,VOLUME #b1 ,*APT] #ec 

#aicaaica 

,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

,TEXT 3 

  

,PHOTO BY ,SE? ,MORABITO1,C,C ,B,Y-,S,A ,LIC5SE ,LIV+ ,MY ,LIFE 

  

BY ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN 

  

,VOLUME TWO 

  

,NEW ,YORK3 ,ALFR$ ,A ,KNOPF ,9C41#a#i#c#a4 

,*APT] #ec 

,RIGA6 ,JO/L+ CR[DS AT ! /ATION1 /RANGE SPEE*1 LAU<T]1 & GL>+ LI<TS4 ,IT WAS BEWILD]+ & IT AGGRAVAT$ MY FEV]I% CONDITION FROM ! BAD COLD ,I HAD CONTRACT$ ON ! WAY4 ,WE PLANN$ TO GO TO \R COMRADE ,TSVETKOV1 :O WAS EMPLOY$ 9 ! ,SOVIET TRANSPORT DEP>TM5T4 ,HE & HIS LOVELY WIFE ,M>YUSSA HAD BE5 \R CLOSE FRI5DS 9 ! E>LY ,PETROGRAD DAYS4 ,LITTLE ,M>YUSSA1 DELICATE AS A LILY1 TOGE!R ) ,TSVETKOV & O!RS1 HAD GU>D$ ,PETROGRAD AGA9/ ,G5]AL ,YUD5I*4 ,RIFLE OV] %\LD]1 BRAVE ,M>YUSSA HAD BE5 PREP>$ TO LAY D[N H] LIFE = ! ,REVOLUTION4 ,LAT] !Y HAD 5DUR$ UNTOLD PRIVATION & H>D%IPS1 :I* UND]M9$ ,M>YUSSA'S HEAL?1 & F9ALLY %E SUCCUMB$ TO TYPHUS4 ,BO? %E & ,TSVETKOV W]E ( /]L+ QUALITY4 ,HE REMA9$ UN*ANG$ 9 HIS IDEAS1 NOT)/&+ ?AT HE WAS COMPELL$ TO E>N HIS LIV+ 9 ! EMPLOY ( ! ,BOL%EVIK REGIME4 ,I KNEW HE W\LD BID US A HE>TY WELCOME4 ,/ILL1 ,I %RANK FROM R5EW$ CONTACT ) :AT ,I HAD LEFT BEH9D4 ,NOR WAS ,I 9 A CONDITION TO MEET PEOPLE & >GUE ! QUE/IONS ,I HAD DEF9ITELY SETTL$ = MYSELF4 ,I NE$$ A RE/ & ,I WANT$ TO =GET -- TO %UT \T ! NI<TM>E BEH9D ME & NOT TO HAVE TO ?9K ( ! VOID BE=E ME4 ,WE CONSID]$ IT 9ADVISABLE TO GO TO A HOTEL3 WE W\LD >\SE TOO MU* ATT5TION & WE W]E P>TICUL>LY ANXI\S TO AVOID NEWSPAP] M54 ,AT ,TSVETKOV'S WE C\LD LIVE QUIETLY4 

,\R FIR/ ?\<T WAS TO PREP>E A MANIFE/O SETT+ =? ! APPALL+ CONDITIONS ( ! POLITICALS 9 ! ,COMMUNI/ ,/ATE & URG+ ! AN>*I/ PRESS 9 ,EUROPE & ,AM]ICA TO HELP SAVE !M FROM A SL[ DEA?4 ,IT WAS \R DESP]ATE CRY AFT] TW5TY-ONE MON?S ( =C$ SIL5CE1 ! 9ITIAL /EP ( FULFILL+ ! PL$GE GIV5 \R PEOPLE TO MAKE KN[N TO ! WORLD ! COLOSSAL FRAUD WRAPP$ 9 ! ,R$ MANTLE ( 0,OCTOB]40 

,NEWS FROM ,G]MANY WAS REASSUR+4 ,\R COMRADES W]E WORK+ TO SECURE \R ADMISSION & !Y W]E CONFID5T ( SUCCESS4 ,BUT !Y NE$$ A LITTLE MORE TIME & !RE=E WE MU/ GET \R ,LATVIAN VISA EXT5D$ = A FEW DAYS4 ,! FEW DAYS DRAGG$ 9TO ?REE WEEKS4 ,[+ TO \R P]SI/5CY1 ! VISAS W]E R5EW$1 BUT ONLY 9 DRIBLETS4 ,WE W\LD HAVE TO GET \T ( !IR C\NTRY1 ! LOCAL AU?ORITIES 9=M$ US1 GO ANY:]E OR BACK TO ,RUSSIA1 :]E WE BELONG$ 0AS ,BOL%EVIKS40 ,! (FICIALS W]E ALMO/ )\T EXCEPTION M]E Y\?S4 ,!IR NEW /ATEHOOD HAD EVID5TLY GONE TO !IR HEADS LIKE SUDD5LY ACQUIR$ RI*ES4 ,!Y W]E 0CLIMB]S10 CO>SE & >ROGANT1 OV]BE>+ TO ! PO9T ( DISGU/4 

,A RAY ( HOPE BROKE AT LA/ ?R\< \R D>K SKY4 0,ALL IS SETTL$10 \R ,B]L9 COMRADES NOTIFI$ US4 ,! ,G]MAN ,CONSUL 9 ,RIGA HAD BE5 GIV5 9/RUCTIONS TO ISSUE ! NECESS>Y VISA4 ,WE HA/5$ TO ! ,CONSULATE4 ,IT WAS ALL RI<T AB\T \R VISA1 WE W]E TOLD !RE1 BUT \R APPLICATION MU/ FIR/ BE S5T ON TO ,B]L94 ,)9 ?REE DAYS WE W\LD RECEIVE !M4 

,9 HI< SPIRITS \R BOYS AGA9 W5T TO ! ,CONSULATE1 CONFID5T ( SECUR+ ! VISAS ?IS TIME4 ,:5 !Y RETURN$1 ,I KNEW ! RESULT )\T A WORD BE+ SPOK54 ,\R APPLICATION WAS REFUS$4 

,AGA9 IT WAS NECESS>Y TO PROCURE A PROLONGATION ( \R /AY 9 ,LATVIA4 ,! SULL5 Y\NG/]S 9 (FICE DEMURR$1 BUT F9ALLY P]MITT$ US ANO!R =TY-EI<T H\RS4 ,AT ! EXPIRATION ( ?AT TIME WE MU/ LEAVE1 !Y 9SI/$1 :E!R WE PROCUR$ ANY VISA BY !N OR NOT4 0,Y\'LL GO BACK TO Y\R [N C\NTRY10 !Y DECL>$ P]EMPTORILY4 ,\R C\NTRY8 ,:]E WAS IT8 ,! W> HAD DE/ROY$ ! ANCI5T RI<T ( ASYLUM1 & ,BOL%EVISM HAD TURN$ ,RUSSIA 9TO A PRISON4 ,WE C\LD NOT RETURN EV5 !RE4 ,NOR W\LD WE IF WE C\LD4 ,WE'LL GO TO ,LI?UANIA1 WE ?\<T1 & WE %\LD HAVE REALLY GONE !RE IF WE HAD NOT MISS$ ! TRA9 ON \R >RIVAL 9 ,RIGA4 

,\R FRI5D ,TSVETKOV W\LD NOT HE> ( IT4 ,LI?UANIA WAS A TRAP1 HE DECL>$4 ,IT W\LD BE IMPOSSIBLE = US TO GET TO ,G]MANY FROM !RE1 NOR C\LD WE RETURN TO ,RIGA AGA94 ,HE W\LD >RANGE A SUB ROSA R\TE4 ,HE KNEW SOME FREI<T]S :OSE CREWS W]E SYNDICALI/S1 & HE W\LD MANAGE ! MATT]4 ,BUT C\LD ,EMMA /& BE+ /[$ AWAY8 ,I BRI/L$ AT ! IMPLICATION ?AT ,I C\LD /& LESS ?AN ! BOYS4 0,BUT Y\R C\< -- IT WILL GIVE Y\ ALL AWAY60 HE RETORT$4 ,I PROTE/$ VIGOR\SLY4 ,TO ESCAPE MY FEM99E 9DIGNATION \R FRI5D LEFT TO E/ABLI% ! NECESS>Y CONNECTIONS4 ,BUT HIS S*EME PROV$ A BUBBLE -- LUCKILY = US ALL4 ,= ON ! FOLL[+ DAY1 ! LA/ WE C\LD REMA9 9 ,LATVIA1 CAME ,SW$I% VISAS ?AT \R SYNDICALI/ COMRADES 9 ,/OCKHOLM HAD OBTA9$4 ,MR4 ,BRANT+1 ! ,SOCIALI/ ,PRIME ,M9I/]1 HAD PROV$ MORE DEC5T ?AN HIS ,G]MAN COMRADES4 

,ACCOMPANI$ BY ,TSVETKOV & ,MRS4 ,C41 ,SECRET>Y ,%AKOL'S SI/]1 :O HAD BEFRI5D$ US & SUPPLI$ US ) A L>GE LUN*-BASKET = ! J\RNEY1 WE W5T TO ! RAILROAD /ATION TO BO>D ! TRA9 :I* WAS TO TAKE US TO ,REVAL4 ,AS IT PULL$ \T1 WE HEAV$ A DEEP SI< ( RELIEF4 ,= A :ILE1 AT LEA/1 \R VISA TR\BLES W]E OV]6 ,BUT ! TRA9 WAS B>ELY \T ( ! SI<T ( \R FRI5DS :5 WE DISCOV]$ ?AT WE HAD AN ESCORT ) US4 ,IT PROV$ TO BE ?REE ,LATVIAN SECRET S]VICE M54 ,!Y DEM&$ \R PASSPORTS1 :I* !Y IMM$IATELY CONFISCAT$1 DECL>+ ?AT WE W]E ALL UND] >RE/4 ,9 VA9 W]E \R PROTE/S AGA9/ ! SUDD5 9T]RUPTION ( \R J\RNEY1 :5 !Y C\LD HAVE >RE/$ US DUR+ \R /AY 9 ,RIGA4 ,! TRA9 WAS /OPP$ & WE W]E TAK5 (F1 BAG & BAGGAGE1 BUNDL$ 9TO AN ALREADY WAIT+ AUTOMOBILE1 & DRIV5 BY A R\NDAB\T R\TE TO ! CITY4 ,! C> CAME TO A HALT BE=E A L>GE BRICK BUILD+1 & GREAT WAS \R A/ONI%M5T :51 SOME FEET DI/ANT1 WE RECOGNIZ$ ! H\SE :]E WE HAD OCCUPI$ ROOMS 9 ! AP>TM5T ( ,TSVETKOV4 ,IT WAS ! ,POLITICAL ,POLICE ,DEP>TM5T & WE C\LD NOT HELP LAU<+ AT ! MANEUV]S ( ! AU?ORITIES TO 0CAT*0 US :5 ALL ! TIME WE HAD BE5 SO CLOSE AT H&4 

,ONE BY ONE WE W]E TAK5 9TO AN 9N] (FICE & EXAM9$ AB\T \R 0,BOL%EVISM40 ,I 9=M$ ! (FICIAL ?AT1 ?\< ,I WAS NOT A ,BOL%EVIK1 ,I REFUS$ TO DISCUSS ! SUBJECT ) HIM4 ,HE EVID5TLY REALIZ$ ?AT IT WAS USELESS TO ?REAT5 OR COAX ME1 & HE ORD]$ ME TAK5 TO ANO!R ROOM1 = LAT] DISPOSITION4 

,! ROOM WAS FILL$ ) (FICIALS1 SITT+ AB\T1 TALK+1 APP>5TLY ) NO?+ TO DO4 ,I HAD A BOOK ) ME1 & AS 9 ! OLD5 DAYS 9 MY ADOPT$ C\NTRY -- H[ F> AWAY & LONG AGO IT SEEM$ N[6 -- ,I WAS SOON LO/ 9 READ+4 ,I DID NOT EV5 NOTICE ?AT ! M5 HAD LEFT & ,I WAS ALONE4 ,ANO!R H\R PASS$ & !RE WAS /ILL NO SIGN ( MY TWO COMPANIONS4 ,I GREW SOME:AT UNEASY1 ?\< ,I WAS NOT AL>M$4 ,I KNEW ?AT ,SA%A WAS SEASON$ 9 H&L+ DIFFICULT SITUATIONS1 & ,S*APIRO WAS ALSO NO NOVICE 9 SU* MATT]S4 ,HE HAD HAD PREVI\S EXP]I5CE ) ! POLICE4 ,DUR+ ! W>1 AS $ITOR ( ! ,LONDON ,YIDDI% WEEKLY1 ! ,>BEIT] ,FREUND1 HE HAD TAK5 OV] ! $ITORIAL DUTIES ( ,RUDOLF ,ROCK]1 :O HAD BE5 9T]N$4 ,BE=E LONG HE WAS >RE/$ & HAD TO S]VE SIX MON?S = AN >TICLE SOMEONE ELSE HAD WRITT54 ,HE WAS A MAN ( DISCRETION & COOL-HEAD$4 ,I FELT CONFID5T ?AT :ATEV] MI<T HAPP5 TO MY TWO FRI5DS OR TO ME1 WE %\LD AT LEA/ HAVE A *ANCE = A FI<T4 ,IT W\LD REA* ! \TSIDE WORLD & W\LD ?US S]VE \R IDEAS4 

,SOMEONE BROKE 9 ON MY REFLECTIONS4 ,A L>GE POLICEWOMAN /OOD BE=E ME4 ,%E CAME TO SE>* ME1 %E ANN\NC$4 0,REALLY80 ,I REM>K$2 0! ?REE H\RS ,I WAS WAIT+ H]E W]E MORE ?AN 5\< TIME TO DE/ROY ANY EVID5CE ( ! CONSPIRACY ! POLICE SUSPECT US (40 ,H] /OLIDITY WAS NOT AFFECT$ BY MY RAILL]Y4 ,%E PROCE$$ TO SE>* ME TO ! SK94 ,BUT :5 %E ATTEMPT$ TO GO FUR!R1 ,I SLAPP$ H] FACE4 ,%E DA%$ \T ( ! ROOM V[+ %E W\LD BR+ M5 TO F9I% ! JOB4 ,I DRESS$ 9 ORD] TO RECEIVE ! G5TLEM5 )\T %OCK+ !IR MODE/Y4 ,ONLY ONE CAME1 :O 9VIT$ ME TO FOLL[ HIM TO MY CELL1 :I* HE LOCK$ UPON ME4 ,HE WAS AN OBLIG+ *AP4 ,SIL5TLY HE PO9T$ TO ! ADJO9+ CELLS1 9DICAT+ ?AT MY TWO FRI5DS W]E !RE4 ,?AT WAS A PLEASANT SURPRISE & GAVE ME GREAT RELIEF4 ,I WAS 9 SOLIT>Y CONF9EM5T1 YET ,I HAD NOT FELT SO FREE & AT PEACE = ! PA/ TW5TY-ONE MON?S4 ,I HAD CEAS$ TO BE AN AUTOMATON4 ,I HAD REGA9$ MY WILL4 ,I WAS BACK :]E ,I HAD BE5 9 ! PA/ -- 9 ! FI<T4 ,& MY COMRADES W]E NE> ME1 SEP>AT$ ONLY BY A WALL4 ,GREAT PEACE CAME OV] ME1 CONT5TM5T & SLEEP4 

,ON ! SECOND DAY ,I WAS TAK5 D[N/AIRS = EXAM9ATION4 ,A Y\? 9 HIS TW5TIES WAS MY 9QUISITOR4 ,HE DEM&$ TO KN[ AB\T \R SECRET ,BOL%EVIK MISSION 9 ,EUROPE1 :Y WE HAD /AY$ 9 ,RIGA SO LONG1 ) :OM WE HAD ASSOCIAT$1 & :AT HAD BECOME ( ! IMPORTANT DOCUM5TS HE KNEW WE HAD SMUGGL$ 9TO ! C\NTRY4 ,I ASSUR$ HIM HE /ILL HAD MU* TO LE>N TO A*IEVE FAME & =TUNE AS AN 9T]ROGATOR ( SU* AN EXP]I5C$ CRIM9AL AS HE HAD BE=E HIM4 ,I W\LD NOT TAKE HIM 9TO MY CONFID5CE1 ,I TOLD HIM1 EV5 IF ,I HAD ANY 9=MATION ?AT HE MI<T WANT4 ,I W\LD DIVULGE1 H[EV]1 ?AT ,I WAS AN AN>*I/ NOT A ,BOL%EVIK4 ,AS HE DID NOT SEEM TO KN[ ! DIFF]5CE1 ,I PROMIS$ HIM SOME AN>*I/ LIT]ATURE1 :I* ,I W\LD =W>D TO HIM AFT] LEAV+ ! C\NTRY4 ,HE MI<T EX*ANGE 9=MATION & TELL ME :Y WE HAD BE5 >RE/$ & ON :AT *>GE4 

,HE W\LD )9 A FEW DAYS1 HE PROMIS$4 ,/RANGE TO SAY1 HE KEPT HIS WORD4 ,! DAY BE=E ,*RI/MAS HE CAME TO MY CELL TO 9=M ME ?AT 0IT WAS AN UN=TUNATE MI/AKE40 ,I />T$ AT ! FAMILI> PHRASE4 0,YES1 AN UN=TUNATE MI/AKE10 HE REPEAT$1 0& ! FAULT IS ) Y\R FRI5DS ! ,BOL%EVIKI1 NOT MY ,GOV]NM5T'S40 ,I SCORN$ HIS 9S9UATION4 0,! ,SOVIET ,GOV]NM5T GAVE US PASSPORTS & P]MITT$ US TO DEP>T4 ,:AT 9T]E/ C\LD IT HAVE TO L& US ALL 9 Y\R JAIL80 ,I DEM&$4 0,I CANNOT REVEAL ,/ATE SECRETS10 HE REPLI$1 0BUT IT IS TRUE1 JU/ ! SAME40 ,WE W\LD F9D \T LAT] ?AT ?IS WAS NO IDLE TALK4 ,BY RI<T WE %\LD BE IMM$IATELY RELEAS$1 HE ADD$1 BUT !RE W]E SOME =MALITIES TO ATT5D TO1 & ALL ! SUP]IOR (FICIALS HAD ALREADY LEFT = !IR HOLIDAYS4 ,I ASSUR$ HIM IT DID NOT MATT]4 ,I HAD SP5T MORE ?AN ! BIR?DAY ( ,JESUS 9 PRISON1 & ?AT WAS1 AFT] ALL1 ! PLACE :]E ! ,NAZ>5E W\LD N[ F9D HIMSELF IF HE HAPP5$ TO VISIT \R ,*RI/IAN WORLD4 ,! MAN WAS DULY SC&ALIZ$1 AS BEHOOV$ A PROSPECTIVE ,/ATE PROSECUTOR4 

,! GU>D DID MY ,*RI/MAS %OPP+ = ME1 BR++ ME FRUIT1 NUTS1 CAKE1 C(FEE1 & A CAN ( EVAPORAT$ MILK4 ,LUXURIES !Y W]E1 BUT ,I WAS ANXI\S TO PREP>E A ,*RI/MAS FEA/ = MY FRI5DS 9 ! ADJO9+ CELLS4 ,9 RETURN = A TIP ! OLD GU>D'S HE>T S(T5$ & HE P]MITT$ ME ! USE ( ! KIT*5 SITUAT$ ON ! SAME FLOOR4 ,I TOOK MY TIME & F\ND EXCUSES = GO+ BACK & =? TO MY CELL1 HUMM+ ALL ! TIME3 0,*RI/ HAS RIS51 REJOICE1 YE HEA!N60 & F9D+ A *ANCE TO :ISP] A FEW WORDS TO MY 9VISIBLE COMPANIONS4 ,TWO NEATLY WRAPP$ PACKAGES & A L>GE !RMOS BOTTLE ( /EAM+ C(FEE W]E C>RI$ BY ! GU>D TO ! TWO DESP]ADOES NEXT DOOR 9 RETURN = A LITTLE ,*RI/MAS GIFT TO HIS FAMILY4 

,WE W]E F9ALLY RELEAS$ ) PR(USE APOLOGIES4 ,MY FRI5DS RELAT$ !IR EXP]I5CES TO ME4 ,!Y HAD ALSO BE5 SE>*$ TO ! SK91 ! L9+ ( !IR COATS RIPP$ OP51 & ! BOTTOMS ( !IR SUIT-CASES TORN \T = ! SECRET DOCUM5TS WE W]E SUPPOS$ TO HAVE BR\<T \T ) US4 ,IT HAD BE5 A REAL BURLESQUE TO WAT* ! EAG] FACES ( ! GU>DS GRADUALLY TURN TO BAFFL$ DISAPPO9TM5T4 ,SA%A1 OLD JAIL-BIRD ?AT HE WAS1 HAD MANAG$ TO SIGNAL AT NI<T ) LI<T$ MAT*ES TO A Y\NG FELL[ :O SAT READ+ 9 A H\SE OPPOSITE4 ,HE ?REW \T NOTES TO ! MAN1 ONE ( :I* ! LATT] PICK$ UP1 & ,SA%A HOP$ IT MI<T REA* \R FRI5DS 9 ! CITY4 ,S*APIRO HAD REPEAT$LY TRI$ TO GET 9 T\* ) ME BY TAPP+4 ,I HAD ANSW]$1 BUT HE C\LD NOT MAKE ME \T4 0,NOR ,I Y\1 OLD MAN10 ,I CONFESS$4 0,NEXT TIME WE'LL AGREE ON ! KEY40 ,EV5 IF ,I C\LD NOT UND]/& HIS GOOD OLD ,RUSSIAN PRISON SIGNALS1 HE ADD$1 ,I SOMEH[ ALWAYS MANAG$ TO />T A CUIS9E4 0,%E LOVES TO COOK1 & EV5 PRISON CAN'T /OP H]10 ,SA%A 9T]POS$4 

,AT LA/1 ON ,JANU>Y #b1 #a#i#b#b1 WE DEP>T$ FROM ,REVAL1 ,E/HONIA4 ,TO AVOID A REPETITION ( \R ,RIGA ADV5TURE WE W5T DIRECTLY TO ! /EAM]1 ?\< ! BOAT WAS NOT TO LEAVE UNTIL ! FOLL[+ MORN+4 ,WE MADE GOOD USE ( ! FREE DAY TO SEE ! QUA9T T[N1 MU* OLD] & MORE PICTURESQUE ?AN ,RIGA4 

,\R RECEPTION 9 ,/OCKHOLM WAS =TUNATELY UN(FICIAL4 ,NEI!R SOLDI]S NOR WORK]S W]E ORD]$ \T TO MEET US ) MUSIC & SPEE*ES1 AS ON \R >RIVAL 9 ,BELO-,O/ROV4 ,JU/ A FEW COMRADES G5U9ELY GLAD TO SEE US4 ,\R GOOD *AP]ONS W]E ,ALB]T & ,ELISE ,J5S51 :O /E]$ US SAFELY PA/ ! %OALS ( ,AM]ICAN NEWSPAP] M54 ,NOT ?AT ,I WAS AV]SE TO GREET+ MY 5EMIES :O HAD BE5 SO EAG] TO LIE AB\T MY DO+S 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,BUT ,I PREF]R$ NOT TO BE MISQUOT$ ON ! ,SOVIET EXP]IM5T UNTIL ,I HAD A *ANCE TO EXPRESS MY ?\<TS OV] MY [N SIGNATURE4 ,) ! ,/OCKHOLM ,>BET>51 \R DAILY SYNDICALI/ PUBLICATION1 & ! ,BR&1 AN AN>*I/ WEEKLY1 OP5 TO US TO HAVE \R SAY1 !RE WAS NO NE$ TO BE 9T]VIEW$ BY REPORT]S1 & WE W]E ALL GRATEFUL TO \R FRI5DS = SAV+ US FROM FALL+ 9TO !IR H&S4 

,LETT]S FROM ,B]L9 EXPLA9$ ! SUDD5 *ANGE ( HE>T ON ! P>T ( ! ,G]MAN ,CONSUL 9 ,RIGA AFT] HE HAD L$ US TO BELIEVE ?AT ! VISA W\LD BE ISSU$ TO US4 ,HE HAD BE5 W>N$ BY A ,*EKI/ ?AT WE W]E DANG]\S CONSPIRATORS ON A SECRET MISSION TO ! ,AN>*I/ ,CONGRESS 9 ,B]L94 ,?IS ALSO %$ A LI<T ON ! 9SI/5CE ( ! ,LETTI% (FICIALS ?AT 0\R FRI5DS ! ,BOL%EVIKS0 HAD BE5 BEH9D \R TR\BLE 9 ,RIGA4 ,! ,LATVIAN ,GOV]NM5T HAD KN[N ( \R PRES5CE 9 ,RIGA1 & ! REPEAT$ EXT5SIONS ( \R /AY HAD BE5 REGI/]$ ) ! LOCAL POLICE4 ,!Y W\LD HAVE H>DLY WAIT$ ) \R >RE/ TILL WE W]E LEAV+ ! C\NTRY1 EXCEPT ?AT !Y W]E AT ! LA/ MOM5T SUPPLI$ BY ! ,SOVIET EMISS>Y ) ! SAME 9=MATION HE HAD GIV5 ! ,G]MAN ,CONSUL 9 ,RIGA4 ,\R EXAM9]S EV]Y:]E /RESS$ \R ALLEG$ POSSESSION ( SECRET DOCUM5TS4 ,!IR EXCEPTIONALLY ?OR\< SE>* ALSO T5D$ TO 9DICATE ?AT \R GOOD FRI5DS 9 ! ,KREML9 HAD D5\NC$ US4 

,I REALIZ$ ) A %OCK :AT /RONG HOLD ! ,BOL%EVIK SUP]/ITION /ILL HAD ON ME4 ,WELL KN[+ ! NATURE ( ! BEA/1 ,I HAD YET PROTE/$ VEHEM5TLY AGA9/ ! 9S9UATIONS ( ! ,LETTI% (FICIALS 9 REG>D TO ! ,SOVIET PEOPLE 9 ,MOSC[4 ,NOT)/&+ MY TWO YE>S' DAILY EXP]I5CE ( ,BOL%EVIK POLITICAL DEPRAVITY1 ,I WAS YET UNABLE TO CR$IT SU* ,JESUITISM ON !IR P>T -- TO GIVE US PASSPORTS & AT ! SAME TIME MAKE IT IMPOSSIBLE = US TO 5T] ANY O!R C\NTRY4 ,I FULLY UND]/OOD N[ ! SIGNIFICANCE ( ,LITV9OV'S ASSURANCE ?AT 0! CAPITALI/IC C\NTRIES WILL NOT BE ANXI\S TO HAVE Y\40 ,BUT :Y1 !N1 DID !Y LET US GO \T ( ,RUSSIA1 ,I WOND]$4 ,MY COMPANIONS SAID ?AT ! REASON WAS OBVI\S4 ,TO REFUSE US P]MISSION TO LEAVE W\LD HAVE CAUS$ TOO MU* PROTE/ ABROAD1 AS 9 ! CASE ( ,PET] ,KROPOTK94 ,HE HAD 9 FACT NEV] ATTEMPT$ TO LEAVE ,RUSSIA1 BUT ! M]E RUMOR ?AT HE HAD NOT BE5 P]MITT$ TO DO SO HAD >\S$ ! 5TIRE REVOLUTION>Y & LIB]AL WORLD ABROAD & RA9$ 5DLESS 9QUIRIES ON ! ,KREML94 ,MOSC[ EVID5TLY DID NOT WANT TO 9VITE A SIMIL> UPRO> AGA94 ,\R >RE/ 9 ,RUSSIA W\LD HAVE CAUS$ UNDESIRABLE PUBLICITY4 ,ON ! O!R H&1 ! ,*EKA1 AW>E ( \R /& ON ! DICTATOR%IP & ( \R P>T 9 ! PROTE/ ( ! =EIGN DELEGATES 9 REG>D TO ! ,TAGANKA HUNG]-/RIKE1 C\LD NOT LEAVE US AT L>GE MU* LONG]4 ,! BE/ SOLUTION ( ! SITUATION WAS !RE=E TO P]MIT US TO DEP>T4 ,IT WAS BETT] POLICY TO APPE> MAGNANIM\S & DO ! DIRTY WORK AGA9/ US \TSIDE ! T]RITORY ( ! ,R4,S4,F4,S4,R4 ,?IS WAS ALSO ! VIEW EXPRESS$ BY \R ,B]L9 CORRESPOND5TS4 ,! ,G]MAN ,CONSUL 9 ,RIGA HAD COMMUNICAT$ TO HIS UNCLE ,PAUL ,KAMPFMEI]1 ! WELL-KN[N ,SOCIAL ,DEMOCRAT1 ! ROLE PLAY$ BY ! ,BOL%EVIK ,*EKI/ 9 ! MATT]4 

,\R ,SW$I% AN>*I/S & AN>*O-SYNDICALI/S W]E C]TA9 WE C\LD REMA9 9 !IR C\NTRY AS LONG AS WE PLEAS$4 ,WE MI<T AS WELL LIVE !RE AS ANY:]E ELSE & C>RY \T \R PLAN ( WRIT+ AB\T \R ,RUSSIAN EXP]I5CES4 ,! ,>BET>5 WAS ANXI\S = >TICLES FROM US1 AS WAS ALSO ! ,BR&4 ,BUT ,SA%A AS WELL AS ,I FELT ?AT ,AM]ICA1 \R OLD HOME1 HAD FIR/ CLAIM ON US4 ,IT HAD BE5 \R FIELD ( ACTIVITY = OV] ?IRTY YE>S4 ,= GOOD OR EVIL WE W]E KN[N !RE & WE C\LD REA* A WID] AUDI5CE ?AN 9 ,SW$5 OR 9 ANY O!R C\NTRY4 ,WE AGRE$1 H[EV]1 TO BE 9T]VIEW$ = ! ,>BET>5 & ! ,BR& & TO WRITE APPEALS 9 !M = ! POLITICALS IMPRISON$ & EXIL$ 9 ,RUSSIA4 

,NO SOON] HAD \R FIR/ >TICLE APPE>$ 9 ! ,>BET>5 ?AN ,MR4 ,BRANT+ HAD HIS SECRET>Y NOTIFY ! ,SYNDICALI/ ,COMMITTEE ?AT HAD OBTA9$ \R VISA TO ,SW$5 ?AT 0IT WAS 9ADVISABLE = ! ,RUSSIANS TO APPE> 9 PR9T40 ,BRANT+ WAS A ,SOCIAL ,DEMOCRAT & WAS OPPOS$ TO ! ,BOL%EVIKI4 ,BUT HE WAS ALSO ,PRIME ,M9I/]1 & ,SW$5 WAS AT ! TIME DISCUSS+ ! RECOGNITION ( ! ,RUSSIAN ,GOV]NM5T4 ,AN ADDITIONAL REASON WAS ! BID ! ,BOL%EVIKI W]E MAK+ = A UNIT$ FRONT ) ! ,SOCIAL ,DEMOCRATS1 :OM BUT YE/]DAY !Y HAD BE5 D5\NC+ AS SOCIAL TRAITORS & C\NT]-REVOLUTIONI/S4 ,MOREOV]1 ! REACTION>Y PRESS />T$ A CAMPAIGN ( D5UNCIATION AGA9/ ,BRANT+ = HAV+ GIV5 ASYLUM TO AN>*I/S & ,BOL%EVIKS4 ,! LATT] *>GE REF]R$ TO ,ANGELICA ,BALABAN(F1 :O WAS !N 9 ,SW$54 ,WE W]E 9=M$ ?AT ANO!R EXT5SION ( ONE MON? HAD BE5 GIV5 US1 BUT AT ! EXPIRATION ( ?AT TIME WE W\LD BE EXPECT$ TO %AKE ! DU/ ( ,SW$5 (F \R REVOLUTION>Y FEET4 ,POOR ,BRANT+ SEEM$ ANXI\S TO QUIET ! /ORM AGA9/ HIM BY SECUR+ \R DEP>TURE AS SOON AS POSSIBLE4 ,HE W\LD NOT DRIVE US \T1 ( C\RSE1 HIS SECRET>Y ASSUR$ \R PEOPLE1 BUT WE %\LD TRY AT ONCE TO F9D SOME O!R C\NTRY = \R ABODE4 

,COMRADES 9 HALF A DOZ5 L&S W]E WORK+ H>D TO SECURE ASYLUM = US4 ,\R ,B]L9 FRI5DS KEPT UP !IR /R5U\S EF=TS4 ,9 ,AU/RIA \R OLD COMRADE ,DR4 ,MAX ,NETTLAU WAS EX]T+ HIMSELF 9 \R BEHALF4 ,9 ,CZE*OSLOVAKIA O!RS W]E WORK+ TO OBTA9 VISAS4 ,ALSO 9 ,FRANCE4 ,! SMALL] C\NTRIES W]E HOPELESS1 ,D5M>K & ,NORWAY HAV+ ALREADY SIGNIFI$ TO \R COMRADES ?AT !RE WAS 0NO?+ DO+40 

,! SITUATION WAS RA!R DESP]ATE1 MADE MORE SO BY SEV]AL O!R CIRCUM/ANCES4 ,! CO/ ( LIV+ 9 A ,/OCKHOLM HOTEL HAD BANKRUPT$ US )9 A MON?4 ,! HOSPITABLE ,J5S5S 9VIT$ ME TO %>E !IR TWO-ROOM AP>TM5T1 :I* ,I ACCEPT$ 9 ! BELIEF ?AT IT W\LD BE ONLY = A %ORT TIME4 ,SA%A HAD F\ND A ROOM ) A ,SW$I% FAMILY :OSE PLACE WAS TOO SMALL EV5 = !MSELVES4 ,HE REGRETT$ ?AT WE HAD NOT FOLL[$ HIS ORIG9AL PLAN ( GO+ BY ! ,M9SK R\TE4 ,IT HAD BE5 /UPID TO ASK ,MOSC[ = PASSPORTS4 ,AT ANY RATE1 HE W\LD NOT APPLY = A VISA ANY MORE & HE WAS DET]M9$ TO LEAVE )\T GIV+ NOTICE & TO 5T] )\T P]MISSION4 ,I C\LD DO AS ,I PLEAS$1 HE DECL>$4 

,!RE WAS SOME?+ ELSE ?AT HAD COME BETWE5 US -- ! QUE/ION :E!R ,I %\LD OR %\LD NOT P]MIT ! ,NEW ,YORK ,WORLD TO PUBLI% MY S]IES ( >TICLES ON ,SOVIET ,RUSSIA4 ,/ELLA HAD CABL$ ME ?AT ! ,WORLD WAS EAG] = ! /ORY ( MY ,RUSSIAN EXP]I5CE4 ,I HAD ALREADY BE5 9=M$ TO ! SAME EFFECT 9 ,RIGA BY A ,WORLD REPRES5TATIVE4 ,9 FACT1 HE TOLD ME HIS PAP] HAD TRI$ TO REA* ME SEV]AL TIMES :ILE ,I WAS /ILL 9 ,MOSC[4 ,IF ,I HAD BE5 9=M$ AB\T IT !RE & EV5 IF ,I C\LD HAVE SAFELY S5T \T AN >TICLE FROM ,R4,S4,F4,S4,R41 ,I %\LD HAVE DECL9$ TO WRITE = A CAPITALI/ PAP] ON SO VITAL AN ISSUE AS ,RUSSIA4 ,I WAS JU/ AS LOA! TO CONSID] ! (F] ?AT CAME ?R\< ,/ELLA4 ,I WROTE H] ?AT ,I PREF]R$ TO HAVE MY SAY 9 ! LIB]AL & LABOR PRESS 9 ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES1 & ?AT ,I %\LD BE WILL+ TO HAVE !M PUBLI% MY >TICLES )\T ANY PAY RA!R ?AN HAVE !M APPE> 9 ! ,NEW ,YORK ,WORLD OR SIMIL> PUBLICATIONS4 

,/ELLA TRI$ ! ,FREEMAN1 ) AN >TICLE ON ! M>TYRDOM ( ,M>IA ,SPIRIDONOVNA4 ,IT WAS DECL9$4 ,! O!R ,AM]ICAN LIB]AL PAP]S %[$ EQUAL ILLIB]ALITY4 ,I REALIZ$ ?AT 9 ADDITION TO BE+ /AMP$ AN ,I%MAELITE ,I %\LD ALSO BE GAGG$ ON ! QUE/ION ( ! ,BOL%EVIKI4 ,I HAD KEPT SIL5T LONG 5\<4 ,I HAD WITNESS$ ! SLAU<T] ( ! ,REVOLUTION & HAD HE>D ITS DEA?-RATTLE4 ,I HAD WEI<$ ! EVID5CE ?AT WAS DAILY BE+ ADD$ TO ! M\NTA9 ( ,BOL%EVIK CRIMES4 ,I HAD SE5 ! COLLAPSE ( ! LA/ VE/IGE ( REVOLUTION>Y PRET5SE ( ! DICTATOR%IP4 ,& ALL ,I HAD DONE DUR+ ! TWO YE>S WAS TO BEAT MY *E/ & CRY3 0,I HAVE S9N$1 S9N$40 ,9 ,AM]ICA ,I HAD PRESUM$ TO WRITE ,! ,TRU? AB\T ! ,BOL%EVIKI & TO UPHOLD & DEF5D !M 9 ! S9C]E & IGNORANT BELIEF ?AT !Y W]E ! PROTAGONI/S ( ! ,REVOLUTION4 ,N[ ?AT ,I KNEW ! TRU?1 WAS ,I TO BE =C$ TO SLAY IT & KEEP SIL5T8 ,NO1 ,I MU/ PROTE/4 ,I MU/ CRY \T AGA9/ ! GIGANTIC DECEPTION POS+ AS TRU? & JU/ICE4 

,?IS ,I TOLD ,SA%A & ,S*APIRO4 ,!Y ALSO W]E DET]M9$ TO SPEAK \T1 &1 9DE$1 ,SA%A HAD ALREADY WRITT5 A S]IES ( >TICLES DEAL+ ) V>I\S PHASES ( ! ,BOL%EVIK REGIME1 & !Y W]E BE+ PUBLI%$ 9 ! AN>*I/ PRESS4 ,BUT BO? HE & ,S*APIRO EMPHASIZ$ ?AT ! WORK]S W\LD NOT CR$IT MY /ORY IF PUBLI%$ 9 A CAPITALI/ PAP] LIKE ! ,NEW ,YORK ,WORLD4 ,I DID NOT M9D ,S*APIRO'S OBJECTION BECAUSE HE WAS ( ! OLD SECT>IAN S*OOL ?AT HAD ALWAYS FR[N$ ON ! IDEA ( AN>*I/S' WRIT+ = B\RGEOIS PUBLICATIONS1 ?\< NE>LY ALL ( \R LEAD+ COMRADES HAD DONE SO4 ,BUT ,SA%A KNEW ?AT ! BULK ( WORK]S1 P>TICUL>LY 9 ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES1 READ NO?+ BUT ! CAPITALI/ PAP]S4 ,IT WAS !Y :OM HE WANT$ TO 5LI<T5 ON ! DIFF]5CE BETWE5 ! ,REVOLUTION & ,BOL%EVISM4 ,HIS ATTITUDE HURT ME V]Y MU* & WE >GU$ = DAYS4 ,I HAD REPEAT$LY WRITT5 = ! ,NEW ,YORK ,WORLD 9 ! PA/1 AS WELL AS = O!R SIMIL> PUBLICATIONS4 ,WAS IT NOT MORE IMPORTANT H[ & :AT ONE SAID ?AN :]E8 ,SA%A 9SI/$ ?AT IT DID NOT APPLY 9 ?IS CASE4 ,ANY?+ ,I MI<T WRITE 9 ! CAPITALI/ PRESS W\LD 9EVITABLY BE US$ BY ! REACTION>IES AGA9/ ,RUSSIA & ,I W\LD JU/LY BE C5SUR$ = IT BY \R [N COMRADES4 ,I WAS WELL AW>E ( IT4 ,HAD ,I NOT MYSELF CONDEMN$ ! OLD REVOLUTIONI/ ,BRE%KOVSKAYA = SPEAK+ UND] ! AUSPICES ( B\RGEOIS SPONSORS8 ,NO?+ MY COMRADES W\LD SAY AGA9/ ME C\LD BE SO LAC]AT+ AS ! COMPUNCTION ,I SUFF]$ = HAV+ SAT 9 JUDGM5T OV] ,BABU%KA4 ,FIFTY YE>S ( H] LIFE HAD GONE 9TO ! PREP>ATION ( ! ,REVOLUTION1 ONLY TO SEE IT EXPLOIT$ BY ! ,COMMUNI/ ,P>TY = ITS POLITICAL AIMS4 ,%E HAD WITNESS$ ! GREAT DEBACLE :ILE ,I HAD BE5 ?\S&S ( MILES AWAY4 ,& ,I HAD ADD$ MY /ONE TO ! PILE HURL$ AGA9/ H] :5 %E HAD BE5 9 ,AM]ICA4 ,= ?AT V]Y REASON ,I MU/ SPEAK \T N[4 ,BUT ,SA%A URG$ ?AT WE C\LD DO SO BY MEANS ( PAMPHLETS ?AT \R PEOPLE W\LD CIRCULATE4 ,HE HAD SEV]AL ( !M 9 PREP>ATION2 A NUMB] ( HIS >TICLES HAD ALREADY APPE>$ 9 \R PRESS2 ?REE ( !M HAD ALSO BE5 PUBLI%$ 9 ! ,NEW ,YORK ,CALL1 ! ,SOCIALI/ DAILY4 ,:Y C\LD ,I NOT DO ! SAME8 ,! COMRADES ( ! ,9T]NATIONAL ,AID ,F$]ATION 9 ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES W]E ALSO URG+ SIMIL> MEANS = MY PRES5TATION ( ! ,RUSSIAN SITUATION4 ,!Y HAD CABL$ & WRITT51 /RESS+ ?AT ,I REFRA9 FROM WRIT+ = ! CAPITALI/ PRESS4 ,!IR MA9 PO9T WAS ?AT IT W\LD HURT ! CAUSE4 ,!IR CONDEMNATION LEFT ME COLD4 ,BUT IT WAS DIFF]5T ) ,SA%A4 ,HE WAS MY LIFELONG COMRADE 9 >MS1 MY FRI5D & FELL[ FI<T] 9 A HUNDR$ BATTLES ?AT HAD SCOR*$ \R BE+S & TE/$ \R S\LS4 ,WE HAD GONE \R SEP>ATE WAYS :ILE 9 ,RUSSIA REG>D+ ! QUE/ION ( 0REVOLUTION>Y NECESSITY40 ,!RE HAD BE5 NO BREAK BETWE5 US1 H[EV]1 BECAUSE ,I ALSO HAD BE5 UNC]TA9 = A LONG TIME 9 MY /&4 ,KRON/ADT HAD CLE>$ \R M9DS & HAD BR\<T US CLOS] AGA94 ,IT WAS H>R[+ N[ TO HAVE TO TAKE A POSITION SO DIV]G5T FROM MY FRI5D'S ATTITUDE4 ,DAYS & WEEKS W5T 9TO ! CONFLICT1 ! H>DE/ LIFE HAD ALLOTT$ ME4 ,ALL ?R\< ! SPIRITUAL TORTURE IT BEAT AGA9/ MY BRA93 ,I MU/1 ,I W\LD BE HE>D1 EV5 IF IT %\LD BE = ! LA/ TIME4 ,F9ALLY ,I CABL$ TO ,/ELLA TO TURN OV] ! >TICLES1 SEV5 9 ALL1 TO ! ,NEW ,YORK ,WORLD4 

,9 MY DECISION ,I WAS SP>$ ! BITT]NESS ( COMPLETE ISOLATION4 ,\R ,GR& ,OLD ,MAN ,5RICO ,MALATE/A1 ,MAX ,NETTLAU1 ,RUDOLF ,ROCK]1 ! ,LONDON ,FRE$OM GR\P1 ,ALB]T & ,ELISE ,J5S51 ,H>RY ,KELLY1 & SEV]AL O!R FRI5DS & COMRADES :OSE OP9ION ,I VALU$ EXPRESS$ !IR APPROVAL ( MY /&4 ,I %\LD HAVE WALK$ ! WAY ( ,GOLGO?A 9 ANY EV5T4 ,BUT IT WAS BALM TO HAVE !IR SUPPORT4 

,I WAS TOO F> AWAY TO WITNESS ! FURY MY >TICLES >\S$ 9 ! ,COMMUNI/ RANKS OR TO BE AFFECT$ BY !IR POISON\S V5OM4 ,BUT FROM ! DESCRIPTIONS S5T ME AB\T ,COMMUNI/ MEET+S AGA9/ ME & FROM !IR PRESS ,I C\LD SEE ! SIMIL>ITY BETWE5 !IR BLOOD-LU/ & ?AT ( ,S\!RN :ITES AT ,NEGRO LYN*+S4 ,ONE SU* OCCASION MU/ HAVE BE5 MO/ $IFY+3 ! GA!R+ PRESID$ OV] BY ,ROSE ,PA/OR ,/OKES4 ,ONCE %E HAD SAT AT ,E4,G4'S FEET -- N[ %E WAS CALL+ = VOLUNTE]S TO BURN ,E4,G41 AT LEA/ 9 EFFIGY4 ,:AT A PICTURE6 ,! *AIRLADY 9TON+ ! ,9T]NATIONAL1 & ! AUDI5CE HOLD+ H&S 9 AN ORGIA/IC DANCE R\ND ! FLAMES LICK+ ,EMMA ,GOLDMAN'S BODY TO ! TUNE ( ! LIB]AT+ SONG4 

,! /]EOTYP$ ACCUSATION ?AT ,I HAD =SWORN MY REVOLUTION>Y PA/1 BY PEOPLE :O HAD NO PA/ TO =SWE>1 WAS ALSO NO?+ TO WORRY AB\T4 ,:AT DID TR\BLE ME WAS ?AT ! ,NEW ,YORK ,WORLD HAD NOT RAT$ MY LIT]>Y VALUE AS HI<LY AS DID MY ,COMMUNI/ ADMIR]S4 ,IT HAD PAID ME A PALTRY ?REE HUNDR$ DOLL>S = EA* >TICLE1 OR TW5TY-ONE HUNDR$ DOLL>S = ! S]IES ( SEV54 ,& IT WAS BE+ H]ALD$ BY ! ,COMMUNI/ *ORUS ?AT ?IRTY ?\S& DOLL>S HAD BE5 PAID TO ! TRAITOR ,E4,G4 ,I WAS WI%+ IT W]E TRUE6 ,I MI<T HAVE SAV$ AT LEA/ SOME PORTION ( IT = ! ,RUSSIAN POLITICAL VICTIMS :O W]E SUFF]+ COLD1 HUNG]1 & DESPAIR 9 ! PRISONS & EXILE ( ! ,BOL%EVIK P>ADISE4 

,UND] PRESSURE FROM ! ,SW$I% SYNDICALI/S ,BRANT+ HAD EXT5D$ P]MISSION = US TO /AY = ANO!R MON?4 ,IT WAS TO BE ! LA/4 ,VISAS TO O!R C\NTRIES W]E NOT 9 SI<T1 & ,SA%A & ,S*APIRO DECID$ TO TAKE MATT]S 9TO !IR [N H&S4 ,! LATT] SOON LEFT & ,SA%A WAS TO GO NEXT4 ,A COMRADE 9 ,PRAGUE HAD SECUR$ A VISA = ME TO ,CZE*OSLOVAKIA & ,I IMPLOR$ ,SA%A TO ALL[ \R FRI5D TO DO ! SAME = HIM4 ,BUT ! M]E SUGGE/ION ( IT >\S$ HIS WRA?4 

,SA%A /[$ AWAY ON A TRAMP /EAM]1 BUT BE=E ! BOAT PULL$ \T ( ,/OCKHOLM WORD REA*$ ME FROM ! ,AU/RIAN ,CONSULATE ?AT A VISA HAD BE5 GRANT$ US4 ,SICK ) FE> ?AT ! BOAT MI<T LEAVE BE=E ,I %\LD HAVE ! VISA 9 MY H&S1 ,I DID NOT C>E IF ! *AUFFEUR BROKE ALL SPE$ LIMITS4 ,I F\ND ! VISA READY = ALL ?REE ( US1 BUT ) IT A DEM& ( ! ,AU/RIAN ,M9I/] = ,=EIGN ,AFFAIRS ?AT WE GIVE A WRITT5 PL$GE NOT TO 5GAGE 9 ANY POLITICAL ACTIVITIES 9 HIS C\NTRY4 ,I HAD NO 9T5TION ( DO+ SO1 & ,I WAS CONFID5T ?AT NEI!R ( ! BOYS W\LD CONS5T TO IT4 ,H[EV]1 ,I C\LD NOT DISCLOSE ! CL&E/9E DEP>TURE ( ! ONE & ! IMP5D+ GO+ ( ! O!R4 ,I W\LD CONSULT MY COMRADES1 ,I TOLD ! ,CONSUL1 & RETURN ) ! ANSW] ! NEXT DAY4 ,IT WAS NOT ALTOGE!R A LIE1 AS ,I /ILL HAD TIME TO REA* ,SA%A4 ,A BLIZZ>D HAD DESC5D$ ON ! CITY1 & ! BOAT WAS HELD UP = =TY-EI<T H\RS4 ,IT AF=D$ ME ! *ANCE TO S5D WORD TO ,SA%A AB\T ! ,AU/RIAN VISA & ! /R+ ATTA*$ TO IT4 ,I DID NOT EXPECT HIM TO ACCEPT IT1 BUT ,I FELT HE %\LD BE 9=M$ AB\T IT4 ,A Y\NG ,SW$I% FRI5D1 ! ONE COM=T+ ASSOCIATION ( MY DISMAL SOJ\RN 9 ,/OCKHOLM1 BR\<T BACK WORD ?AT ,SA%A HAD DECID$ ON HIS C\RSE & W\LD NOT BE SW]V$ FROM IT4 ,I HOV]$ AB\T ! NEI<BORHOOD ( ! :>F 9 ! DEEP SN[ TO BE NE> \R /[AWAY1 :OM FATE HAD WOV5 9TO ! V]Y TEXTURE ( MY LIFE4 

,A WEEK AFT] ,SA%A'S DEP>TURE ,I ALSO DECID$ ON A SUB ROSA R\TE4 ,ACCOMPANI$ BY MY Y\NG COMPANION1 ,I TRAVEL$ TO ! S\!RN P>T ( ,SW$5 9 ! HOPE ( F9D+ !RE MEANS TO BE SMUGGL$ OV] TO ,D5M>K4 ,SOME SAILORS MY FRI5D KNEW HAD AGRE$ TO AID ME = ?REE HUNDR$ KRON51 EQUAL TO AB\T A HUNDR$ DOLL>S4 ,AT ! LA/ MOM5T !Y DEM&$ D\BLE ! AM\NT4 ,I WAS NOT IMPRESS$ ) !IR RELIABILITY & WE DROPP$ ! S*EME4 ,WE F\ND A MAN ) A MOTOR BOAT4 ,WE W]E 9/RUCT$ TO GET ABO>D BE=E MIDNI<T1 ! 0LADY TO LIE FLAT & COV]$ ) A BLANKET UNTIL ! 9SPECTOR HAD MADE HIS R\NDS40 ,I DID4 ,IT WAS NOT ! 9SPECTOR1 H[EV]4 ,IT WAS A POLICEMAN4 ,WE EXPLA9$ ?AT WE W]E LOV]S & DE/ITUTE1 & WE HAD TAK5 REFUGE ON ! BOAT4 ,HE WAS A K9DLY MAN1 BUT HE WANT$ TO >RE/ US JU/ ! SAME1 UNTIL A G5]\S TIP *ANG$ HIS M9D4 ,I C\LD NOT HELP LAU<+ AT \R IMPROMPTU /ORY1 = IT REALLY EXPRESS$ ! SITUATION4 

,MY FRI5D WAS CRE/FALL5 AT ! WAY ?+S W]E BUNGL$4 ,I CONSOL$ HIM BY SAY+ ?AT ,I HAD ALWAYS BE5 A BUM CONSPIRATOR & ?AT ,I WAS GLAD ! S*EME HAD FAIL$4 ,IT HAD C]TA9 ADVANTAGES1 H[EV] -- DID IT NOT GIVE ME A *ANCE TO SEE A W>M] P>T ( ,SW$5 & MORE ATTRACTIVE WOM5 ?AN ! CAPITAL1 & -- NOT ! LEA/ -- =TY NEW V>IETIES ( HORS-D'OEUVRE ?AT W\LD 9SPIRE ! MO/ FA/IDI\S G\RMET4 

,UPON MY RETURN TO ,/OCKHOLM ! NEXT DAY1 ,I F\ND A LETT] FROM ! ,G]MAN ,CONSUL4 ,A VISA = T5 DAYS HAD BE5 GRANT$ ME4 

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