,BOOK #a#a1 ,*APT] #cb #ahfiahfi ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY ,TEXT 3 ,SEV5 DAYS HAD PASS$ S9CE ,PR9CE ,&REW F\ND HIMSELF 9 ! AMBULANCE /ATION ON ! FIELD ( ,BOROD9O4 ,HIS FEV]I% /ATE & ! 9FLAMMATION ( HIS B[ELS1 :I* W]E 9JUR$1 W]E 9 ! DOCTOR'S OP9ION SURE TO C>RY HIM (F4 ,BUT ON ! SEV5? DAY HE ATE ) PLEASURE A PIECE ( BREAD ) SOME TEA1 & ! DOCTOR NOTIC$ ?AT HIS TEMP]ATURE WAS L[]4 ,HE HAD REGA9$ CONSCI\SNESS ?AT MORN+4 ,! FIR/ NIM & HE HAD REMA9$ 9 ! CALE*E1 BUT AT ,MYTI%*I ! W\ND$ MAN HIMSELF ASK$ TO BE TAK5 \T & GIV5 SOME TEA4 ,! PA9 CAUS$ BY HIS REMOVAL 9TO ! HUT HAD MADE HIM GROAN AL\D & AGA9 LOSE CONSCI\SNESS4 ,:5 HE HAD BE5 PLAC$ ON HIS CAMP B$ HE LAY = A LONG TIME MOTIONLESS ) CLOS$ EYES4 ,!N HE OP5$ !M & :ISP]$ S(TLY3 0,& ! TEA80 ,HIS REMEMB]+ SU* A SMALL DETAIL ( EV]YDAY LIFE A/ONI%$ ! DOCTOR4 ,HE FELT ,PR9CE ,&REW'S PULSE1 & TO HIS SURPRISE & DISSATISFACTION F\ND IT HAD IMPROV$4 ,HE WAS DISSATISFI$ BECAUSE HE KNEW BY EXP]I5CE ?AT IF HIS PATI5T DID NOT DIE N[1 HE W\LD DO SO A LITTLE LAT] ) GREAT] SUFF]+4 ,TIMOKH91 ! R$-NOS$ MAJOR ( ,PR9CE ,&REW'S REGIM5T1 HAD JO9$ HIM 9 ,MOSC[ & WAS BE+ TAK5 ALONG ) HIM1 HAV+ BE5 W\ND$ 9 ! LEG AT ! BATTLE ( ,BOROD9O4 ,!Y W]E ACCOMPANI$ BY A DOCTOR1 ,PR9CE ,&REW'S VALET1 HIS COA*MAN1 & TWO ORD]LIES4 ,!Y GAVE ,PR9CE ,&REW SOME TEA4 ,HE DRANK IT EAG]LY1 LOOK+ ) FEV]I% EYES AT ! DOOR 9 FRONT ( HIM AS IF TRY+ TO UND]/& & REMEMB] SOME?+4 0,I DON'T WANT ANY MORE4 ,IS ,TIMOKH9 H]E80 HE ASK$4 ,TIMOKH9 CREPT ALONG ! B5* TO HIM4 0,I AM H]E1 Y\R EXCELL5CY40 0,H['S Y\R W\ND80 0,M9E1 SIR8 ,ALL RI IT40 0,BY ! ,LORD ,JESUS ,*RI/1 ,I ?\RI$ 9TO ! HUT AFT] HIS CALE*E HAD /OPP$ AT ,MYTI%*I4 ,AFT] GR[+ CONFUS$ FROM PA9 :ILE BE+ C>RI$ 9TO ! HUT HE AGA9 REGA9$ CONSCI\SNESS1 & :ILE DR9K+ TEA ONCE MORE RECALL$ ALL ?AT HAD HAPP5$ TO HIM1 & ABOVE ALL VIVIDLY REMEMB]$ ! MOM5T AT ! AMBULANCE /ATION :51 AT ! SI HIM WAS SLEEP+4 ,A CRICKET *IRP$ FROM ACROSS ! PASSAGE2 SOMEONE WAS %\T+ & S++ 9 ! /REET2 COCKROA*ES RU/L$ ON ! TABLE1 ON ! ICONS1 & ON ! WALLS1 & A BIG FLY FLOPP$ AT ! HEAD ( ! B$ & >\ND ! C&LE BESIDE HIM1 ! WICK ( :I* WAS *>R$ & HAD %AP$ ITSELF LIKE A MU%ROOM4 ,HIS M9D WAS NOT 9 A NORMAL /ATE4 ,A HEAL?Y MAN USUALLY ?9KS (1 FEELS1 & REMEMB]S 9NUM]ABLE ?+S SIMULTANE\SLY1 BUT HAS ! P[] & WILL TO SELECT ONE SEQU5CE ( ?\ HIMSELF AWAY FROM ! DEEPE/ REFLECTIONS TO SAY A CIVIL WORD TO SOMEONE :O COMES 9 & CAN !N RETURN AGA9 TO HIS [N ?\] ?AN EV]1 BUT !Y ACT$ AP>T FROM HIS WILL4 ,MO/ DIV]SE ?\NESS1 & DEP? IT HAD NEV] REA*$ :5 HE WAS 9 HEAL?1 BUT SUDD5LY 9 ! MID/ ( ITS WORK IT W\LD TURN TO SOME UNEXPECT$ IDEA & HE HAD NOT ! /R5G? TO TURN IT BACK AGA94 0,YES1 A NEW HAPP9ESS WAS REVEAL$ TO ME ( :I* MAN CANNOT BE DEPRIV$10 HE ?\KNESS ( ! QUIET HUT1 GAZ+ FIX$LY BE=E HIM ) FEV]I% WIDE OP5 EYES4 0,A HAPP9ESS LY+ BEYOND MAT]IAL =CES1 \TSIDE ! MAT]IAL 9FLU5CES ?AT ACT ON MAN--A HAPP9ESS ( ! S\L ALONE1 ! HAPP9ESS ( LOV+4 ,EV]Y MAN CAN UND]/& IT1 BUT TO CONCEIVE IT & 5JO9 IT WAS POSSIBLE ONLY = ,GOD4 ,BUT H[ DID ,GOD 5JO9 ?AT LAW8 ,& :Y WAS ! ,SON44480 ,& SUDD5LY ! SEQU5CE ( !SE ?\D 7)\T KN[+ :E!R IT WAS A DELUSION OR REALITY7 A S(T :ISP]+ VOICE 9CESSANTLY & RHY?MICALLY REPEAT+ 0PITI-PITI-PITI10 & !N 0TITI10 & !N AGA9 0PITI-PITI-PITI10 & 0TI-TI0 ONCE MORE4 ,AT ! SAME TIME HE FELT ?AT ABOVE HIS FACE1 ABOVE ! V]Y MIDDLE ( IT1 SOME /RANGE AIRY /RUCTURE WAS BE+ ]ECT$ \T ( SL5D] NE$LES OR SPL9T]S1 TO ! S\ND ( ?IS :ISP]$ MUSIC4 ,HE FELT ?AT HE HAD TO BALANCE C>EFULLY 7?\< IT WAS DIFFICULT7 SO ?AT ?IS AIRY /RUCTURE %\LD NOT COLLAPSE2 BUT NEV]!LESS IT KEPT COLLAPS+ & AGA9 SL[LY RIS+ TO ! S\ND ( :ISP]$ RHY?MIC MUSIC--0IT /RET*ES1 /RET*ES1 SPREAD+ \T & /RET*+10 SAID ,PR9CE ,&REW TO HIMSELF4 ,:ILE LI/5+ TO ?IS :ISP]+ & FEEL+ ! S5SATION ( ?IS DRAW+ \T & ! CON/RUCTION ( ?IS $IFICE ( NE$LES1 HE ALSO SAW BY GLIMPSES A R$ HALO R\ND ! C&LE1 & HE>D ! RU/LE ( ! COCKROA*ES & ! BUZZ+ ( ! FLY ?AT FLOPP$ AGA9/ HIS PILL[ & HIS FACE4 ,EA* TIME ! FLY T\*$ HIS FACE IT GAVE HIM A BURN+ S5SATION & YET TO HIS SURPRISE IT DID NOT DE/ROY ! /RUCTURE1 ?\< IT KNOCK$ AGA9/ ! V]Y REGION ( HIS FACE :]E IT WAS RIS+4 ,BUT BESIDES ?IS !RE WAS SOME?+ ELSE ( IMPORTANCE4 ,IT WAS SOME?+ :ITE BY ! DOOR--! /ATUE ( A SPH9X1 :I* ALSO OPPRESS$ HIM4 0,BUT P]HAPS ?AT'S MY %IRT ON ! TABLE10 HE ?\ CLE>NESS & =CE4 0,YES--LOVE10 HE ?\LY4 0,BUT NOT LOVE :I* LOVES = SOME?+1 = SOME QUALITY1 = SOME PURPOSE1 OR = SOME REASON1 BUT ! LOVE :I* ,I--:ILE DY+--FIR/ EXP]I5C$ :5 ,I SAW MY 5EMY & YET LOV$ HIM4 ,I EXP]I5C$ ?AT FEEL+ ( LOVE :I* IS ! V]Y ESS5CE ( ! S\L & DOES NOT REQUIRE AN OBJECT4 ,N[ AGA9 ,I FEEL ?AT BLISS4 ,TO LOVE ONE'S NEI TO Y\ ) HUMAN LOVE1 BUT AN 5EMY CAN ONLY BE LOV$ BY DIV9E LOVE4 ,?AT IS :Y ,I EXP]I5C$ SU* JOY :5 ,I FELT ?AT ,I LOV$ ?AT MAN4 ,:AT HAS BECOME ( HIM8 ,IS HE ALIVE8444 0,:5 LOV+ ) HUMAN LOVE ONE MAY PASS FROM LOVE TO HATR$1 BUT DIV9E LOVE CANNOT *ANGE4 ,NO1 NEI!R DEA? NOR ANY?+ ELSE CAN DE/ROY IT4 ,IT IS ! V]Y ESS5CE ( ! S\L4 ,YET H[ MANY PEOPLE HAVE ,I HAT$ 9 MY LIFE8 ,& ( !M ALL1 ,I LOV$ & HAT$ NONE AS ,I DID H]40 ,& HE VIVIDLY PICTUR$ TO HIMSELF ,NATA%A1 NOT AS HE HAD DONE 9 ! PA/ ) NO?+ BUT H] *>MS :I* GAVE HIM DELIRI$ 9TO ANO!R WORLD1 A WORLD ( REALITY & DELIRIUM 9 :I* SOME?+ P>TICUL> WAS HAPP5+4 ,9 ?AT WORLD SOME /RUCTURE WAS /ILL BE+ ]ECT$ & DID NOT FALL1 SOME?+ WAS /ILL /RET*+ \T1 & ! C&LE ) ITS R$ HALO WAS /ILL BURN+1 & ! SAME %IRTLIKE SPH9X LAY NE> ! DOOR2 BUT BESIDES ALL ?IS SOME?+ CREAK$1 !RE WAS A :IFF ( FRE% AIR1 & A NEW :ITE SPH9X APPE>$1 /&+ AT ! DOOR4 ,& ?AT SPH9X HAD ! PALE FACE & %9+ EYES ( ! V]Y ,NATA%A ( :OM HE HAD JU/ BE5 ?9K+4 0,OH1 H[ OPPRESSIVE ?IS CONT9UAL DELIRIUM IS10 ?\]4 ,PR9CE ,&REW WI%$ TO RETURN TO ?AT =M] WORLD ( PURE ?\S1 A DIMNESS 9 HIS EYES1 & LIKE A MAN PLUNG$ 9TO WAT] HE LO/ CONSCI\SNESS4 ,:5 HE CAME TO HIMSELF1 ,NATA%A1 ?AT SAME LIV+ ,NATA%A :OM ( ALL PEOPLE HE MO/ LONG$ TO LOVE ) ?IS NEW PURE DIV9E LOVE ?AT HAD BE5 REVEAL$ TO HIM1 WAS KNEEL+ BE=E HIM4 ,HE REALIZ$ ?AT IT WAS ! REAL LIV+ ,NATA%A1 & HE WAS NOT SURPRIS$ BUT QUIETLY HAPPY4 ,NATA%A1 MOTIONLESS ON H] KNEES 7%E WAS UNABLE TO /IR71 ) FRIT ( IT SOME?+ QUIV]$4 ,PR9CE ,&REW SI<$ ) RELIEF1 SMIL$1 & HELD \T HIS H&4 0,Y\80 HE SAID4 0,H[ =TUNATE60 ,) A RAPID BUT C>EFUL MOVEM5T ,NATA%A DREW NE>] TO HIM ON H] KNEES &1 TAK+ HIS H& C>EFULLY1 B5T H] FACE OV] IT & BEGAN KISS+ IT1 JU/ T\*+ IT LICELY AUDIBLE1 BROK5 :ISP]1 & BEGAN KISS+ HIS H& MORE RAPIDLY1 JU/ T\*+ IT ) H] LIPS4 0,I LOVE Y\ MORE1 BETT] ?AN BE=E10 SAID ,PR9CE ,&REW1 LIFT+ H] FACE ) HIS H& SO AS TO LOOK 9TO H] EYES4 ,?OSE EYES1 FILL$ ) HAPPY TE>S1 GAZ$ AT HIM TIMIDLY1 COMPASSIONATELY1 & ) JOY\S LOVE4 ,NATA%A'S ?9 PALE FACE1 ) ITS SWOLL5 LIPS1 WAS MORE ?AN PLA9--IT WAS DREADFUL4 ,BUT ,PR9CE ,&REW DID NOT SEE ?AT1 HE SAW H] %9+ EYES :I* W]E BEAUTIFUL4 ,!Y HE>D ! S\ND ( VOICES BEH9D !M4 ,PET] ! VALET1 :O WAS N[ WIDE AWAKE1 HAD R\S$ ! DOCTOR4 ,TIMOKH91 :O HAD NOT SLEPT AT ALL BECAUSE ( ! PA9 9 HIS LEG1 HAD LONG BE5 WAT*+ ALL ?AT WAS GO+ ON1 C>EFULLY COV]+ HIS B>E BODY ) ! %EET AS HE HUDDL$ UP ON HIS B5*4 0,:AT'S ?IS80 SAID ! DOCTOR1 RIS+ FROM HIS B$4 0,PLEASE GO AWAY1 MADAM60 ,AT ?AT MOM5T A MAID S5T BY ! C\NTESS1 :O HAD NOTIC$ H] DAU\S$ FROM H] SLEEP ,NATA%A W5T \T ( ! ROOM &1 RETURN+ TO H] HUT1 FELL SOBB+ ON H] B$4 ,FROM ?AT TIME1 DUR+ ALL ! RE/ ( ! ,RO/OVS' J\RNEY1 AT EV]Y HALT+ PLACE & :]EV] !Y SP5T A NIMS DUR+ ! J\RNEY--AS1 JUDG+ BY :AT ! DOCTOR SAID1 IT SEEM$ MIY #a#a1 #bag 3 ,BOOK #a#a1 ,*APT] #cb -- ,ADD$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/