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,PEOPLE 3 

,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY 

,TEXT 3 

,?IS VISIT DEALT ! F9AL BL[ TO MY SELF-DELUSION4  ,IT N[ APPE>$ 9DISPUTABLE TO ME1 ?AT :AT ,I HAD UND]TAK5 WAS NOT ONLY FOOLI% BUT LOA?SOME4 

,BUT1 9 SPITE ( ! FACT ?AT ,I WAS AW>E ( ?IS1 IT SEEM$ TO ME ?AT ,I C\LD NOT AB&ON ! :OLE ?+ ON ! SPOT4  ,IT SEEM$ TO ME ?AT ,I WAS B\ND TO C>RY \T ?IS 5T]PRISE1 9 ! FIR/ PLACE1 BECAUSE BY MY >TICLE1 BY MY VISITS & PROMISES1 ,I HAD >\S$ ! EXPECTATIONS ( ! POOR2 9 ! SECOND1 BECAUSE BY MY >TICLE ALSO1 & BY MY TALK1 ,I HAD >\S$ ! SYMPA?IES ( B5EVOL5T P]SONS1 MANY ( :OM HAD PROMIS$ ME !IR COOP]ATION BO? 9 P]SONAL LABOR & 9 MONEY4  ,& ,I EXPECT$ ?AT BO? SETS ( PEOPLE W\LD TURN TO ME = AN ANSW] TO ?IS4 

,:AT HAPP5$ TO ME1 SO F> AS ! APPEAL ( ! NE$Y TO ME IS CONC]N$1 WAS AS FOLL[S3 ,BY LETT] & P]SONAL APPLICATION ,I RECEIV$ MORE ?AN A HUNDR$2 !SE APPLICATIONS W]E ALL FROM ! WEAL?Y-POOR1 IF ,I MAY SO EXPRESS MYSELF4  ,I W5T TO SEE SOME ( !M1 & SOME ( !M RECEIV$ NO ANSW]4  ,NO:]E DID ,I SUCCE$ 9 DO+ ANY ?+4  ,ALL APPLICATIONS TO ME W]E FROM P]SONS :O HAD ONCE OCCUPI$ PRIVILEG$ POSITIONS 7,I ?US DESIGNATE ?OSE 9 :I* PEOPLE RECEIVE MORE FROM O!RS ?AN !Y GIVE71 :O HAD LO/ !M1 & :O WI%$ TO OCCUPY !M AGA94  ,TO ONE1 TWO HUNDR$ RUBLES W]E 9DISP5SABLE1 9 ORD] ?AT HE MI<T PROP UP A FAIL+ BUS9ESS1 & COMPLETE ! $UCATION ( HIS *ILDR5 :I* HAD BE5 BEGUN2 ANO!R WANT$ A PHOTOGRAPHIC \TFIT2 A ?IRD WANT$ HIS DEBTS PAID1 & RESPECTABLE CLO?+ PUR*AS$ = HIM2 A F\R? NE$$ A PIANO1 9 ORD] TO P]FECT HIMSELF & SUPPORT HIS FAMILY BY GIV+ LESSONS4  ,BUT ! MAJORITY DID NOT /IPULATE = ANY GIV5 SUM ( MONEY1 & SIMPLY ASK$ = ASSI/ANCE2 & :5 ,I CAME TO EXAM9E 9TO :AT WAS REQUIR$1 IT TURN$ \T ?AT !IR DEM&S GREW 9 PROPORTION TO ! AID1 & ?AT !RE WAS NOT & C\LD NOT BE ANY WAY ( SATISFY+ !M4  ,I REPEAT1 ?AT IT IS V]Y POSSIBLE ?AT ?IS >OSE FROM ! FACT ?AT ,I DID NOT UND]/& H[2 BUT ,I DID NOT HELP ANY ONE1 AL?\< ,I SOMETIMES 5DEAVOR$ TO DO SO4 

,A V]Y /RANGE & UNEXPECT$ ?+ HAPP5$ TO ME AS REG>DS ! COOP]ATION ( ! B5EVOL5TLY DISPOS$4  ,\T ( ALL ! P]SONS :O HAD PROMIS$ ME F9ANCIAL AID1 & :O HAD EV5 /AT$ ! NUMB] ( RUBLES1 NOT A S+LE ONE H&$ TO ME = DI/RIBUTION AMONG ! POOR ONE SOLIT>Y RUBLE4  ,BUT ACCORD+ TO ! PL$GES :I* HAD BE5 GIV5 ME1 ,I C\LD RECKON ON AB\T ?REE ?\S& RUBLES2 & \T ( ALL !SE PEOPLE1 NOT ONE REMEMB]$ \R =M] DISCUSSIONS1 OR GAVE ME A S+LE KOPECK4  ,ONLY ! /UD5TS GAVE ! MONEY :I* HAD BE5 ASSIGN$ TO !M = !IR WORK ON ! C5SUS1 TWELVE RUBLES1 ,I ?9K4  ,SO MY :OLE S*EME1 :I* WAS TO HAVE BE5 EXPRESS$ BY T5S ( ?\S&S ( RUBLES CONTRIBUT$ BY ! WEAL?Y1 = HUNDR$S & ?\S&S ( POOR PEOPLE :O W]E TO BE RESCU$ FROM POV]TY & VISE1 DW9DL$ D[N TO ?IS1 ?AT ,I GAVE AWAY1 HAPHAZ>D1 A FEW SCORES ( RUBLES TO ?OSE PEOPLE :O ASK$ ME = !M1 & ?AT !RE REMA9$ 9 MY H&S TWELVE RUBIES CONTRIBUT$ BY ! /UD5TS1 & TW5TY-FIVE S5T TO ME BY ! ,CITY ,C\NCIL = MY LABOR AS A SUP]9T5D5T1 & ,I ABSOLUTELY DID NOT KN[ TO :OM TO GIVE !M4 

,! :OLE MATT] CAME TO AN 5D4  ,& !N1 BE=E MY DEP>TURE = ! C\NTRY1 ON ! ,SUNDAY BE=E C>NIVAL1 ,I W5T TO ! ,RZHAN(F H\SE 9 ! MORN+1 9 ORD] TO GET RID ( ?OSE ?IRTY-SEV5 RUBLES BE=E ,I %\LD LEAVE ,MOSC[1 & TO DI/RIBUTE !M TO ! POOR4  ,I MADE ! R\ND ( ! QU>T]S ) :I* ,I WAS FAMILI>1 & 9 !M F\ND ONLY ONE SICK MAN1 TO :OM ,I GAVE FIVE RUBLES4  ,!RE WAS NO ONE ELSE !RE TO GIVE ANY TO4  ,( C\RSE MANY BEGAN TO BEG ( ME4  ,BUT AS ,I HAD NOT KN[N !M AT FIR/1 SO ,I DID NOT KN[ !M N[1 & ,I MADE UP MY M9D TO TAKE C\NSEL ) ,IVAN ,F$OTIT*1 ! L&LORD ( ! TAV]N1 AS TO ! P]SONS UPON :OM IT W\LD BE PROP] TO BE/[ ! REMA9+ ?IRTY-TWO RUBIES4 

,IT WAS ! FIR/ DAY ( ! C>NIVAL4  ,EV]YBODY WAS DRESS$ UP1 & EV]YBODY WAS FULL-F$1 & MANY W]E ALREADY 9TOXICAT$4  ,9 ! C\RT-Y>D1 CLOSE TO ! H\SE1 /OOD AN OLD MAN1 A RAG-PICK]1 9 A TATT]$ SMOCK & BA/ %OES1 SORT+ OV] ! BOOTY 9 HIS BASKET1 TOSS+ \T LEA!R1 IRON1 & O!R /UFF 9 PILES1 & BREAK+ 9TO A M]RY SONG1 ) A F9E1 P[]FUL VOICE4  ,I 5T]$ 9TO CONV]SATION ) HIM4  ,HE WAS SEV5TY YE>S OLD1 HE WAS ALONE 9 ! WORLD1 & SUPPORT$ HIMSELF BY HIS CALL+ ( A RAG-PICK]2 & NOT ONLY DID HE UTT] NO COMPLA9TS1 BUT HE SAID ?AT HE HAD PL5TY TO EAT & DR9K4  ,I 9QUIR$ ( HIM AS TO ESPECIALLY NE$Y P]SONS4  ,HE FLEW 9TO A RAGE1 & SAID PLA9LY ?AT !RE W]E NO NE$Y PEOPLE1 EXCEPT DRUNK>DS & LAZY M52 BUT1 ON LE>N+ MY OBJECT1 HE ASK$ ME = A FIVE-KOPECK PIECE TO BUY A DR9K1 & RAN (F TO ! TAV]N4  ,I TOO 5T]$ ! TAV]N TO SEE ,IVAN ,F$OTIT*1 & COMMISSION HIM TO DI/RIBUTE ! MONEY :I* ,I HAD LEFT4  ,! TAV]N WAS FULL2 GAILY-DRESS$1 9TOXICAT$ GIRLS W]E FLITT+ 9 & \T2 ALL ! TABLES W]E OCCUPI$2 !RE W]E ALREADY A GREAT MANY DRUNK5 PEOPLE1 & 9 ! SMALL ROOM ! H>MONIUM WAS BE+ PLAY$1 & TWO P]SONS W]E DANC+4  ,\T ( RESPECT TO ME1 ,IVAN ,F$OTIT* ORD]$ ?AT ! DANCE %\LD BE /OPP$1 & SEAT$ HIMSELF ) ME AT A VACANT TABLE4  ,I SAID TO HIM1 ?AT1 AS HE KNEW HIS T5ANTS1 W\LD NOT HE PO9T \T TO ME ! MO/ NE$Y AMONG !M2 ?AT ,I HAD BE5 5TRU/$ ) ! DI/RIBUTION ( A LITTLE MONEY1 &1 !RE=E1 W\LD HE 9DICATE ! PROP] P]SONS8  ,GOOD-NATUR$ ,IVAN ,F$OTIT* 7HE DI$ A YE> LAT]71 AL?\< HE WAS PRESS$ ) BUS9ESS1 BROKE AWAY FROM IT = A TIME1 9 ORD] TO S]VE ME4  ,HE M$ITAT$1 & WAS EVID5TLY UNDECID$4  ,AN ELD]LY WAIT] HE>D US1 & JO9$ ! CONF]5CE4 

,!Y BEGAN TO DISCUSS ! CLAIMS ( P]SONS1 SOME ( :OM ,I KNEW1 BUT /ILL !Y C\LD NOT COME TO ANY AGREEM5T4  0,! ,P>AMONOVNA10 SUGGE/$ ! WAIT]4  0,YES1 ?AT W\LD DO4  ,SOMETIMES %E HAS NO?+ TO EAT4  ,YES1 BUT !N %E TIPPLES40--0,WELL1 :AT ( ?AT8  ,?AT MAKES NO DIFF]5CE40--0,WELL1 ,SIDORON ,IVANOVIT* HAS *ILDR54  ,HE W\LD DO40  ,BUT ,IVAN ,F$OTIT* HAD HIS D\BTS AB\T ,SIDORON ,IVANOVIT* ALSO4  0,AKUL9A %ALL HAVE SOME4  ,!RE1 N[1 GIVE SOME?+ TO ! BL9D40  ,TO ?IS ,I RESPOND$4  ,I SAW HIM AT ONCE4  ,HE WAS A BL9D OLD MAN ( EI<TY YE>S1 )\T KI? OR K94  ,IT SEEM$ AS ?\< NO CONDITION C\LD BE MORE PA9FUL1 & ,I W5T IMM$IATELY TO SEE HIM4  ,HE WAS LY+ ON A FEA!R-B$1 ON A HI< B$/EAD1 DRUNK2 &1 AS HE DID NOT SEE ME1 HE WAS SCOLD+ HIS COMP>ATIVELY Y\?FUL FEMALE COMPANION 9 A FRI<TFUL BASS VOICE1 & 9 ! V]Y WOR/ K9D ( LANGUAGE4  ,!Y ALSO SUMMON$ AN >MLESS BOY & HIS MO!R4  ,I SAW ?AT ,IVAN ,F$OTIT* WAS 9 GREAT /RAITS1 ON ACC\NT ( HIS CONSCI5TI\SNESS1 = ME KNEW ?AT :ATEV] WAS GIV5 W\LD IMM$IATELY PASS TO HIS TAV]N4  ,BUT ,I HAD TO GET RID ( MY ?IRTY-TWO RUBLES1 SO ,I 9SI/$2 & 9 ONE WAY & ANO!R1 & HALF WRONGFULLY TO BOOT1 WE ASSIGN$ & DI/RIBUT$ !M4  ,?OSE :O RECEIV$ !M W]E MO/LY WELL DRESS$1 & WE HAD NOT F> TO GO TO F9D !M1 AS !Y W]E !RE 9 ! TAV]N4  ,! >MLESS BOY APPE>$ 9 WR9KL$ BOOTS1 & A R$ %IRT & VE/4  ,) ?IS MY *>ITABLE C>E] CAME TO AN 5D1 & ,I W5T (F TO ! C\NTRY2 IRRITAT$ AT O!RS1 AS IS ALWAYS ! CASE1 BECAUSE ,I MYSELF HAD DONE A /UPID & A BAD ?+4  ,MY B5EVOL5CE HAD 5D$ 9 NO?+1 & IT CEAS$ ALTOGE!R1 BUT ! CURR5T ( ?\<TS & FEEL+S :I* IT HAD CALL$ UP ) ME NOT ONLY DID NOT COME TO AN 5D1 BUT ! 9W>D WORK W5T ON ) R$\BL$ =CE4 

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