,BOOK #f1 ,*APT] #be #ahfiahfi ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY ,TEXT 3 ,DUR+ ?AT YE> AFT] HIS SON'S DEP>TURE1 ,PR9CE ,NI*OLAS ,BOLKONSKI'S HEAL? & TEMP] BECAME MU* WORSE4 ,HE GREW /ILL MORE IRRITABLE1 & IT WAS ,PR9CESS ,M>Y :O G5]ALLY BORE ! BRUNT ( HIS FREQU5T FITS ( UNPROVOK$ ANG]4 ,HE SEEM$ C>EFULLY TO SEEK \T H] T5D] SPOTS SO AS TO TORTURE H] M5TALLY AS H>%LY AS POSSIBLE4 ,PR9CESS ,M>Y HAD TWO PASSIONS & CONSEQU5TLY TWO JOYS--H] NEPHEW1 LITTLE ,NI*OLAS1 & RELIGION--& !SE W]E ! FAVORITE SUBJECTS ( ! PR9CE'S ATTACKS & RIDICULE4 ,:ATEV] WAS SPOK5 ( HE W\LD BR+ R\ND TO ! SUP]/ITI\SNESS ( OLD MAIDS1 OR ! PETT+ & SPOIL+ ( *ILDR54 0,Y\ WANT TO MAKE HIM0--LITTLE ,NI*OLAS--09TO AN OLD MAID LIKE Y\RSELF6 ,A PITY6 ,PR9CE ,&REW WANTS A SON & NOT AN OLD MAID10 HE W\LD SAY4 ,OR1 TURN+ TO ,MADEMOISELLE ,B\RI5NE1 HE W\LD ASK H] 9 ,PR9CESS ,M>Y'S PRES5CE H[ %E LIK$ \R VILLAGE PRIE/S & ICONS & W\LD JOKE AB\T !M4 ,HE CONT9UALLY HURT ,PR9CESS ,M>Y'S FEEL+S & TORM5T$ H]1 BUT IT CO/ H] NO EF=T TO =GIVE HIM4 ,C\LD HE BE TO BLAME T[>D H]1 OR C\LD H] FA!R1 :OM %E KNEW LOV$ H] 9 SPITE ( IT ALL1 BE UNJU/8 ,& :AT IS JU/ICE8 ,! PR9CESS NEV] ?\ & SIMPLE LAW--! LAW ( LOVE & SELF-SACRIFICE TAUY HAD KN[N HIM = A LONG TIME PA/4 ,%E FELT ?AT SOME?+ HAD HAPP5$ TO HIM1 BUT HE SAID NO?+ TO H] AB\T HIS LOVE4 ,BE=E HE LEFT HE HAD A LONG TALK ) HIS FA!R AB\T SOME?+1 & ,PR9CESS ,M>Y NOTIC$ ?AT BE=E HIS DEP>TURE !Y W]E DISSATISFI$ ) ONE ANO!R4 ,SOON AFT] ,PR9CE ,&REW HAD GONE1 ,PR9CESS ,M>Y WROTE TO H] FRI5D ,JULIE ,K>AG9A 9 ,PET]SBURG1 :OM %E HAD DREAM$ 7AS ALL GIRLS DREAM7 ( M>RY+ TO H] BRO!R1 & :O WAS AT ?AT TIME 9 M\RN+ = H] [N BRO!R1 KILL$ 9 ,TURKEY4 ,SORR[1 IT SEEMS1 IS \R COMMON LOT1 MY DE>1 T5D] FRI5D ,JULIE4 ,Y\R LOSS IS SO T]RIBLE ?AT ,I CAN ONLY EXPLA9 IT TO MYSELF AS A SPECIAL PROVID5CE ( ,GOD :O1 LOV+ Y\1 WI%ES TO TRY Y\ & Y\R EXCELL5T MO!R4 ,OH1 MY FRI5D6 ,RELIGION1 & RELIGION ALONE1 CAN--,I WILL NOT SAY COM=T US--BUT SAVE US FROM DESPAIR4 ,RELIGION ALONE CAN EXPLA9 TO US :AT )\T ITS HELP MAN CANNOT COMPREH5D3 :Y1 = :AT CAUSE1 K9D & NOBLE BE+S ABLE TO F9D HAPP9ESS 9 LIFE--NOT M]ELY H>M+ NO ONE BUT NECESS>Y TO ! HAPP9ESS ( O!RS-->E CALL$ AWAY TO ,GOD1 :ILE CRUEL1 USELESS1 H>MFUL P]SONS1 OR SU* AS >E A BURD5 TO !MSELVES & TO O!RS1 >E LEFT LIV+4 ,! FIR/ DEA? ,I SAW1 & ONE ,I %ALL NEV] =GET--?AT ( MY DE> SI/]-9-LAW--LEFT ?AT IMPRESSION ON ME4 ,JU/ AS Y\ ASK DE/9Y :Y Y\R SPL5DID BRO!R HAD TO DIE1 SO ,I ASK$ :Y ?AT ANGEL ,LISE1 :O NOT ONLY NEV] WRONG$ ANYONE1 BUT 9 :OSE S\L !RE W]E NEV] ANY UNK9D ?\ FRI5D8 ,FIVE YE>S HAVE PASS$ S9CE !N1 & ALREADY ,I1 ) MY PETTY UND]/&+1 BEG9 TO SEE CLE>LY :Y %E HAD TO DIE1 & 9 :AT WAY ?AT DEA? WAS BUT AN EXPRESSION ( ! 9F9ITE GOODNESS ( ! ,CREATOR1 :OSE EV]Y ACTION1 ?\< G5]ALLY 9COMPREH5SIBLE TO US1 IS BUT A MANIFE/ATION ( ,HIS 9F9ITE LOVE = ,HIS CREATURES4 ,P]HAPS1 ,I (T5 ?9K1 %E WAS TOO ANGELICALLY 9NOC5T TO HAVE ! /R5G? TO P]=M ALL A MO!R'S DUTIES4 ,AS A Y\NG WIFE %E WAS IRREPROA*ABLE2 P]HAPS %E C\LD NOT HAVE BE5 SO AS A MO!R4 ,AS IT IS1 NOT ONLY HAS %E LEFT US1 & P>TICUL>LY ,PR9CE ,&REW1 ) ! PURE/ REGRETS & MEMORIES1 BUT PROBABLY %E WILL !RE RECEIVE A PLACE ,I D>E NOT HOPE = MYSELF4 ,BUT NOT TO SPEAK ( H] ALONE1 ?AT E>LY & T]RIBLE DEA? HAS HAD ! MO/ B5EFIC5T 9FLU5CE ON ME & ON MY BRO!R 9 SPITE ( ALL \R GRIEF4 ,!N1 AT ! MOM5T ( \R LOSS1 !SE ?\E V]Y CLE> & C]TA94 ,I WRITE ALL ?IS TO Y\1 DE> FRI5D1 ONLY TO CONV9CE Y\ ( ! ,GOSPEL TRU? :I* HAS BECOME = ME A PR9CIPLE ( LIFE3 NOT A S+LE HAIR ( \R HEADS WILL FALL )\T ,HIS WILL4 ,& ,HIS WILL IS GOV]N$ ONLY BY 9F9ITE LOVE = US1 & SO :ATEV] BEFALLS US IS = \R GOOD4 ,Y\ ASK :E!R WE %ALL SP5D NEXT W9T] 9 ,MOSC[4 ,9 SPITE ( MY WI% TO SEE Y\1 ,I DO NOT ?9K SO & DO NOT WANT TO DO SO4 ,Y\ WILL BE SURPRIS$ TO HE> ?AT ! REASON = ?IS IS ,BUONAP>TE6 ,! CASE IS ?IS3 MY FA!R'S HEAL? IS GR[+ NOTICEABLY WORSE1 HE CANNOT /& ANY CONTRADICTION & IS BECOM+ IRRITABLE4 ,?IS IRRITABILITY IS1 AS Y\ KN[1 *IEFLY DIRECT$ TO POLITICAL QUE/IONS4 ,HE CANNOT 5DURE ! NOTION ?AT ,BUONAP>TE IS NEGOTIAT+ ON EQUAL T]MS ) ALL ! SOV]EIGNS ( ,EUROPE & P>TICUL>LY ) \R [N1 ! GR&SON ( ! ,GREAT ,CA!R9E6 ,AS Y\ KN[1 ,I AM QUITE 9DIFF]5T TO POLITICS1 BUT FROM MY FA!R'S REM>KS & HIS TALKS ) ,MI*AEL ,IVANOVI* ,I KN[ ALL ?AT GOES ON 9 ! WORLD & ESPECIALLY AB\T ! HONORS CONF]R$ ON ,BUONAP>TE1 :O ONLY AT ,BALD ,HILLS 9 ! :OLE WORLD1 IT SEEMS1 IS NOT ACCEPT$ AS A GREAT MAN1 /ILL LESS AS ,EMP]OR ( ,FRANCE4 ,& MY FA!R CANNOT /& ?IS4 ,IT SEEMS TO ME ?AT IT IS *IEFLY BECAUSE ( HIS POLITICAL VIEWS ?AT MY FA!R IS RELUCTANT TO SPEAK ( GO+ TO ,MOSC[2 = HE =ESEES ! 5C\NT]S ?AT W\LD RESULT FROM HIS WAY ( EXPRESS+ HIS VIEWS REG>DLESS ( ANYBODY4 ,ALL ! B5EFIT HE MITE :I* W\LD BE 9EVITABLE4 ,9 ANY CASE IT WILL BE DECID$ V]Y %ORTLY4 ,\R FAMILY LIFE GOES ON 9 ! OLD WAY EXCEPT = MY BRO!R ,&REW'S ABS5CE4 ,HE1 AS ,I WROTE Y\ BE=E1 HAS *ANG$ V]Y MU* ( LATE4 ,AFT] HIS SORR[ HE ONLY ?IS YE> QUITE RECOV]$ HIS SPIRITS4 ,HE HAS AGA9 BECOME AS ,I US$ TO KN[ HIM :5 A *ILD3 K9D1 AFFECTIONATE1 ) ?AT HE>T ( GOLD TO :I* ,I KN[ NO EQUAL4 ,HE HAS REALIZ$1 IT SEEMS TO ME1 ?AT LIFE IS NOT OV] = HIM4 ,BUT TOGE!R ) ?IS M5TAL *ANGE HE HAS GR[N PHYSICALLY MU* WEAK]4 ,HE HAS BECOME ?9N] & MORE N]V\S4 ,I AM ANXI\S AB\T HIM & GLAD HE IS TAK+ ?IS TRIP ABROAD :I* ! DOCTORS RECOMM5D$ LONG AGO4 ,I HOPE IT WILL CURE HIM4 ,Y\ WRITE ?AT 9 ,PET]SBURG HE IS SPOK5 ( AS ONE ( ! MO/ ACTIVE1 CULTIVAT$1 & CAPABLE ( ! Y\NG M54 ,=GIVE MY VANITY AS A RELATION1 BUT ,I NEV] D\BT$ IT4 ,! GOOD HE HAS DONE TO EV]YBODY H]E1 FROM HIS PEASANTS UP TO ! G5TRY1 IS 9CALCULABLE4 ,ON HIS >RIVAL 9 ,PET]SBURG HE RECEIV$ ONLY HIS DUE4 ,I ALWAYS WOND] AT ! WAY RUMORS FLY FROM ,PET]SBURG TO ,MOSC[1 ESPECIALLY SU* FALSE ONES AS ?AT Y\ WRITE AB\T--,I MEAN ! REPORT ( MY BRO!R'S BETRO?AL TO ! LITTLE ,RO/OVA4 ,I DO NOT ?9K MY BRO!R WILL EV] M>RY AGA91 & C]TA9LY NOT H]2 & ?IS IS :Y3 FIR/1 ,I KN[ ?AT ?\< HE R>ELY SPEAKS AB\T ! WIFE HE HAS LO/1 ! GRIEF ( ?AT LOSS HAS GONE TOO DEEP 9 HIS HE>T = HIM EV] TO DECIDE TO GIVE H] A SUCCESSOR & \R LITTLE ANGEL A /EPMO!R4 ,SECONDLY BECAUSE1 AS F> AS ,I KN[1 ?AT GIRL IS NOT ! K9D ( GIRL :O C\LD PLEASE ,PR9CE ,&REW4 ,I DO NOT ?9K HE W\LD *OOSE H] = A WIFE1 & FRANKLY ,I DO NOT WI% IT4 ,BUT ,I AM RUNN+ ON TOO LONG & AM AT ! 5D ( MY SECOND %EET4 ,GOOD-BY1 MY DE> FRI5D4 ,MAY ,GOD KEEP Y\ 9 ,HIS HOLY & MIE4 ,MY DE> FRI5D1 ,MADEMOISELLE ,B\RI5NE1 S5DS Y\ KISSES4 ,M,>,Y ,FROM 3 ,GUT5B]G4ORG4 ,*RONOLOGY 3 ,NOVEMB] #c1 #ahfh 3 ,BOOK #f1 ,*APT] #be -- ,PUBLICATION4 ,FEBRU>Y #a#a1 #bag 3 ,BOOK #f1 ,*APT] #be -- ,ADD$4 FILE G5]AT$ FROM 3 HTTP3_/_/REVOLTLIB4COM_/