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,AU?OR 3 ,LEO ,TOL/OY 

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,ON ! ,?URSDAY 9 ,EA/] WEEK ,PAPA1 MY SI/]1 ,KAT5KA1 & ,MIMI W5T AWAY 9TO ! C\NTRY1 & NO ONE REMA9$ 9 MY GR&MO!R'S GREAT H\SE BUT ,WOLODA1 ,/4 ,J]OME1 & MYSELF4 ,! FRAME ( M9D :I* ,I HAD EXP]I5C$ ON ! DAY ( MY CONFESSION & DUR+ MY SUBSEQU5T EXP$ITION TO ! MONA/]Y HAD N[ COMPLETELY PASS$ AWAY1 & LEFT BEH9D IT ONLY A DIM1 ?\< PLEAS+1 MEMORY :I* DAILY BECAME MORE & MORE SUBM]G$ BY ! IMPRESSIONS ( ?IS EMANCIPAT$ EXI/5CE4 

,! FOLIO 5DORS$ 0,RULES ( ,MY ,LIFE0 LAY CONCEAL$ B5EA? A PILE ( S*OOL-BOOKS4 ,AL?\< ! IDEA ( ! POSSIBILITY ( FRAM+ RULES1 = EV]Y OCCASION 9 MY LIFE & ALWAYS LETT+ MYSELF BE GUID$ BY !M /ILL PLEAS$ ME 7S9CE IT APPE>$ AN IDEA AT ONCE SIMPLE & MAGNIFIC5T1 & ,I WAS DET]M9$ TO MAKE PRACTICAL APPLICATION ( IT71 ,I SEEM$ SOMEH[ TO HAVE =GOTT5 TO PUT IT 9TO PRACTICE AT ONCE1 & KEPT DEF]R+ DO+ SO UNTIL SU* & SU* A MOM5T4 ,AT ! SAME TIME1 ,I TOOK PLEASURE 9 ! ?\<T ?AT EV]Y IDEA :I* N[ 5T]$ MY HEAD C\LD BE ALLOTT$ PRECISELY TO ONE OR O!R ( MY ?REE SECTIONS ( TASKS & DUTIES--?OSE = OR TO ,GOD1 ?OSE = OR TO MY NEI<BOR1 & ?OSE = OR TO MYSELF4 0,I CAN ALWAYS REF] EV]Y?+ TO !M10 ,I SAID TO MYSELF1 0AS WELL AS ! MANY1 MANY O!R IDEAS :I* OCCUR TO ME ON ONE SUBJECT OR ANO!R40 ,YET AT ?IS P]IOD ,I (T5 ASK$ MYSELF1 0,WAS ,I BETT] & MORE TRU?FUL :5 ,I ONLY BELIEV$ 9 ! P[] ( ! HUMAN 9TELLECT1 OR AM ,I MORE SO N[1 :5 ,I AM LOS+ ! FACULTY ( DEVELOP+ ?AT P[]1 & AM 9 D\BT BO? AS TO ITS POT5CY & AS TO ITS IMPORTANCE80 ,TO ?IS ,I C\LD RETURN NO POSITIVE ANSW]4 

,! S5SE ( FRE$OM1 COMB9$ ) ! SPR+-LIKE FEEL+ ( VAGUE EXPECTATION TO :I* ,I HAVE REF]R$ ALREADY1 SO UNSETTL$ ME ?AT ,I C\LD NOT KEEP MYSELF 9 H&--C\LD MAKE NONE BUT ! SORRIE/ ( PREP>ATIONS = MY ,UNIV]SITY ORDEAL4 ,?US ,I WAS BUSY 9 ! S*OOLROOM ONE MORN+1 & FULLY AW>E ?AT ,I MU/ WORK H>D1 SEE+ ?AT TOMORR[ WAS ! DAY ( MY EXAM9ATION 9 A SUBJECT ( :I* ,I HAD ! TWO :OLE QUE/IONS /ILL TO READ UP2 YET NO SOON] HAD A BREA? ( SPR+ COME WAFT$ ?R\< ! W9D[ ?AN ,I FELT AS ?\< !RE W]E SOME?+ QUITE DIFF]5T ?AT ,I WI%$ TO RECALL TO MY MEMORY4 ,MY H&S LAID D[N MY BOOK1 MY FEET BEGAN TO MOVE ( !MSELVES1 & TO SET ME WALK+ UP & D[N ! ROOM1 & MY HEAD FELT AS ?\< SOME ONE HAD SUDD5LY T\*$ 9 IT A LITTLE SPR+ & SET SOME MA*9E 9 MOTION--SO EASILY & SWIFTLY & NATURALLY DID ALL SORTS ( PLEAS+ FANCIES ( :I* ,I C\LD CAT* NO MORE ?AN ! RADIANCY BEG9 C\RS+ ?R\< IT4 ,?US ONE H\R1 TWO H\RS1 ELAPS$ UNP]CEIV$4 ,EV5 IF ,I SAT D[N DET]M9$LY TO MY BOOK1 & MANAG$ TO CONC5TRATE MY :OLE ATT5TION UPON :AT ,I WAS READ+1 SUDD5LY !RE W\LD S\ND 9 ! CORRIDOR ! FOOT/EPS ( A WOMAN & ! RU/LE ( H] DRESS4 ,9/ANTLY EV]Y?+ W\LD ESCAPE MY M9D1 & ,I W\LD F9D IT IMPOSSIBLE TO REMA9 /ILL ANY LONG]1 H[EV] MU* ,I KNEW ?AT ! WOMAN C\LD ONLY BE EI!R ,GA%A OR MY GR&MO!R'S OLD SEW+-MAID MOV+ AB\T 9 ! CORRIDOR4 0,YET SUPPOSE IT %\LD BE ,%,E ALL AT ONCE80 ,I W\LD SAY TO MYSELF4 0,SUPPOSE ,I,T IS BEG9N+ N[1 & ,I W]E TO LOSE IT80 &1 D>T+ \T 9TO ! CORRIDOR1 ,I W\LD F9D1 EA* TIME1 ?AT IT WAS ONLY ,GA%A4 ,YET = LONG 5\< AFT]W>DS ,I C\LD NOT RECALL MY ATT5TION TO MY /UDIES4 ,A LITTLE SPR+ HAD BE5 T\*$ 9 MY HEAD1 & A /RANGE M5TAL F]M5T />T$ AFRE%4 ,AGA91 ?AT EV5+ ,I WAS SITT+ ALONE BESIDE A TALL[ C&LE 9 MY ROOM4 ,SUDD5LY ,I LOOK$ UP = A MOM5T--TO SNUFF ! C&LE1 OR TO /RAI<T5 MYSELF 9 MY *AIR--& AT ONCE BECAME AW>E ( NO?+ BUT ! D>KNESS 9 ! CORN]S & ! BLANK ( ! OP5 DOORWAY4 ,!N1 ,I ALSO BECAME CONSCI\S H[ /ILL ! H\SE WAS1 & FELT AS ?\< ,I C\LD DO NO?+ ELSE ?AN GO ON LI/5+ TO ?AT /ILLNESS1 & GAZ+ 9TO ! BLACK SQU>E ( ?AT OP5 DOORWAY1 & GRADUALLY S9K+ 9TO A BR[N /UDY AS ,I SAT !RE )\T MOV+4 ,AT 9T]VALS1 H[EV]1 ,I W\LD GET UP1 & GO D[N/AIRS1 & BEG9 W&]+ ?R\< ! EMPTY ROOMS4 ,ONCE ,I SAT A LONG :ILE 9 ! SMALL DRAW+-ROOM AS ,I LI/5$ TO ,GA%A PLAY+ 0,! ,NI<T+ALE0 7) TWO F+]S7 ON ! PIANO 9 ! L>GE DRAW+-ROOM1 :]E A SOLIT>Y C&LE BURN$4 ,LAT]1 :5 ! MOON WAS BRI<T1 ,I FELT OBLIG$ TO GET \T ( B$ & TO LEAN \T ( ! W9D[1 SO ?AT ,I MI<T GAZE 9TO ! G>D51 & AT ! LI<T$ RO( ( ! ,%APOSNIK(F MANSION1 ! /RAI<T T[] ( \R P>I% *UR*1 & ! D>K %AD[S ( ! F5CE & ! LILAC-BU% :]E !Y LAY BLACK UPON ! PA?4 ,SO LONG DID ,I REMA9 !RE ?AT1 :5 ,I AT L5G? RETURN$ TO B$1 IT WAS T5 O'CLOCK 9 ! MORN+ BE=E ,I C\LD OP5 MY EYES AGA94 

,9 %ORT1 HAD IT NOT BE5 = ! TUTORS :O CAME TO GIVE ME LESSONS1 AS WELL AS = ,/4 ,J]OME 7:O AT 9T]VALS1 & V]Y GRUDG+LY1 APPLI$ A SPUR TO MY SELF-CONCEIT7 &1 MO/ ( ALL1 = ! DESIRE TO FIGURE AS 0CLEV]0 9 ! EYES ( MY FRI5D ,NE*LUD(F 7:O LOOK$ UPON DI/9CTIONS 9 ,UNIV]SITY EXAM9ATIONS AS A MATT] ( FIR/-RATE IMPORTANCE7--HAD IT NOT BE5 = ALL !SE ?+S1 ,I SAY1 ! SPR+ & MY NEW FRE$OM W\LD HAVE COMB9$ TO MAKE ME =GET EV]Y?+ ,I HAD EV] LE>N$1 & SO TO GO ?R\< ! EXAM9ATIONS TO NO PURPOSE :ATSOEV]4 

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