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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,WILLIAM ,GODW9 

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,*>LES WAS N[ N9E YE>S ( AGE4 ,HIS MO!R & MYSELF HAD DELI<T$ \RSELVES ) OBS]V+ & =W>D+ ! OP5+ ( HIS 9FANT M9D1 & HAD HI!RTO BE5 CONT5T$ ) ! ASSI/ANCE ( A NEI<BOR+ PRIE/ BY WAY ( PRECEPTOR4 ,BUT1 AS HE WAS \R ONLY SON1 WE W]E DESIR\S ?AT HE %\LD OBTA9 EV]Y ADVANTAGE ( $UCATION4 ,WE W]E NEI!R ( US ILLIT]ATE2 BUT1 9 ! C\RSE ( TW5TY-?REE YE>S1 :I* HAD ELAPS$ S9CE ,I WAS MYSELF ( ,*>LES'S AGE1 ! PROGRESS ( LIT]ATURE & ! LIT]>Y PASSION 9 ,EUROPE HAD BE5 A/ONI%+LY GREAT1 & ,I WAS ANXI\S ?AT HE %\LD REALIZE 9 HIS [N P]SON EV]Y B5EFIT :I* ! =TUNATE & ILLU/RI\S P]IOD ( HUMAN AFFAIRS 9 :I* HE BEGAN TO EXI/ SEEM$ TO HOLD \T TO HIM4 ,BESIDE1 !RE WAS AN IMPETUOSITY & =W>DNESS 9 HIS *>ACT]1 ?AT SEEM$ ILL TO BROOK ! PR(\ND SOLITUDE & RETIREM5T 9 :I* HIS MO!R & ,I W]E CONT5T$ TO LIVE4 ,HIS CASE DEM&$ COMPANIONS ( HIS [N AGE1 A LITTLE WORLD ( FELL[-BE+S1 ) :OM HE MI<T 5GAGE 9 !IR PETTY BUS9ESS & C>ES1 ) :OSE PASSIONS HIS [N MI<T JO/LE OR MI<T SYMPA?IZE1 :O MI<T K9DLE HIS EMULATION1 & OP5 TO HIM ! FIELD ( FRAT]NAL ASSOCIATIONS & AMITY4 

,!RE WAS1 H[EV]1 A CONSID]ABLE DIFFICULTY ATT5DANT ON ?IS QUE/ION4 ,! S*OOLS ( REAL LIT]ATURE 9 ,FRANCE1 :]E LANGUAGES W]E PROP]LY TAU<T1 & SCI5CE MI<T BE ACQUIR$1 W]E AT ?IS TIME EXCE$+LY FEW4 ,! NE>E/ UNIV]SITY WAS ?AT ( ,T\L\SE1 AT ! DI/ANCE ( TW5TY-SIX LEAGUES4 ,?IS WAS1 PRACTICALLY SPEAK+1 AS F> FROM US AS ,P>IS ITSELF4 ,WAS !N \R D>L+ *ILD TO BE TORN FROM HIS P>5TS1 FROM ALL HE WAS ACCU/OM$ TO SEE1 & ALL BY :OM HE WAS LOV$1 TO BE PLANT$ 9 ! MID/ ( /RANG]S1 TO HAVE HIS M9D EXCIT$ TO OBS]VATION1 & ! SPIRIT ( G5]\S CONT5TION R\S$1 AT ! RISK ( SUPPRESS+ ! T5D] AFFECTIONS ( HIS S\L1 & ! S5TIM5TS ( DUTY1 RELIANCE1 & LOVE8 ,!RE SEEM$1 H[EV]1 TO BE NO ALT]NATIVE4 ,IT WAS NECESS>Y ?AT A TEMPOR>Y SEP>ATION %\LD TAKE PLACE4 ,9TELLECTUAL IMPROVEM5T WAS A PO9T BY ALL MEANS TO BE PURSU$2 & WE MU/ DIRECT \R EF=TS TO KEEP ALIVE ALONG ) IT ?OSE W9N+ QUALITIES1 & ?AT S(TNESS ( HE>T1 :I* HAD HI!RTO R5D]$ ,*>LES SO EM95TLY \R DELI<T4 ,SU* W]E \R FOND SPECULATIONS & PROJECTS = ! FUTURE4 

,IT WAS AT L5G? DET]M9$ ?AT ,I %\LD PROCE$ ALONG ) HIM TO ,P>IS4 ,I C\LD !RE OBS]VE UPON ! SPOT ! /ATE ( ! UNIV]SITY1 & ! MEANS ( LE>N+ ?AT EXI/$ 9 ! METROPOLIS2 & C\LD CONSULT ) SOME ( ?OSE EM95T LUM9>IES ) :OM ,I HAD BECOME ACQUA9T$ AT ! H\SE ( ! ,M>QUIS DE ,DAMVILLE4 ,M>GU]ITE DECL9$ ACCOMPANY+ ME UPON ?IS OCCASION4 ,H] FA!R WAS DEAD3 %E C\LD NOT ?9K ( QUITT+ H] DAU<T]S = ANY CONSID]ABLE TIME2 & \R NUPTIAL 5GAGEM5T ( RESID+ ALWAYS 9 ! C\NTRY GAVE H] A REPUGNANCE TO ! REMOV+ ) H] :OLE FAMILY TO ,P>IS4 ,IT WAS LEFT PROBABLE ?AT %E MI<T COME TO ME :5 ! BUS9ESS WAS SETTL$1 IF AT ?AT TIME IT WAS DET]M9$ TO LEAVE H] SON AT ! CAPITAL2 & ?AT %E MI<T !N RECONDUCT ME TO ! PLACE1 :I* HAD BE5 ! SC5E ( ALL MY HAPP9ESS1 BUT :I* ,I WAS DE/9$ NEV] TO REVISIT 9 PEACE4 

,PRELIM9>IES BE+ AT L5G? FULLY ADJU/$ 9 ! MANN] ?AT APPE>$ SUITABLE TO ! IMPORTANCE ( ! OCCASION1 ,I SET (F = ! METROPOLIS ( MY C\NTRY1 :I* ,I HAD SE5 ONLY ONCE1 & ?AT = A V]Y %ORT P]IOD1 9 ! C\RSE ( T5 YE>S4 ,?AT VISIT HAD BE5 PRODUC$ BY A V]Y MELAN*OLY CIRCUM/ANCE1 ! DEA? ( ! ,M>QUIS DE ,DAMVILLE4 ,M>GU]ITE & MYSELF HAD !N BE5 SUMMON$1 & >RIV$ AT HIS HOTEL BUT A FEW DAYS BE=E HE EXPIR$4 ,?\< EXTREMELY WEAK5$ BY ! MORTAL DISEASE UND] :I* HE LABOR$1 HE RETA9$ ALL ! FACULTIES ( HIS M9D1 & CONV]S$ ) US 9 ! MO/ AFFECTIONATE & 5DE>+ T]MS4 ,HE CONGRATULAT$ US UPON \R MUTUAL FELICITY2 NOR C\LD ! SITUATION 9 :I* WE F\ND HIM1 UPON ! BR9K ( AN EV]LA/+ OBLIVION ( ALL E>?LY ?+S1 ABATE ! S9C]ITY & F]VOR ( HIS DELI<T4 ,HE ?ANK$ ME = MY C>RIAGE & CONDUCT AS A HUSB&1 :I*1 HE SAID1 MI<T ) PROPRIETY BE HELD UP AS A MODEL TO ! HUMAN SPECIES4 ,HE APPLAUD$ HIMSELF = ?AT M+L$ DISC]NM5T & DET]M9ATION1 :I*1 AS HE AFFIRM$1 HAD SO OPPORTUNELY SECUR$ MY VIRTUE & HIS DAU<T]'S HAPP9ESS4 ,HE TRU/$ ?AT ,I WAS N[ SUFFICI5TLY WEAN$ FROM ?OSE HABITS :I* HAD =M]LY GIV5 HIM SO MU* AL>M4 ,AT ! SAME TIME HE CONJUR$ ME1 BY EV]Y MOTIVE ?AT AN OV]FL[+ 5?USIASM C\LD SUGGE/1 TO P]SI/ 9 MY GOOD RESOLUTIONS1 & NEV] TO *ANGE ?AT RESID5CE1 :]E ,I HAD F\ND EV]Y DEGREE ( DELI<T ( :I* ! HUMAN M9D IS 9 ITS PRES5T CONDITION SUSCEPTIBLE4 0,DO NOT10 SAID HE1 0BE DRAWN ASIDE BY AMBITION2 DO NOT BE DAZZL$ BY ! GLITT] ( IDLE POMP & DECORATION2 DO NOT 5T] ! REMOTE/ CIRCLE ( ! VORTEX ( DISSIPATION6 ,LIVE 9 ! MID/ ( Y\R FAMILY2 CULTIVATE DOME/IC AFFECTION2 BE ! SOLACE & JOY ( Y\R WIFE2 WAT* = ! PRES5T & FUTURE WELF>E ( Y\R *ILDR52 & BE ASSUR$ ?AT Y\ WILL !N BE F\ND NO CONTEMPTIBLE OR UNB5EFICIAL MEMB] ( ! COMMUNITY AT L>GE60 

,SU* W]E ! LA/ ADVICES ( ! ,M>QUIS DE ,DAMVILLE4 ,EXCELL5T MAN6 H[ ILL W]E Y\R LESSONS REMEMB]$6 H[ ILL Y\R K9DNESS REMUN]AT$6 ,HE DI$ 9 ! SIX? YE> ( \R M>RIAGE4 ,! S]I\S IMPRESSION :I* ?IS EV5T PRODUC$ 9 MY M9D GAVE ME SMALL 9CL9ATION TO 5T] 9TO ANY SPECIES ( SOCIETY1 & DISPOS$ ME TO QUIT ,P>IS AS SOON AS EV]Y RESPECT HAD BE5 PAID TO ! OBSEQUIES ( ! DECEAS$4 

,UPON MY >RIVAL 9 ! METROPOLIS ON ! PRES5T OCCASION1 ,I IMM$IATELY S\<T TO R5EW MY ACQUA9TANCE ) ?OSE AMIABLE & EM95T P]SONS1 :O HAD = ! MO/ P>T CON/ITUT$ ! CIRCLE ( ! ,M>QUIS DE ,DAMVILLE4 ,!Y RECEIV$ ME ) ?AT 9T]E/ & ATT5TION ?AT ,I HAVE USUALLY F\ND ATT5DANT ON A CULTIVAT$ M9D4 ,! PLEASURE WAS CONSID]ABLE1 ?AT RESULT$ FROM MEET+ !M ?US AGA91 AFT] T5 YE>S' CESSATION ( 9T]C\RSE4 ,A FEW ( !M1 9DE$1 W]E DEAD1 & O!RS DISP]S$ BY V>I\S ACCID5TS 9 DIFF]5T P>TS ( ,FRANCE OR ( ,EUROPE4 ,! GREAT] P>T1 H[EV]1 ,I /ILL F\ND 9 ?AT CELEBRAT$ CITY1 :I* MI<T WELL BE CONSID]$ AS ! METROPOLIS ( ! CIVILIZ$ WORLD4 ,! K+ HAD E>LY BE5 DI/+UI%$ BY HIS LOVE ( LETT]S & ! >TS2 & ADD$ YE>S1 :ILE !Y ABAT$ 9 HIS M9D ! EAG]NESS ( AMBITION & GLORY1 GAVE NEW /R5G? TO HIS MORE CULTIVAT$ PROP5SITIES4 ,! LIB]ALITY ( HIS CONDUCT1 & ! POLI%$ EASE ?AT *>ACT]IZ$ HIS MANN]S1 PRODUC$ A G5]AL PR$ILECTION 9 FAVOR ( ! CAPITAL 9 :I* HE RESID$4 

,I F\ND ALL MY =M] FRI5DS MATUR$ & IMPROV$ BY ! SIL5T 9FLU5CE ( TIME4 ,!IR KN[L$GE WAS 9CREAS$2 !IR VIEWS R5D]$ WID]2 !IR CONV]SATION WAS MORE AMUS+ & 9/RUCTIVE1 !IR MANN]S MORE BL& & UNAFFECT$4 ,BUT1 IF !IR *>ACT]S HAD EXP]I5C$ REVOLUTION1 M9E WAS MORE MAT]IALLY *ANG$4 ,I HAD BE=E 5C\NT]$ !M ) ALL ! HEAT & PRESUMPTION ( Y\?1 ) NO VIEWS SO MU* PRES5T TO MY M9D AS ?OSE ( *IVALRY & A FACTITI\S HONOR1 ) NO EXP]I5CE BUT ?AT ( A CAMP4 ,I WAS IMPETU\S1 VOLATILE1 & DISSIPAT$4 ,I HAD NOT RE/$ LONG 5\< UPON ANY ONE ( ! FL[]S ( 9TELLECT TO EXTRACT ITS HONEY2 & MY M9D WAS KEPT 9 A /ATE ( PRET]NATURAL AGITATION BY ! PASSIONS ( A GAME/]4 ,IT WAS N[ BECOME COOL1 MOD]ATE1 & TRANQUIL4 ,! SOCIETY ( ,M>GU]ITE HAD CONTRIBUT$ MU* TO ! IMPROVEM5T ( MY *>ACT]2 ,I HAD LIV$ 9 NO IDLE & BRUTI% SOLITUDE1 BUT 9 ! MID/ ( CONTEMPLATION & LETT]S2 & ,I HAD ! PASSIONS ( A HUSB& & A FA!R1 9 ! EXTREME/ DEGREE ATTA*$ TO HIS FAMILY4 ,!SE PASSIONS WILL BE F\ND1 P]HAPS1 TO BE ! TRUE S*OOL ( HUMANITY3 ! MAN1 :OSE SITUATION CONT9UALLY EX]CISES 9 HIM ! S(TE/ & MO/ AMIABLE *>ITIES ( \R NATURE1 WILL ALMO/ 9FALLIBLY SURPASS HIS BRE?R5 9 K9DNESS TO SYMPA?IZE )1 & PROMPTNESS TO RELIEVE1 ! DI/RESSES ( O!RS4 

,WILL IT BE ACC\NT$ /RANGE ?AT1 9 ,P>IS1 SURR\ND$ BY P]SONS ( V>I\S KN[L$GE & LIB]AL B5EVOL5CE1 ,I F\ND MYSELF UND] ! 9FLU5CE ( O!R FEEL+S1 ?AN ANY ,I HAD LATELY EXP]I5C$8 ,I WAS LIKE A MAN :O HAD SUFF]$ LONG CALAMITY 9 A FAMI%$ VESSEL OR A T[N BESIEG$1 & IS IMM$IATELY AFT] 9TRODUC$ 9TO ! MID/ ( LUXURY1 TO A TABLE LOAD$ ) ! MO/ CO/LY DA9TIES4 ,EV]Y VI& HAS TO HIS APPREH5SION AN EXQUISITE RELI%1 & EV]Y W9E A DELICI\S FLAVOR1 ?AT HE NEV] P]CEIV$ 9 !M BE=E4 ,LET NO ONE 9F] ?AT MY LOVE = ,M>GU]ITE WAS DIM9I%$2 IT HAS ALREADY SUFFICI5TLY APPE>$ 9 ! C\RSE ( MY N>RATIVE1 ?AT NO HAPP9ESS C\LD BE MORE CONSUMMATE ?AN M9E WAS ) ?IS ADMIRABLE WOMAN4 ,HAD ,I BE5 CALL$ UPON TO *OOSE = ! SEAT ( MY FUTURE LIFE1 BETWE5 MY PAT]NAL *ATEAU 9 ! ,BORDELOIS1 ) ,M>GU]ITE TO GRACE MY ABODE1 ON ! ONE H&2 & ALL ! GRATIFICATIONS ?AT ,P>IS C\LD AF=D1 ON ! O!R1 ,I %\LD NOT HAVE HESITAT$ EV5 = AN 9/ANT4 ,BUT ! M9D ( MAN IS MADE CAPACI\S ( V>I\S PLEASURES2 & A P]SON ( S\ND & UNCORRUPT$ JUDGM5T WILL P]HAPS ALWAYS 5JOY ) EMOTION ! DELI<TS :I* = A LONG TIME BE=E HE HAD NOT 5C\NT]$1 H[EV] 5VIABLE HIS CONT5T MAY HAVE BE5 UND] !IR ABS5CE4 ,I DELI<T$ TO CONV]SE ) ! M5 ( G5IUS & REF9EM5T ) :OM ,P>IS AT ?IS TIME AB\ND$4 ,IT WAS A FEA/ ( S\L ( :I* ,I HAD R>ELY P>TAK5 9 MY RURAL RETREAT4 ,I DELI<T$ TO COMB9E EXCELL5CE ) NUMB]1 &1 TO A CONSID]ABLE DEGREE AT LEA/1 V>IETY ( 9T]C\RSE ) S5TIM5TS ( REG>D & FRI5D%IP4 ,9 !SE SELECT SOCIETIES ,I F\ND NO COLD SUPPRESSIONS & RES]VE4 ,!IR MEMB]S W]E BRE?R5 9 DISPOSITION1 SIMIL> 9 !IR PURSUITS1 & CONG5IAL 9 !IR S5TIM5TS4 ,:5 ANY ONE SPOKE1 IT WAS ?AT ! P]SON TO :OM HE ADDRESS$ HIMSELF MI<T APPREH5D :AT WAS PASS+ 9 HIS ?\<TS4 ,!Y P>TICIPAT$ ) S9C]ITY & A LIB]AL M9D 9 EA* O!R'S FEEL+S1 :E!R ( GAY DELI<T OR MELAN*OLY DISAPPO9TM5T4 

,?US SITUAT$1 ,I =GOT = A TIME MY 5GAGEM5TS ) ,M>GU]ITE4 ,! SC5ES ( ,/4 ,LEON1 ITS FIELDS1 ITS WALKS1 ITS WOODS & ITS /REAMS1 FAD$ FROM MY M9D4 ,I =GOT ! PLEASURE ) :I* ,I HAD VIEW$ MY *ILDR5 SPORT+ ON ! GRE51 & ! DELICI\S1 RURAL SUPP]S :I* ,I HAD SO (T5 P>TAK5 ) MY WIFE B5EA? MY V9ES & MY FIG-TREES AT ! P]IOD ( ! SETT+ SUN4 ,:5 ,I SET \T = ,P>IS1 !SE IMAGES HAD DWELT UPON MY M9D1 & SADD5$ MY FANCY4 ,AT EV]Y /AGE ,I FELT MYSELF REMOV$ /ILL FUR!R FROM ! SC5E :]E MY TREASURES & MY AFFECTIONS W]E DEPOSIT$4 ,BUT1 %ORTLY AFT]1 NEW SC5ES & NEW EMPLOYM5TS 5GAG$ MY ?\<TS4 ,! PLEASURES :I* ,I S\<T BUT WEAKLY AT FIR/1 EV]Y TIME !Y W]E TA/$ 9CREAS$ MY P>TIALITY = !M4 ,I SEEM$ = A TIME TO BE UND] ! 9FLU5CE ( AN OBLIVION ( MY =M] LIFE4 ,?US CIRCUM/ANC$1 ! FOLLY :I* HAD SO DEEP A ROOT 9 MY *>ACT]1 TOOK HOLD ( ME4 ,I HIR$ A MAGNIFIC5T HOTEL1 & 5T]TA9$ AT MY [N EXP5SE ?OSE P]SONS 9 :OSE SOCIETY ,I PR9CIPALLY DELI<T$4 ,MY CIRCLES BECAME MORE NUM]\S ?AN ?OSE ( ! ,M>QUIS DE ,DAMVILLE1 & W]E CONDUCT$ 9 A V]Y DIFF]5T /YLE ( SPL5DOR & PR(USION4 ,I CORRESPOND$ ) ,M>GU]ITE2 BUT ,I CONT9UALLY F\ND SOME NEW PRETEXT = L5G!N+ MY /AY2 & %E ON H] P>T1 ?\< ! K9DE/ & MO/ 9DULG5T ( WOM51 BECAME S]I\SLY AL>M$ & UNHAPPY4 

,AS MY P>TIES W]E MORE NUM]\S ?AN ?OSE ( ! ,M>QUIS DE ,DAMVILLE HAD BE51 !Y W]E MORE MIX$4 ,AMONG O!RS1 ,I OCCASIONALLY ASSOCIAT$ ) SOME ( ?OSE NOBLEM5 :O HAD BE5 ! COMPANIONS ( MY =M] DISSIPATION & GAM+4 ,AN OBVI\S CONSEQU5CE RESULT$ FROM ?IS4 ,P>TIES ( PLAY W]E OCCASIONALLY PROPOS$ TO ME4 ,I RESI/$--,I YIELD$4 ,MY FIR/ COMPLIANCES W]E TIMID1 HESITAT+1 & PA9FUL4 ,I RECOLLECT$ ! LESSONS & EXHORTATIONS ( MY EXCELL5T FA!R-9-LAW4 ,AT L5G?1 H[EV]1 MY AL>MS ABAT$4 ,I REPROA*$ MYSELF ) ! WANT ( AN HONORABLE CONFID5CE 9 MY [N FIRMNESS1 & ! C[>DICE ( SUPPOS+ ?AT ,I WAS NOT TO BE TRU/$ ) ! DIRECTION ( MY CONDUCT4 

,ONE EV5+ ,I V5TUR$ BEYOND ! CAUTI\S LIMITS ,I HAD AT FIR/ PRESCRIB$ MYSELF1 & WON A CONSID]ABLE SUM4 ,?IS 9CID5T PRODUC$ A /RONG IMPRESSION UPON ME1 & FILL$ MY M9D ) TUMULT & AGITATION4 ,!RE WAS A SECRET ?AT ,I HAD CONCEAL$ ALMO/ FROM MYSELF1 BUT :I* N[ RECURR$ TO ME ) T5FOLD VIOL5CE4 ,I WAS LIV+ BEYOND ! MEANS ,I HAD TO DIS*>GE MY EXP5SES4 ,MY PROP5SITY ( ?IS SORT SEEM$ TO BE FATAL & IRRESI/IBLE4 ,MY M>RIAGE ) ,M>GU]ITE HAD OCCURR$ OPPORTUNELY1 TO HEAL ! BREA*ES ,I HAD AT ?AT TIME MADE 9 MY =TUNE1 & TO TAKE FROM ME ! CONSCI\SNESS ( EMB>RASSM5TS :I* ,I %\LD O!RWISE HAVE DEEPLY FELT4 ,! DEA? ( ! ,M>QUIS1 H[EV] DEPLORABLE 9 O!R RESPECTS1 HAPP5$ AT A P]IOD :5 ! SPIRIT ( PR(USION & MAGNIFIC5CE :I* *>ACT]IZ$ ME HAD AGA9 9VOLV$ MY AFFAIRS 9 CONSID]ABLE DIFFICULTY4 ,IT MI<T BE SUPPOS$ ?AT !SE TWO CASES ( EXP]I5CE W\LD HAVE SUFFIC$ TO EXTIRPATE MY FOLLY2 BUT !Y HAD RA!R ! CONTR>Y EFFECT4 ,9 EA* ( !M ! EV5T WAS SU* AS TO PREV5T EXTRAVAGANCE & ?\<TLESSNESS FROM PRODUC+ !IR G5U9E RESULTS2 &1 ( CONSEQU5CE1 !Y APPE>$ LESS CRIM9AL & MIS*IEV\S 9 MY EYES ?AN O!RWISE !Y PROBABLY W\LD HAVE APPE>$4 ,I RA!R 9CREAS$ ?AN DIM9I%$ MY E/ABLI%M5T UPON ! DEA? ( MY FA!R-9-LAW4 ,I HAD NO REASONABLE PROSPECT ( ANY PROP]TY H]EAFT] TO DESC5D TO ME1 ?AT %\LD EXON]ATE ME FROM ! CONSEQU5CES ( FUR!R PRODIGALITY4 ,BUT ,I DID NOT ADV]T TO ?IS4 ,I SAW MYSELF SURR\ND$ BY MY *ILDR52 !Y W]E ! DELI<T & SOLACE ( MY LIFE2 & YET ,I WAS NE$LESS ( !IR 9T]E/S4 ,SOMETIMES ,I RESOLV$ UPON A MORE RIGID ECONOMY3 BUT ECONOMY IS A PR9CIPLE ?AT DOES NOT EASILY LAY HOLD ( ANY BUT A HE>T FRAM$ TO RECEIVE IT4 ,IT IS A BUS9ESS ( ATT5TIVE & VIGILANT DETAIL4 ,IT EASILY ESCAPES ! M9D1 AMID ! IMPETUOSITY ( ! PASSIONS1 ! OB/9ACY ( ROOT$ PROP5SITIES1 & ! S$UCTION ( LONG E/ABLI%$ HABITS4 ,M>GU]ITE1 9DE$1 DID NOT %>E ) ME 9 !SE FOLLIES2 ! SIMPLICITY & +5U\SNESS ( H] M9D W]E SU*1 ?AT %E W\LD HAVE BE5 AS HAPPY 9 A COTTAGE AS A PALACE2 BUT1 ?\< %E DID NOT P>TAKE MY VICES1 AN ILL-JUDG$ =BE>ANCE & T5D]NESS = MY FEEL+S DID NOT P]MIT H] EFFECTUALLY TO C\NT]ACT !M4 ,?IS IS1 P]HAPS1 ! ONLY DEFECT ( *>ACT] ,I AM ABLE TO IMPUTE TO H]4 

,AFT] ,I HAD WON ! SUM TO :I* ,I HAVE ALLUD$1 ,I RETIR$ TO MY HOTEL FULL ( ANXI\S ?\<TS4 ,IT PRODUC$ UPON ME1 9 SOME DEGREE1 ! SAME EFFECT AS ORD9>ILY BELONGS TO A GREAT CALAMITY4 ,I LAY ALL NI<T SLEEPLESS & DI/URB$4 ,RU9 & DESPAIR PRES5T$ !MSELVES TO MY M9D 9 A ?\S& =MS4 ,HE$LESS PRODIGALITY & DILAPIDAT$ REV5UES PASS$ 9 REVIEW BE=E ME4 ,I C\NT$ ! YE>S ( MY LIFE4 ,I HAD COMPLET$ ! ?IRTY-SECOND YE> ( MY AGE3 ?IS WAS SC>CELY HALF ! PROBABLE DURATION ( HUMAN EXI/5CE4 ,H[ WAS ,I TO SUPPORT ! REMA9+ P]IOD1 A P]IOD LITTLE ASSORT$ TO DIFFICULTIES & EXP$I5TS2 & :I*1 9 ! CLOSE ( IT1 SEEMS IMP]I\SLY TO CALL = EV]Y 9DULG5CE8 ,HI!RTO1 AN 9T]VAL ( F\R OR FIVE YE>S HAD REPEAT$LY SUFFIC$ TO 9VOLVE ME 9 S]I\S EMB>RASSM5T4 ,MY *ILDR5 W]E GR[+ UP >\ND ME2 MY FAMILY WAS LIKELY TO BECOME /ILL L>G]2 AS MY (FSPR+ 9CREAS$ 9 YE>S1 !IR DEM&S UPON MY REV5UES W\LD BE MORE CONSID]ABLE4 ,W]E !SE DEM&S TO BE SLI<T$8 ,W]E MY DAU<T]S1 NAY1 WAS ! HEIR ( MY RANK & MY NAME1 TO BE COMMITT$ TO ! COMPASSION ( ! WORLD1 UNPROVID$ & =LORN8 ,:AT A *E]LESS PROSPECT6 ,:AT A GLOOMY & DISCONSOLATE HUE DID !SE IDEAS SPREAD UPON ?AT FUTURE1 :I* ! HEAL? ( ! HUMAN M9D REQUIRES TO HAVE GILD$ ) ! BEAMS ( HOPE & EXPECTATION8 ,I HAD ALREADY TRI$ ! EXP$I5T ( ECONOMY2 & ,I HAD UNI=MLY F\ND ?IS 9E/IMABLE & ONLY %EET-AN*OR ( PRUD5CE GLID+ FROM MY DELUD$ GRASP4 ,C\LD ,I PROMISE MYSELF BETT] SUCCESS 9 FUTURE8 ,!RE SEEM$ TO BE SOME?+ 9 MY HABITS1 :E!R ( 9ATT5TION1 O/5TATION1 OR 9CONSI/5CY1 ?AT BAFFL$ ! /RONGE/ MOTIVES BY :I* P>SIMONY & FRUGALITY CAN BE 5=C$4 

,:Y DID !SE ?\<TS IMPORTUNATELY RECUR TO ME 9 ! PRES5T MOM5T8 ,!Y W]E ! SUGGE/IONS ( A MALIGNANT G5IUS1--?\<TS1 ! DE/9ATION ( :I* WAS TO LEAD ME 9TO A GULF ( MIS]Y & GUILT6 ,:ILE ,I WAS GO+ ON 9 A REGUL> TRA9 ( EXP5SE1 :ILE ,I WAS SCOOP+ ! M9E ?AT WAS TO SWALL[ ME & MY HOPES TOGE!R1 ,I HAD ! >T TO KEEP !SE REFLECTIONS AT BAY4 ,N[ ?AT ,I HAD MET ) AN UNEXPECT$ PIECE ( GOOD =TUNE1 !Y RU%$ UPON ME ) IRRESI/IBLE VIOL5CE4 ,UN=TUNATE CO9CID5CE6 ,MIS]ABLE1--RA!R LET ME SAY1 GUILTY1 AB&ON$ MISCREANT6 

,AS SOON AS ,I ROSE 9 ! MORN+1 ,I W5T TO ! CLOSET :]E1 ! EV5+ BE=E1 ,I HAD DEPOSIT$ MY REC5T ACQUISITIONS4 ,I SPREAD \T ! GOLD BE=E ME4 ,I GAZ$ UPON IT ) 9T5TNESS4 ,MY EYES1 A MOM5T AFT]1 ROLL$ 9 VACANCY4 ,I TRAV]S$ ! AP>TM5T ) IMPATI5T /EPS4 ,ALL ! DEMON SEEM$ TO MAKE HIS DESC5T UPON MY S\L4 ,?IS WAS ! FIR/ TIME ?AT ,I HAD EV] FELT ! /RUGGLE ( CONSCI\S GUILT & DI%ONOR4 ,I WAS F> 9DE$ FROM ANTICIPAT+ ?AT SPECIES ( GUILT1 & ?AT SPECIES ( RU91 :I* SOON AFT] OV]:ELM$ ME4 ,MY M9D DID NOT ONCE RECUR TO ! POSSIBILITY ( ANY S]I\S MIS*IEF4 ,I DWELT ONLY1 AS GAME/]S P]HAPS USUALLY DO1 UPON ! ALT]NATIVE BETWE5 ACQUISITION & NO ACQUISITION4 ,I DID NOT TAKE 9TO ! ACC\NT ! UNGOV]NABL5ESS ( MY [N PASSIONS4 ,I ASSUM$ IT AS UNQUE/IONABLE1 ?AT ,I C\LD /OP :5 ,I PLEAS$4 ,! ?\<TS ?AT TORTUR$ ME W]E1 9 ! FIR/ PLACE1 ?OSE ( A SANGU9E & UNEXP]I5C$ ADV5TUR] 9 A LOTT]Y1 :OSE M9D RE/S NOT = A MOM5T UPON ! SUM HE HAS RISK$1 BUT :O1 HAV+ 9 FANCY ! PR9CIPAL PRIZE ALREADY 9 HIS POSSESSION1 & HAV+ DI/RIBUT$ IT TO V>I\S OBJECTS & PURPOSES1 SOMETIMES FE>FULLY RECURS TO ! POSSIBILITY ( HIS DISAPPO9TM5T1 & ANTICIPATES ) T]ROR :AT WILL BE HIS SITUATION1 IF DEPRIV$ ( ?IS IMAG9>Y WEAL?4 ,I HAD N[1 = ! FIR/ TIME1 OP5$ MY EYES TO ! REAL /ATE ( MY AFFAIRS1 & ,I CLUNG ) PROPORTIONABLE VEHEM5CE TO ?IS PLANK :I* WAS TO BE> ME FROM ! /ORM4 ,9 ! SECOND PLACE1 ,I FELT1 ?\< D>KLY & UNWILL+LY1 ! IMMORALITY ( MY CONCEPTION4 ,TO GAME MAY1 9 SOME 9/ANCES1 NOT BE 9 DIAMETRICAL OPPOSITION TO LIB]ALITY ( M9D2 BUT HE :O GAMES = ! EXPRESS PURPOSE ( IMPROV+ HIS CIRCUM/ANCES MU/ BE AN IDIOT1 IF HE DOES NOT SOMETIMES RECOLLECT ?AT ! MONEY LO/ MAY BE AS S]I\S A MIS*IEF TO HIS NEI<BOR1 AS ! MONEY GA9$ CAN POSSIBLY BE A B5EFIT TO HIMSELF4 ,IT IS PA/ A QUE/ION1 ?AT HE :O ?US TURNS HIS AMUSEM5T 9TO HIS BUS9ESS LOSES ! DIGNITY ( A MAN ( HONOR1 & PUTS HIMSELF UPON A LEVEL ) ! MO/ AV>ICI\S & USURI\S M]*ANT4 

,?\< ,I WAS F> FROM HAV+ DIGE/$ A SPECIFIC PLAN ( 5RI*+ MYSELF BY !SE DISCR$ITABLE MEANS1 YET ! V]Y TUMULT ( MY ?\<TS OP]AT$ /RONGLY TO LEAD ME ONCE MORE TO ! GAM+-TABLE4 ,I WAS 9 NO HUMOR TO BUSY MYSELF ) MY [N ?\<TS2 ! CALMNESS ( LIT]>Y DISCUSSION1 & ! POLI%$ 9T]*ANGE ( WIT1 :I* HAD LATELY SO MU* DELI<T$ ME1 HAD N[ NO ATTRACTION = MY HE>T2 ! TURBUL5CE ( A SC5E ( HI< PLAY ALONE HAD P[] TO DI/RACT MY ATT5TION FROM ! /ORM )94 ,I WON A SECOND TIME4 ,I FELT ! RAPIDITY & 9T5S5ESS ( MY CONTEMPLATIONS /ILL FUR!R ACCEL]AT$4 ,I WILL NOT OV] AGA9 DETAIL :AT !Y W]E4 ,SUFFICE IT TO SAY1 ?AT MY HOPES BECAME MORE >D5T1 MY CONCEPTION ( ! NECESSITY ( ?IS RES\RCE MORE IMPRESSIVE1 & MY AL>M LE/ ?IS LA/ EXP$I5T %\LD FAIL ME MORE TORM5T+4 

,! NEXT TIME ,I LO/ HALF AS MU* AS ! SUM ( MY W9N+S4 ,I !N PROCE$$ = SEV]AL DAYS 9 A NE>LY REGUL> ALT]NATION ( GA9 & LOSS4 ,?IS1 AS SOON AS ! FACT UNAVOIDABLY =C$ ITSELF UPON MY M9D1 ONLY S]V$ TO R5D] MY ?\<TS MORE DESP]ATE4 ,NO1 EXCLAIM$ ,I1 IT WAS NOT = ?IS ?AT ,I 5T]$ UPON SO TORM5T+ A PURSUIT4 ,IT IS NOT = ?IS ?AT ,I HAVE DES]T$ ! LE>N$ SOCIETIES :I* W]E LATELY MY DELI<T1 & COMMITT$ MYSELF TO A SEA ( DISQUIET & ANXIETY4 ,I CAME NOT H]E1 LIKE A BOY1 = AMUSEM5T2 OR1 LIKE ONE :O HAS BE5 BR$ 9 ! LAP ( IGNORANCE & WEAL?1 TO SEEK A RELIEF FROM ! BURD5 ( EXI/5CE1 & TO F9D A /IMULUS TO ANIMATE MY TORPID SPIRITS4 ,AM ,I !N TO BE = EV] BAFFL$8 ,AM ,I TO CULTIVATE A TRACT ( L&1 :I* IS TO PRES5T ME NO?+ 9 RETURN BUT UNV>I$ B>5NESS8 ,AM ,I CONT9UALLY TO W9D UP MY PASSIONS1 & NEW-/R+ MY ATT5TION 9 VA98 ,AM ,I A M]E 9/RUM5T TO BE PLAY$ UPON BY 5DLESS HOPES & FE>S & TORM5T+ WI%ES8 ,AM ,I TO BE ! SPORT ( EV5TS1 ! FOOL ( PROMISE1 ALWAYS AGITAT$ ) NE> APPROA*+ GOOD1 YET ALWAYS DELUD$8 

,?IS FRAME ( M9D L$ ME ON 9S5SIBLY TO ! MO/ EXTRAVAGANT ADV5TURES4 ,IT ?REW ME 9 ! FIR/ PLACE 9TO ! H&S ( NOTORI\S GAMBL]S4 ,M5 ( REAL PROP]TY %RUNK FROM ! /AKES ,I PROPOS$2 AS1 ?\< !Y W]E 9 SOME DEGREE 9FECT$ ) ! V5OM ( GAM+1 !IR 9FECTION WAS NOT SO DEEP AS M9E1 NOR ) MY DESP]ATION ( ?\<T4 ,! PLAY]S ) :OM ,I 5GAG$ W]E = ! MO/ P>T WELL KN[N TO EV]Y ONE BUT MYSELF1 NOT TO BE ABLE TO PAY ! SUMS !Y PLAY$ =1 IF !Y LO/2 NAY1 ?IS FACT MI<T BE SAID 9 SOME S5SE TO BE KN[N TO ME AS WELL AS ! RE/1 ?\< ,I OB/9ATELY /EEL$ MYSELF AGA9/ ! RECOLLECTION ( IT4 ,ONE EV5+ ,I WON ( ONE ( !SE P]SONS A V]Y L>GE SUM1 = :I* ,I SUFF]$ HIM TO PLAY ) ME UPON HONOR4 ,! CONSEQU5CE WAS SIMPLE4 ,! NEXT MORN+ HE TOOK HIS DEP>TURE FROM ,P>IS1 & ,I HE>D ( HIM NO MORE4 

,BE=E ?IS1 H[EV]1 ! TIDE ( SUCCESS HAD SET /RONGLY AGA9/ ME4 ,I HAD SU/A9$ SOME S]I\S VICISSITUDES2 &1 :ILE ,I WAS PLAY+ ) ! WRET* ,I HAVE JU/ M5TION$1 MY EAG]NESS 9CREAS$ AS MY GOOD LUCK BEGAN1 & ,I FLATT]$ MYSELF ?AT ,I %\LD N[ AV5GE MYSELF ( =TUNE = SOME ( H] LATE UNK9DNESSES4 ,MY ANGUI%--:Y %\LD ,I CALL ! ?+ BY A DISPROPORTIONATE & TRIVIAL APPELLATION8--MY AGONY--WAS BY SO MU* ! GREAT]1 :5 ,I F\ND ?AT ?IS P]SON1 ! V]Y 9DIVIDUAL :O HAD ALREADY /RIPP$ ME ( CONSID]ABLE SUMS1 HAD DISAPPE>$1 & LEFT ME )\T ! SMALLE/ B5EFIT FROM MY IMAG9>Y W9N+S4 

,NO MAN :O HAS NOT FELT1 CAN POSSIBLY IMAGE TO HIMSELF ! TORTURES ( A GAME/]1 ( A GAME/] LIKE ME1 :O PLAY$ = ! IMPROVEM5T ( HIS =TUNE1 :O PLAY$ ) ! RECOLLECTION ( A WIFE & *ILDR5 DE>] TO HIM ?AN ! BLOOD ?AT BUBBL$ ?R\< ! >T]IES ( HIS HE>T1 :O MI<T BE SAID1 LIKE ! SAVAGES ( ANCI5T ,G]MANY1 TO MAKE !SE RELATIONS ! /AKE = :I* HE ?REW1 :O SAW ALL MY [N HAPP9ESS & ALL !IRS ?R\< ! LONG VI/A ( LIFE1 DEP5D+ ON ! TURN ( A C>D6 ,HELL IS BUT ! *IM]A ( PRIE/S1 TO BUBBLE IDIOTS & C[>DS4 ,:AT HAVE !Y 9V5T$1 TO COME 9TO COMPETITION ) :AT ,I FELT6 ,!IR ALT]NATE 9T]*ANGE ( FLAMES & ICE IS BUT A FEEBLE IMAGE ( ! ET]NAL V>IETIES ( HOPE & FE>4 ,ALL BODILY RACKS & TORM5TS >E NO?+ COMP>$ ) C]TA9 /ATES ( ! HUMAN M9D4 ,! GAME/] W\LD BE ! MO/ PITIABLE1 IF HE W]E NOT ! MO/ DESPICABLE CREATURE ?AT EXI/S4 ,>RANGE T5 BITS ( PA9T$ PAP] 9 A C]TA9 ORD]1 & HE IS READY TO GO WILD ) ! EXTRAVAGANCE ( HIS JOY4 ,HE IS ONLY RE/RA9$ BY SOME REMA9S ( %AME1 FROM DANC+ AB\T ! ROOM1 & DISPLAY+ ! VIL5ESS ( HIS SPIRIT BY EV]Y SORT ( FREAK & ABSURDITY4 ,AT ANO!R TIME1 :5 HIS HOPES HAVE BE5 GRADUALLY WORK$ UP 9TO A P>OXYSM1 AN UNEXPECT$ TURN >RIVES1 & HE IS MADE ! MO/ MIS]ABLE ( M54 ,NEV] %ALL ,I CEASE TO RECOLLECT ! S5SATION ,I HAVE REPEAT$LY FELT1 9 ! 9/ANTANE\S S9K+ ( ! SPIRITS1 ! CONSCI\S FIRE ?AT SPREAD OV] MY VISAGE1 ! ANG] 9 MY EYE1 ! BURN+ DRYNESS ( MY ?ROAT1 ! S5TIM5T ?AT 9 A MOM5T WAS READY TO OV]:ELM ) CURSES ! C>DS1 ! /AKE1 MY [N EXI/5CE1 & ALL MANK9D4 ,H[ EV]Y MALIGNANT & 9SUFF]ABLE PASSION SEEM$ TO RU% UPON MY S\L6 ,:AT NI<TS ( DREADFUL SOLITUDE & DESPAIR DID ,I REPEAT$LY PASS DUR+ ! PROGRESS ( MY RU96 ,IT WAS ! NI<T ( ! S\L6 ,MY M9D WAS WRAPP$ 9 A GLOOM ?AT C\LD NOT BE PI]C$6 ,MY HE>T WAS OPPRESS$ ) A WEI<T ?AT NO P[] HUMAN OR DIV9E WAS EQUAL TO REMOVE6 ,MY EYELIDS SEEM$ TO PRESS D[NW>D ) AN 9V9CIBLE BURD56 ,MY EYEBALLS W]E READY TO />T & CRACK !IR SOCKETS6 ,I LAY MOTIONLESS1 ! VICTIM ( 9EFFABLE HORROR6 ,! :OLE 5DLESS NI<T SEEM$ TO BE FILL$ ) ONE VA/1 APPALL+1 IMMOVABLE IDEA6 ,IT WAS A /UPOR1 MORE 9SUPPORTABLE & TREM5D\S ?AN ! UTMO/ :IRL ( PA91 OR ! FI]CE/ AGONY ( EXQUISITE P]CEPTION6 

,ONE DAY ?AT MY M9D WAS 9 A /ATE ( EXCESSIVE ANGUI% & REMORSE 7,I HAD ALREADY CONTRIV$ BY ?IS 9F]NAL MEANS TO DISPOSSESS MYSELF ( ! HALF ( MY PROP]TY71 MY SON CAME UNEXPECT$LY 9TO MY *AMB]4 ,= SOME TIME ,I HAD SC>CELY EV] SE5 HIM3 SU* IS A GAME/]6 ,ALL ! NI<T1 :ILE HE SLEPT1 ,I WAS 5GAG$ 9 !SE HAUNTS ( DEMONS4 ,ALL ! DAY1 :ILE HE WAS AWAKE1 & /UDY+ ) HIS MA/]S1 OR AMUS+ HIMSELF1 ,I WAS 9 MY B$-*AMB]1 5DEAVOR+ TO C\RT A FEW BROK5 H\RS ( SLEEP4 ,:51 NOT)/&+ ! OPPOSITION ( \R HABITS1 ,I HAD ! OPPORTUNITY ( SEE+ HIM1 ,I RA!R %UNN$ TO USE1 ?AN S\<T TO EMBRACE IT4 ,! SI<T ( HIM HAD A SAVOR ( BITT]NESS 9 IT1 ?AT MORE ?AN BALANC$ ALL ! SOLACE ( NATURAL AFFECTION4 ,IT BR\<T BE=E ME ! IMAGE ( HIS MO!R & HIS SI/]S2 IT PRES5T$ TO MY S\L A FRI<TFUL TALE ( DES]T$ DUTIES2 IT WAS MORE GALL+ & 5V5OM$ ?AN ! /+ ( SCORPIONS4 

,/>T+ AT ! S\ND ( ! OP5+ DOOR1 ,I CALL$ \T ABRUPTLY1 & ) SOME H>%NESS1 0,:O IS !RE8 ,:AT DO Y\ WANT80 

0,IT IS ,I1 SIR10 REPLI$ ! BOY2 0IT IS ,*>LES1 COME TO PAY HIS DUTY TO Y\60 

0,I DO NOT WANT Y\ N[2 Y\ %\LD NOT COME1 BUT :5 Y\ KN[ ,I AM AT LEISURE10 ANSW]$ ,I SOME:AT DI/URB$4 

0,V]Y WELL1 SIR2 V]Y WELL3 ,I AM GO+40 ,AS HE SPOKE HIS VOICE SEEM$ SUFFOCAT$ ) TE>S4 ,HE WAS ON ! PO9T ( %UTT+ ! DOOR1 & LEAV+ ME TO MYSELF4 

0,*>LES60 SAID ,I1 NOT WELL KN[+ :AT IT WAS ,I 9T5D$ TO DO4 

,HE RETURN$4 

0,COME H]E1 MY DE> BOY60 

,I TOOK HIS H&1 ,I DREW HIM BETWE5 MY KNEES1 ,I HID MY FACE 9 HIS NECK1 ,I %OOK ) ! VIOL5CE ( MY EMOTION4 

0,GO1 GO1 BOY3 Y\ P]CEIVE ,I CANNOT TALK TO Y\40 

,I PU%$ HIM G5TLY FROM ME4 

0,PAPA60 CRI$ HE1 0,I DO NOT LIKE TO LEAVE Y\4 ,I KN[ ,I AM BUT A BOY1 & CAN BE BUT ( LITTLE USE TO Y\4 ,IF MAMA W]E ) Y\1 ,I W\LD NOT BE TR\BLESOME4 ,I %\LD CRY :5 ,I SAW Y\ W]E GRIEV$1 BUT ,I W\LD ASK NO QUE/IONS1 & W\LD LEAVE Y\1 BECAUSE Y\ DESIR$ IT4 ,I HOPE Y\ HAVE NOT HAD ANY BAD NEWS80 

0,NO1 MY BOY1 NO4 ,COME TO ME TO-MORR[1 & ,I WILL BE AT LEISURE1 & WILL TALK A GREAT DEAL TO Y\40 

0,AH1 PAPA1 TO-MORR[6 ,EV]Y DAY ?AT ,I DID NOT SEE Y\1 ,I ?\<T IT W\LD BE TO-MORR[6 ,& !RE WAS ONE TO-MORR[1 & ANO!R TO-MORR[1 & SO MANY1 ?AT IT SEEM$ AS IF Y\ HAD =GOTT5 TO SPEAK TO ME AT ALL40 

0,:Y1 ,*>LES1 Y\ DO NOT D\BT MY WORD8 ,I TELL Y\ ?AT TO-MORR[ Y\ %ALL SEE ME AS LONG AS Y\ PLEASE40 

0,WELL1 WELL1 ,I WILL WAIT6 ,BUT DO !N LET IT BE ALL DAY6 ,I WILL NOT GO TO COLLEGE1 & IT %ALL BE A HOLIDAY4 ,PAPA1 ,I DO NOT LIKE MY LESSONS HALF SO WELL AS ,I DID1 S9CE ,I HAVE NEI!R Y\ NOR MAMA ?AT ,I CAN TELL :AT !Y >E AB\T40 

0,GOOD-BYE1 ,*>LES6 ,BE A GOOD BOY6 REMEMB] TO-MORR[6 ,GOOD-BYE60 

0,PAPA6 N[ ,I AM SURE Y\ LOOK A GOOD DEAL BETT] ?AN Y\ DID AT FIR/4 ,LET ME TELL Y\ SOME?+ AB\T ! LESSON ,I READ ?IS MORN+4 ,IT WAS A /ORY ( ,ZALEUCUS ! ,LOCRIAN1 :O PUT \T ONE ( HIS [N EYES1 ?AT HE MI<T PRES]VE EYE-SI<T TO HIS SON40 

,?IS >TLESS /ORY1 ?US 9NOC5TLY 9TRODUC$1 CUT ME TO ! S\L4 ,I />T$ 9 MY *AIR1 & HID MY FACE UPON ! TABLE4 

0,PAPA1 :AT IS ! MATT]8 ,9DE$ Y\ FRI<T5 ME60 

0,ZALEUCUS WAS A FA!R6 ,:AT !N AM ,I80 

0,YES1 ,ZALEUCUS WAS V]Y GOOD 9DE$6 ,BUT1 DO Y\ KN[1 HIS SON WAS V]Y NAU<TY4 ,IT WAS HIS DISOB$I5CE & WICK$NESS ?AT MADE HIM LIABLE TO SU* A PUNI%M5T4 ,I W\LD NOT = ! WORLD BE LIKE ,ZALEUCUS'S SON4 ,I HOPE1 PAPA1 Y\ WILL NEV] SUFF] FROM MY WILLFULNESS4 ,Y\ %ALL NOT1 PAPA1 9DE$1 9DE$60 

,I CAU<T ! BOY 9 MY >MS4 0,NO1 Y\ >E V]Y GOOD6 Y\ >E TOO GOOD6 ,I CANNOT BE> IT60 

0,WELL1 PAPA1 ,I WI% ,I W]E ABLE TO %[ Y\ ?AT ,I LOVE Y\ AS WELL AS EV] ,ZALEUCUS LOV$ HIS SON60 

,I WAS MELT$ ) ! +5U\SNESS ( ! BOY'S EXPRESSION4 ,I QUITT$ HIM4 ,I PAC$ UP & D[N ! ROOM4 ,SUDD5LY1 AS IF BY P>OXYSM ( 9SANITY1 ,I SEIZ$ MY *ILD BY ! >M1 ,I SEAT$ MYSELF1 ,I DREW HIM T[>DS ME1 ,I PUT MY EYE UPON HIM4 

0,BOY1 H[ D>E Y\ TALK TO ME ( ,ZALEUCUS8 ,DO Y\ MEAN TO 9S9UATE A REPROA*8 ,DO ,I NOT DIS*>GE A FA!R'S DUTY8 ,IF ,I DO NOT1 KN[1 UR*91 ,I WILL NOT BE 9SULT$ BY MY *ILD60 

,! BOY WAS A/ONI%$4 ,HE BUR/ 9TO TE>S1 & WAS SIL5T4 

,I WAS MOV$ BY HIS EVID5T DI/RESS4 0,NO1 *ILD1 Y\ HAVE NO FA!R4 ,I AM AFRAID Y\ HAVE NOT4 ,Y\ DO NOT KN[ MY BAS5ESS4 ,Y\ DO NOT KN[ ?AT ,I AM ! DEADLIE/ FOE Y\ HAVE 9 ! WORLD40 

0,DE> PAPA1 DO NOT TALK ?US6 ,DO NOT ,I KN[ ?AT Y\ >E ! BE/ ( M58 ,DO NOT ,I LOVE Y\ & MAMA BETT] ?AN EV]Y BODY ELSE PUT TOGE!R80 

0,WELL1 ,*>LES10 CRI$ ,I1 5DEAVOR+ TO COMPOSE MYSELF1 0WE WILL TALK NO MORE N[4 ,DID NOT ,I TELL Y\1 Y\ %\LD NOT COME TO ME BUT :5 Y\ KNEW IT WAS A PROP] TIME8 ,I HOPE Y\ WILL NEV] HAVE REASON TO HATE ME40 

0,I NEV] WILL HATE Y\1 PAPA1 DO TO ME :AT Y\ WILL60 

,HE SAW ,I WI%$ TO BE ALONE1 & LEFT ME4 

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