,P>T #ac #ahhbahhb ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY ,TEXT 3 ,I TURN$ FROM ! LIFE ( \R CIRCLE1 ACKN[L$G+ ?AT \RS IS NOT LIFE BUT A SIMULATION ( LIFE - ?AT ! CONDITIONS ( SUP]FLUITY 9 :I* WE LIVE DEPRIVE US ( ! POSSIBILITY ( UND]/&+ LIFE1 & ?AT 9 ORD] TO UND]/& LIFE ,I MU/ UND]/& NOT AN EXCEPTIONAL LIFE SU* AS \R :O >E P>ASITES ON LIFE1 BUT ! LIFE ( ! SIMPLE LABOR+ FOLK - ?OSE :O MAKE LIFE - & ! MEAN+ :I* !Y ATTRIBUTE TO IT4 ,! SIMPLE/ LABOR+ PEOPLE >\ND ME W]E ! ,RUSSIAN PEOPLE1 & ,I TURN$ TO !M & TO ! MEAN+ ( LIFE :I* !Y GIVE4 ,?AT MEAN+1 IF ONE CAN PUT IT 9TO WORDS1 WAS AS FOLL[S3 ,EV]Y MAN HAS COME 9TO ?IS WORLD BY ! WILL ( ,GOD4 ,& ,GOD HAS SO MADE MAN ?AT EV]Y MAN CAN DE/ROY HIS S\L OR SAVE IT4 ,! AIM ( MAN 9 LIFE IS TO SAVE HIS S\L1 & TO SAVE HIS S\L HE MU/ LIVE 0GODLY0 & TO LIVE 0GODLY0 HE MU/ R5\NCE ALL ! PLEASURES ( LIFE1 MU/ LABOR1 HUMBLE HIMSELF1 SUFF]1 & BE M]CIFUL4 ,?AT MEAN+ ! PEOPLE OBTA9 FROM ! :OLE TEA*+ ( FAI? TRANSMITT$ TO !M BY !IR PA/ORS & BY ! TRADITIONS ?AT LIVE AMONG ! PEOPLE4 ,?IS MEAN+ WAS CLE> TO ME & NE> TO MY HE>T4 ,BUT TOGE!R ) ?IS MEAN+ ( ! POPUL> FAI? ( \R NONSECT>IAN FOLK1 AMONG :OM ,I LIVE1 MU* WAS 9SEP>ABLY B\ND UP ?AT REVOLT$ ME & SEEM$ TO ME 9EXPLICABLE3 SACRAM5TS1 ,*UR* S]VICES1 FA/S1 & ! ADORATION ( RELICS & ICONS4 ,! PEOPLE CANNOT SEP>ATE ! ONE FROM ! O!R1 NOR C\LD ,I4 ,& /RANGE AS MU* ( :AT 5T]$ 9TO ! FAI? ( !SE PEOPLE WAS TO ME1 ,I ACCEPT$ EV]Y?+1 & ATT5D$ ! S]VICES1 KNELT MORN+ & EV5+ 9 PRAY]1 FA/$1 & PREP>$ TO RECEIVE ! ,EU*>I/3 & AT FIR/ MY REASON DID NOT RESI/ ANY?+4 ,! V]Y ?+S ?AT HAD =M]LY SEEM$ TO ME IMPOSSIBLE DID NOT N[ EVOKE 9 ME ANY OPPOSITION4 ,MY RELATIONS TO FAI? BE=E & AFT] W]E QUITE DIFF]5T4 ,=M]LY LIFE ITSELF SEEM$ TO ME FULL ( MEAN+ & FAI? PRES5T$ ITSELF AS ! >BITR>Y ASS]TION ( PROPOSITIONS TO ME QUITE UNNECESS>Y1 UNREASONABLE1 & DISCONNECT$ FROM LIFE4 ,I !N ASK$ MYSELF :AT MEAN+ ?OSE PROPOSITIONS HAD &1 CONV9C$ ?AT !Y HAD NONE1 ,I REJECT$ !M4 ,N[ ON ! CONTR>Y ,I KNEW FIRMLY ?AT MY LIFE O!RWISE HAS1 & CAN HAVE1 NO MEAN+1 & ! >TICLES ( FAI? W]E F> FROM PRES5T+ !MSELVES TO ME AS UNNECESS>Y - ON ! CONTR>Y ,I HAD BE5 L$ BY 9DUBITABLE EXP]I5CE TO ! CONVICTION ?AT ONLY !SE PROPOSITIONS PRES5T$ BY FAI? GIVE LIFE A MEAN+4 =M]LY ,I LOOK$ ON !M AS ON SOME QUITE UNNECESS>Y GIBB]I%1 BUT N[1 IF ,I DID NOT UND]/& !M1 ,I YET KNEW ?AT !Y HAD A MEAN+1 & ,I SAID TO MYSELF ?AT ,I MU/ LE>N TO UND]/& !M4 ,I >GU$ AS FOLL[S1 TELL+ MYSELF ?AT ! KN[L$GE ( FAI? FL[S1 LIKE ALL HUMANITY ) ITS REASON1 FROM A MY/]I\S S\RCE4 ,?AT S\RCE IS ,GOD1 ! ORIG9 BO? ( ! HUMAN BODY & ! HUMAN REASON4 ,AS MY BODY HAS DESC5D$ TO ME FROM ,GOD1 SO ALSO HAS MY REASON & MY UND]/&+ ( LIFE1 & CONSEQU5TLY ! V>I\S /AGES ( ! DEVELOPM5T ( ?AT UND]/&+ ( LIFE CANNOT BE FALSE4 ,ALL ?AT PEOPLE S9C]ELY BELIEVE 9 MU/ BE TRUE2 IT MAY BE DIFF]5TLY EXPRESS$ BUT IT CANNOT BE A LIE1 & !RE=E IF IT PRES5TS ITSELF TO ME AS A LIE1 ?AT ONLY MEANS ?AT ,I HAVE NOT UND]/OOD IT4 ,FUR!RMORE ,I SAID TO MYSELF1 ! ESS5CE ( EV]Y FAI? CONSI/S 9 ITS GIV+ LIFE A MEAN+ :I* DEA? DOES NOT DE/ROY4 ,NATURALLY = A FAI? TO BE ABLE TO REPLY TO ! QUE/IONS ( A K+ DY+ 9 LUXURY1 ( AN OLD SLAVE TORM5T$ BY OV]WORK1 ( AN UNREASON+ *ILD1 ( A WISE OLD MAN1 ( A HALF-WITT$ OLD WOMAN1 ( A Y\NG & HAPPY WIFE1 ( A Y\? TORM5T$ BY PASSIONS1 ( ALL PEOPLE 9 ! MO/ V>I$ CONDITIONS ( LIFE & $UCATION - IF !RE IS ONE REPLY TO ! ONE ET]NAL QUE/ION ( LIFE3 0,:Y DO ,I LIVE & :AT WILL RESULT FROM MY LIFE80 - ! REPLY1 ?\< ONE 9 ITS ESS5CE1 MU/ BE 5DLESSLY V>I$ 9 ITS PRES5TATION2 & ! MORE IT IS ONE1 ! MORE TRUE & PR(\ND IT IS1 ! MORE /RANGE & DE=M$ MU/ IT NATURALLY APPE> 9 ITS ATTEMPT$ EXPRESSION1 CON=MABLY TO ! $UCATION & POSITION ( EA* P]SON4 ,BUT ?IS >GUM5T1 JU/IFY+ 9 MY EYES ! QUE]NESS ( MU* ON ! RITUAL SIDE ( RELIGION1 DID NOT SUFFICE TO ALL[ ME 9 ! ONE GREAT AFFAIR ( LIFE - RELIGION - TO DO ?+S :I* SEEM$ TO ME QUE/IONABLE4 ,) ALL MY S\L ,I WI%$ TO BE 9 A POSITION TO M+LE ) ! PEOPLE1 FULFILL+ ! RITUAL SIDE ( !IR RELIGION2 BUT ,I C\LD NOT DO IT4 ,I FELT ?AT ,I %\LD LIE TO MYSELF & MOCK AT :AT WAS SACR$ TO ME1 W]E ,I TO DO SO4 ,AT ?IS PO9T1 H[EV]1 \R NEW ,RUSSIAN !OLOGICAL WRIT]S CAME TO MY RESCUE4 ,ACCORD+ TO ! EXPLANATION !SE !OLOGIANS GAVE1 ! FUNDAM5TAL DOGMA ( \R FAI? IS ! 9FALLIBILITY ( ! ,*UR*4 ,FROM ! ADMISSION ( ?AT DOGMA FOLL[S 9EVITABLY ! TRU? ( ALL ?AT IS PR(ESS$ BY ! ,*UR*4 ,! ,*UR* AS AN ASSEMBLY ( TRUE BELIEV]S UNIT$ BY LOVE & !RE=E POSSESS$ ( TRUE KN[L$GE BECAME ! BASIS ( MY BELIEF4 ,I TOLD MYSELF ?AT DIV9E TRU? CANNOT BE ACCESSIBLE TO A SEP>ATE 9DIVIDUAL2 IT IS REVEAL$ ONLY TO ! :OLE ASSEMBLY ( PEOPLE UNIT$ BY LOVE4 ,TO ATTA9 TRU? ONE MU/ NOT SEP>ATE1 & 9 ORD] NOT TO SEP>ATE ONE MU/ LOVE & MU/ 5DURE ?+S ONE MAY NOT AGREE )4 ,TRU? REVEALS ITSELF TO LOVE1 & IF Y\ DO NOT SUBMIT TO ! RITES ( ! ,*UR* Y\ TRANSGRESS AGA9/ LOVE2 & BY TRANSGRESS+ AGA9/ LOVE Y\ DEPRIVE Y\RSELF ( ! POSSIBILITY ( RECOGNIZ+ ! TRU?4 ,I DID NOT !N SEE ! SOPHI/RY CONTA9$ 9 ?IS >GUM5T4 ,I DID NOT SEE ?AT UNION 9 LOVE MAY GIVE ! GREATE/ LOVE1 BUT C]TA9LY CANNOT GIVE US DIV9E TRU? EXPRESS$ 9 ! DEF9ITE WORDS ( ! ,NIC5E ,CRE$4 ,I ALSO DID NOT P]CEIVE ?AT LOVE CANNOT MAKE A C]TA9 EXPRESSION ( TRU? AN OBLIGATORY CONDITION ( UNION4 ,I DID NOT !N SEE !SE MI/AKES 9 ! >GUM5T & ?ANKS TO IT WAS ABLE TO ACCEPT & P]=M ALL ! RITES ( ! ,OR?ODOX ,*UR* )\T UND]/&+ MO/ ( !M4 ,I !N TRI$ ) ALL /R5G? ( MY S\L TO AVOID ALL >GUM5TS & CONTRADICTIONS1 & TRI$ TO EXPLA9 AS REASONABLY AS POSSIBLE ! ,*UR* /ATEM5TS ,I 5C\NT]$4 ,:5 FULFILL+ ! RITES ( ! ,*UR* ,I HUMBL$ MY REASON & SUBMITT$ TO ! TRADITION POSSESS$ BY ALL HUMANITY4 ,I UNIT$ MYSELF ) MY =EFA!RS3 ! FA!R1 MO!R1 & GR&P>5TS ,I LOV$4 ,!Y & ALL MY PR$ECESSORS BELIEV$ & LIV$1 & !Y PRODUC$ ME4 ,I UNIT$ MYSELF ALSO ) ! MISSIONS ( ! COMMON PEOPLE :OM ,I RESPECT$4 ,MOVEOV]1 ?OSE ACTIONS HAD NO?+ BAD 9 !MSELVES 70BAD0 ,I CONSID]$ ! 9DULG5CE ( ONE'S DESIRES74 ,:5 RIS+ E>LY = ,*UR* S]VICES ,I KNEW ,I WAS DO+ WELL1 IF ONLY BECAUSE ,I WAS SACRIFIC+ MY BODILY EASE TO HUMBLE MY M5TAL PRIDE1 = ! SAKE ( UNION ) MY ANCE/ORS & CONTEMPOR>IES1 & = ! SAKE ( F9D+ ! MEAN+ ( LIFE4 ,IT WAS ! SAME ) MY PREP>ATIONS TO RECEIVE ,COMMUNION1 & ) ! DAILY READ+ ( PRAY]S ) G5UFLECTIONS1 & ALSO ) ! OBS]VANCE ( ALL ! FA/S4 ,H[EV] 9SIGNIFICANT !SE SACRIFICES MI$ = ,COMMUNION1 & OBS]V$ ! FIX$ H\RS ( PRAY] AT HOME & 9 *UR*4 ,DUR+ ,*UR* S]VICE ,I ATT5D$ TO EV]Y WORD1 & GAVE !M A MEAN+ :5EV] ,I C\LD4 ,9 ! ,MASS ! MO/ IMPORTANT WORDS = ME W]E3 0,LET US LOVE ONE ANO!R 9 CON=MITY60 ,! 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