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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY 

,TRANSLATOR 3 ,B5JAM9 ,R4 ,TUCK] 

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0,:5 WE MOV$ TO ,MOSC[1 ?IS G5TLEMAN--HIS NAME WAS ,TR\KHAT*EVSKY--CAME TO MY H\SE4 ,IT WAS 9 ! MORN+4 ,I RECEIV$ HIM4 ,9 =M] TIMES WE HAD BE5 V]Y FAMILI>4 ,HE TRI$1 BY V>I\S ADVANCES1 TO REE/ABLI% ! FAMILI>ITY1 BUT ,I WAS DET]M9$ TO KEEP HIM AT A DI/ANCE1 & SOON HE GAVE IT UP4 ,HE DISPLEAS$ ME EXTREMELY4 ,AT ! FIR/ GLANCE ,I SAW ?AT HE WAS A FIL?Y DEBAU*E4 ,I WAS JEAL\S ( HIM1 EV5 BE=E HE HAD SE5 MY WIFE4 ,BUT1 /RANGE ?+6 SOME OCCULT FATAL P[] KEPT ME FROM REPULS+ HIM & S5D+ HIM AWAY1 &1 ON ! CONTR>Y1 9DUC$ ME TO SUFF] ?IS APPROA*4 ,:AT C\LD HAVE BE5 SIMPL] ?AN TO TALK ) HIM A FEW M9UTES1 & !N DISMISS HIM COLDLY )\T 9TRODUC+ HIM TO MY WIFE8 ,BUT NO1 AS IF ON PURPOSE1 ,I TURN$ ! CONV]SATION UPON HIS SKILL AS A VIOL9I/1 & HE ANSW]$ ?AT1 CONTR>Y TO :AT ,I HAD HE>D1 HE N[ PLAY$ ! VIOL9 MORE ?AN =M]LY4 ,HE REMEMB]$ ?AT ,I US$ TO PLAY4 ,I ANSW]$ ?AT ,I HAD AB&ON$ MUSIC1 BUT ?AT MY WIFE PLAY$ V]Y WELL4 

0,S+UL> ?+6 ,:Y1 9 ! IMPORTANT EV5TS ( \R LIFE1 9 ?OSE 9 :I* A MAN'S FATE IS DECID$1--AS M9E WAS DECID$ 9 ?AT MOM5T1--:Y 9 !SE EV5TS IS !RE NEI!R A PA/ NOR A FUTURE8 ,MY RELATIONS ) ,TR\KHAT*EVSKY ! FIR/ DAY1 AT ! FIR/ H\R1 W]E SU* AS !Y MI<T /ILL HAVE BE5 AFT] ALL ?AT HAS HAPP5$4 ,I WAS CONSCI\S ?AT SOME FRI<TFUL MIS=TUNE MU/ RESULT FROM ! PRES5CE ( ?IS MAN1 &1 9 SPITE ( ?AT1 ,I C\LD NOT HELP BE+ AMIABLE TO HIM4 ,I 9TRODUC$ HIM TO MY WIFE4 ,%E WAS PLEAS$ ) HIM4 ,9 ! BEG9N+1 ,I SUPPOSE1 BECAUSE ( ! PLEASURE ( ! VIOL9 PLAY+1 :I* %E ADOR$4 ,%E HAD EV5 HIR$ = ?AT PURPOSE A VIOL9I/ FROM ! !AT]4 ,BUT :5 %E CA/ A GLANCE AT ME1 %E UND]/OOD MY FEEL+S1 & CONCEAL$ H] IMPRESSION4 ,!N BEGAN ! MUTUAL TRICK]Y & DECEIT4 ,I SMIL$ AGREEABLY1 PRET5D+ ?AT ALL ?IS PLEAS$ ME EXTREMELY4 ,HE1 LOOK+ AT MY WIFE1 AS ALL DEBAU*ES LOOK AT BEAUTIFUL WOM51 ) AN AIR ( BE+ 9T]E/$ SOLELY 9 ! SUBJECT ( CONV]SATION1--?AT IS1 9 ?AT :I* DID NOT 9T]E/ HIM AT ALL4 

0,%E TRI$ TO SEEM 9DIFF]5T4 ,BUT MY EXPRESSION1 MY JEAL\S OR FALSE SMILE1 :I* %E KNEW SO WELL1 & ! VOLUPTU\S GLANCES ( ! MUSICIAN1 EVID5TLY EXCIT$ H]4 ,I SAW ?AT1 AFT] ! FIR/ 9T]VIEW1 H] EYES W]E ALREADY GLITT]+1 GLITT]+ /RANGELY1 & ?AT1 ?ANKS TO MY JEAL\SY1 BETWE5 HIM & H] HAD BE5 IMM$IATELY E/ABLI%$ ?AT SORT ( ELECTRIC CURR5T :I* IS PROVOK$ BY AN ID5TITY ( EXPRESSION 9 ! SMILE & 9 ! EYES4 

0,WE TALK$1 AT ! FIR/ 9T]VIEW1 ( MUSIC1 ( ,P>IS1 & ( ALL SORTS ( TRIVIALITIES4 ,HE ROSE TO GO4 ,PRESS+ HIS HAT AGA9/ HIS SWAY+ HIP1 HE /OOD ]ECT1 LOOK+ N[ AT H] & N[ AT ME1 AS IF WAIT+ TO SEE :AT %E W\LD DO4 ,I REMEMB] ?AT M9UTE1 PRECISELY BECAUSE IT WAS 9 MY P[] NOT TO 9VITE HIM4 ,I NE$ NOT HAVE 9VIT$ HIM1 & !N NO?+ W\LD HAVE HAPP5$4 ,BUT ,I CA/ A GLANCE FIR/ AT HIM1 !N AT H]4 ',DON'T FLATT] Y\RSELF ?AT ,I CAN BE JEAL\S ( Y\1' ,I ?\<T1 ADDRESS+ MYSELF TO H] M5TALLY1 & ,I 9VIT$ ! O!R TO BR+ HIS VIOL9 ?AT V]Y EV5+1 & TO PLAY ) MY WIFE4 ,%E RAIS$ H] EYES T[>D ME ) A/ONI%M5T1 & H] FACE TURN$ PURPLE1 AS IF %E W]E SEIZ$ ) A SUDD5 FE>4 ,%E BEGAN TO EXCUSE H]SELF1 SAY+ ?AT %E DID NOT PLAY WELL 5\<4 ,?IS REFUSAL ONLY EXCIT$ ME ! MORE4 ,I REMEMB] ! /RANGE FEEL+ ) :I* ,I LOOK$ AT HIS NECK1 HIS :ITE NECK1 9 CONTRA/ ) HIS BLACK HAIR1 SEP>AT$ BY A P>T+1 :51 ) HIS SKIPP+ GAIT1 LIKE ?AT ( A BIRD1 HE LEFT MY H\SE4 ,I C\LD NOT HELP CONFESS+ TO MYSELF ?AT ?IS MAN'S PRES5CE CAUS$ ME SUFF]+4 ',IT IS 9 MY P[]1' ?\<T ,I1 'TO SO >RANGE ?+S ?AT ,I %ALL NEV] SEE HIM AGA94 ,BUT CAN IT BE ?AT ,I1 ,I1 FE> HIM8 ,NO1 ,I DO NOT FE> HIM4 ,IT W\LD BE TOO HUMILIAT+6' 

0,& !RE 9 ! HALL1 KN[+ ?AT MY WIFE HE>D ME1 ,I 9SI/$ ?AT HE %\LD COME ?AT V]Y EV5+ ) HIS VIOL94 ,HE PROMIS$ ME1 & W5T AWAY4 ,9 ! EV5+ HE >RIV$ ) HIS VIOL91 & !Y PLAY$ TOGE!R4 ,BUT = A LONG TIME ?+S DID NOT GO WELL2 WE HAD NOT ! NECESS>Y MUSIC1 & ?AT :I* WE HAD MY WIFE C\LD NOT PLAY AT SI<T4 ,I AMUS$ MYSELF ) !IR DIFFICULTIES4 ,I AID$ !M1 ,I MADE PROPOSALS1 & !Y F9ALLY EXECUT$ A FEW PIECES1--SONGS )\T WORDS1 & A LITTLE SONATA BY ,MOZ>T4 ,HE PLAY$ 9 A M>VEL\S MANN]4 ,HE HAD :AT IS CALL$ ! 5]GETIC & T5D] TONE4 ,AS = DIFFICULTIES1 !RE W]E NONE = HIM4 ,SC>CELY HAD HE BEGUN TO PLAY1 :5 HIS FACE *ANG$4 ,HE BECAME S]I\S1 & MU* MORE SYMPA!TIC4 ,HE WAS1 IT IS NE$LESS TO SAY1 MU* /RONG] ?AN MY WIFE4 ,HE HELP$ H]1 HE ADVIS$ H] SIMPLY & NATURALLY1 & AT ! SAME TIME PLAY$ HIS GAME ) C\RTESY4 ,MY WIFE SEEM$ 9T]E/$ ONLY 9 ! MUSIC4 ,%E WAS V]Y SIMPLE & AGREEABLE4 ,?R\<\T ! EV5+ ,I FEIGN$1 NOT ONLY = ! O!RS1 BUT = MYSELF1 AN 9T]E/ SOLELY 9 ! MUSIC4 ,REALLY1 ,I WAS CONT9UALLY TORTUR$ BY JEAL\SY4 ,FROM ! FIR/ M9UTE ?AT ! MUSICIAN'S EYES MET ?OSE ( MY WIFE1 ,I SAW ?AT HE DID NOT REG>D H] AS A DISAGREEABLE WOMAN1 ) :OM ON OCCASION IT W\LD BE UNPLEASANT TO 5T] 9TO 9TIMATE RELATIONS4 

0,IF ,I HAD BE5 PURE1 ,I %\LD NOT HAVE DREAM$ ( :AT HE MI<T ?9K ( H]4 ,BUT ,I LOOK$ AT WOM51 & ?AT IS :Y ,I UND]/OOD HIM & WAS 9 TORTURE4 ,I WAS 9 TORTURE1 ESPECIALLY BECAUSE ,I WAS SURE ?AT T[>D ME %E HAD NO O!R FEEL+ ?AN ( P]PETUAL IRRITATION1 SOMETIMES 9T]RUPT$ BY ! CU/OM>Y S5SUALITY1 & ?AT ?IS MAN1--?ANKS TO HIS EXT]NAL ELEGANCE & HIS NOVELTY1 &1 ABOVE ALL1 ?ANKS TO HIS UNQUE/IONABLY REM>KABLE TAL5T1 ?ANKS TO ! ATTRACTION EX]CIS$ UND] ! 9FLU5CE ( MUSIC1 ?ANKS TO ! IMPRESSION ?AT MUSIC PRODUCES UPON N]V\S NATURES1--?IS MAN W\LD NOT ONLY PLEASE1 BUT W\LD 9EVITABLY1 & )\T DIFFICULTY1 SUBJUGATE & CONQU] H]1 & DO ) H] AS HE LIK$4 

0,I C\LD NOT HELP SEE+ ?IS4 ,I C\LD NOT HELP SUFF]+1 OR KEEP FROM BE+ JEAL\S4 ,& ,I WAS JEAL\S1 & ,I SUFF]$1 & 9 SPITE ( ?AT1 & P]HAPS EV5 BECAUSE ( ?AT1 AN UNKN[N =CE1 9 SPITE ( MY WILL1 IMPELL$ ME TO BE NOT ONLY POLITE1 BUT MORE ?AN POLITE1 AMIABLE4 ,I CANNOT SAY :E!R ,I DID IT = MY WIFE1 OR TO %[ HIM ?AT ,I DID NOT FE> ,H,I,M1 OR TO DECEIVE MYSELF2 BUT FROM MY FIR/ RELATIONS ) HIM ,I C\LD NOT BE AT MY EASE4 ,I WAS OBLIG$1 ?AT ,I MI<T NOT GIVE WAY TO A DESIRE TO KILL HIM IMM$IATELY1 TO 'C>ESS' HIM4 ,I FILL$ HIS GLASS AT ! TABLE1 ,I GREW 5?USIA/IC OV] HIS PLAY+1 ,I TALK$ TO HIM ) AN EXTREMELY AMIABLE SMILE1 & ,I 9VIT$ HIM TO D9N] ! FOLL[+ ,SUNDAY1 & TO PLAY AGA94 ,I TOLD HIM ?AT ,I W\LD 9VITE SOME ( MY ACQUA9TANCES1 LOV]S ( HIS >T1 TO HE> HIM4 

0,TWO OR ?REE DAYS LAT] ,I WAS 5T]+ MY H\SE1 9 CONV]SATION ) A FRI5D1 :5 9 ! HALL ,I SUDD5LY FELT SOME?+ AS HEAVY AS A /ONE WEI<+ ON MY HE>T1 & ,I C\LD NOT ACC\NT = IT4 ,& IT WAS ?IS1 IT WAS ?IS3 9 PASS+ ?R\< ! HALL1 ,I HAD NOTIC$ SOME?+ :I* REM9D$ ME ( ,H,I,M4 ,NOT UNTIL ,I REA*$ MY /UDY DID ,I REALIZE :AT IT WAS1 & ,I RETURN$ TO ! HALL TO V]IFY MY CONJECTURE4 ,YES1 ,I WAS NOT MI/AK54 ,IT WAS HIS OV]COAT 7EV]Y?+ ?AT BELONG$ TO HIM1 ,I1 )\T REALIZ+ IT1 HAD OBS]V$ ) EXTRAORD9>Y ATT5TION74 ,I QUE/ION$ ! S]VANT4 ,?AT WAS IT4 ,HE HAD COME4 

0,I PASS$ NE> ! P>LOR1 ?R\< MY *ILDR5'S /UDY-ROOM4 ,LISE1 MY DAU<T]1 WAS SITT+ BE=E A BOOK1 & ! OLD NURSE1 ) MY Y\NGE/ *ILD1 WAS BESIDE ! TABLE1 TURN+ ! COV] ( SOME?+ OR O!R4 ,9 ! P>LOR ,I HE>D A SL[ >PEGGIO1 & HIS VOICE1 DEAD5$1 & A D5IAL FROM H]4 ,%E SAID3 ',NO1 NO6 ,!RE IS SOME?+ ELSE6' ,& IT SEEM$ TO ME ?AT SOME ONE WAS PURPOSELY DEAD5+ ! WORDS BY ! AID ( ! PIANO4 

0,MY ,GOD6 ,H[ MY HE>T LEAP$6 ,:AT W]E MY IMAG9ATIONS6 ,:5 ,I REMEMB] ! BEA/ ?AT LIV$ 9 ME AT ?AT MOM5T1 ,I AM SEIZ$ ) FRI<T4 ,MY HE>T WAS FIR/ COMPRESS$1 !N /OPP$1 & !N BEGAN TO BEAT LIKE A HAMM]4 ,! PR9CIPAL FEEL+1 AS 9 EV]Y BAD FEEL+1 WAS PITY = MYSELF4 ',BE=E ! *ILDR51 BE=E ! OLD NURSE1' ?\<T ,I1 '%E DI%ONORS ME4 ,I WILL GO AWAY4 ,I CAN 5DURE IT NO LONG]4 ,GOD KN[S :AT ,I %\LD DO IF4 4 4 4 ,BUT ,I MU/ GO 94' 

0,! OLD NURSE RAIS$ H] EYES TO M9E1 AS IF %E UND]/OOD1 & ADVIS$ ME TO KEEP A %>P WAT*4 ',I MU/ GO 91' ,I SAID TO MYSELF1 &1 )\T KN[+ :AT ,I DID1 ,I OP5$ ! DOOR4 ,HE WAS SITT+ AT ! PIANO & MAK+ >PEGGIOS ) HIS LONG1 :ITE1 CURV$ F+]S4 ,%E WAS /&+ 9 ! ANGLE ( ! GR& PIANO1 BE=E ! OP5 SCORE4 ,%E SAW OR HE>D ME FIR/1 & RAIS$ H] EYES TO M9E4 ,WAS %E /UNN$1 WAS %E PRET5D+ NOT TO BE FRI<T5$1 OR WAS %E REALLY NOT FRI<T5$ AT ALL8 ,9 ANY CASE1 %E DID NOT TREMBLE1 %E DID NOT /IR4 ,%E BLU%$1 BUT ONLY A LITTLE LAT]4 

0',H[ GLAD ,I AM ?AT Y\ HAVE COME6 ,WE HAVE NOT DECID$ :AT WE WILL PLAY ,SUNDAY1' SAID %E1 9 A TONE ?AT %E W\LD NOT HAVE HAD IF %E HAD BE5 ALONE ) ME4 

0,?IS TONE1 & ! WAY 9 :I* %E SAID 'WE' 9 SPEAK+ ( H]SELF & ( HIM1 REVOLT$ ME4 ,I SALUT$ HIM SIL5TLY4 ,HE %OOK H&S ) ME DIRECTLY1 ) A SMILE ?AT SEEM$ TO ME FULL ( MOCK]Y4 ,HE EXPLA9$ TO ME ?AT HE HAD BR\<T SOME SCORES1 9 ORD] TO PREP>E = ! ,SUNDAY CONC]T1 & ?AT !Y W]E NOT 9 ACCORD AS TO ! PIECE TO *OOSE1--:E!R DIFFICULT1 CLASSIC ?+S1 NOTABLY A SONATA BY ,BEE?OV51 OR LI<T] PIECES4 

0,& AS HE SPOKE1 HE LOOK$ AT ME4 ,IT WAS ALL SO NATURAL1 SO SIMPLE1 ?AT !RE WAS ABSOLUTELY NO?+ TO BE SAID AGA9/ IT4 ,& AT ! SAME TIME ,I SAW1 ,I WAS SURE1 ?AT IT WAS FALSE1 ?AT !Y W]E 9 A CONSPIRACY TO DECEIVE ME4 

0,ONE ( ! MO/ TORTUR+ SITUATIONS = ! JEAL\S 7& 9 \R SOCIAL LIFE EV]YBODY IS JEAL\S7 >E ?OSE SOCIAL CONDITIONS :I* ALL[ A V]Y GREAT & DANG]\S 9TIMACY BETWE5 A MAN & A WOMAN UND] C]TA9 PRETEXTS4 ,ONE MU/ MAKE HIMSELF ! LAU<+ /OCK ( EV]YBODY1 IF HE DESIRES TO PREV5T ASSOCIATIONS 9 ! BALL-ROOM1 ! 9TIMACY ( DOCTORS ) !IR PATI5TS1 ! FAMILI>ITY ( >T OCCUPATIONS1 & ESPECIALLY ( MUSIC4 ,9 ORD] ?AT PEOPLE MAY OCCUPY !MSELVES TOGE!R ) ! NOBLE/ >T1 MUSIC1 A C]TA9 9TIMACY IS NECESS>Y1 9 :I* !RE IS NO?+ BLAMEWOR?Y4 ,ONLY A JEAL\S FOOL ( A HUSB& CAN HAVE ANY?+ TO SAY AGA9/ IT4 ,A HUSB& %\LD NOT HAVE SU* ?\<TS1 & ESPECIALLY %\LD NOT ?RU/ HIS NOSE 9TO !SE AFFAIRS1 OR PREV5T !M4 ,& YET1 EV]YBODY KN[S ?AT PRECISELY 9 !SE OCCUPATIONS1 ESPECIALLY 9 MUSIC1 MANY ADULT]IES ORIG9ATE 9 \R SOCIETY4 

0,I HAD EVID5TLY EMB>RASS$ !M1 BECAUSE = SOME TIME ,I WAS UNABLE TO SAY ANY?+4 ,I WAS LIKE A BOTTLE SUDD5LY TURN$ UPSIDE D[N1 FROM :I* ! WAT] DOES NOT RUN BECAUSE IT IS TOO FULL4 ,I WANT$ TO 9SULT ! MAN1 & TO DRIVE HIM AWAY1 BUT ,I C\LD DO NO?+ ( ! K9D4 ,ON ! CONTR>Y1 ,I FELT ?AT ,I WAS DI/URB+ !M1 & ?AT IT WAS MY FAULT4 ,I MADE A PRES5CE ( APPROV+ EV]Y?+1 ?IS TIME ALSO1 ?ANKS TO ?AT /RANGE FEEL+ ?AT =C$ ME TO TREAT HIM ! MORE AMIABLY 9 PROPORTION AS HIS PRES5CE WAS MORE PA9FUL TO ME4 ,I SAID ?AT ,I TRU/$ TO HIS TA/E1 & ,I ADVIS$ MY WIFE TO DO ! SAME4 ,HE REMA9$ JU/ AS LONG AS IT WAS NECESS>Y 9 ORD] TO EFFACE ! UNPLEASANT IMPRESSION ( MY ABRUPT 5TRANCE ) A FRI<T5$ FACE4 ,HE W5T AWAY ) AN AIR ( SATISFACTION AT ! CONCLUSIONS >RIV$ AT4 ,AS = ME1 ,I WAS P]FECTLY SURE ?AT1 9 COMP>ISON ) ?AT :I* PREOCCUPI$ !M1 ! QUE/ION ( MUSIC WAS 9DIFF]5T TO !M4 ,I ACCOMPANI$ HIM ) ESPECIAL C\RTESY TO ! HALL 7H[ CAN ONE HELP ACCOMPANY+ A MAN :O HAS COME TO DI/URB Y\R TRANQUILITY & RU9 ! HAPP9ESS ( ! 5TIRE FAMILY871 & ,I %OOK HIS :ITE1 S(T H& ) F]V5T AMIABILITY40 

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