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#aicaaica 

,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

,TEXT 3 

  

,PHOTO BY ,YANNICK ,G+RAS1,C,C ,B,Y-,S,A ,LIC5SE ,LIV+ ,MY ,LIFE 

BY ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

 ,VOLUME ONE 

,NEW ,YORK3 ,ALFR$ ,A ,KNOPF ,9C41#a#i#c#a4 

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,:5 ,I RETURN$ TO ,NEW ,YORK TWO DAYS LAT]1 HAV+ BE5 DIS*>G$ BY ! ,BALTIMORE POLICE MAGI/RATE ) A /RONG ADMONITION NEV] AGA9 TO COME BACK TO ! CITY1 A LETT] FROM ,SA%A WAS AWAIT+ ME4 ,IT WAS WRITT5 9 V]Y SMALL BUT DI/9CT SCRIPT & GAVE ! DETAILS ( ! ,MONDAY 9 C\RT4 ,HE HAD REPEAT$LY TRI$ TO LE>N ! DATE ( HIS TRIAL1 ! LETT] READ1 BUT HE C\LD NOT PROCURE ANY 9=MATION AB\T IT4 ,ON ! MORN+ ( ! #a#i? HE WAS SUDD5LY ORD]$ TO GET READY4 ,HE HAD B>ELY TIME TO GA!R UP ! %EETS ( HIS SPEE*4 ,/RANGE & ANTAGONI/IC FACES MET HIM 9 ! C\RT-ROOM4 ,9 VA9 HE /RA9$ HIS EYE = ! SI<T ( HIS FRI5DS4 ,HE REALIZ$ ?AT !Y1 TOO1 MU/ HAVE BE5 KEPT 9 IGNORANCE ( ! DAY ( ! TRIAL4 ,YET HE HOP$ AGA9/ HOPE = ! MIRACLE4 ,BUT !RE WAS NOT A FRI5DLY FACE ANY:]E4 ,HE WAS CONFRONT$ ) SIX 9DICTM5TS1 ALL MANUFACTUR$ FROM ! ONE ACT1 & AMONG !M ONE *>G+ HIM ) AN ATTEMPT ON ! LIFE ( ,JOHN ,G4 ,A4 ,LEI%MAN1 ,FRICK'S ASSI/ANT4 ,SA%A DECL>$ ?AT HE KNEW NO?+ ( ,LEI%MAN2 IT WAS ,FRICK :OM HE HAD COME TO KILL4 ,HE DEM&$ ?AT HE BE TRI$ ON ?AT *>GE ALONE1 & ?AT ! O!R 9DICTM5TS BE QUA%$1 BECAUSE !Y W]E ALL 9VOLV$ 9 ! MAJOR *>GE4 ,BUT HIS OBJECTION WAS OV]RUL$4 

,! JURORS W]E SELECT$ 9 A FEW M9UTES1 ,SA%A MAK+ NO USE ( HIS RI<T ( *ALL5GE4 ,:AT DIFF]5CE DID IT MAKE8 ,!Y W]E ALL ALIKE1 & HE W\LD BE CONVICT$ ANYH[4 ,HE DECL>$ TO ! ,C\RT ?AT HE SCORN$ TO DEF5D HIMSELF2 HE WANT$ ONLY TO EXPLA9 HIS ACT4 ,! 9T]PRET] ASSIGN$ TO HIM TRANSLAT$ HALT+LY & WRONGLY1 & AFT] SEV]AL ATTEMPTS TO CORRECT HIM ,SA%A DISCOV]$ TO HIS HORROR ?AT ! MAN WAS BL9D1 AS BL9D AS JU/ICE 9 ! ,AM]ICAN C\RTS4 ,HE !N TRI$ TO ADDRESS ! JURY 9 ,5GLI%1 BUT HE WAS IMPATI5TLY /OPP$ BY ,JUDGE ,MC,CLUNG1 :O DECL>$ ?AT 0! PRISON] HAS SAID 5\< ALREADY40 ,SA%A PROTE/$1 BUT 9 VA94 ,! ,DI/RICT ,ATTORNEY /EPP$ 9TO ! JURY-BOX & HELD A L[ CONV]SATION ) ! TALESM51 :]EUPON !Y BR\<T 9 A V]DICT ( GUILTY )\T EV5 LEAV+ !IR SEATS4 ,! ,JUDGE WAS CURT & D5UNCIATORY4 ,HE PASS$ S5T5CE ON EA* C\NT SEP>ATELY1 9CLUD+ ?REE 9DICTM5TS = 05T]+ A BUILD+ ) FELONI\S 9T5T10 GIV+ ! PRISON] ! MAXIMUM ON EA* *>GE4 ,! TOTAL AM\NT$ TO TW5TY-ONE YE>S 9 ! ,WE/]N ,P5IT5TI>Y ( ,P5NSYLVANIA1 AT ! EXPIRATION ( :I* TIME AN ADDITIONAL YE> WAS TO BE S]V$ 9 ! ,ALLE<5Y ,C\NTY ,WORKH\SE = 0C>RY+ CONCEAL$ WEAPONS40 

,TW5TY-TWO YE>S ( SL[ TORTURE & DEA?6 ,HE HAD DONE HIS DUTY1 ,SA%A'S LETT] CONCLUD$1 & N[ ! 5D HAD COME4 ,HE W\LD DEP>T AS HE HAD DET]M9$1 BY HIS [N WILL & H&4 ,HE WANT$ NO EF=T MADE 9 HIS BEHALF4 ,IT W\LD BE ( NO USE & HE C\LD NOT GIVE HIS CONS5T TO AN APPEAL TO ! 5EMY4 ,NO NE$ ( FUR!R HELP = HIM2 :ATEV] CAMPAIGN C\LD BE MADE MU/ BE = HIS ACT1 & ,I WAS TO SEE TO ?AT ,HE WAS SURE ?AT NO ONE ELSE FELT & UND]/OOD HIS MOTIVES SO WELL1 NO ONE ELSE C\LD CL>IFY ! MEAN+ ( HIS DE$ ) ! SAME CONVICTION4 ,HIS ONE DEEP LONG+ N[ WAS = ME4 ,IF HE C\LD ONLY LOOK 9TO MY EYES ONCE MORE & PRESS ME TO HIS HE>T -- BUT AS ?AT WAS D5I$ HIM1 HE W\LD KEEP ON ?9K+ ( ME1 HIS FRI5D & COMRADE4 ,NO P[] ON E>? C\LD TAKE ?AT AWAY FROM HIM4 

,I FELT ,SA%A'S SPIRIT LIFT$ ABOVE EV]Y?+ E>?LY4 ,LIKE A BRILLIANT /> IT ILLUM9$ MY [N D>K ?\<TS & BR\<T HOME TO ME ! REALIZATION ?AT !RE WAS SOME?+ GREAT] ?AN P]SONAL TIES OR EV5 LOVE3 AN ALL-EMBRAC+ DEVOTION ?AT UND]/&S ALL & GIVES ALL TO ! LA/ BREA?4 

,SA%A'S T]RIBLE S5T5CE >\S$ ,MO/ TO A VIRUL5T ATTACK ON ! C\RTS ( ,P5NSYLVANIA & ! JUDICIAL CRIM9AL :O C\LD GIVE A MAN TW5TY-TWO YE>S = AN ACT ?AT LEGALLY CALL$ = ONLY SEV54 ,HIS >TICLE 9 ! ,FREIHEIT 9CREAS$ MY BITT]NESS AGA9/ HIM1 = HAD HE NOT HELP$ TO WEAK5 ! EFFECT ( ,SA%A'S DE$8 ,I WAS C]TA9 ?AT ! 5EMY W\LD NOT HAVE D>$ TO RAILROAD ,SA%A IF !RE HAD BE5 A CONC]T$ RADICAL PROTE/ 9 HIS BEHALF4 ,I HELD ,MO/ MU* MORE RESPONSIBLE = ! 9HUMAN S5T5CE ?AN ! ,C\RT ( ! ,/ATE ( ,P5NSYLVANIA4 

,SA%A WAS BY NO MEANS )\T FRI5DS4 ,!Y PROV$ !IR LOYALTY FROM ! V]Y FIR/4 ,N[ TWO GR\PS CAME =W>D TO ORGANIZE ! CAMPAIGN = ! COMMUTATION ( HIS S5T5CE4 ,! ,EA/ ,SIDE GR\P COMPRIS$ V>I\S SOCIAL ELEM5TS1 LABOR M51 & LEAD+ ,JEWI% SOCIALI/S4 ,AMONG !M W]E ,M4 ,ZAMETK91 AN OLD ,RUSSIAN REVOLUTION>Y2 ,L\IS ,MILL]1 AN 5]GETIC & 9FLU5TIAL MAN 9 ! <ETTO2 & ,ISAAC ,H\RWIT*1 A COMP>ATIVELY REC5T >RIVAL 9 ,AM]ICA AFT] HIS EXILE 9 ,SIB]IA4 ,! LA/ WAS ESPECIALLY >D5T AS A SPOKESMAN = ,SA%A4 ,!RE WAS ALSO ,%EVIT*1 :O HAD FROM ! BEG9N+ DEF5D$ ,SA%A 9 ! ,G]MAN DAILY ,VOLKSZEITUNG1 ( :I* HE WAS $ITOR-9-*IEF4 ,\R FRI5D ,SOLOT>(F1 ,ANNIE ,NETT]1 Y\NG ,MI*AEL ,COHN1 & O!RS W]E ! MO/ ACTIVE 9 ! ,EA/ ,SIDE GR\P4 

,! MOV+ SPIRIT ( ! ,AM]ICAN GR\P WAS ,DY] ,D4 ,LUM1 A MAN ( EXCEPTIONAL ABILITIES1 A POET & WRIT] ON ECONOMIC & PHILOSOPHICAL SUBJECTS4 ,) HIM W]E ,JOHN ,$ELMAN1 ! GIFT$ >*ITECT & PUBLICI/2 ,WILLIAM ,C4 ,[51 AN ,5GLI%MAN ( LIT]>Y TAL5TS1 & ,JU/US ,S*WAB1 ! WELL-KN[N ,G]MAN AN>*I/4 

,IT WAS MO/ 5C\RAG+ TO SEE ! SPL5DID SOLID>ITY 9 ! CAUSE ( ,SA%A4 ,I KEPT HIM 9=M$ ( ! EF=TS 9 HIS BEHALF1 PA9T+ !M 9 EXAGG]AT$ COLORS TO *E] HIM4 ,BUT NO?+ SEEM$ TO AVAIL2 HE WAS 9 ! GRIP ( ! TW5TY-TWO-YE> S5T5CE4 0,IT IS NO E>?LY USE TO TRY TO DO ANY?+ = ME10 HE WROTE4 0,IT WILL TAKE YE>S TO ACCOMPLI% A COMMUTATION1 & ,I KN[ ?AT ,FRICK & ,C>NEGIE WILL NEV] CONS5T TO IT4 ,)\T !IR APPROVAL ! ,P5NSYLVANIA ,BO>D ( ,P>DONS WILL NOT ACT4 ,BESIDES1 ,I CANNOT CONT9UE = LONG 9 ?IS LIV+ TOMB40 ,HIS LETT]S W]E DISPIRIT+1 BUT ,I HELD ON GRIMLY4 ,I KNEW HIS 9DOMITABLE WILL & HIS IRON /R5G? ( *>ACT]4 ,I CLUNG T5ACI\SLY TO ! HOPE ?AT HE W\LD >\SE HIMSELF & NOT ALL[ HIMSELF TO BE CRU%$4 ,?AT HOPE ALONE GAVE ME ! C\RAGE TO GO ON4 ,I JO9$ ! NEWLY ORGANIZ$ EF=TS = HIM4 ,NI<T AFT] NI<T ,I WAS AT SOME MEET+ VOIC+ ! MEAN+ & MESSAGE ( ,SA%A'S ACT4 

,E>LY 9 ,NOVEMB] CAME ! FIR/ SIGN ( ,SA%A'S REAWAK5$ 9T]E/ 9 LIFE4 ,HIS LETT] 9=M$ ME ?AT HE MI<T HAVE ! PRIVILEGE ( A VISITOR4 ,PRISON]S W]E 5TITL$ TO ONE VISIT A MON?1 BUT ONLY FROM A NE> RELATIVE4 ,C\LD ,I GET HIS SI/] FROM ,RUSSIA TO COME TO SEE HIM8 ,I UND]/OOD :AT HE MEANT & WROTE HIM IMM$IATELY TO GET ! PASS4 

,I HAD BE5 9VIT$ BY AN>*I/ GR\PS 9 ,*ICAGO & ,/4 ,L\IS TO SPEAK AT ! APPROA*+ ANNIV]S>Y ( ! #a#a? ( ,NOVEMB] & ,I DECID$ TO COMB9E ! TRIP ) A VISIT TO ,SA%A4 ,I W\LD GO AS HIS M>RI$ SI/]1 UND] ! NAME ( ,NI$]MANN4 ,I WAS C]TA9 ?AT ! PRISON AU?ORITIES KNEW NO?+ AB\T ,SA%A'S SI/] 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,I W\LD IMP]SONATE H] & !Y W\LD NEV] SUSPECT MY ID5TITY4 ,I WAS H>DLY KN[N !N4 ,! PICTURES ( ME 9 ! PAP]S 9 CONNECTION ) ,SA%A'S ACT W]E SO UNLIKE ME ?AT NO ONE C\LD HAVE RECOGNIZ$ ME FROM !M4 ,TO SEE MY BOY AGA91 TO PRESS HIM TO MY HE>T1 TO BR+ HIM HOPE & C\RAGE -- ,I LIV$ = NO?+ ELSE DUR+ ! WEEKS & DAYS BE=E ! VISIT4 

,9 A FEV] ,I MADE MY PREP>ATIONS4 ,MY FIR/ /OP WAS TO BE ,/4 ,L\IS2 !N ,*ICAGO2 F9ALLY ,PITTSBUR<4 ,A LETT] FROM ,SA%A >RIV$ A FEW DAYS BE=E MY DEP>TURE4 ,IT CONTA9$ A PASS FROM ! ,*IEF ,PRISON ,9SPECTOR ( ! ,WE/]N ,P5IT5TI>Y = ,MRS4 ,E4 ,NI$]MANN1 SI/] ( ,PRISON] ,A-#g1 = A VISIT ON ! #b#f? ( ,NOVEMB]4 ,SA%A HAD ASK$ ME TO 9/RUCT HIS SI/] TO REMA9 9 ,PITTSBUR< TWO DAYS4 ,9 VIEW ( ! FACT ?AT %E WAS COM+ ALL ! WAY FROM ,RUSSIA TO SEE HIM1 ! ,9SPECTOR HAD PROMIS$ HIM A SECOND VISIT4 ,I WAS WILD ) JOY1 IMPATI5T ( EV]Y H\R ?AT KEPT ME FROM HIM4 ,! PASS = MY VISIT BECAME MY AMULET4 ,I W\LD NOT P>T ) IT = A MOM5T4 

,I >RIV$ 9 ,PITTSBUR< E>LY ON ! MORN+ ( ,?ANKSGIV+ ,DAY4 ,I WAS MET BY ,C>L ,NOLD & ,MAX ,METZK[1 ! LATT] A ,G]MAN COMRADE :O HAD FAI?FULLY /OOD BY ,SA%A4 ,NOLD & ,BAU] W]E \T ON BAIL AWAIT+ TRIAL 0= COMPLICITY 9 ! ATTEMPT ON ,FRICK'S LIFE40 ,I HAD BE5 9 CORRESPOND5CE ) ,C>L = SOME TIME & ,I WAS GLAD ( ! OPPORTUNITY TO MEET ! Y\NG COMRADE :O HAD BE5 K9D TO ,SA%A4 ,HE WAS ( SMALL /ATURE1 FRAIL1 ) 9TELLIG5T EYES & A %OCK ( BLACK HAIR4 ,WE GREET$ EA* O!R LIKE OLD FRI5DS4 

,9 ! AFT]NOON ,I W5T \T TO ,ALLE<5Y1 ACCOMPANI$ BY ,METZK[4 ,IT WAS DECID$ ?AT ,NOLD %\LD /AY AWAY2 HE WAS (T5 FOLL[$ BY DETECTIVES & WE W]E AFRAID ?AT MY ID5TITY MI<T BE DISCOV]$ BE=E ,I HAD A *ANCE TO GET 9SIDE ! PRISON4 ,NOT F> FROM ! P5IT5TI>Y ,METZK[ REMA9$ TO AWAIT MY RETURN4 

,! GRAY /ONE BUILD+1 ! HI< =BIDD+ WALLS1 ! >M$ GU>DS1 ! OPPRESSIVE SIL5CE 9 ! HALL :]E ,I WAS TOLD TO WAIT1 & ! M9UTES CREEP+ 9TO 5DLESS TIME SETTL$ ON MY HE>T ) ! WEI<T ( A NI<TM>E4 ,9 VA9 ,I TRI$ TO %AKE MYSELF FREE4 ,AT LA/ A H>% VOICE CALL$3 0,?IS WAY1 ,MRS4 ,NI$]MANN40 ,I WAS TAK5 ?R\< SEV]AL IRON DOORS1 ALONG TWI/+ CORRIDORS1 9TO A SMALL ROOM4 ,SA%A WAS !RE1 A TALL GU>D BESIDE HIM4 

,MY FIR/ IMPULSE WAS TO RU% UP TO HIM & COV] HIM ) KISSES1 BUT ! PRES5CE ( ! GU>D *ECK$ ME4 ,SA%A APPROA*$ ME & PUT HIS >MS >\ND ME4 ,AS HE B5T OV] TO KISS ME1 ,I FELT A SMALL OBJECT PASS 9TO MY M\?4 

,= WEEKS ,I HAD BE5 LOOK+ =W>D EAG]LY1 ANXI\SLY TO ?IS VISIT4 ,A ?\S& TIMES ,I HAD GONE OV] 9 MY M9D ALL ,I W\LD SAY TO HIM ( MY LOVE & UNDY+ DEVOTION1 ( ! /RUGGLE ,I WAS MAK+ = HIS RELEASE1 BUT ALL ,I C\LD DO WAS TO PRESS HIS H& & LOOK 9TO HIS EYES4 

,WE BEGAN TO SPEAK 9 \R BELOV$ ,RUSSIAN1 BUT WE W]E /OPP$ IMM$IATELY BY ! COLD COMM& ( ! GU>D3 0,TALK ,5GLI%4 ,NO =EIGN LANGUAGES H]E40 ,HIS LYNX-LIKE EYES FOLL[$ \R EV]Y MOVEM5T1 WAT*$ \R LIPS1 CREPT 9TO \R V]Y M9DS4 ,I BECAME TONGUE-TI$1 NUMB 9 EV]Y N]VE4 ,SA%A1 TOO1 WAS MUTE2 HIS F+]S KEPT ON PLAY+ ) MY WAT*-*A9 & HE SEEM$ TO HOLD ON TO IT AS A DR[N+ MAN TO A /RAW4 ,NEI!R ( US C\LD UTT] A WORD1 BUT \R EYES SPOKE TO EA* O!R -- ( \R FE>S1 \R HOPES1 \R YE>N+S4 

,! VISIT LA/$ TW5TY M9UTES4 ,ANO!R EMBRACE1 ANO!R T\* ( \R LIPS1 & \R 0TIME WAS UP40 ,I :ISP]$ TO HIM TO HOLD ON1 TO HOLD \T1 & !N ,I F\ND MYSELF ON ! PRISON /EPS ,! IRON GATE CLATT]$ %UT BEH9D ME4 

,I WANT$ TO SCREAM1 TO ?R[ MY WEI<T AGA9/ ! DOOR1 TO P\ND IT ) MY FI/S4 ,BUT ! GATE />$ BACK AT ME & MOCK$4 ,I WALK$ ALONG ! FRONT ( ! PRISON & 9TO ! /REET4 ,I WALK$1 SIL5TLY WEEP+1 T[>DS ! SPOT :]E ,I HAD LEFT ,METZK[4 ,HIS PRES5CE BR\<T ME BACK TO REALITY & MADE ME CONSCI\S ( ! OBJECT ,SA%A HAD GIV5 ME ) HIS KISS4 ,I TOOK IT \T ( MY M\? -- A SMALL ROLL ,I TI<TLY WRAPP$4 ,WE W5T 9TO ! BACK ROOM ( A SALOON & ,I UNW\ND ! SEV]AL LAY]S ( PAP]4 ,AT LA/ APPE>$ A NOTE ) ,SA%A'S DIM9UTIVE H&WRIT+1 EA* WORD /&+ \T LIKE A PE>L BE=E ME4 0,Y\ MU/ GO TO ,9SPECTOR ,RE$10 IT READ2 0HE PROMIS$ ME A SECOND PASS4 ,GO TO HIS JEWELRY %OP TOMORR[4 ,I AM C\NT+ ON Y\4 ,I'LL GIVE Y\ ANO!R MESSAGE ( IMPORTANCE -- ! SAME WAY40 

,I W5T TO ,RE$'S /ORE ! NEXT DAY4 ,I LOOK$ %ABBY 9 MY ?READB>E COAT AMID ! SP>KL+ JEWELRY1 SILV]1 & GOLD4 ,I ASK$ TO SEE ,MR4 ,RE$4 ,HE WAS A TALL1 EMACIAT$1 ?9-LIPP$ CREATURE1 ) H>D & PI]C+ EYES4 ,NO SOON] HAD ,I GIV5 MY NAME ?AN HE EXCLAIM$3 0,SO ?IS IS ,B]KMAN'S SI/]60 ,YES1 HE HAD PROMIS$ HIM A SECOND VISIT1 ?\< HE DID NOT DES]VE ANY K9DNESS4 ,B]KMAN WAS A MURD]]1 HE HAD TRI$ TO KILL A GOOD ,*RI/IAN MAN4 ,I HELD ON TO MYSELF BY %E] =CE2 MY *ANCE TO SEE ,SA%A AGA9 WAS AT /AKE4 ,HE W\LD CALL UP ! PRISON1 ,RE$ CONT9U$1 TO F9D \T AT :AT TIME ,I C\LD BE ADMITT$4 ,I WAS TO RETURN 9 AN H\R4 

,MY HE>T SANK4 ,I HAD A DI/9CT PREMONITION ?AT !RE W\LD BE NO MORE VISITS = ,SA%A4 ,BUT ,I CAME BACK AS DIRECT$4 ,AS SOON AS ,MR4 ,RE$ SAW ME1 HIS FACE TURN$ PURPLE & HE FAIRLY LEAP$ AT ME4 0,Y\ DECEIV]60 HE YELL$4 0,Y\ HAVE ALREADY BE5 AT ! P5IT5TI>Y6 ,Y\ SNEAK$ 9 UND] A FALSE NAME AS HIS SI/]4 ,Y\ DON'T GET AWAY ) SU* LIES H]E -- Y\ HAVE BE5 RECOGNIZ$ BY A GU>D6 ,Y\ >E ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN1 ?AT CRIM9AL'S MI/RESS6 ,!RE WILL BE NO MORE VISITS4 ,Y\ MI<T AS WELL MAKE UP Y\R M9D AB\T IT -- ,B]KMAN WILL NEV] GET \T ALIVE60 

,HE HAD GONE BEH9D ! GLASS C\NT]1 :I* WAS COV]$ ) ,SILV]W>E4 ,9 MY 9DIGNATION & RAGE ,I SWEPT EV]Y?+ TO ! FLOOR PLATES1 C(FEE-POTS & PIT*]S1 JEWELRY & WAT*ES4 ,I SEIZ$ A HEAVY TRAY & WAS AB\T TO ?R[ IT AT HIM :5 ,I WAS PULL$ BACK BY ONE ( ! CL]KS1 :O %\T$ TO SOMEONE TO RUN = ! POLICE4 ,RE$1 :ITE ) FE> & FRO?+ AT ! M\?1 SIGNAL$ TO ! CL]K4 0,NO POLICE10 ,I HE>D HIM SAY2 0NO SC&AL4 ,JU/ KICK H] \T40 ,! CL]K ADVANC$ T[>DS ME1 !N /OPP$4 0,MURD]]1 C[>D60 ,I CRI$2 0IF Y\ H>M ,B]KMAN1 ,I WILL KILL Y\ ) MY [N H&S60 

,NO ONE MOV$4 ,I WALK$ \T & BO>D$ A /REET-C>4 ,I MADE SURE ( NOT BE+ FOLL[$ BE=E RETURN+ TO ,METZK['S HOME4 ,9 ! EV5+1 :5 HE CAME BACK ) ,NOLD FROM WORK1 ,I TOLD !M :AT HAD HAPP5$4 ,!Y W]E AL>M$4 ,!Y REGRETT$ ?AT ,I HAD LO/ CONTROL ( MYSELF1 BECAUSE IT W\LD REACT ON ,SA%A4 ,!Y AGRE$ ?AT ,I W\LD HAVE TO GET \T ( ,PITTSBUR< AT ONCE4 ,! ,9SPECTOR MI<T PUT DETECTIVES ON MY TRAIL & HAVE ME >RE/$4 ,! ,P5NSYLVANIA AU?ORITIES HAD BE5 TRY+ TO GET ME EV] S9CE ,SA%A'S ACT4 

,I WAS %OCK$ BY ! ?\<T ?AT ,SA%A MI<T 9DE$ HAVE TO SUFF] AS A RESULT ( MY \TBREAK4 ,BUT ! ?REAT ( ! ,9SPECTOR ?AT ,SA%A W\LD NEV] COME \T ( PRISON ALIVE HAD BE5 TOO MU* = ME4 ,I WAS SURE ,SA%A W\LD UND]/&4 

,! NI<T WAS BLACK AS ,I WALK$ ) ,NOLD TO ! /ATION TO TAKE ! TRA9 = ,NEW ,YORK4 ,! /EEL-F\NDRIES BEL*$ HUGE FLAMES ?AT REFLECT$ ! ,ALLE<5Y HILLS BLOOD-R$ & FILL$ ! AIR ) SOOT & SMOKE4 ,WE MADE \R WAY PA/ ! %$S :]E HUMAN BE+S1 HALF MAN1 HALF BEA/1 W]E WORK+ LIKE ! GALLEY-SLAVES ( AN ]A LONG PA/4 ,!IR NAK$ BODIES1 COV]$ ONLY ) SMALL TRUNKS1 %ONE LIKE COPP] 9 ! GL>E ( ! R$-HOT *UNKS ( IRON !Y W]E SNAT*+ FROM ! M\?S ( ! FLAM+ MON/]S4 ,FROM TIME TO TIME ! /EAM RIS+ FROM ! WAT] ?R[N ON ! HOT METAL W\LD COMPLETELY 5VELOP ! M52 !N !Y W\LD EM]GE AGA9 LIKE %AD[S4 0,! *ILDR5 ( HELL10 ,I SAID1 0DAMN$ TO ! EV]LA/+ 9F]NO ( HEAT & NOISE40 ,SA%A HAD GIV5 HIS LIFE TO BR+ JOY TO !SE SLAVES1 BUT !Y HAD REMA9$ BL9D & CONT9U$ 9 ! HELL ( !IR [N =G+4 0,!IR S\LS >E DEAD1 DEAD TO ! HORROR & DEGRADATION ( !IR LIVES40 

,C>L RELAT$ TO ME :AT HE KNEW AB\T ,SA%A 9 HIS ,PITTSBUR< DAYS4 ,IT WAS TRUE ?AT ,H5RY ,BAU] HAD SUSPECT$ ,SA%A4 ,H5RY WAS A FANATICAL FOLL[] ( ,MO/1 :O HAD W>N$ HIM AGA9/ US AS R5EGADES1 TELL+ HIM ?AT WE HAD ALLI$ \RSELVES ) 0?AT SPY ,PEUK]T40 ,:5 ,SA%A >RIV$ AT ! HEI<T ( ! ,HOME/EAD TR\BLE1 ,BAU] WAS ALREADY PREJUDIC$ AGA9/ HIM4 ,H5RY HAD CONFID$ TO ,NOLD ?AT HE W\LD EXAM9E ,SA%A'S BAG :ILE HE WAS ASLEEP & ?AT IF HE F\ND ANY?+ 9CRIM9AT+1 HE W\LD KILL ,SA%A4 ,) LOAD$ GUN ,BAU] HAD SLEPT 9 ! SAME ROOM ) ,SA%A1 AL]T = ANY SUSPICI\S MOVEM5T & READY TO %OOT4 ,NOLD HAD BE5 SO IMPRESS$ ) ,SA%A BY HIS OP5 C\NT5ANCE & DIRECTNESS ?AT HE C\LD NOT POSSIBLY SUSPECT HIM4 ,HE HAD AGRE$ ) ,BAU]1 TRY+ TO CONV9CE HIM ?AT ,MO/ WAS UNFAIR & PREJUDIC$ AGA9/ EV]YONE :O DISAGRE$ ) HIM4 ,C>L NO LONG] BELIEV$ SO IMPLICITLY 9 ,HANNES4 

,C>L'S /ORY FILL$ ME ) HORROR4 ,:AT IF ,SA%A HAD HAPP5$ TO HAVE SOME?+ 9 HIS BAG ?AT ,BAU] MI<T HAVE TAK5 AS JU/IFY+ HIS SUSPICIONS6 ,5\< = ! BL9D ,MO/-WOR%IP] TO %OOT HIM6 ,& ,MO/1 TO :AT DEP?S HIS HATR$ ( ,SA%A HAD DRIV5 HIM1 TO :AT DESPICABLE ME?ODS6 ,:AT WAS !RE 9 HUMAN PASSION ?AT =C$ M5 TO SU* L5G?S8 ,MY [N1 = 9/ANCE1 ?AT COMPELL$ ME TO HORSE:IP ,MO/1 TO HATE HIM N[ AS HE HAD ALWAYS HAT$ ,SA%A1 TO HATE ! MAN ,I HAD ONCE LOV$1 ! MAN :O HAD BE5 MY IDEAL4 ,IT WAS ALL SO PA9FULLY DI/URB+1 SO FRI<TFUL4 ,I C\LD NOT GRASP IT4 

,( HIS [N TRIAL ,C>L SPOKE LI<TLY4 ,HE W\LD EV5 WELCOME A FEW YE>S 9 PRISON TO BE NE> ,SA%A1 TO HELP HIM BE> HIS HEAVY ORDEAL4 ,FAI?FUL ,C>L6 ,HIS TRU/ 9 ,SA%A & HIS FAI? BR\<T ME CLOSE TO HIM1 MADE HIM V]Y DE>4 

,F> 9 ! DI/ANCE1 AS ! TRA9 SP$ ON1 ,I C\LD /ILL SEE ! BEL*+ FLAMES %OOT AGA9/ ! BLACK SKY1 LI<T+ UP ! HILLS ( ,ALLE<5Y4 ,ALLE<5Y1 :I* HELD :AT WAS MO/ PRECI\S TO ME IMMUR$ P]HAPS = EV]6 ,I HAD PLANN$ ! ,ATT5TAT TOGE!R ) HIM2 ,I HAD LET HIM GO ALONE2 ,I HAD APPROV$ ( HIS DECISION TO HAVE NO LAWY]4 ,I /ROVE TO %AKE (F ! CONSCI\SNESS ( GUILT1 BUT IT W\LD GIVE ME NO RE/ UNTIL ,I F\ND =GETFULNESS 9 SLEEP4 

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