS ALONE & )\T PROP] C>E1 & ,I W5T UP TO NURSE HIM4 ,HE WAS 9 A BAD /ATE1 ALL SWOLL5 & ) A NA/Y RA% ON HIS >MS1 ! RESULT ( MALNUTRITION4 ,9 ,F9L& HE HAD BE5 F$ ALMO/ EXCLUSIVELY ON DRI$ FI% & HAD BE5 O!RWISE WRET*$LY TREAT$4 ,HE WAS A V]Y SICK MAN1 BUT HIS SPIRIT REMA9$ ! SAME4 ,NO MATT] H[ RADICALLY ONE DISAGRE$ ) ,JACK1 ONE C\LD NOT HELP LOV+ HIS BIG1 G5]\S SPIRIT1 & N[ HE WAS DEAD1 HIS LIFE LAID D[N 9 ! S]VICE ( ! ,REVOLUTION1 AS HE BELIEV$4 

,>RIV+ 9 ,MOSC[ ,I IMM$IATELY W5T TO ! GUE/ H\SE1 ! ,DELOVOI ,DVOR1 :]E /AY$ ,L\ISE ,BRYANT1 ,JACK'S WIFE4 ,I F\ND H] T]RIBLY DI/RAU<T & GLAD TO SEE ONE :O HAD KN[N ,JACK SO WELL4 ,WE TALK$ ( HIM1 ( HIS ILLNESS1 HIS SUFF]+ & HIS UNTIMELY DEA?4 ,%E WAS MU* EMBITT]$ BECAUSE1 %E CLAIM$1 JACK HAD BE5 ORD]$ TO ,BAKU TO ATT5D ! ,CONGRESS ( ! ,EA/]N PEOPLES :5 HE WAS ALREADY V]Y ILL4 ,HE RETURN$ A DY+ MAN4 ,BUT EV5 !N HE C\LD HAVE BE5 SAV$ HAD HE BE5 GIV5 COMPET5T M$ICAL ATT5TION4 ,HE LAY 9 HIS ROOM = A WEEK )\T ! DOCTORS MAK+ UP !IR M9D AS TO ! NATURE ( HIS ILLNESS4 ,!N IT WAS TOO LATE4 ,I C\LD WELL UND]/& ,L\ISE'S FEEL+S1 ?\< ,I WAS CONV9C$ ?AT EV]Y?+ HUMANLY POSSIBLE HAD BE5 DONE = ,RE$4 ,I KNEW ?AT :ATEV] ELSE MI<T BE SAID AGA9/ ! ,BOL%EVIKI1 IT C\LD NOT BE *>G$ ?AT !Y NEGLECT ?OSE :O S]VE !M4 ,ON ! CONTR>Y1 !Y >E G5]\S MA/]S4 ,BUT ,L\ISE HAD LO/ :AT WAS MO/ PRECI\S TO H]4 

,DUR+ ! CONV]SATION %E ASK$ ME AB\T MY EXP]I5CES & ,I TOLD H] ( ! CONFLICT )9 ME1 ( ! DESP]ATE EF=T ,I HAD BE5 MAK+ TO F9D MY WAY \T ( ! *AOS1 & ?AT N[ ! FOG WAS LIFT+1 & ,I WAS BEG9N+ TO DIFF]5TIATE BETWE5 ! ,BOL%EVIKI & ! ,REVOLUTION4 ,EV] S9CE ,I HAD COME TO ,RUSSIA ,I HAD BEGUN TO S5SE ?AT ALL WAS NOT WELL ) ! ,BOL%EVIK REGIME1 & ,I FELT AS IF CAU<T 9 A TRAP4 0,H[ UNCANNY60 ,L\ISE SUDD5LY GRIPP$ MY >M & />$ AT ME ) WILD EYES4 0',CAU<T 9 A TRAP' W]E ! V]Y WORDS ,JACK REPEAT$ 9 HIS DELIRIUM40 ,I REALIZ$ ?AT POOR ,JACK HAD ALSO BEGUN TO SEE B5EA? ! SURFACE4 ,HIS WAS ! FREE1 UNFETT]$ SPIRIT /RIV+ = ! REAL VALUES ( LIFE4 ,IT W\LD BE *AF$ :5 B\ND BY A DOGMA :I* PROCLAIM$ ITSELF IMMUTABLE4 ,HAD ,JACK LIV$ HE W\LD NO D\BT HAVE CLUNG VALIANTLY TO ! ?+ :I* HAD CAU<T HIM 9 ! TRAP4 ,BUT 9 ! FACE ( DEA? ! M9D ( MAN SOMETIMES BECOMES LUM9\S3 IT SEES 9 A FLA% :AT 9 MAN'S NORMAL CONDITION IS OBSCURE & HIDD5 FROM HIM4 ,IT WAS NOT AT ALL /RANGE TO ME ?AT ,JACK %\LD HAVE FELT AS ,I DID1 AS EV]YONE :O IS NOT A ZEALOT MU/ FEEL 9 ,RUSSIA-CAU<T 9 A TRAP4 

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