,P>T #e1 ,*APT] #b #ahggahgg ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY ,TRANSLATOR 3 ,CON/ANCE ,CL>A ,G>NETT ,TEXT 3 ,! NEXT DAY ! SICK MAN RECEIV$ ! SACRAM5T & EXTREME UNCTION4 ,DUR+ ! C]EMONY ,NIKOLAY ,LEV9 PRAY$ F]V5TLY4 ,HIS GREAT EYES1 FA/5$ ON ! HOLY IMAGE ?AT WAS SET \T ON A C>D TABLE COV]$ ) A COLOR$ NAPK91 EXPRESS$ SU* PASSIONATE PRAY] & HOPE ?AT IT WAS AWFUL TO ,LEV9 TO SEE IT4 ,LEV9 KNEW ?AT ?IS PASSIONATE PRAY] & HOPE W\LD ONLY MAKE HIM FEEL MORE BITT]LY P>T+ FROM ! LIFE HE SO LOV$4 ,LEV9 KNEW HIS BRO!R & ! WORK+S ( HIS 9TELLECT3 HE KNEW ?AT HIS UNBELIEF CAME NOT FROM LIFE BE+ EASI] = HIM )\T FAI?1 BUT HAD GR[N UP BECAUSE /EP BY /EP ! CONTEMPOR>Y SCI5TIFIC 9T]PRETATION ( NATURAL PH5OM5A CRU%$ \T ! POSSIBILITY ( FAI?2 & SO HE KNEW ?AT HIS PRES5T RETURN WAS NOT A LEGITIMATE ONE1 BR\Y1 9T]E/$ RETURN TO FAI? 9 A DESP]ATE HOPE ( RECOV]Y4 ,LEV9 KNEW TOO ?AT ,KITTY HAD /R5G!N$ HIS HOPE BY ACC\NTS ( ! M>VEL\S RECOV]IES %E HAD HE>D (4 ,LEV9 KNEW ALL ?IS2 & IT WAS AGONIZ+LY PA9FUL TO HIM TO BEHOLD ! SUPPLICAT+1 HOPEFUL EYES & ! EMACIAT$ WRI/1 LIFT$ ) DIFFICULTY1 MAK+ ! SIGN ( ! CROSS ON ! T5SE BR[1 & ! PROM95T %\LD]S & HOLL[1 GASP+ *E/1 :I* ONE C\LD NOT FEEL CONSI/5T ) ! LIFE ! SICK MAN WAS PRAY+ =4 ,DUR+ ! SACRAM5T ,LEV9 DID :AT HE1 AN UNBELIEV]1 HAD DONE A ?\S& TIMES4 ,HE SAID1 ADDRESS+ ,GOD1 0,IF ,?\ DO/ EXI/1 MAKE ?IS MAN TO RECOV]0 7( C\RSE ?IS SAME ?+ HAS BE5 REPEAT$ MANY TIMES71 0& ,?\ WILT SAVE HIM & ME40 ,AFT] EXTREME UNCTION ! SICK MAN BECAME SUDD5LY MU* BETT]4 ,HE DID NOT C\< ONCE 9 ! C\RSE ( AN H\R1 SMIL$1 KISS$ ,KITTY'S H&1 ?ANK+ H] ) TE>S1 & SAID HE WAS COM=TABLE1 FREE FROM PA91 & ?AT HE FELT /RONG & HAD AN APPETITE4 ,HE EV5 RAIS$ HIMSELF :5 HIS S\P WAS BR\FUL ( BE+ MI/AK54 0,IS HE BETT]80 0,YES1 MU*40 0,IT'S WOND]FUL40 0,!RE'S NO?+ WOND]FUL 9 IT40 0,ANYWAY1 HE'S BETT]10 !Y SAID 9 A :ISP]1 SMIL+ TO ONE ANO!R4 ,?IS SELF-DECEPTION WAS NOT ( LONG DURATION4 ,! SICK MAN FELL 9TO A QUIET SLEEP1 BUT HE WAS WAK$ UP HALF AN H\R LAT] BY HIS C\<4 ,& ALL AT ONCE EV]Y HOPE VANI%$ 9 ?OSE AB\T HIM & 9 HIMSELF4 ,! REALITY ( HIS SUFF]+ CRU%$ ALL HOPES 9 ,LEV9 & ,KITTY & 9 ! SICK MAN HIMSELF1 LEAV+ NO D\BT1 NO MEMORY EV5 ( PA/ HOPES4 ,)\T REF]R+ TO :AT HE HAD BELIEV$ 9 HALF AN H\R BE=E1 AS ?\< A%AM$ EV5 TO RECALL IT1 HE ASK$ = IOD9E TO 9HALE 9 A BOTTLE COV]$ ) P]=AT$ PAP]4 ,LEV9 GAVE HIM ! BOTTLE1 & ! SAME LOOK ( PASSIONATE HOPE ) :I* HE HAD TAK5 ! SACRAM5T WAS N[ FA/5$ ON HIS BRO!R1 DEM&+ FROM HIM ! CONFIRMATION ( ! DOCTOR'S WORDS ?AT 9HAL+ IOD9E WORK$ WOND]S4 0,IS ,KATYA NOT H]E80 HE GASP$1 LOOK+ R\ND :ILE ,LEV9 RELUCTANTLY ASS5T$ TO ! DOCTOR'S WORDS4 0,NO2 SO ,I CAN SAY IT4444 ,IT WAS = H] SAKE ,I W5T ?R\< ?AT F>CE4 ,%E'S SO SWEET2 BUT Y\ & ,I CAN'T DECEIVE \RSELVES4 ,?IS IS :AT ,I BELIEVE 910 HE SAID1 &1 SQUEEZ+ ! BOTTLE 9 HIS BONY H&1 HE BEGAN BREA?+ OV] IT4 ,AT EIYA ,NIKOLAEVNA RAN 9 TO !M BREA?LESSLY4 ,%E WAS PALE1 & H] LIPS W]E QUIV]+4 0,HE IS DY+60 %E :ISP]$4 0,I'M AFRAID WILL DIE ?IS M9UTE40 ,BO? ( !M RAN TO HIM4 ,HE WAS SITT+ RAIS$ UP ) ONE ELB[ ON ! B$1 HIS LONG BACK B5T1 & HIS HEAD HANG+ L[4 0,H[ DO Y\ FEEL80 ,LEV9 ASK$ 9 A :ISP]1 AFT] A SIL5CE4 0,I FEEL ,I'M SETT+ (F10 ,NIKOLAY SAID ) DIFFICULTY1 BUT ) EXTREME DI/9CTNESS1 SCREW+ ! WORDS \T ( HIMSELF4 ,HE DID NOT RAISE HIS HEAD1 BUT SIMPLY TURN$ HIS EYES UPW>DS1 )\T !IR REA*+ HIS BRO!R'S FACE4 0,KATYA1 GO AWAY60 HE ADD$4 ,LEV9 JUMP$ UP1 & ) A P]EMPTORY :ISP] MADE H] GO \T4 0,I'M SETT+ (F10 HE SAID AGA94 0,:Y DO Y\ ?9K SO80 SAID ,LEV91 SO AS TO SAY SOME?+4 0,BECAUSE ,I'M SETT+ (F10 HE REPEAT$1 AS ?\< HE HAD A LIK+ = ! PHRASE4 0,IT'S ! 5D40 ,M>YA ,NIKOLAEVNA W5T UP TO HIM4 0,Y\ HAD BETT] LIE D[N2 Y\'D BE EASI]10 %E SAID4 0,I %ALL LIE D[N SOON 5\<10 HE PRON\NC$ SL[LY1 0:5 ,I'M DEAD10 HE SAID S>CA/ICALLY1 WRA?FULLY4 0,WELL1 Y\ CAN LAY ME D[N IF Y\ LIKE40 ,LEV9 LAID HIS BRO!R ON HIS BACK1 SAT D[N BESIDE HIM1 & GAZ$ AT HIS FACE1 HOLD+ HIS BREA?4 ,! DY+ MAN LAY ) CLOS$ EYES1 BUT ! MUSCLES TWIT*$ FROM TIME TO TIME ON HIS =EHEAD1 AS ) ONE ?9K+ DEEPLY & 9T5SELY4 ,LEV9 9VOLUNT>ILY ?\] & CLE>] ?AT WAS /ILL AS D>K AS EV] = ,LEV94 0,YES1 YES1 SO10 ! DY+ MAN >TICULAT$ SL[LY AT 9T]VALS4 0,WAIT A LITTLE40 ,HE WAS SIL5T4 0,RIYA ,NIKOLAEVNA FELT HIS FEET4 0,!Y'RE GETT+ COLD10 %E :ISP]$4 ,= A LONG :ILE1 A V]Y LONG :ILE IT SEEM$ TO ,LEV91 ! SICK MAN LAY MOTIONLESS4 ,BUT HE WAS /ILL ALIVE1 & FROM TIME TO TIME HE SI<$4 ,LEV9 BY N[ WAS EXHAU/$ FROM M5TAL /RA94 ,HE FELT ?AT1 ) NO M5TAL EF=T1 C\LD HE UND]/& :AT IT WAS ?AT WAS RI$4 ,LEV9 GOT UP TO /OP H]4 ,BUT AT ! MOM5T HE WAS GETT+ UP1 HE CAUN$ ?AT ! SICK MAN HAD RETURN$ TO HIS E>LI] CONDITION4 ,HE HAD BEGUN SITT+ UP AGA91 C\<+1 HAD BEGUN EAT+ AGA91 TALK+ AGA91 & AGA9 HAD CEAS$ TO TALK ( DEA?1 AGA9 HAD BEGUN TO EXPRESS HOPE ( HIS RECOV]Y1 & HAD BECOME MORE IRRITABLE & MORE GLOOMY ?AN EV]4 ,NO ONE1 NEI!R HIS BRO!R NOR ,KITTY1 C\LD SOO! HIM4 ,HE WAS ANGRY ) EV]YONE1 & SAID NA/Y ?+S TO EV]YONE1 REPROA*$ EV]YONE = HIS SUFF]+S1 & 9SI/$ ?AT !Y %\LD GET HIM A CELEBRAT$ DOCTOR FROM ,MOSC[4 ,TO ALL 9QUIRIES MADE HIM AS TO H[ HE FELT1 HE MADE ! SAME ANSW] ) AN EXPRESSION ( V9DICTIVE REPROA*FULNESS1 0,I'M SUFF]+ HORRIBLY1 9TOL]ABLY60 ,! SICK MAN WAS SUFF]+ MORE & MORE1 ESPECIALLY FROM B$SORES1 :I* IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE N[ TO REM$Y1 & GREW MORE & MORE ANGRY ) EV]YONE AB\T HIM1 BLAM+ !M = EV]Y?+1 & ESPECIALLY = NOT HAV+ BR\ACT]1 & BECAUSE HE LOV$ ! DY+ MAN MORE ?AN ANYONE ELSE DID1 ,LEV9 WAS MO/ PA9FULLY CONSCI\S ( ?IS DECEIT4 ,LEV91 :O HAD LONG BE5 POSSESS$ BY ! IDEA ( RECONCIL+ HIS BRO!RS1 AT LEA/ 9 FACE ( DEA?1 HAD WRITT5 TO HIS BRO!R1 ,S]GEY ,IVANOVIT*1 & HAV+ RECEIV$ AN ANSW] FROM HIM1 HE READ ?IS LETT] TO ! SICK MAN4 ,S]GEY ,IVANOVIT* WROTE ?AT HE C\LD NOT COME HIMSELF1 & 9 T\*+ T]MS HE BEGG$ HIS BRO!R'S =GIV5ESS4 ,! SICK MAN SAID NO?+4 0,:AT AM ,I TO WRITE TO HIM80 SAID ,LEV94 0,I HOPE Y\ >E NOT ANGRY ) HIM80 0,NO1 NOT ! LEA/60 ,NIKOLAY ANSW]$1 VEX$ AT ! QUE/ION4 0,TELL HIM TO S5D ME A DOCTOR40 ,?REE MORE DAYS ( AGONY FOLL[$2 ! SICK MAN WAS /ILL 9 ! SAME CONDITION4 ,! S5SE ( LONG+ = HIS DEA? WAS FELT BY EV]YONE N[ AT ! M]E SIYA ,NIKOLAEVNA & ,LEV9 & ,KITTY4 ,! SICK MAN ALONE DID NOT EXPRESS ?IS FEEL+1 BUT ON ! CONTR>Y WAS FURI\S AT !IR NOT GETT+ HIM DOCTORS1 & W5T ON TAK+ M$IC9E & TALK+ ( LIFE4 ,ONLY AT R>E MOM5TS1 :5 ! OPIUM GAVE HIM AN 9/ANT'S RELIEF FROM ! NEV]-CEAS+ PA91 HE W\LD SOMETIMES1 HALF ASLEEP1 UTT] :AT WAS EV] MORE 9T5SE 9 HIS HE>T ?AN 9 ALL ! O!RS3 0,OH1 IF IT W]E ONLY ! 5D60 OR3 0,:5 WILL IT BE OV]80 ,HIS SUFF]+S1 /EADILY GR[+ MORE 9T5SE1 DID !IR WORK & PREP>$ HIM = DEA?4 ,!RE WAS NO POSITION 9 :I* HE WAS NOT 9 PA91 !RE WAS NOT A M9UTE 9 :I* HE WAS UNCONSCI\S ( IT1 NOT A LIMB1 NOT A P>T ( HIS BODY ?AT DID NOT A*E & CAUSE HIM AGONY4 ,EV5 ! MEMORIES1 ! IMPRESSIONS1 ! ?\KS1 HIS [N REM9ISC5CES1 EV]Y?+ WAS = HIM A S\RCE ( AGONY4 ,?OSE AB\T HIM FELT ?IS1 & 9/9CTIVELY DID NOT ALL[ !MSELVES TO MOVE FREELY1 TO TALK1 TO EXPRESS !IR WI%ES BE=E HIM4 ,ALL HIS LIFE WAS M]G$ 9 ! ONE FEEL+ ( SUFF]+ & DESIRE TO BE RID ( IT4 ,!RE WAS EVID5TLY COM+ OV] HIM ?AT REVULSION ?AT W\LD MAKE HIM LOOK UPON DEA? AS ! GOAL ( HIS DESIRES1 AS HAPP9ESS4 ,HI!RTO EA* 9DIVIDUAL DESIRE1 >\S$ BY SUFF]+ OR PRIVATION1 SU* AS HUNG]1 FATIGUE1 ?IR/1 HAD BE5 SATISFI$ BY SOME BODILY FUNCTION GIV+ PLEASURE4 ,BUT N[ NO PHYSICAL CRAV+ OR SUFF]+ RECEIV$ RELIEF1 & ! EF=T TO RELIEVE !M ONLY CAUS$ FRE% SUFF]+4 ,& SO ALL DESIRES W]E M]G$ 9 ONE--! DESIRE TO BE RID ( ALL HIS SUFF]+S & !IR S\RCE1 ! BODY4 ,BUT HE HAD NO WORDS TO EXPRESS ?IS DESIRE ( DELIV]ANCE1 & SO HE DID NOT SPEAK ( IT1 & FROM HABIT ASK$ = ! SATISFACTION ( DESIRES :I* C\LD NOT N[ BE SATISFI$4 0,TURN ME OV] ON ! O!R SIDE10 HE W\LD SAY1 & IMM$IATELY AFT] HE W\LD ASK TO BE TURN$ BACK AGA9 AS BE=E4 0,GIVE ME SOME BRO?4 ,TAKE AWAY ! BRO?4 ,TALK ( SOME?+3 :Y >E Y\ SIL5T80 ,& DIRECTLY !Y BEGAN TO TALK HE W\LD CLOSE HIS EYES1 & W\LD %[ WE>9ESS1 9DIFF]5CE1 & LOA?+4 ,ON ! T5? DAY FROM !IR >RIVAL AT ! T[N1 ,KITTY WAS UNWELL4 ,%E SUFF]$ FROM HEADA*E & SICKNESS1 & %E C\LD NOT GET UP ALL ! MORN+4 ,! DOCTOR OP9$ ?AT ! 9DISPOSITION >OSE FROM FATIGUE & EXCITEM5T1 & PRESCRIB$ RE/4 ,AFT] D9N]1 H[EV]1 ,KITTY GOT UP & W5T AS USUAL ) H] WORK TO ! SICK MAN4 ,HE LOOK$ AT H] /]NLY :5 %E CAME 91 & SMIL$ CONTEMPTU\SLY :5 %E SAID %E HAD BE5 UNWELL4 ,?AT DAY HE WAS CONT9UALLY BL[+ HIS NOSE1 & GROAN+ PITE\SLY4 0,H[ DO Y\ FEEL80 %E ASK$ HIM4 0,WORSE10 HE >TICULAT$ ) DIFFICULTY4 0,9 PA960 0,9 PA91 :]E80 0,EV]Y:]E40 0,IT WILL BE OV] TODAY1 Y\ WILL SEE10 SAID ,M>YA ,NIKOLAEVNA4 ,?\< IT WAS SAID 9 A :ISP]1 ! SICK MAN1 :OSE HE>+ ,LEV9 HAD NOTIC$ WAS V]Y KE51 MU/ HAVE HE>D4 ,LEV9 SAID HU% TO H]1 & LOOK$ R\ND AT ! SICK MAN4 ,NIKOLAY HAD HE>D2 BUT !SE WORDS PRODUC$ NO EFFECT ON HIM4 ,HIS EYES HAD /ILL ! SAME 9T5SE1 REPROA*FUL LOOK4 0,:Y DO Y\ ?9K SO80 ,LEV9 ASK$ H]1 :5 %E HAD FOLL[$ HIM 9TO ! CORRIDOR4 0,HE HAS BEGUN PICK+ AT HIMSELF10 SAID ,M>YA ,NIKOLAEVNA4 0,H[ DO Y\ MEAN80 0,LIKE ?IS10 %E SAID1 TUGG+ AT ! FOLDS ( H] WOOL5 SKIRT4 ,LEV9 NOTIC$1 9DE$1 ?AT ALL ?AT DAY ! PATI5T PULL$ AT HIMSELF1 AS IT W]E1 TRY+ TO SNAT* SOME?+ AWAY4 ,M>YA ,NIKOLAEVNA'S PR$ICTION CAME TRUE4 ,T[>DS NIYA ,NIKOLAEVNA /OOD AT ! B$SIDE4 ,! PRIE/ HAD NOT QUITE F9I%$ READ+ ! PRAY] :5 ! DY+ MAN /RET*$1 SI<$1 & OP5$ HIS EYES4 ,! PRIE/1 ON F9I%+ ! PRAY]1 PUT ! CROSS TO ! COLD =EHEAD1 !N SL[LY RETURN$ IT TO ! /&1 & AFT] /&+ = TWO M9UTES MORE 9 SIL5CE1 HE T\*$ ! HUGE1 BLOODLESS H& ?AT WAS TURN+ COLD4 0,HE IS GONE10 SAID ! PRIE/1 & W\LD HAVE MOV$ AWAY2 BUT SUDD5LY !RE WAS A FA9T /IR 9 ! MU/A*ES ( ! DEAD MAN ?AT SEEM$ GLU$ TOGE!R1 & QUITE DI/9CTLY 9 ! HU% !Y HE>D FROM ! BOTTOM ( ! *E/ ! %>PLY DEF9$ S\NDS3 0,NOT QUITE 444 SOON40 ,& A M9UTE LAT] ! FACE BRIEFULLY LAY+ \T ! CORPSE4 ,! SINESS ( DEA?1 REVIV$ 9 ,LEV9 ?AT S5SE ( HORROR 9 FACE ( ! 9SOLUBLE 5IGMA1 TOGE!R ) ! NE>NESS & 9EVITABILITY ( DEA?1 ?AT HAD COME UPON HIM ?AT AUTUMN EV5+ :5 HIS BRO!R HAD COME TO HIM4 ,?IS FEEL+ WAS N[ EV5 /RONG] ?AN BE=E2 EV5 LESS ?AN BE=E DID HE FEEL CAPABLE ( APPREH5D+ ! MEAN+ ( DEA?1 & ITS 9EVITABILITY ROSE UP BE=E HIM MORE T]RIBLE ?AN EV]4 ,BUT N[1 ?ANKS TO HIS WIFE'S PRES5CE1 ?AT FEEL+ DID NOT R$UCE HIM TO DESPAIR4 ,9 SPITE ( DEA?1 HE FELT ! NE$ ( LIFE & LOVE4 ,HE FELT ?AT LOVE SAV$ HIM FROM DESPAIR1 & ?AT ?IS LOVE1 UND] ! M5ACE ( DESPAIR1 HAD BECOME /ILL /RONG] & PUR]4 ,! ONE MY/]Y ( DEA?1 /ILL UNSOLV$1 HAD SC>CELY PASS$ BE=E HIS EYES1 :5 ANO!R MY/]Y HAD >IS51 AS 9SOLUBLE1 URG+ HIM TO LOVE & TO LIFE4 ,! DOCTOR CONFIRM$ HIS SUPPOSITIONS 9 REG>D TO ,KITTY4 ,H] 9DISPOSITION WAS A SYMPTOM ?AT %E WAS ) *ILD4 ,FROM 3 ,GUT5B]G4ORG4 ,*RONOLOGY 3 ,NOVEMB] #c1 #ahgf 3 ,P>T #e1 ,*APT] #b -- ,PUBLICATION4 ,FEBRU>Y #a#e1 #bag 3 ,P>T #e1 ,*APT] #b -- ,ADD$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/