,! ,AUTOBIOGRAPHY ( A ,SEXUALLY ,EMANCIPAT$ ,COMMUNI/ ,WOMAN 

,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,ALEX&RA ,KOLLONTAI 

,TEXT 3 

,S\RCE3 ,! ,AUTOBIOGRAPHY ( A ,SEXUALLY ,EMANCIPAT$ ,COMMUNI/ ,WOMAN1 ,TRANSLAT$ BY ,SALVATOR ,ATTANSIO1 ,H]D] & ,H]D]1 #a#i#g#a2 
,TRANSCRIB$3 = M>XI/S4ORG1 #b#a4 
,PREFATORY ,NOTE 

,?IS IS ! FIR/ TIME ?AT ! COMPLETE AUTOBIOGRAPHY :I* 
,ALEX&RA ,KOLLONTAI WROTE 9 #aibf HAS BE5 PUBLI%$4 ,! 
S5T5CES & P>AGRAPHS 9 ITALICS W]E CROSS$ \T 9 ! 
GALLEYPRO(S & LEFT \T 9 H] TIME4 ,V>IANTS W]E 9DICAT$ 
9 FOOTNOTES :I* LIKEWISE W]E REJECT$ & CROSS$ \T4 ,! 
READ] ?US WILL HAVE AN IDEA ( ! EXT5T & ! 9T5SITY ( 
CORRECTIONS MADE BY ! AU?OR UND] ! PRESSURE ( ! 
GRADUALLY %>P5+ ,/AL9I/ CONTROL4 

,! ,AIMS & ,WOR? ( ,MY ,LIFE 

,NO?+ IS MORE DIFFICULT ?AN WRIT+ AN AUTOBIOGRAPHY4 ,:AT 
%\LD BE EMPHASIZ$8 ,JU/ :AT IS ( G5]AL 9T]E/8 ,IT IS 
ADVISABLE1 ABOVE ALL1 TO WRITE HONE/LY & DISP5SE ) ANY ( 
! CONV5TIONAL 9TRODUCTORY PROTE/ATIONS ( MODE/Y4 ,= IF 
ONE IS CALL$ UPON TO TELL AB\T ONE'S LIFE SO AS TO MAKE ! 
EV5TS ?AT MADE IT :AT IT BECAME USEFUL TO ! G5]AL PUBLIC1 
IT CAN MEAN ONLY ?AT ONE MU/ HAVE ALREADY WR\<T SOME?+ 
POSITIVE 9 LIFE1 ACCOMPLI%$ A TASK ?AT PEOPLE 
RECOGNIZE4 .<#a.>  
,ACCORD+LY IT IS A MATT] ( =GETT+ ?AT ONE IS WRIT+ AB\T ONESELF1 ( MAK+ AN EF=T TO ABJURE ONE'S EGO SO AS TO GIVE AN ACC\NT1 AS OBJECTIVELY AS POSSIBLE1 ( ONE'S LIFE 9 ! MAK+ & ( ONE'S ACCOMPLI%M5TS4 ,I 9T5D TO MAKE ?IS EF=T BUT :E!R IT WILL TURN \T SUCCESSFULLY IS SOME?+ ELSE AGA94 ,AT ! SAME TIME ,I MU/ CONFESS ?AT1 9 A C]TA9 S5SE1 ?IS AUTOBIOGRAPHY POSES A PROBLEM = ME4 ,= BY LOOK+ BACK :ILE PRY+1 SIMULTANE\SLY1 9TO ! FUTURE1 ,I WILL ALSO BE PRES5T+ TO MYSELF ! MO/ CRUCIAL TURN+ PO9TS ( MY BE+ & ACCOMPLI%M5TS4 ,9 ?IS 
WAY ,I .<#bA.> 
MAY SUCCE$ 9 SETT+ 9TO BOLD RELIEF ?AT :I* CONC]NS ! WOM5'S LIB]ATION /RUGGLE &1 FUR!R1 ! SOCIAL SIGNIFICANCE :I* IT HAS4.<#b.> 
,?AT ,I \<T NOT TO %APE MY LIFE ACCORD+ TO ! GIV5 MODEL1 ?AT ,I W\LD HAVE TO GR[ BEYOND MYSELF 9 ORD] TO BE ABLE TO DISC]N MY LIFE'S TRUE L9E ( VISION WAS AN AW>5ESS ?AT WAS M9E ALREADY 9 MY Y\NGE/ YE>S4 ,AT ! SAME TIME ,I WAS ALSO AW>E .<#c.> 
?AT 9 ?IS WAY ,I C\LD HELP MY SI/]S TO %APE !IR LIVES1 9 ACCORDANCE NOT ) ! GIV5 TRADITIONS BUT ) !IR [N FREE *OICE TO ! EXT5T1 ( C\RSE1 ?AT SOCIAL & ECONOMIC CIRCUM/ANCES P]MIT4 ,I ALWAYS BELIEV$ ?AT ! TIME 9EVITABLY MU/ COME :5 WOMAN WILL BE JUDG$ BY ! SAME MORAL /&>DS APPLI$ TO MAN4 ,= IT IS NOT H] SPECIFIC FEM99E VIRTUE ?AT GIVES H] A PLACE ( HONOR 9 HUMAN SOCIETY1 BUT ! WOR? ( ! USEFUL MISSION ACCOMPLI%$ BY H]1 .<#dA.> 
! WOR? ( H] P]SONALITY AS HUMAN BE+1 AS CITIZ51 .<#dB.> 
AS ?9K]1 AS FI<T]4 ,SUBCONSCI\SLY ?IS MOTIVE WAS ! LEAD+ =CE ( MY :OLE LIFE & ACTIVITY4 ,TO GO MY WAY1 TO WORK1 TO /RUGGLE1 TO CREATE SIDE BY SIDE ) M51 & TO /RIVE = ! ATTA9M5T ( A UNIV]SAL HUMAN GOAL .<#dC.> 
7= NE>LY ?IRTY YE>S1 9DE$1 ,I HAVE BELONG$ TO ! .<#dD.> 
,COMMUNI/S7 BUT1 AT ! SAME TIME1 TO %APE MY P]SONAL1 9TIMATE LIFE AS A WOMAN ACCORD+ TO MY [N WILL & ACCORD+ TO ! GIV5 LAWS ( MY NATURE4 .<#dE.> 
 ,IT WAS ?IS ?AT CONDITION$ MY L9E ( VISION4.<#dF.> 
,& .<#dG.> 
9 FACT ,I HAVE .<#dH.> 
SUCCE$$ 9 /RUCTUR+ MY 9TIMATE LIFE ACCORD+ TO MY [N /&>DS & 
,I MAKE NO SECRET ( MY LOVE EXP]I5CES .<#dI.> 
ANYMORE ?AN DOES A MAN4.<#dK.> 
,ABOVE ALL1 H[EV]1 ,I NEV] LET MY FEEL+S1 ! JOY OR 
PA9 ( LOVE TAKE ! FIR/ PLACE 9 MY LIFE 9ASMU* AS CREATIVITY1 ACTIVITY1 /RUGGLE ALWAYS OCCUPI$ ! =EGR\ND4 ,I MANAG$ TO BECOME A MEMB] ( A GOV]NM5T CAB9ET1 ( ! FIR/ ,BOL%EVIK CAB9ET 9 ! YE>S #a#i#a#g_/#a#h4 ,I AM ALSO ! FIR/ WOMAN EV] TO HAVE BE5 APPO9T$ AMBASSADRESS1 A PO/ :I* ,I OCCUPI$ = ?REE YE>S & FROM :I* ,I RESIGN$ ( MY [N FREE WILL4.<#dL.> 
,?IS MAY S]VE TO PROVE ?AT WOMAN C]TA9LY CAN /& ABOVE ! CONV5TIONAL CONDITIONS ( ! AGE4 ,! ,WORLD ,W>1 ! /ORMY1 REVOLUTION>Y SPIRIT N[ PREVAL5T 9 ! WORLD 9 ALL >EAS HAS GREATLY CONTRIBUT$ TO BLUNT+ ! $GE ( ! UNHEAL?Y1 OV]HEAT$ D\BLE /&>D ( MORALITY4 ,WE >E ALREADY ACCU/OM$ NOT TO MAKE OV]LY TAX+ DEM&S1 = EXAMPLE1.<#dM.> 
ON ACTRESSES & WOM5 BELONG+ TO ! FREE PR(ESSIONS 9 MATT]S RELAT+ TO !IR M>RI$ LIFE4 ,DIPLOMACY1 H[EV]1 IS A CA/E :I* MORE ?AN ANY O!R MA9TA9S ITS OLD CU/OMS1 USAGES1 TRADITIONS1 &1 ABOVE ALL1 ITS /RICT C]EMONIAL4 ,! FACT ?AT A WOMAN1 A 0FREE10 A S+LE WOMAN WAS RECOGNIZ$ 9 ?IS POSITION )\T OPPOSITION %[S ?AT ! TIME HAS COME :5 ALL HUMAN BE+S WILL BE EQUALLY APPRAIS$ ACCORD+ TO !IR ACTIVITY & !IR G5]AL HUMAN DIGNITY4 ,:5 ,I WAS APPO9T$ AS ,RUSSIAN 5VOY TO ,OSLO1 ,I REALIZ$ ?AT ,I HAD !REBY A*IEV$ A VICTORY NOT ONLY = 
MYSELF1 BUT .<#dN.> 
= WOM5 9 G5]AL .<#dO.> 
& 9DE$1 A VICTORY OV] !IR WOR/ 5EMY1 ?AT IS TO SAY1.<#dP.> 
OV] CONV5TIONAL MORALITY & CONS]VATIVE CONCEPTS ( M>RIAGE4 ,:5 ON OCCASION ,I AM TOLD ?AT IT IS TRULY REM>KABLE.<#dR.> 
?AT A WOMAN HAS BE5 APPO9T$ TO SU* A RESPONSIBLE POSITION1 ,I ALWAYS .<#dS.> 
?9K TO MYSELF ?AT 9 ! F9AL ANALYSIS1 ! PR9CIPAL VICTORY AS REG>DS WOM5'S LIB]ATION DOES NOT LIE 9 ?IS FACT ALONE4 ,RA!R1 :AT IS ( A :OLLY SPECIAL SIGNIFICANCE H]E IS ?AT A WOMAN1 LIKE MYSELF1 .<#dT.> 
:O HAS SETTL$ SCORES ) ! D\BLE /&>D & :O HAS NEV] CONCEAL$ IT1.<#dU.> 
WAS ACCEPT$ 9TO A CA/E :I* TO ?IS V]Y DAY /AUN*LY UPHOLDS TRADITION & PSEUDO-MORALITY4 ,?US ! EXAMPLE ( MY LIFE CAN ALSO S]VE TO DISPEL.<#dV.> 
!.<#dW.> 
OLD GOBL9 ( ! D\BLE /&>D ALSO FROM ! LIVES ( O!R WOM54 ,& ?IS IS A MO/ CRUCIAL PO9T ( MY [N EXI/5CE1 :I* HAS A C]TA9 SOCIAL-PSY*OLOGICAL WOR? & CONTRIBUTES TO ! LIB]ATION /RUGGLE ( WORK+ WOM54 
,TO AVOID ANY MISUND]/&+1 
H[EV]1 IT %\LD BE SAID H]E ?AT ,I AM /ILL F> FROM BE+ ! TYPE ( ! POSITIVELY NEW WOM5 :O TAKE !IR EXP]I5CE AS FEMALES ) A RELATIVE LI<TNESS &1 ONE C\LD SAY1 ) AN 5VIABLE SUP]FICIALITY1 :OSE FEEL+S & M5TAL 5]GIES >E DIRECT$ UPON ALL O!R ?+S .<#e.> 
9 LIFE BUT S5TIM5TAL LOVE FEEL+S4 .<#f.> 
,AFT] ALL ,I /ILL BELONG TO ! G5]ATION ( WOM5 :O GREW UP AT A TURN+ PO9T 9 HI/ORY4 ,LOVE ) ITS MANY DISAPPO9TM5TS1 ) ITS TRAG$IES & ET]NAL DEM&S = P]FECT HAPP9ESS.<#g.> 
/ILL PLAY$ A V]Y GREAT ROLE 9 MY LIFE4 ,AN ALL-TOO-GREAT ROLE6 ,IT WAS AN EXP5DITURE ( PRECI\S TIME & 5]GY1 FRUITLESS &1 9 ! F9AL ANALYSIS1 UTT]LY WOR?LESS4 ,WE1 ! WOM5 ( ! PA/ G5]ATION1 DID NOT YET.<#h.> 
UND]/& H[ TO BE FREE4 ,! :OLE ?+ WAS AN ABSOLUTELY 9CR$IBLE SQU&]+ ( \R M5TAL 5]GY1 A DIM9UTION ( \R LABOR P[] :I* WAS DISSIPAT$ 9 B>R5 EMOTIONAL EXP]I5CES4 ,IT IS C]TA9LY TRUE ?AT WE1 MYSELF AS WELL AS MANY O!R ACTIVI/S1 MILITANTS & WORK+ WOM5 CONTEMPOR>IES1 W]E ABLE TO UND]/& ?AT LOVE WAS NOT ! MA9 GOAL ( \R LIFE & ?AT WE KNEW H[ TO PLACE WORK AT ITS C5T]4 ,NEV]!LESS WE W\LD HAVE BE5 ABLE TO CREATE & A*IEVE MU* MORE HAD \R 5]GIES NOT BE5 FRAGM5TIZ$ 9 ! ET]NAL /RUGGLE ) \R EGOS & ) .<#i.> 
\R FEEL+S = ANO!R4 ,IT WAS1 9 FACT1 AN ET]NAL DEF5SIVE W> AGA9/ ! 9T]V5TION ( ! MALE 9TO \R EGO1 A /RUGGLE REVOLV+ >\ND ! PROBLEM-COMPLEX3 WORK OR M>RIAGE & LOVE8 
,WE1 ! OLD] G5]ATION1 DID NOT YET UND]/&1 AS MO/ M5 DO & AS Y\NG WOM5 >E LE>N+ TODAY1 ?AT WORK & ! LONG+ = LOVE CAN BE H>MONI\SLY COMB9$ SO ?AT WORK REMA9S AS ! MA9 GOAL ( EXI/5CE4#a.> 
,\R MI/AKE WAS ?AT EA* TIME WE SUCCUMB$ TO ! BELIEF ?AT WE HAD F9ALLY F\ND ! ONE & ONLY 9 ! MAN WE LOV$1 ! P]SON ) :OM WE BELIEV$ WE C\LD BL5D \R S\L1 ONE :O WAS READY FULLY TO RECOGNIZE US AS A SPIRITUAL-PHYSICAL =CE4.<#a#a.> 

,BUT OV] & OV] AGA9 ?+S TURN$ \T DIFF]5TLY1 
S9CE .<#a#b.> 
! MAN ALWAYS TRI$ TO IMPOSE HIS EGO UPON US & ADAPT US FULLY TO HIS PURPOSES4 ,?US DESPITE EV]Y?+ ! 9EVITABLE 9N] REBELLION 5SU$1 OV] & OV] AGA9 S9CE LOVE BECAME A FETT]4 ,WE FELT 5SLAV$ & TRI$ TO LOOS5 ! LOVE-BOND4 ,& AFT] ! ET]NALLY RECURR+ /RUGGLE ) ! BELOV$ MAN1 WE F9ALLY TORE \RSELVES AWAY & RU%$ T[>D FRE$OM4 ,!REUPON WE W]E AGA9 .<#a#c.> 
ALONE1 UNHAPPY1 .<#a#d.> 
LONESOME1 BUT FREE-FREE TO PURSUE \R BELOV$1 *OS5 IDEAL 444WORK4 

,=TUNATELY Y\NG PEOPLE1 ! PRES5T G5]ATION1 NO LONG] HAVE 
TO GO ?R\< ?IS K9D ( /RUGGLE :I* IS ABSOLUTELY UNNECESS>Y 
TO HUMAN SOCIETY4 ,!IR ABILITIES1 !IR WORK-5]GY WILL BE RES]V$ 
= !IR CREATIVE ACTIVITY4 ,?US ! EXI/5CE ( B>RI]S WILL 
BECOME A SPUR4.<#a#e.> 

,IT IS ESS5TIAL ?AT ,I RELATE SOME DETAILS H]E AB\T MY PRIVATE 
LIFE4 ,MY *ILDHOOD WAS A V]Y HAPPY ONE1 JUDG+ BY \TW>D 
CIRCUM/ANCES4 ,MY P>5TS BELONG$ TO ! OLD ,RUSSIAN NOBILITY4.<#a#f.> 
,I WAS ! ONLY *ILD BORN ( MY MO!R'S SECOND M>RIAGE 7MO!R WAS SEP>AT$ & ,I WAS BORN \TSIDE ! SECOND M>RIAGE1 & !N ADOPT$74 ,I WAS ! Y\NGE/1 ! MO/ SPOIL$1 & ! MO/ CODDL$ MEMB] ( ! FAMILY4 ,?IS1 P]HAPS1 WAS ! ROOT CAUSE ( ! PROTE/ AGA9/ EV]Y?+ >\ND ME ?AT V]Y E>LY BURGEON$ )9 ME4 ,TOO MU* WAS DONE = ME 9 ORD] TO MAKE ME HAPPY4 ,I HAD NO FRE$OM ( MANEUV] EI!R 9 ! *ILDR5'S GAMES ,I PLAY$ OR 9 ! DESIRES ?AT ,I WANT$ TO EXPRESS4 ,AT ! SAME TIME ,I WANT$ TO BE FREE4.<#a#g.> 
,I WANT$ TO EXPRESS DESIRES ON MY [N1 TO %APE MY [N LITTLE LIFE4 ,MY P>5TS W]E WELL-TO-DO4 ,!RE WAS NO LUXURY 9 ! H\SE1 BUT ,I DID NOT KN[ ! MEAN+ ( PRIVATION4 ,YET ,I SAW H[ O!R *ILDR5 W]E =C$ TO GIVE UP ?+S1 & ,I WAS P>TICUL>LY & PA9FULLY %OCK$ BY ! LITTLE PEASANT *ILDR5 :O W]E MY PLAYMATES 7WE LIV$ ALMO/ ALWAYS 9 ! C\NTRYSIDE1 ON ! E/ATE ( MY GR&FA!R1 :O WAS A ,F9N74 ,ALREADY AS A SMALL.<#a#h.> 
*ILD ,I CRITICIZ$.<#a#i.> 
! 9JU/ICE ( ADULTS & ,I EXP]I5C$ AS A BLATANT CONTRADICTION.<#b.> 
! FACT ?AT EV]Y?+ WAS (F]$ TO ME :]EAS SO MU* WAS D5I$ TO ! O!R *ILDR54 ,MY CRITICISM %>P5$ AS ! YE>S W5T BY & ! FEEL+ ( REVOLT AGA9/ ! MANY PRO(S ( LOVE >\ND ME GREW APACE4.<#b#a.> 
,ALREADY E>LY 9 LIFE ,I HAD EYES = ! SOCIAL 9JU/ICES PREVAIL+ 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,I WAS NEV] S5T TO S*OOL BECAUSE MY P>5TS LIV$ 9 A CON/ANT /ATE ( ANXIETY OV] MY HEAL? & !Y C\LD NOT 5DURE ! 
?\<T ?AT ,I1 LIKE ALL O!R *ILDR51 %\LD SP5D TWO H\RS DAILY F> FROM HOME4 ,MY MO!R PROBABLY ALSO HAD A C]TA9 HORROR ( ! LIB]AL 9FLU5CES ) :I* ,I MI<T COME 9TO CONTACT AT ! HI< S*OOL4 ,MO!R1 ( C\RSE1 CONSID]$ ?AT ,I WAS ALREADY SUFFICI5TLY CRITICALLY.<#b#b.> 
9CL9$4 ,?US ,I RECEIV$ MY $UCATION AT HOME UND] ! DIRECTION ( A PR(ICI5T1 CLEV] TUTORESS :O WAS CONNECT$ ) ,RUSSIAN REVOLUTION>Y CIRCLES4 ,I [E V]Y MU* TO H]1 ,MME4 ,M>IE ,/RAKHOVA4 ,I TOOK.<#b#c.> 
! EXAM9ATIONS QUALIFY+ ME = ADMISSION TO ! UNIV]SITY :5 ,I WAS B>ELY SIXTE5 79 #a#h#h#h7.<#b#d.> 
& !REAFT] ,I WAS EXPECT$ TO LEAD ! LIFE ( A 0Y\NG SOCIETY WOMAN40.<#b#e.> 
,AL?\< MY $UCATION HAD BE5 UNUSUAL & CAUS$ ME MU* H>M 7= YE>S ,I WAS EXTREMELY %Y & UTT]LY 9EPT 9 ! PRACTICAL MATT]S ( LIFE71 IT MU/ NEV]!LESS BE SAID ?AT MY P>5TS W]E BY NO MEANS REACTION>IES4 ,ON ! CONTR>Y1 !Y W]E EV5.<#b#f.> 
RA!R PROGRESSIVE = !IR TIME4 ,BUT !Y HELD FA/ TO TRADITIONS :]E IT CONC]N$ ! *ILD1 ! Y\NG P]SON UND] !IR RO(4 ,MY FIR/ BITT] /RUGGLE AGA9/ !SE TRADITIONS REVOLV$ >\ND ! IDEA ( M>RIAGE4 ,I WAS SUPPOS$ TO MAKE A GOOD MAT*.<#b#g.> 
& MO!R WAS B5T UPON M>RY+ ME (F AT A V]Y E>LY AGE4 ,MY OLDE/ SI/]1 AT ! AGE ( N9ETE51 HAD CONTRACT$ M>RIAGE ) A HI<LY PLAC$ G5TLEMAN :O WAS NE>LY SEV5TY4.<#b#h.> 
,I REVOLT$ AGA9/ ?IS M>RIAGE ( CONV5I5CE1 ?IS M>RIAGE = MONEY.<#b#i.> 
& WANT$ TO M>RY ONLY = LOVE1 \T ( A GREAT PASSION4.<#c.> 
,/ILL V]Y Y\NG1 & AGA9/ MY P>5TS' WI%ES1 ,I *OSE MY C\S91 AN IMPECUNI\S Y\NG 5G9E] :OSE NAME1 ,KOLLONTAI1 ,I /ILL BE> TODAY4 ,MY MAID5 NAME WAS ,DOMONTOVI*4 ,! HAPP9ESS ( MY M>RIAGE LA/$ H>DLY ?REE YE>S4 ,I GAVE BIR? TO A SON4 ,AL?\< ,I P]SONALLY RAIS$ MY *ILD ) GREAT C>E1.<#c#a.> 
MO!RHOOD WAS NEV] ! K]NEL ( MY EXI/5CE4 ,A *ILD HAD NOT BE5 ABLE TO DRAW ! BONDS ( MY M>RIAGE TI<T]4 ,I /ILL LOV$ MY HUSB&1 BUT ! HAPPY LIFE ( A H\SEWIFE & SP\SE BECAME = ME A 0CAGE40 ,MORE & MORE MY SYMPA?IES1 MY.<#c#b.> 
9T]E/S TURN$ TO ! REVOLUTION>Y WORK+ CLASS ( ,RUSSIA4 ,I READ VORACI\SLY4 ,I ZEAL\SLY /UDI$ ALL.<#c#c.> 
SOCIAL QUE/IONS1 ATT5D$ LECTURES1 & WORK$ 9 SEMI-LEGAL SOCIETIES = ! 5LI<T5M5T ( ! PEOPLE4 ,!SE W]E ! YE>S ( ! FL[]+ ( ,M>XISM 9 ,RUSSIA 7#a#h#i#c_/#i#f74 ,L59 AT ?AT TIME WAS ONLY A NOVICE 9 ! LIT]>Y & REVOLUTION>Y >5A4 ,GEORGE ,PLE*ANOV WAS ! LEAD+ M9D ( ! TIME4 ,I /OOD CLOSE TO ! MAT]IALI/ CONCEPTION ( HI/ORY1 S9CE 9 E>LY WOMANHOOD ,I HAD 9CL9$ T[>DS ! REALI/IC S*OOL4 ,I WAS AN 5?USIA/IC FOLL[] ( ,D>W9 & ,ROELS*ES4 ,A VISIT TO ! BIG & FAM\S ,KR5GOLM TEXTILE FACTORY1 :I* EMPLOY$ #a#b1 WORK]S ( BO? SEXES1 DECID$ MY FATE4 ,I C\LD NOT LEAD A HAPPY1 PEACEFUL LIFE :5 ! WORK+ POPULATION WAS SO T]RIBLY 5SLAV$4 ,I SIMPLY HAD TO JO9 ?IS MOVEM5T4 ,AT ?AT TIME ?IS L$ TO DIFF]5CES ) MY HUSB&1 :O FELT ?AT MY 9CL9ATIONS CON/ITUT$ AN ACT ( P]SONAL DEFIANCE DIRECT$ AGA9/ HIM4 ,I LEFT HUSB& & *ILD 
& J\RNEY$ TO ,ZURI* 9 ORD] TO /UDY POLITICAL ECONOMY UND] ,PR(ESSOR ,HE9RI* ,H]KN]4 ,!RE).<#c#d.> 
BEGAN MY CONSCI\S LIFE ON BEHALF ( ! REVOLUTION>Y GOALS ( ! WORK+-CLASS MOVEM5T4 ,:5 ,I CAME BACK TO ,/4 ,PET]SBURG-N[ ,L5+RAD-9 #a#h#i#i1 ,I JO9$ ! ILLEGAL ,RUSSIAN ,SOCIAL ,DEMOCRATIC ,P>TY4 ,I WORK$ AS A WRIT] & PROPAG&I/4 ,! FATE ( ,F9L&1 :OSE 9DEP5D5CE & RELATIVE FRE$OM W]E BE+ ?REAT5$ BY ! REACTION>Y POLICY ( ! ,CZ>I/ REGIME AT ! 5D ( ! '#i'S1 EX]CIS$ A :OLLY SPECIAL P[] ( ATTRACTION UPON ME4 ,P]HAPS MY P>TICUL> GRAVITATION T[>DS ,F9L& RESULT$ FROM ! IMPRESSIONS ,I RECEIV$ ON MY GR&FA!R'S E/ATE DUR+ MY *ILDHOOD4 ,I ACTIVELY ESP\S$ ! CAUSE ( ,F9L&'S NATIONAL LIB]ATION4 ,?US MY FIR/ EXT5SIVE.<#c#e.> 
SCI5TIFIC WORK 9 POLITICAL ECONOMY WAS A COMPREH5SIVE 9VE/IGATION.<#c#f.> 
( ! LIV+ & WORK+ CONDITIONS ( ! ,F9NI% PROLET>IAT 9 RELATION TO 9DU/RY4.<#c#g.> 
,! BOOK APPE>$ 9 #aic 9 ,/4 ,PET]SBURG4 ,MY P>5TS HAD JU/ DI$1 MY HUSB& & ,I HAD BE5 LIV+ SEP>ATELY = A LONG TIME1 & ONLY MY SON REMA9$ 9 MY C>E4 ,N[ ,I HAD ! OPPORTUNITY TO DEVOTE MYSELF COMPLETELY TO MY AIMS3.<#c#h.> 
TO ! ,RUSSIAN REVOLUTION>Y MOVEM5T & TO ! WORK+-CLASS MOVEM5T ( ! :OLE WORLD4.<#c#i.> 
,LOVE1 M>RIAGE1 FAMILY1 ALL W]E SECOND>Y1 TRANSI5T MATT]S4 ,!Y W]E !RE1 !Y 9T]TW9E ) MY LIFE OV] & OV] AGA94 ,BUT AS GREAT AS WAS MY LOVE = MY HUSB&1 IMM$IATELY IT TRANSGRESS$ A C]TA9 LIMIT 9 RELATION TO MY FEM99E PRON5ESS TO MAKE SACRIFICE1 REBELLION FL>$ 9 ME ANEW4 ,I HAD TO GO AWAY1 ,I HAD TO BREAK ) ! MAN ( MY *OICE1 O!RWISE 7?IS WAS A SUBCONSCI\S FEEL+ 9 ME7 ,I W\LD HAVE EXPOS$ MYSELF TO ! DANG] ( LOS+ MY SELFHOOD4 ,IT MU/ ALSO BE SAID ?AT NOT A S+LE ONE ( ! M5 :O W]E CLOSE TO ME HAS EV] HAD A DIRECTION-GIV+ 9FLU5CE ON MY 9CL9ATIONS1 /RIV+S1 OR MY WORLD-VIEW4 ,ON ! CONTR>Y1 MO/ ( ! TIME ,I WAS ! GUID+ SPIRIT4 ,I ACQUIR$ MY VIEW ( LIFE1 MY POLITICAL L9E FROM LIFE ITSELF1 & 9 UN9T]RUPT$ /UDY FROM.<#d.> 
BOOKS4 

,9 #a#i#e1 AT ! TIME ! SO-CALL$ FIR/ REVOLUTION 9 ,RUSSIA 
BROKE \T1 AFT] ! FAM\S ,BLOODY ,SUNDAY1 ,I HAD ALREADY ACQUIR$ A 
REPUTATION 9 ! FIELD ( ECONOMIC & SOCIAL LIT]ATURE4 ,& 9 
?OSE /IRR+ TIMES1 :5 ALL 5]GIES W]E UTILIZ$ 9 ! /ORM ( 
REVOLT1 IT TURN$ \T ?AT ,I HAD BECOME V]Y POPUL> AS AN 
ORATOR4 ,YET 9 ?AT P]IOD ,I REALIZ$ = ! FIR/ TIME H[ 
LITTLE \R ,P>TY CONC]N$ ITSELF ) ! FATE ( ! WOM5 ( ! 
WORK+ CLASS & H[ MEAG] WAS ITS 9T]E/ 9 WOM5'S 
LIB]ATION4 ,TO BE SURE A V]Y /RONG B\RGEOIS WOM5'S MOVEM5T WAS 
ALREADY 9 EXI/5CE 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,BUT MY ,M>XI/ \TLOOK PO9T$ \T TO 
ME ) AN ILLUM9AT+ CL>ITY ?AT WOM5'S LIB]ATION.<#d#a.> 
C\LD TAKE PLACE ONLY AS ! RESULT ( ! VICTORY ( A 
NEW SOCIAL ORD] & A DIFF]5T ECONOMIC SY/EM4 ,!RE=E ,I ?REW MYSELF 9TO ! /RUGGLE BETWE5 ! ,RUSSIAN.<#d#b.> 
SUFFRAGETTES & /ROVE ) ALL MY MI<T TO 9DUCE ! WORK+-CLASS MOVEM5T TO 9CLUDE ! WOMAN QUE/ION AS ONE ( ! AIMS ( ITS /RUGGLE 9 ITS PROGRAM4.<#d#c.> 
,IT WAS V]Y DIFFICULT.<#d#d.> 
TO W9 MY FELL[ MEMB]S.<#d#e.> 
OV] TO ?IS IDEA4 ,I WAS COMPLETELY ISOLAT$ ) MY IDEAS & DEM&S4 ,NEV]!LESS 9 ! YE>S #a#i#f-#a#i#h ,I WON A SMALL GR\P ( WOM5 ,P>TY COMRADES OV] TO MY PLANS4 ,I .<#d#f.> WROTE.<#d#g.> 
AN >TICLE PUBLI%$ 9 ! ILLEGAL PRESS 9 #aif 9 :I* = ! FIR/ TIME.<#d#h.> 
,I SET =? ! DEM& TO CALL ! WORK+-CLASS MOVEM5T 9TO BE+ 9 ,RUSSIA ?R\< SY/EMATIC ,P>TY WORK4 ,9 ,AUTUMN ( #aig WE OP5$ UP ! FIR/ ,WORK+ ,WOM5'S ,CLUB4 ,MANY ( ! MEMB]S ( ?IS CLUB1 :O W]E /ILL V]Y Y\NG WORK]S AT ?AT TIME1 N[ OCCUPY IMPORTANT PO/S 9 ! NEW ,RUSSIA & 9 ! ,RUSSIAN ,COMMUNI/ ,P>TY 7,K4 ,NICOLAIEVA1 ,M>IE ,BURKE1 ETC474 ,ONE RESULT ( MY ACTIVITY 9 CONNECTION ) ! WOM5 WORK]S1.<#d#i.> 
BUT ESPECIALLY ( MY POLITICAL 
WRIT+S-AMONG :I* WAS A PAMPHLET ON ,F9L& CONTA9+ ! CALL TO RISE UP AGA9/ ! ,CZ>I/ ,DUMA.<#e.> 
) 0>MS0-WAS ! 9/ITUTION ( LEGAL PROCE$+S AGA9/ ME :I* HELD \T ! GRIM PROSPECT ( SP5D+ MANY YE>S 9 PRISON4 ,I WAS =C$ TO DISAPPE> IMM$IATELY & WAS NEV] AGA9 TO SEE MY HOME4 ,MY SON WAS TAK5 9 BY GOOD FRI5DS1 MY SMALL H\SEHOLD LIQUIDAT$4 ,I BECAME 0AN ILLEGAL40 ,IT WAS A TIME ( /R5U\S WORK4 

,! FIR/ ,ALL-,RUSSIAN ,WOM5'S ,CONGRESS :I* HAD BE5 CALL$ BY 
! B\RGEOIS SUFFRAGETTES WAS S*$UL$ TO TAKE PLACE 9 
,DECEMB] ( #a#i#h4 ,AT ?AT TIME ! REACTION WAS ON ! RISE & ! WORK+-CLASS MOVEM5T WAS PRO/RATE AGA9 AFT] ! FIR/ 
VICTORY 9 #a#i#e4 ,MANY ,P>TY COMRADES W]E 9 JAIL1 O!RS HAD FL$ ABROAD4 ,! VEHEM5T /RUGGLE BETWE5 ! TWO FACTIONS ( ! ,RUSSIAN ,WORK]S ,P>TY BROKE \T ANEW3 ! ,BOL%EVIKS ON ! ONE SIDE1 ! ,M5%EVIKS ON ! O!R4 ,9 #aih ,I BELONG$ TO ! ,M5%EVIK FACTION1 HAV+ BE5 =C$ !RETO BY ! HO/ILE POSITION TAK5 BY ! ,BOL%EVIKS T[>DS ! ,DUMA1 A PSEUDO-,P>LIAM5T CALL$ BY ! ,CZ> 9 ORD] TO ,PACIFY ! REBELLI\S SPIRITS ( ! AGE4 ,AL?\< ) ! ,M5%EVIKS ,I ESP\S$ ! PO9T ( VIEW ?AT EV5 A PSEUDO-,P>LIAM5T %\LD BE UTILIZ$ AS A TRIBUTE = \R ,P>TY & ?AT ! ELECTIONS = ! ,DUMA MU/ BE US$ AS AN ASSEMBL+ PO9T = ! WORK+ CLASS4 ,BUT ,I DID NOT SIDE ) ! ,M5%EVIKS ON ! QUE/ION ( COORD9AT+ ! =CES ( ! WORK]S ) ! ,LIB]ALS 9 ORD] TO ACCEL]ATE ! OV]?R[ ( ABSOLUTISM4 ,ON ?IS PO9T ,I WAS1 9 FACT1 V]Y LEFT-RADICAL & WAS EV5 BR&$ AS A 0SYNDICALI/0 BY MY ,P>TY COMRADES4.<#e#a.> 
,GIV5 MY ATTITUDE T[>DS ! ,DUMA IT LOGICALLY FOLL[$ ?AT ,I CONSID]$ IT USELESS TO EXPLOIT ! FIR/ B\RGEOIS WOM5'S CONGRESS 9 ! 9T]E/ ( \R ,P>TY4 ,NEV]!LESS ,I WORK$ ) MI<T & MA9 TO ASSURE ?AT \R.<#e#b.> 
WOM5 WORK]S1 :O W]E TO P>TICIPATE 9 ! ,CONGRESS1 EM]G$ AS AN 9DEP5D5T & DI/9CT GR\P4 ,I MANAG$ TO C>RY \T ?IS PLAN BUT NOT )\T OPPOSITION4 ,MY ,P>TY COMRADES.<#e#c.> 
ACCUS$ ME & ?OSE WOM5-COMRADES :O %>$ MY VIEWS ( BE+ 0FEM9I/S0 & ( PLAC+ TOO MU* EMPHASIS ON MATT]S ( CONC]N TO WOM5 ONLY4 ,AT ! TIME !RE WAS /ILL NO COMPREH5SION AT ALL.<#e#d.> 
( ! EXTRAORD9>ILY IMPORTANT ROLE 9 ! /RUGGLE DEVOLV+ UPON SELF-EMPLOY$ PR(ESSIONAL WOM54 ,NEV]!LESS \R WILL PREVAIL$4 ,A WOM5-WORK]S' GR\P CAME =W>D AT ! ,CONGRESS 9 ,/4 ,PET]SBURG ) ITS [N.<#e#e.> 
PROGRAM & IT DREW A CLE> L9E ( DEM>CATION BETWE5 ! B\RGEOIS 
SUFFRAGETTES & ! WOM5'S LIB]ATION MOVEM5T ( ! WORK+ CLASS 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,H[EV]1 ,I WAS =C$ TO FLEE BE=E ! CLOSE ( ! ,CONGRESS BECAUSE ! POLICE HAD COME UPON MY TRACKS4 ,I MANAG$ TO CROSS ! FRONTI] 9T] ,G]MANY & ?US1 9 ,DECEMB] ( #a#i#h1 BEGAN A NEW P]IOD ( MY LIFE1 POLITICAL EMIGRATION4 

,! ,YE>S ( ,POLITICAL ,EMIGRATION 

,AS A POLITICAL REFUGEE H5CE=? ,I LIV$ 9 ,EUROPE & ,AM]ICA 
UNTIL ! OV]?R[ ( ,CZ>ISM 9 #a#i#a#g4 ,AS SOON AS ,I >RIV$ 9 
,G]MANY1 AFT] MY FLI<T1 ,I JO9$ ! ,G]MAN ,SOCIAL ,DEMOCRATIC 
,P>TY 9 :I* ,I HAD MANY P]SONAL FRI5DS1 AMONG :OM ,I 
ESPECIALLY NUMB]$ ,K>L ,LIEBKNE*T1.<#e#f.> 
,ROSA ,LUXEMBURG1 ,K>L ,KAUTSKY4.<#e#g.> 
,CL>A ,ZETK9 ALSO HAD A GREAT 9FLU5CE ON MY ACTIVITY.<#e#h.> 
9 DEF9+ ! PR9CIPLES ( ! WOM5-WORK]S MOVEM5T 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,ALREADY 9 #aig ,I HAD TAK5 P>T1 AS A DELEGATE FROM ,RUSSIA1 9 ! FIR/ ,9T]NATIONAL ,CONF]5CE ( ,SOCIALI/ ,WOM5 ?AT WAS HELD 9 ,/UTTG>T4 ,?IS GA!R+ WAS PRESID$ OV] BY ,CL>A ,ZETK9 & IT MADE AN 5ORM\S CONTRIBUTION TO ! DEVELOPM5T ( ! WOM5-WORK]S MOVEM5T ALONG ,M>XI/ L9ES4 ,I PUT MYSELF AT ! DISPOSAL ( ! ,P>TY PRESS AS A WRIT] ON SOCIAL & POLITICAL QUE/IONS1 & ,I WAS ALSO FREQU5TLY CALL$ UPON AS AN ORATOR BY ! ,G]MAN ,P>TY & ,I WORK$ = ! ,P>TY AS AN AGITATOR FROM ! ,PALAT9ATE TO ,SAXONY1 FROM ,BREM5 TO S\? ,G]MANY4 ,BUT ,I ASSUM$.<#e#i.> 
NO LEAD+ PO/S EI!R 9 ! ,RUSSIAN P>TY OR 9 ! ,G]MAN P>TY4.<#f.> 
,BY & L>GE ,I WAS MA9LY A 0POPUL> ORATOR0 & AN E/EEM$ POLITICAL WRIT]4 ,I CAN N[ OP5LY CONFESS.<#f#a.> 
?AT 9 ! ,RUSSIAN ,P>TY ,I DELIB]ATELY 
KEPT SOME:AT ALO( FROM ! CONTROLL+ C5T]1 & ?AT IS EXPLA9ABLE MA9LY BY ! FACT ?AT ,I WAS NOT YET 9 COMPLETE AGREEM5T ) ! POLICY ( MY COMRADES4.<#f#b.> 
,BUT ,I HAD NO DESIRE TO PASS OV] TO ! ,BOL%EVIKS1 NOR C\LD ,I = ?AT MATT] S9CE AT ! TIME IT SEEM$ TO ME AS IF !Y DID NOT ATTA* SUFFICI5T IMPORTANCE TO ! DEVELOPM5T ( ! WORK+-CLASS MOVEM5T 9 0BREAD? & DEP?40 ,!RE=E ,I WORK$ ON MY [N SEEM+LY ALMO/ AS ?\< ,I WANT$ TO REMA9 9 ! BACKGR\ND )\T SETT+ MY SI<TS OR OBTA9+ A LEAD+ POSITION4.<#f#c.> 
,H]E IT MU/ BE ADMITT$ ?AT1 AL?\< ,I POSSESS$ A C]TA9 DEGREE ( AMBITION1 LIKE EV]Y O!R ACTIVE HUMAN BE+1 ,I WAS NEV] ANIMAT$ 
BY ! DESIRE TO OBTA9 0A PO/40 ,= ME 0:AT ,I AM0 WAS ALWAYS ( LESS IMPORTANCE ?AN 0:AT ,I CAN10 ?AT IS TO SAY1 :AT ,I WAS 
9 A POSITION TO ACCOMPLI%4 ,9 ?IS WAY ,I1 TOO1 HAD MY AMBITION & IT WAS ESPECIALLY NOTICEABLE !RE :]E ,I /OOD ) MY :OLE HE>T & S\L .<#f#d.> 
9 ! /RUGGLE1 :]E ! ISSUE WAS ! ABOLITION ( ! SLAV]Y ( WORK+ WOM54 ,I HAD ABOVE ALL SET MYSELF ! TASK ( W9N+ OV] WOM5 WORK]S 9 ,RUSSIA TO SOCIALISM &1 AT ! SAME TIME1 ( WORK+ = ! LIB]ATION (.<#f#e.> 
WOMAN1 = H] EQUALITY ( RI<TS4 ,MY BOOK 0,! ,SOCIAL ,F\NDATIONS ( ! ,WOM5'S ,QUE/ION0 HAD APPE>$ %ORTLY BE=E MY FLI<T2 IT WAS A POLEMICAL DISPUTATION ) ! B\RGEOIS SUFFRAGETTES BUT1 AT ! SAME TIME1 A *ALL5GE TO ! ,P>TY TO BUILD A VIABLE WOM5 WORK]S MOVEM5T 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,! BOOK 
5JOY$ A GREAT SUCCESS4 ,AT ?AT TIME ,I WROTE = ! LEGAL & ILLEGAL PRESS4 ,?R\< AN EX*ANGE ( LETT]S ,I TRI$ TO 9FLU5CE 
,P>TY COMRADES & WOM5 WORK]S !MSELVES4 ,NATURALLY1 ,I ALWAYS DID ?IS 9 SU* A WAY ?AT ,I DEM&$ FROM ! ,P>TY ?AT IT.<#f#f.> 
ESP\SE ! CAUSE ( WOM5'S LIB]ATION4 ,I DID NOT ALWAYS HAVE AN EASY TIME ( IT4 ,MU* PASSIVE RESI/ANCE1 LITTLE UND]/&+1 & EV5 LESS 9T]E/ = ?IS AIM1 OV] & OV] AGA91 LAY AS AN OB/ACLE 9 ! PA?4 ,IT WAS NOT UNTIL #a#i#a#d1 %ORTLY BE=E ! \TBREAK ( ! ,WORLD ,W>1 ?AT F9ALLY BO? FACTIONS-! ,M5%EVIKS & ! ,BOL%EVIKS-TOOK UP ! QUE/ION 9 AN E>NE/ & PRACTICAL WAY1 A FACT :I* HAD ON ME AN EFFECT ALMO/ TANTAM\NT TO A P]SONAL COMM5DATION4 ,TWO P]IODICALS = WORK+ WOM5 W]E LAUN*$ 9 ,RUSSIA1 ! ,9T]NATIONAL ,WORK+ ,WOM5'S ,CONGRESS ( ,M>* #h1 #a#i#a#d1 WAS CELEBRAT$4 ,I WAS /ILL LIV+ 9 EXILE1 H[EV]1 & C\LD HELP ! SO DE>LY LOV$ WOM5-WORK]S MOVEM5T 9 MY HOMEL& ONLY FROM AF>4 ,I WAS 9 CLOSE CONTACT1 ALSO FROM AF>1 ) ! WORK+ WOM5 ( ,RUSSIA4 ,ALREADY SEV]AL YE>S E>LI].<#f#g.> 
,I HAD BE5 APPO9T$ BY ! ,TEXTILE ,WORK]S ,UNION AS AN (FICIAL DELEGATE TO ! ,SECOND ,9T]NATIONAL ,CONF]5CE ( ,SOCIALI/ ,WOM5 7#a#i#a7 &1 FUR!R1.<#f#h.> 
TO ! EXTRAORD9>Y ,9T]NATIONAL ,SOCIALI/ ,CONGRESS 9 ,BASLE 9 #a#i#a#b4 ,LAT] :5 A DRAFT ( A BILL ON SOCIAL 9SURANCE WAS 9TRODUC$ 9 ! ,RUSSIAN PSEUDO-,P>LIAM5T 7! ,DUMA71 ! ,SOCIAL ,DEMOCRATIC ,DUMA FACTION 7( ! ,M5%EVIK W+7 REQUE/$ ME TO ELABORATE ! DRAFT ( A BILL ON MAT]NITY WELF>E4 ,IT WAS NOT ! FIR/ TIME ?AT !.<#f#i.> 
FACTION LAY CLAIM TO MY 5]GIES = LEGISLATIVE WORK4 ,JU/ BE=E ,I WAS =C$ TO GO 9TO EXILE1 ,I HAD BE5 5LI/$ BY !M-AS A QUALIFI$ EXP]T-TO P>TICIPATE 9 ! DELIB]ATION ( ! QUE/ION ( ,F9L& 9 ! ,IMP]IAL ,DUMA4 

,! TASK ?AT HAD BE5 ASSIGN$ TO ME1 NAMELY1 ! ELABORATION 
( A DRAFT ( A BILL 9 ! FIELD ( MAT]NITY WELF>E1 MOTIVAT$ ME 
TO UND]TAKE A MO/ ?OR\< /UDY ( ?IS SPECIAL QUE/ION4 ,! 
,BUND FUR ,MUTT]S*UTZ1 & ! \T/&+ WORK ( 
,DR4 ,HEL5E ,/OCK]1 ALSO PROVID$ ME ) VALUABLE 
SUGGE/IONS4 ,NEV]!LESS ,I ALSO /UDI$ ! QUE/ION 9 ,5GL&1 
,FRANCE1 & 9 ! ,SC&9AVIAN C\NTRIES4 ,! RESULT ( !SE 
/UDIES WAS MY BOOK 0,MO!RHOOD & ,SOCIETY10 A 
COMPREH5SIVE.<#g.> 
WORK ( #f PAGES ON MAT]NITY WELF>E & ! RELEVANT LEGISLATION 9 ,EUROPE & ,AU/RALIA4 ,! FUNDAM5TAL REGULATIONS & DEM&S 9 ?IS FIELD1 :I* ,I SUMM$ UP AT ! 5D ( MY BOOK1 W]E REALIZ$ LAT] 9 #aiag BY ! ,SOVIET REGIME 9 ! FIR/ SOCIAL 9SURANCE LAWS4 

,= ME ! YE>S ( POLITICAL EMIGRATION W]E HECTIC1 QUITE 
/IRR+.<#g#a.> 
YE>S4 ,I TRAVEL$ AS A ,P>TY ORATOR FROM C\NTRY TO C\NTRY4 ,9 #a#i#a#a1 9 ,P>IS1 ,I ORGANIZ$ ! H\SEWIVES' /RIKE 0,LA GREVE DES M5AG]ES0 AGA9/ ! HI< CO/ ( LIV+4 ,9 #aiab ,I WORK$ 9 ,BELGIUM SETT+ ! GR\NDWORK = ! M9]S' /RIKE 9 ! ,BOR9AGE & 9 ! SAME YE> ! ,P>TY DISPAT*$ ME TO ! LEFT-ORI5T$ ,SOCIALI/ ,Y\? ,ASSOCIATION ( ,SW$5 9 ORD] TO /R5G!N ! ,P>TY'S#g#b.> 
ANTI-MILIT>I/IC T5D5CIES4 ,SEV]AL YE>S E>LI]1 ?IS /ILL M]ITS M5TION H]E1.<#g#c.> 
,I F\<T 9 ! RANKS ( ! ,BRITI% ,SOCIALI/ ,P>TY SIDE BY SIDE ) ,DORA ,MONTEFIORE & ,MADAME ,KOELTS*.<#g#d.> 
AGA9/ ! ,5GLI% SUFFRAGETTES = ! /R5G!N+ ( ! /ILL FL$GL+ SOCIALI/ WORK+-WOM5'S MOVEM5T4 ,9 #aiac ,I WAS AGA9 9 ,5GL&4 ,?IS TIME ,I WAS !RE 9 ORD] TO TAKE AN ACTIVE P>T 9 A PROTE/ ACTION AGA9/ ! FAM\S 0,BEILIS ,TRIAL0 :I* HAD BE5 9/IGAT$ BY ! ANTI-SEMITES 9 ,RUSSIA4 ,9 ! SPR+ ( ! SAME YE>1 ! LEFT W+ ( ! ,SW$I% ,SOCIAL ,DEMOCRATIC ,P>TY 9VIT$ ME TO ,SW$54 ,!SE W]E TRULY HECTIC YE>S1 M>K$ BY ! MO/ V>I$ TYPES ( MILITANT ACTIVITY4 ,NOT)/&+1 MY ,RUSSIAN ,P>TY COMRADES ALSO LAID CLAIM TO MY 5]GIES & APPO9T$ ME DELEGATE TO ! ,SOCIALI/ ,P>TY & ,TRADE ,UNION ,CONGRESS4 ,?US ) ! HELP ( ,K>L ,LIEBKNE*T ,I ALSO SP>K$ AN ACTIVITY 9 ,G]MANY ON BEHALF ( ! DEPORT$ SOCIALI/ MEMB]S ( ! ,DUMA4.<#g#e.> 
,9 #aiaa ,I WAS CALL$ TO ! ,RUSSIAN ,P>TY ,S*OOL 9 ,BOLOGNA1 :]E ,I DELIV]$ A S]IES ( LECTURES4 ,! PRES5T ,RUSSIAN ,M9I/] ( ,$UCATION 9 ,SOVIET ,RUSSIA1 ,A4 ,LUNA*>SKY1 ,MAXIM ,GORKI1 AS WELL AS ! FAM\S ,RUSSIAN ECONOMI/ & PHILOSOPH] ,A4 ,BOGDONOV1 W]E ! F\ND]S ( ?IS ,P>TY S*OOL1 & ,TROTSKY DELIV]$ LECTURES AT ! S*OOL AT ! SAME TIME ?AT ,I WAS !RE4 ,! PRES5T ,SOVIET ,RUSSIAN ,M9I/] ( ,=EIGN ,AFFAIRS1 ,G4 ,*I*]91 :O AT ?AT TIME WORK$ AS SECRET>Y ( A RELIEF AG5CY = POLITICAL REFUGEES1 (T5TIMES CALL$ UPON ME TO HOLD PUBLIC LECTURES ON ! MO/ DISP>ATE CULTURAL PROBLEMS ( ,RUSSIAN LIFE 9 ORD] TO HELP FILL ! RELIEF AG5CY'S ALMO/ EMPTY KITTY4 ,AT HIS BEHE/ ,I TRAVEL$ ALL OV] ,EUROPE BUT ,B]L9 WAS MY FIX$ ABODE4 ,I FELT AT HOME 9 ,G]MANY & HAVE ALWAYS GREATLY APPRECIAT$ ! CONDITIONS !RE SO IDEALLY SUIT$ = SCI5TIFIC WORK4 ,BUT ,I WAS NOT ALL[$ TO GIVE SPEE*ES 9 ,PRUSSIA4 ,ON ! CONTR>Y1 ,I HAD TO KEEP AS QUIET AS POSSIBLE TO AVOID EXPULSION BY ! ,PRUSSIAN POLICE4 

,!N ! ,WORLD ,W> BROKE \T & ONCE AGA9 ,I >RIV$ AT A NEW TURN+ PO9T 9 MY LIFE4 

,BUT BE=E ,I TALK AB\T ?IS IMPORTANT P]IOD ( MY 9TELLECTUAL EXI/5CE1 ,I /ILL WANT TO SAY A FEW WORDS AB\T MY P]SONAL LIFE4 ,! QUE/ION RISES :E!R 9 ! MIDDLE ( ALL !SE MANIFOLD1 EXCIT+ LABORS & ,P>TY-ASSIGNM5TS ,I C\LD /ILL F9D RIME = 9TIMATE EXP]I5CES1 = ! PANGS & JOYS ( LOVE4 ,UN=TUNATELY1 YES6 ,I SAY UN=TUNATELY BECAUSE ORD9>ILY !SE EXP]I5CES 5TAIL$ ALL TOO MANY C>ES1 DISAPPO9TM5TS1 & PA91 & BECAUSE ALL TOO MANY 5]GIES W]E PO9TLESSLY CONSUM$ ?R\< !M4 ,YET ! LONG+ TO BE UND]/OOD BY A MAN D[N TO ! DEEPE/1 MO/ SECRET RECESSES ( ONE'S S\L1 TO BE RECOGNIZ$ BY HIM AS A /RIV+ HUMAN BE+1 REPEAT$LY DECID$ MATT]S4 ,& REPEAT$LY DISAPPO9TM5T 5SU$ ALL TOO SWIFTLY1 S9CE ! FRI5D SAW 9 ME ONLY ! FEM99E ELEM5T :I* HE TRI$ TO MOLD 9TO A WILL+ S\ND+ BO>D TO HIS [N EGO4 ,SO REPEAT$LY ! MOM5T 9EVITABLY >RIV$ 9 :I* ,I HAD TO %AKE (F ! *A9S ( COMMUNITY ) AN A*+ HE>T BUT ) A SOV]EIGN1 UN9FLU5C$ WILL4 ,!N ,I WAS AGA9 ALONE4 ,BUT ! GREAT] ! DEM&S LIFE MADE UPON ME1 ! MORE ! RESPONSIBLE WORK WAIT+ TO BE TACKL$1 ! GREAT] GREW ! LONG+ TO BE 5VELOP$ BY LOVE1 W>M?1 UND]/&+4 ,ALL ! EASI]1 CONSEQU5TLY1 BEGAN ! OLD /ORY ( DISAPPO9TM5T 9 LOVE1 ! OLD /ORY ( ,TITANIA 9 0,A ,MIDSUMM] ,NI<T'S ,DREAM40.<#g#f.> 

,! \TBREAK ( ! ,WORLD ,W> F\ND ME 9 ,G]MANY4 ,MY SON WAS 
) ME4 ,WE W]E BO? >RE/$ BECAUSE MY ID5TITY PAP]S W]E NOT 9 
ORD]4 ,DUR+ ! H\SE SE>*1 H[EV]1 ! POLICE F\ND A M&ATE 
FROM ! ,RUSSIAN ,SOCIAL ,DEMOCRATIC ,P>TY APPO9T+ ME AS DELEGATE TO 
! ,WORLD ,CONGRESS ( 
,SOCIALI/S4 ,SUDD5LY ! G5TLEM5 FROM ,ALEX&] ,PLATZ BECAME UTT]LY *>M+3 !Y FIGUR$ ?AT A FEMALE ,SOCIAL ,DEMOCRAT C\LD NOT BE A FRI5D ( ! ,CZ> & CONSEQU5TLY C]TA9LY NOT AN 5EMY ( ,G]MANY4 ,!Y W]E RI<T4.<#g#g.> 
,I WAS 9 FACT NO 5EMY ( ,G]MANY & /ILL LESS A ,RUSSIAN PATRIOT4 ,TO ME ! W> WAS AN ABOM9ATION1 A MADNESS1 A CRIME1 & FROM ! FIR/ MOM5T ONW>DS-MORE \T ( IMPULSE ?AN REFLECTION-,I 9W>DLY REJECT$ IT & C\LD NEV] RECONCILE MYSELF ) IT UP TO ?IS V]Y MOM5T4.<#g#h.> 
,! 9TOXICATION ( PATRIOTIC FEEL+S HAS ALWAYS BE5 SOME?+ ALI5 TO ME1 ON ! CONTR>Y ,I FELT AN AV]SION = EV]Y?+ ?AT SMACK$ ( SUP]-PATRIOTISM4 ,I F\ND NO UND]/&+ = MY 0ANTI-PATRIOTIC0 ATTITUDE AMONG MY [N ,RUSSIAN.<#g#i.> 
,P>TY COMRADES1 :O ALSO LIV$ 9 ,G]MANY4.<#h.> 
,ONLY ,K>L ,LIEBKNE*T1 HIS WIFE ,S(IE ,LIEBKNE*T1 & A FEW O!R ,G]MAN ,P>TY COMRADES1 LIKE MYSELF1 ESP\S$ ! SAME /&PO9T &1 LIKE MYSELF1.<#h#a.> 
CONSID]$ IT A SOCIALI/'S DUTY TO /RUGGLE AGA9/ ! W>4 ,/RANGE TO SAY1 ,I WAS PRES5T 9 ! ,REI*/AG ON ,AUGU/ #d1 ! DAY ! W> BUDGET WAS BE+ VOT$ ON4 ,! COLLAPSE ( ! ,G]MAN ,SOCIALI/ ,P>TY /RUCK ME AS A CALAMITY )\T P>ALLEL4 ,I FELT UTT]LY ALONE & F\ND COM=T ONLY 9 ! COMPANY ( ! ,LIEBKNE*TS4 

,) ! HELP ( SOME ,G]MAN ,P>TY FRI5DS ,I WAS ABLE TO LEAVE 
,G]MANY ) MY SON 9 ,AUGU/ ( #aiad & EMIGRATE TO ! 
,SC&9AVIAN P59SULA4 ,I LEFT ,G]MANY NOT BECAUSE ,I HAD FELT ! 
SLI<TE/ MANIFE/ATION ( UNFRI5DL9ESS T[>DS ME BUT ONLY 
= ! REASON ?AT )\T A SPH]E ( ACTIVITY ,I W\LD HAVE BE5 =C$ TO LIVE 9 IDL5ESS 9 ?AT C\NTRY4 ,I WAS IMPATI5T TO TAKE UP ! /RUGGLE AGA9/ ! W>4 ,AFT] >RIV+ ON ,SW$5'S NEUTRAL SOIL1 ,I IMM$IATELY.<#h#b.> 
BEGAN ! WORK AGA9/ ! W> & =.<#h#c.> 
! 9T]NATIONAL SOLID>ITY ( ! WORLD WORK+ CLASS4 ,AN APPEAL TO WORK+ WOM5 MADE ITS WAY1 ALONG ILLEGAL *ANNELS1 TO ,RUSSIA & TO DIFF]5T O!R C\NTRIES4 ,9 ,SW$5 ,I WROTE & 
SPOKE AGA9/ ! W>4 ,I SPOKE AT PUBLIC MEET+S1 MO/ ( :I* HAD BE5 CALL$ BY ! LEFTI/-LEAN+ WORLD-FAM\S.<#h#d.> 
,SW$I% ,P>TY LEAD]S ,ZETA ,HOGLUND & ,FR$]IC ,/RON4 ,I F\ND 9 !M ! PURE E*O ( MY IDEAS &.<#h#e.> 
FEEL+S & WE JO9$ =CES 9 A COMMON TASK = ! VICTORY ( 9T]NATIONALISM & AGA9/ ! W> HY/]IA4 ,IT WAS ONLY LAT] ?AT ,I LE>N$ ( ! ATTITUDE :I* ! LEAD+ M9DS ( ! ,RUSSIAN ,P>TY HAD TAK5 T[>DS ! W>4 ,:5 ! NEWS F9ALLY REA*$ US1 BY WAY ( ,P>IS & ,SWITZ]L&1 IT WAS = US A DAY ( 9EFFABLE JOY4 ,WE RECEIV$ ASSURANCE ?AT BO? ,TROTSKY & ,L591 AL?\< !Y.<#h#f.> 
BELONG$ TO DIFF]5T FACTIONS ( ! ,P>TY1 HAD MILITANTLY RIS5 UP AGA9/ ! W>4 ,?US ,I WAS NO LONG] 0ISOLAT$40 ,A NEW GR\P+ WAS PROPOS$.<#h#g.> 
9 ! ,P>TY1 ! 9T]NATIONALI/S & ! 0SOCIAL-PATRIOTS40 ,A ,P>TY P]IODICAL WAS ALSO F\ND$ 9 ,P>IS4.<#h#h.> 
,9 ! MIDDLE ( MY ZEAL\S ACTIVITIES1 H[EV]1 ,I WAS >RE/$ BY ! ,SW$I% AU?ORITIES & BR\<T TO ! ,KUNG%OLM PRISON4 ,! WOR/ MOM5T DUR+ ?IS >RE/ WAS BORN ( MY CONC]N OV] ! 
ID5TITY PAP]S ( A GOOD FRI5D & ,P>TY COMRADE1 ,ALEX&] ,S*LAPNIKOV1 :O HAD JU/ >RIV$ ILLEGALLY 9 ,SW$5 FROM ,RUSSIA1 :I* ,I HAD TAK5 OV] = SAFE-KEEP+4 ,UND] ! EYES ( ! POLICE ,I MANAG$ TO HIDE !M UND] MY BL\SE & SOMEH[ MAKE !M DISAPPE>4 ,LAT] ,I WAS TRANSF]R$ FROM ! ,KUNG%OLM PRISON TO ! PRISON 9 ,MALMA & !N BANI%$ TO ,D5M>K4 ,AS F> AS ,I KN[ ,I WAS ONE ( ! FIR/ ( ! ,EUROPEAN SOCIALI/S TO BE JAIL$ BECAUSE ( ANTI-W> PROPAG&A4 ,9 ,D5M>K ,I CONT9U$ MY WORK BUT ) GREAT] PRUD5CE4 ,NEV]!LESS.<#h#i.> 
! ,DANI% POLICE DID NOT LEAVE ME 9 PEACE4 ,NOR DID ! ,DANI% ,SOCIAL ,DEMOCRATS EXHIBIT FRI5DL9ESS = ! 9T]NATIONALI/S4 ,9 ,FEBRU>Y ( #aiae ,I EMIGRAT$ TO ,NORWAY :]E TOGE!R ) ,ALEX&] ,S*LAPNIKOV WE S]V$ AS A L9K BETWE5 ,SWITZ]L&1 ! PLACE ( RESID5CE ( ,L59 & ( ! ,C5TRAL ,COMMITTEE1.<#i.> 
& ,RUSSIA4 ,WE HAD FULL CONTACT ) ! ,NORWEGIAN SOCIALI/S4 ,ON ,M>* #h ( ! SAME YE> ,I TRI$ TO ORGANIZE AN 9T]NATIONAL WORK+ WOM5'S DEMON/RATION AGA9/ ! W> 9 ,*RI/IANIA 7N[ ,OSLO71 BUT ! REPRES5TATIVES FROM ! BELLIG]5T C\NTRIES DID NOT %[ UP4 

,?AT WAS ! TIME :5 ! DECISIVE RUPTURE 9 ,SOCIAL ,DEMOCRACY 
WAS BE+ PREP>$1 S9CE ! PATRIOTICALLY M9D$ SOCIALI/S C\LD 
NOT GO ALONG ) ! 9T]NATIONALI/S4 ,S9CE ! ,BOL%EVIKS W]E 
?OSE :O MO/ CONSI/5TLY F\<T SOCIAL-PATRIOTISM1 9 ,JUNE ( #aiae 
,I (FICIALLY JO9$ ! ,BOL%EVIKS & 5T]$ 9TO A LIVELY 
CORRESPOND5CE ) ,L59 7,L59'S LETT]S TO ME HAVE REC5TLY BE5 
PUBLI%$ 9 ,RUSSIA74.<#i#a.> 

,I AGA9 BEGAN TO DO A PRODIG\S AM\NT ( WRIT+1 ?IS TIME 
= ! 9T]NATIONAL-M9D$ PRESS ( ! MO/ DIFF]5T C\NTRIES3 ,5GL&1 ,NORWAY1 ,SW$51 ,AM]ICA1 ,RUSSIA4 ,AT ?IS TIME ONE ( MY PAMPHLETS1 0,:O ,PR(ITS FROM ! ,W>810 APPE>$4 ,DELIB]ATELY WRITT5 9 A V]Y POPUL> VIEW1 IT WAS DISSEM9AT$ 9 C\NTLESS $ITIONS1 9 MILLIONS ( COPIES1.<#i#b.> 
& WAS TRANSLAT$ 9TO SEV]AL LANGUAGES1 ,G]MAN 9CLUD$4 ,SO LONG AS ! W> CONT9U$1 ! PROBLEM ( WOM5'S LIB]ATION OBVI\SLY HAD TO REC$E 9TO ! BACKGR\ND S9CE MY ONLY CONC]N1 MY HI<E/ AIM1.<#i#c.> 
WAS TO FI<T AGA9/ ! W> & CALL A NEW ,WORK]S ,9T]NATIONAL 9TO BE+4 ,9 ! AUTUMN ( #aiae ! ,G]MAN SECTION ( ! ,AM]ICAN ,SOCIALI/ ,P>TY 9VIT$ ME TO J\RNEY TO ,AM]ICA TO DELIV] LECTURES !RE 9 ! SPIRIT ( 0,ZIMM]WALD0 7A GA!R+ ( 9T]NATIONAL-M9D$ SOCIALI/S74 ,I WAS IMM$IATELY READY TO CROSS ! OCEAN = ?IS PURPOSE1 DESPITE ! FACT ?AT MY FRI5DS DET]M9$LY ADVIS$ ME AGA9/ IT4 ,!Y W]E ALL DEEPLY WORRI$ AB\T ME BECAUSE ! J\RNEY HAD BECOME V]Y HAZ>D\S AS A RESULT ( SUBM>9E W>F>E4 ,BUT ! AIM 5TIC$ ME 5ORM\SLY4 ,MY PROPAG&A T\R 9 ,AM]ICA LA/$ FIVE MON?S1 DUR+ :I* TIME ,I VISIT$ EI<TY-ONE CITIES 9 ! ,UNIT$ ,/ATES & DELIV]$ LECTURES 9 ,G]MAN1 ,FR5*1 & ,RUSSIAN4.<#i#d.> 
,! WORK WAS EXTREMELY /R5U\S1 BUT ALSO AS FRUITFUL1 & ,I HAD W>RANT TO BELIEVE ?AT AS A RESULT ! 9T]NATIONALI/S 9 ! ,AM]ICAN ,P>TY W]E /R5G!N$4 ,MU* OPPOSITION TO ! W>1 PASSIONATE DEBATES1 ALSO EXI/$ OV]SEAS1 BUT ! POLICE DID NOT BO!R ME4.<#i#e.> 
,! NEWSPAP]S1 BY TURNS1 BR&$ ME EI!R 
AS A SPY ( ! ,G]MAN ,KAIS] OR AS AN AG5T ( ! ,5T5TE4 ,I RETURN$ TO ,NORWAY 9 ! SPR+ ( #a#i#a#f4 ,I LOVE ,NORWAY ) ITS 9COMP>ABLE FJORDS & ITS MAJE/IC M\NTA9S1 ITS C\RAGE\S1 GIFT$1 & 9DU/RI\S PEOPLE4 ,AT ?AT TIME ,I LIV$ ON ! FAM\S ,HOLM5KOLL5 NE> ,OSLO & CONT9U$ TO WORK ) ! VIEW '( WELD+ TOGE!R ALL ! =CES ( ! 9T]NATIONALI/S 9 OPPOSITION TO ! ,WORLD ,W>4 ,I %>$ ,L59'S VIEW :I* AIM$ AT SPREAD+ ! CONVICTION ?AT ! W> C\LD BE DEFEAT$ ONLY BY ! ,REVOLUTION1 BY ! UPRIS+ ( ! WORK]S4 ,I WAS 9 SUB/ANTIAL AGREEM5T ) ,L59 & /OOD MU* CLOS] TO HIM ?AN MANY ( HIS OLD] FOLL[]S & FRI5DS4.<#i#f.> 
,BUT MY SOJ\RN 9 ,NORWAY WAS NOT A LONG ONE BECAUSE ONLY A FEW MON?S AFT] MY >RIVAL ,I HAD TO EMB>K UPON A SECOND J\RNEY TO ,AM]ICA1 :]E ,I REMA9$ TILL %ORTLY BE=E ! \TBREAK ( ! ,RUSSIAN ,REVOLUTION4 ,= ME ! SITUATION 9 ,AM]ICA HAD *ANG$ 9S(> AS1 9 ! MEAN:ILE1 MANY ,RUSSIAN ,P>TY COMRADES HAD COME OV]1 ,TROTSKY AMONG O!RS4 ,WE WORK$ ZEAL\SLY = ! NEW ,WORK]S ,9T]NATIONAL BUT ,AM]ICA'S 9T]V5TION 9 ! W> AGGRAVAT$ \R ACTIVITY4.<#i#g.> 

,I HAD ALREADY BE5 9 ,NORWAY = SEV]AL WEEKS1 :5 ! ,RUSSIAN 
PEOPLE ROSE UP AGA9/ ABSOLUTISM & DE?RON$ ! ,CZ>4 ,A 
FE/IVE MOOD REIGN$ AMONG ALL \R POLITICAL FRI5DS4 ,BUT ,I 
H>BOR$ NO ILLUSIONS BECAUSE ,I KNEW ?AT ! OV]?R[ ( ! 
,CZ> W\LD BE ONLY ! BEG9N+ ( EV5 MORE MOM5T\S EV5TS 
& DIFFICULT SOCIAL /RUGGLES SO ,I HA/5$.<#i#h.> 
BACK TO ,RUSSIA 9 ,M>* #a#i#a#g4 ,I WAS ONE ( ! FIR/ POLITICAL EMIGRANTS :O 
CAME.<#i#i.> 
BACK TO ! LIB]AT$ HOMEL&4 ,TORNEO1 ! T9Y FRONTI] T[N LY+ NOR? ( ! ,SW$I%-,F9NI% FRONTI]S1 ?R\< :I* ,I HAD TO PASS1 WAS /ILL 9 ! GRIP ( A CRUEL W9T]4 ,A SLEI< C>RI$ ME ACROSS ! RIV] :I* M>KS ! FRONTI]4 ,ON ,RUSSIAN SOIL /OOD A SOLDI]4 ,A BRI<T R$ RIBBON FLUTT]$ ON HIS *E/4 0,Y\R ID5TITY PAP]S1 PLEASE1 CITIZ5NESS60 0,I HAVE NONE4 ,I AM A POLITICAL REFUGEE40 0,Y\R NAME80 ,I ID5TIFI$ MYSELF4 ,A Y\NG (FIC] WAS SUMMON$4 ,YES1 MY NAME WAS ON ! LI/ ( POLITICAL REFUGEES :O W]E TO BE FREELY ADMITT$ 9TO ! C\NTRY BY ORD] ( ! ,WORK]S' & ,SOLDI]S' ,SOVIET4 ,! Y\NG (FIC] HELP$ ME \T ( ! SLEI< & KISS$ MY H&1 ALMO/ REV]5TLY4 ,I WAS /&+ ON ! REPUBLICAN SOIL ( LIB]AT$ ,RUSSIA6 ,C\LD ?AT BE POSSIBLE8 ,IT WAS ONE ( ! HAPPIE/ H\RS ( MY :OLE.<#a.> 
LIFE4 ,F\R MON?S LAT]1 BY ORD] ( ! ,K]5SKY REGIME 7! ,PROVISIONAL ,GOV]NM5T71 ! SAME *>M+ Y\NG (FIC] PLAC$ ME UND] >RE/ AS A DANG]\S ,BOL%EVIK AT ! ,TORNEO FRONTI] /ATION 444,SU* IS LIFE'S IRONY4 

,! ,YE>S ( ,REVOLUTION 

,SO OV]:ELM+ WAS ! RU% ( SUBSEQU5T EV5TS ?AT TO ?IS 
V]Y DAY ,I REALLY DO NOT KN[ :AT ,I %\LD DESCRIBE & 
EMPHASIZE3 :AT HAVE ,I ACCOMPLI%$1 DESIR$1 A*IEV$8 ,WAS 
!RE ALTOGE!R AN 9DIVIDUAL WILL AT ?AT TIME8 ,WAS IT NOT 
ONLY ! OMNIPOT5T /ORM ( ! ,REVOLUTION1 ! COMM& ( ! 
ACTIVE1 AWAK5$ MASSES ?AT DET]M9$ \R WILL & ACTION8 ,WAS 
!RE ALTOGE!R A S+LE HUMAN BE+ :O W\LD NOT HAVE B[$ 
TO ! G5]AL WILL8 ,!RE W]E ONLY MASSES ( PEOPLE1 B\ND 
TOGE!R 9 A BIP>TITE WILL1 :I* OP]AT$ EI!R = OR 
AGA9/ ! ,REVOLUTION1 = OR AGA9/ 5D+ ! W>1 & :I* 
SID$ = OR AGA9/ ! P[] ( ! ,SOVIETS4 ,LOOK+ BACK ONE 
P]CEIVES ONLY A MASSIVE OP]ATION1 /RUGGLE1 & ACTION4 ,9 
REALITY !RE W]E NO H]OES OR LEAD]S4 ,IT WAS ! PEOPLE1 ! 
WORK+ PEOPLE1 9 SOLDI]S' UNI=M OR 9 CIVILIAN ATTIRE1 :O 
CONTROLL$ ! SITUATION & :O RECORD$ ITS WILL 9DELIBLY 9 
! HI/ORY ( ! C\NTRY & MANK9D4 ,IT WAS A SULTRY SUMM]1 
A CRUCIAL SUMM] ( ! REVOLUTION>Y FLOOD-TIDE 9 #a#i#a#g6 ,AT 
FIR/ ! SOCIAL /ORM RAG$ ONLY 9 ! C\NTRYSIDE1 ! 
PEASANTS SET FIRE TO ! 0NE/S ( G5TLE FOLK40 ,9 ! CITIES 
! /RUGGLE ?AT RAG$ WAS BETWE5 ! ADVOCATES ( A 
REPUBLICAN-B\RGEOIS ,RUSSIA & ! SOCIALI/ ASPIRATIONS ( ! 
,BOL%EVIKS 444 

,AS ,I HAVE PREVI\SLY /AT$1 ,I BELONG$ TO ! ,BOL%EVIKS4 ,?US IMM$IATELY1 FROM ! FIR/ DAYS ONW>DS1 ,I F\ND AN ABSOLUTE 5ORM\S PILE ( WORK WAIT+ = ME4 ,ONCE MORE ! ISSUE WAS 
TO WAGE A /RUGGLE AGA9/ ! W>1 AGA9/ COALESC5CE ) ! LIB]AL B\RGEOISIE1 & = ! P[] ( ! WORK]S' C\NCILS1 ! ,SOVIETS4 ,! NATURAL CONSEQU5CE ( ?IS /& WAS ?AT ! B\RGEOIS NEWSPAP]S BR&$ ME AS A 0MAD FEMALE ,BOL%EVIK40 ,BUT ?IS BO!R$ ME NOT AT ALL4 ,MY FIELD ( ACTIVITY WAS IMM5SE1 & MY FOLL[]S1 FACTORY WORK]S & WOM5-SOLDI]S1 NUMB]$ ?\S&S4.<#a#a.> 
,AT ?IS TIME ,I WAS V]Y POPUL>1 ESPECIALLY.<#a#b.> 
AS AN ORATOR1.<#a#c.> 
&1 AT ! SAME TIME1 HAT$ & VICI\SLY ATTACK$ BY ! B\RGEOIS PRESS4 ,?US IT WAS A /ROKE ( LUCK@9 ?AT ,I WAS.<#a#d.> 
SO WEI<$ D[N ) CURR5T WORK ?AT ,I F\ND H>DLY ANY TIME TO READ ! ATTACKS & SL&]S AGA9/ ME4 ,! HATE DIRECT$ AGA9/ ME1 ALLEG$LY BECAUSE ,I HAD BE5 9 ! PAY ( ! ,G]MAN ,KAIS] = ! PURPOSE ( WEAK5+ ! ,RUSSIAN FRONT1 GREW.<#a#e.> 
TO MON/R\S PROPORTIONS4 

,ONE ( ! MO/ BURN+ QUE/IONS ( ! DAY WAS ! HI< CO/ 
( LIV+ & ! GR[+ SC>CITY ( VITAL NECESSITIES4 ,?US 
! WOM5 ( ! POV]TY-/RICK5 /RATA HAD AN 9DESCRIBABLY 
H>D TIME ( IT4 ,PRECISELY ?IS SITUATION PREP>$ ! 
T]RA9 9 ! ,P>TY = 0WORK ) WOM50 SO ?AT V]Y SOON 
WE W]E ABLE TO ACCOMPLI% USEFUL WORK4 .<#a#f.> 
,ALREADY 9 ,MAY ( #aiag A WEEKLY CALL$ 0,! ,WOM5 ,WORK]S0 MADE ITS DEBUT4 ,I AU?OR$ AN APPEAL TO WOM5 AGA9/ ! HI< CO/ ( LIV+ & ! W>4.<#a#g.> 
,! FIR/ 
MASS MEET+1 PACK$ ) ?\S&S ( PEOPLE1.<#a#h.> 
?AT TOOK PLACE 9 ,RUSSIA UND] ! ,PROVISIONAL ,GOV]NM5T1 WAS ORGANIZ$ BY US1 BY ! ,BOL%EVIKS4 ,K]5SKY & HIS M9I/]S MADE NO SECRET ( !IR HATR$ ( ME1 ! 09/IGATOR ( ! SPIRIT ( DISORGANIZATION0 9 ! ,>MY4 ,ONE P>TICUL> >TICLE ( M9E 9 0,PRAVDA0 9 :I* ,I 9T]C$$ = ,G]MAN PRISON]S ( W> UNLEA%$ A V]ITABLE /ORM (.<#a#i.> 
9DIGNATION ON ! P>T ( PATRIOTIC-M9D$ CIRCLES4 ,:5 9 ,APRIL ,L59 DELIV]$ HIS FAM\S PROGRAMMATIC SPEE* )9 ! FRAME ( ! ,SOVIETS1 ,I WAS ! ONLY ONE ( HIS ,P>TY COMRADES :O TOOK ! POOR TO SUPPORT HIS !SES4 ,:AT HATR$ ?IS P>TICUL> ACT K9DL$ AGA9/ ME6.<#a#a.> 
,(T5 ,I HAD TO JUMP (F TRAMC>S BE=E PEOPLE RECOGNIZ$ ME1 S9CE ,I HAD BECOME A TOPICAL !ME ( ! DAY & (T5 BORE P]SONAL WITNESS TO ! MO/ 9CR$IBLE ABUSE & LIES DIRECT$ AGA9/ ME4 ,I %\LD LIKE TO CITE A SMALL EXAMPLE :I* CAN %[ H[ ! 5EMY WORK$ ) MI<T & MA9 TO DEFAME ME4 ,AT ?AT TIME ! NEWSPAP]S HO/ILE TO ME W]E ALREADY WRIT+ AB\T ! 0,KOLLONTAI P>TY DRESSES0 :I* P>TICUL>LY !N WAS LAU<ABLE BECAUSE MY TRUNK HAD BE5 LO/ 5 R\TE TO ,RUSSIA1 SO ,I ALWAYS WORE ! ONE & ! SAME DRESS4 ,!RE WAS EV5 A LITTLE /REET BALLAD ?AT COMM5T$ ON ,L59 & ME 9 V]SE4.<#a#a#a.> 
,!RE WAS ALSO NO?+ EXTRAORD9>Y 9 ! FACT ?AT1 ?REAT5$ AS ,I WAS BY IRRITAT$ MOBS1 ,I WAS ALWAYS PROTECT$ FROM ! WOR/ ONLY BY ! C\RAGE\S 9T]CESSION ( MY FRI5DS & ,P>TY COMRADES4 ,NEV]!LESS ,I MYSELF P]SONALLY EXP]I5C$ LITTLE.<#a#a#b.> 
( ! HATR$ 
>\ND ME &1 ( C\RSE1 !RE WAS ALSO A GREAT NUMB] ( 5?USIA/IC FRI5DS3 ! WORK]S1 ! SAILORS1 ! SOLDI]S :O W]E UTT]LY DEVOT$ TO ME4.<#a#a#c.> 
,MOREOV]1 ! NUMB] ( \R FOLL[]S.<#a#a#d.> 
GREW FROM DAY TO DAY4 ,ALREADY 9 ,APRIL1 ,I WAS A MEMB] ( ! ,SOVIET EXECUTIVE :I*1 9 REALITY1 WAS ! GUID+ POLITICAL BODY ( ! MOM5T1 TO :I* ,I BELONG$ AS ! ONLY WOMAN & OV] A LONG P]IOD4 ,9 ,MAY ( #aiag ,I TOOK P>T 9 ! /RIKE ( WOM5 LAUNDRY WORK]S :O SET =? ! DEM& ?AT ALL LAUNDRIES BE 0MUNICIPALIZ$40 ,! /RUGGLE LA/$ SIX WEEKS4 ,NEV]!LESS ! PR9CIPAL DEM& ( ! WOM5 LAUNDRY WORK]S REMA9$ UNMET BY ! ,K]5SKY REGIME4 

,AT ! 5D ( ,JUNE1 ,I WAS S5T BY MY ,P>TY TO ,/OCKHOLM AS A 
DELEGATE TO AN 9T]NATIONAL CONSULTATION :I* WAS 9T]RUPT$ :5 
NEWS REA*$ US ( ! ,JULY UPRIS+ AGA9/ ! ,PROVISIONAL 
,GOV]NM5T & ( ! EXTREMELY H>% MEASURES ?AT !.<#a#a#e.> 
GOV]NM5T WAS TAK+ AGA9/ ! ,BOL%EVIKS4 ,MANY ( \R LEAD+ ,P>TY COMRADES HAD ALREADY BE5 >RE/$1 O!RS1 9CLUD+ ,L591 HAD MANAG$ TO ESCAPE & GO 9TO HID+4 ,! ,BOL%EVIKS W]E ACCUS$ ( HI< TREASON & BR&$ AS SPIES ( ! ,G]MAN ,KAIS]4 ,! UPRIS+ WAS BR\<T TO A /&/ILL & ! COALITION REGIME RETALIAT$ AGA9/ ALL ?OSE :O HAD MANIFE/$ SYMPA?Y = ! ,BOL%EVIKS4 ,I IMM$IATELY DECID$ TO RETURN TO ,RUSSIA1 AL?\< MY FRI5DS & ,P>TY COMRADES.<#a#a#f.> 
CONSID]$ ?IS TO BE A RISKY UND]TAK+4 ,!Y WANT$ ME TO GO TO ,SW$5 & AWAIT ! C\RSE ( EV5TS4 ,WELL-9T5TION$ AS !SE C\NSELS W]E1 & CORRECT AS !Y ALSO APPE>$ TO ME 
LAT]1.<#a#a#g.> 
,I NEV]!LESS C\LD NOT HE$ !M4 ,I SIMPLY HAD TO GO 
BACK4 ,O!RWISE IT W\LD APPE> TO ME AS AN ACT ( C[>DICE TO TAKE ADVANTAGE ( ! PRIVILEGE1 ?AT HAD BECOME M9E1 ( REMA9+ :OLLY IMMUNE FROM ! P]SECUTIONS ( ! ,PROVISIONAL ,GOV]NM5T1 :5 A GREAT NUMB] ( MY POLITICAL FRI5DS W]E SITT+ 9 JAIL4 ,LAT] ,I REALIZ$ ?AT1 P]HAPS1 ,I MI<T HAVE BE5 ABLE TO BE MOVE USEFUL TO \R CAUSE FROM ,SW$51 BUT ,I WAS UND] ! COMPULSION ( ! MOM5T4.<#a#a#h.> 
,BY ORD] ( ! ,K]5SKY REGIME ,I WAS >RE/$ ON ! BORD] ( ,TORNEO & SUBJECT$ TO ! MO/ BOORI% TREATM5T AS A SPY 444 ,BUT ! >RE/ ITSELF PROCE$$ QUITE !ATRICALLY3 DUR+ ! 9SPECTION ( MY PASSPORT ,I WAS REQUE/$ TO /EP 9TO ! COMM&ANT'S (FICE4 ,I UND]/OOD :AT ?AT MEANT4 ,A NUMB] ( SOLDI]S W]E /&+ 9 AN 5ORM\S ROOM1 PRESS$ CLOSE AGA9/ EA* O!R4 ,TWO Y\NG (FIC]S W]E ALSO PRES5T1 ONE ( !M BE+ ! *>M+ Y\NG MAN :O HAD RECEIV$ ME SO AMIABLY.<#a#a#i.> 
F\R MON?S PREVI\SLY4 ,A V]ITABLE.<#a#b.> 
SIL5CE PREVAIL$ 9 ! ROOM4 ,! FACIAL EXPRESSION ( ! FIR/ (FIC]1 ,PR9CE ,B41 BETRAY$ A GREAT N]V\SNESS4 ,COMPOS$1 ,I WAIT$ TO SEE :AT W\LD HAPP5 NEXT4 0,Y\ >E UND] >RE/10 EXPLA9$ ,PR9CE ,B4 0,SO4 ,HAS ! C\NT]-REVOLUTION TRIUMPH$ ,DO WE AGA9 HAVE A MON>*Y80 0,NO10 WAS ! GRUFF REPLY4 0,Y\ >E UND] >RE/ BY ORD] ( ! ,PROVISIONAL ,GOV]NM5T40 0,I HAVE BE5 EXPECT+ IT4 ,PLEASE1 LET MY SUITCASE BE BR\<T 91 ,I DON'T WANT IT TO BE LO/40 0,BUT1 ( C\RSE4 ,LIEUT5ANT1 ! SUITCASE60 ,I SAW H[ ! (FIC]S HEAV$ A SI< ( RELIEF1 & H[ ! SOLDI]S LEFT ! ROOM ) DISPLEASURE WRIT 
L>GE ON !IR FACES4 ,LAT] ,I LE>N$ ?AT MY >RE/ HAD OCCASION$ A PROTE/ AMONG ! SOLDI]S :O 9SI/$ UPON WITNESS+ ! >RE/4 ,! (FIC]S1 H[EV]1 HAD FE>$ ?AT ,I MI<T MAKE A SPEE* TO ! SOLDI]S4 0,9 ?AT CASE WE W\LD HAVE BE5 LO/10 ONE ( !M TOLD ME AFT]W>DS4 

,I WAS =C$ TO WAIT = ! C\RSE ( ! 9VE/IGATION1 LIKE 
! O!R ,BOL%EVIKS1 9 A ,PETROGRAD PRISON1 9 /RICT ISOLATION4 ,! 
MORE 9CR$IBLY ! REGIME CONDUCT$ ITSELF T[>DS ! ,BOL%EVIKS1 
! MORE !IR 9FLU5CE GREW4.<#a#b#a.> 
,! M>* ( ! ,:ITE G5]AL ,KORNILOV ON ,PETROGRAD /R5G!N$ ! MO/ RADICAL ELEM5TS ( ! ,REVOLUTION4 ,! PEOPLE DEM&$ ?AT ! JAIL$ ,BOL%EVIKS BE FRE$4 ,K]5SKY1 H[EV]1 REFUS$ TO FREE ME & IT WAS ONLY BY AN ORD] ( ! ,SOVIET ?AT ,I WAS RELEAS$ FROM JAIL UPON PAYM5T ( BAIL4 ,BUT ALREADY ON ! NEXT DAY1 ,K]5SKY'S DECREE ?AT ,I BE PLAC$ UND] H\SE >RE/ HUNG OV] ME4 ,NEV]!LESS ,I WAS GIV5 MY FULL FRE$OM ( MOVEM5T ONE MON? BE=E ! DECISIVE /RUGGLE1 ! ,OCTOB] ,REVOLUTION 9 #a#i#a#g4 ,AGA9 MY WORK PIL$ UP4 ,N[ ! GR\NDWORK WAS TO BE SET = A SY/EMATIC WOM5-WORK]S MOVEM5T4 ,! FIR/ CONF]5CE ( WOM5 WORK]S WAS TO BE CALL$4 ,IT ALSO TOOK PLACE & IT CO9CID$ ) ! OV]?R[ ( ! ,PROVISIONAL ,GOV]NM5T & ! E/ABLI%M5T ( ! ,SOVIET ,REPUBLIC4 

,AT ?AT TIME ,I WAS A MEMB] ( ! HI<E/ ,P>TY BODY1 ! 
,C5TRAL ,COMMITTEE1 & ,I VOT$ = ! POLICY ( >M$ 
UPRIS+4.<#a#b#b.> 
,I WAS ALSO A MEMB] ( DIFF]5T ,P>TY REPRES5TATIONS 9 DECISIVE ,CONGRESSES & ,/ATE 9/ITUTIONS 7! PRELIM9>Y ,P>LIAM5T1 ! DEMOCRATIC ,CONGRESS1 ETC474 ,!N CAME ! GREAT DAYS ( ! ,OCTOB] ,REVOLUTION4 ,SMOLNY BECAME HI/ORIC4 ,! 
SLEEPLESS NI<TS1 ! P]MAN5T SESSIONS4 ,&1 F9ALLY1 ! 
/IRR+ DECL>ATIONS4 0,! ,SOVIETS TAKE P[]60 0,! ,SOVIETS 
ADDRESS AN APPEAL TO ! PEOPLES ( ! WORLD TO PUT AN 5D TO 
! W>40 0,! L& IS SOCIALIZ$ & BELONGS TO ! PEASANTS60 

,! ,SOVIET ,GOV]NM5T WAS =M$4 ,I WAS APPO9T$ 
,PEOPLE'S ,COMMISS> 7,M9I/]7 ( ,SOCIAL ,WELF>E4 ,I WAS ! ONLY 
WOMAN 9 ! CAB9ET & ! FIR/ WOMAN 9 HI/ORY.<#a#b#c.> 
:O HAD EV] BE5 RECOGNIZ$ AS A MEMB] ( A GOV]NM5T4 ,:5 ONE RECALLS ! FIR/ MON?S ( ! ,WORK]S' ,GOV]NM5T1 MON?S :I* W]E SO RI* 9 MAGNIFIC5T ILLUSIONS1.<#a#b#d.> 
PLANS1.<#a#b#e.> 
>D5T 9ITIATIVES TO IMPROVE LIFE1 TO ORGANIZE ! WORLD ANEW1 MON?S ( ! REAL ROMANTICISM ( ! ,REVOLUTION1 ONE W\LD 9 FACT LIKE TO WRITE AB\T ALL ELSE SAVE AB\T ONE'S SELF4 ,I OCCUPI$ ! PO/ ( ,M9I/] ( ,SOCIAL ,WELF>E FROM ,OCTOB] ( #aiag TO ,M>* ( #a#i#a#h4.<#a#b#f.> 
,IT WAS NOT )\T OPPOSITION ?AT ,I WAS RECEIV$ BY ! =M] (FICIALS ( ! ,M9I/RY4 ,MO/ ( !M SABOTAG$ US OP5LY & SIMPLY DID NOT %[ UP = WORK4 ,BUT PRECISELY ?IS (FICE C\LD NOT 9T]RUPT ITS WORK1 COME :AT MAY1 S9CE 9 ITSELF IT WAS AN EXTRAORD9>ILY COMPLICAT$ OP]ATION4 ,IT 9CLUD$ ! :OLE WELF>E PROGRAM = ! W>-DISABL$1 H5CE = HUNDR$S ( ?\S&S ( CRIPPL$ SOLDI]S & (FIC]S1 ! P5SION SY/EM 9 G5]AL1 F\NDL+ HOMES1 HOMES = ! AG$1 ORPHANAGES1 HOSPITALS = ! NE$Y1 ! WORK-%OPS MAK+ >TIFICIAL LIMBS1 ! ADM9I/RATION ( PLAY+-C>D FACTORIES 7! MANUFACTURE ( PLAY+ C>DS WAS A ,/ATE MONOPOLY71 ! $UCATIONAL SY/EM1.<#a#b#g.> 
CL9ICAL HOSPITALS = WOM54.<#a#b#h.> 
,9 ADDITION A :OLE S]IES ( $UCATIONAL 9/ITUTES = Y\NG GIRLS W]E ALSO UND] ! DIRECTION ( ?IS ,M9I/RY4 ,ONE CAN EASILY IMAG9E ! 5ORM\S DEM&S !SE TASKS MADE UPON A SMALL GR\P ( PEOPLE :O1 AT ! SAME TIME1 W]E NOVICES 9 ,/ATE ADM9I/RATION4 ,9 A CLE> AW>5ESS ( !SE DIFFICULTIES ,I =M$1.<#a#b#i.> 
IMM$IATELY1 AN AUXILI>Y C\NCIL 9 :I* EXP]TS SU* AS PHYSICIANS1 JURI/S1 P$AGOGUES W]E REPRES5T$ ALONGSIDE ! WORK]S & ! M9OR (FICIALS ( ! ,M9I/RY4 ,! SACRIFICE1 ! 5]GY ) :I* ! 
M9OR EMPLOYES BORE ! BURD5 ( ?IS DIFFICULT TASK WAS TRULY EXEMPL>Y4 ,IT WAS NOT ONLY A MATT] ( KEEP+ ! WORK ( ! ,M9I/RY GO+1 BUT ALSO ( 9ITIAT+ RE=MS & IMPROVEM5TS4 ,NEW1 FRE% =CES REPLAC$ ! SABOTAG+ (FIC]S ( ! OLD REGIME4 ,A NEW LIFE /IRR$ 9 ! (FICES ( ! =M]LY HI<LY CONS]VATIVE ,M9I/RY4 ,DAYS ( GRUEL+ WORK6 ,& AT NI<T ! SESSIONS ( ! C\NCILS ( ! ,PEOPLE'S ,COMMISS> 7( ! CAB9ET7 UND] ,L59'S *AIRMAN%IP4 ,A SMALL1 MODE/ ROOM & ONLY ONE SECRET>Y :O RECORD$ ! RESOLUTIONS :I* *ANG$ ,RUSSIA'S LIFE TO ITS BOTTOMMO/ F\NDATIONS4 ,MY FIR/ ACT.<#a#c.> 
,PEOPLE'S ,COMMISS> WAS.<#a#c#a.> 
TO COMP5SATE A SMALL PEASANT = HIS REQUISITION$ HORSE4 ,ACTUALLY BY NO /RET* ( ! IMAG9ATION DID ?IS BELONG TO ! FUNCTIONS ( MY (FICE4 ,BUT ! MAN WAS DET]M9$ TO RECEIVE COMP5SATION = HIS HORSE4 ,HE HAD TRAVEL$ FROM HIS DI/ANT VILLAGE TO ! CAPITAL & HAD KNOCK$ PATI5TLY ON ! DOORS ( ALL ! M9I/RIES4 ,ALWAYS ) NO RESULTS6 ,!N ! ,BOL%EVIK REVOLUTION BROKE \T4 ,! MAN HAD 
HE>D ?AT ! ,BOL%EVIKS W]E 9 FAVOR ( ! WORK]S & PEASANTS4 ,SO HE W5T TO ! ,SMOLNY ,9/ITUTE1 TO ,L591 :O HAD TO PAY \T ! COMP5SATION4 ,I DO NOT KN[ H[ ! CONV]SATION BETWE5 ,L59 & ! SMALL PEASANT W5T4 ,AS A RESULT ( IT1 H[EV]1 ! MAN CAME TO ME ) A SMALL PAGE TORN FROM ,L59'S NOTEBOOK ON :I* ,I WAS REQUE/$ TO SETTLE ! MATT] SOMEH[ S9CE AT ! MOM5T ! ,PEOPLE'S ,COMMISS>IAT = ,SOCIAL ,WELF>E HAD ! GREATE/ AM\NT ( CA% AT ITS DISPOSAL4 ,! SMALL PEASANT RECEIV$ HIS COMP5SATION4 

,MY MA9 WORK AS ,PEOPLE'S ,COMMISS> CONSI/$ 9 ! 
FOLL[+3.<#a#c#b.> 
BY DECREE TO IMPROVE ! SITUATION ( ! W>-DISABL$1 TO ABOLI% RELIGI\S 9/RUCTION 9 ! S*OOLS = Y\NG GIRLS :I* W]E UND] ! ,M9I/RY 7?IS WAS /ILL BE=E ! G5]AL SEP>ATION ( ,*UR* & ,/ATE71 & TO TRANSF] PRIE/S TO ! CIVIL S]VICE1 TO 9TRODUCE ! RI<T ( SELF-ADM9I/RATION = PUPILS 9 ! S*OOLS = GIRLS1 TO REORGANIZE ! =M] ORPHANAGES 9TO GOV]NM5T ,*ILDR5'S ,HOMES 7NO DI/9CTION WAS TO BE MADE BETWE5 ORPHAN$ *ILDR5 & ?OSE :O /ILL HAD FA!RS & MO!RS71.<#a#c#c.> 
TO SET UP ! FIR/ HO/ELS = ! NE$Y & /REET-UR*9S1 TO CONV5E A COMMITTEE1 COMPOS$ ONLY.<#a#c#d.> 
( DOCTORS1 :I* WAS TO BE COMMISSION$ TO ELABORATE.<#a#c#e.> 
! FREE PUBLIC HEAL? SY/EM = ! :OLE C\NTRY4 ,9 MY OP9ION ! MO/ IMPORTANT ACCOMPLI%M5T ( ! ,PEOPLE'S ,COMMISS>IAT1 H[EV]1 WAS ! LEGAL F\NDATION ( A ,C5TRAL ,(FICE = ,MAT]NITY & ,9FANT ,WELF>E4 ,! DRAFT ( ! BILL RELAT+ TO ?IS 
,C5TRAL ,(FICE WAS SIGN$ BY ME 9 ,JANU>Y ( #a#i#a#h4 ,A SECOND DECREE FOLL[$ 9 :I* ,I.<#a#c#f.> 
*ANG$ ALL MAT]NITY HOSPITALS 9TO FREE ,HOMES = ,MAT]NITY & ,9FANT ,C>E1.<#a#c#g.> 
9 ORD] !REBY TO SET ! GR\NDWORK = A COMPREH5SIVE GOV]NM5T SY/EM ( PRE-NATAL C>E4 ,I WAS GREATLY ASSI/$ 9 COP+ ) !SE TASKS BY ,DR4 ,KOROLEF4 ,WE ALSO PLANN$ A 0,PRE-,NATAL ,C>E ,PALACE10 A MODEL HOME ) AN EXHIBITION ROOM 9 :I* C\RSES = MO!RS W\LD BE HELD &1 AMONG MANY O!R ?+S1.<#a#c#h.> 
MODEL DAY NURS]IES W]E ALSO TO BE E/ABLI%$4.<#a#c#i.> 
,WE W]E JU/ AB\T COMPLET+ PREP>ATIONS = SU* A FACILITY 9 ! BUILD+ ( A GIRLS' BO>D+ S*OOL AT :I* =M]LY Y\NG GIRLS ( ! NOBILITY HAD BE5 $UCAT$ & :I* WAS /ILL UND] ! DIRECTION ( A C\NTESS1 :5 A FIRE DE/ROY$ \R WORK1 :I* HAD B>ELY BEGUN6 ,HAD ! FIRE BE5 SET DELIB]ATELY8 444 ,I WAS DRAGG$ \T ( B$ 9 ! MIDDLE ( ! NI<T4 ,I RU%$ TO ! SC5E ( ! FIRE2 ! BEAUTIFUL EXHIBITION ROOM WAS TOTALLY RU9$1 AS W]E ALL ! O!R ROOMS4 ,ONLY ! HUGE NAME-PLATE 0,PRE-,NATAL ,C>E ,PALACE0 /ILL HUNG OV] ! 5TRANCE DOOR4 

,MY EF=TS TO NATIONALIZE MAT]NITY & 9FANT C>E SET (F A 
NEW WAVE ( 9SANE ATTACKS AGA9/ ME4 ,ALL K9DS ( LIES W]E 
RELAT$.<#a#d.> 
AB\T ! 0NATIONALIZATION ( WOM510 AB\T MY LEGISLATIVE PROPOSALS :I* ASS]T$LY ORDA9$ ?AT LITTLE GIRLS ( #ab W]E TO BECOME MO!RS4 ,A SPECIAL FURY GRIPP$ ! RELIGI\S 
FOLL[]S ( ! OLD REGIME :51 ON MY [N AU?ORITY 7! CAB9ET LAT] CRITICIZ$ ME = ?IS ACTION71.<#a#d#a.> 
,I TRANS=M$ ! FAM\S ,ALEX&] ,NEVSKY MONA/]Y 9TO A HOME = W> 9VALIDS4 ,! MONKS RESI/$ & A %OOT+ FRAY 5SU$4 ,! PRESS AGA9 RAIS$ A L\D HUE & CRY AGA9/ ME4.<#a#d#b.> 
,! ,*UR* ORGANIZ$ /REET DEMON/RATIONS AGA9/ MY ACTION.<#a#d#c.> 
& ALSO PRON\NC$ 0ANA!MA' AGA9/ ME444 

,I RECEIV$ C\NTLESS ?REAT5+ LETT]S1 BUT ,I NEV] 
REQUE/$ MILIT>Y PROTECTION4 ,I ALWAYS W5T \T ALONE1 
UN>M$ & )\T ANY K9D ( A BODYGU>D4 ,9 FACT ,I NEV] 
GAVE A ?\<T TO ANY K9D ( DANG]1 BE+ ALL TOO 5GROSS$ 
9 MATT]S ( AN UTT]LY DIFF]5T *>ACT]4.<#a#d#d.> 
,9 ,FEBRU>Y ( #aiah A FIR/ ,/ATE DELEGATION ( ! ,SOVIETS WAS S5T TO ,SW$5 9 ORD] TO CL>IFY DIFF]5T ECONOMIC & POLITICAL QUE/IONS4.<#a#d#e.> 
,AS ,PEOPLES' ,COMMISS> ,I HEAD$ ?IS DELEGATION4 ,BUT \R VESSEL WAS %IPWRECK$2 WE W]E SAV$ BY L&+ ON ! ,AL& ,ISL&S :I* BELONG$ TO ,F9L&4 ,AT ?IS V]Y TIME ! /RUGGLE BETWE5 ! ,:ITES & ! ,R$S 9 ! C\NTRY HAD REA*$ ITS MO/ CRUCIAL MOM5T & ! ,G]MAN ,>MY WAS ALSO MAK+ READY TO WAGE W> AGA9/ ,F9L&4 

,! ,:ITE TROOPS OCCUPI$ ! ,AL& ,ISL&S ON ! V]Y EV5+ 
( \R %IPWRECK AS WE W]E SEAT$ AT D9N] 9 AN 9N ( ! CITY ( 
,M>IEHAM1 REJOIC+ OV] \R RESCUE4 ,WE MANAG$ TO ESCAPE ?ANKS TO 
! GREATE/ DET]M9ATION & CUNN+1 YET 
ONE ( \R GR\P1 A Y\NG.<#a#d#f.> 
,F9N1 WAS CAPTUR$ & %OT4 ,WE RETURN$ TO ,PETROGRAD1 :]E ! EVACUATION ( ! CAPITAL WAS BE+ PREP>$ ) FEV]I% HA/E3 ,G]MAN TROOPS ALREADY /OOD BE=E ! GATES ( ! CITY4 

,N[ BEGAN A D>K TIME.<#a#d#g.> 
( MY LIFE :I* ,I CANNOT TREAT ( H]E S9CE ! EV5TS >E /ILL TOO FRE% 9 MY M9D4 ,BUT ! DAY WILL ALSO COME :5 ,I WILL GIVE AN ACC\NT ( !M4.<#a#d#h.> 

 ,!RE W]E DIFF]5CES ( OP9ION 9 ! ,P>TY4.<#a#d#i.> 
,I RESIGN$ FROM MY PO/ AS ,PEOPLE'S ,COMMISS> ON ! GR\ND ( TOTAL DISAGREEM5T ) ! CURR5T POLICY4 ,LITTLE BY LITTLE ,I WAS ALSO RELIEV$ ( ALL MY O!R TASKS4 ,I AGA9 GAVE LECTURES & ESP\S$ MY IDEAS ON 0! NEW WOMAN0 & 0! NEW MORALITY40.<#a#e.> 
,! ,REVOLUTION WAS 9 FULL SW+4 ,! /RUGGLE WAS BECOM+ 9CREAS+LY IRRECONCILABLE & BLOODI]1 MU* ( :AT WAS HAPP5+ DID NOT FIT 9 ) MY \TLOOK4.<#a#e#a.> 
,BUT AFT] ALL.<#a#e#b.> 
!RE WAS /ILL ! UNF9I%$ TASK1 WOM5'S LIB]ATION4 ,WOM51 ( C\RSE1 HAD RECEIV$ ALL RI<TS BUT 9 PRACTICE1 ( C\RSE1 !Y /ILL LIV$ UND] ! OLD YOKE3 )\T AU?ORITY 9 FAMILY LIFE1 5SLAV$ BY A ?\S& M5IAL H\SEHOLD *ORES1 BE>+ ! :OLE BURD5 ( MAT]NITY1 EV5 ! MAT]IAL C>ES1 BECAUSE MANY WOM5 N[ F\ND LIFE ALONE AS A RESULT ( ! W> & O!R CIRCUM/ANCES4 

,9 ! AUTUMN ( #aiaf :5 ,I DEVOT$ ALL MY 5]GIES TO DRAW+ 
UP SY/EMATIC GUIDEL9ES = ! LIB]ATION ( WORK+ WOM5 
9 ALL >EAS1 ,I F\ND A VALUABLE SUPPORT 9 !.<#a#e#c.> 
FIR/ ,PRESID5T ( ! ,SOVIETS1 ,SV]DLOV1 N[ DEAD4.<#a#e#d.> 
,?US ! FIR/ ,CONGRESS ( ,WOM5 ,WORK]S & ,WOM5 ,PEASANTS C\LD BE CALL$ AS E>LY AS ,NOVEMB] ( #a#i#a#h2 SOME #aadg DELEGATES W]E PRES5T4 ,?US ! F\NDATION WAS LAID = ME?ODICAL WORK 9 ! :OLE C\NTRY = ! LIB]ATION.<#a#e#e.> 
( ! WOM5 ( ! WORK+ & ! PEASANT CLASSES4 ,A FLOOD ( NEW WORK WAS WAIT+ = ME4 ,! QUE/ION N[ WAS ONE ( DRAW+ WOM5 9TO ! PEOPLE'S KIT*5S & ( $UCAT+ !M TO DEVOTE !IR 5]GIES TO *ILDR5'S HOMES & DAYC>E C5T]S1 ! S*OOL SY/EM1 H\SEHOLD RE=MS1 & /ILL MANY O!R PRESS+ MATT]S4 ,! MA9 ?RU/ ( ALL ?IS ACTIVITY WAS TO IMPLEM5T1 9 FACT1 EQUAL RI<TS = WOM5 AS A LABOR UNIT 9 ! NATIONAL ECONOMY & AS A CITIZ5 9 ! POLITICAL SPH]E &1 ( C\RSE1 ) ! SPECIAL PROVISO3 MAT]NITY WAS TO BE APPRAIS$ AS A SOCIAL FUNCTION & !RE=E PROTECT$ & PROVID$ = BY ! ,/ATE4 

,UND] ! GUIDANCE ( ,DR4 ,LEB$EVO1 ! ,/ATE 9/ITUTES = 
PRE-NATAL C>E ALSO FL\RI%$ !N4 ,AT ! SAME TIME1 C5TRAL 
(FIC]S W]E E/ABLI%$ 9 ! :OLE C\NTRY TO DEAL ) ISSUES 
& TASKS CONNECT$ ) WOM5'S LIB]ATION & TO DRAW WOM5 9TO 
,SOVIET WORK4.<#a#e#f.> 

,! ,CIVIL ,W> 9 #aiai SADDL$ ME ) NEW TASKS4 ,:5 ! ,:ITE 
TROOPS TRI$ TO M>* NOR? FROM S\? ,RUSSIA1 ,I WAS AGA9 S5T 
TO ! ,UKRA9E & TO ! ,CRIMEA :]E AT FIR/ ,I S]V$ AS 
*AIRWOMAN ( ! 5LI<T5M5T DEP>TM5T 9 ! ,>MY4 ,LAT]1 UP TO ! EVACUATION ( ! ,SOVIET GOV]NM5T1.<#a#e#g.> 
,I WAS APPO9T$ ,PEOPLE'S ,COMMISS> ( ,5LI<T5M5T & ,PROPAG&A 9 ! ,UKRA9IAN GOV]NM5T4 ,I MANAG$ TO S5D #d WOM5 COMMUNI/S \T ( ! ?REAT5$ ZONE NE> ,KIEV ) A SPECIAL TRA94 ,I DID MY MO/ POSSIBLE BE/ = ! COMMUNI/ WOM5 WORK]S MOVEM5T ALSO 9 ! ,UKRA9E4.<#a#e#h.> 

,A S]I\S ILLNESS TORE ME AWAY FROM ! EXCIT+ WORK = 
MON?S4 ,H>DLY HAV+ RECOV]$-AT ?AT TIME ,I WAS 9 
,MOSC[-,I TOOK OV] ! DIRECTION ( ! ,COORD9AT+ ,(FICE = 
,WORK AMONG ,WOM5 & AGA9 A NEW P]IOD ( 9T5SIVE1 GRUEL+ WORK 
BEGAN4 ,A COMMUNI/ WOM5'S NEWSPAP].<#a#e#i.> 
WAS F\ND$1 CONF]5CES & CONGRESSES ( WOM5 WORK]S W]E CONVOK$4 ,! F\NDATION WAS LAID = WORK ) ! WOM5 ( ! ,EA/ 7,MOHAMM$ANS74 ,TWO WORLD CONF]5CES ( COMMUNI/ WOM5 TOOK PLACE 9 ,MOSC[4 ,! LAW LIB]ALIZ+ ABORTION WAS PUT ?R\< & A NUMB] ( REGULATIONS ( B5EFIT TO WOM5 W]E 9TRODUC$ BY \R ,COORD9AT+ ,(FICE & LEGALLY CONFIRM$4 ,AT ?IS TIME ,I HAD TO DO MORE WRIT+ & SPEAK+ ?AN EV] BE=E444.<#a#f.> 
,\R WORK RECEIV$ :OLEHE>T$ SUPPORT FROM ,L594 ,& ,TROTSKY1 AL?\< HE WAS OV]BURD5$ ) MILIT>Y TASKS1 UNFAIL+LY & GLADLY APPE>$ AT \R CONF]5CES4 ,5]GETIC1 GIFT$ WOM51 TWO ( :OM >E NO LONG] ALIVE1.<#a#f#a.> 
SACRIFICIALLY DEVOT$ ALL !IR 5]GIES TO ! WORK ( ! ,COORD9AT+ ,(FICE4 

,AT ! EI<? ,SOVIET ,CONGRESS1 AS A MEMB] ( ! ,SOVIET 
EXECUTIVE 7N[ !RE W]E ALREADY SEV]AL WOM5 ON ?IS BODY.<#a#f#b.> 
71 ,I 
PROPOS$ A MOTION ?AT ! ,SOVIETS 9 ALL >EAS CONTRIBUTE TO ! CREATION ( A CONSCI\SNESS ( ! /RUGGLE = EQUAL RI<TS = WOM5 &1 ACCORD+LY1 TO 9VOLVE !M 9 ,/ATE & COMMUNAL WORK4 ,I.<#a#f#c.> 
MANAG$ TO PU% ! MOTION ?R\< & TO GET IT ACCEPT$ BUT NOT )\T RESI/ANCE4 ,IT WAS A GREAT1 AN 5DUR+ VICTORY4 

,A HEAT$ DEBATE FL>$ UP :5 ,I PUBLI%$ MY !SIS ON ! NEW 
MORALITY4 ,= \R ,SOVIET M>RIAGE LAW1 SEP>AT$ FROM ! 
,*UR* TO BE SURE1 IS NOT ESS5TIALLY MORE PROGRESSIVE ?AN 
! SAME LAWS ?AT AFT] ALL EXI/ 9 O!R PROGRESSIVE 
DEMOCRATIC C\NTRIES4 ,M>RIAGE1 CIVIL M>RIAGE &.<#a#f#d.> 
AL?\< ! ILLEGITIMATE *ILD WAS.<#a#f#e.> 
PLAC$ ON A LEGAL P> ) ! LEGITIMATE *ILD1.<#a#f#f.> 
9 PRACTICE A GREAT DEAL ( HYPOCRISY & 9JU/ICE /ILL EXI/S 9 ?IS >EA4 ,:5 ONE SPEAKS ( ! 0IMMORALITY0 :I* ! ,BOL%EVIKS PURPORT$LY PROPAGAT$1 IT SUFFICES TO SUBMIT \R M>RIAGE LAWS TO A CLOSE SCRUT9Y TO NOTE ?AT 9 ! DIVORCE QUE/ION WE >E ON A P> ) ,NOR? ,AM]ICA :]EAS 9 ! QUE/ION ( ! ILLEGITIMATE *ILD WE HAVE NOT YET EV5.<#a#f#g.> 
PROGRESS$ AS F> AS ! ,NORWEGIANS4 

,! MO/ RADICAL W+ ( ! ,P>TY WAS =M$ >\ND ?IS 
QUE/ION4 ,MY !SES1 MY SEXUAL & MORAL.<#a#f#h.> 
VIEWS1.<#a#f#i.> 
W]E BITT]LY F\<T BY MANY ,P>TY COMRADES ( BO? SEXES3.<#a#g.> 
AS W]E 
/ILL O!R DIFF]5CES ( OP9ION 9 ! ,P>TY REG>D+ POLITICAL GUID+ PR9CIPLES4.<#a#g#a.> 
,P]SONAL & FAMILY C>ES W]E ADD$ !RETO & ?US MON?S 9 #aibb W5T BY )\T FRUITFUL WORK4 ,!N 9 ! AUTUMN ( #aibb CAME MY (FICIAL APPO9TM5T TO ! LEGATION ( ! ,RUSSIAN ,SOVIET REPRES5TATION 9 ,NORWAY4 ,I REALLY BELIEV$ ?AT ?IS APPO9TM5T W\LD BE PURELY =MAL & ?AT !RE=E 9 ,NORWAY ,I W\LD F9D TIME TO DEVOTE TO MYSELF1 TO MY LIT]>Y ACTIVITY4 ,?+S TURN$ \T QUITE DIFF]5TLY4 ,) ! DAY ( MY 5TRY 9TO (FICE 9 ,NORWAY ,I ALSO 5T]$ UPON A :OLLY NEW C\RSE ( WORK 9 MY LIFE :I* DREW UPON ALL MY 5]GIES TO ! HI<E/ DEGREE4 ,DUR+ MY DIPLOMATIC ACTIVITY1 !RE=E1 ,I WROTE ONLY ONE >TICLE1 0,! ,W+$ ,]OS10 :I* CAUS$ AN EXTRAORD9>ILY GREAT FLUTT]4 ,ADD$ TO ?IS W]E ?REE %ORT NOVELS1 0,PA?S ( ,LOVE10 :I* HAVE BE5 PUBLI%$ BY ,MALIK-,V]LAG 9 ,B]L94.<#a#g#b.> 
,MY BOOK 0,! ,NEW ,MORALITY & ! ,WORK+ ,CLASS0 & A SOCIO-ECONOMIC /UDY1 0,! ,CONDITION ( ,WOM5 9 ! ,EVOLUTION ( ,POLITICAL ,ECONOMY10 W]E WRITT5 :5 ,I WAS /ILL 9 ,RUSSIA4 

,! ,YE>S ( ,DIPLOMATIC ,S]VICE 

,I TOOK UP MY DUTIES 9 ,NORWAY 9 ,OCTOB] ( #aibb & AS E>LY AS 
#aibc ! HEAD ( ! LEGATION W5T ON HOLIDAY SO ?AT ,I HAD 
(FICIALLY TO CONDUCT ! AFFAIRS ( ! ,SOVIET ,REPUBLIC = 
HIM4 ,SOON !REAFT]1 H[EV]1 ,I WAS APPO9T$ AS ! 
REPRES5TATIVE ( MY C\NTRY 9 HIS /EAD4 ,NATURALLY ?IS 
APPO9TM5T CREAT$ A GREAT S5SATION S9CE1 AFT] ALL1 IT WAS 
! FIR/ TIME 9 HI/ORY ?AT A WOMAN WAS (FICIALLY ACTIVE AS 
AN 0AMBASSADOR40 ,! CONS]VATIVE PRESS & ESPECIALLY ! 
,RUSSIAN 0,:ITE0 PRESS W]E \TRAG$ & TRI$ TO MAKE A REAL 
MON/] ( IMMORALITY & A BLOODY BOGEY \T ( ME4 ,N[ 
ESPECIALLY A PR(USION ( >TICLES W]E WRITT5 AB\T MY 
0HORRID VIEWS0 9 RELATION TO M>RIAGE & LOVE4 ,NEV]!LESS 
,I MU/ /RESS H]E ?AT IT WAS ONLY ! CONS]VATIVE PRESS 
?AT GAVE ME SU* AN UNFRI5DLY RECEPTION 9 MY NEW 
POSITION4 ,9.<#a#g#c.> 
ALL ! SOCIAL RELATIONS :I* ,I HAD DUR+ ! ?REE.<#a#g#d.> 
YE>S ( MY WORK.<#a#g#e.> 
9 ,NORWAY1 ,I NEV] ONCE EXP]I5C$ ! LEA/ TRACE ( AV]SION OR MI/RU/ AGA9/ WOMAN'S CAPABILITIES4 ,TO BE SURE1 ! HEAL?Y1 DEMOCRATIC SPIRIT ( ! ,NORWEGIAN PEOPLE GREATLY CONTRIBUT$ TO ?IS4 ,?US ! FACT IS TO BE CONFIRM$ ?AT MY WORK AS (FICIAL ,RUSSIAN.<#a#g#f.> 
REPRES5TATIVE.<#a#g#g.> 
9 ,NORWAY WAS NEV]1 & 9 NO WISE1 MADE DIFFICULT = ! REASON ?AT ,I 
BELONG$ 0TO ! WEAK] SEX40 ,9 CONNECTION ) MY POSITION AS AMBASSADRESS ,I ALSO HAD TO ASSUME ! DUTIES ( A ,TRADE ,PL5IPOT5TI>Y ( ! ,RUSSIAN GOV]NM5TAL TRADE REPRES5TATION 9 ,NORWAY4 ,NATURALLY BO? TASKS 9 !IR SPECIAL WAY W]E NEW TO ME4 ,NEV]!LESS ,I SET MYSELF !.<#a#g#h.> 
TASK ( EFFECT+ ! DE JURE RECOGNITION ( ,SOVIET ,RUSSIA & ( REE/ABLI%+ NORMAL TRADE RELATIONS BETWE5 ! TWO C\NTRIES :I* HAD BE5 BROK5 BY ! W> & ! REVOLUTION4.<#a#g#i.> 
,! WORK BEGAN ) GREAT ZEAL & ! MO/ ROSEATE HOPES4 ,A SPL5DID.<#a#h.> 
SUMM] & AN EV5TFUL W9T] M>K$ ! YE> ( #a#i#b#c6 ,! NEWLY RESUM$ TRADE RELATIONS W]E 9 FULL SW+3 ,RUSSIAN CORN & ,NORWEGIAN H]R+ & FI%1 ,RUSSIAN WOOD PRODUCTS & ,NORWEGIAN PAP] & CELLULOSE4 ,ON ,FEBRU>Y #a#e1 #a#i#b#d1 ,NORWAY 9 FACT.<#a#h#a.> 
RECOGNIZ$ ! ,U4,S4,S4,R4 DE JURE4 ,I WAS APPO9T$ 0*>GE D'AFFAIRES0 & (FICIALLY 9TRODUC$ 9TO ! DIPLOMATIC CORPS4 ,N[ NEGOTIATIONS = A TRADE TREATY BETWE5 ! TWO C\NTRIES BEGAN4 ,MY LIFE WAS AS CRAMM$ ) /R5U\S WORK & HI<LY 9T]E/+ EXP]I5CES ALIKE4 ,I.<#a#h#b.> 
HAD ALSO TO SETTLE GRAVE QUE/IONS CONNECT$ ) ! FUR!R DEVELOPM5T ( TRADE & ( %IPP+4 ,AFT] SEV]AL MON?S1 9 ,AUGU/ ( #a#i#b#d1 ,I WAS APPO9T$ 0,M9I/RE ,PL5IPOT5TI]E0 & H&$ OV] MY W>RANT TO ! K+ ( ,NORWAY ) ! USUAL C]EMONIAL4 ,?IS1 ( C\RSE1 GAVE ! CONS]VATIVE PRESS ( ALL C\NTRIES ANO!R OCCASION TO SPEW !IR 9VECTIVES UPON ME4 ,AFT] ALL1 NEV] BE=E 9 ALL HI/ORY HAD A WOMAN BE5 ACCEPT$ AS AMBASSADOR ) ! CU/OM>Y POMP & C]EMONY4 

,! TRADE AGREEM5T WAS CONCLUD$ 9 ,MOSC[.<#a#h#c.> 
AT ! 5D ( #aibe & 9 ,FEBRU>Y ,I C\NT]SIGN$ ! RATIFI$ TREATY 9 ,OSLO ) ! PRESID5T ( ! ,NORWEGIAN CAB9ET1 ,I4 ,L4 ,M[ICKL4.<#a#h#d.> 

,! SIGN+ M>K$ ! SUCCESSFUL ACCOMPLI%M5T ( MY :OLE 
MISSION 9 ,NORWAY4 ,I C\LD HA/5 T[>DS NEW GOALS & = 
?IS REASON.<#a#h#e.> 
,I LEFT MY PO/ 9 ,NORWAY4 

,IF ,I HAVE ATTA9$ SOME?+ 9 ?IS WORLD1 IT WAS NOT MY 
P]SONAL QUALITIES ?AT ORIG9ALLY BR\<T ?IS AB\T4 ,RA!R MY 
A*IEVEM5TS >E ONLY A SYMBOL ( ! FACT ?AT WOMAN1 AFT] 
ALL1 IS ALREADY ON ! M>* TO G5]AL RECOGNITION4 ,IT IS ! 
DRAW+ ( MILLIONS ( WOM5 9TO PRODUCTIVE WORK1 :I* WAS 
SWIFTLY EFFECT$ ESPECIALLY DUR+ ! W> & :I* ?RU/ 9TO 
! REALM ( POSSIBILITY ! FACT ?AT A WOMAN C\LD BE ADVANC$ 
TO ! HI<E/ POLITICAL & DIPLOMATIC POSITIONS4 ,NEV]!LESS 
IT IS OBVI\S ?AT ONLY A C\NTRY ( ! FUTURE1 SU* AS ! 
,SOVIET ,UNION1 CAN D>E TO CONFRONT WOMAN )\T ANY PREJUDICE1 
TO APPRAISE H] ONLY FROM ! /&PO9T ( H] SKILLS & 
TAL5TS1 &1 ACCORD+LY1 TO 5TRU/ H] ) RESPONSIBLE 
TASKS4 ,ONLY ! FRE% REVOLUTION>Y /ORMS W]E /RONG 5\< TO 
SWEEP AWAY HO>Y PREJUDICES AGA9/ WOMAN & ONLY ! 
PRODUCTIVE-WORK+ PEOPLE IS ABLE TO EFFECT ! COMPLETE 
EQUALIZATION & LIB]ATION ( WOMAN BY BUILD+ A NEW 
SOCIETY4 

,AS ,I N[ 5D ?IS AUTOBIOGRAPHY1 ,I /& ON ! ?RE%OLD ( NEW MISSIONS & LIFE IS MAK+ NEW DEM&S UPON ME .<#a#h#f.> 

,NO MATT] :AT FUR!R TASKS ,I %ALL BE C>RY+ \T1 IT IS 
P]FECTLY CLE> TO ME ?AT ! COMPLETE LIB]ATION ( ! 
WORK+ WOMAN & ! CREATION ( ! F\NDATION ( A NEW SEXUAL MORALITY WILL ALWAYS REMA9 ! HI<E/ AIM ( MY ACTIVITY1 & ( MY LIFE4.<#a#h#g.> 

,9 ,JULY ( #aibf 

,SIGN$3 ,ALEX&RA ,KOLLONTAI 

,FOOTNOTES 

.<#a.> 
,AU?OR'S CORRECTION3 CREAT$ SOME?+ :I* IS RECOGNIZ$ BY SOCIETY4 

.<#bA.> 
P]HAPS 

.<#b.> 
,AU?OR'S CORRECTION3 TO EMPHASIZE ?AT :I* HAS AN IMPORTANCE = ! SOLUTION ( ! SOCIAL PROBLEMS ( \R TIME1 & :I* ALSO 9CLUDES ! GREAT PROBLEM ( COMPLETE WOM5'S LIB]ATION4 ,AU?OR'S NOTE ) RESPECT TO #b3 DELETE 

.<#c.> 
,AU?OR'S CORRECTION3 ,I HAD A C]TA9 PRES5TIM5T  

.<#dA.> 
= SOCIETY  

.<#dB.> 
AS CREATIVE WORK]  

.<#dC.> 
:O F\<T = ! REALIZATION ( \R SOCIAL IDEALS 

.<#dD.> 
,SOCIALI/S - N[ COMMUNI/S 

.<#dE.> 
CROSS$ \T 

.<#dF.> 
WORLD-VIEW  

.<#dG.> 
,I BELIEVE 

.<#dH.> 
ALWAYS 

.<#dI.> 
:5 ONCE LOVE CAME1 ,I HAVE MY RELATIONS TO ! MAN 

.<#dK.> 
AS M5 DO 

.<#dL.> 
,AS WAS %[N LAT]1 MY PRIVATE LIFE1 :I* ,I DID NOT %APE ACCORD+ TO ! TRADITIONAL MODEL1 WAS NO H9DRANCE :5 9 ALL S]I\SNESS IT WAS A QUE/ION ( UTILIZ+ MY 5]GIES = A NEW ,/ATE .<! ,SOVIET ,REPUBLIC.> & ( FUNCTION+ FIR/ AS A MEMB] ( ! FIR/ ,SOVIET CAB9ET1 LAT] AS AMBASSADRESS4 

.<#dM.> 
= EXAMPLE 7CROSS$ \T7 

.<#dN.> 
CROSS$ \T 

.<#dO.> 
CROSS$ \T 

.<#dP.> 
3 ! 

.<#dR.> 
0TRULY REM>KABLE0 79 QUOTES7 

.<#dS.> 
PRIVATELY  

.<#dT.> 
CROSS$ \T  

.<#dU.> 
CROSS$ \T 

.<#dV.> 
CAN BE DISPELL$ 7& CROSS$ \T7 

.<#dW.> 
?AT 
 ,AU?OR'S NOTE ) RESPECT TO #d3 DELETE COMPLETELY 
 ,AU?OR'S NEW NOTE3 ,9/EAD ( DELET+ 

,= IT IS NOT H] SPECIFIC WOMANI% VIRTUE ?AT GIVES H] A PLACE ( HONOR 9 HUMAN SOCIETY1 BUT ! WOR? ( H] USEFUL WORK ACCOMPLI%$ = SOCIETY1 ! WOR? ( H] P]SONALITY AS HUMAN BE+1 AS CREATIVE WORK]1 AS CITIZ51 ?9K]1 OR FI<T]4 ,TO GO MY WAY1 TO CREATE1 TO FI<T SIDE BY SIDE ) M5 = ! REALIZATION ( \R SOCIAL IDEALS 79DE$ = ALMO/ ?IRTY YE>S ,I BELONG$ TO ! COMMUNI/S71 BUT1 AT ! SAME TIME1 TO %APE MY P]SONAL LIFE AS A WOMAN ACCORD+ TO MY WILL4 
 ,SUBCONSCI\SLY ?IS WAS ! GUID+ =CE ( MY :OLE LIFE & ACTIVITY 

,ABOVE ALL1 H[EV]1 ,I NEV] LET MY FEEL+S1 JOY 9 LOVE1 OR SORR[ TAKE ! FIR/ PLACE 9 MY LIFE3 PRODUCTIVE WORK1 ACTIVITY1 /RUGGLE ALWAYS /OOD 9 ! =EGR\ND4 

.<#e.> 
,AU?OR'S CORRECTION3 PRIM>ILY UPON ALL O!R >EAS  

.<#f.> 
,AU?OR'S CORRECTION3 & >E NOT GUID$ BY S5TIM5TAL LOVE-FEEL+S 

.<#g.> 
,AU?OR'S CORRECTION3 0SPIRITUAL COMMUNITY0  

.<#h.> 
,AU?OR'S CORRECTION3 9W>DLY1 9 ! M9D  

.<#i.> 
CROSS$ \T 

.<#a.> 
SO ?AT ONLY A V]Y SUBORD9ATE PLACE REMA9S AVAILABLE TO LOVE  

.<#a#a.> 
,AU?OR'S CORRECTION3 UNRES]V$LY GAVE \R 5TIRE EGO TO ! BELOV$ MAN 9 ! HOPE ?AT !REBY WE C\LD ATTA9 A COMPLETE SPIRITUAL H>MONY4 

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