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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,WILLIAM ,GODW9 

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,9 ! EV5+ ( ! SAME DAY1 MY BELOV$ ,M>GU]ITE >RIV$ UNEXPECT$LY AT ,P>IS4 ,9 ! BEG9N+ ( \R SEP>ATION1 ,I HAD BE5 TO ! LA/ DEGREE PUNCTUAL 9 MY LETT]S4 ,I HAD NO PLEASURE SO GREAT1 AS RETIR+ TO MY CLOSET1 & P\R+ \T MY S\L TO ! MO/ ADORABLE ( WOM54 ,BY DEGREES ,I RELAX$ 9 PUNCTUALITY4 ,ORD9>Y OCCUPATIONS1 H[EV] CLOSELY PURSU$1 HAVE A ME?OD 9 !M1 ?AT EASILY COMB9ES ) REGUL>ITY 9 PO9TS ( AN 9CID5TAL NATURE4 ,BUT GAM+1 :5 PURSU$ ) AVIDITY1 SUBV]TS ALL ORD]1 & =CES EV]Y AVOCATION FROM ! PLACE ASSIGN$ IT4 ,:5 MY 9SANE PROJECT ( SUPPLY+ ! 9ADEQUAT5ESS ( MY =TUNE BY ?IS EXP$I5T BEGAN TO PRODUCE AN EFFECT EXACTLY OPPOSITE1 ,I C\LD NOT1 BUT ) ! EXTREME/ DIFFICULTY1 /R+ MY M9D TO WRITE TO ! MI/RESS ( MY S\L4 ,I 5DEAVOR$ NOT TO ?9K1 ) DI/9CTNESS & ATT5TION1 ( ! P]SONS :OSE HAPP9ESS WAS MO/ NE>LY 9VOLV$ ) M9E4 ,I SAID TO MYSELF1 ,YET ANO!R V5TURE MU/ BE TRI$2 =TUNE %ALL *ANGE ! ANIMOSITY ) :I* %E HAS LATELY PURSU$ ME2 ,I WILL REPAIR ! BREA*ES ?AT HAVE BE5 SU/A9$2 & ,I %ALL !N RETURN ) T5FOLD AVIDITY TO SUBJECTS ?AT AT PRES5T ,I D>E NOT FIX MY M9D UPON4 ,MY LETT]S W]E ACCORD+LY %ORT1 UNFREQU5T1 & UNSATISFACTORY2 & ?OSE ( ,M>GU]ITE DISCOV]$ 9CREAS+ ANGUI%1 P]TURBATION1 & ANXIETY4 ,:AT A *ANGE 9 ! M9DS ( BO? HAD ! LAPSE ( A FEW MON?S PRODUC$6 ,NOT ?AT MY ATTA*M5T HAD SUFF]$ ! DIM9UTION ( A S+LE P>TICLE2 BUT ?AT ATTA*M5T1 :I* HAD LATELY BE5 ! S\RCE ( \R MUTUAL FELICITY1 WAS N[ FRAU<T ONLY ) DI/RESS4 ,MY M9D WAS FILL$ ) HORRORS2 & ,M>GU]ITE EXPECT$ FROM ME AN 5C\RAGEM5T & CONSOLATION 9 ABS5CE1 :I*1 ALAS1 ,I HAD IT NOT 9 MY P[] TO GIVE6 

,I HAD N[ CONT9U$ 9 ,P>IS = A TIME VA/LY GREAT] ?AN ,I HAD ORIG9ALLY PROPOS$4 ,AFT] HAV+ REMA9$ MORE ?AN T5 DAYS )\T RECEIV+ ONE WORD ( 9TELLIG5CE1 A LETT] ( M9E WAS DELIV]$ TO ,M>GU]ITE1 MORE %ORT1 MY/]I\S1 & DI/RESS+ TO H] FEEL+S1 ?AN ANY ?AT HAD PREC$$4 ,! T5 DAYS' SIL5CE1 FROM ME :O AT FIR/ HAD NEV] MISS$ AN OPPORTUNITY ( P\R+ \T MY S\L TO H]1 & CONTRIBUT+ TO H] PLEASURE1 WAS EXQUISITELY PA9FUL4 ,!RE IS SC>CELY ANY ?+ ?AT PRODUCES SU* A SICKNESS ( ! HE>T AS ! REPEAT$ PROROGATION ( HOPE4 ,BUT1 :5 ! LETT] >RIV$ ?AT HAD BE5 SO ANXI\SLY LOOK$ =1 :5 ! H&-WRIT+ ( ! SUP]SCRIPTION WAS RECOGNIZ$1 :5 ! LETT] WAS TREASUR$ UP = ! IMPATI5TLY DESIR$ MOM5T ( SOLITUDE1 ?AT ! SACR$ EMOTIONS ( ! HE>T MI<T SUFF] NO 9T]RUPTION1 & :5 IT AT LA/ APPE>$ SO COLD1 SO OM9\S1 SO WI!R+ TO ! BUDS ( AFFECTION1 ! DET]M9ATION ( ,M>GU]ITE WAS SPE$ILY =M$4 ,! RELATIONS ?AT B\ND US TOGE!R W]E ( TOO MI<TY A VALUE TO BE DISP5S$ OR TO BE TRIFL$ )4 ,%E FELT !M AS ! V]Y CORDS ( EXI/5CE4 ,= T5 YE>S %E HAD KN[N NO SOLACE ?AT WAS DISCONNECT$ FROM MY IDEA1 NO C>E BUT ( \R [N HAPP9ESS & ?AT ( \R (FSPR+4 ,B5EVOL5T %E WAS ALMO/ BEYOND HUMAN EXAMPLE1 & 9T]E/$ = ! WELF>E ( ALL %E KNEW2 BUT !SE W]E BRIEF & MUTABLE CONC]NS2 !Y W]E NOT 9CORPORAT$ ) ! /AM9A ( H] EXI/5CE4 ,I WAS ! :OLE WORLD TO H]2 %E HAD NO IDEA ( SATISFACTION )\T ME4 ,H] FIRMNESS HAD BE5 SUFFICI5TLY TRI$ BY ! 9T]POSAL ( SEP>ATION & ABS5CE4 ,H[ WAS %E TO 9T]PRET ! OBSCURITY ?AT HAD N[ >IS58 ,HAD ,I =GOTT5 MY FAMILY & MY WIFE8 ,HAD ,I BE5 CORRUPT$ & DEBAU*$ BY ?AT ,P>IS1 ! EFFECTS ( :I* UPON MY *>ACT] H] FA!R HAD SO DEEPLY APPREH5D$8 ,HAD ,I1 9 CONTEMPT ( EV]Y ?+ SACR$1 5T]$ 9TO SOME NEW ATTA*M5T8 ,HAD ! ATTRACTIONS ( SOME NEW BEAUTY 9 ! METROPOLIS MADE ME 9DIFF]5T TO ! VIRTUE ( MY *ILDR51 & ! LIFE ( !IR MO!R8 ,P]HAPS ! L5G? ( \R ATTA*M5T HAD 9FECT$ ME ) SATIETY1 & ! 9CON/ANCY ( MY TEMP] HAD BE5 R\S$ BY ! *>MS ( NOVELTY4 ,P]HAPS ! C]TA9TY ( H] K9DNESS & REG>D HAD NO LONG] ALLUREM5TS = ME2 & ,I MI<T BE EXCIT$ TO ! PURSUIT ( ANO!R BY ! PLEASURES ( HOPE COMB9$ ) UNC]TA9TY1 & ( A COYNESS1 ?AT SEEM$ TO PROMISE COMPLIANCE H]EAFT]1 EV5 :ILE IT PRON\NC$ A PRES5T D5IAL4 ,!SE W]E ! IMAGES ?AT HAUNT$ H] M9D2 !Y 5G5D]$ ALL ! WILDNESS1 & ALL ! TORM5TS1 ( A DELIRI\S P>OXYSM2 %E RESOLV$ ?AT NO TIME %\LD BE SACRIFIC$ TO NE$LESS UNC]TA9TY1 & ?AT NO EF=T ( H]S %\LD BE UNEX]T$ TO PREV5T ! MIS*IEF %E FE>$4 

,IT WAS EV5+ :5 %E >RIV$4 ,I WAS UPON ! PO9T ( REPAIR+ TO ?AT SC5E ( NI<TLY RESORT1 ! S\RCE ( ALL MY GUILT & ALL MY MIS]IES4 ,I 9QUIR$ ( MY SON'S VALET :]E HE WAS1 & H[ HE HAD BE5 9 ! C\RSE ( ! DAY4 ,HE WAS GONE TO B$3 HE HAD APPE>$ UNUSUALLY SAD1 SOMETIMES 9 TE>S2 &1 :ILE HE WAS UNDRESS+1 HAD SI<$ DEEPLY TWO OR ?REE TIMES4 ,:ILE ,I WAS COLLECT+ ?IS ACC\NT 9 MY [N AP>TM5T1 ! GATES ( ! HOTEL OP5$1 & A NUMB] ( HORSEM5 5T]$ ! C\RT-Y>D4 ,I WAS SOME:AT SURPRIS$2 BECAUSE1 ?\< ,I WAS ACCU/OM$ TO SEE MU* COMPANY1 FEW ( MY ACQUA9TANCE VISIT$ ME AT SO LATE AN H\R1 EXCEPT ON ! EV5+S APPROPRIAT$ TO RECEIVE !M4 ,I CROSS$ ! SALOON TO 9QUIRE4 ,ONE ( ! S]VANTS EXCLAIM$1 0,IT IS ,B]N>D9'S VOICE3 IT MU/ BE MY MI/RESS ?AT IS COME60 

,NO?+ C\LD BE FUR!R FROM MY M9D ?AN ! ?\<T ( H] >RIVAL4 ,I FLEW ?R\< ! PASSAGE2 ,I WAS ON ! SPOT ! MOM5T ?AT ! S]VANT PREP>$ TO CONDUCT HIS MI/RESS FROM ! LITT]2 ,I RECEIV$ ,M>GU]ITE 9 MY >MS1 & L$ H] 9TO ! H\SE4 ,IF ,I HAD EXPECT$ H] >RIVAL1 ,I %\LD 9FALLIBLY HAVE MET H] AT ?IS MOM5T ) ANXIETY & CONFUSION2 ,I %\LD HAVE GONE R\ND ! CIRCLE ( MY ?\<TS1 & %\LD NOT HAVE HAD CONFID5CE TO 5C\NT] ! BEAM ( H] EYE4 ,BUT ! EV5T WAS SO UNEXPECT$ AS TO DRIVE ALL O!R IDEAS FROM MY M9D2 &1 9 CONSEQU5CE1 ,I 5JOY$ SEV]AL M9UTES1--AGES1 RA!R LET ME SAY1--( ! S9C]E/ TRANSPORT4 ,I KISS$ ! MI/RESS ( MY S\L ) EC/ASY2 ,I GAZ$ UPON H] WELL KN[N L9EAM5TS & FEATURES2 ,I LI/5$ TO ! PLEAS+ MELODY ( H] VOICE2 ,I WAS 9TOXICAT$ ) DELI<T4 ,UPON OCCASIONS LIKE ?IS1 IT SEEMS AS IF EV]Y =M] JOY ?AT HAD M>K$ ! V>I\S P]IODS ( 9T]C\RSE DI/ILL$ ITS V]Y SPIRIT & ESS5CE1 TO COMPOSE A DRAFT1 T5 TIMES MORE DELICI\S & REF9$ ?AN HAD EV] BE=E BE5 TA/$4 ,\R MEET+ WAS LIKE AWAK+ FROM ! DEAD2 IT WAS ! EMANCIPATION ( ! WE>Y CAPTIVE1 :O EX*ANGES ! DUNGEON'S GLOOM = ! LU/] ( ! MORN+1 & :O FEELS A CELE/IAL EXHIL>ATION ( HE>T1 ! V]Y MEMORY ( :I* HAD BE5 9S5SIBLY WE>+ AWAY FROM HIS TREA*]\S BRA94 ,ALL MY S5SES P>TOOK ( ! RAPTURE4 ,M>GU]ITE SEEM$ TO %$ AMBROSIAL ODORS R\ND H]2 H] T\* WAS ?RILL+2 H] LIPS W]E NECT>2 H] FIGURE WAS ?AT ( A DESC5D$ DEITY6 

,H] PLEASURE WAS NOT LESS ?AN M9E4 ,IT IS 9DE$ ABSURD1 IT MAY BE T]M$ PR(ANATION1 TO TALK ( SOLIT>Y PLEASURE4 ,NO S5SATION ORD9>ILY DI/+UI%$ BY ?AT EPI!T CAN 5DURE ! TE/ ( A MOM5T'S 9SPECTION1 :5 COMP>$ ) A SOCIAL 5JOYM5T4 ,IT IS !N ONLY ?AT A MAN IS TRULY PLEAS$1 :5 PULSE REPLIES TO PULSE1 :5 ! EYES DISC\RSE ELOQU5TLY TO EA* O!R1 :5 9 RESPONSIVE TONES & WORDS ! S\L IS COMMUNICAT$4 ,ALTOGE!R1 WE >E CONSCI\S ( A SOB]1 A *A/E1 & DIGNIFI$ 9TOXICATION1 AN ELEVATION ( SPIRIT1 ?AT DOES NOT B]EAVE ! M9D ( ITSELF1 & ?AT 5DURES LONG 5\< = US TO ANALYZE & SAVOR ! CAUSES ( \R JOY4 

,= SOME TIME WE RE/$ ON A S(A1 EA* FILL$ & OCCUPI$ ) ! OBS]VATION ( ! O!R4 ,MY EYES ASSUR$ ,M>GU]ITE ( ! CON/ANCY ( MY AFFECTION2 MY KISSES W]E ?OSE ( *A/E1 UNDIVID$1 5TIRE ATTA*M5T4 

,\R WORDS W]E 9SIGNIFICANT & IDLE1 ! BROK5 & 9COH]5T PHRASES ( A HAPP9ESS ?AT C\LD NOT BE SIL5T4 ,AT L5G? ,M>GU]ITE EXCLAIM$1 0,IT IS 5\<2 MY FE>S >E VANI%$2 ,I HAVE NO QUE/IONS TO ASK1 NO D\BTS TO REMOVE4 ,YET :Y1 MY ,REG9ALD1 DID Y\ SUFF] ?OSE D\BTS TO GA!R1 ?OSE FE>S TO ACCUMULATE8 ,SURELY Y\ KNEW ! S+L5ESS ( MY AFFECTION6 ,H[ MANY PA9FUL DAYS & H\RS MI<T Y\ HAVE SAV$ ME1 ALMO/ BY A WORD60 

0,=GIVE ME1 MY LOVE10 REPLI$ ,I4 0,WA/E NOT ! GOLD5 H\R ( MEET+ 9 RECRIM9ATION6 ,FEEL+1 AS Y\R ANGELIC GOODNESS N[ MAKES ME FEEL1 ,I WOND] AT MYSELF1 ?AT ,I C\LD = ONE MOM5T HAVE CONS5T$ TO SEP>ATION2 ?AT ,I C\LD HAVE ?\<T ANY ?+ BUT ?IS EXI/5CE2 OR ?AT1 HAV+ EXP]I5C$ ! JOYS ?AT Y\ HAVE BE/[$1 ,I C\LD LOSE ALL IMAGE ( ! PA/1 &1 DWELL+ 9 A DES]T1 IMAG9E IT P>ADISE60 

0,RECRIM9ATION60 REJO9$ ,M>GU]ITE4 0,NO1 MY LOVE2 Y\ MAKE ME TOO HAPPY TO LEAVE ROOM = ANY ?+ BUT GRATITUDE & AFFECTION6 ,=GIVE ME1 ,REG9ALD1 IF ,I PRET5D ?AT1 9 MEET+ Y\ ?US1 ,I F9D MYSELF Y\R SUP]IOR 9 HAPP9ESS & LOVE4 ,Y\ ONLY AWAKE FROM LE?>GY1 =GETFULNESS ( Y\RSELF &--( ME2 BUT ,I AWAKE FROM ANGUI%1 A SEP>ATION1 ?AT ,I DESIR$ NOT AT FIR/1 & ( :I* ,I H\RLY WI%$ TO SEE AN 5D1 FROM D\BTS ?AT W\LD 9TRUDE1 & REFUS$ TO BE EXPELL$1 FROM ! 9CESSANT CONTEMPLATION & REGRET ( A FELICITY1 ONCE POSSESS$1 BUT POSSESS$ NO LONG]6 ,MELAN*OLY IDEAS1 GLOOMY PROGNO/ICS OV]SPREAD MY SLEEPLESS NI<TS1 & B$EW$ MY PILL[ ) TE>S6 ,?IS IT IS1 ?AT1 AT LA/1 HAS DRIV5 ME FROM MY FAMILY & DAU<T]S1 RESOLV$ TO OBTA9 ! C]TA9TY ( DESPAIR1 OR ! DISP]SION ( MY FE>S6 ,HAVE ,I KN[N ALL ?IS1 & ?9K Y\ ?AT ,I DO NOT 5JOY ) RAPTURE ?IS BLISSFUL MOM5T80 

,:ILE WE W]E ?US CONV]S+1 ,*>LES 5T]$ ! ROOM4 ,HE WAS NOT YET ASLEEP :5 HIS MO!R >RIV$3 HE HE>D H] VOICE2 & HA/5$ TO PUT ON HIS CLO!S1 ?AT HE MI<T RU% 9TO H] >MS4 ,! PLEASURE ,M>GU]ITE HAD CONCEIV$ FROM \R MEET+1 & ! AFFECTIONATE S]5ITY ?AT HAD TAK5 POSSESSION ( H] S\L1 9FUS$ D\BLE >DOR 9TO ! EMBRACES %E BE/[$ ON H] SON4 ,HE GAZ$ E>NE/LY 9 H] FACE2 HE KISS$ H] ) F]V5CY2 BUT WAS SIL5T4 

0,:Y1 ,*>LES60 SAID %E1 0:AT IS ! MATT] ) Y\8 ,>E NOT Y\ GLAD TO SEE ME80 

0,?AT ,I AM1 MAMA6 ,SO GLAD1 ?AT ,I DO NOT KN[ :AT TO DO ) MYSELF6 ,I WAS AFRAID ,I NEV] %\LD HAVE BE5 GLAD AGA960 

0,POOH1 BOY6 :AT DO Y\ MEAN8 ,Y\ W]E NOT MO!R-SICK1 W]E Y\80 

0,YES1 9DE$1 ,I WAS SICK1 SICK AT HE>T6 ,NOT ?AT ,I AM A C[>D6 ,I ?9K ?AT ,I C\LD HAVE BE5 SATISFI$ TO HAVE BE5 )\T EI!R MY FA!R OR Y\ = A LITTLE :ILE4 ,BUT PAPA IS SO ALT]$1 Y\ CANNOT ?9K6 ,HE NEV] SMILES & LOOKS HAPPY2 &1 :5 ,I SEE HIM1 9/EAD ( MAK+ ME JOYFUL1 AS IT US$ TO DO1 IT MAKES ME SAD60 

0,DE> ,REG9ALD60 REPLI$ ! MO!R1 LOOK+ AT ME1 0IS IT POSSIBLE ?AT1 :ILE MY HE>T WAS HAUNT$ ) FE> & SUSPICIONS1 SEP>ATION ALONE %\LD HAVE HAD SU* AN EFFECT ON Y\80 

0,I D>E SAY IT WAS ?AT10 9T]POS$ ! BOY4 0,I C\LD NOT MAKE PAPA SMILE1 ALL ,I C\LD DO3 BUT1 N[ Y\ >E COME1 HE WILL SOON BE WELL6 ,H[ MU* HE MU/ LOVE Y\1 MAMA60 

,! >TLESS PRATTLE ( MY SON /RUCK ANGUI% TO MY S\L2 & AWAK5$ A :OLE TRA9 ( TORM5T+ ?\<TS4 ,ALAS6 ?\<T ,I1 CAN IT 9DE$ BE LOVE1 ?AT ?US CONTRIVES AGA9/ ! PEACE ( ITS OBJECT8 ,W\LD TO ,GOD1 MY *ILD6 ?AT MY ?\<TS W]E AS SIMPLE & PURE AS ?Y 9NOC5T BOSOM6 

0,& YET10 ADD$ ! BOY1 AS IF RECOLLECT+ HIMSELF1 0IF HE C\LD NOT SEE Y\1 SURE ?AT WAS NO REASON = HIM TO AVOID ME8 ,HE SEEM$ AS MU* AFRAID ( ME1 AS ,I HAVE SE5 SOME ( MY PLAY-FELL[S ( A SNAKE6 ,9DE$1 MAMA1 IT WAS A SAD ?+ ?AT1 :5 ,I WANT$ HIM TO KISS ME & PRESS ME TO HIS BOSOM1 HE %RUNK AWAY FROM ME6 ,!RE N[6 IT WAS JU/ SO1 AS HE LOOKS N[1 ?AT PAPA US$ TO FR[N UPON ME1 ,I CANNOT TELL H[ (T56 ,N[ IS NOT ?AT UGLY1 MAMA80 

,I C\LD NO LONG] GOV]N ! TUMULT ( MY ?\<TS4 0,PEACE1 UR*960 CRI$ ,I4 0,:Y DID Y\ COME TO M> ! TRANSPORT ( \R MEET+8 ,JU/ N[1 ,M>GU]ITE1 ,I =GOT MYSELF1 & WAS HAPPY6 ,N[ ALL ! VILLA9 RISES 9 MY S\L60 

,MY WIFE WAS SO A/ONI%$ AT ! P]TURBATION ( MY MANN]1 & AT ! WORDS ,I UTT]$1 ?AT %E WAS SC>CELY ABLE TO >TICULATE4 0,REG9ALD60 9 BROK5 ACC5TS %E EXCLAIM$--0MY LOVE6--MY HUSB&60 

0,NO MATT]10 SAID ,I4 0,IT %ALL YET BE WELL6 ,MY HE>T ASSURES ME IT %ALL6--,BE NOT DI/URB$1 MY LOVE6 ,I WILL NEV] CAUSE Y\ A MOM5T'S ANGUI%6 ,I W\LD SOON] DIE A ?\S& DEA?S6--,=GET ! ODI\S ?\<TS ?AT POOR ,*>LES HAS EXCIT$ 9 ME SO UNSEASONABLY6 ,!Y W]E M]E IDLE WORDS6 ,DEP5D UPON IT !Y W]E60 

,:ILE ,I WAS SPEAK+1 ,M>GU]ITE HID H] FACE UPON ! S(A4 ,I TOOK H] H&1 & BY MY C>ESSES 5DEAVOR$ TO SOO! & COMPOSE H]4 ,AT L5G?1 TURN+ TO ME1--0,REG9ALD60 SAID %E1 9 A VOICE ( ANGUI%1 0DO Y\ !N 5DEAVOR TO HIDE FROM ME ! REAL /ATE ( Y\R ?\<TS8 ,WAS ! JOY ?AT ATT5D$ \R MEET+ P]I%ABLE & DECEITFUL8 ,AFT] T5 YE>S ( UNB\ND$ AFFECTION & CONFID5CE1 AM ,I D5I$ TO BE ! P>TN] ( Y\R BOSOM80 

0,NO1 ,M>GU]ITE1 NO6 ?IS WAS BUT ! ?\<T ( A MOM5T6 ,BY TO-MORR['S DAWN IT %ALL HAVE NO EXI/5CE 9 MY BOSOM4 ,:Y %\LD ,I TORM5T Y\ ) :AT SO SOON %ALL HAVE NO EXI/5CE TO MYSELF8 ,MEAN:ILE1 BE ASSUR$1 MY LOVE 79/EAD ( SUFF]+ DIM9UTION7 IS MORE FULL1 MORE F]V5T & 5TIRE1 ?AN IT EV] WAS60 

,AT ?IS 9/ANT MY M9D EXP]I5C$ AN EXTRAORD9>Y IMPRESSION4 ,9/EAD ( BE+ WEAN$1 BY ! PRES5CE ( ?IS ADMIRABLE WOMAN1 FROM MY PASSION = GAM+1 IT BECAME /RONG] ?AN EV]4 ,IF ,*>LES HAD NOT 5T]$ AT ! CRITICAL MOM5T HE DID1 ,I %\LD HAVE REMA9$ ) ,M>GU]ITE1 &1 AMID ! SO LONG UNTA/$ SOLACE ( LOVE1 HAVE1 AT LEA/ = ?IS NI<T1 =GOTT5 MY C>ES4 ,BUT ?AT OCCURR5CE HAD OV]TURN$ EV]Y ?+1 HAD UNCOV]$ ! W\NDS ( MY BOSOM1 & AWAK5$ CONCEPTIONS ?AT REFUS$ TO BE LAID TO SLEEP AGA94 ,! >MS ( MY WIFE1 ?AT W]E AB\T TO EMBRACE ME1 SUDD5LY BECAME TO ME A NE/ ( SCORPIONS4 ,I C\LD AS SOON HAVE RE/$ & 5JOY$ MYSELF UPON ! TOP ( ,VESUVIUS1 :5 IT FLAM$4 ,NEW AS ,I WAS TO ?IS SPECIES ( ANGUI%1 TRANQUILLY & FULL ( VIRTU\S CONT5TM5T AS ,I HAD HI!RTO PASS$ ! YE>S ( MY M>RI$ /ATE1 ! PANGS ( A GUILTY CONSCI5CE ,I WAS :OLLY UNABLE TO BE>4 ,I ROSE FROM MY SEAT1 & WAS UPON ! PO9T ( QUITT+ ! ROOM4 

,M>GU]ITE P]CEIV$ BY MY MANN] ?AT !RE WAS SOME?+ EXTRAORD9>Y PASS+ 9 MY M9D4 0,:]E >E Y\ GO+1 ,REG9ALD80 SAID %E4 

,I ANSW]$ ) A SLI<T NOD4 0,NOT F>10 ,I REPLI$1 ATTEMPT+ AN AIR ( APA?Y & UNCONC]N4 

,%E WAS NOT SATISFI$4 0,Y\ >E NOT GO+ \T80 %E 9QUIR$4 

,I RETURN$ TO :]E ,I HAD BE5 SITT+4 0,MY LOVE1 ,I WAS GO+ \T AT ! MOM5T ( Y\R >RIVAL4 ,IT IS NECESS>Y1 ,I ASSURE Y\4 ,I HOPE ,I %ALL SOON BE BACK4 ,I AM SORRY ,I AM OBLIG$ TO LEAVE Y\4 ,COMPOSE Y\RSELF4 ,Y\ >E 9 WANT ( RE/1 & HAD BETT] GO TO B$40 

0,/OP1 ,REG9ALD6 ,AF=D ME A M9UTE'S LEISURE BE=E Y\ DEP>T6 ,LEAVE US1 ,*>LES6 ,GOOD NI<T1 MY DE> BOY6 ,KISS ME2 REMEMB] ?AT Y\R MO!R IS N[ 9 ! SAME H\SE ) Y\2 & SLEEP 9 PEACE40 

,! BOY QUITT$ ! ROOM4 

0,REG9ALD60 SAID ! MO!R1 0,I HAVE NO WI% TO CONTROL Y\R DESIRES1 OR BE A SPY UPON Y\R ACTIONS2 BUT Y\R CONDUCT SEEMS SO EXTRAORD9>Y 9 ?IS 9/ANCE1 AS TO DISP5SE ME FROM ! OBS]VATION ( COMMON RULES4 ,I HAVE ALWAYS BE5 A COMPLY+ WIFE2 ,I HAVE NEV] SET MYSELF 9 CONTRADICTION TO Y\R WILL2 ,I APPEAL TO Y\RSELF = ! TRU? ( ?IS4 ,I DESPISE1 H[EV]1 ?OSE DELICACIES1 AN ADH]5CE TO :I* W\LD 5TAIL UPON US ! SACRIFICE ( ALL ?AT IS MO/ VALUABLE 9 HUMAN LIFE4 ,CAN ,I %UT MY E>S UPON ! MY/]I\S EXPRESSIONS :I* ,*>LES'S COMPLA9TS HAVE EXTORT$ FROM Y\8 ,CAN ,I BE 9S5SIBLE TO ! EXTRAORD9>Y PURPOSE Y\ DECL>E ( LEAV+ ME1 :5 ,I HAVE YET BE5 SC>CELY HALF AN H\R UND] ! RO( ) Y\8 ,BE=E ,*>LES CAME 91 Y\ SEEM TO HAVE 5T]TA9$ NO SU* DESIGN40 

0,MY LOVE10 REPLI$ ,I1 0H[ S]I\SLY Y\ COMM5T UPON ! MO/ 9SIGNIFICANT 9CID5T6 ,IS IT EXTRAORD9>Y ?AT Y\R UNEXPECT$ >RIVAL %\LD AT FIR/ HAVE MADE ME =GET AN 5GAGEM5T ?AT ,I N[ RECOLLECT80 

0,/4 ,LEON10 ANSW]$ MY WIFE1 0BE=E Y\ 9DULGE 9 SURPRISE AT MY E>NE/NESS1 RECOLLECT ! CIRCUM/ANCES ?AT IMM$IATELY PREC$$ IT4 ,?R\< SUCCESSIVE WEEKS ,I HAVE WAIT$ = SOME SATISFACTORY & AGREEABLE 9TELLIG5CE FROM Y\4 ,I HAD A RI<T BE=E ?IS TO HAVE EXPECT$ Y\R RETURN4 ,UNC]TA9TY & A ?\S& FE>FUL APPREH5SIONS HAVE AT L5G? DRIV5 ME FROM MY HOME1 & BR\<T ME TO ,P>IS4 ,I AM COME H]E = SATISFACTION TO MY D\BTS1 & PEACE TO MY ANXI\S HE>T4 ,WOND] NOT1 !RE=E1 IF Y\ F9D SOME?+ MORE E>NE/ & DET]M9$ 9 MY PROCE$+S N[1 ?AN UPON ORD9>Y OCCASIONS4 ,GIVE ME1 ,I CONJURE Y\1 GIVE ME EASE & RELIEF1 IF Y\ >E ABLE6 ,IF NOT1 AT LEA/ ALL[ ME ?IS CONSOLATION1 TO KN[ ! WOR/60 

0,BE PACIFI$1 ,M>GU]ITE60 ,I REJO9$4 0,I AM GRIEV$1 ,HEAV5 KN[S H[ DEEPLY GRIEV$1 TO HAVE OCCASION$ Y\ A MOM5T'S PA94 ,BUT1 S9CE Y\ LAY SO MU* /RESS UPON ?IS CIRCUM/ANCE1 DEP5D UPON IT1 ,I WILL PO/PONE ! BUS9ESS ,I WAS GO+ AB\T1 & /AY ) Y\40 

,?IS CONCESSION1 VOLUNT>Y & S9C]E1 PRODUC$ AN EFFECT ?AT ,I HAD NOT =ESE54 ,M>GU]ITE GAZ$ = A MOM5T 9 MY FACE1 & !N ?REW H]SELF UPON MY NECK4 

0,=GIVE ME1 MY BELOV$ HUSB&60 %E CRI$4 0,Y\ 9DE$ MAKE ME A%AM$ ( MYSELF4 ,I FEEL MYSELF 9EXCUSABLE4 ,I FEEL ?AT ,I HAVE BE5 BROOD+ OV] IMAG9>Y EVILS1 & CREAT+ ! MIS]Y ?AT CORROD$ MY HE>T4 ,H[ 9EXPRESSIBLY Y\ RISE MY SUP]IOR6 ,BUT ,I WILL CONQU] MY WEAKNESS4 ,I 9SI/ UPON Y\R GO+ TO ! 5GAGEM5T Y\ HAVE MADE1 & WILL H5CE=? PLACE ! MO/ 5TIRE CONFID5CE 9 Y\R PRUD5CE & HONOR40 

,EV]Y WORD ( ?IS SPEE* WAS A DAGG] TO MY HE>T4 ,:AT W]E MY FEEL+S1 :ILE ?IS ADMIRABLE WOMAN WAS TAK+ %AME TO H]SELF = H] SUSPICIONS1 & P\R+ \T H] S\L 9 COMM5DATION ( MY 9TEGRITY6 ,I LOOK$ 9W>D1 & F\ND EV]Y ?+ !RE ! REV]SE ( H] APPREH5SION1 A SC5E ( DESOLATION & REMORSE4 ,I EMBRAC$ H] 9 SIL5CE4 ,MY HE>T PANT$ UPON H] BOSOM1 & SEEM$ BUR/+ ) A SECRET ?AT IT WAS DEA? TO REVEAL4 ,I \<T1 9 RETURN = H] G5]OSITY1 TO HAVE GIV5 UP MY FEIGN$ 5GAGEM5T1 & DEVOT$ ?IS NI<T AT LEA/ TO CONSOLE & PACIFY H]4 ,BUT ,I C\LD NOT1 & ,I D>$ NOT4 ,! W\ND ( MY BOSOM WAS OP5$1 & W\LD NOT BE CLOS$4 ,! MORE ,I LOV$ H] = H] CONFID5CE1 ! LESS ,I C\LD 5DURE MYSELF 9 H] PRES5CE4 ,TO PLAY ! HYPOCRITE = SO MANY H\RS1 TO ASSUME A FACE ( TRANQUILITY & JOY :ILE ALL )9 WAS TUMULT & HORROR1 WAS A TASK TOO MI<TY = HUMAN P[]S TO EXECUTE4 ,I ACCEPT$ ( ,M>GU]ITE'S P]MISSION1 & LEFT H]4 ,EV5 9 ! %ORT 9T]VAL BE=E ,I QUITT$ ! H\SE1 MY C>RIAGE WAS NE> TO BETRAY+ ME4 ,I C\LD P]CEIVE H] WAT*FUL ( MY C\NT5ANCE1 AS IF AGA9 SUSPICI\S ?AT SOME FATAL SECRET LURK$ 9 MY M9D4 ,%E SAID NO?+ FUR!R UPON ! SUBJECT H[EV]1 & ,I PRES5TLY ESCAP$ ! 9QUISITION ( H] EYE4 

,IT IS SC>CELY NECESS>Y TO DESCRIBE ! /ATE ( MY M9D AS ,I PASS$ ALONG ! /REETS4 ,IT IS SUFFICI5T TO SAY ?AT EV]Y ?+ ,I HAD FELT BE=E FROM ! PASSION ( GAM+ WAS TRIVIAL TO ! S5SATIONS ?AT N[ OCCUPI$ ME4 ,N[ FIR/ IT /OOD CONFESS$ BE=E ME1 A DEMON ?AT POISON$ ALL MY JOYS1 ?AT *ANG$ ! TRANSPORT ( A MEET+ ) ! ADOR$ ( MY S\L 9TO ANGUI%1 ?AT DROVE ME =? FROM H] YET UNTA/$ *>MS A SOLIT>Y W&]] ON ! FACE ( ! E>?4 ,MY BUSY S\L DREW =? AT L5G? ! PICTURE ( :AT ?IS 5C\NT] W\LD HAVE BE51 IF IT HAD BE5 SANCTIFI$ ) ! /AMP ( CONSCI\S 9NOC5CE4 ,AT ONE MOM5T ,I FELT MYSELF ! MO/ ACCURS$ ( MANK9D2 ,I BELIEV$ ?AT HE :O C\LD F9D1 AS ,I DID1 B>R5NESS & BLA/+ 9 ! *OICE/ ( ,HEAV5'S BLESS+S1 MU/ BE MIS]ABLE BEYOND PREC$5T OR HOPE4 ,%ORTLY AFT]1 H[EV]1 ,I REVIEW$ AGA9 ! IMAGE ( MY POISON1 & F\ND 9 IT ! PROMISE ( A CURE4 ,! MORE DESP]ATE MY CASE APPE>$ TO ME1 ) ! GREAT] 9SANITY ( EXPECTATION DID ,I ASSURE MYSELF ?AT ?IS ONE NI<T %\LD RETRIEVE ALL MY MIS=TUNES4 ,9 GIV+ TO IT ?IS DE/9ATION 9DE$1 ,I %\LD AFFLICT ! G5TLE BOSOM ( MY WIFE BUT TOO PROBABLY ) SOME H\RS ( UNEAS9ESS4 ,BUT ! EV5T W\LD RI*LY REPAY H] = SO TRANSITORY A SUFF]+2 ,I W\LD !N OP5 MY :OLE M9D TO H]4 ,I W\LD PRACTICE NO MORE RES]VES2 ,I %\LD NO LONG] BE DRIV5 TO ! REFUGE ( A VILE HYPOCRISY4 ,I W\LD BID F>EWELL TO ! FR[NS & ! C>ESSES ( =TUNE4 ,I W\LD REQUIRE ( H] NO FUR!R K9DNESSES4 ,IF ,I W]E 9CAPABLE MYSELF ( A RIGID ECONOMY1 ,I W\LD COMMIT IMPLICITLY TO ,M>GU]ITE ! DISPOSAL ( MY 9COME1 :OM ,I KNEW TO BE EV]Y WAY QUALIFI$ = ! (FICE4 ,) !SE REFLECTIONS ,I N]V$ MY M9D TO ! MO/ DECISIVE ADV5TURES4 

,:Y %\LD ,I 5T] 9TO A LONG DETAIL ( ! 9CID5TS ( ?IS CRISIS8 ,SOON1 ?\< NOT IMM$IATELY1 ,I BEGAN TO LOSE CONSID]ABLE SUMS4 ,I BR\<T ) ME 9 ! FIR/ 9/ANCE A P5ETRAT+ EYE1 A COLLECT$ M9D1 AN 9TELLECT PREP>$ = UN9T]MITT$ EX]TION4 ,MIS=TUNE SUBV]T$ ALL ?IS4 ,MY EYE GREW WILD1 MY S\L TEMPE/U\S1 MY ?\<TS 9COH]5T & DI/RACT$4 ,I WAS 9CAPABLE ( ANY ?+ JUDICI\S2 BUT ,I WAS DET]M9$ TO P]SEV]E4 ,I PLAY$ TILL MORN+1 NOR C\LD ! LI<T ( MORN+ 9DUCE ME TO DESI/4 ,! SETT+ SUN ( ?AT DAY BEHELD ME A BEGG>6 

,!RE IS A DEGREE ( MIS]Y1 :I*1 AS IT ADMITS ( NO DESCRIPTION1 SO DOES IT LEAVE NO DI/9CT TRACES 9 ! MEMORY4 ,IT SEEMS AS IF ! WEAKNESS ( ! HUMAN M9D ALIKE 9CAPACITAT$ IT TO SUPPORT ! DELIRIUM ( JOY1 & ! EXTREMITY ( SORR[4 ,( :AT IMM$IATELY SUCCE$$ ! P]IOD TO :I* ,I HAVE CONDUCT$ MY N>RATIVE ,I HAVE NO RECOLLECTION1 BUT A HORROR BEYOND ALL NAMES ( HORROR1 WILD1 9EXPLICABLE1 UN9TELLIGIBLE4 ,LET NO ONE1 H[EV]1 IMAG9E1 ?AT ! TEMPOR>Y DES]TION ( ! S\L IS ANY ALLEVIATION ( ITS MIS]Y4 ,! M9D ?AT S9KS UND] ITS SUFF]+ DOES NOT BY ?AT CONDUCT %AKE (F ITS BURD54 ,RA!R1 T5 ?\S& TIMES RA!R1 W\LD ,I 5DURE ALL ! CALAMITIES ?AT HAVE EV] YET RECEIV$ A NAME1 ! S5SATIONS & HI/ORY ( :I* >E CAPABLE ( BE+ DEL9EAT$1 ?AN SU/A9 ?AT :I* HAS NO WORDS BY :I* TO EXPRESS ITSELF1 & ! CONCEPTION ( :I* MU/ BE TRU/$ SOLELY TO ! FACULTIES & SYMPA?Y ( ! READ]4 ,:]E IS ! COLD & 9APPREH5SIVE SPIRIT ?AT TALKS ( MADNESS AS A REFUGE FROM SORR[8 ,OH1 DULL & UNCONCEIV+ BEYOND ALL BELIEF6 ,I CANNOT SPEAK ( EV]Y SPECIES ( MADNESS2 BUT ,I ALSO HAVE BE5 MAD6 ,?IS ,I KN[1 ?AT !RE IS A VACANCY ( S\L1 :]E ALL APPE>S BURI$ 9 /UPIDITY1 & SC>CELY DES]VES ! NAME ( ?\<T1 ?AT IS MORE 9TOL]ABLE ?AN ! BITT]E/ REFLECTIONS4 ,?IS ,I KN[1 ?AT !RE IS AN 9COH]5CE1 9 :I* ! M9D SEEMS TO W&] )\T RUDD] & PILOT1 ?AT LAU<S TO SCORN ! SUP]/ITI\S FICTIONS ( DESIGN+ PRIE/S4 ,OH1 H[ MANY SLEEPLESS DAYS & WEEKS DID ,I 5DURE6 ! ?\<TS FRANTIC1 ! TONGUE RAV+6 ,:ILE WE CAN /ILL ADH]E1 IF ,I MAY SO EXPRESS MYSELF1 TO ! ME?OD ( MIS]Y1 !RE IS A SORT ( NAMELESS COMPLAC5CY ?AT LURKS UND] ALL ?AT WE CAN 5DURE4 ,WE >E /ILL CONSCI\S ?AT WE >E M52 WE WOND] AT & ADMIRE \R P[]S ( BE+ MIS]ABLE2 BUT1 :5 ! MA/S & TACKLE ( ! 9TELLECTUAL VESSEL >E ALL SWEPT AWAY1 !N IS ! TRUE SADNESS4 ,WE HAVE NO CONSCI\SNESS TO SU/A9 US1 NO S5TIM5T ( DIGNITY1 NO SECRET ADMIRATION ( :AT WE >E1 /ILL CL++ TO \R HE>TS4 

,ALL ?IS ,I V5TURE TO AFFIRM1 ) ! FULL RECOLLECTION ( :AT ,I SUFF]$1 :5 RE/OR$ TO MY S5SES1 PRES5T TO MY M9D4 

,:5 ! ACC\NT WAS CLOS$1 & ! LOSS ( MY LA/ /AKE HAD F9I%$ ! SC5E1 ,I ROSE1 &1 QUITT+ ! FATAL SPOT :]E !SE TRANSACTIONS HAD PASS$1 5T]$ ! /REET1 ) A HE>T OPPRESS$1 & A BUR/+ HEAD4 ,MY EYES GL>$1 BUT ,I SAW NO?+1 & C\LD ?9K ( NO?+4 ,IT WAS ALREADY NE>LY D>K2 & ! DAY :I* HAD BE5 TEMPE/U\S1 WAS SUCCE$$ BY A HEAVY & SETTL$ RA94 ,I W&]$ = SOME TIME1 NOT KN[+ :I!R ,I W5T4 ,MY PACE1 :I* HAD AT FIR/ BE5 SL[1 GRADUALLY 9CREAS$1 & ,I TRAV]S$ ! :OLE CITY ) A HURRI$ & IMPATI5T /EP4 ,! /REETS :I* HAD CONTA9$ FEW P]SONS AT FIR/1 GRADUALLY LO/ ?OSE FEW4 ,I WAS ALMO/ ALONE4 ,I SAW OCCASIONALLY RAGG$ & H\SELESS MIS]Y %R9K+ UND] ! COV] ( A MIS]ABLE %$2 ,I SAW ! MIDNI<T ROBB]1 WAT*+ = HIS PREY1 & READY TO />T UPON ! UNW>Y PASS5G]4 ,FROM ME HE FL$2 !RE WAS SOME?+ 9 MY AIR ?AT IMPELL$ EV5 DESP]ATE VIOLATION TO %R9K FROM ! 5C\NT]4 ,I CONT9U$ ?IS 9CESSANT1 UNMEAN+ EX]TION = H\RS4 ,AT L5G?1 BY AN ACCID5TAL GLANCE ( ! EYE1 ,I F\ND MYSELF AT ! GATE ( MY [N HOTEL4 ,HE$LESS ( :AT ,I DID1 ,I 5T]$2 &1 AS NATURE WAS N[ COMPLETELY EXHAU/$ )9 ME1 SUNK D[N 9 A SORT ( 9S5SIBILITY AT ! FOOT ( ! GR& /AIRCASE4 

,?IS /UPOR1 AFT] A CONSID]ABLE 9T]VAL1 GRADUALLY SUBSID$4 ,I OP5$ MY EYES1 & SAW V>I\S FIGURES FLITT+ AB\T ME2 BUT ,I SEEM$ TO MYSELF EQUALLY 9CAPABLE ( COLLECT+ MY ?\<TS1 & ( SPEE*4 ,MY UND]/&+ 9DE$ %ORTLY BECAME CLE>]1 BUT AN 9SUP]ABLE RELUCTANCE TO VOLUNT>Y EX]TION HUNG UPON ME4 ,I EXPLA9$ MYSELF ONLY 9 MONOSYLLABLES2 A SORT ( 9/9CTIVE T]ROR ( DISCLOS+ :AT HAD PASS$ TO ! ADMIRABLE WOMAN ,I HAD SACRIFIC$ MA9TA9$ 9 ME ?IS P]PETUAL RES]VE4 ,= SEV]AL DAYS TOGE!R ,I SAT FROM MORN+ TILL NI<T 9 ONE IMMOVABLE PO/URE1 NOR WAS ANY ?+ ( =CE 5\< TO AWAK5 ME TO EX]TION4 

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