,P>T #e1 ,*APT] #a #ahggahgg ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY ,TRANSLATOR 3 ,CON/ANCE ,CL>A ,G>NETT ,TEXT 3 ,PR9CESS ,%T*]BATSKAYA CONSID]$ ?AT IT WAS \T ( ! QUE/ION = ! W$D+ TO TAKE PLACE BE=E ,L5T1 JU/ FIVE WEEKS (F1 S9CE NOT HALF ! TR\SSEAU C\LD POSSIBLY BE READY BY ?AT TIME4 ,BUT %E C\LD NOT BUT AGREE ) ,LEV9 ?AT TO FIX IT = AFT] ,L5T W\LD BE PUTT+ IT (F TOO LATE1 AS AN OLD AUNT ( ,PR9CE ,%T*]BATSKY'S WAS S]I\SLY ILL & MITS--A L>G] & SMALL] TR\SSEAU--! PR9CESS CONS5T$ TO HAVE ! W$D+ BE=E ,L5T4 ,%E DET]M9$ ?AT %E W\LD GET ! SMALL] P>T ( ! TR\SSEAU ALL READY N[1 & ! L>G] P>T %\LD BE MADE LAT]1 & %E WAS MU* VEX$ ) ,LEV9 BECAUSE HE WAS 9CAPABLE ( GIV+ H] A S]I\S ANSW] TO ! QUE/ION :E!R HE AGRE$ TO ?IS >RANGEM5T OR NOT4 ,! >RANGEM5T WAS ! MORE SUITABLE AS1 IMM$IATELY AFT] ! W$D+1 ! Y\NG PEOPLE W]E TO GO TO ! C\NTRY1 :]E ! MORE IMPORTANT P>T ( ! TR\SSEAU W\LD NOT BE WANT$4 ,LEV9 /ILL CONT9U$ 9 ! SAME DELIRI\S CONDITION 9 :I* IT SEEM$ TO HIM ?AT HE & HIS HAPP9ESS CON/ITUT$ ! *IEF & SOLE AIM ( ALL EXI/5CE1 & ?AT HE NE$ NOT N[ ?9K OR C>E AB\T ANY?+1 ?AT EV]Y?+ WAS BE+ DONE & W\LD BE DONE = HIM BY O!RS4 ,HE HAD NOT EV5 PLANS & AIMS = ! FUTURE1 HE LEFT ITS >RANGEM5T TO O!RS1 KN[+ ?AT EV]Y?+ W\LD BE DELIKADYEVIT*1 & ! PR9CESS GUID$ HIM 9 DO+ :AT HE HAD TO DO4 ,ALL HE DID WAS TO AGREE 5TIRELY ) EV]Y?+ SUGGE/$ TO HIM4 ,HIS BRO!R RAIS$ MONEY = HIM1 ! PR9CESS ADVIS$ HIM TO LEAVE ,MOSC[ AFT] ! W$D+4 ,/EPAN ,>KADYEVIT* ADVIS$ HIM TO GO ABROAD4 ,HE AGRE$ TO EV]Y?+4 0,DO :AT Y\ *OOSE1 IF IT AMUSES Y\4 ,I'M HAPPY1 & MY HAPP9ESS CAN BE NO GREAT] & NO LESS = ANY?+ Y\ DO10 HE ?\KADYEVIT*'S ADVICE ?AT !Y %\LD GO ABROAD1 HE WAS MU* SURPRIS$ ?AT %E DID NOT AGREE TO ?IS1 & HAD SOME DEF9ITE REQUIREM5TS ( H] [N 9 REG>D TO !IR FUTURE4 ,%E KNEW ,LEV9 HAD WORK HE LOV$ 9 ! C\NTRY4 ,%E DID NOT1 AS HE SAW1 UND]/& ?IS WORK1 %E DID NOT EV5 C>E TO UND]/& IT4 ,BUT ?AT DID NOT PREV5T H] FROM REG>D+ IT AS A MATT] ( GREAT IMPORTANCE4 ,& !N %E KNEW !IR HOME W\LD BE 9 ! C\NTRY1 & %E WANT$ TO GO1 NOT ABROAD :]E %E WAS NOT GO+ TO LIVE1 BUT TO ! PLACE :]E !IR HOME W\LD BE4 ,?IS DEF9ITELY EXPRESS$ PURPOSE A/ONI%$ ,LEV94 ,BUT S9CE HE DID NOT C>E EI!R WAY1 HE IMM$IATELY ASK$ ,/EPAN ,>KADYEVIT*1 AS ?\< IT W]E HIS DUTY1 TO GO D[N TO ! C\NTRY & TO >RANGE EV]Y?+ !RE TO ! BE/ ( HIS ABILITY ) ! TA/E ( :I* HE HAD SO MU*4 0,BUT ,I SAY10 ,/EPAN ,>KADYEVIT* SAID TO HIM ONE DAY AFT] HE HAD COME BACK FROM ! C\NTRY1 :]E HE HAD GOT EV]Y?+ READY = ! Y\NG PEOPLE'S >RIVAL1 0HAVE Y\ A C]TIFICATE ( HAV+ BE5 AT CONFESSION80 0,NO4 ,BUT :AT ( IT80 0,Y\ CAN'T BE M>RI$ )\T IT40 0,AIE1 AIE1 AIE60 CRI$ ,LEV94 0,:Y1 ,I BELIEVE IT'S N9E YE>S S9CE ,I'VE TAK5 ! SACRAM5T6 ,I NEV] ?\KADYEVIT* LAU<+1 0& Y\ CALL ME A ,NIHILI/6 ,BUT ?IS WON'T DO1 Y\ KN[4 ,Y\ MU/ TAKE ! SACRAM5T40 0,:58 ,!RE >E F\R DAYS LEFT N[40 ,/EPAN ,>KADYEVIT* >RANG$ ?IS ALSO1 & ,LEV9 HAD TO GO TO CONFESSION4 ,TO ,LEV91 AS TO ANY UNBELIEV] :O RESPECTS ! BELIEFS ( O!RS1 IT WAS EXCE$+LY DISAGREEABLE TO BE PRES5T AT & TAKE P>T 9 *UR* C]EMONIES4 ,AT ?IS MOM5T1 9 HIS PRES5T S(T5$ /ATE ( FEEL+1 S5SITIVE TO EV]Y?+1 ?IS 9EVITABLE ACT ( HYPOCRISY WAS NOT M]ELY PA9FUL TO ,LEV91 IT SEEM$ TO HIM UTT]LY IMPOSSIBLE4 ,N[1 9 ! HEYDAY ( HIS HI OR A SC(F]4 ,HE FELT 9CAPABLE ( BE+ EI!R4 ,BUT ?\< HE REPEAT$LY PLI$ ,/EPAN ,>KADYEVIT* ) QUE/IONS AS TO ! POSSIBILITY ( OBTA9+ A C]TIFICATE )\T ACTUALLY COMMUNICAT+1 ,/EPAN ,>KADYEVIT* MA9TA9$ ?AT IT WAS \T ( ! QUE/ION4 0,BESIDES1 :AT IS IT TO Y\--TWO DAYS8 ,& HE'S AN AWFULLY NICE CLEV] OLD FELL[4 ,HE'LL PULL ! TOO? \T = Y\ SO G5TLY1 Y\ WON'T NOTICE IT40 ,/&+ AT ! FIR/ LITANY1 ,LEV9 ATTEMPT$ TO REVIVE 9 HIMSELF HIS Y\?FUL RECOLLECTIONS ( ! 9T5SE RELIGI\S EMOTION HE HAD PASS$ ?R\< BETWE5 ! AGES ( SIXTE5 & SEV5TE54 ,BUT HE WAS AT ONCE CONV9C$ ?AT IT WAS UTT]LY IMPOSSIBLE TO HIM4 ,HE ATTEMPT$ TO LOOK AT IT ALL AS AN EMPTY CU/OM1 HAV+ NO SORT ( MEAN+1 LIKE ! CU/OM ( PAY+ CALLS4 ,BUT HE FELT ?AT HE C\LD NOT DO ?AT EI!R4 ,LEV9 F\ND HIMSELF1 LIKE ! MAJORITY ( HIS CONTEMPOR>IES1 9 ! VAGUE/ POSITION 9 REG>D TO RELIGION4 ,BELIEVE HE C\LD NOT1 & AT ! SAME TIME HE HAD NO FIRM CONVICTION ?AT IT WAS ALL WRONG4 ,& CONSEQU5TLY1 NOT BE+ ABLE TO BELIEVE 9 ! SIGNIFICANCE ( :AT HE WAS DO+ NOR TO REG>D IT ) 9DIFF]5CE AS AN EMPTY =MALITY1 DUR+ ! :OLE P]IOD ( PREP>+ = ! SACRAM5T HE WAS CONSCI\S ( A FEEL+ ( DISCOM=T & %AME AT DO+ :AT HE DID NOT HIMSELF UND]/&1 & :AT1 AS AN 9N] VOICE TOLD HIM1 WAS !RE=E FALSE & WRONG4 ,DUR+ ! S]VICE HE W\LD FIR/ LI/5 TO ! PRAY]S1 TRY+ TO ATTA* SOME MEAN+ TO !M NOT DISCORDANT ) HIS [N VIEWS2 !N FEEL+ ?AT HE C\LD NOT UND]/& & MU/ CONDEMN !M1 HE TRI$ NOT TO LI/5 TO !M1 BUT TO ATT5D TO ! ?\LI] ?AN USUAL1 & )\T HAV+ TEA W5T AT EI SOLDI]1 TWO OLD WOM51 & ! *UR* (FICIALS4 ,A Y\NG DEACON1 :OSE LONG BACK %[$ 9 TWO DI/9CT HALVES ?R\< HIS ?9 UND]CASSOCK1 MET HIM1 & AT ONCE GO+ TO A LITTLE TABLE AT ! WALL READ ! EXHORTATION4 ,DUR+ ! READ+1 ESPECIALLY AT ! FREQU5T & RAPID REPETITION ( ! SAME WORDS1 0,LORD1 HAVE M]CY ON US60 :I* RES\ND$ ) AN E*O1 ,LEV9 FELT ?AT ?\4 ,A MOM5T LAT] HE PEEP$ \T !NCE & BECKON$ TO ,LEV94 ,?\DS ! ALT>-RAILS4 ,HE W5T UP ! /EPS1 & TURN+ TO ! RID & WE>Y1 GOOD-NATUR$ EYES1 WAS /&+ AT ! ALT>-RAILS1 TURN+ OV] ! PAGES ( A MISSAL4 ,) A SLIR$ ON HIMSELF1 & HE CEAS$ SPEAK+4 ,! PRIE/ WAIT$ A FEW SECONDS TO SEE IF HE W\LD NOT SAY MORE1 & CLOS+ HIS EYES HE SAID QUICKLY1 ) A BROAD1 ,VLADIMIRSKY ACC5T3 0,D\BT IS NATURAL TO ! WEAKNESS ( MANK9D1 BUT WE MU/ PRAY ?AT ,GOD 9 ,HIS M]CY WILL /R5G!N US4 ,:AT >E Y\R SPECIAL S9S80 HE ADD$1 )\T ! SLIT ,I AM 9 D\BT40 0,D\BT IS NATURAL TO ! WEAKNESS ( MANK9D10 ! PRIE/ REPEAT$ ! SAME WORDS4 0,:AT DO Y\ D\BT AB\T PR9CIPALLY80 0,I D\BT ( EV]Y?+4 ,I SOMETIMES EV5 HAVE D\BTS ( ! EXI/5CE ( ,GOD10 ,LEV9 C\LD NOT HELP SAY+1 & HE WAS HORRIFI$ AT ! IMPROPRIETY ( :AT HE WAS SAY+4 ,BUT ,LEV9'S WORDS DID NOT1 IT SEEM$1 MAKE MU* IMPRESSION ON ! PRIE/4 0,:AT SORT ( D\BT CAN !RE BE ( ! EXI/5CE ( ,GOD80 HE SAID HURRI$LY1 ) A JU/ P]CEPTIBLE SMILE4 ,LEV9 DID NOT SPEAK4 0,:AT D\BT CAN Y\ HAVE ( ! ,CREATOR :5 Y\ BEHOLD ,HIS CREATION80 ! PRIE/ W5T ON 9 ! RAPID CU/OM>Y J>GON4 0,:O HAS DECK$ ! HEAV5LY FIRMAM5T ) ITS LI? 9 ITS BEAUTY8 ,H[ EXPLA9 IT )\T ! ,CREATOR80 HE SAID1 LOOK+ 9QUIR+LY AT ,LEV94 ,LEV9 FELT ?AT IT W\LD BE IMPROP] TO 5T] UPON A METAPHYSICAL DISCUSSION ) ! PRIE/1 & SO HE SAID 9 REPLY M]ELY :AT WAS A DIRECT ANSW] TO ! QUE/ION4 0,I DON'T KN[10 HE SAID4 0,Y\ DON'T KN[6 ,!N H[ CAN Y\ D\BT ?AT ,GOD CREAT$ ALL80 ! PRIE/ SAID1 ) GOOD-HUMOR$ P]PLEXITY4 0,I DON'T UND]/& IT AT ALL10 SAID ,LEV91 BLU%+1 & FEEL+ ?AT HIS WORDS W]E /UPID1 & ?AT !Y C\LD NOT BE ANY?+ BUT /UPID 9 SU* A POSITION4 0,PRAY TO ,GOD & BESEE* ,HIM4 ,EV5 ! HOLY FA!RS HAD D\BTS1 & PRAY$ TO ,GOD TO /R5G!N !IR FAI?4 ,! DEVIL HAS GREAT P[]1 & WE MU/ RESI/ HIM4 ,PRAY TO ,GOD1 BESEE* ,HIM4 ,PRAY TO ,GOD10 HE REPEAT$ HURRI$LY4 ,! PRIE/ PAUS$ = SOME TIME1 AS ?\< M$ITAT+4 0,Y\'RE AB\T1 ,I HE>1 TO M>RY ! DAUI%ION] & SON 9 ! SPIRIT1 ,PR9CE ,%T*]BATSKY80 HE RESUM$1 ) A SMILE4 0,AN EXCELL5T Y\NG LADY40 0,YES10 ANSW]$ ,LEV91 BLU%+ = ! PRIE/4 0,:AT DOES HE WANT TO ASK ME AB\T ?IS AT CONFESSION =80 HE ?\E AB\T TO 5T] 9TO HOLY MATRIMONY1 & ,GOD MAY BLESS Y\ ) (FSPR+4 ,WELL1 :AT SORT ( BR++-UP CAN Y\ GIVE Y\R BABES IF Y\ DO NOT OV]COME ! TEMPTATION ( ! DEVIL1 5TIC+ Y\ TO 9FIDELITY80 HE SAID1 ) G5TLE REPROA*FULNESS4 0,IF Y\ LOVE Y\R *ILD AS A GOOD FA!R1 Y\ WILL NOT DESIRE ONLY WEAL?1 LUXURY1 HONOR = Y\R 9FANT2 Y\ WILL BE ANXI\S = HIS SALVATION1 HIS SPIRITUAL 5LI?1 ! WAT]S1 ! SUN1 ! FL[]S1 ! GRASS8' ,CAN Y\ SAY TO HIM3 ',I DON'T KN['8 ,Y\ CANNOT BUT KN[1 S9CE ! ,LORD ,GOD 9 ,HIS 9F9ITE M]CY HAS REVEAL$ IT TO US4 ,OR Y\R *ILD WILL ASK Y\3 ',:AT AWAITS ME 9 ! LIFE BEYOND ! TOMB8' ,:AT WILL Y\ SAY TO HIM :5 Y\ KN[ NO?+8 ,H[ WILL Y\ ANSW] HIM8 ,WILL Y\ LEAVE HIM TO ! ALLUREM5TS ( ! WORLD & ! DEVIL8 ,?AT'S NOT RI1 NO ONE HAD EV] ASK$ HIM SU* QUE/IONS1 & :5 HIS BABES DID ASK HIM ?OSE QUE/IONS1 IT W\LD BE TIME 5\< TO ?9K AB\T ANSW]+ !M4 0,Y\ >E 5T]+ UPON A TIME ( LIFE10 PURSU$ ! PRIE/1 0:5 Y\ MU/ *OOSE Y\R PA? & KEEP TO IT4 ,PRAY TO ,GOD ?AT ,HE MAY 9 ,HIS M]CY AID Y\ & HAVE M]CY ON Y\60 HE CONCLUD$4 0,\R ,LORD & ,GOD1 ,JESUS ,*RI/1 9 ! ABUNDANCE & RI*ES ( ,HIS LOV+K9DNESS1 =GIVES ?IS *ILD4440 &1 F9I%+ ! PRAY] ( ABSOLUTION1 ! PRIE/ BLESS$ HIM & DISMISS$ HIM4 ,ON GETT+ HOME ?AT DAY1 ,LEV9 HAD A DELID POSITION BE+ OV] & HAV+ BE5 GOT ?R\< )\T HIS HAV+ TO TELL A LIE4 ,AP>T FROM ?IS1 !RE REMA9$ A VAGUE MEMORY ?AT :AT ! K9D1 NICE OLD FELL[ HAD SAID HAD NOT BE5 AT ALL SO /UPID AS HE HAD FANCI$ AT FIR/1 & ?AT !RE WAS SOME?+ 9 IT ?AT MU/ BE CLE>$ UP4 0,( C\RSE1 NOT N[10 ?\ & NOT CLEAN 9 HIS S\L1 & ?AT1 9 REG>D TO RELIGION1 HE WAS 9 ! SAME POSITION :I* HE P]CEIV$ SO CLE>LY & DISLIK$ 9 O!RS1 & = :I* HE BLAM$ HIS FRI5D ,SVIAZHSKY4 ,LEV9 SP5T ?AT EV5+ ) HIS BETRO!D AT ,DOLLY'S1 & WAS 9 V]Y HI< SPIRITS4 ,TO EXPLA9 TO ,/EPAN ,>KADYEVIT* ! /ATE ( EXCITEM5T 9 :I* HE F\ND HIMSELF1 HE SAID ?AT HE WAS HAPPY LIKE A DOG BE+ TRA9$ TO JUMP ?R\< A HOOP1 :O1 HAV+ AT LA/ CAUT #e1 ,*APT] #a -- ,PUBLICATION4 ,FEBRU>Y #a#d1 #bag 3 ,P>T #e1 ,*APT] #a -- ,ADD$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/