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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,ALEX&] ,B]KMAN 

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,ALL NI<T ,I TOSS SLEEPLESSLY ON ! COT1 & PACE ! CELL 9 N]V\S AGITATION1 WAIT+ = ! DAWN4 ,) RE/LESS JOY ,I WAT* ! D>KNESS MELT1 AS ! FIR/ RAYS H]ALD ! COM+ ( ! DAY4 ,IT IS ! #a#h? ( ,MAY -- MY LA/ DAY1 MY V]Y LA/6 ,A FEW MORE H\RS1 & ,I %ALL WALK ?R\< ! GATES1 & DR9K 9 ! W>M SUN%9E & ! BALMY AIR1 & BE FREE TO GO & COME AS ,I PLEASE1 AFT] ! NI<TM>E ( ?IRTE5 YE>S & T5 MON?S 9 JAIL1 P5IT5TI>Y1 & WORKH\SE4 

,MY /EP QUICK5S ) ! EXCITEM5T ( ! \TSIDE1 & ,I TRY TO :ILE AWAY ! HEAVY H\RS ?9K+ ( FRE$OM & ( FRI5DS4 ,BUT MY BRA9 IS 9 A TURMOIL2 ,I CANNOT CONC5TRATE MY ?\<TS4 ,VISIONS ( ! NE> FUTURE1 IMAGES ( ! PA/1 FLA% BE=E ME1 & CR[D EA* O!R 9 BEWILD]+ CONFUSION4 

,AGA9 & AGA9 MY M9D REV]TS TO ! UNNECESS>Y CRUELTY ?AT HAS KEPT ME 9 PRISON ?REE MON?S OV] & ABOVE MY TIME4 ,IT WAS %E] SOPHI/RY TO CONSID] ME A 0NEW0 PRISON]1 5TITL$ ONLY TO TWO MON?S' COMMUTATION4 ,AS A MATT] ( FACT1 ,I WAS S]V+ ! LA/ YE> ( A TW5TY-TWO-YE> S5T5CE1 & !RE=E ,I %\LD HAVE RECEIV$ FIVE MON?S TIME (F4 ,! ,SUP]9T5D5T HAD REPEAT$LY PROMIS$ TO 9=M ME ( ! DECISION ( ! ,BO>D ( ,DIRECTORS1 & EV]Y DAY1 = WEEKS & MON?S1 ,I ANXI\SLY WAIT$ = WORD FROM !M4 ,NONE EV] CAME1 & ,I HAD TO S]VE ! FULL T5 MON?S4 

,AH1 WELL1 IT IS ALMO/ OV] N[6 ,I HAVE PASS$ MY LA/ NI<T 9 ! CELL1 & ! MORN+ IS H]E1 ! PRECI\S1 BLESS$ MORN+6 

,H[ SL[LY ! M9UTES CREEP6 ,I LI/5 9T5TLY1 & CAT* ! S\ND ( B>S BE+ UNLOCK$ ON ! BOTTOM RANGE3 IT IS ! ,NI<T ,CAPTA9 TURN+ ! KIT*5 M5 \T TO PREP>E BREAKFA/ -- #e ,A4,M46 ,TWO & A HALF H\RS YET BE=E ,I %ALL BE CALL$2 TWO 5DLESS H\RS1 & !N ANO!R ?IRTY LONG M9UTES4 ,WILL !Y EV] PASS8 ,& AGA9 ,I PACE ! CELL4 

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,! GONG R+S ! RIS+ H\R4 ,9 GREAT AGITATION ,I GA!R UP MY BLANKETS1 T9CUP & SPOON1 :I* MU/ BE DELIV]$ AT ! (FICE BE=E ,I AM DIS*>G$4 ,MY HE>T BEATS TURBUL5TLY1 AS ,I /& AT ! DOOR1 WAIT+ TO BE CALL$4 ,BUT ! GU>D UNLOCKS ! RANGE & ORD]S ME TO 0FALL 9 = BREAKFA/40 

,! /RIP$ L9E W9DS D[N ! /AIRS1 PA/ ! LYNX EY$ ,DEPUTY /&+ 9 ! MIDDLE ( ! HALLWAY1 & SL[LY CIRCLES ?R\< ! C5T]1 :]E EA* MAN RECEIVES HIS PORTION ( BREAD = ! DAY & RETURNS TO HIS TI]4 ,! TURNKEY1 ON HIS R\NDS ( ! RANGE1 CA/S A GLANCE 9TO MY CELL 0,NOT WORK9'10 HE SAYS ME*ANICALLY1 %UTT+ ! DOOR 9 MY FACE4 

0,I'M GO+ \T10 ,I PROTE/4 

0,NOT TILL Y\'RE CALL$10 HE RETORTS1 LOCK+ ME 94 

,I /& AT ! DOOR1 T5SE ) SUSP5SE4 ,I /RA9 MY E> = ! APPROA* ( A GU>D TO CALL ME TO ! (FICE1 BUT ALL REMA9S QUIET4 ,A VAGUE FE> /EALS OV] ME3 P]HAPS !Y WILL NOT RELEASE ME TO-DAY2 ,I MAY BE LOS+ TIME4 44 ,A FEEL+ ( NAUSEA OV]COMES ME1 BUT BY A /RONG EF=T ,I ?R[ (F ! DREADFUL FANCY1 & QUICK5 MY /EP4 ,I MU/ NOT ?9K -- NOT ?9K4 4 4 4 

,AT LA/6 ,! LEV] IS PULL$1 MY CELL UNLOCK$1 & ) A DOZ5 O!R M5 ,I AM M>*$ TO ! CLO!S-ROOM1 9 S+LE FILE & LOCK/EP4 ,I AWAIT MY TURN IMPATI5TLY1 AS SEV]AL M5 >E UNDRESS$ & !IR NAK$ BODIES SCRUT9IZ$ = CONTRAB& OR HIDD5 MESSAGES4 ,! OV]SE] FL+S A SMALL BAG AT EA* MAN1 CONTA9+ ! PRISON]'S CIVILIAN G>B1 %\T+ BOI/]\SLY3 0,HEY1 Y\6 ,TAKE (F !M CLO!S1 & PUT Y\R RAGS ON40 

,I DRESS HURRI$LY4 ,A GU>D ACCOMPANIES ME TO ! (FICE1 :]E MY BELONG+S >E RETURN$ TO ME3 SOME MONEY FRI5DS HAD S5T1 MY WAT*1 & ! PIECE ( IVORY ! P5IT5TI>Y TURNKEY HAD /OL5 FROM ME1 & :I* ,I HAD 9SI/$ ON GETT+ BACK BE=E ,I LEFT ,RIV]SIDE4 ,! (FIC] 9 *>GE H&S ME A RAILROAD TICKET TO ,PITTSBUR< 7! F>E CO/+ AB\T ?IRTY C5TS71 & ,I AM CONDUCT$ TO ! PRISON GATE4 

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,! SUN %9ES BRI<TLY 9 ! Y>D1 ! SKY IS CLE>1 ! AIR FRE% & BRAC+4 ,N[ ! LA/ GATE WILL BE ?R[N OP51 & ,I %ALL BE \T ( SI<T ( ! GU>D1 BEYOND ! B>S1 -- ALONE6 ,H[ ,I HAVE HUNG]$ = ?IS H\R1 H[ (T5 9 ! PA/ YE>S HAVE ,I DREAM$ ( ?IS RAPTUR\S MOM5T -- TO BE ALONE1 \T 9 ! OP51 AWAY FROM ! 9SOL5T EYES ( MY KEEP]S6 ,I'LL RU% AWAY FROM !SE WALLS & KNEEL ON ! W>M SOD1 & KISS ! SOIL & EMBRACE ! TREES1 & ) A SONG ( JOY GIVE ?ANKS TO ,NATURE = ! BLESS+S ( SUN%9E & AIR4 ,! \T] DOOR OP5S BE=E ME1 & ,I AM CONFRONT$ BY REPORT]S ) CAM]AS4 ,SEV]AL TALL M5 APPROA* ME4 ,ONE ( !M T\*ES ME ON ! %\LD]1 TURNS BACK ! LAPEL ( HIS COAT1 REVEAL+ A POLICE (FIC]'S />1 & SAYS3 

0,B]KMAN1 Y\ >E TO LEAVE ! CITY BE=E NI<T1 BY ORD] ( ! ,*IEF40 

,! DETECTIVES & REPORT]S TRAIL+ ME TO ! NE>BY RAILWAY /ATION ATTRACT A CURI\S CR[D4 ,I HA/5 9TO A C> TO ESCAPE !IR 9SI/5T GAZE1 FEEL+ GLAD ?AT ,I HAVE PREVAIL$ UPON MY FRI5DS NOT TO MEET ME AT ! PRISON4 

,MY M9D IS BUSY ) PLANS TO \TWIT ! DETECTIVES1 :O HAVE 5T]$ ! SAME COMP>TM5T4 ,I HAVE >RANG$ TO JO9 ! ,GIRL 9 ,DETROIT4 ,I HAVE NO P>TICUL> REASON TO MASK MY MOVEM5TS1 BUT ,I RES5T ! SURVEILLANCE4 ,I MU/ GET RID ( ! SPIES1 SOMEH[2 ,I DON'T WANT !IR HATEFUL EYES TO DESECRATE MY MEET+ ) ! ,GIRL4 

,I FEEL DAZ$4 ,! %ORT RIDE TO ,PITTSBUR< IS OV] BE=E ,I CAN COLLECT MY ?\<TS4 ,! D9 & NOISE R5D MY E>S2 ! RU%+ C>S1 ! CLANG+ BELLS1 BEWILD] ME4 ,I AM AFRAID TO CROSS ! /REET2 ! FLY+ MON/]S PURSUE ME ON EV]Y SIDE4 ,! CR[DS JO/LE ME ON ! SIDEWALK1 & ,I AM CON/ANTLY RUNN+ 9TO ! PASS]SBY4 ,! TURMOIL1 ! CEASELESS MOVEM5T1 DISCONC]TS ME4 ,A HORSELESS C>RIAGE :IZZES CLOSE BY ME2 ,I TURN TO LOOK AT ! FIR/ AUTOMOBILE ,I HAVE EV] SE51 BUT ! LIV+ CURR5T SWEEPS ME HELPLESSLY ALONG4 ,A WOMAN PASSES ME1 ) A *ILD 9 H] >MS4 ,! BABY LOOKS /RANGELY DIM9UTIVE1 A ROSY DIMPLE 9 ! LAU<+ FACE4 ,I SMILE BACK AT ! LITTLE *]UB1 & MY EYES MEET ! GAZE ( ! DETECTIVES4 ,A WILD ?\<T TO ESCAPE2 TO GET AWAY FROM !M1 POSSESSES ME1 & ,I TURN QUICKLY 9TO A SIDE /REET1 & WALK BL9DLY1 FA/] & FA/]4 ,A SUDD5 IMPULSE SEIZES ME AT ! SI<T ( A PASS+ C>1 & ,I DA% AFT] IT4 

0,F>E1 PLEASE60 ! CONDUCTOR S+S \T1 & ,I ALMO/ LAU< \T AL\D AT ! FLEET+ S5SE ( ! MAT]IAL REALITY ( FRE$OM4 ,CONSCI\S ( ! /RANG5ESS ( MY ACTION1 ,I PRODUCE A DOLL> BILL1 & A S5SE ( EXHIL>AT+ 9DEP5D5CE COMES OV] ME1 AS ! MAN C\NTS \T ! SILV] CO9S4 ,I WAT* HIM CLOSELY = A SIGN ( RECOGNITION4 ,DOES HE REALIZE ?AT ,I AM JU/ \T ( PRISON8 ,HE TURNS AWAY1 & ,I FEEL ?ANKFUL TO ! DE> ,*UM = HAV+ SO ?\<TFULLY PROVID$ ME ) A NEW SUIT ( CLO!S4 ,IT IS PECULI>1 H[EV]1 ?AT ! CONDUCTOR HAS FAIL$ TO NOTICE MY CLOSELY CROPP$ HAIR4 ,BUT ! MAN 9 ! SEAT OPPOSITE SEEMS TO BE WAT*+ ME4 ,P]HAPS HE HAS RECOGNIZ$ ME BY MY PICTURE 9 ! NEWSPAP]S2 OR MAY BE IT IS MY /RAW HAT ?AT HAS ATTRACT$ HIS ATT5TION4 ,I GLANCE AB\T ME4 ,NO ONE WE>S SUMM] HEADGE> YET2 IT MU/ BE TOO E>LY 9 ! SEASON4 ,I \<T TO *ANGE IT2 ! DETECTIVES C\LD NOT FOLL[ ME SO EASILY !N4 ,:Y1 !RE !Y >E ON ! BACK PLAT=M6 

,AT ! NEXT /OP ,I JUMP (F ! C>4 ,A HAT SIGN >RE/S MY EYE1 & ,I WALK 9TO ! /ORE1 & !N SLIP QUIETLY ?R\< A SIDE 5TRANCE1 A D>K D]BY ON MY HEAD4 ,I WALK QUICKLY1 = A LONG1 LONG TIME1 BO>D SEV]AL C>S1 & !N WALK AGA91 TILL ,I F9D MYSELF ON A DES]T$ /REET4 ,NO ONE IS FOLL[+ ME N[2 ! DETECTIVES MU/ HAVE LO/ TRACK ( ME4 ,I FEEL WORN & TIR$4 ,:]E C\LD ,I RE/ UP1 ,I WOND]1 :5 ,I SUDD5LY RECOLLECT ?AT ,I WAS TO GO DIRECTLY FROM ! PRISON TO ! DRUG/ORE ( ,COMRADE ,M4 ,MY FRI5DS MU/ BE WORRI$1 & ,M4 IS WAIT+ TO WIRE TO ! ,GIRL AB\T MY RELEASE4 

,IT IS LONG PA/ NOON :5 ,I 5T] ! DRUG/ORE4 ,M4 SEEMS HI<LY WR\<T UP OV] SOME?+2 HE %AKES MY H& VIOL5TLY1 & PLIES ME ) QUE/IONS1 AS HE LEADS ME 9TO HIS AP>TM5TS 9 ! RE> ( ! /ORE4 ,IT SEEMS /RANGE TO BE 9 A REGUL> ROOM3 !RE IS PAP] ON ! WALLS1 & IT FEELS SO PECULI> TO ! T\*1 SO DIFF]5T FROM ! :ITEWA%$ CELL4 ,I PASS MY H& OV] IT C>ESS+LY1 ) A KE5 S5SE ( PLEASURE4 ,! *AIRS1 TOO1 LOOK /RANGE1 & ?OSE QUA9T ?+S ON ! TABLE4 ,! BRIC-A-BRAC ABSORBS MY ATT5TION ! PEOPLE 9 ! ROOM LOOK HAZY1 !IR VOICES S\ND DI/ANT & CONFUS$4 

0,:Y DON'T Y\ SIT D[N1 ,ALECK80 ! TONES >E MUSICAL & T5D]2 A WOMAN'S1 NO D\BT4 

0,YES10 ,I REPLY1 WALK+ >\ND ! TABLE1 & PICK+ UP A BRI<T TOY4 ,IT REPRES5TS ,UND9E1 RIS+ FROM ! WAT]1 ! SPRAY GLI/5+ 9 ! SUN4 4 4 4 

0,>E Y\ TIR$1 ,ALECK80 

0,N -- NO40 

0,Y\ HAVE JU/ COME \T80 0,YES40 

,IT REQUIRES AN EF=T TO TALK4 ,! LA/ YE>1 9 ! WORKH\SE1 ,I HAVE B>ELY SPOK5 A DOZ5 WORDS2 !RE WAS ALWAYS ABSOLUTE SIL5CE4 ,! VOICES DI/URB ME4 ,! PRES5CE ( SO MANY PEOPLE -- !RE >E ?REE OR F\R AB\T ME -- IS OPPRESSIVE4 ,! ROOM REM9DS ME ( ! CELL1 & ! DESIRE SEIZES ME TO RU% \T 9TO ! OP51 TO BREA! ! AIR & SEE ! SKY4 

0,I'M GO+10 ,I SAY1 SNAT*+ UP MY HAT4 

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,! TRA9 SPE$S ME TO ,DETROIT1 & ,I WOND] VAGUELY H[ ,I REA*$ ! /ATION4 ,MY BRA9 IS NUMB2 ,I CANNOT ?9K4 ,FIELD & =E/ FLIT BY 9 ! GA!R+ DUSK1 BUT ! SURR\ND+S WAKE NO 9T]E/ 9 ME4 0,I AM RID ( ! DETECTIVES0 -- ! ?\<T P]SI/S 9 MY M9D1 & ,I FEEL SOME?+ RELAX )9 ME1 & LEAVE ME COLD1 )\T EMOTION OR DESIRE4 

,) AN EF=T ,I DESC5D TO ! PLAT=M1 & SWAY FROM SIDE TO SIDE1 AS ,I CROSS ! /ATION AT ,DETROIT4 ,A MAN & A GIRL HA/5 T[>D ME1 & GRASP ME BY ! H&4 ,I RECOGNIZE ,C>L4 ,! DE> BOY1 HE WAS A MO/ FAI?FUL & *E]+ CORRESPOND5T ALL !SE YE>S S9CE HE LEFT ! P5IT5TI>Y4 ,BUT :O IS ! GIRL ) HIM1 ,I WOND]1 :5 MY GAZE FALLS ON A WOMAN LEAN+ AGA9/ A PILL>4 ,%E LOOKS 9T5TLY AT ME4 ,! WAVE ( H] HAIR1 ! FAMILI> EYES -- :Y1 IT'S ! ,GIRL6 ,H[ LITTLE %E HAS *ANG$6 ,I TAKE A FEW /EPS =W>D1 SOME:AT SURPRIS$ ?AT %E DID NOT RU% UP TO ME LIKE ! O!RS4 ,I FEEL PLEAS$ AT H] SELF-POSSESSION3 ! EXCIT$ VOICES1 ! QUICK MOTIONS1 DI/URB ME4 ,I WALK SL[LY T[>D H]1 BUT %E DOES NOT MOVE4 ,%E SEEMS ROOT$ TO ! SPOT1 H] H& GRASP+ ! PILL>1 A LOOK ( AWE & T]ROR 9 H] FACE4 ,SUDD5LY %E ?R[S H] >MS >\ND ME4 ,H] LIPS MOVE1 BUT NO S\ND REA*ES MY E>4 

,WE WALK 9 SIL5CE4 ,! ,GIRL PRESSES A B\QUET 9TO MY H&4 ,MY HE>T IS FULL1 BUT ,I CANNOT TALK4 ,I HOLD ! FL[]S TO MY FACE1 & ME*ANICALLY BITE ! PETALS4 

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,DETROIT1 ,*ICAGO1 & ,MILWAUKEE PASS BE=E ME LIKE A TR\BL$ DREAM4 ,I HAVE A FA9T RECOLLECTION ( A SEA ( FACES1 RE/LESS & TURBUL5T1 & ,I 9 ITS MID/4 ,CONFUS$ VOICES BEAT LIKE HAMM]S ON MY HEAD1 & !N ALL IS V]Y /ILL4 ,I /& 9 FULL VIEW ( ! AUDI5CE4 ,EYES >E TURN$ ON ME FROM EV]Y SIDE1 & ,I GR[ EMB>RASS$4 ,! CR[D LOOKS DIM & HAZY2 ,I FEEL HOT & COLD1 & A GREAT LONG+ TO FLEE4 ,! P]SPIRATION IS RUNN+ D[N MY BACK2 MY KNEES TREMBLE VIOL5TLY1 ! FLOOR IS SLIPP+ FROM UND] MY FEET -- !RE IS A TUMULT ( H& CLAPP+1 L\D *E]S & BRAVOS4 

,WE RETURN TO ,C>L'S H\SE1 & M5 & WOM5 GRASP MY H& & LOOK AT ME ) EYES ( CURI\S AWE4 ,I FANCY A T\* ( PITY 9 !IR TONES1 & AM IMPATI5T ( !IR SYMPA?Y4 ,A S5SE ( SUFFOCATION POSSESSES ME )9 DOORS1 & ,I DREAD ! PRES5CE ( PEOPLE4 ,IT IS TORTURE TO TALK2 ! S\ND ( VOICES AGONIZES ME4 ,I WAT* = AN OPPORTUNITY TO /EAL \T ( ! H\SE4 ,IT SOO!S ME TO LOSE MYSELF AMONG ! CR[DS1 & A S5SE ( QUIET P]VADES ME AT ! ?\<T ?AT ,I AM A /RANG] TO EV]Y ONE AB\T ME4 ,I ROAM ! CITY AT NI<T1 & SEEK ! \TLY+ C\NTRY1 CONSCI\S ONLY ( A DESIRE TO BE ALONE4 

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,I AM 9 ! ,WALDHEIM1 ! ,GIRL AT MY SIDE4 ,ALL IS QUIET 9 ! CEMET]Y1 & ,I FEEL A GREAT PEACE4 ,NO EMOTION /IRS ME AT ! SI<T ( ! MONUM5T1 SAVE A FEEL+ ( QUIET SADNESS4 ,IT REPRES5TS A WOMAN1 ) ONE H& PLAC+ A WREA? ON ! FALL51 ) ! O!R GRASP+ A SWORD4 ,! M>BLE FEATURES MIRROR UNUTT]ABLE GRIEF & PR\D DEFIANCE4 

,I GLANCE AT ! ,GIRL4 ,H] FACE IS AV]T$1 BUT ! DROOP ( H] HEAD SPEAKS ( SUFF]+4 ,I HOLD \T MY H& TO H]1 & WE /& 9 MUTE SORR[ AT ! GRAVES ( \R M>TYR$ COMRADES4 4 4 4 ,I HAVE A VISION ( ,/5KA ,RAZ91 AS ,I HAD SE5 HIM PICTUR$ 9 MY Y\?1 & AT HIS SIDE HANG ! BODIES ( ! M5 BURI$ B5EA? MY FEET4 ,:Y >E !Y DEAD8 ,I WOND]4 ,:Y %\LD ,I LIVE8 ,& A GREAT DESIRE TO LIE D[N ) !M IS UPON ME4 ,I CLUT* ! IRON PO/1 TO KEEP FROM FALL+4 

,/EPS S\ND BEH9D ME1 & ,I TURN TO SEE A GIRL HA/5+ T[>D US4 ,%E IS RADIANT ) Y\NG WOMANHOOD2 H] PRES5CE BREA!S LIFE & ! JOY ( IT4 ,H] BOSOM HEAVES ) PANT+1 H] FACE /RUGGLES ) A SOLEMN LOOK4 0,I RAN ALL ! WAY10 H] VOICE IS S(T & L[2 0,I WAS AFRAID ,I MI<T MISS Y\40 

,! ,GIRL SMILES4 0,LET US GO 9 SOME:]E TO RE/ UP1 ,ALICE40 ,TURN+ TO ME1 %E ADDS1 0,%E RAN TO SEE -- Y\40 

,H[ PECULI> ! ,GIRL %\LD CONCEIVE SU* AN IDEA6 ,IT IS ABSURD4 ,:Y %\LD ,ALICE BE ANXI\S TO SEE ME8 ,I LOOK OLD & WORN2 MY /EP IS LANGUID1 UN/EADY4 4 4 4 ,BITT] ?\<TS FILL MY M9D1 AS WE RIDE BACK ON ! TRA9 TO ,*ICAGO4 

0,Y\ >E SAD10 ! ,GIRL REM>KS4 0,ALICE IS V]Y MU* TAK5 ) Y\4 ,>5'T Y\ GLAD80 

0,Y\ >E MI/AK510 ,I REPLY4 

0,I'M SURE ( IT10 ! ,GIRL P]SI/S4 

0,%ALL ,I ASK H]80 ,%E TURNS TO ,ALICE4 

0,OH1 ,I LIKE Y\ SO MU*1 ,SA%A10 ,ALICE :ISP]S4 ,I LOOK UP TIMIDLY AT H]4 ,%E IS LEAN+ T[>D ME 9 ! AB&ON ( >TLESS T5D]NESS1 & A GREAT JOY /EALS OV] ME1 AS ,I READ 9 H] EYES FRANK AFFECTION4 

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,NEW ,YORK LOOKS UNEXPECT$LY FAMILI>1 ?\< ,I MISS MANY OLD L&M>KS4 ,IT IS TORTURE TO BE 9DOORS1 & ,I ROAM ! /REETS1 EXP]I5C+ A ?RILL ( K9%IP :5 ,I LOCATE ONE ( MY OLD HAUNTS4 

,I FEEL LITTLE 9T]E/ 9 ! L>GE MEET+ >RANG$ TO GREET ME BACK 9TO ! WORLD4 ,YET ,I AM CONSCI\S ( SOME CURIOSITY AB\T ! COMRADES ,I MAY MEET !RE4 ,FEW ( ! OLD GU>D HAVE REMA9$4 ,SOME DROPP$ FROM ! RANKS2 O!RS DI$4 ,JOHN ,MO/ WILL NOT BE !RE4 ,I *]I%$ ! HOPE ( MEET+ HIM AGA91 BUT HE DI$ A FEW MON?S BE=E MY RELEASE4 ,HE HAD BE5 UNJU/ TO ME2 BUT :O IS FREE FROM MOM5TS ( WEAKNESS8 ,! PASSAGE ( TIME HAS MELL[$ ! BITT]NESS ( MY RES5TM5T1 & ,I ?9K ( HIM1 MY FIR/ TEA*] ( ,AN>*Y1 ) OLD-TIME ADMIRATION4 ,HIS UNIQUE P]SONALITY /&S \T 9 /RONG RELIEF UPON ! FLAT BACKGR\ND ( HIS TIME4 ,HIS LIFE WAS ! TRAG$Y ( ! EV] UNPOPUL> PIONE]4 ,A SOCIAL ,LE>1 HIS :IT5+ YE>S BR\<T ONLY 9CREAS+ ISOLATION & GREAT] LACK ( UND]/&+1 EV5 )9 HIS [N CIRCLE4 ,HE HAD /RUGGL$ & SUFF]$ MU*2 BE GAVE HIS :OLE LIFE TO ADVANCE ! ,CAUSE1 ONLY TO F9D AT ! LA/ ?AT HE :O CROSSES ! ?RE%OLD MU/ LEAVE ALL BEH9D1 EV5 FRI5D%IP1 EV5 COMRADE%IP4 

,MY OLD FRI5D1 ,JU/US ,S*WAB1 IS ALSO GONE1 & ,BRADY1 ! BIG ,AU/RIAN4 ,FEW ( ! COMRADES ( MY DAY HAVE SURVIV$4 ,! Y\NG] G5]ATION SEEMS DIFF]5T1 UNSATISFACTORY4 ,! ,<ETTO ,I HAD KN[N HAS ALSO DISAPPE>$4 ,PRIMITIVE ,OR*>D ,/REET1 ! SC5E ( \R PIONE] MEET+S1 HAS CON=M$ TO BUS9ESS RESPECTABILITY2 ! HI/ORIC LECTURE HALL1 ?AT RANG ) ! BREAK+ *A9S ( ! AWAK5+ PEOPLE1 HAS BE5 TURN$ 9TO A DANC+-S*OOL2 ! LITTLE CAFE 0>\ND ! CORN]10 ! 9TELLECTUAL >5A ( =M] YE>S1 IS N[ A C\NT+-H\SE4 ,! F]VID 5?USIASM ( ! PA/1 ! ,SPONTANE\S COMRADE%IP 9 ! COMMON CAUSE1 ! 9TOXICATION ( WORLD-LIB]AT+ ZEAL ALL >E GONE ) ! DAYS ( MY Y\?4 ,I S5SE ! SPIRIT ( COLD DELIB]ATION 9 ! NEW SET1 & A TONE ( DISILLUSION$ WISDOM ?AT *ILLS & E/RANGES ME4 

,! ,GIRL HAS ALSO *ANG$4 ,! LITTLE ,SAILOR1 MY COMPANION ( ! DAYS ?AT ?RILL$ ) ! APPROA* ( ! ,SOCIAL ,REVOLUTION1 HAS BECOME A WOMAN ( ! WORLD4 ,H] M9D HAS MATUR$1 BUT H] WID] 9T]E/S ANTAGONIZE MY OLD REVOLUTION>Y TRADITIONS ?AT 9SPIR$ EV]Y DAY & COLOR$ \R EV]Y ACT ) ! DIRECT P]CEPTION ( ! MOM5T>ILY EXPECT$ GREAT UPHEAVAL ,I FEEL AN 9/9CTIVE DISAPPROVAL ( MANY ?+S1 ?\< P>TICUL> 9/ANCES >E 9TANGIBLE & ELUDE MY ANALYSIS4 ,I S5SE A =EIGN ELEM5T 9 ! CIRCLE %E HAS GA!R$ AB\T H]1 & FEEL MYSELF A /RANG] AMONG !M4 ,H] FRI5DS & ADMIR]S CR[D H] HOME1 & TURN IT 9TO A SORT ( SALON2 !Y TALK >T & LIT]ATURE2 DISCUSS SCI5CE & PHILOSOPHIZE OV] ! DI%>MONY ( LIFE4 ,BUT ! GROANS ( ! DUNGEON F9D NO GRIPP+ E*O !RE4 ,! ,GIRL IS ! MO/ REVOLUTION>Y ( !M ALL2 BUT EV5 %E HAS BE5 9FECT$ BY ! AIR ( 9TELLECTUAL ALO(NESS1 FALSE TOL]ANCE & EV]LA/+ PESSIMISM4 ,I RES5T ! SITUATION1 ! MORE ,I BECOME CONSCI\S ( ! *ASM BETWE5 ! ,GIRL & MYSELF4 ,IT SEEMS UNBRIDGEABLE2 WE CANNOT RECOV] ! 9TIMATE NOTE ( \R =M] COMRADE%IP4 ,) PA9 ,I WITNESS H] EVID5T MIS]Y4 ,%E IS UNTIR+ 9 H] C>E & AFFECTION2 ! :OLE CIRCLE LAVI%ES ON ME SYMPA?Y & T5D]NESS4 ,BUT ?R\< IT ALL ,I FEEL ! COMMIS]AT+ TOL]ANCE T[>D A SICK *ILD4 ,I %UN ! ATMOSPH]E ( ! H\SE1 & FLEE TO SEEK ! SOLITUDE ( ! CR[D$ /REETS & ! COMPANION%IP ( ! PLA91 UNTUTOR$ UND]WORLD4 

,9 A ,B[]Y RESORT ,I COME ACROSS ,DAN1 MY ASSI/ANT ON ! RANGE DUR+ MY LA/ YE> 9 ! P5IT5TI>Y4 

0,HELLO1 ,ALECK10 HE SAYS1 TAK+ ME ASIDE1 0AWFUL GLAD TO SEE Y\ \T ( HELL4 ,DO+ ALL RI<T80 

0,SO1 SO1 ,DAN4 ,& Y\60 

0,ROTT51 ,ALECK1 ROTT54 ,Y\ KN[ IT WAS MY FIR/ BIT1 & ,I SWORE ,I'D NEV] DO A CROOK$ JOB AGA94 ,WELL1 !Y TURN$ ME \T ) A FIVE-SPOT1 AFT] F\R YE>S' /EADY WORK1 M9D Y\1 & ?REE ( !M WORK+ MY HEAD (F ON A #a MILES4 ,!N !Y H&$ ME A PAIR ( ,K5TUCKY JEANS1 ?AT ANY FLY-COP C\LD SPOT A MILE (F4 ,MY FRI5DS W5T BACK ON ME -- ?AT FIVE-SPOT WAS ALL ,I HAD 9 ! WORLD1 & IT DIDN'T GO A LONG WAY4 ,LIB]TY A9'T :AT IT LOOKS TO A FELL[ ?R\< ! B>S1 ,ALECK1 BUT IT'S HELL TO GO BACK4 ,I DON'T KN[ :AT TO DO40 

0,H[ DO Y\ HAPP5 H]E1 ,DAN8 ,C\LD Y\ GET NO WORK AT HOME1 9 ,OIL ,CITY80 

0,HOME1 HELL6 ,I WI% ,I HAD A HOME & FRI5DS1 LIKE Y\1 ,ALECK4 ,*RI/1 D'Y\ ?9K ,I'D EV] TURN ANO!R TRICK8 BUTT ,I GOT NO HOME & NO FRI5DS4 ,MO!R DI$ BE=E ,I CAME \T1 & ,I F\ND NO HOME4 ,I GOT A JOB ,9 ,OIL ,CITY1 BUT ! BU,ILS TIPP$ ME (F = AN EX-CON1 & ,I BEAT MY WAY H]E4 ,I TRI$ TO DO ! SQU>E ?+1 ,ALECK1 BUT :]E'S A FELL[ TO TURN8 ,I HAV5'T A C5T & NOT A FRI5D 9 ! WORLD40 

,POOR ,DAN6 ,I FEEL P[]LESS TO HELP HIM1 EV5 ) ADVICE4 ,)\T FRI5DS OR MONEY1 HIS 0LIB]TY0 IS A HOLL[ MOCK]Y1 EV5 WORSE ?AN M9E4 ,FIVE YE>S AGO HE WAS A /RONG1 HEAL?Y Y\NG MAN4 ,HE COMMITT$ A BURGL>Y1 & WAS S5T TO PRISON4 ,N[ HE IS \T1 HIS BODY WEAK5$1 HIS SPIRIT BROK52 HE IS LESS CAPABLE ?AN EV] TO SURVIVE 9 ! /RUGGLE4 ,:AT IS HE TO DO BUT COMMIT ANO!R CRIME & BE RETURN$ TO PRISON8 ,EV5 ,I1 ) SO MANY ADVANTAGES ?AT ,DAN IS LACK+1 ) K9D COMRADES & HELPFUL FRI5DS1 ,I CAN F9D NO PLACE 9 ?IS WORLD ( ! \TSIDE4 ,I HAVE BE5 TORN \T1 & ,I SEEM UNABLE TO TAKE ROOT AGA94 ,EV]Y?+ LOOKS SO DIFF]5T1 *ANG$4 ,& YET ,I FEEL A GREAT HUNG] = LIFE4 ,I C\LD 5JOY ! SUN%9E1 ! OP51 & FRE$OM ( ACTION4 ,I C\LD MAKE MY LIFE & MY PRISON EXP]I5CE USEFUL TO ! WORLD4 ,BUT ,I AM 9CAPACITAT$ = ! /RUGGLE4 ,I DO NOT FIT 9 ANY MORE1 NOT EV5 9 ! CIRCLE ( MY COMRADES4 ,& ?IS SEE?+ LIFE1 ! TURMOIL & ! NOISES ( ! CITY1 AGONIZE ME4 ,P]HAPS IT W\LD BE BE/ = ME TO RETIRE TO ! C\NTRY1 & !RE LEAD A SIMPLE LIFE1 CLOSE TO NATURE4 

,V,I,I,I 

,! SUMM] IS FRAGRANT ) A ?\S& P]FUMES1 & A GREAT PEACE IS 9 ! WOODS4 ,! ,HUDSON ,RIV] %IMM]S 9 ! DI/ANCE1 A SOLIT>Y SAIL ON ITS BROAD BOSOM4 ,! ,PALISADES ON ! OPPOSITE SIDE LOOK IMMUTABLE1 ET]NAL1 !IR UNDULAT+ TOPS MELT+ 9 ! GRAYI%-BLUE HORIZON4 

,PUFFS ( SMOKE RISE FROM ! VALLEY4 ,H]E1 TOO1 HAS P5ETRAT$ ! RE/LESS SPIRIT4 ,! MUFFL$ ?UND] ( BLA/+ BREAKS 9 UPON ! SIL5CE4 ,! GRE$Y H& ( MAN IS DESECRAT+ ! ,PALISADES1 AS IT HAS DESECRAT$ ! RACE4 ,BUT ! BIG RIV] FL[S QUIETLY1 & ! SAILBOAT GLIDES S]5ELY ON ! WAT]S4 ,IT SKIPS OV] ! FOAM+ WAVES1 NE> ! SPOT ,I /& ON1 ! GREAT1 BUSY CITY4 ,N[ IT IS FLOAT+ PA/ ! HI< T[]S !IR =BIDD+ ASPECT4 ,IT IS ,S+ ,S+ PRISON4 ,M5 GO SUFF] !RE1 & >E TORTUR$ 9 ! DUNGEON4 ,& ,I -- ,I AM A USELESS COG1 AN IDL]1 :ILE O!RS TOIL2 & ,I KEEP MUTE O!RS SUFF]4 

,MY M9D DWELLS 9 ! PRISON4 ,! SIL5CE R+S ) ( PA92 ! WOODS E*O ! AGONY ( ! DUNGEON4 ,I />T AT ! MURMUR ( ! LEAVES2 ! TREES ) !IR \T/RET*$ >MS B> MY WAY1 M5AC+ ME LIKE ! GU>DS ON ! PRISON4 ,!IR MON/] %APES FOLL[ ME 9 ! VALLEY4 

,AT NI<T ,I WAKE 9 COLD T]ROR4 ,! AGONIZ$ CRY ( ,SMI?Y IS 9 MY E>S1 & AGA9 ,I HE> ! SICK5+ ?UD ( ! RIOT CLUBS ON ! PRISON]'S HEAD4 ,! SOLITUDE IS H>R[+ ) ! MEMORY ( ! PRISON2 IT HAUNTS ME ) ! HORRORS ( ! BASKET CELL4 ,AWAY1 ,I MU/ AWAY1 TO SEEK RELIEF ! PEOPLE6 

,BACK 9 ! CITY1 ,I FACE ! PROBLEM ( SUPPORT4 ,! S5SE ( DEP5D5CE GNAWS ME4 ,! HOSPITALITY ( MY FRI5DS IS LESS1 BUT ,I CANNOT CONT9UE AS ! B5EFICI>Y ( !IR G5]OSITY4 ,I HAD DECL9$ ! MONEY GIFT PRES5T$ TO ME ON MY RELEASE BY ! COMRADES3 ,I FELT ,I C\LD NOT ACCEPT EV5 !IR WELL-MEANT (F]+4 ,! QUE/ION ( E>N+ MY LIV+ IS GR[+ ACUTE4 ,I CANNOT REMA9 IDLE4 ,BUT :AT %ALL ,I TURN TO8 ,I AM TOO WEAK = FACTORY WORK4 ,I HAD HOP$ TO SECURE EMPLOYM5T AS A COMPOSITOR1 BUT ! L9OTYPE HAS MADE ME SUP]FLU\S4 ,I MI<T BE 5GAG$ AS A PRO(-READ]4 ,MY =M] MEMB]%IP 9 ! ,TYPOGRAPHICAL ,UNION WILL 5ABLE ME TO JO9 ! RANKS ( LABOR4 

,MY PHYSICAL CONDITION1 H[EV]1 PRECLUDES ! 9 REALIZATION ( MY PLANS4 ,MEAN:ILE SOME COMRADES SUGGE/ ! ADVISABILITY ( A %ORT LECTURE T\R3 IT WILL BR+ CLOS] CONTACT ) ! WORLD1 & S]VE TO AWAK5 NEW 9T]E/ 9 LIFE4 ,! IDEA APPEALS TO ME4 ,I %ALL BE DO+ WORK1 USEFUL WORK4 ,I %ALL VOICE ! CRY ( ! DEP?S1 & P]HAPS ! PEOPLE WILL LI/51 & SOME MAY UND]/&6 

,I,X 

,) A GREAT EF=T ,I P]SEV]E ON ! T\R4 ,! /RA9 IS EXHAU/+ MY /R5G?1 & ,I FEEL WE>Y & DISCONT5T$4 ,MY 9NATE DREAD ( PUBLIC SPEAK+ IS AGGRAVAT$ BY ! NECESSITY ( CON/ANT ASSOCIATION ) PEOPLE4 ,! COMRADES >E SYMPA!TIC & ATT5TIVE1 BUT !IR V]Y C>E IS A S\RCE ( ANNOYANCE4 ,I LONG = SOLITUDE & QUIET4 ,9 ! MID/ ( PEOPLE1 ! OLD PRISON 9/9CT ( ESCAPE POSSESSES ME4 ,ONCE OR TWICE ! WILD IDEA ( T]M9AT+ ! T\R HAS CROSS$ MY M9D4 ,! ?\<T IS PREPO/]\S1 IMPOSSIBLE4 ,MEET+S HAVE ALREADY BE5 >RANG$ 9 V>I\S CITIES1 & MY APPE>ANCE WIDELY ANN\NC$4 ,IT W\LD DISGRACE ME1 & 9JURE ! MOVEM5T1 W]E ,I TO PROVE MYSELF SO IRRESPONSIBLE4 ,I [E IT TO ! ,CAUSE1 & TO MY COMRADES1 TO KEEP MY APPO9TM5TS4 ,I MU/ FI<T (F ?IS MORBID NOTION4 

,MY 5GAGEM5T 9 ,PITTSBUR< AIDS MY DET]M9ATION4 ,LITTLE DID ,I DREAM 9 ! P5IT5TI>Y ?AT ,I %\LD LIVE TO SEE ?AT CITY AGA91 EV5 TO APPE> 9 PUBLIC !RE6 ,LOOK+ BACK OV] ! LONG YE>S ( IMPRISONM5T1 ( P]SECUTION & TORTURE1 ,I M>VEL ?AT ,I HAVE SURVIV$4 ,SURELY IT WAS NOT ALONE PHYSICAL CAPACITY TO SUFF] -- H[ (T5 HAD ,I T\*$ ! ?RE%OLD ( DEA?1 & TREMBL$ ON ! BR9K ( 9SANITY & SELF-DE/RUCTION6 ,:ATEV] /R5G? & P]SEV]ANCE ,I POSSESS$1 !Y ALONE C\LD NOT HAVE SAV$ MY REASON 9 ! NI<T ( ! DUNGEON1 OR PRES]V$ ME 9 ! DESPAIR ( ! SOLIT>Y4 ,POOR ,W+IE1 ,$ ,SLOANE1 & 0,FI<T+0 ,TOM2 ,H>RY1 ,RUSSELL1 ,CRAZY ,SMI?Y H[ MANY ( MY FRI5DS HAVE P]I%$ !RE6 ,IT WAS ! VISION ( AN IDEAL1 ! CONSCI\SNESS ?AT ,I SUFF]$ = A GREAT ,CAUSE ?AT ,SU/A9$ ME4 ,! V]Y EXAGG]ATION ( MY SELF E/IMATION WAS A S\RCE ( /R5G?3 ,I LOOK$ UPON MYSELF AS A REPRES5TATIVE ( A WORLD MOVEM5T2 IT WAS MY DUTY TO EXEMPLIFY ! SPIRIT & DIGNITY ( ! IDEAS IT EMBODI$4 ,I WAS NOT A PRISON]1 M]ELY2 ,I WAS AN ,AN>*I/ 9 ! H&S ( ! 5EMY2 AS SU*1 IT DEVOLV$ UPON ME TO MA9TA9 ! MANHOOD & SELF-RESPECT MY IDEALS SIGNIFI$4 ,! EXAMPLE ( ! POLITICAL PRISON]S 9 ,RUSSIA 9SPIR$ ME1 & MY /AY 9 ! P5IT5TI>Y WAS A CONT9U\S /RUGGLE ?AT WAS ! BREA? ( LIFE4 

,WAS IT ! EXTREME SELF-CONSCI\SNESS ( ! IDEALI/1 ! P[] ( REVOLUTION>Y TRADITIONS1 OR SIMPLY ! P]SI/5T WILL TO BE8 ,MO/ LIKELY1 IT WAS ! FUS+ ( ALL ?REE1 ?AT %AP$ MY ATTITUDE 9 PRISON & KEPT ME ALIVE4 ,& N[1 ON MY WAY TO ,PITTSBUR<1 ,I FEEL ! SAME SPIRIT )9 ME1 AT ! ?REAT ( ! LOCAL AU?ORITIES TO PREV5T MY APPE>ANCE 9 ! CITY4 ,SOME FRI5DS SEEK TO P]SUADE ME TO CANCEL MY LECTURE !RE1 AL>M$ AT ! POLICE PREP>ATIONS TO >RE/ ME4 ,SOME?+ MI<T HAPP51 !Y W>N ME2 LEGALLY ,I AM /ILL A PRISON] \T ON P>OLE4 ,I AM LIABLE TO BE RETURN$ TO ! P5IT5TI>Y1 )\T TRIAL1 = ! P]IOD ( MY COMMUTATION TIME-EI<T YE>S & TWO MON?S IF CONVICT$ ( A FELONY BE=E ! EXPIRATION ( MY FULL S5T5CE ( TW5TY-TWO YE>S4 

,BUT ! M5ACE ( ! 5EMY /IRS ME FROM APA?Y1 & ALL MY OLD REVOLUTION>Y DEFIANCE IS R\S$ )9 ME4 ,= ! FIR/ TIME DUR+ ! T\R1 ,I FEEL A VITAL 9T]E/ 9 LIFE1 & AM EAG] TO ASC5D ! PLAT=M4 

,AN UN=TUNATE DELAY ON ! ROAD BR+S ME 9TO ,PITTSBUR< TWO H\RS LATE = ! LECTURE4 ,COMRADE ,M4 IS IMPATI5TLY WAIT+ = ME1 & WE HA/5 TO ! MEET+4 ,ON ! WAY HE 9=MS ME ?AT ! HALL IS FILL$ ) POLICE & PRISON GU>DS2 ! AUDI5CE IS 9 A /ATE ( GREAT SUSP5SE2 ! RUMOR HAS GONE AB\T ?AT ! AU?ORITIES >E DET]M9$ TO PREV5T MY APPE>ANCE4 

,I S5SE AN AIR ( SUPPRESS$ EXCITEM5T1 AS ,I 5T] ! HALL1 & ELB[ MY WAY ?R\< ! CR[D$ AISLE4 ,SOME ONE GRIPS MY >M1 & ,I RECOGNIZE 0,S\?SIDE0 ,JOHNNY1 ! FRI5DLY PRISON RUNN]4 0,ALECK1 TAKE C>E10 HE W>NS ME1 0! BULLS >E LAY9' = Y\40 

,X 

,! MEET+ IS OV]1 ! DANG] PA/4 ,I FEEL WORN & TIR$ ) ! EF=T ( ! EV5+4 

,MY NEXT LECTURE IS TO TAKE PLACE 9 ,CLEVEL&1 ,OHIO4 ,! ALL NI<T RIDE 9 ! /UFFY SMOK] AGGRAVATES MY FATIGUE1 & SETS MY N]VES ON $GE4 ,I >RIVE 9 ! CITY FEEL+ FEV]I% & SICK4 ,TO 5GAGE A ROOM 9 A HOTEL W\LD REQUIRE AN EXTRA EXP5SE FROM ! PROCE$S ( ! T\R1 :I* >E 9T5D$ = ! MOVEM5T2 MOREOV]1 IT W\LD BE SYB>ITISM1 CONTR>Y TO ! TRADITIONAL PRACTICE ( ,AN>*I/ LECTURES4 ,I DECIDE TO ACCEPT ! HOSPITALITY ( SOME FRI5D DUR+ MY /AY 9 ! CITY4 

,= H\RS ,I TRY TO LOCATE ! COMRADE :O HAS *>GE ( >RANG+ ! MEET+S4 ,AT HIS HOME ,I AM TOLD ?AT HE IS ABS5T4 ,HIS P>5TS1 PI\S ,JEWS1 LOOK AT ME ASKANCE1 & REFUSE TO 9=M ME ( !IR SON'S :]EAB\TS4 ,! UNFRI5DLY ATTITUDE ( ! OLD FOLKS DRIVES ME 9TO ! /REET AGA91 & ,I SEEK \T ANO!R COMRADE4 ,HIS FAMILY GA!RS AB\T ME4 ,!IR CURI\S GAZE IS EMB>RASS+2 !IR QUE/IONS IDLE4 ,MY PULSE IS FEV]I%1 MY HEAD HEAVY4 ,I %\LD LIKE TO RE/ UP BE=E ! LECTURE1 BUT A CON/ANT /REAM ( COMRADES FL[S 9 ON ME1 & ! H\SE R+S ) !IR JOY ( MEET+ ME4 ,! TALK+ WE>IES ME2 !IR >D5T 9T]E/ SE>*ES MY S\L ) RUDE H&S4 ,!SE M5 & WOM5 -- !Y1 TOO1 >E DIFF]5T FROM ! COMRADES ( MY DAY2 !IR V]Y LANGUAGE E*OES ! SPIRIT ?AT HAS SO DEPRESS$ ME 9 ! NEW ,<ETTO4 ,! ABYSS 9 \R FEEL+ & ?\<T APPALLS ME4 

,) FAIL+ HE>T ,I ASC5D ! PLAT=M 9 ! EV5+4 ,IT IS *ILLY \TDOORS1 & ! L>GE HALL1 SP>SELY FILL$ & BADLY LIT1 BREA!S ! COLD ( ! GRAVE UPON MC4 ,! AUDI5CE IS UNRESPONSIVE4 ,! LECTURE ON ,CRIME & ,PRISONS ?AT SO ?RILL$ MY ,PITTSBUR< MEET+1 WAKES NO VITAL *ORD4 ,I FEEL DISPIRIT$4 ,MY VOICE IS WEAK & EXPRESSIONLESS2 AT TIMES IT DROPS TO A HO>SE :ISP]4 ,I SEEM TO /& AT ! M\? ( A DEEP CAV]N1 & EV]Y?+ IS D>K )94 ,I SPEAK 9TO ! BLACKNESS2 MY WORDS /RIKE METALLICALLY AGA9/ ! WALLS1 & >E ?R[N BACK AT ME ) MOCK+ EMPHASIS4 ,A S5SE ( WE>9ESS & HOPELESSNESS POSSESSES ME1 & ,I CONCLUDE ! LECTURE ABRUPTLY4 

,! COMRADES SURR\ND ME1 GRASP MY H&1 & PLY ME ) QUE/IONS AB\T MY PRISON LIFE1 ! JOY ( LIB]TY & ( WORK4 ,!Y >E UNDISGUIS$LY DISAPPO9T$ AT MY ANXIETY TO RETIRE1 BUT PRES5TLY IT IS DECID$ ?AT ,I %\LD ACCEPT ! PR(F]$ HOSPITALITY ( A COMRADE :O [NS A L>GE H\SE 9 ! SUBURBS4 

,! RIDE IS 9T]M9ABLE1 ! COMRADE APP>5TLY LIV+ SEV]AL MILES \T 9 ! C\NTRY4 ,ON ! WAY HE TALKS 9CESSANTLY1 ASSUR+ ME REPEAT$LY ?AT HE CONSID]S IT A GREAT PRIVILEGE TO 5T]TA9 ME4 ,I NOD SLEEPILY4 

,F9ALLY WE >RIVE4 ,! PLACE IS L>GE1 BUT SQUALID4 ,! L[ CEIL+S PRESS D[N ON MY HEAD1 ! ROOMS LOOK *E]LESS & UN9HABIT$4 ,EXHAU/$ BY ! DAY'S EX]TION1 ,I FALL 9TO HEAVY SLEEP4 

,AWAK5+ 9 ! MORN+1 ,I AM />TL$ TO F9D A /RANG] 9 MY B$4 ,HIS COAT & HAT >E ON ! FLOOR1 & HE IS SNOR+ AT MY SIDE1 ) OV]%IRT & TR\S]S ON4 ,HE MU/ HAVE FALL5 9TO B$ V]Y TIR$1 )\T EV5 DETA*+ ! L>GE CUFFS1 TORN & SOIL$1 ?AT RATTLE ON HIS H&S4 

,! SI<T FILLS ME ) 9EXPRESSIBLE DISGU/4 ,ALL ?R\< ! YE>S ( MY PRISON LIFE1 MY NI<TS HAD BE5 PASS$ 9 ABSOLUTE SOLITUDE4 ,! PRES5CE ( ANO!R 9 MY B$ IS UNUTT]ABLY HORRIFY+4 ,I DRESS HURRI$LY1 & RU% \T ( ! H\SE4 

,A HEAVY DRIZZLE IS FALL+2 ! AIR IS CLOSE & DAMP4 ,! C\NTRY LOOKS *E]LESS & DRE>Y4 ,BUT ONE ?\<T POSSESSES ME3 TO GET AWAY FROM ! /RANG] SNOR+ 9 MY B$1 AWAY FROM ! SUFFOCAT+ ATMOSPH]E ( ! H\SE ) ITS L[ CEIL+S1 \T 9TO ! OP51 AWAY FROM ! PRES5CE ( MAN4 ,! SI<T ( A HUMAN BE+ REPELS ME2 ! S\ND ( A VOICE IS TORTURE TO ME4 ,I WANT TO BE ALONE1 ALWAYS ALONE1 TO HAVE PEACE & QUIET1 TO LEAD A SIMPLE LIFE 9 CLOSE COMMUNION ) NATURE4 ,AH1 NATURE6 ,?AT1 TOO1 ,I HAVE TRI$1 & F\ND MORE IMPOSSIBLE EV5 ?AN ! TURMOIL ( ! CITY4 ,! SIL5CE ( ! WOODS ?REAT5$ TO DRIVE ME MAD1 AS DID ! SOLITUDE ( ! DUNGEON4 ,A CURSE UPON ! ?+ ?AT HAS 9CAPACITAT$ ME = LIFE1 MADE SOLITUDE AS HATEFUL AS ! FACE ( MAN1 MADE LIFE ITSELF IMPOSSIBLE TO ME6 ,& IS IT = ?IS ,I HAVE YE>N$ & SUFF]$1 = ?IS SPECT] ?AT HAUNTS MY /EPS1 & TURNS DAY 9TO A NI<TM>E -- ?IS DI/ORTION1 ,LIFE8 ,OH1 :]E IS ! JOY ( EXPECTATION1 ! TREMUL\S RAPTURE1 AS ,I /OOD AT ! DOOR ( MY CELL1 HAIL+ ! BLU% ( ! DAWN1 ! DAY ( RESURRECTION6 ,:]E ! HAPPY MOM5TS ?AT LIT UP ! NI<T ( MIS]Y ) ! EC/ASY ( FRE$OM1 :I* WAS TO GIVE ME BACK TO WORK & JOY6 ,:]E1 :]E IS IT ALL8 ,IS LIB]TY SWEET ONLY 9 ! ANTICIPATION1 & LIFE A HITT] AWAK5+8 

,! RA9 HAS CEAS$4 ,! SUN PEEPS ?R\< ! CL\DS1 & GL9TS ITS RAYS UPON A %OP W9D[4 ,MY EYE FALLS ON ! GLEAM+ B>REL ( A REVOLV]4 ,I 5T] ! PLACE1 & PUR*ASE ! WEAPON4 

,I WALK AIMLESSLY1 9 A DAZE4 ,IT IS BEG9N+ TO RA9 AGA92 MY BODY IS *ILL$ TO ! BONE1 & ,I SEEK ! %ELT] ( A SALOON ON AN OBSCURE /REET4 

,9 ! CORN] ( ! D+Y BACK ROOM ,I NOTICE A GIRL4 ,%E IS V]Y Y\NG1 ) AN AIR ( G5TILITY AB\T H]1 ?AT IS SOME:AT M>R$ BY H] QUICK1 RE/LESS LOOK4 

,WE SIT 9 SIL5CE1 WAT*+ ! HEAVY D[NP\R \TDOORS4 ,! GIRL IS TOY+ ) A GLASS ( :ISKEY4 

,ANGRY VOICES REA* US FROM ! /REET4 ,!RE IS A HEAVY %UFFL+ ( FEET1 & A SUPPRESS$ CRY4 ,A WOMAN LUR*ES ?R\< ! SW++ DOOR1 & FALLS AGA9/ A TABLE4 

,! GIRL RU%ES TO ! SIDE ( ! WOMAN1 & ASSI/S H] 9TO A *AIR4 0,>E Y\ HURT1 ,MADGE80 %E ASKS SYMPA!TICALLY4 

,! WOMAN LOOKS UP AT H] ) BLE>Y EYES4 ,%E RAISES H] H&1 PASSES IT SL[LY ACROSS H] M\?1 & SPITS VIOL5TLY4 

0,HE HIT ME1 ! DIRTY BRUTE10 %E :IMP]S1 0HE HIT ME4 ,BUT ,I %A'N'T GIVE HIM NO MONEY2 ,I JU/ WON'T1 ,FR5*Y40 ,! GIRL IS T5D]LY WIP+ H] FRI5D'S BLE$+ FACE4 0,%%1 ,MADGE1 %-%60 %E W>NS H]1 ) A GLANCE AT ! APPROA*+ WAIT]4 0,DRUNK AGA91 Y\ OLD BIT*0 ! MAN GR[LS4 0,Y\'D BETT] VAMOOSE N[40 0,OH1 LET H] BE1 ,*>LEY1 WON'T Y\80 ! GIRL COAXES4 0,&1 SAY1 BR+ ME A BITT]S40 

0,! DIRTY LOAF]6 ,IT'S MONEY1 ALWAYS GIMME MONEY10 ! WOMAN MUMBLES2 0& ,I'VE HAD SU* BAD LUCK1 ,FR5*Y4 ,Y\ KN[ IT'S TRUE4 ,DON'T Y\1 ,FR5*Y80 

0,YES1 YES1 DE>10 ! GIRL SOO!S H]4 0,DON'T TALK N[4 ,LEAN Y\R HEAD ON MY %\LD]1 SO6 ,Y\'LL BE ALL RI<T 9 A M9UTE40 ,! GIRL SWAYS TO & FRO1 G5TLY PATT+ ! WOMAN ON ! HEAD1 & ALL IS /ILL 9 ! ROOM4 ,! WOMAN'S BREA?+ GR[S REGUL> & L\D]4 ,%E SNORES1 & ! Y\NG GIRL SL[LY UNW9DS H] >MS & RESUMES H] SEAT4 

,I MOTION TO H]4 0,WILL Y\ HAVE A DR9K ) ME80 

0,) PLEASURE10 %E SMILES4 0,POOR ?+10 %E NODS T[>D ! SLEEP]1 0H] FELL[ BEATS H] & TAKES ALL %E MAKES40 

0,Y\ HAVE A K9D HE>T1 ,FR5*Y40 

0,WE GIRLS MU/ BE GOOD TO EA* O!R2 NO ONE ELSE WILL4 ,SOME M5 >E SO MEAN1 JU/ TOO MEAN TO LIVE OR LET O!RS LIVE4 ,BUT SOME >E NICE4 ,( C\RSE1 SOME GIRLS >E BAD1 BUT WE A9'T ALL LIKE ?AT &-0 %E HESITATES4 

0,& :AT80 

0,WELL1 SOME HAVE SE5 BETT] DAYS4 ,I WASN'T ALWAYS LIKE ?IS10 %E ADDS1 GULP+ D[N H] DR9K4 

,H] FACE IS P5SIVE2 H] L>GE BLACK EYES LOOK DREAMY4 ,%E ASKS ABRUPTLY2 

0,Y\ LIKE POETRY80 

0,YE-ES4 ,:Y80 

0,I WRITE4 ,OH1 Y\ DON'T BELIEVE ME1 DO Y\8 ,H]E'S SOME?+ ( M9E10 & ) A PRELIM9>Y C\<1 %E BEG9S TO RECITE ) EXAGG]AT$ FEEL+3 

,MO!R DE>1 ! DAYS W]E Y\NG  

 ,:5 POSIES 9 \R G>D5 HUNG4  

 ,UPON Y\R LAP MY GOLD5 HEAD ,I LAID1 

 ,) PURE & HAPPY HE>T ,I PRAY$4 

0,I REMEMB] ?OSE DAYS10 %E ADDS WI/FULLY4 ,WE SIT 9 ! DUSK1 )\T SPEAK+4 ,! LI<TS >E TURN$ ON1 & MY EYE FALLS ON A PAP] LY+ ON ! TABLE4 ,! L>GE BLACK PR9T ANN\NCES AN EXCURSION TO ,BUFFALO4 

0,WILL Y\ COME ) ME80 ,I ASK ! GIRL1 PO9T+ TO ! ADV]TISEM5T4 

0,TO ,BUFFALO80 

0,YES40 

0,Y\'RE KIDD+40 

0,NO4 ,WILL Y\ COME80 

0,SURE0 

,ALONE ) ME 9 ! /AT]OOM1 0,FR5*Y0 GR[S T5D] & PLAYFUL4 ,%E NOTICES MY SADNESS1 & TRIES TO AMUSE ME4 ,BUT ,I AM ?9K+ ( ! LECTURE ?AT IS TO TAKE PLACE 9 ,CLEVEL& ?IS V]Y H\R3 ! ANXIETY ( MY COMRADES1 ! DISAPPO9TM5T ( ! AUDI5CE1 MY ABS5CE1 ALL PREY ON MY M9D4 ,BUT :O AM ,I1 TO PRESUME TO TEA*8 ,I HAVE LO/ MY BE>+S2 !RE IS NO PLACE = ME 9 LIFE4 ,MY BRIDGES >E BURN$4 

,! GIRL IS 9 HI< SPIRITS1 BUT H] JOLLITY ANG]S ME4 ,I CRAVE TO SPEAK TO H]1 TO %>E MY MIS]Y & MY GRIEF4 ,I H9T AT ! IMPOSSIBILITY ( LIFE1 & MY SUP]FLUITY 9 ! WORLD1 BUT %E LOOKS BOR$1 NOT GRASP+ ! SIGNIFICANCE ( MY WORDS4 

0,DON'T TALK SO FOOLI%1 BOY10 %E SC(FS4 0,:AT DO Y\ C>E AB\T WORK OR A PLACE8 ,Y\'VE GOT MONEY2 :AT MORE DO Y\ WANT8 ,Y\ BETT] GO D[N N[ & FET* SOME?+ TO DR9K40 

,RETURN+ TO ! /AT]OOM1 ,I F9D 0,FR5*Y0 MISS+4 ,9 A %ELT]$ NOOK ON ! DECK ,I RECOGNIZE H] 9 ! LAP ( A /RANG]4 ,HE>T-SORE & UTT]LY DISGU/$1 ,I RETIRE TO MY B]?4 ,9 ! MORN+ ,I SLIP QUIETLY (F ! BOAT4 

,! /REETS >E DES]T$2 ! CITY IS ASLEEP4 ,9 ! FOG & RA91 ! GRAY BUILD+S RESEMBLE ! PRISON WALLS1 ! TALL FACTORY *IMNEYS /&+ GU>D LIKE MON/] S5T9ELS4 ,I HA/5 AWAY FROM ! HAT$ SI<T1 & W&] ALONG ! DOCKS4 ,! MI/ WEAVES PHANTOM %APES1 & ,I SEE A MULTITUDE ( PEOPLE & 9 !IR MID/ A BOY1 PALE1 ) L>GE1 LU/R\S EYES4 ,! CR[D CURSES & YELLS 9 FR5ZI$ PASSION1 & >MS >E RAIS$1 & BL[S RA9 D[N ON ! LAD'S HEAD4 ,! RA9 BEATS HEAVI]1 & EV]Y DROP IS A BL[4 ,! BOY TOTT]S & FALLS TO ! GR\ND4 ,! WI/FUL FACE1 ! DREAMY EYES -- :Y1 IT IS ,CZOLGOSZ6 

,ACCURS$ SPOT6 ,I CANNOT DIE H]E4 ,I MU/ GO TO ,NEW ,YORK1 TO BE NE> MY FRI5DS 9 DEA?6 

,X,I 

,L\D KNOCK+ WAKES ME4 

0,SAY1 ,MI/]10 A VOICE CALLS BEH9D ! DOOR0 

0,>E Y\ ALL RI<T0 

0,YES40 

0,WILL Y\ HAVE A BITE1 OR SOME?+80 

0,NO40 

0,WELL1 AS Y\ PLEASE4 ,BUT Y\ HAV5'T LEFT Y\R ROOM GO+ ON TWO DAYS N[4 0 

,TWO DAYS1 & /ILL ALIVE8 ,! ROAD TO DEA? IS SO %ORT1 :Y SUFF]8 ,AN 9/ANT1 & ,I %ALL BE NO MORE1 & ONLY ! MEMORY ( ME WILL ABIDE = A LITTLE :ILE 9 ?IS WORLD4 ,?IS WORLD8 ,IS !RE ANO!R8 ,IF !RE IS ANY?+ 9 ,SPIRITUALISM1 ,C>L WILL LE>N ( IT4 ,9 ! PRISON WE HAD BE5 9T]E/$ 9 ! SUBJECT1 & WE HAD MADE A COMPACT ?AT HE :O IS ! FIR/ TO DIE1 %\LD APPE> 9 SPIRIT TO ! O!R4 ,PRETTY FANCY ( FOOLI% MAN1 BORN ( IMMORTAL VANITY6 ,H]EAFT]1 LIFE AFT] DEA? -- *ILDR5 ( E>?'S MIS]Y4 ,! DI%>MONY ( LIFE BE>S DREAMS ( PEACE & BLISS1 BUT !RE IS NO H>MONY SAVE 9 DEA?4 ,:O KN[S BUT ?AT EV5 !N ! ATOMS ( MY LIFELESS CLAY WILL F9D NO RE/1 TOSS$ AB\T 9 SPACE TO =M NEW %APES & NEW ?\<TS = EONS ( HUMAN ANGUI%4 

,& SO ,C>L WILL NOT SEE ME AFT] DEA?4 ,\R COMPACT WILL NOT BE KEPT1 = NO?+ WILL REMA9 ( MY 0S\L0 :5 ,I AM DEAD1 AS NO?+ REMA9S ( ! SUM :5 ITS UNITS >E GONE4 ,DE> ,C>L1 HE WILL BE DI/RAU<T AT MY FAILURE TO COME TO ,DETROIT4 ,HE HAD >RANG$ A LECTURE !RE1 FOLL[+ ,CLEVEL&4 ,IT IS PECULI> ?AT ,I %\LD NOT HAVE ?\<T ( WIR+ HIM ?AT ,I WAS UNABLE TO ATT5D4 ,HE MI<T HAVE SUSP5D$ PREP>ATIONS4 ,BUT IT DID NOT OCCUR TO ME1 & N[ IT IS TOO LATE4 

,! ,GIRL1 TOO1 WILL BE 9 DESPAIR OV] MY DISAPPE>ANCE4 ,I CANNOT NOTIFY H] N[ -- ,I AM VIRTUALLY DEAD4 ,YET ,I CRAVE TO SEE H] ONCE MORE BE=E ,I DEP>T1 EV5 AT A DI/ANCE4 ,BUT ?AT ALSO IS TOO LATE4 ,I AM ALMO/ DEAD4 

,I DRESS ME*ANICALLY1 & /EP 9TO ! /REET4 ,! BRILLIANT SUN%9E1 ! PEOPLE PASS+ ME BY1 ! *ILDR5 PLAY+ AB\T1 /RIKE ON MY CONSCI\SNESS ) PLEAS+ FAMILI>ITY4 ,! DESIRE GRIPS ME TO BE ONE ( !M1 TO P>TICIPATE 9 !IR LIFE4 ,& YET IT SEEMS /RANGE TO ?9K ( MYSELF AS P>T ( ?IS MOV+1 BREA?+ HUMANITY4 ,AM ,I NOT DEAD8 

,I ROAM AB\T ALL DAY4 ,AT DUSK ,I AM SURPRIS$ TO F9D MYSELF NE> ! ,GIRL'S HOME4 ,! FE> SEIZES ME ?AT ,I MI<T BE SE5 & RECOGNIZ$4 ,A S5SE ( GUILT /EALS OV] ME1 & ,I %R9K AWAY1 ONLY TO RETURN AGA9 & AGA9 TO ! FAMILI> SPOT4 

,I PASS ! NI<T 9 ! P>K4 ,AN OLD MAN1 A SAILOR \T ( WORK1 HUDDLES CLOSE TO ME1 SEEK+ ! W>M? ( MY BODY4 ,BUT ,I AM COLD & *E]LESS1 & ALL NEXT DAY ,I HAUNT AGA9 ! NEI<BORHOOD ( ! ,GIRL4 ,AN IRRESI/IBLE =CE ATTRACTS ME TO ! H\SE4 ,REPEAT$LY ,I RETURN TO MY ROOM & SNAT* UP ! WEAPON1 & !N RU% \T AGA94 ,I AM FE>FUL ( BE+ SE5 NE> ! 0,D51 ,IF & ,I MAKE LONG DET\RS TO ! ,BATT]Y & ! ,BRONX1 BUT AGA9 & AGA9 ,I F9D MYSELF WAT*+ ! 5TRANCE & SPECULAT+ ON ! PEOPLE PASS+ 9 & \T ( ! H\SE4 ,MY M9D PICTURES ! ,GIRL1 ) H] FRI5DS AB\T H]4 ,:AT >E !Y DISCUSS+1 ,I WOND]4 0,:Y1 MYSELF60 IT FLITS ?R\< MY M9D4 ,! ?\<T APPALLS ME4 ,!Y MU/ BE DI/RAU<T ) ANXIETY OV] MY DISAPPE>ANCE4 ,P]HAPS !Y ?9K ME DEAD6 

,I HA/5 TO A TELEGRAPH (FICE1 & QUICKLY P5 A MESSAGE TO ! ,GIRL3 0,COME4 ,I AM WAIT+ H]E40 

,9 A FLURRY ( ,SUSP5SE ,I WAIT = ! RETURN ( ! MESS5G]4 ,A LITTLE GIRL /EPS 91 & ,I RECOGNIZE ,TESS1 & 9W>DLY RES5T ?AT ! ,GIRL DID NOT COME H]SELF4 

0,ALECK10 %E FALT]S1 0,SONYA WASN'T HOME :5 Y\R MESSAGE CAME4 ,I'LL RUN TO F9D H]40 

,! OLD DREAD ( PEOPLE IS UPON ME1 & ,I RU% \T ( ! PLACE1 HOP+ TO AVOID MEET+ ! ,GIRL4 ,I /UMBLE ?R\< ! /REETS1 RETRACE MY /EPS TO ! TELEGRAPH (FICE1 & SUDD5LY COME FACE TO FACE ) H]4 

,H] APPE>ANCE />TLES ME4 ,! FE> ( DEA? IS 9 H] FACE1 MUTE HORROR 9 H] EYES4 

0,SA%A60 ,H] H& GRIPS MY >M1 & %E /EADIES MY FALT]+ /EP4 

,X,I,I 

,I OP5 MY EYES4 ,! ROOM IS LI<T & AIRY A SOO?+ QUIET P]VADES ! PLACE4 ,! PORTI]ES P>T NOISELESSLY1 & ! ,GIRL LOOKS 94 

0,AWAKE1 ,SA%A80 ,%E BRI<T5S ) A HAPPY SMILE4 

0,YES4 ,:5 DID ,I COME H]E80 

0,SEV]AL DAYS AGO4 ,Y\'VE BE5 V]Y SICK1 BUT Y\ FEEL BETT] N[1 DON'T Y\1 DE>80 

,SEV]AL DAYS8 ,I TRY TO RECOLLECT MY TRIP TO ,BUFFALO1 ! ROOM ON ! ,B[]Y4 ,WAS IT ALL A DREAM8 

0,:]E WAS ,I BE=E ,I CAME H]E80 ,I ASK4 0,Y\ -- Y\ W]E -- ABS5T10 %E /AMM]S1 & 9 H] FACE IS VISION$ ! EXP]I5CE ( MY DISAPPE>ANCE4 

,) T5D] C>E ! ,GIRL M9I/]S TO ME4 ,I FEEL LIKE ONE RECOV]+ FROM A LONG ILLNESS3 V]Y WEAK1 BUT ) A T\* ( JOY 9 LIFE4 ,NO ONE IS P]MITT$ TO SEE ME1 SAVE ONE OR TWO ( ! ,GIRL'S NE>E/ FRI5DS1 :O SLIP 9 QUIETLY1 PAT MY H& 9 MUTE SYMPA?Y1 & DISCREETLY RETIRE4 ,I S5SE !IR UND]/&+1 & AM GRATEFUL ?AT !Y MAKE NO ALLUSION TO ! EV5TS ( ! PA/ DAYS4 

,! C>E ( ! ,GIRL IS UNWAV]+4 ,BY DEGREES ,I GA9 /R5G?4 ,! ROOM IS BRI<T & *E]FUL2 ! SIL5CE ( ! H\SE SOO!S ME4 ,! W>M SUN%9E IS /REAM+ ?R\< ! OP5 W9D[2 ,I CAN SEE ! BLUE SKY1 & ! SILV]Y CL\DLETS4 ,A LITTLE BIRD HOPS UPON ! SILL1 LOOKS /EADILY AT ME1 & *IRPS A GREET+4 ,IT BR+S BACK ! MEMORY ( ,DICK1 MY FEA!R$ PET1 & ( MY FRI5DS 9 PRISON4 ,I HAVE DONE NO?+ = ! AGONIZ$ M5 9 ! DUNGEON D>KNESS -- HAVE ,I =GOTT5 !M8 ,I HAVE ! OPPORTUNITY2 :Y AM ,I IDLE8 

,! ,GIRL CALLS *E]FULLY3 0,SA%A \R FRI5D ,PHILO IS H]E4 

,W\LD Y\ LIKE TO SEE HIM80 

,I WELCOME ! COMRADE :OSE G5TLE MANN] & DEEP SYMPA?Y HAVE 5DE>$ HIM TO ME 9 ! DAYS S9CE MY RETURN4 ,!RE IS SOME?+ UNUTT]ABLY T5D] AB\T HIM4 ,! CIRCLE HAD *RI/5$ HIM 0! PHILOSOPH]10 & HIS BREAD? ( UND]/&+ & NON9VASIVE P]SONALITY HAVE BE5 GREAT COM=T TO ME4 

,HIS VOICE IS L[ & C>ESS+1 LIKE ! S(T CROON+ ( A MO!R ROCK+ H] *ILD TO SLEEP4 0,LIFE IS A PROBLEM10 HE IS SAY+1 0A PROBLEM :OSE SOLUTION CONSI/S 9 TRY+ TO SOLVE IT4 ,S*OP5HAU] MAY HAVE BE5 RI<T10 HE SMILES1 ) AN AMOR\S TW9KLE 9 HIS EYES1 0BUT HIS LOVE ( LIFE WAS SO /RONG HIS NE$ = EXPRESSION SO COMPELL+1 HE HAD TO WRITE A BIG BOOK TO PROVE H[ USELESS IS ALL EF=T4 ,BUT HIS V]Y S9C]ITY DISPROVES HIM4 ,LIFE IS ITS [N JU/IFICATION4 ,! DI%>MONY ( LIFE IS MORE SEEM+ ?AN REALITY & :AT IS REAL ( IT1 IS ! FOLLY & BL9DNESS ( MAN4 ,TO /RUGGLE AGA9/ ?AT FOLLY1 IS TO CREATE GREAT] H>MONY1 WID] POSSIBILITIES4 ,>TIFICIAL B>RI]S CIRCUMSCRIBE & DW>F LIFE1 & /IFLE ITS MANIFE/ATIONS4 ,TO BREAK ?OSE B>RI]S D[N1 IS TO F9D A V5T1 TO EXP&1 TO EXPRESS ONESELF4 ,& ?AT IS LIFE1 ,ALECK3 A CONT9U\S /RUGGLE = EXPRESSION4 ,IT MIRRORS ITSELF 9 NATURE1 AS 9 ALL ! PHASES ( MAN'S EXI/5CE4 ,LOOK AT ! LITTLE V9E /RUGGL+ AGA9/3 FURY ( ! /ORM1 & CL++ ) ALL ITS MI<T TO PRES]VE ,ITS HOLD4 ,!N SEE IT /RET* T[>D ! SUN%9E1 TO ABSORB1 LI<T & ! W>M?1 & !N FREELY GIVE BACK ( ITSELF MULTIPLE =M & WEAL? ( COLOR4 ,WE CALL IT BEAUTIFUL !N = IT HAS F\ND EXPRESSION4 ,?AT IS LIFE1 ,ALECK1 & ?US IT MANIFE/S ITSELF ?R\< ALL ! GRADATIONS WE CALL EVOLUTION4 ,! HI<] ! SCALE1 ! MORE V>I$ & COMPLEX ! MANIFE/ATIONS1 &1 9 TURN1 ! GREAT] ! NE$ = EXPRESSION4 ,TO SUPPRESS OR ?W>T IT1 MEANS DECAY1 DEA?4 ,& 9 ?IS1 ,ALECK1 IS BE F\ND ! MA9 S\RCE ( SUFF]+ & MIS]Y4 ,! HUNG] ( LIFE /ORMS AT ! GATES ?AT EXCLUDE IT FROM ! JOY ( BE+ & ! 9DIVIDUAL S\L MULTIPLIES ITS EXPRESSIONS BY MIRROR$ 9 ! COLLECTIVE1 AS ! LITTLE V9E MIRRORS ITSELF 9 ITS MANY FL[]S1 OR AS ! ACORN 9DIVIDUALIZES ITSELF A ?\S&FOLD 9 ! MANY-LEAF$ OAK4 ,BUT ,I AM TIR+ Y\1 ,ALECK40 

0,NO1 NO1 ,PHILO4 ,CONT9UE ,I WANT TO HE> MORE40 

0,WELL1 ,ALECK1 AS ) NATURE1 SO ) MAN4 ,LIFE IS NEV] AT A /&/ILL2 EV]Y:]E & EV] IT SEEKS NEW MANIFE/ATIONS1 MORE EXPANSION4 ,9 >T1 9 LIT]ATURE1 AS 9 ! AFFAIRS ( M51 ! /RUGGLE IS CONT9UAL = HI<] & MORE 9TIMATE EXPRESSION4 ,?AT IS PROGRESS -- ! V9E REA*+ = MORE SUN%9E & LI<T4 ,TRANSLAT$ 9TO ! LANGUAGE ( SOCIAL LIFE1 IT MEANS ! 9DIVIDUALIZATION ( ! MASS1 ! F9D+ ( A HI<] LEVEL1 ! CLIMB+ OV] ! F5CES ?AT %UT \T LIFE4 ,EV]Y:]E Y\ SEE ?IS REA*+ \T4 ,! PROCESS IS 9DIVIDUAL & SOCIAL AT ! SAME TIME1 = ! SPECIES LIVES 9 ! 9DIVIDUAL AS MU* AS ! 9DIVIDUAL P]SI/S 9 ! SPECIES4 ,! 9DIVIDUAL COMES FIR/2 HIS CL>IFI$ VISION IS MULTIPLI$ 9 HIS IMM$IATE 5VIRONM5T1 & GRADUALLY P]MEATES ?R\< HIS G5]ATION & TIME1 DEEP5+ ! SOCIAL CONSCI\SNESS & WID5+ ! SCOPE ( EXI/5CE4 ,BUT P]HAPS Y\ HAVE NOT F\ND IT SO1 ,ALECK1 AFT] Y\R MANY YE>S ( ABS5CE80 

0,NO1 DE> ,PHILO4 ,:AT Y\ HAVE SAID APPEALS TO ME V]Y DEEPLY4 ,BUT ,I HAVE F\ND ?+S SO DIFF]5T FROM :AT ,I HAD PICTUR$ !M4 ,\R COMRADES1 ! MOVEM5T -- IT IS NOT :AT ,I ?\<T IT W\LD BE40 

0,IT IS QUITE NATURAL1 ,ALECK4 ,A *ANGE HAS TAK5 PLACE1 BUT ITS MEAN+ IS APT TO HE DI/ORT$ ?R\< ! DIM VISION ( Y\R LONG ABS5CE4 ,I KN[ WELL :AT Y\ MISS1 DE> FRI5D3 ! OLD MODE ( EXI/5CE1 ! LIV+ ON ! V]Y ?RE%OLD ( ! REVOLUTION1 SO TO SPEAK4 ,& EV]Y?+ LOOKS /RANGE TO Y\1 & \T ( JO9T4 ,BUT AS Y\ /AY A LITTLE LONG] ) US1 Y\ WILL SEE ?AT IT IS M]ELY A *ANGE ( =M2 ! ESS5CE IS ! SAME4 ,WE >E ! SAME AS BE=E1 ,ALECK1 ONLY MADE DEEP] & BROAD] BY YE>S & EXP]I5CE4 ,AN>*ISM HAS CA/ (F ! SWADDL+ B&S ( ! SMALL1 9TIMATE CIRCLES ( =M] DAYS2 IT HAS GR[N TO GREAT] MATURITY1 & BECOME A FACTOR 9 ! L>G] LIFE ( ,SOCIETY4 ,Y\ REMEMB] IT ONLY AS A LITTLE M\NTA9 SPR+ >\ND :I* CLU/]$ A FEW ?IR/Y TRAVEL]S 9 ! DRE>9ESS ( ! CAPITALI/ DES]T4 ,IT HAS S9CE BROAD5$ & SPREAD AS A /RONG CURR5T ?AT COV]S A WIDE >EA & =CES ITS WAY EV5 9TO ! V]Y OCEAN ( LIFE4 ,Y\ SEE1 DE> ,ALECK1 ! PHILOSOPHY ( ,AN>*ISM IS BEG9N+ TO P]VADE EV]Y PHASE ( HUMAN 5DEAVOR4 ,9 SCI5CE1 9 >T1 9 LIT]ATURE1 EV]Y:]E ! 9FLU5CE ( ,AN>*I/ ?\<T IS CREAT+ NEW VALUES1 ITS SPIRIT IS VITALIZ+ SOCIAL MOVEM5TS1 & F9D+ 9T]PRETATION 9 LIFE4 ,9DE$1 ,ALECK1 WE HAVE NOT WORK$ 9 VA94 ,?R\<\T ! WORLD !RE IS A GREAT AWAK5+4 ,EV5 9 ?IS SOCIALLY MO/ BACKW>D C\NTRY1 ! SE$S S[N >E BEG9N+ TO BE> FRUIT4 ,TIMES HAVE *ANG$1 9DE$ BUT 5C\RAG+LY SO1 ,ALECK4 ,! LEAV5 ( DISCONT5T1 EV] MORE CONSCI\S & 9TELLIG5T1 IS MOLD+ NEW SOCIAL ?\<T & NEW ACTION4 ,TODAY \R 9DU/RIAL CONDITIONS1 = 9/ANCE1 PRES5T A DIFF]5T ASPECT FROM ?OSE ( TW5TY YE>S AGO4 ,IT WAS !N POSSIBLE = ! MA/]S ( LIFE TO SACRIFICE TO !IR 9T]E/S ! BE/ FRI5DS ( ! PEOPLE4 ,BUT TO-DAY ! SPONTANE\S SOLID>ITY & AWAK5$ CONSCI\SNESS ( L>GE /RATA ( LABOR IS A GU>ANTEE AGA9/ ! REPETITION ( SU* JUDICIAL MURD]S4 ,IT IS A MO/ SIGNIFICANT SIGN1 ,ALECK1 & A GREAT 9SPIRATION TO R5EW$ EF=T40 

,! ,GIRL 5T]S4 0,>E Y\ CROON+ ,SA%A TO SLEEP1 ,PHILO80 %E LAU<S4 

0,OH1 NO60 ,I PROTE/1 0,I'M WIDE AWAKE & MU* 9T]E/$ 9 ,PHILO'S CONV]SATION40 

0,IT IS GETT+ LATE10 HE REJO9S4 0,I MU/ BE (F TO ! MEET+40 0,:AT MEET+80 ,I 9QUIRE4 

0,! ,CZOLGOSZ ANNIV]S>Y COMMEMORATION40 

0,I ?9K -- ,I'D LIKE TO COME ALONG40 

0,BETT] NOT1 ,SA%A10 MY FRI5D ADVISES1 0,Y\ NE$ SOME LI<T DI/RACTION40 

0,P]HAPS Y\ W\LD LIKE TO GO TO ! !AT]10 ! ,GIRL SUGGE/S4 0,/ELLA HAS TICKETS4 ,%E'D BE HAPPY TO HAVE Y\ COME1 ,SA%A40 

,RETURN+ HOME 9 ! EV5+1 ,I F9D ! 0,D50 9 GREAT EXCITEM5T4 ,! ASSEMBL$ COMRADES LOOK WORRI$1 TALK 9 :ISP]S1 & SEEM TO AVOID MY GLANCE4 ,I MISS SEV]AL FAMILI> FACES4 

0,:]E >E ! O!RS80 ,I ASK4 

,! COMRADES EX*ANGE TR\BL$ LOOKS1 & >E SIL5T4 

0,HAS ANY?+ HAPP5$8 ,:]E >E !Y80 ,I 9SI/4 

0,I MAY AS WELL TELL Y\10 ,PHILO REPLIES1 0BUT BE CALM1 ,SA%A4 ,! POLICE HAVE BROK5 UP \R MEET+4 ,!Y HAVE CLUBB$ ! AUDI5CE1 & >RE/$ A DOZ5 COMRADES40 

0,IS IT S]I\S1 ,PHILO80 0,I AM AFRAID IT IS4 ,!Y >E GO+ TO MAKE A TE/ CASE4 ,UND] ! NEW ',CRIM9AL ,AN>*Y ,LAW' \R COMRADES MAY GET LONG T]MS 9 PRISON4 ,!Y HAVE TAK5 \R MO/ ACTIVE FRI5DS40 

,! NEWS ELECTRIFIES ME4 ,I FEEL MYSELF TRANSPORT$ 9TO ! PA/1 ! DAYS ( /RUGGLE & P]SECUTION4 ,PHILO WAS RI<T6 ,! 5EMY IS *ALL5G+1 ! /RUGGLE IS GO+ ON6 ,I SEE ! GRAVES ( ,WALDHEIM OP51 & HE> ! VOICES FROM ! TOMB4 

,A DEEP PEACE P]VADES ME1 & ,I FEEL A GREAT JOY 9 MY HE>T4 0,SA%A1 :AT IS IT80 ,PHILO CRIES 9 AL>M4 0,MY RESURRECTION1 DE> FRI5D4 ,I HAVE F\ND WORK TO DO40 

7,S\RCE3 ,B]KMAN1 ,ALEX&] 7#a#i#a#b7 ,PRISON ,MEMOIRS ( AN ,AN>*I/1 ,MO!R ,E>? ,PRESS47 

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