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#aicaaica 

,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

,TEXT 3 

  

,PHOTO BY ,DAVID1,C,C ,B,Y ,LIC5SE ,LIV+ ,MY ,LIFE 

BY ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

,VOLUME ,ONE 

,NEW ,YORK3 ,ALFR$ ,A ,KNOPF ,9C41 #a#i#c#a4 

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,! W> MADNESS 9 5GL& WAS SO GREAT1 SOME ( ! COMRADES 9=M$ ME1 ?AT IT W\LD BE ALMO/ IMPOSSIBLE TO DELIV] MY LECTURES AS HAD BE5 PLANN$4 ,H>RY ,KELLEY WAS ( ! SAME OP9ION4 0,:Y NOT HOLD ANTI-W> MASS MEET+S80 ,I SUGGE/$4 ,I REF]R$ TO ! SPL5DID GA!R+S WE HAD 9 ,AM]ICA DUR+ ! ,SPANI% ,W>4 ,N[ & !N !RE HAD BE5 ATTEMPTS AT 9T]F]5CE1 & SEV]AL LECTURES HAD TO BE GIV5 UP1 BUT ON ! :OLE WE HAD BE5 ABLE TO C>RY ?R\< \R CAMPAIGN4 ,H>RY ?\<T1 H[EV]1 ?AT IT W\LD BE IMPOSSIBLE 9 ,5GL&4 ,HIS DESCRIPTION ( VIOL5T ATTACKS ON SPEAK]S 7! J+O SPIRIT BE+ AT ITS HEI<T7 & ( MEET+S BE+ BROK5 UP BY PATRIOTIC MOBS S\ND$ DISC\RAG+4 ,HE WAS SURE IT W\LD BE EV5 MORE DANG]\S = ME1 A =EIGN]1 TO SPEAK ON ! W>4 ,I WAS 9 FAVOR ( TRY+ IT1 ANYH[4 ,I SIMPLY C\LD NOT BE 9 ,5GL& & KEEP SIL5T ON ! MATT]4 ,DID NOT ,GREAT ,BRITA9 BELIEVE 9 FREE SPEE*8 0,M9D Y\10 HE W>N$ ME1 0IT IS NOT ! AU?ORITIES :O 9T]F]E ) MEET+S1 AS 9 ,AM]ICA2 IT IS ! MOB ITSELF1 BO? RI* & POOR40 ,I 9SI/$1 NEV]!LESS1 ON MAK+ AN ATTEMPT4 ,H>RY PROMIS$ TO CONSULT ! O!R COMRADES AB\T IT4 

,AT ! 9VITATION ( ! ,KROPOTK9S ,I W5T \T ) ,M>Y ,ISSAC TO ,BROMLEY4 ,?IS TIME ,MRS4 ,KROPOTK9 & H] LITTLE DAU<T]1 ,SA%A1 W]E AT HOME4 ,BO? ,PET] & ,SOPHIA ,GRIGOREVNA RECEIV$ US ) AFFECTIONATE CORDIALITY4 ,WE DISCUSS$ ,AM]ICA1 \R MOVEM5T !RE1 & CONDITIONS 9 ,5GL&4 ,PET] HAD VISIT$ ! ,/ATES 9 #a#h#i#h1 BUT ,I WAS AT ! TIME ON ! ,COA/ & UNABLE TO ATT5D HIS LECTURES4 ,I KNEW1 H[EV]1 ?AT HIS T\R HAD BE5 V]Y SUCCESSFUL & ?AT HE HAD LEFT A MO/ GRATIFY+ IMPRESSION4 ,! PROCE$S ( HIS MEET+S HAD HELP$ TO REVIVE ,SOLID>ITY & 9JECT NEW LIFE 9TO \R MOVEM5T4 ,PET] WAS P>TICUL>LY 9T]E/$ 9 MY T\RS ?R\< ! ,MIDDLE ,WE/ & ,CALI=NIA4 0,IT MU/ BE A SPL5DID FIELD10 HE REM>K$1 0IF Y\ CAN COV] ! SAME GR\ND ?REE TIMES 9 SUCCESSION40 ,I ASSURE HIM ?AT IT WAS1 & ?AT MU* ( ! CR$IT = MY SUCCESS 9 ,CALI=NIA HAD BE5 DUE TO ,FREE ,SOCIETY4 0,! PAP] IS DO+ SPL5DID WORK10 HE W>MLY AGRE$1 0BUT IT W\LD DO MORE IF IT W\LD NOT WA/E SO MU* SPACE DISCUSS+ SEX40 ,I DISAGRE$1 & WE BECAME 9VOLV$ 9 A HEAT$ >GUM5T AB\T ! PLACE ( ! SEX PROBLEM 9 AN>*I/ PROPAG&A4 ,PET]'S VIEW WAS ?AT WOMAN'S EQUALITY ) MAN HAD NO?+ TO DO ) SEX2 IT WAS A MATT] ( BRA9S4 0,:5 %E IS HIS EQUAL 9TELLECTUALLY & %>ES 9 HIS SOCIAL IDEALS10 HE SAID1 0%E WILL BE AS FREE AS HE40 ,WE BO? GOT SOME:AT EXCIT$1 & \R VOICES MU/ HAVE S\ND$ AS IF WE W]E QU>REL+4 ,SOPHIA1 QUIETLY SEW+ A DRESS = H] DAU<T]1 TRI$ SEV]AL TIMES TO DIRECT \R TALK 9TO LESS VOCIF]\S *ANNELS1 BUT 9 VA94 ,PET] & ,I PAC$ ! ROOM 9 GR[+ AGITATION1 EA* /R5U\SLY UPHOLD+ HIS SIDE ( ! QUE/ION4 ,AT LA/ ,I PAUS$ ) ! REM>K3 0,ALL RI<T1 DE> COMRADE1 :5 ,I HAVE REA*$ Y\R AGE1 ! SEX QUE/ION MAY NO LONG] BE ( IMPORTANCE TO ME4 ,BUT IT IS N[1 & IT IS A TREM5D\S FACTOR = ?\S&S1 MILLIONS EV51 ( Y\NG PEOPLE40 ,PET] /OPP$ %ORT1 AN AMUS$ SMILE LI<T+ UP HIS K9DLY FACE4 0,FANCY1 ,I DIDN'T ?9K ( ?AT10 HE REPLI$4 0,P]HAPS Y\ >E RI<T1 AFT] ALL40 ,HE BEAM$ AFFECTIONATELY UPON ME1 ) A HUMOR\S TW9KLE 9 HIS EYE4 

,DUR+ D9N] ,I BROA*$ ! PLAN = ! ANTI-W> MEET+S4 ,PET] WAS EV5 MORE EMPHATIC ?AN ,H>RY HAD BE54 ,IT WAS \T ( ! QUE/ION1 HE ?\<T2 IT W\LD 5DANG] MY LIFE2 MOREOV]1 BECAUSE ,I WAS A ,RUSSIAN1 MY /& ON ! W> W\LD UNFAVORABLY AFFECT ! /ATUS ( ! ,RUSSIAN REFUGEES4 0,I'M NOT H]E AS A ,RUSSIAN1 BUT AS AN ,AM]ICAN10 ,I PROTE/$4 0,MOREOV]1 :AT DO !SE CONSID]ATIONS MATT] :5 SU* A VITAL ISSUE AS W> IS 9VOLV$80 ,PET] PO9T$ \T ?AT IT MATT]$ V]Y MU* TO PEOPLE :O HAD DEA? OR ,SIB]IA />+ !M 9 ! FACE4 ,HE 9SI/$1 NEV]!LESS1 ?AT ,5GL& WAS /ILL ! ONLY ASYLUM 9 ,EUROPE = POLITICAL REFUGEES & ?AT ITS HOSPITALITY %\LD NOT BE =FEIT$ BY MEET+S4 

,MY FIR/ PUBLIC APPE>ANCE 9 ,LONDON1 9 ! ,A!NEUM ,HALL1 WAS A DISMAL FAILURE4 ,I HAD CAU<T A SEV]E COLD ?AT AFFECT$ MY ?ROAT SO ?AT MY SPEAK+ WAS PA9FUL NOT ONLY TO MYSELF BUT TO ! AUDI5CE AS WELL4 ,I C\LD H>DLY BE HE>D4 ,NO LESS DI/RESS+ WAS MY N]V\SNESS :5 ,I LE>N$ ?AT ! MO/ DI/+UI%$ ,RUSSIAN REFUGEES & SOME NOT$ ,5GLI%M5 HAD COME TO HE> ME4 ,! NAMES ( ?OSE ,RUSSIANS HAD ALWAYS SYMBOLIZ$ TO ME ALL ?AT WAS H]OIC 9 ! /RUGGLE AGA9/ ! CZ>S4 ,! ?\<T ( !IR PRES5CE FILL$ ME ) AWE4 ,:AT C\LD ,I SAY TO SU* M51 & H[ SAY IT8 

,H>RY ,KELLY ACT$ AS *AIRMAN1 /RAI<TWAY PROCE$+ TO TELL ! AUDI5CE ?AT HIS COMRADE ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN1 :O HAD FAC$ SQUADRONS ( POLICE 9 ,AM]ICA1 HAD JU/ CONFID$ TO HIM ?AT %E WAS PANICKY BE=E ?IS ASSEMBLY4 ,! LATT] ?\<T IT A GOOD JOKE & LAU<$ HE>TILY4 ,9W>DLY ,I RAG$ AT ,H>RY1 BUT ! GOOD HUMOR ( ! AUDI5CE & ITS EVID5T DESIRE TO PUT ME AT MY EASE SOME:AT RELIEV$ MY N]V\S T5SION4 ,I PLODD$ ?R\< MY LECTURE1 AW>E ALL ! TIME ?AT ,I WAS DELIV]+ A ROTT5 SPEE*4 ,! QUE/IONS ?AT FOLL[$1 H[EV]1 GAVE ME BACK MY SELF-POSSESSION4 ,I FELT MORE 9 MY ELEM5T1 & ,I DID NOT C>E ANY MORE :O WAS PRES5T4 ,I REGA9$ MY ORD9>Y DET]M9$ & AGGRESSIVE MANN]4 

,MY MEET+S 9 ! ,EA/ ,5D (F]$ NO DIFFICULTIES4 ,!RE ,I WAS AMONG MY PEOPLE2 ,I KNEW !IR LIVES1 H>D & B>R5 EV]Y:]E1 BUT MORE SO 9 ,LONDON4 ,I WAS ABLE TO F9D ! RI<T WORDS TO REA* !M2 ,I WAS MY [N SELF 9 !IR MID/4 ,MY NE>] COMRADES W]E A W>M & G5IAL LOT4 ,! MOV+ SPIRIT ( ! WORK 9 ! ,EA/ ,5D WAS ,RUDOLPH ,ROCK]1 A Y\NG ,G]MAN1 :O PRES5T$ ! PECULI> PH5OM5ON ( A ,G5TILE $ITOR ( A ,YIDDI% PAP]4 ,HE HAD NOT ASSOCIAT$ MU* ) ,JEWS UNTIL HE CAME TO ,5GL&4 ,9 ORD] TO FIT HIMSELF ! BETT] = HIS ACTIVITIES 9 ! <ETTO1 HE HAD LIV$ AMONG ! ,JEWS & MA/]$ !IR LANGUAGE4 ,AS $ITOR ( ! ,>BEIT] ,FREUND & BY HIS BRILLIANT LECTURES ,RUDOLPH ,ROCK] WAS DO+ MORE = ! $UCATION & REVOLUTIONIZ+ ( ! ,JEWS 9 ,5GL& ?AN ! ABLE/ MEMB]S ( !IR [N RACE4 

,! SAME GOOD-FELL[%IP :I* PREVAIL$ AMONG MY ,JEWI% COMRADES WAS EVID5T ALSO 9 ! ,5GLI% AN>*I/ CIRCLES1 ESPECIALLY 9 ! GR\P ?AT PUBLI%$ ,FRE$OM4 ,?AT MON?LY HAD GA!R$ AB\T IT A COT]IE ( ABLE CONTRIBUTORS & WORK]S :O COOP]AT$ MO/ H>MONI\SLY4 ,IT WAS A JOY TO F9D ?+S GO+ SO WELL1 TO MEET ! DE> OLD FRI5DS & MAKE SO MANY NEW ONES4 

,AT A SOCIAL EV5+ AT ! ,KROPOTK9S'1 ,I MET A NUMB] ( ILLU/RI\S PEOPLE1 AMONG !M ,NIKOLAI ,T*AIKOVSKY4 ,HE HAD BE5 ! G5IUS ( ! REVOLUTION>Y MOVEM5T ( ! ,RUSSIAN Y\? 9 ! SEV5TIES ?AT CRY/ALLIZ$ 9 ! FAM\S CIRCLES BE>+ HIS NAME4 ,IT WAS A GREAT EV5T TO MEET ! MAN :O WAS TO ME ! P]SONIFICATION ( EV]Y?+ ?AT WAS 9SPIR+ 9 ! EMANCIPATION MOVEM5T ( ,RUSSIA4 ,HE WAS ( MAGNIFIC5T PHYSIQUE & IDEALI/IC APPE>ANCE1 A P]SONALITY ?AT C\LD EASILY APPEAL TO Y\NG & EAG] S\LS4 ,T*AIKOVSKY WAS SURR\ND$ BY FRI5DS1 BUT AFT] A :ILE HE CAME OV] TO ! CORN] :]E ,I WAS SITT+ & 5GAG$ ME 9 CONV]SATION4 ,PET] HAD TOLD HIM ?AT ,I 9T5D$ TO /UDY M$IC9E4 ,H[ DID ,I PROPOSE TO DO IT & GO ON ) MY ACTIVITIES AT ! SAME TIME1 HE WOND]$4 ,I EXPLA9$ ?AT ,I PLANN$ TO COME TO ,5GL& = LECTURES1 DUR+ ! SUMM]1 P]HAPS EV5 GO TO ,AM]ICA2 9 ANY CASE ,I DID NOT ?9K ( GIV+ UP ! MOVEM5T ALTOGE!R4 0,UNLESS Y\ DO ?AT10 HE SAID1 0Y\'LL BE A BAD DOCTOR2 & IF Y\ >E 9 E>NE/ AB\T Y\R PR(ESSION1 Y\'LL BECOME A BAD PROPAG&I/4 ,Y\ CAN'T DO BO?40 ,HE ADVIS$ ME TO ?9K IT OV] BE=E UND]TAK+ SOME?+ ?AT WAS SURE TO DE/ROY MY USEFULNESS 9 ! MOVEM5T4 ,HIS WORDS DI/URB$ ME4 ,I WAS CONFID5T ?AT ,I C\LD DO BO? ?+S IF ,I WAS DET]M9$ 5\< & CONT9U$ ) MY SOCIAL 9T]E/S4 ,BUT SOMEH[ HE HAD SUCCE$$ 9 PUTT+ D\BT 9TO MY M9D4 ,I BEGAN TO QUE/ION MYSELF2 DID ,I REALLY WANT TO TAKE FIVE YE>S \T ( MY LIFE TO GA9 A DOCTOR'S DEGREE8 

,BE=E LONG1 ,H>RY ,KELLY CAME TO 9=M ME ?AT SOME ( ! COMRADES HAD AGRE$ TO >RANGE AN ANTI-W> MEET+ & ?AT /EPS W\LD BE TAK5 TO 5SURE SECURITY4 ,!IR PLAN WAS TO BR+ A SCORE ( M5 FROM ,CANN+ ,T[N1 A SUBURB KN[N = ! FI<T+ SPIRIT & /R5G? ( ITS M54 ,!Y W\LD PROTECT ! PLAT=M & PREV5T A POSSIBLE RU% ( ! J+OES4 ,TOM ,MANN1 ! LABOR MAN :O HAD PLAY$ A LEAD+ P>T 9 ! REC5T DOCK]S' /RIKE1 W\LD BE ASK$ TO PRESIDE4 ,I %\LD HAVE TO BE SMUGGL$ 9TO ! HALL BE=E ! PATRIOTS C\LD HAVE A *ANCE TO DO ANY?+1 ,H>RY EXPLA9$4 ,T*AIKOVSKY WAS TO ATT5D TO ?AT4 

,ON ! APPO9T$ DAY1 ACCOMPANI$ BY MY ESCORT1 ,I REA*$ ,S\? ,PLACE ,9/ITUTE A FEW H\RS BE=E ! CR[D BEGAN TO GA!R4 ,V]Y SOON ! HALL WAS FILL$4 ,:5 ,TOM ,MANN /EPP$ ON TO ! PLAT=M1 !RE WAS L\D BOO+1 :I* DR[N$ ! APPLAUSE ( \R FRI5DS4 ,= A TIME ! SITUATION LOOK$ HOPELESS1 BUT ,TOM WAS AN EXP]I5C$ SPEAK]1 SKILL$ 9 ! H&L+ ( CR[DS4 ,! AUDI5CE SOON SUBSID$4 ,:5 ,I MADE MY APPE>ANCE1 H[EV]1 ! PATRIOTS GOT \T ( LEA% AGA94 ,SEV]AL TRI$ TO GET ON ! PLAT=M1 BUT ! ,CANN+ ,T[N M5 HELD !M BACK4 ,I /OOD SIL5T = SOME MOM5TS1 NOT KN[+ JU/ H[ TO APPROA* ! 9FURIAT$ ,BRITI%]S4 ,I WAS C]TA9 ,I C\LD A*IEVE NO?+ BY ! DIRECT & BLUNT MANN] ?AT HAD 9V>IABLY SUCCE$$ ) MY ,AM]ICAN AUDI5CES4 ,SOME?+ DIFF]5T WAS NE$$1 SOME?+ ?AT W\LD T\* !IR PRIDE4 ,MY VISIT 9 #ahie & MY EXP]I5CES ?IS TIME HAD TAU<T ME TO KN[ ! PRIDE ( ,5GLI%MAN 9 !IR TRADITIONS4 0,M5 & WOM5 ( ,5GL&60 ,I %\T$ ABOVE ! D91 0,I HAVE COME H]E 9 ! FIRM BELIEF ?AT PEOPLE :OSE HI/ORY IS SUR*>G$ ) ! SPIRIT ( REBELLION & :OSE G5IUS 9 EV]Y FIELD IS A %9+ /> UPON ! FIRMAM5T ( ! WORLD CAN BE NAU<T BUT LIB]TY- & JU/ICE-LOV+4 ,NAY1 MORE1 ! IMMORTAL WORKS ( ,%AKESPE>E1 ,MILTON1 ,BYRON1 ,%ELLEY1 & ,KEATS1 TO M5TION ONLY ! GREATE/ 9 ! GALAXY ( POETS & DREAM]S ( Y\R C\NTRY1 MU/ NE$S HAVE 5L>G$ Y\R VISION & QUICK5$ Y\R APPRECIATION ( :AT IS ! MO/ PRECI\S H]ITAGE ( A TRULY CULTIVAT$ PEOPLE2 ,I MEAN ! RACE ( HOSPITALITY & A G5]\S ATTITUDE T[>DS ! /RANG] 9 Y\R MID/40 

,COMPLETE SIL5CE 9 ! HALL4 

0,Y\R BEHAVIOR TONI<T H>DLY SU/A9S MY BELIEF 9 ! SUP]IOR CULTURE & BRE$+ ( Y\R C\NTRY10 ,I W5T ON2 0OR IS IT ?AT ! FURY ( W> HAS SO EASILY DE/ROY$ :AT IT HAS TAK5 C5TURIES TO BUILD UP8 ,IF ?AT IS SO1 IT %\LD BE 5\< TO REPUDIATE W>4 ,:O IS !RE :O W\LD SUP9ELY SIT BY :5 :AT IS BE/ & HI<E/ 9 A PEOPLE IS BE+ ?ROTTL$ BE=E HIS V]Y EYES8 ,C]TA9LY NOT Y\R ,%ELLEY1 :OSE SONG WAS ( LIB]TY & REVOLT4 ,C]TA9LY NOT Y\R ,BYRON1 :OSE S\L C\LD F9D NO PEACE :5 ! GREATNESS ( ,GREECE WAS 5DANG]$4 ,NOT !Y1 NOT !Y6 ,& Y\1 >E Y\ SO =GETFUL ( Y\R PA/1 IS !RE NO E*O 9 Y\R S\L ( Y\R POETS' SONGS1 Y\R DREAM]S' DREAMS1 Y\R REBELS' CALLS80 

,SIL5CE CONT9U$1 MY HE>]S APP>5TLY BEWILD]$ BY ! UNEXPECT$ TURN ( MY SPEE*1 DUMBF\ND$ BY ! HI<-S\ND+ WORDS & COMPELL+ GE/URES4 ,! AUDI5CE BECAME ABSORB$ 9 MY TALK1 C>RI$ TO A PIT* ( 5?USIASM :I* F9ALLY BROKE =? 9 L\D APPLAUSE4 ,AFT] ?AT IT WAS EASY SAIL+4 ,I DELIV]$ MY LECTURE ON ,W> & ,PATRIOTISM AS ,I HAD GIV5 IT ALL ?R\< ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES1 M]ELY *ANG+ ! P>TS ?AT HAD DEALT ) ! CAUSES ( ! ,SPANI%-,AM]ICAN HO/ILITIES TO ?OSE BEH9D ! ,ANGLO-,BO] ,W>4 ,I CONCLUD$ ) ! GI/ ( ,C>LYLE'S IDEA ( W> AS A QU>REL BETWE5 TWO ?IEVES1 !MSELVES TOO C[>DLY TO FI<T1 COMPELL+ BOYS ( ONE VILLAGE & ANO!R 9TO UNI=MS ) GUNS 9 !IR H&S & !N LETT+ !M LOOSE LIKE F]OCI\S BEA/S AGA9/ EA* O!R4 

,! H\SE W5T WILD4 ,M5 & WOM5 WAV$ !IR HATS & %\T$ !MSELVES HO>SE 9 APPROVAL4 ,\R RESOLUTION1 A P[]FUL PROTE/ AGA9/ ! W>1 WAS READ BY ! ,*AIR & ADOPT$ ) ONLY ONE DISS5T+ VOICE1 ,I B[$ 9 ! DIRECTION ( ! OBJECTOR & SAID 0,!RE IS :AT ,I CALL A BRAVE MAN :O DES]VES \R ADMIRATION4 ,IT REQUIRES GREAT C\RAGE TO /& ALONE1 EV5 IF ONE IS MI/AK54 ,LET US ALL JO9 9 HE>TY APPLAUSE = \R D>+ OPPON5T40 

,EV5 \R GU>D FROM ,CANN+ ,T[N C\LD NO LONG] HOLD BACK ! SURG+ CR[D4 ,BUT !RE WAS NO DANG] ANY MORE4 ,! AUDI5CE HAD TURN$ FROM FI]CE ANTAGONISM TO EQUALLY BURN+ DEVOTION1 READY TO PROTECT ME TO ! LA/ DROP ( ITS BLOOD4 ,9 ! COMMITTEE ROOM ,T*AIKOVSKY1 :O HAD JO9$ 9 5?USIA/IC DEMON/RATION1 WAV+ HIS HAT LIKE AN EXCIT$ Y\NG/]1 EMBRAC$ ME1 PRAIS+ MY MA/]Y ( ! SITUATION4 0,I AM AFRAID ,I WAS SOME:AT ( A HYPOCRITE10 ,I REM>K$4 0,ALL DIPLOMATS >E10 HE REPLI$1 0BUT DIPLOMACY IS NECESS>Y AT TIMES40 

,MY FIR/ MAIL FROM ,AM]ICA CONTA9$ LETT]S FROM ,YEGOR1 ,$1 & ,]IC ,MORTON4 ,MY BRO!R WROTE ?AT ,$ HAD S\<T HIM \T ! DAY AFT] MY DEP>TURE & HAD BEGG$ HIM TO COME BACK TO ! H\SE1 AS HE C\LD NOT BE> ! LONEL9ESS4 0,Y\ KN[1 MY DE> ,*AVELE1 ,I ALWAYS LIK$ ,$10 HIS LETT] READ2 0,I SIMPLY C\LDN'T REFUSE1 & SO ,I W5T BACK4 ,TWO WEEKS LAT] ,$ BR\<T SOME WOMAN 9TO ! AP>TM5T & %E HAS BE5 !RE EV] S9CE4 ,IT MADE ME SICK TO SEE H] AMONG Y\R ?+S1 9 ! ATMOSPH]E Y\ HAD CREAT$4 ,?AT'S :Y ,I MOV$ \T AGA940 ,$ HAD ASK$ ,YEGOR TO TAKE ! FURNITURE1 BOOKS1 & O!R ?+S ?AT BELONG$ TO ME1 BUT HE C\LD NOT DO IT3 HE FELT TOO UNHAPPY OV] ! :OLE MATT]4 ,$ HAD CONSOL$ HIMSELF QUICKLY1 ,I REFLECT$4 ,WELL1 :Y NOT8 ,I WOND]$ :O ! WOMAN WAS4 

,$'S LETT] CONTA9$ NO M5TION ( ! NEW RELATION%IP 9 HIS LIFE4 ,HE M]ELY 9QUIR$ :AT HE %\LD DO ) MY ?+S4 ,HE WAS PLANN+ TO MOVE UP-T[N1 HE WROTE1 & HE DID NOT WANT TO TAKE :AT HE HAD ALWAYS CONSID]$ M9E4 ,I CABL$ HIM ?AT ,I WANT$ NO?+ BUT MY BOOKS & ASK$ HIM TO PACK !M 9 A BOX & /ORE IT ) ,JU/US4 

,]IC WROTE 9 HIS USUAL JOVIAL WAY4 ,ALL WAS WELL ) \R PLANS4 ,A H\SE HAD BE5 R5T$1 & HE WAS GO+ TO MOVE 9TO IT ) HIS FRI5D ,K4 ,!Y W]E EXPECT+ A /R5U\S ORDEAL1 BECAUSE ,K 0WAS PREP>+ = H] =?COM+ CONC]T40 ,!Y HAD ALREADY HIR$ A PIANO SO %E C\LD PRACTICE1 & HE W\LD BE BUSY ) HIS 9V5TION4 ,! MONEY ,I HAD LEFT HIM W\LD COV] ! TRIP ( HIMSELF & ,K TO ,PITTSBUR< & KEEP !M GO+ = A TIME4 0,AS TO \R 5G9E]1 ,T1 HE SEEMS TO SUFF] FROM SELF-IMPORTANCE1 BUT HE WILL DO4 ,EV]Y?+ ELSE :5 WE MEET 9 ,P>IS TO CELEBRATE MY 9V5TION40 

,I WAS AMUS$ AT ! MANN] 9 :I* ,]IC HAD WORD$ HIS LETT]1 ) A VIEW TO SAFETY1 ( C\RSE4 ,BUT EV5 ,I WAS PUZZL$ BY SOME ( ITS CONT5TS4 ,K WAS NO D\BT ,K9SELLA1 HIS FRI5D1 :OM ,I HAD MET 9 ,*ICAGO4 ,BUT :AT ON E>? DID HE MEAN BY A CONC]T & A PIANO8 ,I KNEW ! WOMAN HAD A GOOD VOICE & WAS ALSO A TRA9$ PIANI/1 BUT :AT W\LD %E DO ) !SE TAL5TS 9 ! H\SE FROM :I* ! TUNNEL WAS TO BE DUG8 ,! 05G9E]0 WAS APP>5TLY 0,TONY40 ,EVID5TLY HE HAD %[N UP AT LA/1 BUT IT WAS OBVI\S ?AT ,]IC DID NOT LIKE HIM4 ,I HOP$ ?AT !Y C\LD GET ALONG UNTIL ! PROJECT WAS COMPLET$4 ,I MU/ WRITE DE> ,]IC1 ,I DECID$1 TO BE V]Y1 V]Y PATI5T4 

,DUR+ MY ,LONDON /AY ,I ALSO SPOKE AT A ,G]MAN MEET+ >RANG$ BY COMRADES ( ! ,AUTONOMIE ,CLUB4 ,9 ! DISCUSSION ,I WAS ATTACK$ BY A Y\NG ,G]MAN4 0,:AT DOES ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN KN[ AB\T ! LIFE ( ! WORK]S1 ANYWAY80 MY OPPON5T DEM&$2 0%E NEV] WORK$ 9 A FACTORY & %E'S JU/ LIKE ! O!R AGITATORS1 HAV+ A GOOD TIME1 TRAVEL+ R\ND & 5JOY+ H]SELF4 ,WE1 ! PROLET>IANS1 WE ( ! BLUE BL\SE1 >E ! ONLY ONES :O HAVE A RI<T TO TALK AB\T ! SUFF]+ ( ! MASSES40 ,IT WAS OBVI\S ?AT ! BOY KNEW NO?+ AB\T ME1 NOR DID ,I F9D IT NECESS>Y TO 5LI<T5 HIM ON MY WORK 9 FACTORIES & MY KN[L$GE ( ! LIVES ( ! PEOPLE4 ,BUT ,I WAS 9TRIGU$ BY HIS REF]5CE TO ! BLUE BL\SE4 ,:AT C\LD ?AT SIGNIFY1 ,I WOND]$4 

,AFT] ! MEET+ TWO M5 ( AB\T MY [N AGE CAME UP TO SEE ME4 ,!Y BEGG$ ME NOT TO HOLD ALL ! COMRADES RESPONSIBLE = ! /UPID ATTACK ( ! Y\?4 ,!Y KNEW HIM WELL2 HE WAS DO+ NO?+ 9 ! MOVEM5T EXCEPT BOA/ ( HIS PROLET>IAN TRADE M>K1 ! BLUE BL\SE4 ,9 ! E>LY P]IOD ( ! MOVEM5T1 ! M5 EXPLA9$1 ! ,G]MAN 9TELLIG5TSIA BEGAN TO WE> ! BLUE BL\SE ( ! WORK]S1 P>TLY 9 PROTE/ AGA9/ CONV5TIONAL & =MAL ATTIRE1 BUT MORE ESPECIALLY TO BE ABLE TO APPROA* ! MASSES MORE EASILY4 ,S9CE !N SOME *>LATANS 9 ! SOCIAL MOVEM5T HAD US$ ?AT MODE ( DRESS+ AS A SIGN ( !IR ADH]5CE TO /RICT REVOLUTION>Y PR9CIPLES4 0,& ALSO BECAUSE !Y HAV5'T A :ITE %IRT10 ! D>K-LOOK+ MAN PUT 91 0OR BECAUSE !Y DON'T HAVE TO WA% !IR NECKS SO (T540 ,I LAU<$ HE>TILY & ASK$ HIM :Y HE WAS SO V9DICTIVE4 0,BECAUSE ,I CAN'T BE> %AM60 ! MAN REPLI$ ALMO/ GRUFFLY4 ,! TWO 9TRODUC$ !MSELVES AS ,HIPPOLYTE ,HAVEL & ,X1 ! =M] A ,CZE*1 ! LATT] A ,G]MAN4 ,X SOON EXCUS$ HIMSELF1 & ,HAVEL ASK$ ME TO TAKE D9N] ) HIM4 

,MY ESCORT WAS ( SMALL /ATURE1 V]Y D>K1 ) L>GE EYES GLEAM+ 9 HIS PALE FACE4 ,HE WAS DRESS$ FA/IDI\SLY1 EV5 TO ! PO9T ( GLOVES1 :I* NO M5 9 \R RANKS WORE4 ,IT /RUCK ME AS D&YI%1 ESPECIALLY 9 A REVOLUTIONI/4 ,9 ! RE/AURANT ,I NOTIC$ ?AT ,HAVEL TOOK (F ONLY ONE GLOVE1 KEEP+ ! O!R ON ALL ?R\< ! MEAL4 ,I WAS ON ! PO9T ( ASK+ HIM ! REASON1 BUT HE SEEM$ SO SELF-CONSCI\S ?AT ,I DID NOT WI% TO EMB>RASS HIM4 ,AFT] A FEW GLASSES ( W9E HE BECAME MORE ANIMAT$1 TALK+ 9 N]V\S /ACCATO S5T5CES4 ,HE HAD COME TO ,LONDON FROM ,ZURI*1 HE TOLD ME1 & ?\< NOT LONG 9 ! CITY1 HE KNEW IT WELL & W\LD BE HAPPY TO TAKE ME AB\T4 ,IT W\LD HAVE TO BE ,SUNDAY AFT]NOON1 OR LATE 9 ! EV5+1 HIS ONLY FREE TIME4 

,HIPPOLYTE ,HAVEL PROV$ TO BE A V]ITABLE 5CYCLOP$IA4 ,HE KNEW EV]YBODY & EV]Y?+ 9 ! MOVEM5T ( ! V>I\S ,EUROPEAN C\NTRIES4 ,I DETECT$ BITT]NESS 9 HIS TONE :5 HE SPOKE ( C]TA9 COMRADES 9 ! ,AUTONOMIE ,CLUB4 ,IT AFFECT$ ME UNPLEASANTLY1 BUT ON ! :OLE HE WAS EXCE$+LY 5T]TA9+4 ,IT WAS ALREADY TOO LATE TO CAT* A BUS1 & ,HAVEL HAIL$ A CAB TO TAKE ME HOME4 ,:5 ,I (F]$ TO PAY ! DRIV]1 HE BECAME 9C5S$4 0,JU/ LIKE AN ,AM]ICAN1 FLAUNT+ Y\R MONEY6 ,I'M WORK+1 & ,I CAN AF=D TO PAY60 HE PROTE/$4 ,I V5TUR$ TO SUGGE/ ?AT = AN AN>*I/ HE WAS /RANGELY CONV5TIONAL TO OBJECT TO A WOMAN'S RI<T TO PAY4 ,HAVEL SMIL$ = ! FIR/ TIME DUR+ ! :OLE EV5+1 & ,I C\LD NOT HELP NOTIC+ ?AT HE HAD BEAUTIFUL :ITE TEE?4 ,:5 ,I %OOK HIS H&1 /ILL 5CAS$ 9 ! GLOVE1 HE GAVE A SUPPRESS$ GROAN4 0,:AT IS IT80 ,I ASK$4 0,OH1 NO?+10 HE REPLI$1 0BUT = A LITTLE LADY Y\ DO HAVE A /RONG GRIP40 

,!RE WAS SOME?+ /RANGE & EXOTIC AB\T ! MAN4 ,HE WAS EVID5TLY V]Y N]V\S & UNG5]\S 9 HIS E/IMATE ( PEOPLE1 ,/ILL1 HE WAS FASC9AT+1 EV5 DI/URB+4 

,MY ,CZE* COMRADE CAME FREQU5TLY1 SOMETIMES ) HIS FRI5D1 BUT USUALLY ALONE4 ,HE WAS F> FROM GAY COMPANY2 9 FACT1 HE RA!R DEPRESS$ ME4 ,UNLESS HE HAD DRUNK A LITTLE1 IT WAS DIFFICULT TO GET HIM TO CONV]SE2 AT O!R TIMES HE SEEM$ TONGUE-TI$4 ,GRADUALLY ,I LE>N$ ?AT HE HAD COME 9TO ! MOVEM5T :5 ONLY EI<TE5 & ?AT HE HAD BE5 9 PRISON SEV]AL TIMES1 ONCE = A T]M ( EI<TE5 MON?S4 ,ON ! LA/ OCCASION HE HAD BE5 S5T TO ! PSY*OPA?IC W>D1 ON :]E HE MI<T HAVE REMA9$ HAD HE NOT >\S$ ! 9T]E/ ( ,PR(ESSOR ,KRAFFT-,EB+1 :O DECL>$ HIM SANE & HELP$ HIM BACK TO FRE$OM4 ,HE HAD BE5 ACTIVE 9 ,VI5NA & EXPELL$ FROM !RE1 AFT] :I* HE HAD TRAMP$ ?R\< ,G]MANY1 LECTUR+ & WRIT+ = AN>*I/ PUBLICATIONS4 ,HE HAD VISIT$ ,P>IS1 BUT WAS NOT ALL[$ TO REMA9 !RE LONG1 BE+ EXPELL$4 ,F9ALLY HE HAD GONE TO ,ZURI* & !NCE TO ,LONDON4 ,AS HE HAD NO TRADE1 HE WAS COMPELL$ TO ACCEPT ANY K9D ( JOB4 ,AT ! TIME1 HE WAS WORK+ 9 AN ,5GLI% BO>D+-H\SE AS AN ALL-R\ND MAN4 ,HIS DUTIES BEGAN AT FIVE 9 ! MORN+ & CONSI/$ 9 LI<T+ ! FIRES1 CLEAN+ ! BOOTS ( ! GUE/S1 WA%+ DI%ES1 & DO+ O!R K9DS ( 0DEGRAD+ & HUMILIAT+ WORK40 0,BUT :Y DEGRAD+8 ,LABOR IS NEV] DEGRAD+0 ,I PROTE/$4 0,LABOR1 AS IT IS N[1 IS ALWAYS DEGRAD+60 HE 9SI/$ VEHEM5TLY2 09 AN ,5GLI% BO>D+-H\SE IT IS EV5 WORSE2 IT IS AN \TRAGE ON ALL HUMAN S5SIBILITIES1 BESIDES ! DRUDG]Y IT 9VOLVES4 ,LOOK AT MY H&S60 ,) A N]V\S J]K HE TORE (F HIS GLOVE & ! B&AGE UND]NEA?4 ,HIS H&1 R$ & SWOLL51 WAS A MASS ( BLI/]S4 0,H[ DID IT HAPP51 & H[ CAN Y\ KEEP ON WORK+80 ,I ASK$4 0,I GOT IT FROM CLEAN+ FIL?Y BOOTS 9 ! E>LY MORN+ *ILL & C>RY+ COALS & WOOD TO KEEP ! FIRES GO+4 ,:AT ELSE CAN ,I DO )\T A TRADE 9 A =EIGN C\NTRY8 ,I MI<T />VE1 S9K 9TO ! GUTT]1 OR 5D 9 ! ,?AMES10 HE ADD$4 0,BUT ,I'M NOT JU/ READY = IT4 ,BESIDES1 ,I'M ONLY ONE ( ! MANY ?\S&S2 :Y FUSS AB\T IT8 ,LET'S TALK AB\T MORE *E]FUL ?+S40 ,HE CONT9U$ CONV]S+1 BUT ,I H>DLY HE>D :AT HE SAID4 ,I TOOK HIS POOR BLI/]$ H&1 CONSCI\S ( AN IRRESI/IBLE DESIRE TO PUT IT TO MY LIPS1 9 9F9ITE SYMPA?Y & T5D]NESS4 

,WE W5T AB\T TOGE!R A GOOD DEAL1 VISIT+ ! POOR QU>T]S1 ,:ITE*APEL & SIMIL> DI/RICTS4 ,ON WEEK-DAYS ! /REETS W]E LITT]$ ) F\L RUBBI%1 & ! SMELL ( FRI$ FI% WAS NAUSEAT+4 ,ON ,SATURDAY NI<TS ! SPECTACLE WAS EV5 MORE H>R[+4 ,I HAD SE5 DRUNK5 WOM5 ON ! ,B[]Y1 OLD SOCIAL DREGS1 !IR SCRAGGY HAIR LOOSE1 !IR 9CONGRU\S HATS TILT$ TO ONE SIDE & SKIRTS SWEEP+ ! SIDEWALK4 0,BUMM]KES10 ! ,JEWI% *ILDR5 CALL$ !M4 ,IT US$ TO MAKE ME FURI\S TO SEE ! ?\<TLESS Y\NG/]S TAUNT & *ASE ?OSE POOR D]ELICTS4 ,BUT NO?+ COMP>$ 9 BRUTALITY & DEGRADATION ) ! SI<TS ,I WITNESS$ 9 ! ,EA/ ,5D ( ,LONDON3 DRUNK5 WOM5 LUR*+ \T ( ! PUBLIC H\SES1 US+ ! VILE/ LANGUAGE & FI<T+ UNTIL !Y W\LD LIT]ALLY TE> ! CLO!S (F ONE ANO!R4 ,SMALL BOYS & GIRLS HANG+ R\ND ! DR9K+-PLACES 9 SLEET & COLD1 9FANTS 9 DILAPIDAT$ C>RIAGES 9 A /UPOR FROM ! :ISKEY-SOAK$ 0SUCK]S10 ! ELD] *ILDR5 KEEP+ WAT* & GRE$ILY DR9K+ ! ALE !IR P>5TS W\LD BR+ \T TO !M FROM TIME TO TIME4 ,TOO (T5 ,I SAW SU* PICTURES1 MORE T]RIBLE ?AN ANY CONCEIV$ BY ,DANTE4 ,EV]Y TIME1 FILL$ ) RAGE1 DISGU/1 & %AME1 ,I W\LD PROMISE MYSELF NEV] TO GO BACK TO ! ,EA/ ,5D1 YET ,I W\LD 9V>IABLY RETURN4 ,:5 ,I BROA*$ ! SITUATION TO SOME ( MY COMRADES1 !Y ?\<T ME OV]WR\<T4 ,SU* CONDITIONS EXI/$ 9 EV]Y L>GE CITY1 !Y CLAIM$2 IT WAS CAPITALISM ) ITS RESULTANT SORDIDNESS4 ,:Y %\LD ,I FEEL MORE DI/URB$ 9 ,LONDON ?AN ANY:]E ELSE8 

,GRADUALLY ,I BEGAN TO REALIZE ?AT ! PLEASURE ,I F\ND 9 ,HAVEL'S COMPANY WAS DUE TO MORE ?AN ORD9>Y COMRADE%IP4 ,LOVE WAS MAK+ ITS CLAIMS AGA91 DAILY MORE 9SI/5T4 ,I WAS AFRAID ( IT1 AFRAID ( ! NEW PA91 ! NEW DISAPPO9TM5TS 9 /ORE4 ,YET MY NE$ ( IT 9 ! DISMAL SURR\ND+S WAS /RONG] ?AN MY APPREH5SIONS4 ,HAVEL1 TOO1 C>$ = ME4 ,HE HAD GR[N MORE TIMID1 MORE RE/LESS & FIDGETY4 ,HE HAD BE5 9 ! HABIT ( COM+ TO SEE ME ALONE1 BUT ONE EV5+ HE VISIT$ ME ) HIS FRI5D1 :O REMA9$ = H\RS & %[$ NO 9T5TION ( LEAV+4 ,I SUSPECT$ ?AT ,HAVEL HAD BR\<T HIM BECAUSE HE DID NOT TRU/ HIMSELF TO BE ALONE ) ME1 & ?AT ONLY 9CREAS$ MY YE>N+4 ,F9ALLY1 LONG AFT] MIDNI<T1 HIS FRI5D LEFT4 ,NO SOON] WAS HE GONE ?AN WE F\ND \RSELVES1 H>DLY CONSCI\S H[1 9 EA* O!R'S EMBRACE4 ,LONDON REC$$1 ! CRY ( ! ,EA/ ,5D WAS F> AWAY4 ,ONLY ! CALL ( LOVE S\ND$ 9 \R HE>TS1 & WE LI/5$ & YIELD$ TO IT4 

,I FELT REBORN ) ! NEW JOY 9 MY LIFE4 ,WE W\LD GO TOGE!R TO ,P>IS & LAT] TO ,SWITZ]L&1 WE DECID$4 ,HIPPOLYTE ALSO WANT$ TO /UDY & WE PLANN$ TO LIVE V]Y FRUGALLY ON ?IRTY DOLL>S A MON?1 T5 \T ( MY =TY GO+ TO MY BRO!R4 ,HIPPOLYTE ?\<T HE C\LD E>N A LITTLE ) >TICLES1 BUT WE W\LD NOT M9D IF WE %\LD HAVE TO =GO SOME COM=TS4 ,WE HAD EA* O!R & \R LOVE4 ,BUT IT WAS FIR/ NECESS>Y TO 9DUCE MY SWEE!>T TO GIVE UP HIS DREADFUL JOB4 ,I WANT$ HIM TO HAVE A MON?'S RE/ FROM HIS BO>D+-H\SE GR9D4 ,IT TOOK CONSID]ABLE >GUM5T TO P]SUADE HIM1 BUT TWO WEEKS AWAY FROM CLEAN+ FIL?Y BOOTS RAIS$ HIS SPIRITS SO MU* ?AT HE SEEM$ A DIFF]5T BE+4 

,ONE AFT]NOON WE CALL$ ON ! ,KROPOTK9S4 ,HIPPOLYTE WAS A GREAT ADMIR] ( ! ,G5OSS5S*AFTS-,BEWEGUNG1 A COOP]ATIVE MOVEM5T MORE ADVANC$1 AS HE BELIEV$1 ?AN ! ,BRITI%4 ,HE SOON GOT 9TO HEAT$ DISCUSSION ) ,PET]1 :O DID NOT SEE ANY P>TICUL> M]IT 9 ! ,G]MAN EXP]IM5T4 ,I HAD NOTIC$ ON PREVI\S OCCASIONS ?AT ,HIPPOLYTE C\LD NOT HOLD HIS [N 9 AN >GUM5T4 ,HE W\LD GR[ IRRITABLE & FREQU5TLY BECOME P]SONAL4 ,HE TRI$ TO AVOID IT ) ,PET]1 BUT1 ! DISCUSSION PRES5TLY GETT+ BEYOND HIS CONTROL1 HE BROKE (F SUDD5LY & BECAME OPPRESSIVELY SIL5T4 ,KROPOTK9 WAS UNPLEASANTLY IMPRESS$1 &1 ON ! PRETEXT ( HAV+ WORK TO DO1 ,I MADE HA/E TO LEAVE4 ,ON ! /REET HE BEGAN TO ABUSE ,PET]1 D5\NC+ HIM AS ! 0POPE ( ! AN>*I/ MOVEM5T10 :O C\LD NOT TOL]ATE A DISS5T+ OP9ION4 ,I FELT \TRAG$ & WE EX*ANG$ HOT WORDS4 ,BY ! TIME WE REA*$ MY ROOM WE REALIZ$ H[ *ILDI% IT WAS TO ALL[ \R TEMP]S TO BECL\D \R Y\NG LOVE4 

,ACCOMPANI$ BY ,HIPPOLYTE1 ,I ATT5D$ ! ,RUSSIAN ,NEW ,YE> VET*]9KA1 :I* PROV$ A GREAT EV5T = ME4 ,!RE ,I MET SOME ( ! \T/&+ P]SONALITIES ( ! ,RUSSIAN COLONY1 AMONG !M ,I4 ,GOLD5B]G1 ) :OM ,I HAD WORK$ 9 ,NEW ,YORK 9 ! CAMPAIGN AGA9/ ! ,RUSSIAN-,AM]ICAN ,EXTRADITION ,TREATY2 ,E4 ,S]EBRIAKOV1 WELL KN[N = HIS REVOLUTION>Y ACTIVITIES2 ,V4 ,T*]KES(F1 A PROM95T !ORETICIAN ( AN>*ISM1 AS WELL AS ,T*AIKOVSKY & ,KROPOTK94 ,ALMO/ EV]YONE PRES5T HAD A RECORD ( H]OIC EF=T1 ( YE>S ( PRISON & EXILE4 ,AMONG ?OSE PRES5T WAS ALSO ,MI*AEL ,HAMB\RG1 ) HIS SONS ,M>K1 ,BORIS1 & ,JAN1 ALREADY PROMIS+ MUSICIANS4 

,! AFFAIR WAS MORE S$ATE ?AN SIMIL> GA!R+S 9 ,NEW ,YORK4 ,S]I\S PROBLEMS W]E DISCUSS$1 ONLY ! Y\NG] PEOPLE C>+ TO DANCE4 ,LAT] 9 ! EV5+ ,PET] 5T]TA9$ US AT ! PIANO1 :ILE ,T*]KES(F SWUNG TWELVE-YE>-OLD ,SA%A ,KROPOTK9 R\ND ! FLOOR1 !IR EXAMPLE FOLL[$ BY SOME ( ! O!RS4 ,T*AIKOVSKY1 T[]+ HI< ABOVE ME1 B[$ COMICALLY :5 HE ASK$ ME TO DANCE4 ,IT WAS A MEMORABLE EV5+ 

,9 ,GLASG[1 ! FIR/ /OP ON MY ,SCOTTI% T\R1 ! MEET+S HAD BE5 >RANG$ BY \R GOOD COMRADE ,BLAIR ,SMI?1 :O WAS ALSO MY HO/4 ,EV]YBODY WAS V]Y K9D & FRI5DLY TO ME1 BUT ! CITY ITSELF PROV$ A NI<TM>E1 9 SOME RESPECTS EV5 WORSE ?AN ,LONDON4 ,ON A ,SATURDAY NI<T1 RETURN+ HOME ON ! TRAMWAY1 ,I C\NT$ SEV5 *ILDR5 ON ! /REET1 DIRTY & UND]N\RI%$1 /AGG]+ ALONG ) !IR MO!RS1 ALL UND] ! 9FLU5CE ( DR9K4 

,$9BUR< WAS A TREAT AFT] ,GLASG[1 SPACI\S1 CLEAN1 & ATTRACTIVE1 ) POV]TY NOT SO OBVI\S4 ,IT WAS !RE ,I FIR/ MET ,TOM ,BELL1 ( :OSE PROPAG&I/IC ZEAL & D>+ WE HAD HE>D MU* 9 ,AM]ICA4 ,AMONG HIS EXPLOITS WAS A FREE-SPEE* EXP]IM5T HE HAD MADE :ILE 9 ,P>IS4 ,HE HAD URG$ ! ,FR5* AN>*I/S TO MAKE A /& = OP5-AIR MEET+S1 ON ! ,5GLI% PLAN1 BUT ! ,P>IS COMRADES CONSID]$ SU* AN ATTEMPT IMPOSSIBLE4 ,TOM DECID$ TO DEMON/RATE ?AT IT WAS FEASIBLE TO SPEAK 9 ! OP5 REG>DLESS ( ! POLICE4 

,HE DI/RIBUT$ H&BILLS ANN\NC+ ?AT ON ! FOLL[+ ,SUNDAY AFT]NOON HE W\LD1 ON HIS [N RESPONSIBILITY1 HOLD AN OP5-AIR MEET+ AT ! ,PLACE DE LA ,REPUBLIQUE1 ONE ( ! BUSY C5T]S ( ,P>IS4 ,:5 HE REA*$ ! SQU>E AT ! APPO9T$ TIME1 !RE WAS A GREAT CR[D WAIT+4 ,AS HE MADE HIS WAY TO ! C5T] ( ! ,PLACE1 SEV]AL POLICE AG5TS APPROA*$ HIM4 ,NOT SURE :E!R HE WAS ! ANN\NC$ SPEAK]1 !Y HESITAT$ A MOM5T4 ,TOM HAD PICK$ \T HIS LAMP-PO/1 ONE ) A BIG ORNAM5TAL BASE HALF-WAY UP & A CROSS-PIECE AT ! TOP4 ,JU/ AS ! POLICE /EPP$ UP TO HIM1 HE SPRANG UP ! PO/4 ,HIS FEET W]E FIRM ON ! BASE1 & 9 A SECOND HIS WRI/ WAS *A9$ TO ! CROSS-PIECE4 ,HE HAD SECUR$ BY A PADLOCK A /RONG /EEL *A9 R\ND HIS WRI/1 & N[ HE QUICKLY :IPP$ ! TWO 5DS R\ND ! CROSS-PIECE & FA/5$ !M BY ANO!R PADLOCK ?AT LOCK$ AUTOMATICALLY4 ,! POLICE GOT AFT] HIM AT ONCE1 BUT !Y C\LD DO NO?+2 ! MAN WAS SECURELY *A9$4 ,!Y S5T = A FILE4 ,MEAN:ILE ! CR[D KEPT 9CREAS+ & ,TOM W5T ON NON*ALANTLY TALK+ TO !M4 ,! (FIC]S RAG$1 BUT HE CONT9U$ HIS SPEE* TILL HIS VOICE GAVE \T4 ,!N HE PRODUC$ ! KEY1 OP5$ ! PADLOCK & COOLLY CAME D[N4 ,! POLICE ?REAT5$ HIM ) T]RIBLE ?+S 0= 9SULTS TO ! ,>MY & ! LAW10 BUT ALL ,P>IS LAU<$ AT !M & HELD !M UP TO RIDICULE4 ,! AU?ORITIES ?\<T IT BE/ TO HU% UP ! MATT]1 & ,TOM WAS NOT PROSECUT$4 ,AFT] A =TNI<T 9 JAIL HE WAS EXPELL$ AS 0TOO DANG]\S A MAN TO BE ALL[$ LOOSE 9 ,FRANCE40 

,ANO!R ( ,TOM ,BELL'S EXPLOITS TOOK PLACE ON ! OCCASION ( ! VISIT ( ,CZ> ,NI*OLAS ,I,I TO ,5GL&4 ,! ,QUE5 WAS AT ,BALMORAL AT ! TIME4 ,! ROYAL S*$ULE WAS TO HAVE ! ,CZ> L& AT ,LEI?1 :]E HE W\LD BE MET BY ! ,PR9CE ( ,WALES 7LAT] ,K+ ,$W>D ,V,I,I7 SUBSEQU5TLY HE WAS TO COME TO ,W9DSOR & ,LONDON4 

,TOM ,BELL AGRE$ ) HIS FRI5D TO HELP 9 ! RECEPTION ( ! ,CZ>4 ,MC,CABE HAD A %RIVEL$ H& & >M1 BUT HE WAS AS GAME AS ,TOM4 ,TOGE!R !Y LAID !IR PLANS4 ,!Y W]E 9 ,$9BUR< AT ! TIME1 & :5 !Y REA*$ ,LEI?1 !Y F\ND AN 5ORM\S NUMB] ( POLICE AT ! DOCK1 9CLUD+ ,BRITI%1 ,RUSSIAN1 & ,FR5* SECRET-S]VICE M54 ,! /REETS W]E B>RICAD$ & L9$ ALL ! WAY BY SOLDI]S & BOBBIES1 ) DETECTIVES SW>M+ EV]Y:]E4 ,BEH9D ! B>RICADE WAS A R[ ( ,HI<L&]S2 BEH9D !M T]RITORIALS1 !SE AGA9 SUPPORT$ BY 9FANTRY4 ,! SITUATION LOOK$ HOPELESS -- NO *ANCE = ANY ACTION4 ,TOM ,BELL & ,MC,CABE DECID$ TO SEP>ATE2 0EA* KNEW ?AT ! O!R W\LD DO HIS DAMN$E/10 AS ,TOM AFT]W>DS SAID4 ,HE HE>D A FA9T *E] FROM ! S*OOL-*ILDR5 AS ! PRETTY UNI=MS W5T BY4 ,!N CAME ! C>RIAGES4 ,! ,CZ>'S WAS EASILY DI/+UI%$4 ,TOM MADE \T ! ,RUSSIAN AUTOCRAT SITT+ 9 ! BACK SEAT1 ! ,PR9CE ( ,WALES FAC+ HIM4 ,IT SEEM$ IMPOSSIBLE TO DO ANY?+1 UP TO ! LA/ MOM5T1 & IT WAS POSSIBLE ONLY AT ?AT MOM5T & AT NO O!R4 ,! GU>DS HAD BE5 AL]T & VIGILANT TILL --- JU/ AS ! ,CZ>'S C>RIAGE CAME LEVEL ) !M4 ,9 AN 9/ANT ,TOM DIV$ RI<T ?R\< !M1 UND] ! B>RICADE & TO ! SIDE ( ! C>RIAGE1 %\T+ 9TO ! ,CZ>'S FACE3 0,D[N ) ! ,RUSSIAN TYRANT6 ,TO HELL ) ALL ! EMPIRES60 ,JU/ AT ?AT MOM5T HE BECAME CONSCI\S ( HIS FRI5D ,MAC1 :O HAD ALSO GOT ?R\<1 ALSO %\T+ CLOSE BY4 

,! ,BRITI% AU?ORITIES DID NOT D>E BR+ ,BELL & ,MC,CABE BE=E A ,SCOTTI% JURY4 ,MO/ PROBABLY !Y FE>$ ?AT PROSECUTION W\LD MEAN MORE PUBLICITY4 ,NOT ONE WORD APPE>$ 9 ! PAP]S AB\T ! 9CID5T4 0,! ,CZ> APPE>$ PALE10 !Y WROTE4 ,NO D\BT4 ,HE CUT HIS VISIT %ORT1 GO+ HOME AGA91 NOT ?R\< ,LEI? OR ANY O!R ,SCOTTI% SEAPORT1 BUT FROM AN OBSCURE FI%+-VILLAGE1 :5CE HE WAS TAK5 TO HIS YA*T BY BOAT4 

,I WAS NATURALLY EAG] TO MEET ! ADV5TUR\S COMRADE4 ,I F\ND HIM LIV+ ) ,JOHN ,TURN]'S SI/] ,LIZZIE1 ! LOVELY GIRL ,I HAD MET 9 ,LONDON 9 #a#h#i#e4 ,TOM WAS A V]Y SICK MAN1 SUFF]+ FROM A/HMA1 BUT HE WAS PICTURESQUE --- TALL1 ) R$ HAIR & BE>D1 JU/ ! TYPE CAPABLE ( UNUSUAL P]=MANCES4 ,I DEP>T$ FROM ,5GL& = ,P>IS1 TOGE!R ) ,HIPPOLYTE1 >RIV+ 9 ?AT CITY ON A DRIZZL+ ,JANU>Y MORN+ & /OPP+ 9 A HOTEL ON ,B\LEV>D ,SA9T-,MI*EL4 ,F\R YE>S PREVI\SLY1 9 #a#h#i#f1 ,I HAD VISIT$ ! CITY ON MY WAY FROM ,VI5NA4 ,?AT EXP]I5CE HAD BE5 A GREAT DISAPPO9TM5T4 ,! PEOPLE ,I !N /OPP$ )1 ,G]MAN AN>*I/S1 LIV$ 9 A SUBURB1 WORK$ H>D DUR+ ! DAY1 & W]E TOO TIR$ TO GO \T AT NI<T1 & MY ,FR5* WAS NOT SUFFICI5T TO 5ABLE ME TO GO AB\T ALONE4 ,ON ! ONLY FREE ,SUNDAY1 FRI5DS HAD TAK5 ME TO ! ,BOIS DE ,B\LOGNE4 ,\TSIDE ( ?AT ,I HAD SE5 PRACTICALLY NO?+ ( ,P>IS1 :I* ,I HAD LONG$ SO MU* TO KN[1 BUT ,I HAD PROMIS$ MYSELF ?AT SOME DAY ,I W\LD RETURN TO 5JOY ! DELI<TS ( ! WOND]FUL CITY4 

,N[ ! OPPORTUNITY WAS AT H& AT LA/1 MADE MORE WOND]FUL ! REBIR? ( LOVE 9 MY LIFE4 ,HIPPOLYTE HAD BE5 9 ,P>IS BE=E & KNEW ITS *>MS2 HE MADE A P]FECT COMPANION4 ,= A MON? WE W]E COMPLETELY 5GROSS$ 9 ! WOND]S ( ! CITY & 9 EA* O!R4 ,EV]Y /REET1 EV]Y /ONE ALMO/1 HAD ITS REVOLUTION>Y /ORY1 EV]Y DI/RICT ITS H]OIC LEG5D4 ,! BEAUTY ( ,P>IS1 H] RECKLESS Y\?1 H] ?IR/ = JOY & EV]-*ANG+ MOODS1 HELD US 9 !IR SWAY4 ,! ,MUR DES ,F$]ES AT ,P]E ,LA*AISE REVIV$ ! MEMORY ( ! HI< HOPES & ! BLACK DESPAIR ( ! LA/ DAYS ( ! ,COMMUNE4 ,IT WAS !RE ?AT ! REBELS HAD MADE !IR LA/ H]OIC /&1 F9ALLY TO BE SLA9 BY ORD] ( ,?I]S & ,GALLIFFET4 ,PLACE DE LA ,BA/ILLE1 ONCE ! DREAD$ TOMB ( ! LIV+ DEAD1 RAZ$ TO ! GR\ND BY ! ACCUMULAT$ WRA? ( ! PEOPLE ( ,P>IS1 BR\<T BACK TO US ! UNSPEAKABLE PA9 & SUFF]+ ?AT GL[$ 9TO REG5]AT+ HOPE 9 ! DAYS ( ! GREAT REVOLUTION1 :OSE HI/ORY HAD SO MU* 9FLU5C$ \R [N LIVES4 

,\R C>ES & WORRIES W]E =GOTT5 9 ! WORLD ( BEAUTY1 9 ! TREASURES ( >*ITECTURE & >T1 CREAT$ BY ! G5IUS ( MAN4 ,! DAYS W]E PASS+ LIKE A DREAM FROM :I* ONE FE>$ TO AWAK54 ,BUT ,I HAD COME TO ,P>IS ALSO = ANO!R PURPOSE4 ,IT WAS TIME TO BEG9 ! PREP>ATORY WORK = \R CONGRESS4 

,FRANCE HAD BE5 ! CRADLE ( AN>*ISM1 FA!R$ = A LONG TIME BY SOME ( H] MO/ BRILLIANT SONS1 ( :OM ,PR\DHON WAS ! GREATE/4 ,! BATTLE = !IR IDEAL HAD BE5 /R5U\S1 9VOLV+ P]SECUTION1 IMPRISONM5T1 & (T5 EV5 ! SACRIFICE ( LIFE4 ,BUT IT HAD NOT BE5 9 VA94 ,?ANKS TO !M AN>*ISM & ITS EXPON5TS HAD COME TO BE REG>D$ 9 ,FRANCE AS A SOCIAL FACTOR TO BE RECKON$ )4 ,NO D\BT ! ,FR5* B\RGEOISIE CONT9U$ TO DREAD AN>*ISM & TO P]SECUTE IT ?R\< ! MA*9]Y ( ! ,/ATE4 ,I HAD OCCASION TO WITNESS ! BRUTAL MANN] 9 :I* ! ,FR5* POLICE H&L$ RADICAL CR[DS1 AS WELL AS PROCE$+S 9 ! ,FR5* C\RTS :5 DEAL+ ) SOCIAL (F5D]S4 ,/ILL1 !RE WAS A VA/ DIFF]5CE 9 ! APPROA* & ME?ODS US$ BY ! ,FR5* 9 DEAL+ ) AN>*I/S FROM ! ,AM]ICAN WAY4 ,IT WAS ! DIFF]5CE BETWE5 A PEOPLE SEASON$ 9 REVOLUTION>Y TRADITIONS & ONE :I* HAD M]ELY SKIMM$ ! SURFACE ( A /RUGGLE = 9DEP5D5CE4 ,?AT DIFF]5CE WAS EV]Y:]E APP>5T1 /RIK+LY SO 9 ! AN>*I/ MOVEM5T ITSELF4 ,9 ! V>I\S GR\PS ,I DID NOT MEET A S+LE COMRADE :O US$ ! HI<-S\ND+ T]M 0PHILOSOPHIC0 TO MASK HIS AN>*ISM1 AS MANY DID 9 ,AM]ICA1 BECAUSE !Y ?\<T IT MORE RESPECTABLE4 

,WE W]E SOON C>RI$ 9TO ! TIDE ( ! V>I$ ACTIVITIES ?AT W5T ON 9 ! AN>*I/ RANKS4 ,! REVOLUTION>Y-SYNDICALI/ MOVEM5T1 GIV5 NEW IMPETUS BY ! F]TILE M9D ( ,PELL\TI]1 WAS P]MEAT$ ) AN>*I/ T5D5CIES4 ,NE>LY ALL ! LEAD+ M5 ( ! ORGANIZATION W]E \TSPOK5 AN>*I/S4 ,! NEW $UCATIONAL EF=TS1 KN[N AS ! ,UNIV]SITE ,POPULAIRE1 W]E BACK$ ALMO/ EXCLUSIVELY BY AN>*I/S4 ,!Y HAD SUCCE$$ 9 5LI/+ ! SUPPORT & COOP]ATION ( UNIV]SITY M5 9 EV]Y FIELD ( LE>N+1 GIV+ POPUL> LECTURES ON V>I\S BRAN*ES ( SCI5CE BE=E L>GE CLASSES ( WORK]S4 ,NEI!R W]E ! >TS NEGLECT$4 ,! VOLUMES ( ,ZOLA1 ,RI*EP91 ,MIRBEAU1 & ,BRIEUX & ! SPL5DID PLAYS PRODUC$ 9 ! ,!ATRE ,ANTO9E W]E A P>T ( AN>*I/ LIT]ATURE SIMIL> TO ! WRIT+S ( ,KROPOTK91 :ILE ! WORKS ( ,MEUNI]1 ,ROD91 ,/E9L51 & ,GR&J\AN W]E DISCUSS$ & APPRECIAT$ 9 REVOLUTION>Y RANKS TO A GREAT] EXT5T ?AN BY ! B\RGEOIS ELEM5TS ?AT LAY CLAIM TO BE+ ! SPONSORS ( >T4 ,IT WAS 9SPIR+ TO VISIT ! AN>*I/ GR\PS1 WAT* !IR EF=TS1 & OBS]VE ! GR[? ( \R IDEAS ON ,FR5* SOIL4 

,MY /UDIES ( ! MOVEM5T1 H[EV]1 DID NOT ALLAY MY P]SONAL 9T]E/ 9 PEOPLE1 ALWAYS /RONG] ) ME ?AN !ORIES4 ,HIPPOLYTE WAS QUITE ! REV]SE2 HE DISLIK$ MEET+ PEOPLE & HE WAS DIFFID5T 9 !IR PRES5CE4 ,AFT] A %ORT :ILE ,I KNEW NE>LY EV]Y ONE ( ! LEAD+ P]SONALITIES 9 \R MOVEM5T 9 ,FRANCE1 AS WELL AS ?OSE CONNECT$ ) O!R SOCIAL WORK 9 ,P>IS4 ,AMONG ! LATT] WAS ! CIRCLE ( ,L',HUMANITE ,N\VELLE1 :I* PUBLI%$ A MAGAZ9E ( ! SAME NAME4 ,ITS ABLE $ITOR1 ,AUGU/E ,HAMON1 AU?OR ( ,LA ,PSY*OLOGIE DU ,MILITAIRE1 AS ALSO ITS CONTRIBUTORS1 BELONG$ TO A GR\P ( Y\NG >TI/S & WRIT]S KE5LY ALIVE TO !IR TIME & ITS NE$S4 

,( ! PEOPLE ,I MET ,I WAS MO/ IMPRESS$ BY ,VICTOR ,DAVE4 ,HE WAS AN OLD COMRADE :O DUR+ =TY YE>S HAD P>TICIPAT$ 9 AN>*I/ ACTIVITIES 9 V>I\S ,EUROPEAN C\NTRIES4 ,HE HAD BE5 A MEMB] ( ! FIR/ ,9T]NATIONAL1 A C[ORK] ( ,MI*AEL ,BAKUN91 & ! TEA*] ( ,JOHANN ,MO/4 ,HE HAD BEGUN A BRILLIANT C>E] AS A /UD5T ( HI/ORY & PHILOSOPHY1 BUT LAT] HE *OSE TO D$ICATE HIMSELF TO HIS SOCIAL IDEAL4 ,I HAD LE>N$ MU* ( ,DAVE'S HI/ORY FROM ,JOHANN ,MO/1 :O GREATLY ADMIR$ HIM4 ,I ALSO KNEW ! P>T HE HAD PLAY$ 9 ! EV5TS ?AT L$ TO ! ACCUSATIONS AGA9/ ,PEUK]T 9 CONNECTION ) ! >RE/ & CONVICTION ( ,JOHN ,NEVE4 ,DAVE WAS /ILL C]TA9 ( ,PEUK]T'S GUILT1 YET !RE WAS NO TRACE ( P]SONAL ANIMOSITY 9 HIM4 ,HE WAS K9DLY & JOVIAL4 ,?\< SIXTY1 HE WAS AS AL]T 9 M9D & SPIRIT AS 9 HIS /UD5T DAYS4 ,EK+ \T A MEAG] EXI/5CE AS CONTRIBUTOR TO AN>*I/ & O!R PUBLICATIONS1 HE YET RETA9$ ! BUOYANCY & HUMOR ( Y\?4 ,I SP5T MU* TIME ) HIM & HIS LIFELONG COMPANION1 ,M>IE1 AN 9VALID = MANY YE>S1 BUT /ILL 9T]E/$ 9 PUBLIC AFFAIRS4 ,VICTOR WAS A GREAT L+UI/ & AS SU* 9VALUABLE 9 HELP+ ME TO >RANGE ! MAT]IAL ,I HAD BR\<T = ! CONGRESS & 9 MAK+ TRANSLATIONS 9TO DIFF]5T LANGUAGES4 

,! MO/ FASC9AT+ ?+ AB\T ,VICTOR ,DAVE WAS HIS 9NATE FEEL+ = LIFE & ! READY 5JOYM5T ( FUN4 ,HE WAS ! FREE/ & GAYE/ COMRADES ,I MET 9 ,P>IS1 A COMPANION AFT] MY [N GOOD HUMOR WAS (T5 M>R$ BY ,HIPPOLYTE'S FITS ( EXTREME DEPRESSION4 ,FROM ! V]Y FIR/ HE HAD TAK5 A /RONG DISLIKE TO ,VICTOR4 ,HE W\LD REFUSE TO JO9 US ON \R \T+S1 YET PEEVI%LY RES5T HAV+ BE5 LEFT BEH9D4 ,ORD9>ILY HIS FEEL+ W\LD EXPRESS ITSELF 9 MUTE REPROA*1 BUT ! LEA/ QUANTITY ( LIQUOR W\LD 9CITE HIM TO ABUSE ,VICTOR4 ,AT FIR/ ,I TOOK HIS \TBREAKS LI<TLY1 BUT GRADUALLY !Y BEGAN TO AFFECT ME1 MAK+ ME UNEASY :5 ,I WAS AWAY FROM HIM4 ,I LOV$ ! BOY2 ,I KNEW HIS UNHAPPY PA/ HAD LEFT W\NDS 9 HIS S\L ?AT MADE HIM MORBIDLY SELF-CONSCI\S & SUSPICI\S4 ,I WANT$ TO HELP HIM TO A BETT] UND]/&+ ( HIMSELF & A BROAD] APPROA* TO O!RS4 ,I HOP$ ?AT MY AFFECTION W\LD S(T5 HIS VIRUL5CE4 ,:5 SOB]1 HE REGRETT$ HIS ATTACKS ON ,VICTOR1 & AT SU* MOM5TS HE W\LD BE ALL T5D]NESS1 CL++ TO \R LOVE4 ,IT L$ ME TO HOPE ?AT HE MI<T \T-GR[ HIS ACRIMONI\S MOODS4 ,BUT ! SC5ES KEPT RECURR+1 & MY APPREH5SION 9CREAS$4 

,9 ! C\RSE ( TIME ,I TIME ,I REALIZ$ ?AT ,HIPPOLYTE'S RES5TM5T WAS AGA9/ ,VICTOR1 BUT AGA9/ EV]Y MAN ( MY ACQUA9TANCE4 ,TWO ,ITALIANS ,I HAD WORK$ ) 9 BEHALF ( ,CUBAN FRE$OM1 AS WELL AS DUR+ ! ,SUMMIT /RIKE1 >RIV$ 9 ,P>IS TO ATT5D ! ,EXPOSITION4 ,!Y CAME TO SEE ME & 9VIT$ ME \T TO D9N]4 ,ON MY RETURN ,I F\ND ,HIPPOLYTE 9 A F]M5T ( WRA?FUL 9DIGNATION4 ,SOME TIME LAT] MY GOOD FRI5D ,PALAVIC9I CAME OV] ) HIS WIFE & *ILD4 ,HIPPOLYTE IMM$IATELY BEGAN TO CONCOCT IMPOSSIBLE /ORIES AB\T ! MAN4 ,LIFE ) ,HIPPOLYTE WAS GR[+ MORE DI/RESS+1 YET ,I C\LD NOT ?9K ( P>T+4  

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