,M>IA ,OR1 ! ,WRONGS ( ,WOMAN #agih ,PEOPLE 3 ,AU?OR 3 ,M>Y ,WOLL/ONECRAFT ,SECTIONS 7,T,O,C7 3 O ,PREFACE #dgc ,WORDS2 #b1#g#i#g ,*>ACT]S O ,AU?OR'S ,PREFACE #di ,WORDS2 #b1#d#d#f ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #a #b1#b#e#a ,WORDS2 #a#c1#d#e ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #b #c1#d#d#d ,WORDS2 #b1#d#a ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #c #b1#f#c#c ,WORDS2 #a#e1#f#g#d ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #d #a1#c#c#c ,WORDS2 #h1#c ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #e #g1#d#g ,WORDS2 #c#i1#g#b#g ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #f #a1#d#a#g ,WORDS2 #h1#a#h#h ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #g #d1#c#e#f ,WORDS2 #b#d1#g#i#c ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #h #a1#e#e ,WORDS2 #h1#h#e#b ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #i #b1#i#c#i ,WORDS2 #a#f1#f#d#a ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #a #b1#g#i#g ,WORDS2 #a#f1#i#d ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #aa #b1#i#a#b ,WORDS2 #a#f1#e#e#e ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #ab #c1#a#c ,WORDS2 #a#g1#f#i#b ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #ac #c1#a#i ,WORDS2 #a#f1#h#b#c ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #ad #a1#e#c#i ,WORDS2 #h1#g#d#h ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #ae #ha ,WORDS2 #d1#f#i#a ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #af #a1#g#h ,WORDS2 #a1#d#d ,*>ACT]S O ,*APT] #ag #a1#i#d#i ,WORDS2 #a#a1#a#c#d ,*>ACT]S O ,CONCLUSION #a1#h ,WORDS2 #f1#d#g#i ,*>ACT]S ,SECTIONS 7,CONT5T7 3 O ,PREFACE ,! ,P,U,B,L,I,C >E H]E PRES5T$ ) ! LA/ LIT]>Y ATTEMPT ( AN AU?OR1 :OSE FAME HAS BE5 UNCOMMONLY EXT5SIVE1 & :OSE TAL5TS HAVE PROBABLY BE5 MO/ ADMIR$1 BY ! P]SONS BY :OM TAL5TS >E E/IMAT$ ) ! GREATE/ ACCURACY & DISCRIM9ATION4 ,!RE >E FEW1 TO :OM H] WRIT+S C\LD 9 ANY CASE HAVE GIV5 PLEASURE1 ?AT W\LD HAVE WI%$ ?AT ?IS FRAGM5T %\LD HAVE BE5 SUPPRESS$1 BECAUSE IT IS A FRAGM5T4 ,!RE IS A S5TIM5T1 V]Y DE> TO M9DS ( TA/E & IMAG9ATION1 ?AT F9DS A MELAN*OLY DELI FROM CONSID]+ AS F9I%$1 &1 9 A LETT] TO A FRI5D DIRECTLY WRITT5 ON ?IS SUBJECT1 %E SAYS1 0,I AM P]FECTLY AW>E ?AT SOME ( ! 9CID5TS \MONI\S %AD+2 & ,I WI%$ 9 SOME DEGREE TO AVAIL MYSELF ( CRITICISM1 BE=E ,I BEGAN TO ADJU/ MY EV5TS 9TO A /ORY1 ! \TL9E ( :I* ,I HAD SKET*$ 9 MY M9D40 "9 ,! ONLY FRI5DS TO :OM ! AU?OR COMMUNICAT$ H] MANUSCRIPT1 W]E ,MR4 ,DYSON1 ! TRANSLATOR ( ! ,SORC]]1 & ! PRES5T $ITOR2 & IT WAS IMPOSSIBLE = ! MO/ 9EXP]I5C$ AU?OR TO DISPLAY A /RONG] DESIRE ( PR(IT+ BY ! C5SURES & S5TIM5TS ?AT MIT COMMUNICAT$ CONSI/$ ( ! FIR/ F\RTE5 *APT]S4 ,9 REVIS+ !SE %EETS = ! PRESS1 IT WAS NECESS>Y = ! $ITOR1 9 SOME PLACES1 TO CONNECT ! MORE F9I%$ P>TS ) ! PAGES ( AN OLD] COPY1 & A L9E OR TWO 9 ADDITION SOMETIMES APPE>$ REQUISITE = ?AT PURPOSE4 ,:]EV] SU* A LIB]TY HAS BE5 TAK51 ! ADDITIONAL PHRASES WILL BE F\ND 5CLOS$ 9 BRACKETS2 IT BE+ ! $ITOR'S MO/ E>NE/ DESIRE TO 9TRUDE NO?+ ( HIMSELF 9TO ! WORK1 BUT TO GIVE TO ! PUBLIC ! WORDS1 AS WELL AS IDEAS1 ( ! REAL AU?OR4 ,:AT FOLL[S 9 ! 5SU+ PAGES1 IS NOT A PREFACE REGUL>LY DRAWN \T BY ! AU?OR1 BUT M]ELY H9TS = A PREFACE1 :I*1 ?\< NEV] FILL$ UP 9 ! MANN] ! WRIT] 9T5D$1 APPE>$ TO BE WOR? PRES]V+4 ,W4 ,G,O,D,W,94 O ,AU?OR'S ,PREFACE ,! ,W,R,O,N,G,S ,( ,W,O,M,A,N1 LIKE ! WRONGS ( ! OPPRESS$ P>T ( MANK9D1 MAY BE DEEM$ NECESS>Y BY !IR OPPRESSORS3 BUT SURELY !RE >E A FEW1 :O WILL D>E TO ADVANCE BE=E ! IMPROVEM5T ( ! AGE1 & GRANT ?AT MY SKET*ES >E NOT ! ABORTION ( A DI/EMP]$ FANCY1 OR ! /RONG DEL9EATIONS ( A W\ND$ HE>T4 ,9 WRIT+ ?IS NOVEL1 ,I HAVE RA!R 5DEAVOR$ TO P\RTRAY PASSIONS ?AN MANN]S4 ,9 MANY 9/ANCES ,I C\LD HAVE MADE ! 9CID5TS MORE DRAMATIC1 W\LD ,I HAVE SACRIFIC$ MY MA9 OBJECT1 ! DESIRE ( EXHIBIT+ ! MIS]Y & OPPRESSION1 PECULI> TO WOM51 ?AT >ISE \T ( ! P>TIAL LAWS & CU/OMS ( SOCIETY4 ,9 ! 9V5TION ( ! /ORY1 ?IS VIEW RE/RA9$ MY FANCY2 & ! HI/ORY \Y1 >E TO BE BORN IMMACULATE1 & TO ACT LIKE GODDESSES ( WISDOM1 JU/ COME =? HI ,= MY P>T1 ,I CANNOT SUPPOSE ANY SITUATION MORE DI/RESS+1 ?AN = A WOMAN ( S5SIBILITY1 ) AN IMPROV+ M9D1 TO BE B\ND TO SU* A MAN AS ,I HAVE DESCRIB$ = LIFE2 OBLIG$ TO R5\NCE ALL ! HUMANIZ+ AFFECTIONS1 & TO AVOID CULTIVAT+ H] TA/E1 LE/ H] P]CEPTION ( GRACE & REF9EM5T ( S5TIM5T1 %\LD %>P5 TO AGONY ! PANGS ( DISAPPO9TM5T4 ,LOVE1 9 :I* ! IMAG9ATION M+LES ITS BEWIT*+ COLOR+1 MU/ BE FO/]$ BY DELICACY4 ,I %\LD DESPISE1 OR RA!R CALL H] AN ORD9>Y WOMAN1 :O C\LD 5DURE SU* A HUSB& AS ,I HAVE SKET*$4 ,!SE APPE> TO ME 7MATRIMONIAL DESPOTISM ( HE>T & CONDUCT7 TO BE ! PECULI> ,WRONGS ( ,WOMAN1 BECAUSE !Y DEGRADE ! M9D4 ,:AT >E T]M$ GREAT MIS=TUNES1 MAY MORE =CIBLY IMPRESS ! M9D ( COMMON READ]S2 !Y HAVE MORE ( :AT MAY JU/LY BE T]M$ /AGE-EFFECT2 BUT IT IS ! DEL9EATION ( F9] S5SATIONS1 :I*1 9 MY OP9ION1 CON/ITUTES ! M]IT ( \R BE/ NOVELS4 ,?IS IS :AT ,I HAVE 9 VIEW2 & TO %[ ! WRONGS ( DIFF]5T CLASSES ( WOM51 EQUALLY OPPRESSIVE1 ?\<1 FROM ! DIFF]5CE ( $UCATION1 NECESS>ILY V>I\S4 O ,*APT] #a ,ABODES ( HORROR HAVE FREQU5TLY BE5 DESCRIB$1 & CA/LES1 FILL$ ) SPECT]S & *IM]AS1 CONJUR$ UP BY ! MAGIC SPELL ( G5IUS TO H>R[ ! S\L1 & ABSORB ! WOND]+ M9D4 ,BUT1 =M$ ( SU* /UFF AS DREAMS >E MADE (1 :AT W]E !Y TO ! MANSION ( DESPAIR1 9 ONE CORN] ( :I* ,M>IA SAT1 5DEAVOR+ TO RECALL H] SCATT]$ ?\TL$ BIRDS1 MODULAT$ BY A ROMANTIC FANCY1 :I* AMUSE :ILE !Y AFFRIRY A DREADFUL C]TA9TY DIRECTLY TO ! HE>T4 ,:AT EFFECT MU/ !Y !N HAVE PRODUC$ ON ONE1 TRUE TO ! T\* ( SYMPA?Y1 & TORTUR$ BY MAT]NAL APPREH5SION6 ,H] 9FANT'S IMAGE WAS CONT9UALLY FLOAT+ ON ,M>IA'S SID H] HALF SPEAK+ HALF COO+1 & FELT ! LITTLE TW9KL+ F+]S ON H] BURN+ BOSOM--A BOSOM BUR/+ ) ! NUTRIM5T = :I* ?IS *]I%$ *ILD MIIA WAS GRIEV$ AT ! ?\CELY LESS AFFLICT+4 ,AFT] BE+ TWO DAYS ! PREY ( IMPETU\S1 V>Y+ EMOTIONS1 ,M>IA BEGAN TO REFLECT MORE CALMLY ON H] PRES5T SITUATION1 = %E HAD ACTUALLY BE5 R5D]$ 9CAPABLE ( SOB] REFLECTION1 BY ! DISCOV]Y ( ! ACT ( ATROCITY ( :I* %E WAS ! VICTIM4 ,%E C\LD NOT HAVE IMAG9$1 ?AT1 9 ALL ! F]M5TATION ( CIVILIZ$ DEPRAVITY1 A SIMIL> PLOT C\LD HAVE 5T]$ A HUMAN M9D4 ,%E HAD BE5 /UNN$ BY AN UNEXPECT$ BL[2 YET LIFE1 H[EV] JOYLESS1 WAS NOT TO BE 9DOL5TLY RESIGN$1 OR MIS]Y 5DUR$ )\T EX]TION1 & PR\DLY T]M$ PATI5CE4 ,%E HAD HI!RTO M$ITAT$ ONLY TO PO9T ! D>T ( ANGUI%1 & SUPPRESS$ ! HE>T HEAV+S ( 9DIGNANT NATURE M]ELY BY ! =CE ( CONTEMPT4 ,N[ %E 5DEAVOR$ TO BRACE H] M9D TO =TITUDE1 & TO ASK H]SELF :AT WAS TO BE H] EMPLOYM5T 9 H] DRE>Y CELL8 ,WAS IT NOT TO EFFECT H] ESCAPE1 TO FLY TO ! SUCCOR ( H] *ILD1 & TO BAFFLE ! SELFI% S*EMES ( H] TYRANT--H] HUSB&8 ,!SE ?\MS4 ,BUT ?IS WAS AN \TRAGE ?AT C\LD ONLY EXCITE MOM5T>Y FEEL+S ( SCORN1 :I* EVAPORAT$ 9 A FA9T SMILE2 = ,M>IA WAS F> FROM ?9K+ A P]SONAL 9SULT ! MO/ DIFFICULT TO 5DURE ) MAGNANIM\S 9DIFF]5CE4 ,%E APPROA*$ ! SMALL GRAT$ W9D[ ( H] *AMB]1 & = A CONSID]ABLE TIME ONLY REG>D$ ! BLUE EXPANSE2 ?\< IT COMM&$ A VIEW ( A DESOLATE G>D51 & ( P>T ( A HUGE PILE ( BUILD+S1 ?AT1 AFT] HAV+ BE5 SUFF]$1 = HALF A C5TURY1 TO FALL TO DECAY1 HAD UND]GONE SOME CLUMSY REPAIRS1 M]ELY TO R5D] IT HABITABLE4 ,! IVY HAD BE5 TORN (F ! TURRETS1 & ! /ONES NOT WANT$ TO PAT* UP ! BREA*ES ( TIME1 & EXCLUDE ! W>R+ ELEM5TS1 LEFT 9 HEAPS 9 ! DISORD]$ C\RT4 ,M>IA CONTEMPLAT$ ?IS SC5E %E KNEW NOT H[ LONG2 OR RA!R GAZ$ ON ! WALLS1 & POND]$ ON H] SITUATION4 ,TO ! MA/] ( ?IS MO/ HORRID ( PRISONS1 %E HAD1 SOON AFT] H] 5TRANCE1 RAV$ ( 9JU/ICE1 9 ACC5TS ?AT W\LD HAVE JU/IFI$ HIS TREATM5T1 HAD NOT A MALIGNANT SMILE1 :5 %E APPEAL$ TO HIS JUDGM5T1 ) A DREADFUL CONVICTION /IFL$ H] REMON/RAT+ COMPLA9TS4 ,BY =CE1 OR OP5LY1 :AT C\LD BE DONE8 ,BUT SURELY SOME EXP$I5T MIK$ FEATURES1 & L>GE BLACK EYES1 :I* %E FIX$ /EADILY ON ,M>IA'S1 AS IF %E DESIGN$ TO 9TIMIDATE H]1 SAY+ AT ! SAME TIME 0,Y\ HAD BETT] SIT D[N & EAT Y\R D9N]1 ?AN LOOK AT ! CL\DS40 0,I HAVE NO APPETITE10 REPLI$ ,M>IA1 :O HAD PREVI\SLY DET]M9$ TO SPEAK MILDLY2 0:Y !N %\LD ,I EAT80 0,BUT1 9 SPITE ( ?AT1 Y\ MU/ & %ALL EAT SOME?+4 ,I HAVE HAD MANY LADIES UND] MY C>E1 :O HAVE RESOLV$ TO />VE !MSELVES2 BUT1 SOON OR LATE1 !Y GAVE UP !IR 9T5T1 AS !Y RECOV]$ !IR S5SES40 0,DO Y\ REALLY ?9K ME MAD80 ASK$ ,M>IA1 MEET+ ! SE>*+ GLANCE ( H] EYE4 0,NOT JU/ N[4 ,BUT :AT DOES ?AT PROVE8--,ONLY ?AT Y\ MU/ BE ! MORE C>EFULLY WAT*$1 = APPE>+ AT TIMES SO REASONABLE4 ,Y\ HAVE NOT T\*$ A MORSEL S9CE Y\ 5T]$ ! H\SE40--,M>IA SI<$ 9TELLIGIBLY4--0,C\LD ANY ?+ BUT MADNESS PRODUCE SU* A DISGU/ = FOOD80 0,YES1 GRIEF2 Y\ W\LD NOT ASK ! QUE/ION IF Y\ KNEW :AT IT WAS40 ,! ATT5DANT %OOK H] HEAD2 & A IA PAUSE1 BE=E %E ADD$--0,YET ,I WILL TAKE SOME REFRE%M5T3 ,I MEAN NOT TO DIE4--,NO2 ,I WILL PRES]VE MY S5SES2 & CONV9CE EV5 Y\1 SOON] ?AN Y\ >E AW>E (1 ?AT MY 9TELLECTS HAVE NEV] BE5 DI/URB$1 ?\< ! EX]TION ( !M MAY HAVE BE5 SUSP5D$ BY SOME 9F]NAL DRUG40 ,D\BT GA!R$ /ILL ?ICK] ON ! BR[ ( H] GU>D1 AS %E ATTEMPT$ TO CONVICT H] ( MI/AKE4 0,HAVE PATI5CE60 EXCLAIM$ ,M>IA1 ) A SOLEMNITY ?AT 9SPIR$ AWE4 0,MY ,GOD6 H[ HAVE ,I BE5 S*OOL$ 9TO ! PRACTICE60 ,A SUFFOCATION ( VOICE BETRAY$ ! AGONIZ+ EMOTIONS %E WAS LABOR+ TO KEEP D[N2 & CONQU]+ A QUALM ( DISGU/1 %E CALMLY 5DEAVOR$ TO EAT 5\< TO PROVE H] DOCILITY1 P]PETUALLY TURN+ TO ! SUSPICI\S FEMALE1 :OSE OBS]VATION %E C\RT$1 :ILE %E WAS MAK+ ! B$ & ADJU/+ ! ROOM4 0,COME TO ME (T510 SAID ,M>IA1 ) A TONE ( P]SUASION1 9 CONSEQU5CE ( A VAGUE PLAN ?AT %E HAD HA/ILY ADOPT$1 :51 AFT] SURVEY+ ?IS WOMAN'S =M & FEATURES1 %E FELT CONV9C$ ?AT %E HAD AN UND]/&+ ABOVE ! COMMON /&>D1 0& BELIEVE ME MAD1 TILL Y\ >E OBLIG$ TO ACKN[L$GE ! CONTR>Y40 ,! WOMAN WAS NO FOOL1 ?AT IS1 %E WAS SUP]IOR TO H] CLASS2 NOR HAD MIS]Y QUITE PETRIFI$ ! LIFE'S-BLOOD ( HUMANITY1 TO :I* REFLECTIONS ON \R [N MIS=TUNES ONLY GIVE A MORE ORD]LY C\RSE4 ,! MANN]1 RA!R ?AN ! EXPO/ULATIONS1 ( ,M>IA MADE A SLIT 9TO H] M9D ) CORRESPOND+ SYMPA?Y1 :I* V>I\S O!R AVOCATIONS1 & ! HABIT ( BANI%+ COMPUNCTION1 PREV5T$ H]1 = ! PRES5T1 FROM EXAM9+ MORE M9UTELY4 ,BUT :5 %E WAS TOLD ?AT NO P]SON1 EXCEPT+ ! PHYSICIAN APPO9T$ BY H] FAMILY1 WAS TO BE P]MITT$ TO SEE ! LADY AT ! 5D ( ! GALL]Y1 %E OP5$ H] KE5 EYES /ILL WID]1 & UTT]$ A--0HEM60 BE=E %E 9QUIR$--0,:Y80 ,%E WAS BRIEFLY TOLD1 9 REPLY1 ?AT ! MALADY WAS H]$IT>Y1 & ! FITS NOT OCCURR+ BUT AT V]Y LONG & IRREGUL> 9T]VALS1 %E MU/ BE C>EFULLY WAT*$2 = ! L5G? ( !SE LUCID P]IODS ONLY R5D]$ H] MORE MIS*IEV\S1 :5 ANY VEXATION OR CAPRICE BR\OXYSM ( PHR5SY4 ,HAD H] MA/] TRU/$ H]1 IT IS PROBABLE ?AT NEI!R PITY NOR CURIOSITY W\LD HAVE MADE H] SW]VE FROM ! /RAIE SUPPOSITION ?AT %E C\LD BE DECEIV$ ) ! SAME EASE AS A COMMON S]VANT1 %E NO LONG] CURB$ H] CURIOSITY2 &1 ?\< %E NEV] S]I\SLY FA?OM$ H] [N 9T5TIONS1 %E W\LD SIT1 EV]Y MOM5T %E C\LD /EAL FROM OBS]VATION1 LI/5+ TO ! TALE1 :I* ,M>IA WAS EAG] TO RELATE ) ALL ! P]SUASIVE ELOQU5CE ( GRIEF4 ,IT IS SO *E]+ TO SEE A HUMAN FACE1 EV5 IF LITTLE ( ! DIV9ITY ( VIRTUE BEAM 9 IT1 ?AT ,M>IA ANXI\SLY EXPECT$ ! RETURN ( ! ATT5DANT1 AS ( A GLEAM ( LIP5 ! FACULTIES TO ! TWO OPPOSITE EXTREMES2 PRODUC+ /UPIDITY1 ! MOP+ MELAN*OLY ( 9DOL5CE2 OR ! RE/LESS ACTIVITY ( A DI/URB$ IMAG9ATION4 ,%E SUNK 9TO ONE /ATE1 AFT] BE+ FATIGU$ BY ! O!R3 TILL ! WANT ( OCCUPATION BECAME EV5 MORE PA9FUL ?AN ! ACTUAL PRESSURE OR APPREH5SION ( SORR[2 & ! CONF9EM5T ?AT FROZE H] 9TO A NOOK ( EXI/5CE1 ) AN UNV>I$ PROSPECT BE=E H]1 ! MO/ 9SUPPORTABLE ( EVILS4 ,! LAMP ( LIFE SEEM$ TO BE SP5D+ ITSELF TO *ASE ! VAPORS ( A DUNGEON :I* NO >T C\LD DISSIPATE4--,& TO :AT PURPOSE DID %E RALLY ALL H] 5]GY8--,WAS NOT ! WORLD A VA/ PRISON1 & WOM5 BORN SLAVES8 ,?\< %E FAIL$ IMM$IATELY TO R\SE A LIVELY S5SE ( 9JU/ICE 9 ! M9D ( H] GU>D1 BECAUSE IT HAD BE5 SOPHI/ICAT$ 9TO MISAN?ROPY1 %E T\*$ H] HE>T4 ,JEMIMA 7%E HAD ONLY A CLAIM TO A ,*RI/IAN NAME1 :I* HAD NOT PROCUR$ H] ANY ,*RI/IAN PRIVILEGES7 C\LD PATI5TLY HE> ( ,M>IA'S CONF9EM5T ON FALSE PRET5SES2 %E HAD FELT ! CRU%+ H& ( P[]1 H>D5$ BY ! EX]CISE ( 9JU/ICE1 & CEAS$ TO WOND] AT ! P]V]SIONS ( ! UND]/&+1 :I* SY/EMIZE OPPRESSION2 BUT1 :5 TOLD ?AT H] *ILD1 ONLY F\R MON?S OLD1 HAD BE5 TORN FROM H]1 EV5 :ILE %E WAS DIS*>G+ ! T5D]E/ MAT]NAL (FICE1 ! WOMAN AWOKE 9 A BOSOM LONG E/RANG$ FROM FEM99E EMOTIONS1 & ,JEMIMA DET]M9$ TO ALLEVIATE ALL 9 H] P[]1 )\T HAZ>D+ ! LOSS ( H] PLACE1 ! SUFF]+S ( A WRET*$ MO!R1 APP>5TLY 9JUR$1 & C]TA9LY UNHAPPY4 ,A S5SE ( RIISON MAY BE C>RI$ /ILL F>!R7 H[ (T5 IS ! EXQUISITE S5SIBILITY ( BO? WEAK5$ OR DE/ROY$ BY ! VULG> OCCUPATIONS1 & IGNOBLE PLEASURES ( LIFE8 ,! PRES]V+ H] SITUATION WAS1 9DE$1 AN IMPORTANT OBJECT TO ,JEMIMA1 :O HAD BE5 HUNT$ FROM HOLE TO HOLE1 AS IF %E HAD BE5 A BEA/ ( PREY1 OR 9FECT$ ) A MORAL PLAGUE4 ,! WAGES %E RECEIV$1 ! GREAT] P>T ( :I* %E HO>D$1 AS H] ONLY *ANCE = 9DEP5D5CE1 W]E MU* MORE CONSID]ABLE ?AN %E C\LD RECKON ON OBTA9+ ANY :]E ELSE1 W]E IT POSSIBLE ?AT %E1 AN \TCA/ FROM SOCIETY1 C\LD BE P]MITT$ TO E>N A SUBSI/5CE 9 A REPUTABLE FAMILY4 ,HE>+ ,M>IA P]PETUALLY COMPLA9 ( LI/LESSNESS1 & ! NOT BE+ ABLE TO BEGUILE GRIEF BY RESUM+ H] CU/OM>Y PURSUITS1 %E WAS EASILY PREVAIL$ ON1 BY COMPASSION1 & ?AT 9VOLUNT>Y RESPECT = ABILITIES1 :I* ?OSE :O POSSESS !M CAN NEV] ]ADICATE1 TO BR+ H] SOME BOOKS & IMPLEM5TS = WRIT+4 ,M>IA'S CONV]SATION HAD AMUS$ & 9T]E/$ H]1 & ! NATURAL CONSEQU5CE WAS A DESIRE1 SC>CELY OBS]V$ BY H]SELF1 ( OBTA9+ ! E/EEM ( A P]SON %E ADMIR$4 ,! REMEMBRANCE ( BETT] DAYS WAS R5D]$ MORE LIVELY2 & ! S5TIM5TS !N ACQUIR$ APPE>+ LESS ROMANTIC ?AN !Y HAD = A LONG P]IOD1 A SP>K ( HOPE R\S$ H] M9D TO NEW ACTIVITY4 ,H[ GRATEFUL WAS H] ATT5TION TO ,M>IA6 ,OPPRESS$ BY A DEAD WEIK TO 9DICATE ! PROGRESS ( TIME2 TO F9D EMPLOYM5T WAS !N TO F9D V>IETY1 ! ANIMAT+ PR9CIPLE ( NATURE4 O ,*APT] #b ,E>NE/LY AS ,M>IA 5DEAVOR$ TO SOO!1 BY READ+1 ! ANGUI% ( H] W\ND$ M9D1 H] ?\S ( MAT]NAL T5D]NESS OBSCUR$ ! REASON+ PAGE4 ,%E DESCANT$ ON 0! ILLS :I* FLE% IS HEIR TO10 ) BITT]NESS1 :5 ! RECOLLECTION ( H] BABE WAS REVIV$ BY A TALE ( FICTITI\S WOE1 ?AT BORE ANY RESEMBLANCE TO H] [N2 & H] IMAG9ATION WAS CONT9UALLY EMPLOY$1 TO CONJURE UP & EMBODY ! V>I\S PHANTOMS ( MIS]Y1 :I* FOLLY & VICE HAD LET LOOSE ON ! WORLD4 ,! LOSS ( H] BABE WAS ! T5D] /R+2 AGA9/ O!R CRUEL REMEMBRANCES %E LABOR$ TO /EEL H] BOSOM2 & EV5 A RAY ( HOPE1 9 ! MID/ ( H] GLOOMY REV]IES1 W\LD SOMETIMES GLEAM ON ! D>K HORIZON ( FUTURITY1 :ILE P]SUAD+ H]SELF ?AT %E \LY BLIT4 ,! BOOKS %E HAD OBTA9$1 W]E SOON DEV\R$1 BY ONE :O HAD NO O!R RES\RCE TO ESCAPE FROM SORR[1 & ! FEV]I% DREAMS ( IDEAL WRET*$NESS OR FELICITY1 :I* EQUALLY WEAK5 ! 9TOXICAT$ S5SIBILITY4 ,WRIT+ WAS !N ! ONLY ALT]NATIVE1 & %E WROTE SOME RHAPSODIES DESCRIPTIVE ( ! /ATE ( H] M9D2 BUT ! EV5TS ( H] PA/ LIFE PRESS+ ON H]1 %E RESOLV$ CIRCUM/ANTIALLY TO RELATE !M1 ) ! S5TIM5TS ?AT EXP]I5CE1 & MORE MATUR$ REASON1 W\LD NATURALLY SUGGE/4 ,!Y MIACT]4 ,?\< ?IS EMPLOYM5T LIIA DID NOT ALL[ ANY OPPORTUNITY TO SLIP ( W9N+ ON ! AFFECTIONS ( ,JEMIMA2 = %E DISCOV]$ 9 H] A /R5G? ( M9D1 ?AT EXCIT$ H] E/EEM1 CL\D$ AS IT WAS BY ! MISAN?ROPY ( DESPAIR4 ,AN 9SULAT$ BE+1 FROM ! MIS=TUNE ( H] BIR?1 %E DESPIS$ & PREY$ ON ! SOCIETY BY :I* %E HAD BE5 OPPRESS$1 & LOV$ NOT H] FELL[-CREATURES1 BECAUSE %E HAD NEV] BE5 BELOV$4 ,NO MO!R HAD EV] FONDL$ H]1 NO FA!R OR BRO!R HAD PROTECT$ H] FROM \TRAGE2 & ! MAN :O HAD PLUNG$ H] 9TO 9FAMY1 & DES]T$ H] :5 %E /OOD 9 GREATE/ NE$ ( SUPPORT1 DEIGN$ NOT TO SMOO? ) K9DNESS ! ROAD TO RU94 ,?US DEGRAD$1 WAS %E LET LOOSE ON ! WORLD2 & VIRTUE1 NEV] NURTUR$ BY AFFECTION1 ASSUM$ ! /]N ASPECT ( SELFI% 9DEP5D5CE4 ,?IS G5]AL VIEW ( H] LIFE1 ,M>IA GA!R$ FROM H] EXCLAMATIONS & DRY REM>KS4 ,JEMIMA 9DE$ DISPLAY$ A /RANGE MIXTURE ( 9T]E/ & SUSPICION2 = %E W\LD LI/5 TO H] ) E>NE/NESS1 & !N SUDD5LY 9T]RUPT ! CONV]SATION1 AS IF AFRAID ( RESIGN+1 BY GIV+ WAY TO H] SYMPA?Y1 H] DE>-B\IA ALLUD$ TO ! POSSIBILITY ( AN ESCAPE1 & M5TION$ A COMP5SATION1 OR REW>D2 BUT ! /YLE 9 :I* %E WAS REPULS$ MADE H] CAUTI\S1 & DET]M9E NOT TO R5EW ! SUBJECT1 TILL %E KNEW MORE ( ! *>ACT] %E HAD TO WORK ON4 ,JEMIMA'S C\NT5ANCE1 & D>K H9TS1 SEEM$ TO SAY1 0,Y\ >E AN EXTRAORD9>Y WOMAN2 BUT LET ME CONSID]1 ?IS MAY ONLY BE ONE ( Y\R LUCID 9T]VALS40 ,NAY1 ! V]Y 5]GY ( ,M>IA'S *>ACT]1 MADE H] SUSPECT ?AT ! EXTRAORD9>Y ANIMATION %E P]CEIV$ MIGE1 & GET POSSESSION ( H] E/ATE1 FROM :5CE W\LD COME ! PROMIS$ ANNUITY1 OR MORE DESIR$ PROTECTION8 ,BESIDES1 MIGUE1 ! MOM5T AFT] COMPASSION & RESPECT SEEM$ TO MAKE H] SW]VE2 & %E /ILL RESOLV$ NOT TO BE WR\IA WAS NOT P]MITT$ TO WALK 9 ! G>D52 BUT SOMETIMES1 FROM H] W9D[1 %E TURN$ H] EYES FROM ! GLOOMY WALLS1 9 :I* %E P9$ LIFE AWAY1 ON ! POOR WRET*ES :O /RAY$ ALONG ! WALKS1 & CONTEMPLAT$ ! MO/ T]RIFIC ( RU9S--?AT ( A HUMAN S\L4 ,:AT IS ! VIEW ( ! FALL5 COLUMN1 ! MOLD]+ >*1 ( ! MO/ EXQUISITE WORKMAN%IP1 :5 COMP>$ ) ?IS LIV+ MEM5TO ( ! FRAGILITY1 ! 9/ABILITY1 ( REASON1 & ! WILD LUXURIANCY ( NOXI\S PASSIONS8 ,5?USIASM TURN$ ADRIFT1 LIKE SOME RI* /REAM OV]FL[+ ITS BANKS1 RU%ES =W>D ) DE/RUCTIVE VELOCITY1 9SPIR+ A SUBLIME CONC5TRATION ( ?\IA--,!SE >E ! RAVAGES OV] :I* HUMANITY MU/ EV] M\RNFULLY POND]1 ) A DEGREE ( ANGUI% NOT EXCIT$ BY CRUMBL+ M>BLE1 OR CANK]+ BRASS1 UNFAI?FUL TO ! TRU/ ( MONUM5TAL FAME4 ,IT IS NOT OV] ! DECAY+ PRODUCTIONS ( ! M9D1 EMBODI$ ) ! HAPPIE/ >T1 WE GRIEVE MO/ BITT]LY4 ,! VIEW ( :AT HAS BE5 DONE BY MAN1 PRODUCES A MELAN*OLY1 YET AGGR&IZ+1 S5SE ( :AT REMA9S TO BE A*IEV$ BY HUMAN 9TELLECT2 BUT A M5TAL CONVULSION1 :I*1 LIKE ! DEVA/ATION ( AN E>?QUAKE1 ?R[S ALL ! ELEM5TS ( ?\FULLY ASK ON :AT GR\ND WE \RSELVES /&4 ,MELAN*OLY & IMBECILITY M>K$ ! FEATURES ( ! WRET*ES ALL[$ TO BREA! AT L>GE2 = ! FRANTIC1 ?OSE :O 9 A /RONG IMAG9ATION HAD LO/ A S5SE ( WOE1 W]E CLOSELY CONF9$4 ,! PLAYFUL TRICKS & MIS*IEV\S DEVICES ( !IR DI/URB$ FANCY1 ?AT SUDD5LY BROKE \T1 C\LD NOT BE GU>D$ AGA9/1 :5 !Y W]E P]MITT$ TO 5JOY ANY PORTION ( FRE$OM2 =1 SO ACTIVE WAS !IR IMAG9ATION1 ?AT EV]Y NEW OBJECT :I* ACCID5TALLY /RUCK !IR S5SES1 AWOKE TO PHR5ZY !IR RE/LESS PASSIONS2 AS ,M>IA LE>N$ FROM ! BURD5 ( !IR 9CESSANT RAV+S4 ,SOMETIMES1 ) A /RICT 9JUNCTION ( SIL5CE1 ,JEMIMA W\LD ALL[ ,M>IA1 AT ! CLOSE ( EV5+1 TO /RAY ALONG ! N>R[ AV5UES ?AT SEP>AT$ ! DUNGEON-LIKE AP>TM5TS1 LEAN+ ON H] >M4 ,:AT A *ANGE ( SC5E6 ,M>IA WI%$ TO PASS ! ?RE%OLD ( H] PRISON1 YET1 :5 BY *ANCE %E MET ! EYE ( RAGE GL>+ ON H]1 YET UNFAI?FUL TO ITS (FICE1 %E %RUNK BACK ) MORE HORROR & AFFRIT1 WAT*+ OV] A FRI5D ?US E/RANG$1 ABS5T1 ?\< PRES5T--OV] A POOR WRET* LO/ TO REASON & ! SOCIAL JOYS ( EXI/5CE2 & LOS+ ALL CONSCI\SNESS ( MIS]Y 9 ITS EXCESS4 ,:AT A TASK1 TO WAT* ! LIT-R5D+ SI< ( MELAN*OLY SUNK 9TO H] S\L2 & :5 %E RETIR$ TO RE/1 ! PETRIFI$ FIGURES %E HAD 5C\NT]$1 ! ONLY HUMAN =MS %E WAS DOOM$ TO OBS]VE1 HAUNT+ H] DREAMS ) TALES ( MY/]I\S WRONGS1 MADE H] WI% TO SLEEP TO DREAM NO MORE4 ,DAY AFT] DAY ROLL$ AWAY1 & T$I\S AS ! PRES5T MOM5T APPE>$1 !Y PASS$ 9 SU* AN UNV>I$ T5OR1 ,M>IA WAS SURPRIS$ TO F9D ?AT %E HAD ALREADY BE5 SIX WEEKS BURI$ ALIVE1 & YET HAD SU* FA9T HOPES ( EFFECT+ H] 5L>GEM5T4 ,%E WAS1 E>NE/LY AS %E HAD S\RATIVE2 & GRIEV$ TO ?9K ?AT %E HAD = AN 9/ANT ?\T APPE>$ = A MOM5T TO OP51 SOME SUGGE/ION ( REASON =CIBLY CLOS$ IT1 BE=E %E C\LD GIVE UTT]ANCE TO ! CONFID5CE ,M>IA'S CONV]SATION 9SPIR$4 ,DISC\RAG$ BY !SE *ANGES1 ,M>IA RELAPS$ 9TO DESPOND5CY1 :5 %E WAS *E]$ BY ! ALACRITY ) :I* ,JEMIMA BR\CEL ( BOOKS2 ASSUR+ H]1 ?AT %E HAD TAK5 SOME PA9S TO OBTA9 !M FROM ONE ( ! KEEP]S1 :O ATT5D$ A G5TLEMAN CONF9$ 9 ! OPPOSITE CORN] ( ! GALL]Y4 ,M>IA TOOK UP ! BOOKS ) EMOTION4 0,!Y COME10 SAID %E1 0P]HAPS1 FROM A WRET* CONDEMN$1 LIKE ME1 TO REASON ON ! NATURE ( MADNESS1 BY HAV+ WRECK$ M9DS CONT9UALLY UND] HIS EYE2 & ALMO/ TO WI% HIMSELF--AS ,I DO--MAD1 TO ESCAPE FROM ! CONTEMPLATION ( IT40 ,H] HE>T ?ROBB$ ) SYMPA!TIC AL>M2 & %E TURN$ OV] ! LEAVES ) AWE1 AS IF !Y HAD BECOME SACR$ FROM PASS+ ?R\< ! H&S ( AN UN=TUNATE BE+1 OPPRESS$ BY A SIMIL> FATE4 ,DRYD5'S ,FABLES1 ,MILTON'S ,P>ADISE ,LO/1 ) SEV]AL MOD]N PRODUCTIONS1 COMPOS$ ! COLLECTION4 ,IT WAS A M9E ( TREASURE4 ,SOME M>G9AL NOTES1 9 ,DRYD5'S ,FABLES1 CAUI\S OBS]VATIONS ON ! PRES5T /ATE ( SOCIETY & GOV]NM5T1 ) A COMP>ATIVE VIEW ( ! POLITICS ( ,EUROPE & ,AM]ICA4 ,!SE REM>KS W]E WRITT5 ) A DEGREE ( G5]\S W>M?1 :5 ALLUD+ TO ! 5SLAV$ /ATE ( ! LABOR+ MAJORITY1 P]FECTLY 9 UNISON ) ,M>IA'S MODE ( ?9K+4 ,%E READ !M OV] & OV] AGA92 & FANCY1 TREA*]\S FANCY1 BEGAN TO SKET* A *>ACT]1 CONG5IAL ) H] [N1 FROM !SE %AD[Y \TL9ES4--0,WAS HE MAD80 ,%E REP]US$ ! M>G9AL NOTES1 & !Y SEEM$ ! PRODUCTION ( AN ANIMAT$1 BUT NOT ( A DI/URB$ IMAG9ATION4 ,CONF9$ TO ?IS SPECULATION1 EV]Y TIME %E RE-READ !M1 SOME FRE% REF9EM5T ( S5TIM5T1 OR ACUT5ESS ( ?\T6 ,!RE >E BE+S :O CANNOT LIVE )\T LOV+1 AS POETS LOVE2 & :O FEEL ! ELECTRIC SP>K ( G5IUS1 :]EV] IT AWAK5S S5TIM5T OR GRACE4 ,M>IA HAD (T5 ?\D HE>T1 0?AT TO *>M1 WAS TO BE VIRTU\S40 0,!Y :O MAKE ME WI% TO APPE> ! MO/ AMIABLE & GOOD 9 !IR EYES1 MU/ POSSESS 9 A DEGREE10 %E W\LD EXCLAIM1 0! GRACES & VIRTUES !Y CALL 9TO ACTION40 ,%E TOOK UP A BOOK ON ! P[]S ( ! HUMAN M9D2 BUT1 H] ATT5TION /RAY$ FROM COLD >GUM5TS ON ! NATURE ( :AT %E FELT1 :ILE %E WAS FEEL+1 & %E SNAPT ! *A9 ( ! !ORY TO READ ,DRYD5'S ,GUISC>D & ,SIGISMUNDA4 ,M>IA1 9 ! C\RSE ( ! 5SU+ DAY1 RETURN$ SOME ( ! BOOKS1 ) ! HOPE ( GETT+ O!RS--& MORE M>G9AL NOTES4 ,?US %UT \T FROM HUMAN 9T]C\RSE1 & COMPELL$ TO VIEW NO?+ BUT ! PRISON ( VEX$ SPIRITS1 TO MEET A WRET* 9 ! SAME SITUATION1 WAS MORE SURELY TO F9D A FRI5D1 ?AN TO IMAG9E A C\NTRYMAN ONE1 9 A /RANGE L&1 :]E ! HUMAN VOICE CONVEYS NO 9=MATION TO ! EAG] E>4 0,DID Y\ EV] SEE ! UN=TUNATE BE+ TO :OM !SE BOOKS BELONG80 ASK$ ,M>IA1 :5 ,JEMIMA BR\E CONF9$40 0,:AT6 IS HE SO UNRULY80 9QUIR$ ,M>IA1 ) AN ACC5T ( DISAPPO9TM5T4 0,NO1 NOT ?AT ,I P]CEIVE10 REPLI$ ,JEMIMA2 0BUT HE HAS AN UNTAM$ LOOK1 A VEHEM5CE ( EYE1 ?AT EXCITES APPREH5SION4 ,W]E HIS H&S FREE1 HE LOOKS AS IF HE C\LD SOON MANAGE BO? HIS GU>DS3 YET HE APPE>S TRANQUIL40 0,IF HE BE SO /RONG1 HE MU/ BE Y\NG10 OBS]V$ ,M>IA4 0,?REE OR F\R & ?IRTY1 ,I SUPPOSE2 BUT !RE IS NO JUDG+ ( A P]SON 9 HIS SITUATION40 0,>E Y\ SURE ?AT HE IS MAD80 9T]RUPT$ ,M>IA ) EAG]NESS4 ,JEMIMA QUITT$ ! ROOM1 )\T REPLY+4 0,NO1 NO1 HE C]TA9LY IS NOT60 EXCLAIM$ ,M>IA1 ANSW]+ H]SELF2 0! MAN :O C\LD WRITE ?OSE OBS]VATIONS WAS NOT DISORD]$ 9 HIS 9TELLECTS40 ,%E SAT MUS+1 GAZ+ AT ! MOON1 & WAT*+ ITS MOTION AS IT SEEM$ TO GLIDE UND] ! CL\DS4 ,!N1 PREP>+ = B$1 %E ?\T+ UP1 ONLY WRAPP$ A G[N >\ND H]1 & RAN TO ! W9D[4 ,! MORN+ WAS *ILL1 IT WAS ! LATT] 5D ( ,SEPTEMB]2 YET %E DID NOT RETIRE TO W>M H]SELF & ?9K 9 B$1 TILL ! S\ND ( ! S]VANTS1 MOV+ AB\T ! H\SE1 CONV9C$ H] ?AT ! UNKN[N W\LD NOT WALK 9 ! G>D5 ?AT MORN+4 ,%E WAS A%AM$ AT FEEL+ DISAPPO9T$2 & BEGAN TO REFLECT1 AS AN EXCUSE TO H]SELF1 ON ! LITTLE OBJECTS :I* ATTRACT ATT5TION :5 !RE IS NO?+ TO DIV]T ! M9D2 & H[ DIFFICULT IT WAS = WOM5 TO AVOID GR[+ ROMANTIC1 :O HAVE NO ACTIVE DUTIES OR PURSUITS4 ,AT BREAKFA/1 ,JEMIMA 9QUIR$ :E!R %E UND]/OOD ,FR5*8 =1 UNLESS %E DID1 ! /RANG]'S /OCK ( BOOKS WAS EXHAU/$4 ,M>IA REPLI$ 9 ! AFFIRMATIVE2 BUT =BORE TO ASK ANY MORE QUE/IONS RESPECT+ ! P]SON TO :OM !Y BELONG$4 ,& ,JEMIMA GAVE H] A NEW SUBJECT = CONTEMPLATION1 BY DESCRIB+ ! P]SON ( A LOVELY MANIAC1 JU/ BR\T-MELT+ FALLS & PAUSES4 ,JEMIMA HAD HALF-OP5$ ! DOOR1 :5 %E DI/+UI%$ H] VOICE1 & ,M>IA /OOD CLOSE TO IT1 SC>CELY D>+ TO RESPIRE1 LE/ A MODULATION %\LD ESCAPE H]1 SO EXQUISITELY SWEET1 SO PASSIONATELY WILD4 ,%E BEGAN ) SYMPA?Y TO P\RTRAY TO H]SELF ANO!R VICTIM1 :5 ! LOVELY W>BL] FLEW1 AS IT W]E1 FROM ! SPRAY1 & A TORR5T ( UNCONNECT$ EXCLAMATIONS & QUE/IONS BUR/ FROM H]1 9T]RUPT$ BY FITS ( LAUIA %UT ! DOOR1 &1 TURN+ H] EYES UP TO HEAV51 EXCLAIM$--0,GRACI\S ,GOD60 "9 ,A BLANK SPACE AB\T T5 *>ACT]S 9 L5G? OCCURS H]E 9 ! ORIG9AL $ITION .<,PUBLI%]'S NOTE.>4 ,SEV]AL M9UTES ELAPS$ BE=E ,M>IA C\LD 9QUIRE RESPECT+ ! RUMOR ( ! H\SE 7= ?IS POOR WRET* WAS OBVI\SLY NOT CONF9$ )\T A CAUSE72 & !N ,JEMIMA C\LD ONLY TELL H]1 ?AT IT WAS SAID1 0%E HAD BE5 M>RI$1 AGA9/ H] 9CL9ATION1 TO A RI* OLD MAN1 EXTREMELY JEAL\S 7NO WOND]1 = %E WAS A *>M+ CREATURE72 & ?AT1 9 CONSEQU5CE ( HIS TREATM5T1 OR SOME?+ :I* HUNG ON H] M9D1 %E HAD1 DUR+ H] FIR/ LY+-91 LO/ H] S5SES40 ,:AT A SUBJECT ( M$ITATION--EV5 TO ! V]Y CONF9ES ( MADNESS4 0,WOMAN1 FRAGILE FL[]6 :Y W]E Y\ SUFF]$ TO ADORN A WORLD EXPOS$ TO ! 9ROAD ( SU* /ORMY ELEM5TS80 ?\IA1 :ILE ! POOR MANIAC'S /RA9 WAS /ILL BREA?+ ON H] E>1 & S9K+ 9TO H] V]Y S\L4 ,T[>DS ! EV5+1 ,JEMIMA BR\T1 TILL ! RETURN ( H] GU>D TO EXT+UI% ! LIIA TO HAVE ONE1 TILL H] [N H\R ( RETIR+ TO RE/4 ,%E HAD READ ?IS WORK LONG S9CE2 BUT N[ IT SEEM$ TO OP5 A NEW WORLD TO H]--! ONLY ONE WOR? 9HABIT+4 ,SLEEP WAS NOT TO BE WOO$2 YET1 F> FROM BE+ FATIGU$ BY ! RE/LESS ROTATION ( ?\T1 AWAK5+ 9DEF9ABLE EMOTIONS2 & ! S\ND ( A WAV+ BRAN*1 OR ! TWITT]+ ( A />TL$ BIRD1 ALONE BROKE ! /ILLNESS ( REPOS+ NATURE4 ,ABSORB$ BY ! SUBLIME S5SIBILITY :I* R5D]S ! CONSCI\SNESS ( EXI/5CE FELICITY1 ,M>IA WAS HAPPY1 TILL AN AUTUMNAL SC5T1 WAFT$ BY ! BREEZE ( MORN FROM ! FALL5 LEAVES ( ! ADJAC5T WOOD1 MADE H] RECOLLECT ?AT ! SEASON HAD *ANG$ S9CE H] CONF9EM5T2 YET LIFE AF=D$ NO V>IETY TO SOLACE AN AFFLICT$ HE>T4 ,%E RETURN$ DISPIRIT$ TO H] C\*1 & ?\E ( DAY AGA9 9VIT$ H] TO ! W9D[4 ,%E LOOK$ NOT = ! UNKN[N1 /ILL H[ GREAT WAS H] VEXATION AT P]CEIV+ ! BACK ( A MAN1 C]TA9LY HE1 ) HIS TWO ATT5DANTS1 AS HE TURN$ 9TO A SIDE-PA? :I* L$ TO ! H\SE6 ,A CONFUS$ RECOLLECTION ( HAV+ SE5 SOMEBODY :O RESEMBL$ HIM1 IMM$IATELY OCCURR$1 TO PUZZLE & TORM5T H] ) 5DLESS CONJECTURES4 ,FIVE M9UTES SOON]1 & %E %\LD HAVE SE5 HIS FACE1 & BE5 \T ( SUSP5SE--WAS EV] ANY ?+ SO UNLUCKY6 ,HIS /EADY1 BOLD /EP1 & ! :OLE AIR ( HIS P]SON1 BUR/+ AS IT W]E FROM A CL\D1 PLEAS$ H]1 & GAVE AN \TL9E TO ! IMAG9ATION TO SKET* ! 9DIVIDUAL =M %E WI%$ TO RECOGNIZE4 ,FEEL+ ! DISAPPO9TM5T MORE SEV]ELY ?AN %E WAS WILL+ TO BELIEVE1 %E FLEW TO ,R\SSEAU1 AS H] ONLY REFUGE FROM ! IDEA ( HIM1 :O MI SUP]IOR1 WAS AFT] ?IS IMP]FECT MODEL1 ( :I* M]ELY A GLANCE HAD BE5 CAUG9 ( AN IMPASSION$ LETT]1 WRITT5 9 ! WELL-KN[N H&--0,R\SSEAU ALONE1 ! TRUE ,PROME!US ( S5TIM5T1 POSSESS$ ! FIRE ( G5IUS NECESS>Y TO P\RTRAY ! PASSION1 ! TRU? ( :I* GOES SO DIRECTLY TO ! HE>T40 ,M>IA WAS AGA9 TRUE TO ! H\R1 YET HAD F9I%$ ,R\SSEAU1 & BEGUN TO TRANSCRIBE SOME SELECT$ PASSAGES2 UNABLE TO QUIT EI!R ! AU?OR OR ! W9D[1 BE=E %E HAD A GLIMPSE ( ! C\NT5ANCE %E DAILY LONG$ TO SEE2 &1 :5 SE51 IT CONVEY$ NO DI/9CT IDEA TO H] M9D :]E %E HAD SE5 IT BE=E4 ,HE MU/ HAVE BE5 A TRANSI5T ACQUA9TANCE2 BUT TO DISCOV] AN ACQUA9TANCE WAS =TUNATE1 C\LD %E CONTRIVE TO ATTRACT HIS ATT5TION1 & EXCITE HIS SYMPA?Y4 ,EV]Y GLANCE AF=D$ COLOR+ = ! PICTURE %E WAS DEL9EAT+ ON H] HE>T2 & ONCE1 :5 ! W9D[ WAS HALF OP51 ! S\ND ( HIS VOICE REA*$ H]4 ,CONVICTION FLA%$ ON H]2 %E HAD C]TA9LY1 9 A MOM5T ( DI/RESS1 HE>D ! SAME ACC5TS4 ,!Y W]E MANLY1 & *>ACT]I/IC ( A NOBLE M9D2 NAY1 EV5 SWEET--OR SWEET !Y SEEM$ TO H] ATT5TIVE E>4 ,%E />T$ BACK1 TREMBL+1 AL>M$ AT ! EMOTION A /RANGE CO9CID5CE ( CIRCUM/ANCES 9SPIR$1 & WOND]+ :Y %E ?\ ,%E F\ND H[EV] ?AT %E C\LD ?9K ( NO?+ ELSE2 OR1 IF %E ?\CEL ( BOOKS1 ,M>IA HAD1 ) H] P5CIL1 WRITT5 9 ONE ( !M A FEW EXCLAMATIONS1 EXPRESSIVE ( COMPASSION & SYMPA?Y1 :I* %E SC>CELY REMEMB]$1 TILL TURN+ OV] ! LEAVES ( ONE ( ! VOLUMES1 LATELY BR\IA IMPATI5TLY1 0,Y\ SURELY >E NOT AFRAID ( TRU/+ ME ) ! EFFUSIONS ( A MADMAN80 0,I MU/ CONSID]10 REPLI$ ,JEMIMA2 & )DREW1 ) ! PAP] 9 H] H&4 ,9 A LIFE ( SU* SECLUSION1 ! PASSIONS GA9 UNDUE =CE2 ,M>IA !RE=E FELT A GREAT DEGREE ( RES5TM5T & VEXATION1 :I* %E HAD NOT TIME TO SUBDUE1 BE=E ,JEMIMA1 RETURN+1 DELIV]$ ! PAP]4 0,:OEV] Y\ >E1 :O P>TAKE ( MY FATE1 ACCEPT MY S9C]E COMMIS]ATION--,I W\LD HAVE SAID PROTECTION2 BUT ! PRIVILEGE ( MAN IS D5I$ ME4 0,MY [N SITUATION =CES A DREADFUL SUSPICION ON MY M9D--,I MAY NOT ALWAYS LANGUI% 9 VA9 = FRE$OM-- SAY >E Y\--,I CANNOT ASK ! QUE/ION2 YET ,I WILL REMEMB] Y\ :5 MY REMEMBRANCE CAN BE ( ANY USE4 ,I WILL 9QUIRE1 :Y Y\ >E SO MY/]I\SLY DETA9$-- & ,I WILL HAVE AN ANSW]4 0,H,5,R,Y ,D,>,N,=,D40 ,BY ! MO/ PRESS+ 9TREATIES1 ,M>IA PREVAIL$ ON ,JEMIMA TO P]MIT H] TO WRITE A REPLY TO ?IS NOTE4 ,ANO!R & ANO!R SUCCE$$1 9 :I* EXPLANATIONS W]E NOT ALL[$ RELATIVE TO !IR PRES5T SITUATION2 BUT ,M>IA1 ) SUFFICI5T EXPLICITNESS1 ALLUD$ TO A =M] OBLIGATION2 & !Y 9S5SIBLY 5T]$ ON AN 9T]*ANGE ( S5TIM5TS ON ! MO/ IMPORTANT SUBJECTS4 ,TO WRITE !SE LETT]S WAS ! BUS9ESS ( ! DAY1 & TO RECEIVE !M ! MOM5T ( SUN%9E4 ,BY SOME MEANS1 ,D>N=D HAV+ DISCOV]$ ,M>IA'S W9D[1 :5 %E NEXT APPE>$ AT IT1 HE MADE H]1 BEH9D HIS KEEP]S1 A PR(\ND B[ ( RESPECT & RECOGNITION4 ,TWO OR ?REE WEEKS GLID$ AWAY 9 ?IS K9D ( 9T]C\RSE1 DUR+ :I* P]IOD ,JEMIMA1 TO :OM ,M>IA HAD GIV5 ! NECESS>Y 9=MATION RESPECT+ H] FAMILY1 HAD EVID5TLY GA9$ SOME 9TELLIG5CE1 :I* 9CREAS$ H] DESIRE ( PLEAS+ H] *>GE1 ?\< %E C\LD NOT YET DET]M9E TO LIB]ATE H]4 ,M>IA TOOK ADVANTAGE ( ?IS FAVORABLE *>GE1 )\T TOO M9UTELY 9QUIR+ 9TO ! CAUSE2 & SU* WAS H] EAG]NESS TO HOLD HUMAN CONV]SE1 & TO SEE H] =M] PROTECTOR1 /ILL A /RANG] TO H]1 ?AT %E 9CESSANTLY REQUE/$ H] GU>D TO GRATIFY H] MORE ?AN CURIOSITY4 ,WRIT+ TO ,D>N=D1 %E WAS L$ FROM ! SAD OBJECTS BE=E H]1 & FREQU5TLY R5D]$ 9S5SIBLE TO ! HORRID NOISES >\ND H]1 :I* PREVI\SLY HAD CONT9UALLY EMPLOY$ H] FEV]I% FANCY4 ,?9K+ IT SELFI% TO DWELL ON H] [N SUFF]+S1 :5 9 ! MID/ ( WRET*ES1 :O HAD NOT ONLY LO/ ALL ?AT 5DE>S LIFE1 BUT !IR V]Y SELVES1 H] IMAG9ATION WAS OCCUPI$ ) MELAN*OLY E>NE/NESS TO TRACE ! MAZES ( MIS]Y1 ?R\< :I* SO MANY WRET*ES MU/ HAVE PASS$ TO ?IS GLOOMY RECEPTACLE ( DISJO9T$ S\LS1 TO ! GR& S\RCE ( HUMAN CORRUPTION4 ,(T5 AT MIDNI MORE T]RIFIC ?AN ALL ?AT DREAM+ SUP]/ITION EV] DREW4 ,BESIDES1 !RE WAS FREQU5TLY SOME?+ SO 9CONCEIVABLY PICTURESQUE 9 ! V>Y+ GE/URES ( UNRE/RA9$ PASSION1 SO IRRESI/IBLY COMIC 9 !IR SALLIES1 OR SO HE>T-PI]C+LY PA!TIC 9 ! LITTLE AIRS !Y W\LD S+1 FREQU5TLY BUR/+ \T AFT] AN AWFUL SIL5CE1 AS TO FASC9ATE ! ATT5TION1 & AMUSE ! FANCY1 :ILE TORTUR+ ! S\L4 ,IT WAS ! UPRO> ( ! PASSIONS :I* %E WAS COMPELL$ TO OBS]VE2 & TO M>K ! LUCID BEAM ( REASON1 LIKE A LIKNESS %R\D$4 ,JEMIMA W\LD LABOR TO BEGUILE ! T$I\S EV5+S1 BY DESCRIB+ ! P]SONS & MANN]S ( ! UN=TUNATE BE+S1 :OSE FIGURES OR VOICES AWOKE SYMPA!TIC SORR[ 9 ,M>IA'S BOSOM2 & ! /ORIES %E TOLD W]E ! MORE 9T]E/+1 = P]PETUALLY LEAV+ ROOM TO CONJECTURE SOME?+ EXTRAORD9>Y4 ,/ILL ,M>IA1 ACCU/OM$ TO G5]ALIZE H] OBS]VATIONS1 WAS L$ TO CONCLUDE FROM ALL %E HE>D1 ?AT IT WAS A VULG> ]ROR TO SUPPOSE ?AT PEOPLE ( ABILITIES W]E ! MO/ APT TO LOSE ! COMM& ( REASON4 ,ON ! CONTR>Y1 FROM MO/ ( ! 9/ANCES %E C\LD 9VE/IGATE1 %E ?\$ /RONG & DISPROPORTION$1 BECAUSE ! JUDGM5T WAS WEAK & UNEX]CIS$2 & ?AT !Y GA9$ /R5G? BY ! DECAY ( REASON1 AS ! %AD[S L5G!N DUR+ ! SUN'S DECL9E4 ,M>IA IMPATI5TLY WI%$ TO SEE H] FELL[-SUFF]]2 BUT ,D>N=D WAS /ILL MORE E>NE/ TO OBTA9 AN 9T]VIEW4 ,ACCU/OM$ TO SUBMIT TO EV]Y IMPULSE ( PASSION1 & NEV] TAUIA1 HAD BE5 S5T TO HIM1 & ) A P>T ( ITS CONT5TS HE BRIB$ HIS PR9CIPAL KEEP]2 :O1 AFT] RECEIV+ ! MO/ SOLEMN PROMISE ?AT HE W\LD RETURN TO HIS AP>TM5T )\T ATTEMPT+ TO EXPLORE ANY P>T ( ! H\SE1 CONDUCT$ HIM1 9 ! DUSK ( ! EV5+1 TO ,M>IA'S ROOM4 ,JEMIMA HAD APPRIZ$ H] *>GE ( ! VISIT1 & %E EXPECT$ ) TREMBL+ IMPATI5CE1 9SPIR$ BY A VAGUE HOPE ?AT HE MITM5T1 :I* HE SURVEY$ ) APP>5T EMOTIONS ( COMPASSIONATE 9DIGNATION4 ,SYMPA?Y ILLUM9AT$ HIS EYE1 &1 TAK+ H] H&1 HE RESPECTFULLY B[$ ON IT1 EXCLAIM+--0,?IS IS EXTRAORD9>Y6--AGA9 TO MEET Y\1 & 9 SU* CIRCUM/ANCES60 ,/ILL1 IMPRESSIVE AS WAS ! CO9CID5CE ( EV5TS :I* BR\TS DID NOT OV]FL[4--"9 "9 ,! COPY :I* HAD RECEIV$ ! AU?OR'S LA/ CORRECTIONS BREAKS (F 9 ?IS PLACE1 & ! PAGES :I* FOLL[1 TO ! 5D ( ,*AP4 ,I,V1 >E PR9T$ FROM A COPY 9 A LESS F9I%$ /ATE4 .<,GODW9'S NOTE.> .<,& ?\<1 AFT] ?IS FIR/ VISIT1 !Y W]E P]MITT$ FREQU5TLY TO REPEAT !IR 9T]VIEWS1 !Y W]E = SOME TIME EMPLOY$ 9.> A RES]V$ CONV]SATION1 TO :I* ALL ! WORLD MIY SUBJECT1 FLA%ES ( S5TIM5T1 9=C$ BY EA* RELAX+ FEATURE1 SEEM$ TO REM9D !M ?AT !IR M9DS W]E ALREADY ACQUA9T$4 .<,BY DEGREES1 ,D>N=D 5T]$ 9TO ! P>TICUL>S ( HIS /ORY4.> ,9 A FEW WORDS1 HE 9=M$ H] ?AT HE HAD BE5 A ?\$ TO BE ! G5]\S LUXURIANCY ( A NOBLE M9D4 ,NO?+ LIKE MEANNESS T>NI%$ ! LU/] ( HIS Y\?1 NOR HAD ! WORM ( SELFI%NESS LURK$ 9 ! UNFOLD+ BUD1 EV5 :ILE HE HAD BE5 ! DUPE ( O!RS4 ,YET HE T>DILY ACQUIR$ ! EXP]I5CE NECESS>Y TO GU>D HIM AGA9/ FUTURE IMPOSITION4 0,I %ALL WE>Y Y\10 CONT9U$ HE1 0BY MY EGOTISM2 & DID NOT P[]FUL EMOTIONS DRAW ME TO Y\10--HIS EYES GLI/5$ AS HE SPOKE1 & A TREMBL+ SEEM$ TO RUN ?R\< HIS MANLY FRAME1--0,I W\LD NOT WA/E !SE PRECI\S MOM5TS 9 TALK+ ( MYSELF4 0,MY FA!R & MO!R W]E PEOPLE ( FA%ION2 M>RI$ BY !IR P>5TS4 ,HE WAS FOND ( ! TURF1 %E ( ! C>D-TABLE4 ,I1 & TWO OR ?REE O!R *ILDR5 S9CE DEAD1 W]E KEPT AT HOME TILL WE BECAME 9TOL]ABLE4 ,MY FA!R & MO!R HAD A VISIBLE DISLIKE TO EA* O!R1 CONT9UALLY DISPLAY$2 ! S]VANTS W]E ( ! DEPRAV$ K9D USUALLY F\ND 9 ! H\SES ( PEOPLE ( =TUNE4 ,MY BRO!RS & P>5TS ALL DY+1 ,I WAS LEFT TO ! C>E ( GU>DIANS2 & S5T TO ,ETON4 ,I NEV] KNEW ! SWEETS ( DOME/IC AFFECTION1 BUT ,I FELT ! WANT ( 9DULG5CE & FRIVOL\S RESPECT AT S*OOL4 ,I WILL NOT DISGU/ Y\ ) A RECITAL ( ! VICES ( MY Y\?1 :I* CAN SC>CELY BE COMPREH5D$ BY FEMALE DELICACY4 ,I WAS TAUDS BECAME 9TIMATE1 W]E ( A CLASS ( :I* Y\ CAN HAVE NO KN[L$GE4 ,I =M$ MY ACQUA9TANCE ) !M AT ! !AT]S2 &1 :5 VIVACITY DANC$ 9 !IR EYES1 ,I WAS NOT EASILY DISGU/$ BY ! VULG>ITY :I* FL[$ FROM !IR LIPS4 ,HAV+ SP5T1 A FEW YE>S AFT] ,I WAS ( AGE1 . A CONSID]ABLE PATRIMONY1 EXCEPT+ A FEW HUNDR$S1 ,I HAD NO RES\RCE BUT TO PUR*ASE A COMMISSION 9 A NEW-RAIS$ REGIM5T1 DE/9$ TO SUBJUGATE ,AM]ICA4 ,! REGRET ,I FELT TO R5\NCE A LIFE ( PLEASURE1 WAS C\NT]-BALANC$ BY ! CURIOSITY ,I HAD TO SEE ,AM]ICA1 OR RA!R TO TRAVEL2 . TO B9D MY C\NTRY TO MY HE>T4 ,I %ALL NOT TR\BLE Y\ ) ! DETAILS ( A MILIT>Y LIFE4 ,MY BLOOD WAS /ILL KEPT 9 MOTION2 TILL1 T[>DS ! CLOSE ( ! CONTE/1 ,I WAS W\ND$ & TAK5 PRISON]4 0,CONF9$ TO MY B$1 OR *AIR1 BY A L+]+ CURE1 MY ONLY REFUGE FROM ! PREY+ ACTIVITY ( MY M9D1 WAS BOOKS1 :I* ,I READ ) GREAT AVIDITY1 PR(IT+ BY ! CONV]SATION ( MY HO/1 A MAN ( S\ND UND]/&+4 ,MY POLITICAL S5TIM5TS N[ UND]W5T A TOTAL *ANGE2 &1 DAZZL$ BY ! HOSPITALITY ( ! ,AM]ICANS1 ,I DET]M9$ TO TAKE UP MY ABODE ) FRE$OM4 ,I1 !RE=E1 ) MY USUAL IMPETUOSITY1 SOLD MY COMMISSION1 & TRAVEL$ 9TO ! 9T]IOR P>TS ( ! C\NTRY1 TO LAY \T MY MONEY TO ADVANTAGE4 ,ADD$ TO ?IS1 ,I DID NOT MU* LIKE ! PURITANICAL MANN]S ( ! L>GE T[NS4 ,9EQUALITY ( CONDITION WAS !RE MO/ DISGU/+LY GALL+4 ,! ONLY PLEASURE WEAL? AF=D$1 WAS TO MAKE AN O/5TATI\S DISPLAY ( IT2 = ! CULTIVATION ( ! F9E >TS1 OR LIT]ATURE1 HAD NOT 9TRODUC$ 9TO ! FIR/ CIRCLES ?AT POLI% ( MANN]S :I* R5D]S ! RI* SO ESS5TIALLY SUP]IOR TO ! POOR 9 ,EUROPE4 ,ADD$ TO ?IS1 AN 9FLUX ( VICES HAD BE5 LET 9 BY ! ,REVOLUTION1 & ! MO/ RIGID PR9CIPLES ( RELIGION %AK5 TO ! C5T]1 BE=E ! UND]/&+ C\LD BE GRADUALLY EMANCIPAT$ FROM ! PREJUDICES :I* L$ !IR ANCE/ORS UNDAUNT$LY TO SEEK AN 9HOSPITABLE CLIME & UNBROK5 SOIL4 ,! RESOLUTION1 ?AT L$ !M1 9 PURSUIT ( 9DEP5D5CE1 TO EMB>K ON RIV]S LIKE SEAS1 TO SE>* = UNKN[N %ORES1 & TO SLEEP UND] ! HOV]+ MI/S ( 5DLESS =E/S1 :OSE BALEFUL DAMPS AGU$ !IR LIMBS1 WAS N[ TURN$ 9TO COMM]CIAL SPECULATIONS1 TILL ! NATIONAL *>ACT] EXHIBIT$ A PH5OM5ON 9 ! HI/ORY ( ! HUMAN M9D--A HEAD 5?USIA/ICALLY 5T]PRIS+1 ) COLD SELFI%NESS ( HE>T4 ,& WOMAN1 LOVELY WOMAN6--!Y *>M EV]Y:]E--/ILL !RE IS A DEGREE ( PRUD]Y1 & A WANT ( TA/E & EASE 9 ! MANN]S ( ! ,AM]ICAN WOM51 ?AT R5D]S !M1 9 SPITE ( !IR ROSES & LILIES1 F> 9F]IOR TO \R ,EUROPEAN *>M]S4 ,9 ! C\NTRY1 !Y HAVE (T5 A BEWIT*+ SIMPLICITY ( *>ACT]2 BUT1 9 ! CITIES1 !Y HAVE ALL ! AIRS & IGNORANCE ( ! LADIES :O GIVE ! TONE TO ! CIRCLES ( ! L>GE TRAD+ T[NS 9 ,5GL&4 ,!Y >E FOND ( !IR ORNAM5TS1 M]ELY BECAUSE !Y >E GOOD1 & NOT BECAUSE !Y EMBELLI% !IR P]SONS2 & >E MORE GRATIFI$ TO 9SPIRE ! WOM5 ) JEAL\SY ( !SE EXT]IOR ADVANTAGES1 ?AN ! M5 ) LOVE4 ,ALL ! FRIVOLITY :I* (T5 7EXCUSE ME1 ,MADAM7 R5D]S ! SOCIETY ( MODE/ WOM5 SO /UPID 9 ,5GL&1 H]E SEEM$ TO ?R[ /ILL MORE LEAD5 FETT]S ON !IR *>MS4 ,NOT BE+ AN ADEPT 9 GALLANTRY1 ,I F\ND ?AT ,I C\LD ONLY KEEP MYSELF AWAKE 9 !IR COMPANY BY MAK+ D[NRI :AT WAS PASS+ 9 ! WORLD1 & TO DO SOME?+ BETT] ?AN VEGETATE ) ! ANIMALS ?AT MADE A V]Y CONSID]ABLE P>T ( MY H\SEHOLD4 ,CONSEQU5TLY1 ,I DET]M9$ TO TRAVEL4 ,MOTION WAS A SUB/ITUTE = V>IETY ( OBJECTS2 &1 PASS+ OV] IMM5SE TRACKS ( C\NTRY1 ,I EXHAU/$ MY EXUB]ANT SPIRITS1 )\T OBTA9+ MU* EXP]I5CE4 ,I EV]Y :]E SAW 9DU/RY ! =E-RUNN] & NOT ! CONSEQU5CE1 ( LUXURY2 BUT ?IS C\NTRY1 EV]Y?+ BE+ ON AN AMPLE SCALE1 DID NOT AF=D ?OSE PICTURESQUE VIEWS1 :I* A C]TA9 DEGREE ( CULTIVATION IS NECESS>Y GRADUALLY TO PRODUCE4 ,! EYE W&]$ )\T AN OBJECT TO FIX UPON OV] IMMEASUREABLE PLA9S1 & LAKES ?AT SEEM$ REPL5I%$ BY ! OCEAN1 :IL/ ET]NAL =E/S ( SMALL CLU/]+ TREES1 OB/RUCT$ ! CIRCULATION ( AIR1 & EMB>RASS$ ! PA?1 )\T GRATIFY+ ! EYE ( TA/E4 ,NO COTTAGE SMIL+ 9 ! WA/E1 NO TRAVEL]S HAIL$ US1 TO GIVE LIFE TO SIL5T NATURE2 OR1 IF P]*ANCE WE SAW ! PR9T ( A FOOT/EP 9 \R PA?1 IT WAS A DREADFUL W>N+ TO TURN ASIDE2 & ! HEAD A*$ AS IF ASSAIL$ BY ! SCALP+ KNIFE4 ,! ,9DIANS :O HOV]$ ON ! SKIRTS ( ! ,EUROPEAN SETTLEM5TS HAD ONLY LE>N$ ( !IR NEIN$ TO EAT & DR9K MO/ VALIANTLY2 BUT )\T 5T]+ 9TO COMM]CE 7& ,I DETE/$ COMM]CE7 ,I F\ND ,I C\LD NOT LIVE !RE2 &1 GR[+ HE>TILY WE>Y ( ! L& ( LIB]TY & VULG> >I/OCRACY1 SEAT$ ON H] BAGS ( DOLL>S1 ,I RESOLV$ ONCE MORE TO VISIT ,EUROPE4 ,I WROTE TO A DI/ANT RELATION 9 ,5GL&1 ) :OM ,I HAD BE5 $UCAT$1 M5TION+ ! VESSEL 9 :I* ,I 9T5D$ TO SAIL4 ,>RIV+ 9 ,LONDON1 MY S5SES W]E 9TOXICAT$4 ,I RAN FROM /REET TO /REET1 FROM !AT] TO !AT]1 & ! WOM5 ( ! T[N 7AGA9 ,I MU/ BEG P>DON = MY HABITUAL FRANKNESS7 APPE>$ TO ME LIKE ANGELS4 0,A WEEK WAS SP5T 9 ?IS ?\RIVAL1 ,I WAS KNOCK$ D[N 9 A PRIVATE /REET1 & HURRI$1 9 A /ATE ( 9S5SIBILITY1 9TO A COA*1 :I* BR\E DEAF TO MY REMON/RANCES & 9QUIRIES1 YET ASSURE ME ?AT MY CONF9EM5T %ALL NOT LA/ LONG4 ,/ILL ,I CANNOT GUESS1 ?\< ,I WE>Y MYSELF ) CONJECTURES1 :Y ,I AM CONF9$1 OR 9 :AT P>T ( ,5GL& ?IS H\SE IS SITUAT$4 ,I IMAG9E SOMETIMES ?AT ,I HE> ! SEA RO>1 & WI%$ MYSELF AGA9 ON ! ,ATLANTIC1 TILL ,I HAD A GLIMPSE ( Y\40 "9 ,A FEW MOM5TS W]E ONLY ALL[$ TO ,M>IA TO COMM5T ON ?IS N>RATIVE1 :5 ,D>N=D LEFT H] TO H] [N ?\T4 "9 ,! 9TRODUCTION ( ,D>N=D AS ! DELIV]] ( ,M>IA 9 A =M] 9/ANCE1 APPE>S TO HAVE BE5 AN AFT]-?\RATION4 ,$,I,T,O,R4 .<,GODW9'S NOTE.> O ,*APT] #d ,PITY1 & ! =LORN S]I\SNESS ( ADV]SITY1 HAVE BO? BE5 CONSID]$ AS DISPOSITIONS FAVORABLE TO LOVE1 :ILE SATIRICAL WRIT]S HAVE ATTRIBUT$ ! PROP5SITY TO ! RELAX+ EFFECT ( IDL5ESS2 :AT *ANCE !N HAD ,M>IA ( ESCAP+1 :5 PITY1 SORR[1 & SOLITUDE ALL CONSPIR$ TO S(T5 H] M9D1 & N\RI% ROMANTIC WI%ES1 &1 FROM A NATURAL PROGRESS1 ROMANTIC EXPECTATIONS8 ,M>IA WAS SIX-&-TW5TY4 ,BUT1 SU* WAS ! NATIVE S\NDNESS ( H] CON/ITUTION1 ?AT TIME HAD ONLY GIV5 TO H] C\NT5ANCE ! *>ACT] ( H] M9D4 ,REVOLV+ ?\ITY ( FEATURES :I* ! /RUGGLES ( ! UND]/&+ TO TRACE OR GOV]N ! /RONG EMOTIONS ( ! HE>T1 >E WONT TO IMPR9T ON ! YIELD+ MASS4 ,GRIEF & C>E HAD MELL[$1 )\T OBSCUR+1 ! BRI$1 LIKE A L>GE PROPORTION ( H] SEX1 ONLY BORN TO FEEL2 & ! ACTIVITY ( H] WELL-PROPORTION$1 & EV5 ALMO/ VOLUPTU\S FIGURE1 9SPIR$ ! IDEA ( /R5G? ( M9D1 RA!R ?AN ( BODY4 ,!RE WAS A SIMPLICITY SOMETIMES 9DE$ 9 H] MANN]1 :I* BORD]$ ON 9FANT9E +5U\SNESS1 ?AT L$ PEOPLE ( COMMON DISC]NM5T TO UND]RATE H] TAL5TS1 & SMILE AT ! FLIACT]S ( V]Y DIFF]5T DESCRIPTIONS2 /ILL1 %E WAS TOO MU* UND] ! 9FLU5CE ( AN >D5T IMAG9ATION TO ADH]E TO COMMON RULES4 ,!RE >E MI/AKES ( CONDUCT :I* AT FIVE-&-TW5TY PROVE ! /R5G? ( ! M9D1 ?AT1 T5 OR FIFTE5 YE>S AFT]1 W\LD DEMON/RATE ITS WEAKNESS1 ITS 9CAPACITY TO ACQUIRE A SANE JUDGM5T4 ,! Y\?S :O >E SATISFI$ ) ! ORD9>Y PLEASURES ( LIFE1 & DO NOT SI< AFT] IDEAL PHANTOMS ( LOVE & FRI5D%IP1 WILL NEV] >RIVE AT GREAT MATURITY ( UND]/&+2 BUT IF !SE REV]IES >E *]I%$1 AS IS TOO FREQU5TLY ! CASE ) WOM51 :5 EXP]I5CE \E WRET*$4 ,BESIDES1 !IR PA9S & PLEASURES >E SO DEP5D5T ON \TW>D CIRCUM/ANCES1 ON ! OBJECTS ( !IR AFFECTIONS1 ?AT !Y SELDOM ACT FROM ! IMPULSE ( A N]V$ M9D1 ABLE TO *OOSE ITS [N PURSUIT4 ,HAV+ HAD TO /RUGGLE 9CESSANTLY ) ! VICES ( MANK9D1 ,M>IA'S IMAG9ATION F\ND REPOSE 9 P\RTRAY+ ! POSSIBLE VIRTUES ! WORLD MIY1 COMB9$ ALL ! QUALITIES ( A H]O'S M9D1 & FATE PRES5T$ A /ATUE 9 :I* %E MIN=D & ,M>IA W]E OBLIG$ TO P>T 9 ! MID/ ( AN 9T]E/+ CONV]SATION4 ,JEMIMA EV] WAT*$ ON ! TIP-TOE ( FE>1 & FREQU5TLY SEP>AT$ !M ON A FALSE AL>M1 :5 !Y W\LD HAVE GIV5 WORLDS TO REMA9 A LITTLE LONG] TOGE!R4 ,A MAGIC LAMP N[ SEEM$ TO BE SUSP5D$ 9 ,M>IA'S PRISON1 & FAIRY L&SCAPES FLITT$ R\ND ! GLOOMY WALLS1 LATE SO BLANK4 ,RU%+ FROM ! DEP? ( DESPAIR1 ON ! S]APH W+ ( HOPE1 %E F\ND H]SELF HAPPY4--,%E WAS BELOV$1 & EV]Y EMOTION WAS RAPTUR\S4 ,TO ,D>N=D %E HAD NOT %[N A DECID$ AFFECTION2 ! FE> ( \TRUNN+ HIS1 A SURE PRO( ( LOVE1 MADE H] (T5 ASSUME A COLDNESS & 9DIFF]5CE =EIGN FROM H] *>ACT]2 &1 EV5 :5 GIV+ WAY TO ! PLAYFUL EMOTIONS ( A HE>T JU/ LOOS5$ FROM ! FROZ5 BOND ( GRIEF1 !RE WAS A DELICACY 9 H] MANN] ( EXPRESS+ H] S5SIBILITY1 :I* MADE HIM D\BT :E!R IT WAS ! EFFECT ( LOVE4 ,ONE EV5+1 :5 ,JEMIMA LEFT !M1 TO LI/5 TO ! S\ND ( A DI/ANT FOOT/EP1 :I* SEEM$ CAUTI\SLY TO APPROA*1 HE SEIZ$ ,M>IA'S H&--IT WAS NOT )DRAWN4 ,!Y CONV]S$ ) E>NE/NESS ( !IR SITUATION2 &1 DUR+ ! CONV]SATION1 HE ONCE OR TWICE G5TLY DREW H] T[>DS HIM4 ,HE FELT ! FRAGRANCE ( H] BREA?1 & LONG$1 YET FE>$1 TO T\* ! LIPS FROM :I* IT ISSU$2 SPIRITS ( PURITY SEEM$ TO GU>D !M1 :ILE ALL ! 5*ANT+ GRACES ( LOVE SPORT$ ON H] *EEKS1 & LANGUI%$ 9 H] EYES4 ,JEMIMA 5T]+1 HE REFLECT$ ON HIS DIFFID5CE ) POIGNANT REGRET1 &1 %E ONCE MORE TAK+ AL>M1 HE V5TUR$1 AS ,M>IA /OOD NE> HIS *AIR1 TO APPROA* H] LIPS ) A DECL>ATION ( LOVE4 ,%E DREW BACK ) SOLEMNITY1 HE HUNG D[N HIS HEAD ABA%$2 BUT LIFT+ HIS EYES TIMIDLY1 !Y MET H]'S2 %E HAD DET]M9$1 DUR+ ?AT 9/ANT1 & SUFF]$ !IR RAYS TO M+LE4 ,HE TOOK1 ) MORE >DOR1 REASSUR$1 A HALF-CONS5T+1 HALF-RELUCTANT KISS1 RELUCTANT ONLY FROM MODE/Y2 & !RE WAS A SACR$NESS 9 H] DIGNIFI$ MANN] ( RECL9+ H] GL[+ FACE ON HIS %\LD]1 ?AT P[]FULLY IMPRESS$ HIM4 ,DESIRE WAS LO/ 9 MORE 9EFFABLE EMOTIONS1 & TO PROTECT H] FROM 9SULT & SORR[--TO MAKE H] HAPPY1 SEEM$ NOT ONLY ! FIR/ WI% ( HIS HE>T1 BUT ! MO/ NOBLE DUTY ( HIS LIFE4 ,SU* ANGELIC CONFID5CE DEM&$ ! FIDELITY ( HONOR2 BUT C\LD HE1 FEEL+ H] 9 EV]Y PULSATION1 C\LD HE EV] *ANGE1 C\LD HE BE A VILLA98 ,! EMOTION ) :I* %E1 = A MOM5T1 ALL[$ H]SELF TO BE PRESS$ TO HIS BOSOM1 ! TE> ( RAPTUR\S SYMPA?Y1 M+L$ ) A S(T MELAN*OLY S5TIM5T ( RECOLLECT$ DISAPPO9TM5T1 SAID--MORE ( TRU? & FAI?FULNESS1 ?AN ! TONGUE C\LD HAVE GIV5 UTT]ANCE TO 9 H\RS6 ,!Y W]E SIL5T--YET DISC\RS$1 H[ ELOQU5TLY8 TILL1 AFT] A MOM5T'S REFLECTION1 ,M>IA DREW H] *AIR BY ! SIDE ( HIS1 &1 ) A COMPOS$ SWEETNESS ( VOICE1 & SUP]NATURAL B5IGNITY ( C\NT5ANCE1 SAID1 0,I MU/ OP5 MY :OLE HE>T TO Y\2 Y\ MU/ BE TOLD :O ,I AM1 :Y ,I AM H]E1 & :Y1 TELL+ Y\ ,I AM A WIFE1 ,I BLU% NOT TO0--! BLU% SPOKE ! RE/4 ,JEMIMA WAS AGA9 AT H] ELB[1 & ! RE/RA9T ( H] PRES5CE DID NOT PREV5T AN ANIMAT$ CONV]SATION1 9 :I* LOVE1 SLY UR*91 WAS EV] AT BO-PEEP4 ,SO MU* ( HEAV5 DID !Y 5JOY1 ?AT P>ADISE BLOOM$ >\ND !M2 OR !Y1 BY A P[]FUL SPELL1 HAD BE5 TRANSPORT$ 9TO ,>MIDA'S G>D54 ,LOVE1 ! GR& 5*ANT]1 0LAPT !M 9 ,ELYSIUM10 & EV]Y S5SE WAS H>MONIZ$ TO JOY & SOCIAL EXTACY4 ,SO ANIMAT$1 9DE$1 W]E !IR ACC5TS ( T5D]NESS1 9 DISCUSS+ :AT1 9 O!R CIRCUM/ANCES1 W\LD HAVE BE5 COMMONPLACE SUBJECTS1 ?AT ,JEMIMA FELT1 ) SURPRISE1 A TE> ( PLEASURE TRICKL+ D[N H] RUGG$ *EEKS4 ,%E WIP$ IT AWAY1 HALF A%AM$2 & :5 ,M>IA K9DLY 9QUIR$ ! CAUSE1 ) ALL ! EAG] SOLICITUDE ( A HAPPY BE+ WI%+ TO IMP>T TO ALL NATURE ITS OV]FL[+ FELICITY1 ,JEMIMA [N$ ?AT IT WAS ! FIR/ TE> ?AT SOCIAL 5JOYM5T HAD EV] DRAWN FROM H]4 ,%E SEEM$ 9DE$ TO BREA! MORE FREELY2 ! CL\D ( SUSPICION CLE>$ AWAY FROM H] BR[2 %E FELT H]SELF1 = ONCE 9 H] LIFE1 TREAT$ LIKE A FELL[-CREATURE4 ,IMAG9ATION6 :O CAN PA9T ?Y P[]2 OR REFLECT ! EVANESC5T T9TS ( HOPE FO/]$ BY !E8 ,A DESPOND5T GLOOM HAD LONG OBSCUR$ ,M>IA'S HORIZON--N[ ! SUN BROKE =?1 ! RA9B[ APPE>$1 & EV]Y PROSPECT WAS FAIR4 ,HORROR /ILL REIGN$ 9 ! D>K5$ CELLS1 SUSPICION LURK$ 9 ! PASSAGES1 & :ISP]$ ALONG ! WALLS4 ,! YELLS ( M5 POSSESS$1 SOMETIMES1 MADE !M PAUSE1 & WOND] ?AT !Y FELT SO HAPPY1 9 A TOMB ( LIV+ DEA?4 ,!Y EV5 *ID !MSELVES = SU* APP>5T 9S5SIBILITY2 /ILL ! WORLD CONTA9$ NOT ?REE HAPPI] BE+S4 ,& ,JEMIMA1 AFT] AGA9 PATROLL+ ! PASSAGE1 WAS SO S(T5$ BY ! AIR ( CONFID5CE :I* BREA!D >\ND H]1 ?AT %E VOLUNT>ILY BEGAN AN ACC\NT ( H]SELF4 O ,*APT] #e 0,MY FA!R10 SAID ,JEMIMA1 0S$UC$ MY MO!R1 A PRETTY GIRL1 ) :OM HE LIV$ FELL[-S]VANT2 & %E NO SOON] P]CEIV$ ! NATURAL1 ! DREAD$ CONSEQU5CE1 ?AN ! T]RIBLE CONVICTION FLA%$ ON H]--?AT %E WAS RU9$4 ,HONE/Y1 & A REG>D = H] REPUTATION1 HAD BE5 ! ONLY PR9CIPLES 9CULCAT$ BY H] MO!R2 & !Y HAD BE5 SO =CIBLY IMPRESS$1 ?AT %E FE>$ %AME1 MORE ?AN ! POV]TY TO :I* IT W\LD LEAD4 ,H] 9CESSANT IMPORTUNITIES TO PREVAIL UPON MY FA!R TO SCRE5 H] FROM REPROA* BY M>RY+ H]1 AS HE HAD PROMIS$ 9 ! F]VOR ( S$UCTION1 E/RANG$ HIM FROM H] SO COMPLETELY1 ?AT H] V]Y P]SON BECAME DI/A/EFUL TO HIM2 & HE BEGAN TO HATE1 AS WELL AS DESPISE ME1 BE=E ,I WAS BORN4 0,MY MO!R1 GRIEV$ TO ! S\L BY HIS NEGLECT1 & UNK9D TREATM5T1 ACTUALLY RESOLV$ TO FAMI% H]SELF2 & 9JUR$ H] HEAL? BY ! ATTEMPT2 ?\< %E HAD NOT SUFFICI5T RESOLUTION TO ADH]E TO H] PROJECT1 OR R5\NCE IT 5TIRELY4 ,DEA? CAME NOT AT H] CALL2 YET SORR[1 & ! ME?ODS %E ADOPT$ TO CONCEAL H] CONDITION1 /ILL DO+ ! WORK ( A H\SE-MAID1 HAD SU* AN EFFECT ON H] CON/ITUTION1 ?AT %E DI$ 9 ! WRET*$ G>RET1 :]E H] VIRTU\S MI/RESS HAD =C$ H] TO TAKE REFUGE 9 ! V]Y PANGS ( LABOR1 ?\< MY FA!R1 AFT] A SLICELY P]MITT+ A FOOT/EP TO BE HE>D1 DUR+ H] MON?'S 9DULG5CE1 FELT NO SYMPA?Y = ! POOR WRET*1 D5I$ EV]Y COM=T REQUIR$ BY H] SITUATION4 0,! DAY MY MO!R1 DI$1 ! N9? AFT] MY BIR?1 ,I WAS CONSIGN$ TO ! C>E ( ! *EAPE/ NURSE MY FA!R C\LD F9D2 :O SUCKL$ H] [N *ILD AT ! SAME TIME1 & LODG$ AS MANY MORE AS %E C\LD GET1 9 TWO CELL>-LIKE AP>TM5TS4 0,POV]TY1 & ! HABIT ( SEE+ *ILDR5 DIE (F H] H&S1 HAD SO H>D5$ H] HE>T1 ?AT ! (FICE ( A MO!R DID NOT AWAK5 ! T5D]NESS ( A WOMAN2 NOR W]E ! FEM99E C>ESSES :I* SEEM A P>T ( ! RE>+ ( A *ILD1 EV] BE/[$ ON ME4 ,! *ICK5 HAS A W+ TO %ELT] UND]2 BUT ,I HAD NO BOSOM TO NE/LE 91 NO K9DR$ W>M? TO FO/] ME4 ,LEFT 9 DIRT1 TO CRY ) COLD & HUNG] TILL ,I WAS WE>Y1 & SLEEP )\T EV] BE+ PREP>$ BY EX]CISE1 OR LULL$ BY K9DNESS TO RE/2 C\LD ,I BE EXPECT$ TO BECOME ANY ?+ BUT A WEAK & RICKETY BABE8 ,/ILL1 9 SPITE ( NEGLECT1 ,I CONT9U$ TO EXI/1 TO LE>N TO CURSE EXI/5CE1 . & ! TREATM5T ?AT R5D]$ ME MIS]ABLE1 SEEM$ TO %>P5 MY WITS4 ,CONF9$ !N 9 A DAMP HOVEL1 TO ROCK ! CRADLE ( ! SUCCE$+ TRIBE1 ,I LOOK$ LIKE A LITTLE OLD WOMAN1 OR A HAG %RIVEL+ 9TO NO?+4 ,! FURR[S ( REFLECTION & C>E CONTRACT$ ! Y\?FUL *EEK1 & GAVE A SORT ( SUP]NATURAL WILDNESS TO ! EV] WAT*FUL EYE4 ,DUR+ ?IS P]IOD1 MY FA!R HAD M>RI$ ANO!R FELL[-S]VANT1 :O LOV$ HIM LESS1 & KNEW BETT] H[ TO MANAGE HIS PASSION1 ?AN MY MO!R4 ,%E LIKEWISE PROV+ ) *ILD1 !Y AGRE$ TO KEEP A %OP3 MY /EP-MO!R1 IF1 BE+ AN ILLEGITIMATE (FSPR+1 ,I MAY V5TURE ?US TO *>ACT]IZE H]1 HAV+ OBTA9$ A SUM ( A RI* RELATION1 = ?AT PURPOSE4 0,SOON AFT] H] LY+-91 %E PREVAIL$ ON MY FA!R TO TAKE ME HOME1 TO SAVE ! EXP5SE ( MA9TA9+ ME1 & ( HIR+ A GIRL TO ASSI/ H] 9 ! C>E ( ! *ILD4 ,I WAS Y\NG1 IT WAS TRUE1 BUT APPE>$ A KN[+ LITTLE ?+1 & MIT ( MY EMPLOYM5T1 TO ASSI/ TO SPOIL H]1 BY HUMOR+ ALL H] :IMS1 & BE>+ ALL H] CAPRICES4 ,FEEL+ H] [N CONSEQU5CE1 BE=E %E C\LD SPEAK1 %E HAD LE>N$ ! >T ( TORM5T+ ME1 & IF ,I EV] D>$ TO RESI/1 ,I RECEIV$ BL[S1 LAID ON ) NO COMPUNCTI\S H&1 OR WAS S5T TO B$ D9N]LESS1 AS WELL AS SUPP]LESS4 ,I SAID ?AT IT WAS A P>T ( MY DAILY LABOR TO ATT5D ?IS *ILD1 ) ! S]VILITY ( A SLAVE2 /ILL IT WAS BUT A P>T4 ,I WAS S5T \T 9 ALL SEASONS1 & FROM PLACE TO PLACE1 TO C>RY BURD5S F> ABOVE MY /R5G?1 )\T BE+ ALL[$ TO DRAW NE> ! FIRE1 OR EV] BE+ *E]$ BY 5C\RAGEM5T OR K9DNESS4 ,NO WOND] !N1 TREAT$ LIKE A CREATURE ( ANO!R SPECIES1 ?AT ,I BEGAN TO 5VY1 & AT L5G? TO HATE1 ! D>L+ ( ! H\SE4 ,YET1 ,I P]FECTLY REMEMB]1 ?AT IT WAS ! C>ESSES1 & K9D EXPRESSIONS ( MY /EP-MO!R1 :I* FIR/ EXCIT$ MY JEAL\S DISCONT5T4 ,ONCE1 ,I CANNOT =GET IT1 :5 %E WAS CALL+ 9 VA9 H] WAYW>D *ILD TO KISS H]1 ,I RAN TO H]1 SAY+1 ',I WILL KISS Y\1 MA'AM6' & H[ DID MY HE>T1 :I* WAS 9 MY M\?1 S9K1 :AT WAS MY DEBASEM5T ( S\L1 :5 PU%$ AWAY )--',I DO NOT WANT Y\1 P]T ?+6' ,ANO!R DAY1 :5 A NEW G[N HAD EXCIT$ ! HI1 ADDRESS$ UNEXPECT$LY TO ME1 ,I ?\KS ( HIS RES5TM5T ON MY BODY1 & !N SOLAC$ HIMSELF BY PLAY+ ) MY SI/]4--,I C\LD HAVE MURD]$ H] AT ?OSE MOM5TS4 ,TO SAVE MYSELF FROM !SE UNM]CIFUL CORRECTIONS1 ,I RESORT$ TO FAL%OOD1 & ! UNTRU?S :I* ,I /URDILY MA9TA9$1 W]E BR\GE ( MY NATURAL PROP5SITY TO VICE4 ,SEE+ ME TREAT$ ) CONTEMPT1 & ALWAYS BE+ F$ & DRESS$ BETT]1 MY SI/] CONCEIV$ A CONTEMPTU\S OP9ION ( ME1 ?AT PROV$ AN OB/ACLE TO ALL AFFECTION2 & MY FA!R1 HE>+ CONT9UALLY ( MY FAULTS1 BEGAN TO CONSID] ME AS A CURSE 5TAIL$ ON HIM = HIS S9S3 HE WAS !RE=E EASILY PREVAIL$ ON TO B9D ME APPR5TICE TO ONE ( MY /EP-MO!R'S FRI5DS1 :O KEPT A SLOP-%OP 9 ,WAPP+4 ,I WAS REPRES5T$ 7AS IT WAS SAID7 9 MY TRUE COLORS2 BUT %E1 'W>RANT$1' SNAPP+ H] F+]S1 '?AT %E %\LD BREAK MY SPIRIT OR HE>T4' 0,MY MO!R REPLI$1 ) A :9E1 '?AT IF ANY BODY C\LD MAKE ME BETT]1 IT WAS SU* A CLEV] WOMAN AS H]SELF2 ?\<1 = H] [N P>T1 %E HAD TRI$ 9 VA92 BUT GOOD-NATURE WAS H] FAULT4' 0,I %UDD] ) HORROR1 :5 ,I RECOLLECT ! TREATM5T ,I HAD N[ TO 5DURE4 ,NOT ONLY UND] ! LA% ( MY TASK-MI/RESS1 BUT ! DRUDGE ( ! MAID1 APPR5TICES & *ILDR51 ,I NEV] HAD A TA/E ( HUMAN K9DNESS TO S(T5 ! RIGOR ( P]PETUAL LABOR4 ,I HAD BE5 9TRODUC$ AS AN OBJECT ( ABHORR5CE 9TO ! FAMILY2 AS A CREATURE ( :OM MY /EP-MO!R1 ?\< %E HAD BE5 K9D 5\< TO LET ME LIVE 9 ! H\SE ) H] [N *ILD1 C\LD MAKE NO?+4 ,I WAS DESCRIB$ AS A WRET*1 :OSE NOSE MU/ BE KEPT TO ! GR9D+ /ONE--& IT WAS HELD !RE ) AN IRON GRASP4 ,IT SEEM$ 9DE$ ! PRIVILEGE ( !IR SUP]IOR NATURE TO KICK ME AB\T1 LIKE ! DOG OR CAT4 ,IF ,I W]E ATT5TIVE1 ,I WAS CALL$ FAWN+1 IF REFRACTORY1 AN OB/9ATE MULE1 & LIKE A MULE ,I RECEIV$ !IR C5SURE ON MY LOAD$ BACK4 ,(T5 HAS MY MI/RESS1 = SOME 9/ANCE ( =GETFULNESS1 ?R[N ME FROM ONE SIDE ( ! KIT*5 TO ! O!R1 KNOCK$ MY HEAD AGA9/ ! WALL1 SPIT 9 MY FACE1 ) V>I\S REF9EM5TS ON B>B>ITY ?AT ,I =BE> TO 5UM]ATE1 ?\< !Y W]E ALL ACT$ OV] AGA9 BY ! S]VANT1 ) ADDITIONAL 9SULTS1 TO :I* ! APPELLATION ( BA/>D1 WAS COMMONLY ADD$1 ) TAUNTS OR SNE]S4 ,BUT ,I WILL NOT ATTEMPT TO GIVE Y\ AN ADEQUATE IDEA ( MY SITUATION1 LE/ Y\1 :O PROBABLY HAVE NEV] BE5 DR5*$ ) ! DREGS ( HUMAN MIS]Y1 %\LD ?9K ,I EXAGG]ATE4 0,I /OLE N[1 FROM ABSOLUTE NECESSITY1--BREAD2 YET :ATEV] ELSE WAS TAK51 :I* ,I HAD IT NOT 9 MY P[] TO TAKE1 WAS ASCRIB$ TO ME4 ,I WAS ! FIL*+ CAT1 ! RAV5\S DOG1 ! DUMB BRUTE1 :O MU/ BE> ALL2 = IF ,I 5DEAVOR$ TO EXCULPATE MYSELF1 ,I WAS SIL5C$1 )\T ANY 9QUIRIES BE+ MADE1 ) ',HOLD Y\R TONGUE1 Y\ NEV] TELL TRU?4' ,EV5 ! V]Y AIR ,I BREA!D WAS TA9T$ ) SCORN2 = ,I WAS S5T TO ! NEI1 OR ,?IEF1 WRITT5 ON MY =EHEAD4 ,?IS WAS1 AT FIR/1 ! MO/ BITT] PUNI%M5T2 BUT SULL5 PRIDE1 OR A K9D ( /UPID DESP]ATION1 MADE ME1 AT L5G?1 ALMO/ REG>DLESS ( ! CONTEMPT1 :I* HAD WRUNG FROM ME SO MANY SOLIT>Y TE>S AT ! ONLY MOM5TS :5 ,I WAS ALL[$ TO RE/4 0,?US WAS ,I ! M>K ( CRUELTY TILL MY SIXTE5? YE>2 & !N ,I HAVE ONLY TO PO9T \T A *ANGE ( MIS]Y2 = A P]IOD ,I NEV] KNEW4 ,ALL[ ME FIR/ TO MAKE ONE OBS]VATION4 ,N[ ,I LOOK BACK1 ,I CANNOT HELP ATTRIBUT+ ! GREAT] P>T ( MY MIS]Y1 TO ! MIS=TUNE ( HAV+ BE5 ?R[N 9TO ! WORLD )\T ! GR& SUPPORT ( LIFE--A MO!R'S AFFECTION4 ,I HAD NO ONE TO LOVE ME2 OR TO MAKE ME RESPECT$1 TO 5ABLE ME TO ACQUIRE RESPECT4 ,I WAS AN EGG DROPP$ ON ! S&2 A PAUP] BY NATURE1 HUNT$ FROM FAMILY TO FAMILY1 :O BELONG$ TO NOBODY--& NOBODY C>$ = ME4 ,I WAS DESPIS$ FROM MY BIR?1 & D5I$ ! *ANCE ( OBTA9+ A FOOT+ = MYSELF 9 SOCIETY4 ,YES2 ,I HAD NOT EV5 ! *ANCE ( BE+ CONSID]$ AS A FELL[-CREATURE--YET ALL ! PEOPLE ) :OM ,I LIV$1 BRUTALIZ$ AS !Y W]E BY ! L[ CUNN+ ( TRADE1 & ! DESPICABLE %IFTS ( POV]TY1 W]E NOT )\T B[ELS1 ?\< !Y NEV] YE>N$ = ME4 ,I WAS1 9 FACT1 BORN A SLAVE1 & *A9$ BY 9FAMY TO SLAV]Y DUR+ ! :OLE ( EXI/5CE1 )\T HAV+ ANY COMPANIONS TO ALLEVIATE IT BY SYMPA?Y1 OR TEA* ME H[ TO RISE ABOVE IT BY !IR EXAMPLE4 ,BUT1 TO RESUME ! ?READ ( MY TALE-- 0,AT SIXTE51 ,I SUDD5LY GREW TALL1 & SOME?+ LIKE COMEL9ESS APPE>$ ON A ,SUNDAY1 :5 ,I HAD TIME TO WA% MY FACE1 & PUT ON CLEAN CLO!S4 ,MY MA/] HAD ONCE OR TWICE CAUESSES4 ,ONE DAY H[EV]1 :5 ! FAMILY W]E AT A ME?ODI/ MEET+1 HE CONTRIV$ TO BE ALONE 9 ! H\SE ) ME1 & BY BL[S--YES2 BL[S & M5ACES1 COMPELL$ ME TO SUBMIT TO HIS F]OCI\S DESIRE2 &1 TO AVOID MY MI/RESS'S FURY1 ,I WAS OBLIG$ 9 FUTURE TO COMPLY1 & SKULK TO MY L(T AT HIS COMM&1 9 SPITE ( 9CREAS+ LOA?+4 0,! ANGUI% :I* WAS N[ P5T UP 9 MY BOSOM1 SEEM$ TO OP5 A NEW WORLD TO ME3 ,I BEGAN TO EXT5D MY ?\D1 A BA/>D APPE>$ TO ME AN OBJECT ( ! GREATE/ COMPASSION 9 CREATION4 0,I COMMUNICAT$ ?IS DREADFUL CIRCUM/ANCE TO MY MA/]1 :O WAS ALMO/ EQUALLY AL>M$ AT ! 9TELLIG5CE2 = HE FE>$ HIS WIFE1 & PUBLIC C5SURE AT ! MEET+4 ,AFT] SOME WEEKS ( DELIB]ATION HAD ELAPS$1 ,I 9 CONT9UAL FE> ?AT MY ALT]$ %APE W\LD BE NOTIC$1 MY MA/] GAVE ME A M$IC9E 9 A PHIAL1 :I* HE DESIR$ ME TO TAKE1 TELL+ ME1 )\T ANY CIRCUMLOCUTION1 = :AT PURPOSE IT WAS DESIGN$4 ,I BUR/ 9TO TE>S1 ,I ?\E ( ! H\SE1 MY MA/] CAME HOME 9TOXICAT$1 & ,I BECAME ! PREY ( HIS BRUTAL APPETITE4 ,HIS EXTREME 9TOXICATION MADE HIM =GET HIS CU/OM>Y CAUTION1 & MY MI/RESS 5T]$ & F\ND US 9 A SITUATION ?AT C\LD NOT HAVE BE5 MORE HATEFUL TO H] ?AN ME4 ,H] HUSB& WAS 'POT-VALIANT1' HE FE>$ H] NOT AT ! MOM5T1 NOR HAD HE !N MU* REASON1 = %E 9/ANTLY TURN$ ! :OLE =CE ( H] ANG] ANO!R WAY4 ,%E TORE (F MY CAP1 SCRAT*$1 KICK$1 & BUFFETT$ ME1 TILL %E HAD EXHAU/$ H] /R5G?1 DECL>+1 AS %E RE/$ H] >M1 '?AT ,I HAD :E$L$ H] HUSB& FROM H]4--,BUT1 C\LD ANY ?+ BETT] BE EXPECT$ FROM A WRET*1 :OM %E HAD TAK5 9TO H] H\SE \T ( PURE *>ITY8' ,:AT A TORR5T ( ABUSE RU%$ \T8 TILL1 ALMO/ BREA?LESS1 %E CONCLUD$ ) SAY+1 '?AT ,I WAS BORN A /RUMPET2 IT RAN 9 MY BLOOD1 & NO?+ GOOD C\LD COME TO ?OSE :O H>BOR$ ME4' 0,MY SITUATION WAS1 ( C\RSE1 DISCOV]$1 & %E DECL>$ ?AT ,I %\LD NOT /AY ANO!R NI HIM CURSE ! DAY ,I WAS BORN1 ?\< LIFE HAD BE5 A CURSE TO ME4 ,( DEA? ,I ?\T+ AT EV]Y FOOT/EP1 LE/ IT %\LD BE MY MI/RESS COM+ TO TE> MY HE>T \T4 ,ONE ( ! BOYS ( ! %OP PASS+ BY1 HE>D MY TALE1 & IMM$IATELY REPAIR$ TO HIS MA/]1 TO GIVE HIM A DESCRIPTION ( MY SITUATION2 & HE T\*$ ! RIS1 & O!R WRET*ES1 ! REFUSE ( SOCIETY1 NI$ ,I HAD DI/URB$ ! PEACE ( ! FAMILY1 & ?AT HE HAD SWORN TO HIS WIFE1 NEV] TO TAKE ANY MORE NOTICE ( ME4' ,HE LEFT ME2 BUT1 9/ANTLY RETURN+1 HE TOLD ME ?AT HE %\LD SPEAK TO HIS FRI5D1 A P>I%-(FIC]1 TO GET A NURSE = ! BRAT ,I LAID TO HIM2 & ADVIS$ ME1 IF ,I WI%$ TO KEEP \T ( ! H\SE ( CORRECTION1 NOT TO MAKE FREE ) HIS NAME4 0,I HURRI$ BACK TO MY HOLE1 &1 RAGE GIV+ PLACE TO DESPAIR1 S\T GREW SICK1 & 9 ! HORRORS ( APPROA*+ DISSOLUTION1 M5TAL ANGUI% WAS SWALL[$ UP4 ,! EFFECT ( ! M$IC9E WAS VIOL5T1 & ,I WAS CONF9$ TO MY B$ SEV]AL DAYS2 BUT1 Y\? & A /RONG CON/ITUTION PREVAIL+1 ,I ONCE MORE CRAWL$ \T1 TO ASK MYSELF ! CRUEL QUE/ION1 ',:I!R ,I %\LD GO8' ,I HAD BUT TWO %ILL+S LEFT 9 MY POCKET1 ! RE/ HAD BE5 EXP5D$1 BY A POOR WOMAN :O SLEPT 9 ! SAME ROOM1 TO PAY = MY LODG+1 & PUR*ASE ! NECESS>IES ( :I* %E P>TOOK4 0,) ?IS WRET* ,I W5T 9TO ! NEIANCE DREW A FEW P5CE FROM ! IDLE1 5ABL+ ME /ILL TO COMM& A B$2 TILL1 RECOV]+ FROM MY ILLNESS1 & TAUK ! DIFF]5T /AGES ( MY DEBAS+ MIS]Y4 ,FATE DRAGG$ ME ?R\< ! V]Y K5NELS ( SOCIETY3 ,I WAS /ILL A SLAVE1 A BA/>D1 A COMMON PROP]TY4 ,BECOME FAMILI> ) VICE1 = ,I WI% TO CONCEAL NO?+ FROM Y\1 ,I PICK$ ! POCKETS ( ! DRUNK>DS :O ABUS$ ME2 & PROV$ BY MY CONDUCT1 ?AT ,I DES]V$ ! EPI!TS1 ) :I* !Y LOAD$ ME AT MOM5TS :5 DI/RU/ \T] ( ! T[N ,I FREQU5T$2 ONE1 :OM ,I HAD UNWITT+LY (F5D$1 GIV+ ! WORD TO ! :OLE PACK4 ,Y\ CAN SC>CELY CONCEIVE ! TYRANNY EX]CIS$ BY !SE WRET*ES3 CONSID]+ !MSELVES AS ! 9/RUM5TS ( ! V]Y LAWS !Y VIOLATE1 ! PRETEXT :I* /EELS !IR CONSCI5CE1 H>D5S !IR HE>T4 ,NOT CONT5T ) RECEIV+ FROM US1 \TLAWS ( SOCIETY 7LET O!R WOM5 TALK ( FAVORS7 A BRUTAL GRATIFICATION GRATUIT\SLY AS A PRIVILEGE ( (FICE1 !Y EXTORT A TI! ( PRO/ITUTION1 & H>RASS ) ?REATS ! POOR CREATURES :OSE OCCUPATION AF=DS NOT ! MEANS TO SIL5CE ! GR[L ( AV>ICE4 ,TO ESCAPE FROM ?IS P]SECUTION1 ,I ONCE MORE 5T]$ 9TO S]VITUDE4 0,A LIFE ( COMP>ATIVE REGUL>ITY RE/OR$ MY HEAL?2 &--DO NOT />T--MY MANN]S W]E IMPROV$1 9 A SITUATION :]E VICE S\ITY TO :I* ,I HAD BE5 ACCU/OM$1 WAS SOME?+ LIKE ! POLI% ( CIVILIZATION4 ,I WAS NOT %UT \T FROM ALL 9T]C\RSE ( HUMANITY4 ,/ILL ,I WAS GALL$ BY ! YOKE ( S]VICE1 & MY MI/RESS (T5 FLY+ 9TO VIOL5T FITS ( PASSION1 MADE ME DREAD A SUDD5 DISMISSION1 :I* ,I UND]/OOD WAS ALWAYS ! CASE4 ,I WAS !RE=E PREVAIL$ ON1 ?\< ,I FELT A HORROR ( M51 TO ACCEPT ! (F] ( A G5TLEMAN1 RA!R 9 ! DECL9E ( YE>S1 TO KEEP HIS H\SE1 PLEASANTLY SITUAT$ 9 A LITTLE VILLAGE NE> ,HAMP/EAD4 0,HE WAS A MAN ( GREAT TAL5TS1 & ( BRILLIANT WIT2 BUT1 A WORN-\T VOT>Y ( VOLUPTU\SNESS1 HIS DESIRES BECAME FA/IDI\S 9 PROPORTION AS !Y GREW WEAK1 & ! NATIVE T5D]NESS ( HIS HE>T WAS UND]M9$ BY A VITIAT$ IMAG9ATION4 ,A ?\E] ( LIB]T9ISM & SOCIAL 5JOYM5T1 HAD 9JUR$ HIS HEAL? TO SU* A DEGREE1 ?AT1 :ATEV] PLEASURE HIS CONV]SATION AF=D$ ME 7& MY E/EEM WAS 5SUR$ BY PRO(S ( ! G5]\S HUMANITY ( HIS DISPOSITION71 ! BE+ HIS MI/RESS WAS PUR*AS+ IT AT A V]Y DE> RATE4 ,) SU* A KE5 P]CEPTION ( ! DELICACIES ( S5TIM5T1 ) AN IMAG9ATION 9VIGORAT$ BY ! EX]CISE ( G5IUS1 H[ C\LD HE S9K 9TO ! GROSSNESS ( S5SUALITY6 0,BUT1 TO PASS OV] A SUBJECT :I* ,I RECOLLECT ) PA91 ,I MU/ REM>K TO Y\1 AS AN ANSW] TO Y\R (T5-REPEAT$ QUE/ION1 ',:Y MY S5TIM5TS & LANGUAGE W]E SUP]IOR TO MY /ATION8' ?AT ,I N[ BEGAN TO READ1 TO BEGUILE ! T$I\SNESS ( SOLITUDE1 & TO GRATIFY AN 9QUISITIVE1 ACTIVE M9D4 ,I HAD (T51 9 MY *ILDHOOD1 FOLL[$ A BALLAD-S+]1 TO HE> ! SEQUEL ( A DISMAL /ORY1 ?\< SURE ( BE+ SEV]ELY PUNI%$ = DELAY+ TO RETURN ) :ATEV] ,I WAS S5T TO PUR*ASE4 ,I C\LD JU/ SPELL & PUT A S5T5CE TOGE!R1 & ,I LI/5$ TO ! V>I\S >GUM5TS1 ?\< (T5 M+L$ ) OBSC5ITY1 :I* OCCURR$ AT ! TABLE :]E ,I WAS ALL[$ TO PRESIDE3 = A LIT]>Y FRI5D OR TWO FREQU5TLY CAME HOME ) MY MA/]1 TO D9E & PASS ! NI+ DISCUSSIONS1 FROM :I*1 9 ! COMMON C\RSE ( LIFE1 WOM5 >E EXCLUD$4 0,Y\ MAY EASILY IMAG9E1 ?AT IT WAS ONLY BY DEGREES ?AT ,I C\LD COMPREH5D SOME ( ! SUBJECTS !Y 9VE/IGAT$1 OR ACQUIRE FROM !IR REASON+ :AT MIT ( ! SUMS 5TRU/$ TO ME1 & TO SCRE5 MYSELF FROM DETECTION BY A SY/EM ( FAL%OOD4 ,BUT1 ACQUIR+ NEW PR9CIPLES1 ,I BEGAN TO HAVE ! AMBITION ( RETURN+ TO ! RESPECTABLE P>T ( SOCIETY1 & WAS WEAK 5\< TO SUPPOSE IT POSSIBLE4 ,! ATT5TION ( MY UNASSUM+ 9/RUCTOR1 :O1 )\T BE+ IGNORANT ( HIS [N P[]S1 POSSESS$ GREAT SIMPLICITY ( MANN]S1 /R5G!N$ ! ILLUSION4 ,HAV+ SOMETIMES CAUKS1 HE (T5 L$ ME TO DISCUSS ! SUBJECTS HE WAS TREAT+1 & W\LD READ TO ME HIS PRODUCTIONS1 PREVI\S TO !IR PUBLICATION1 WI%+ TO PR(IT BY ! CRITICISM ( UNSOPHI/ICAT$ FEEL+4 ,! AIM ( HIS WRIT+S WAS TO T\* ! SIMPLE SPR+S ( ! HE>T2 = HE DESPIS$ ! W\LD-BE ORACLES1 ! SELF-ELECT$ PHILOSOPH]S1 :O FRIAT+ CORDIALS TO KEEP UP ! CONVIVIAL TONE ( HIS SPIRITS7 AGA9 ?REW ME 9TO ! DES]T ( HUMAN SOCIETY4 ,HAD HE HAD ANY TIME = REFLECTION1 ,I AM C]TA9 HE W\LD HAVE LEFT ! LITTLE PROP]TY 9 HIS P[] TO ME3 BUT1 ATTACK$ BY ! FATAL APOPLEXY 9 T[N1 HIS HEIR1 A MAN ( RIGID MORALS1 BR\E 9DIRECTLY TO TELL ME1 'SU* A CREATURE AS %E SUPPOS$ ME TO BE1 FROM PURLO9+ ANY ( !M1 HAD ,I BE5 APPRIZ$ ( ! EV5T 9 TIME4' 0,! GRIEF ,I FELT AT ! SUDD5 %OCK ! 9=MATION GAVE ME1 :I* AT FIR/ HAD NO?+ SELFI% 9 IT1 WAS TREAT$ ) CONTEMPT1 & ,I WAS ORD]$ TO PACK UP MY CLO!S2 & A FEW TR9KETS & BOOKS1 GIV5 ME BY ! G5]\S DECEAS$1 W]E CONTE/$1 :ILE !Y PI\SLY HOP$1 ) A REPROBAT+ %AKE ( ! HEAD1 '?AT ,GOD W\LD HAVE M]CY ON HIS S9FUL S\L6' ,) SOME DIFFICULTY1 ,I OBTA9$ MY >RE>S ( WAGES2 BUT ASK+--SU* IS ! SPIRIT-GR9D+ CONSEQU5CE ( POV]TY & 9FAMY--= A *>ACT] = HONE/Y & ECONOMY1 :I* ,GOD KN[S ,I M]IT$1 ,I WAS TOLD BY ?IS--:Y MU/ ,I CALL H] WOMAN8--'?AT IT W\LD GO AGA9/ H] CONSCI5CE TO RECOMM5D A KEPT MI/RESS4' ,TE>S />T$ 9 MY EYES1 BURN+ TE>S2 = !RE >E SITUATIONS 9 :I* A WRET* IS HUMBL$ BY ! CONTEMPT !Y >E CONSCI\S !Y DO NOT DES]VE4 0,I RETURN$ TO ! METROPOLIS2 BUT ! SOLITUDE ( A POOR LODG+ WAS 9CONCEIVABLY DRE>Y1 AFT] ! SOCIETY ,I HAD 5JOY$4 ,TO BE CUT (F FROM HUMAN CONV]SE1 N[ ,I HAD BE5 TAULY1 & MY H&S BE+ R5D]$ CLUMSY BY H>D WORK1 ,I DID NOT SUFFICI5TLY EXCEL TO BE EMPLOY$ BY ! READY-MADE L95 %OPS1 :5 SO MANY WOM51 BETT] QUALIFI$1 W]E SU+ = IT4 ,! WANT ( A *>ACT] PREV5T$ MY GETT+ A PLACE2 =1 IRKSOME AS S]VITUDE W\LD HAVE BE5 TO ME1 ,I %\LD HAVE MADE ANO!R TRIAL1 HAD IT BE5 FEASIBLE4 ,NOT ?AT ,I DISLIK$ EMPLOYM5T1 BUT ! 9EQUALITY ( CONDITION TO :I* ,I MU/ HAVE SUBMITT$4 ,I HAD ACQUIR$ A TA/E = LIT]ATURE1 DUR+ ! FIVE YE>S ,I HAD LIV$ ) A LIT]>Y MAN1 OCCASIONALLY CONV]S+ ) M5 ( ! FIR/ ABILITIES ( ! AGE2 & N[ TO DESC5D TO ! L[E/ VULG>ITY1 WAS A DEGREE ( WRET*$NESS NOT TO BE IMAG9$ UNFELT4 ,I HAD NOT1 IT IS TRUE1 TA/$ ! *>MS ( AFFECTION1 BUT ,I HAD BE5 FAMILI> ) ! GRACES ( HUMANITY4 0,ONE ( ! G5TLEM51 :OM ,I HAD FREQU5TLY D9$ 9 COMPANY )1 :ILE ,I WAS TREAT$ LIKE A COMPANION1 MET ME 9 ! /REET1 & 9QUIR$ AFT] MY HEAL?4 ,I SEIZ$ ! OCCASION1 & BEGAN TO DESCRIBE MY SITUATION2 BUT HE WAS 9 HA/E TO JO91 AT D9N]1 A SELECT P>TY ( *OICE SPIRITS2 !RE=E1 )\T WAIT+ TO HE> ME1 HE IMPATI5TLY PUT A GU9EA 9TO MY H&1 SAY+1 ',IT WAS A PITY SU* A S5SIBLE WOMAN %\LD BE 9 DI/RESS--HE WI%$ ME WELL FROM HIS S\L4' 0,TO ANO!R ,I WROTE1 /AT+ MY CASE1 & REQUE/+ ADVICE4 ,HE WAS AN ADVOCATE = UNEQUIVOCAL S9C]ITY2 & HAD (T51 9 MY PRES5CE1 DESCANT$ ON ! EVILS :I* >ISE 9 SOCIETY FROM ! DESPOTISM ( RANK & RI*ES4 0,9 REPLY1 ,I RECEIV$ A LONG ESSAY ON ! 5]GY ( ! HUMAN M9D1 ) CONT9UAL ALLUSIONS TO HIS [N =CE ( *>ACT]4 ,HE ADD$1 ',?AT ! WOMAN :O C\LD WRITE SU* A LETT] AS ,I HAD S5T HIM1 C\LD NEV] BE 9 WANT ( RES\RCES1 W]E %E TO LOOK 9TO H]SELF1 & EX]T H] P[]S2 MIS]Y WAS ! CONSEQU5CE ( 9DOL5CE1 &1 AS TO MY BE+ %UT \T FROM SOCIETY1 IT WAS ! LOT ( MAN TO SUBMIT TO C]TA9 PRIVATIONS4' 0,H[ (T5 HAVE ,I HE>D10 SAID ,JEMIMA1 9T]RUPT+ H] N>RATIVE1 09 CONV]SATION1 & READ 9 BOOKS1 ?AT EV]Y P]SON WILL+ TO WORK MAY F9D EMPLOYM5T8 ,IT IS ! VAGUE ASS]TION1 ,I BELIEVE1 ( 9S5SIBLE 9DOL5CE1 :5 IT RELATES TO M52 BUT1 ) RESPECT TO WOM51 ,I AM SURE ( ITS FALLACY1 UNLESS !Y WILL SUBMIT TO ! MO/ M5IAL BODILY LABOR2 & EV5 TO BE EMPLOY$ AT H>D LABOR IS \T ( ! REA* ( MANY1 :OSE REPUTATION MIS=TUNE OR FOLLY HAS TA9T$4 0,H[ WRIT]S1 PR(ESS+ TO BE FRI5DS TO FRE$OM1 & ! IMPROVEM5T ( MORALS1 CAN ASS]T ?AT POV]TY IS NO EVIL1 ,I CANNOT IMAG9E40 0,NO MORE CAN ,I10 9T]RUPT$ ,M>IA1 0YET !Y EV5 EXPATIATE ON ! PECULI> HAPP9ESS ( 9DIG5CE1 ?\< 9 :AT IT CAN CONSI/1 EXCEPT+ 9 BRUTAL RE/1 :5 A MAN CAN B>ELY E>N A SUBSI/5CE1 ,I CANNOT IMAG9E4 ,! M9D IS NECESS>ILY IMPRISON$ 9 ITS [N LITTLE T5EM5T2 &1 FULLY OCCUPI$ BY KEEP+ IT 9 REPAIR1 HAS NOT TIME TO ROVE ABROAD = IMPROVEM5T4 ,! BOOK ( KN[L$GE IS CLOSELY CLASP$1 AGA9/ ?OSE :O MU/ FULFILL !IR DAILY TASK ( SEV]E MANUAL LABOR OR DIE2 & CURIOSITY1 R>ELY EXCIT$ BY ?\ AS ,I HAVE BE5 ABLE TO OBS]VE10 REPLI$ ,JEMIMA1 0PREJUDICES1 CAUE OB/9ATELY MA9TA9$ BY ! POOR1 TO ! EXCLUSION ( IMPROVEM5T2 !Y HAVE NOT TIME TO REASON OR REFLECT TO ANY EXT5T1 OR M9DS SUFFICI5TLY EX]CIS$ TO ADOPT ! PR9CIPLES ( ACTION1 :I* =M P]HAPS ! ONLY BASIS ( CONT5TM5T 9 EV]Y /ATION40 "9 "9 ,! COPY :I* APPE>S TO HAVE RECEIV$ ! AU?OR'S LA/ CORRECTIONS1 5DS AT ?IS PLACE4 .<,GODW9'S NOTE.> 0,& 9DEP5D5CE10 SAID ,D>N=D1 0!Y >E NECESS>ILY /RANG]S TO1 EV5 ! 9DEP5D5CE ( DESPIS+ !IR P]SECUTORS4 ,IF ! POOR >E HAPPY1 OR CAN BE HAPPY1 ?+S >E V]Y WELL AS !Y >E4 ,& ,I CANNOT CONCEIVE ON :AT PR9CIPLE ?OSE WRIT]S CONT5D = A *ANGE ( SY/EM1 :O SUPPORT ?IS OP9ION4 ,! AU?ORS ON ! O!R SIDE ( ! QUE/ION >E MU* MORE CONSI/5T1 :O GRANT ! FACT2 YET1 9SI/+ ?AT IT IS ! LOT ( ! MAJORITY TO BE OPPRESS$ 9 ?IS LIFE1 K9DLY TURN !M OV] TO ANO!R1 TO RECTIFY ! FALSE WEIN=D1 0AN OP9ION MORE FIRMLY FIX$ BY OBS]VATION 9 MY M9D1 ?AN ?AT1 ?\< RI*ES MAY FAIL TO PRODUCE PROPORTIONATE HAPP9ESS1 POV]TY MO/ COMMONLY EXCLUDES IT1 BY %UTT+ UP ALL ! AV5UES TO IMPROVEM5T40 0,& AS = ! AFFECTIONS10 ADD$ ,M>IA1 ) A SI<1 0H[ GROSS1 & EV5 TORM5T+ DO !Y BECOME1 UNLESS REGULAT$ BY AN IMPROV+ M9D6 ,! CULTURE ( ! HE>T EV]1 ,I BELIEVE1 KEEPS PACE ) ?AT ( ! M9D4 ,BUT PRAY GO ON10 ADDRESS+ ,JEMIMA1 0?\< Y\R N>RATIVE GIVES RISE TO ! MO/ PA9FUL REFLECTIONS ON ! PRES5T /ATE ( SOCIETY40 0,NOT TO TR\BLE Y\10 CONT9U$ %E1 0) A DETAIL$ DESCRIPTION ( ALL ! PA9FUL FEEL+S ( UNAVAIL+ EX]TION1 ,I HAVE ONLY TO TELL Y\1 ?AT AT LA/ ,I GOT RECOMM5D$ TO WA% 9 A FEW FAMILIES1 :O DID ME ! FAVOR TO ADMIT ME 9TO !IR H\SES1 )\T ! MO/ /RICT 9QUIRY1 TO WA% FROM ONE 9 ! MORN+ TILL EI TO MY SEX4 ,A MAN ) HALF MY 9DU/RY1 &1 ,I MAY SAY1 ABILITIES1 C\LD HAVE PROCUR$ A DEC5T LIVELIHOOD1 & DIS*>G$ SOME ( ! DUTIES :I* KNIT MANK9D TOGE!R2 :IL/ ,I1 :O HAD ACQUIR$ A TA/E = ! RATIONAL1 NAY1 9 HONE/ PRIDE LET ME ASS]T IT1 ! VIRTU\S 5JOYM5TS ( LIFE1 WAS CA/ ASIDE AS ! FIL? ( SOCIETY4 ,CONDEMN$ TO LABOR1 LIKE A MA*9E1 ONLY TO E>N BREAD1 & SC>CELY ?AT1 ,I BECAME MELAN*OLY & DESP]ATE4 0,I HAVE N[ TO M5TION A CIRCUM/ANCE :I* FILLS ME ) REMORSE1 & FE> IT WILL 5TIRELY DEPRIVE ME ( Y\R E/EEM4 ,A TRADESMAN BECAME ATTA*$ TO ME1 & VISIT$ ME FREQU5TLY1--& ,I AT LA/ OBTA9$ SU* A P[] OV] HIM1 ?AT HE (F]$ TO TAKE ME HOME TO HIS H\SE4--,CONSID]1 DE> MADAM1 ,I WAS FAMI%+3 WOND] NOT ?AT ,I BECAME A WOLF6--,! ONLY REASON = NOT TAK+ ME HOME IMM$IATELY1 WAS ! HAV+ A GIRL 9 ! H\SE1 ) *ILD BY HIM--& ?IS GIRL--,I ADVIS$ HIM--YES1 ,I DID6 W\LD ,I C\LD =GET IT6--TO TURN \T ( DOORS3 & ONE NIRY H]1 ?AT H] P>5TS W]E HONE/6--,:AT DID IT AVAIL8--,%E WAS TURN$ \T4 0,%E APPROA*$ H] FA!R'S DOOR1 9 ! SKIRTS ( ,LONDON1--LI/5$ AT ! %UTT]S1--BUT C\LD NOT KNOCK4 ,A WAT*MAN HAD OBS]V$ H] GO & RETURN SEV]AL TIMES--,POOR WRET*6--.<,! REMORSE ,JEMIMA SPOKE (1 SEEM$ TO BE /++ H] TO ! S\L1 AS %E PROCE$$4.> 0,%E LEFT IT1 &1 APPROA*+ A TUB :]E HORSES W]E WAT]$1 %E SAT D[N 9 IT1 &1 ) DESP]ATE RESOLUTION1 REMA9$ 9 ?AT ATTITUDE--TILL RESOLUTION WAS NO LONG] NECESS>Y6 0,I HAPP5$ ?AT MORN+ TO BE GO+ \T TO WA%1 ANTICIPAT+ ! MOM5T :5 ,I %\LD ESCAPE FROM SU* H>D LABOR4 ,I PASS$ BY1 JU/ AS SOME M51 GO+ TO WORK1 DREW \T ! /IFF1 COLD CORPSE--,LET ME NOT RECALL ! HORRID MOM5T6--,I RECOGNIZ$ H] PALE VISAGE2 ,I LI/5$ TO ! TALE TOLD BY ! SPECTATORS1 & MY HE>T DID NOT BUR/4 ,I ?\D2 &1 RETURN+ HOME1 ,I WAS ATTACK$ BY A FEV]4 ,I SUFF]$ BO? 9 BODY & M9D4 ,I DET]M9$ NOT TO LIVE ) ! WRET*4 ,BUT HE DID NOT TRY ME2 HE LEFT ! NEIVE4 ,BUT1 F9D+ MYSELF AT L5G? UNABLE TO /& = ANY TIME1 ,I ?\E COM=TLESS ABODES = ! SICK7 W]E EXPRESSLY 5D[$ = ! RECEPTION ( ! FRI5DLESS2 YET ,I1 :O HAD ON ?AT PLEA A RIITY4 ,A GU9EA WAS ! /IPULAT$ SUM--,I C\LD AS SOON HAVE RAIS$ A MILLION2 & ,I WAS AFRAID TO APPLY TO ! P>I% = AN ORD]1 LE/ !Y %\LD HAVE PASS$ ME1 ,I KNEW NOT :I!R4 ,! POOR WOMAN AT :OSE H\SE ,I LODG$1 COMPASSIONAT+ MY /ATE1 GOT ME 9TO ! HOSPITAL2 & ! FAMILY :]E ,I RECEIV$ ! HURT1 S5T ME FIVE %ILL+S1 ?REE & SIX-P5CE ( :I* ,I GAVE AT MY ADMITTANCE--,I KN[ NOT = :AT4 0,MY LEG GREW QUICKLY BETT]2 BUT ,I WAS DISMISS$ BE=E MY CURE WAS COMPLET$1 BECAUSE ,I C\LD NOT AF=D TO HAVE MY L95 WA%$ TO APPE> DEC5TLY1 AS ! VIRAGO ( A NURSE SAID1 :5 ! G5TLEM5 7! SURGEONS7 CAME4 ,I CANNOT GIVE Y\ AN ADEQUATE IDEA ( ! WRET*$NESS ( AN HOSPITAL2 EV]Y ?+ IS LEFT TO ! C>E ( PEOPLE 9T5T ON GA94 ,! ATT5DANTS SEEM TO HAVE LO/ ALL FEEL+ ( COMPASSION 9 ! BU/L+ DIS*>GE ( !IR (FICES2 DEA? IS SO FAMILI> TO !M1 ?AT !Y >E NOT ANXI\S TO W>D IT (F4 ,EV]Y ?+ APPE>$ TO BE CONDUCT$ = ! ACCOMMODATION ( ! M$ICAL M5 & !IR PUPILS1 :O CAME TO MAKE EXP]IM5TS ON ! POOR1 = ! B5EFIT ( ! RI*4 ,ONE ( ! PHYSICIANS1 ,I MU/ NOT =GET TO M5TION1 GAVE ME HALF-A-CR[N1 & ORD]$ ME SOME W9E1 :5 ,I WAS AT ! L[E/ EBB4 ,I ?\Y Y\ ) A REPETITION ( ! SAME UNAVAIL+ ATTEMPTS1 UNABLE TO /& AT ! WA%+-TUB1 ,I BEGAN TO CONSID] ! RI* & POOR AS NATURAL 5EMIES1 & BECAME A ?IEF FROM PR9CIPLE4 ,I C\LD NOT N[ CEASE TO REASON1 BUT ,I HAT$ MANK9D4 ,I DESPIS$ MYSELF1 YET ,I JU/IFI$ MY CONDUCT4 ,I WAS TAK51 TRI$1 & CONDEMN$ TO SIX MON?S' IMPRISONM5T 9 A H\SE ( CORRECTION4 ,MY S\L RECOILS ) HORROR FROM ! REMEMBRANCE ( ! 9SULTS ,I HAD TO 5DURE1 TILL1 BR&$ ) %AME1 ,I WAS TURN$ LOOSE 9 ! /REET1 P5NYLESS4 ,I W&]$ FROM /REET TO /REET1 TILL1 EXHAU/$ BY HUNG] & FATIGUE1 ,I SUNK D[N S5SELESS AT A DOOR1 :]E ,I HAD VA9LY DEM&$ A MORSEL ( BREAD4 ,I WAS S5T BY ! 9HABITANT TO ! WORK-H\SE1 TO :I* HE HAD SURLILY BID ME GO1 SAY+1 HE 'PAID 5\< 9 CONSCI5CE TO ! POOR1' :51 ) P>*$ TONGUE1 ,I IMPLOR$ HIS *>ITY4 ,IF ?OSE WELL-MEAN+ PEOPLE :O EXCLAIM AGA9/ BEGG>S1 W]E ACQUA9T$ ) ! TREATM5T ! POOR RECEIVE 9 MANY ( !SE WRET*$ ASYLUMS1 !Y W\LD NOT /IFLE SO EASILY 9VOLUNT>Y SYMPA?Y1 BY SAY+ ?AT !Y HAVE ALL P>I%ES TO GO TO1 OR WOND] ?AT ! POOR DREAD TO 5T] ! GLOOMY WALLS4 ,:AT >E ! COMMON RUN ( WORKH\SES1 BUT PRISONS1 9 :I* MANY RESPECTABLE OLD PEOPLE1 WORN \T BY IMMOD]ATE LABOR1 S9K 9TO ! GRAVE 9 SORR[1 TO :I* !Y >E C>RI$ LIKE DOGS60 ,AL>M$ BY SOME 9DI/9CT NOISE1 ,JEMIMA ROSE HA/ILY TO LI/51 & ,M>IA1 TURN+ TO ,D>N=D1 SAID1 0,I HAVE 9DE$ BE5 %OCK$ BEYOND EXPRESSION :5 ,I HAVE MET A PAUP]'S FUN]AL4 ,A C(F9 C>RI$ ON ! %\LD]S ( ?REE OR F\R ILL-LOOK+ WRET*ES1 :OM ! IMAG9ATION MIREL+ AB\T ! PREY ON !IR WAY4 ,I KN[ IT IS ( LITTLE CONSEQU5CE H[ WE >E CONSIGN$ TO ! E>?2 BUT ,I AM L$ BY ?IS BRUTAL 9S5SIBILITY1 TO :AT EV5 ! ANIMAL CREATION APPE>S =CIBLY TO FEEL1 TO ADV]T TO ! WRET*$1 DES]T$ MANN] 9 :I* !Y DI$40 0,TRUE10 REJO9$ ,D>N=D1 0&1 TILL ! RI* WILL GIVE MORE ?AN A P>T ( !IR WEAL?1 TILL !Y WILL GIVE TIME & ATT5TION TO ! WANTS ( ! DI/RESS$1 NEV] LET !M BOA/ ( *>ITY4 ,LET !M OP5 !IR HE>TS1 & NOT !IR PURSES1 & EMPLOY !IR M9DS 9 ! S]VICE1 IF !Y >E REALLY ACTUAT$ BY HUMANITY2 OR *>ITABLE 9/ITUTIONS WILL ALWAYS BE ! PREY ( ! L[E/ ORD] ( KNAVES40 ,JEMIMA RETURN+1 SEEM$ 9 HA/E TO F9I% H] TALE4 0,! OV]SE] F>M$ ! POOR ( DIFF]5T P>I%ES1 & \T ( ! B[ELS ( POV]TY WAS WRUNG ! MONEY ) :I* HE PUR*AS$ ?IS DWELL+1 AS A PRIVATE RECEPTACLE = MADNESS4 ,HE HAD BE5 A KEEP] AT A H\SE ( ! SAME DESCRIPTION1 & CONCEIV$ ?AT HE C\LD MAKE MONEY MU* MORE READILY 9 HIS OLD OCCUPATION4 ,HE IS A %REWD--%ALL ,I SAY IT8--VILLA94 ,HE OBS]V$ SOME?+ RESOLUTE 9 MY MANN]1 & (F]$ TO TAKE ME ) HIM1 & 9/RUCT ME H[ TO TREAT ! DI/URB$ M9DS HE MEANT TO 5TRU/ TO MY C>E4 ,! (F] ( =TY P\NDS A YE>1 & TO QUIT A WORKH\SE1 WAS NOT TO BE DESPIS$1 ?\< ! CONDITION ( %UTT+ MY EYES & H>D5+ MY HE>T WAS ANNEX$ TO IT4 0,I AGRE$ TO ACCOMPANY HIM2 & F\R YE>S HAVE ,I BE5 ATT5DANT ON MANY WRET*ES1 &0--%E L[]$ H] VOICE1--0! WITNESS ( MANY 5ORMITIES4 ,9 SOLITUDE MY M9D SEEM$ TO RECOV] ITS =CE1 & MANY ( ! S5TIM5TS :I* ,I IMBIB$ 9 ! ONLY TOL]ABLE P]IOD ( MY LIFE1 RETURN$ ) !IR FULL =CE4 ,/ILL :AT %\LD 9DUCE ME TO BE ! *AMPION = SUFF]+ HUMANITY8--,:O EV] RISK$ ANY ?+ = ME8--,:O EV] ACKN[L$G$ ME TO BE A FELL[-CREATURE80-- ,M>IA TOOK H] H&1 & ,JEMIMA1 MORE OV]COME BY K9DNESS ?AN %E HAD EV] BE5 BY CRUELTY1 HA/5$ \T ( ! ROOM TO CONCEAL H] EMOTIONS4 ,D>N=D SOON AFT] HE>D HIS SUMMONS1 &1 TAK+ LEAVE ( HIM1 ,M>IA PROMIS$ TO GRATIFY HIS CURIOSITY1 ) RESPECT TO H]SELF1 ! FIR/ OPPORTUNITY4 O ,*APT] #f ,ACTIVE AS LOVE WAS 9 ! HE>T ( ,M>IA1 ! /ORY %E HAD JU/ HE>D MADE H] ?\LY1 & ! ! HAPPIE/ DAY ( H] LIFE WAS OV]CA/ BY ! MO/ MELAN*OLY REFLECTIONS4 ,?9K+ ( ,JEMIMA'S PECULI> FATE & H] [N1 %E WAS L$ TO CONSID] ! OPPRESS$ /ATE ( WOM51 & TO LAM5T ?AT %E HAD GIV5 BIR? TO A DAUIA ?\IA BEGAN TO ANTICIPATE ! DELIN=D4 ,%E RAN H] EYE HA/ILY OV] IT1 & H] HE>T CALMLY HO>D$ UP ! RAPTURE A FRE% ASSURANCE ( AFFECTION1 AFFECTION SU* AS %E WI%$ TO 9SPIRE1 GAVE H]1 )\T DIV]T+ H] M9D A MOM5T FROM ITS DESIGN4 ,:ILE ,JEMIMA WAIT$ TO TAKE AWAY ! BREAKFA/1 ,M>IA ALLUD$ TO ! REFLECTIONS1 ?AT HAD HAUNT$ H] DUR+ ! NID1 %E GRASP$ ! >M ( ,JEMIMA ) ?AT IRRESI/IBLE W>M? :I* DEFIES REPULSE1 EXCLAIM+--0,) Y\R HE>T1 & SU* DREADFUL EXP]I5CE1 CAN Y\ L5D Y\R AID TO DEPRIVE MY BABE ( A MO!R'S T5D]NESS1 A MO!R'S C>E8 ,9 ! NAME ( ,GOD1 ASSI/ ME TO SNAT* H] FROM DE/RUCTION6 ,LET ME BUT GIVE H] AN $UCATION--LET ME BUT PREP>E H] BODY & M9D TO 5C\NT] ! ILLS :I* AWAIT H] SEX1 & ,I WILL TEA* H] TO CONSID] Y\ AS H] SECOND MO!R1 & H]SELF AS ! PROP ( Y\R AGE4 ,YES1 ,JEMIMA1 LOOK AT ME--OBS]VE ME CLOSELY1 & READ MY V]Y S\L2 Y\ M]IT A BETT] FATE20 %E HELD \T H] H& ) A FIRM GE/URE ( ASSURANCE2 0& ,I WILL PROCURE IT = Y\1 AS A TE/IMONY ( MY E/EEM1 AS WELL AS ( MY GRATITUDE40 ,JEMIMA HAD NOT P[] TO RESI/ ?IS P]SUASIVE TORR5T2 &1 [N+ ?AT ! H\SE 9 :I* %E WAS CONF9$1 WAS SITUAT$ ON ! BANKS ( ! ,?AMES1 ONLY A FEW MILES FROM ,LONDON1 & NOT ON ! SEA-COA/1 AS ,D>N=D HAD SUPPOS$1 %E PROMIS$ TO 9V5T SOME EXCUSE = H] ABS5CE1 & GO H]SELF TO TRACE ! SITUATION1 & 9QUIRE CONC]N+ ! HEAL?1 ( ?IS AB&ON$ DAUT H] DESIGN2 & ,M>IA1 GLAD TO HAVE OBTA9$ ! MA9 PO9T1 ?\Y1 AS A CLUE TO H] SE>*4 ,! 0,GOOD NIIA UTT]$ WAS PECULI>LY SOLEMN & AFFECTIONATE4 ,GLAD EXPECTATION SP>KL$ 9 H] EYE2 &1 = ! FIR/ TIME S9CE H] DET5TION1 %E PRON\NC$ ! NAME ( H] *ILD ) PLEASUREABLE FONDNESS2 &1 ) ALL ! G>RULITY ( A NURSE1 DESCRIB$ H] FIR/ SMILE :5 %E RECOGNIZ$ H] MO!R4 ,RECOLLECT+ H]SELF1 A /ILL K9D] 0,ADIEU60 ) A 0,GOD BLESS Y\60--?AT SEEM$ TO 9CLUDE A MAT]NAL B5$ICTION1 DISMISS$ ,JEMIMA4 ,! DRE>Y SOLITUDE ( ! 5SU+ DAY1 L5G!N$ BY IMPATI5TLY DWELL+ ON ! SAME IDEA1 WAS 9TOL]ABLY WE>ISOME4 ,%E LI/5$ = ! S\ND ( A P>TICUL> CLOCK1 :I* SOME DIRECTIONS ( ! W9D ALL[$ H] TO HE> DI/9CTLY4 ,%E M>K$ ! %AD[ GA9+ ON ! WALL2 &1 TWILIKNESS1 H] BREA? SEEM$ OPPRESS$ :ILE %E ANXI\SLY C\NT$ N9E4--,! LA/ S\ND WAS A /ROKE ( DESPAIR ON H] HE>T2 = %E EXPECT$ EV]Y MOM5T1 )\T SEE+ ,JEMIMA1 TO HAVE H] LIE = B$1 RE/LESS AS %E WAS1 NOT TO DISOBLIGE H] NEW ATT5DANT4 ,%E HAD BE5 CAUTION$ NOT TO SPEAK TOO FREELY TO H]2 BUT ! CAUTION WAS NE$LESS1 H] C\NT5ANCE W\LD /ILL MORE EMPHATICALLY HAVE MADE H] %R9K BACK4 ,SU* WAS ! F]OCITY ( MANN]1 CONSPICU\S 9 EV]Y WORD & GE/URE ( ?IS HAG1 ?AT ,M>IA WAS AFRAID TO 9QUIRE1 :Y ,JEMIMA1 :O HAD FAI?FULLY PROMIS$ TO SEE H] BE=E H] DOOR WAS %UT = ! NICELY JU/IFI$4 ,CONT9UALLY ON ! WAT*1 ! %UTT+ ( A DOOR1 OR ! S\ND ( A FOOT-/EP1 MADE H] />T & TREMBLE ) APPREH5SION1 SOME?+ LIKE :AT %E FELT1 :51 AT H] 5TRANCE1 DRAGG$ ALONG ! GALL]Y1 %E BEGAN TO D\BT :E!R %E W]E NOT SURR\ND$ BY DEMONS8 ,FATIGU$ BY AN 5DLESS ROTATION ( ?\MS1 %E LOOK$ LIKE A SPECT]1 :5 ,JEMIMA 5T]$ 9 ! MORN+2 ESPECIALLY AS H] EYES D>T$ \T ( H] HEAD1 TO READ 9 ,JEMIMA'S C\NT5ANCE1 ALMO/ AS PALLID1 ! 9TELLIG5CE %E D>$ NOT TRU/ H] TONGUE TO DEM&4 ,JEMIMA PUT D[N ! TEA-?+S1 & APPE>$ V]Y BUSY 9 >RANG+ ! TABLE4 ,M>IA TOOK UP A CUP ) TREMBL+ H&1 !N =CIBLY RECOV]+ H] =TITUDE1 & RE/RA9+ ! CONVULSIVE MOVEM5T :I* AGITAT$ ! MUSCLES ( H] M\?1 %E SAID1 0,SP>E Y\RSELF ! PA9 ( PREP>+ ME = Y\R 9=MATION1 ,I ADJURE Y\6--,MY *ILD IS DEAD60 ,JEMIMA SOLEMNLY ANSW]$1 0,YES20 ) A LOOK EXPRESSIVE ( COMPASSION & ANGRY EMOTIONS4 0,LEAVE ME10 ADD$ ,M>IA1 MAK+ A FRE% EF=T TO GOV]N H] FEEL+S1 & HID+ H] FACE 9 H] H&K]*IEF1 TO CONCEAL H] ANGUI%--0,IT IS 5\<--,I KN[ ?AT MY BABE IS NO MORE--,I WILL HE> ! P>TICUL>S :5 ,I AM0--CALM]1 %E C\LD NOT UTT]2 & ,JEMIMA1 )\T IMPORTUN+ H] BY IDLE ATTEMPTS TO CONSOLE H]1 LEFT ! ROOM4 ,PLUNG$ 9 ! DEEPE/ MELAN*OLY1 %E W\LD NOT ADMIT ,D>N=D'S VISITS2 & SU* IS ! =CE ( E>LY ASSOCIATIONS EV5 ON /RONG M9DS1 ?AT1 = A :ILE1 %E 9DULG$ ! SUP]/ITI\S NOTION ?AT %E WAS JU/LY PUNI%$ BY ! DEA? ( H] *ILD1 = HAV+ = AN 9/ANT CEAS$ TO REGRET H] LOSS4 ,TWO OR ?REE LETT]S FROM ,D>N=D1 FULL ( SOO?+1 MANLY T5D]NESS1 ONLY ADD$ POIGNANCY TO !SE ACCUS+ EMOTIONS2 YET ! PASSIONATE /YLE 9 :I* HE EXPRESS$1 :AT HE T]M$ ! FIR/ & FONDE/ WI% ( HIS HE>T1 0?AT HIS AFFECTION MIS1 :51 AT ! CONCLUSION ( HIS LETT]1 WI%+ TO SUPPLY ! PLACE ( H] UNWOR?Y RELATIONS1 :OSE WANT ( PR9CIPLE HE EXECRAT$1 HE ASSUR$ H]1 CALL+ H] HIS DE>E/ GIRL1 0?AT IT %\LD H5CE=? BE ! BUS9ESS ( HIS LIFE TO MAKE H] HAPPY40 ,HE BEGG$1 9 A NOTE S5T ! FOLL[+ MORN+1 TO BE P]MITT$ TO SEE H]1 :5 HIS PRES5CE W\LD BE NO 9TRUSION ON H] GRIEF1 & SO E>NE/LY 9TREAT$ TO BE ALL[$1 ACCORD+ TO PROMISE1 TO BEGUILE ! T$I\S MOM5TS ( ABS5CE1 BY DWELL+ ON ! EV5TS ( H] PA/ LIFE1 ?AT %E S5T HIM ! MEMOIRS :I* HAD BE5 WRITT5 = H] DAUT1 :I* ONLY A MO!R--A MO!R S*OOL$ 9 MIS]Y1 C\LD MAKE4 0,! T5D]NESS ( A FA!R :O KNEW ! WORLD1 MIE/ DAUE TO BREAK ?R\< ALL RE/RA9T TO PROVIDE = Y\R HAPP9ESS--:O WILL VOLUNT>ILY BRAVE C5SURE H]SELF1 TO W>D (F SORR[ FROM Y\R BOSOM4 ,FROM MY N>RATIVE1 MY DE> GIRL1 Y\ MAY GA!R ! 9/RUCTION1 ! C\NSEL1 :I* IS MEANT RA!R TO EX]CISE ?AN 9FLU5CE Y\R M9D4--,DEA? MAY SNAT* ME FROM Y\1 BE=E Y\ CAN WEI< MY ADVICE1 OR 5T] 9TO MY REASON+3 ,I W\LD !N1 ) FOND ANXIETY1 LEAD Y\ V]Y E>LY 9 LIFE TO =M Y\R GR& PR9CIPLE ( ACTION1 TO SAVE Y\ FROM ! VA9 REGRET ( HAV+1 ?R\< IRRESOLUTION1 LET ! SPR+-TIDE ( EXI/5CE PASS AWAY1 UNIMPROV$1 UN5JOY$4--,GA9 EXP]I5CE--AH6 GA9 IT--:ILE EXP]I5CE IS WOR? HAV+1 & ACQUIRE SUFFICI5T =TITUDE TO PURSUE Y\R [N HAPP9ESS2 IT 9CLUDES Y\R UTILITY1 BY A DIRECT PA?4 ,:AT IS WISDOM TOO (T51 BUT ! [L ( ! GODDESS1 :O SITS MOP+ 9 A DESOLAT$ HE>T2 >\ND ME %E %RIEKS1 BUT ,I W\LD 9VITE ALL ! GAY W>BL]S ( SPR+ TO NE/LE 9 Y\R BLOOM+ BOSOM4--,HAD ,I NOT WA/$ YE>S 9 DELIB]AT+1 AFT] ,I CEAS$ TO D\BT1 H[ ,I \N$ BY MY EXAMPLE1 ALWAYS APPE> :AT Y\ >E1 & Y\ WILL NOT PASS ?R\< EXI/5CE )\T 5JOY+ ITS G5U9E BLESS+S1 LOVE & RESPECT4 0,BORN 9 ONE ( ! MO/ ROMANTIC P>TS ( ,5GL&1 AN 5?USIA/IC FONDNESS = ! V>Y+ *>MS ( NATURE IS ! FIR/ S5TIM5T ,I RECOLLECT2 OR RA!R IT WAS ! FIR/ CONSCI\SNESS ( PLEASURE ?AT EMPLOY$ & =M$ MY IMAG9ATION4 0,MY FA!R HAD BE5 A CAPTA9 ( A MAN ( W>2 BUT1 DISGU/$ ) ! S]VICE1 ON ACC\NT ( ! PREF]M5T ( M5 :OSE *IEF M]IT WAS !IR FAMILY CONNECTIONS OR BOR\< 9T]E/1 HE RETIR$ 9TO ! C\NTRY2 &1 NOT KN[+ :AT TO DO ) HIMSELF--M>RI$4 ,9 HIS FAMILY1 TO REGA9 HIS LO/ CONSEQU5CE1 HE DET]M9$ TO KEEP UP ! SAME PASSIVE OB$I5CE1 AS 9 ! VESSELS 9 :I* HE HAD COMM&$4 ,HIS ORD]S W]E NOT TO BE DISPUT$2 & ! :OLE H\SE WAS EXPECT$ TO FLY1 AT ! WORD ( COMM&1 AS IF TO MAN ! %R\DS1 OR M\NT AL(T 9 AN ELEM5TAL /RIFE1 BIG ) LIFE OR DEA?4 ,HE WAS TO BE 9/ANTANE\SLY OBEY$1 ESPECIALLY BY MY MO!R1 :OM HE V]Y B5EVOL5TLY M>RI$ = LOVE2 BUT TOOK C>E TO REM9D H] ( ! OBLIGATION1 :5 %E D>$1 9 ! SLIL+ ( MY MO!R1 HE DID NOT FAIL TO ACT LIKE AN HEIR APP>5T4 ,SU* 9DE$ WAS MY MO!R'S EXTRAVAGANT P>TIALITY1 ?AT1 9 COMP>ISON ) H] AFFECTION = HIM1 %E MIES :I* OBSCUR$ ! MORN+ ( MY LIFE2 CONT9UAL RE/RA9T 9 ! MO/ TRIVIAL MATT]S2 UNCONDITIONAL SUBMISSION TO ORD]S1 :I*1 AS A M]E *ILD1 ,I SOON DISCOV]$ TO BE UNREASONABLE1 BECAUSE 9CONSI/5T & CONTRADICTORY4 ,?US >E WE DE/9$ TO EXP]I5CE A MIXTURE ( BITT]NESS1 ) ! RECOLLECTION ( \R MO/ 9NOC5T 5JOYM5TS4 0,! CIRCUM/ANCES :I*1 DUR+ MY *ILDHOOD1 OCCURR$ TO FA%ION MY M9D1 W]E V>I\S2 YET1 AS IT W\LD PROBABLY AF=D ME MORE PLEASURE TO REVIVE ! FAD+ REMEMBRANCE ( NEWBORN DELI* = ! FL[]S ?AT Y\?FUL HOPES SCATT] 9 EV]Y PA?2 ?\<1 AS ,I WRITE1 ,I ALMO/ SC5T ! FRE% GRE5 ( SPR+--( ?AT SPR+ :I* NEV] RETURNS6 0,I HAD TWO SI/]S1 & ONE BRO!R1 Y\NG] ?AN MYSELF1 MY BRO!R ,ROB]T WAS TWO YE>S OLD]1 & MI5TS1 & ! TORM5T ( ! RE/ ( ! FAMILY4 ,SU* 9DE$ IS ! =CE ( PREJUDICE1 ?AT :AT WAS CALL$ SPIRIT & WIT 9 HIM1 WAS CRUELLY REPRESS$ AS =W>DNESS 9 ME4 0,MY MO!R HAD AN 9DOL5CE ( *>ACT]1 :I* PREV5T$ H] FROM PAY+ MU* ATT5TION TO \R $UCATION4 ,BUT ! HEAL?Y BREEZE ( A NEIADISE1 AFT] ! UNNATURAL RE/RA9T ( \R FIRESIDE1 :]E WE W]E (T5 OBLIG$ TO SIT ?REE OR F\R H\RS TOGE!R1 )\T D>+ TO UTT] A WORD1 :5 MY FA!R WAS \T ( HUMOR1 FROM WANT ( EMPLOYM5T1 OR ( A V>IETY ( BOI/]\S AMUSEM5T4 ,I HAD H[EV] ONE ADVANTAGE1 AN 9/RUCTOR1 ! BRO!R ( MY FA!R1 :O1 9T5D$ = ! *UR*1 HAD ( C\RSE RECEIV$ A LIB]AL $UCATION4 ,BUT1 BECOM+ ATTA*$ TO A Y\NG LADY ( GREAT BEAUTY & L>GE =TUNE1 & ACQUIR+ 9 ! WORLD SOME OP9IONS NOT CONSONANT ) ! PR(ESSION = :I* HE WAS DESIGN$1 HE ACCEPT$1 ) ! MO/ SANGU9E EXPECTATIONS ( SUCCESS1 ! (F] ( A NOBLEMAN TO ACCOMPANY HIM TO ,9DIA1 AS HIS CONFID5TIAL SECRET>Y4 0,A CORRESPOND5CE WAS REGUL>LY KEPT UP ) ! OBJECT ( HIS AFFECTION2 & ! 9TRICACIES ( BUS9ESS1 PECULI>LY WE>ISOME TO A MAN ( A ROMANTIC TURN ( M9D1 CONTRIBUT$1 ) A =C$ ABS5CE1 TO 9CREASE HIS ATTA*M5T4 ,EV]Y O!R PASSION WAS LO/ 9 ?IS MA/]-ONE1 & ONLY S]V$ TO SWELL ! TORR5T4 ,H] RELATIONS1 SU* W]E HIS WAK+ DREAMS1 :O HAD DESPIS$ HIM1 W\LD C\RT 9 !IR TURN HIS ALLIANCE1 & ALL ! BL&I%M5TS ( TA/E W\LD GRACE ! TRIUMPH ( LOVE4--,:ILE HE BASK$ 9 ! W>M SUN%9E ( LOVE1 FRI5D%IP ALSO PROMIS$ TO %$ ITS DEWY FRE%NESS2 = A FRI5D1 :OM HE LOV$ NEXT TO HIS MI/RESS1 WAS ! CONFID5T1 :O =W>D$ ! LETT]S FROM ONE TO ! O!R1 TO ELUDE ! OBS]VATION ( PRY+ RELATIONS4 ,A FRI5D FALSE 9 SIMIL> CIRCUM/ANCES1 IS1 MY DE>E/ GIRL1 AN OLD TALE2 YET1 LET NOT ?IS EXAMPLE1 OR ! FRIGID CAUTION ( COLDBLOOD$ MORALI/S1 MAKE Y\ 5DEAVOR TO /IFLE HOPES1 :I* >E ! BUDS ?AT NATURALLY UNFOLD !MSELVES DUR+ ! SPR+ ( LIFE6 ,:IL/ Y\R [N HE>T IS S9C]E1 ALWAYS EXPECT TO MEET ONE GL[+ ) ! SAME S5TIM5TS2 = TO FLY FROM PLEASURE1 IS NOT TO AVOID PA96 0,MY UNCLE REALIZ$1 BY GOOD LUCK1 RA!R ?AN MANAGEM5T1 A H&SOME =TUNE2 & RETURN+ ON ! W+S ( LOVE1 LO/ 9 ! MO/ 5*ANT+ REV]IES1 TO ,5GL&1 TO %>E IT ) HIS MI/RESS & HIS FRI5D1 HE F\ND !M--UNIT$4 0,!RE W]E SOME CIRCUM/ANCES1 NOT NECESS>Y = ME TO RECITE1 :I* AGGRAVAT$ ! GUILT ( ! FRI5D BEYOND MEASURE1 & ! DECEPTION1 ?AT HAD BE5 C>RI$ ON TO ! LA/ MOM5T1 WAS SO BASE1 IT PRODUC$ ! MO/ VIOL5T EFFECT ON MY UNCLE'S HEAL? & SPIRITS4 ,HIS NATIVE C\NTRY1 ! WORLD6 LATELY A G>D5 ( BLOOM+ SWEETS1 BLA/$ BY TREA*]Y1 SEEM$ *ANG$ 9TO A P>*$ DES]T1 ! ABODE ( HISS+ S]P5TS4 ,DISAPPO9TM5T RANKL$ 9 HIS HE>T2 &1 BROOD+ OV] HIS WRONGS1 HE WAS ATTACK$ BY A RAG+ FEV]1 FOLL[$ BY A D]ANGEM5T ( M9D1 :I* ONLY GAVE PLACE TO HABITUAL MELAN*OLY1 AS HE RECOV]$ MORE /R5G? ( BODY4 0,DECL>+ AN 9T5TION NEV] TO M>RY1 HIS RELATIONS W]E EV] CLU/]+ AB\T HIM1 PAY+ ! GROSSE/ ADULATION TO A MAN1 :O1 DISGU/$ ) MANK9D1 RECEIV$ !M ) SCORN1 OR BITT] S>CASMS4 ,SOME?+ 9 MY C\NT5ANCE PLEAS$ HIM1 :5 ,I BEGAN TO PRATTLE4 ,S9CE HIS RETURN1 HE APPE>$ DEAD TO AFFECTION2 BUT ,I SOON1 BY %[+ HIM 9NOC5T FONDNESS1 BECAME A FAVORITE2 & 5DEAVOR+ TO 5L>GE & /R5G!N MY M9D1 ,I GREW DE> TO HIM 9 PROPORTION AS ,I IMBIB$ HIS S5TIM5TS4 ,HE HAD A =CIBLE MANN] ( SPEAK+1 R5D]$ MORE SO BY A C]TA9 IMPRESSIVE WILDNESS ( LOOK & GE/URE1 CALCULAT$ TO 5GAGE ! ATT5TION ( A Y\NG & >D5T M9D4 ,IT IS NOT !N SURPRIS+ ?AT ,I QUICKLY ADOPT$ HIS OP9IONS 9 PREF]5CE1 & REV]5C$ HIM AS ONE ( A SUP]IOR ORD] ( BE+S4 ,HE 9CULCAT$1 ) GREAT W>M?1 SELF-RESPECT1 & A L(TY CONSCI\SNESS ( ACT+ RIT1 & ANIMAT$ MY IMAG9ATION4 ,!SE REM>KS >E NECESS>Y TO ELUCIDATE SOME PECULI>ITIES 9 MY *>ACT]1 :I* BY ! WORLD >E 9DEF9ITELY T]M$ ROMANTIC4 0,MY UNCLE'S 9CREAS+ AFFECTION L$ HIM TO VISIT ME (T54 ,/ILL1 UNABLE TO RE/ 9 ANY PLACE1 HE DID NOT REMA9 LONG 9 ! C\NTRY TO S(T5 DOME/IC TYRANNY2 BUT HE BR\Y TO NOTICE1 ?AT IT UND]M9$ MY MO!R'S HEAL?2 & ?AT H] TEMP]1 CONT9UALLY IRRITAT$ BY DOME/IC BICK]+1 BECAME 9TOL]ABLY PEEVI%4 0,MY ELDE/ BRO!R WAS >TICL$ TO A NEIT ( ! C\NTRY4 ,AS MY BRO!R G5]ALLY CAME HOME EV]Y ,SATURDAY1 TO A/ONI% MY MO!R BY EXHIBIT+ HIS ATTA9M5TS1 HE GRADUALLY ASSUM$ A RI PLEASURE 9 TORM5T+ & HUMBL+ ME2 & IF ,I EV] V5TUR$ TO COMPLA9 ( ?IS TREATM5T TO EI!R MY FA!R OR MO!R1 ,I WAS RUDELY REBUFF$ = PRESUM+ TO JUDGE ( ! CONDUCT ( MY ELDE/ BRO!R4 0,AB\T ?IS P]IOD A M]*ANT'S FAMILY CAME TO SETTLE 9 \R NEI+ ! :OLE SPR+1 & ! SIACT]S1 TO BREAK ! T$I\S MONOTONY ( MY LIFE2 & TO F9D A FRI5D1 SU* AS FANCY HAD P\RTRAY$4 ,I CANNOT !N DESCRIBE ! EMOTION ,I FELT1 ! ,SUNDAY !Y MADE !IR APPE>ANCE AT *UR*4 ,MY EYES W]E RIVET$ ON ! PILL> R\ND :I* ,I EXPECT$ FIR/ TO CAT* A GLIMPSE ( !M1 & D>T$ =? TO MEET A S]VANT :O HA/ILY PREC$$ A GR\P ( LADIES1 :OSE :ITE ROBES & WAV+ PLUMES1 SEEM$ TO /REAM ALONG ! GLOOMY AISLE1 DIFFUS+ ! LITICUL> ATT5TION1 & F9D+ HIS ATTA9M5TS & MANN]S SUP]IOR TO ?OSE ( ! Y\NG M5 ( ! VILLAGE1 ,I BEGAN TO IMAG9E HIM SUP]IOR TO ! RE/ ( MANK9D4 ,HAD MY HOME BE5 MORE COM=TABLE1 OR MY PREVI\S ACQUA9TANCE MORE NUM]\S1 ,I %\LD NOT PROBABLY HAVE BE5 SO EAG] TO OP5 MY HE>T TO NEW AFFECTIONS4 0,MR4 ,V5ABLES1 ! M]*ANT1 HAD ACQUIR$ A L>GE =TUNE BY UNREMITT+ ATT5TION TO BUS9ESS2 BUT HIS HEAL? DECL9+ RAPIDLY1 HE WAS OBLIG$ TO RETIRE1 BE=E HIS SON1 ,GEORGE1 HAD ACQUIR$ SUFFICI5T EXP]I5CE1 TO 5ABLE HIM TO CONDUCT !IR AFFAIRS ON ! SAME PRUD5TIAL PLAN1 HIS FA!R HAD 9V>IABLY PURSU$4 ,9DE$1 HE HAD LABOR$ TO ?R[ (F HIS AU?ORITY1 HAV+ DESPIS$ HIS N>R[ PLANS & CAUTI\S SPECULATION4 ,! ELDE/ SON C\LD NOT BE PREVAIL$ ON TO 5T] ! FIRM2 &1 TO OBLIGE HIS WIFE1 & HAVE PEACE 9 ! H\SE1 ,MR4 ,V5ABLES HAD PUR*AS$ A COMMISSION = HIM 9 ! GU>DS4 0,I AM N[ ALLUD+ TO CIRCUM/ANCES :I* CAME TO MY KN[L$GE LONG AFT]2 BUT IT IS NECESS>Y1 MY DE>E/ *ILD1 ?AT Y\ %\LD KN[ ! *>ACT] ( Y\R FA!R1 TO PREV5T Y\R DESPIS+ Y\R MO!R2 ! ONLY P>5T 9CL9$ TO DIS*>GE A P>5T'S DUTY4 ,9 ,LONDON1 ,GEORGE HAD ACQUIR$ HABITS ( LIB]T9ISM1 :I* HE C>EFULLY CONCEAL$ FROM HIS FA!R & HIS COMM]CIAL CONNECTIONS4 ,! MASK HE WORE1 WAS SO COMPLETE A COV]+ ( HIS REAL VISAGE1 ?AT ! PRAISE HIS FA!R LAVI%$ ON HIS CONDUCT1 &1 POOR MI/AK5 MAN6 ON HIS PR9CIPLES1 CONTRA/$ ) HIS BRO!R'S1 R5D]$ ! NOTICE HE TOOK ( ME PECULI>LY FLATT]+4 ,)\T ANY FIX$ DESIGN1 AS ,I AM N[ CONV9C$1 HE CONT9U$ TO S+LE ME \T AT ! DANCE1 PRESS MY H& AT P>T+1 & UTT] EXPRESSIONS ( UNMEAN+ PASSION1 TO :I* ,I GAVE A MEAN+ NATURALLY SUGGE/$ BY ! ROMANTIC TURN ( MY ?\ 0,I HAD A GREAT AFFECTION = MY NURSE1 OLD ,M>Y1 = :OM ,I US$ (T5 TO WORK1 TO SP>E H] EYES4 ,M>Y HAD A Y\NG] SI/]1 M>RI$ TO A SAILOR1 :ILE %E WAS SUCKL+ ME2 = MY MO!R ONLY SUCKL$ MY ELDE/ BRO!R1 :I* MIY P>TIALITY4 ,PEGGY1 ,M>Y'S SI/]1 LIV$ ) H]1 TILL H] HUSB&1 BECOM+ A MATE 9 A ,WE/-,9DIAN TRAD]1 GOT A LITTLE BE=E-H& 9 ! WORLD4 ,HE WROTE TO HIS WIFE FROM ! FIR/ PORT 9 ! ,*ANNEL1 AFT] HIS MO/ SUCCESSFUL VOYAGE1 TO REQUE/ H] TO COME TO ,LONDON TO MEET HIM2 HE EV5 WI%$ H] TO DET]M9E ON LIV+ !RE = ! FUTURE1 TO SAVE HIM ! TR\BLE ( COM+ TO H] ! MOM5T HE CAME ON %ORE2 & TO TURN A P5NY BY KEEP+ A GRE5-/ALL4 ,IT WAS TOO MU* TO SET \T ON A J\RNEY ! MOM5T HE HAD F9I%$ A VOYAGE1 & FIFTY MILES BY L&1 WAS WORSE ?AN A ?\S& LEAGUES BY SEA4 0,%E PACK$ UP H] ALLS1 & CAME TO ,LONDON--BUT DID NOT MEET HONE/ ,DANIEL4 ,A COMMON MIS=TUNE PREV5T$ H]1 & ! POOR >E B\ND TO SUFF] = ! GOOD ( !IR C\NTRY--HE WAS PRESS$ 9 ! RIV]--& NEV] CAME ON %ORE4 0,PEGGY WAS MIS]ABLE 9 ,LONDON1 NOT KN[+1 AS %E SAID1 '! FACE ( ANY LIV+ S\L4' ,BESIDES1 H] IMAG9ATION HAD BE5 EMPLOY$1 ANTICIPAT+ A MON? OR SIX WEEKS' HAPP9ESS ) H] HUSB&4 ,DANIEL WAS TO HAVE GONE ) H] TO ,SADL]'S ,WELLS1 & ,WE/M9/] ,ABBEY1 & TO MANY SID ( 9 ! C\NTRY4 ,PEGGY TOO WAS ?RIFTY1 & H[ C\LD %E MANAGE TO PUT HIS PLAN 9 EXECUTION ALONE8 ,HE HAD ACQUA9TANCE2 BUT %E DID NOT KN[ ! V]Y NAME ( !IR PLACES ( ABODE4 ,HIS LETT]S W]E MADE UP (--,H[ DO Y\ DOES1 & ,GOD BLESS Y\S1--9=MATION WAS RES]V$ = ! H\R ( MEET+4 0,%E TOO HAD H] PORTION ( 9=MATION1 NE> AT HE>T4 ,MOLLY & ,JACKY W]E GR[N SU* LITTLE D>L+S1 %E WAS ALMO/ ANGRY ?AT DADDY DID NOT SEE !IR TRICKS4 ,%E HAD NOT HALF ! PLEASURE %E %\LD HAVE HAD FROM !IR PRATTLE1 C\LD %E HAVE REC\NT$ TO HIM EA* NIT4 ,YET :5 %E CAME1 & F\ND NO ,DANIEL TO GREET H]1 :5 ,JACKY CALL$ PAPA1 %E WEPT1 BIDD+ ',GOD BLESS HIS 9NOC5T S\L1 ?AT DID NOT KN[ :AT SORR[ WAS4'--,BUT MORE SORR[ WAS 9 /ORE = ,PEGGY1 9NOC5T AS %E WAS4--,DANIEL WAS KILL$ 9 ! FIR/ 5GAGEM5T1 & !N ! PAPA WAS AGONY1 S\ND+ TO ! HE>T4 0,%E HAD LIV$ SP>+LY ON HIS WAGES1 :ILE !RE WAS ANY HOPE ( HIS RETURN2 BUT1 ?AT GONE1 %E RETURN$ ) A BREAK+ HE>T TO ! C\NTRY1 TO A LITTLE M>KET T[N1 NE>LY ?REE MILES FROM \R VILLAGE4 ,%E DID NOT LIKE TO GO TO S]VICE1 TO BE SNUBB$ AB\T1 AFT] BE+ H] [N MI/RESS4 ,TO PUT H] *ILDR5 \T TO NURSE WAS IMPOSSIBLE3 H[ F> W\LD H] WAGES GO8 & TO S5D !M TO H] HUSB&'S P>I%1 A DI/ANT ONE1 WAS TO LOSE H] HUSB& TWICE OV]4 0,I HAD HE>D ALL FROM ,M>Y1 & MADE MY UNCLE FURNI% A LITTLE COTTAGE = H]1 TO 5ABLE H] TO SELL--SO SACR$ WAS POOR ,DANIEL'S ADVICE1 N[ HE WAS DEAD & GONE A LITTLE FRUIT1 TOYS & CAKES4 ,! M9D+ ( ! %OP DID NOT REQUIRE H] :OLE TIME1 NOR EV5 ! KEEP+ H] *ILDR5 CLEAN1 & %E LOV$ TO SEE !M CLEAN2 SO %E TOOK 9 WA%+1 & ALTOGE!R MADE A %IFT TO E>N BREAD = H] *ILDR51 /ILL WEEP+ = ,DANIEL1 :5 ,JACKY'S >* LOOKS MADE H] ?9K ( HIS FA!R4--,IT WAS PLEASANT TO WORK = H] *ILDR54--',YES2 FROM MORN+ TILL NIM1 IT W\LD HAVE BE5 ! SAME ?+ TO H]--= %E DID NOT LOVE HIM BECAUSE HE MA9TA9$ !M--NO2 %E HAD H&S ( H] [N4' 0,! C\NTRY PEOPLE W]E HONE/1 & ,PEGGY LEFT H] L95 \T TO DRY V]Y LATE4 ,A RECRUIT+ P>TY1 AS %E SUPPOS$1 PASS+ ?R\<1 MADE FREE ) A L>GE WA%2 = IT WAS ALL SWEPT AWAY1 9CLUD+ H] [N & H] *ILDR5'S LITTLE /OCK4 0,?IS WAS A DREADFUL BL[2 TWO DOZ5 ( %IRTS1 /OCKS & H&K]*IEFS4 ,%E GAVE ! MONEY :I* %E HAD LAID BY = HALF A YE>'S R5T1 & PROMIS$ TO PAY TWO %ILL+S A WEEK TILL ALL WAS CLE>$2 SO %E DID NOT LOSE H] EMPLOYM5T4 ,?IS TWO %ILL+S A WEEK1 & ! BUY+ A FEW NECESS>IES = ! *ILDR51 DROVE H] SO H>D1 ?AT %E HAD NOT A P5NY TO PAY H] R5T )1 :5 A TWELVEMON?'S BECAME DUE4 0,%E WAS N[ ) ,M>Y1 & HAD JU/ TOLD H] TALE1 :I* ,M>Y 9/ANTLY REPEAT$--IT WAS 9T5D$ = MY E>4 ,MANY H\SES 9 ?IS T[N1 PRODUC+ A BOR\<-9T]E/1 W]E 9CLUD$ 9 ! E/ATE PUR*AS$ BY ,MR4 ,V5ABLES1 & ! ATTORNEY ) :OM MY BRO!R LIV$1 WAS APPO9T$ HIS AG5T1 TO COLLECT & RAISE ! R5TS4 0,HE DEM&$ ,PEGGY'S1 &1 9 SPITE ( H] 9TREATIES1 H] POOR GOODS HAD BE5 SEIZ$ & SOLD4 ,SO ?AT %E HAD NOT1 & :AT WAS WORSE H] *ILDR51 '= %E HAD KN[N SORR[ 5\<1' A B$ TO LIE ON4 ,%E KNEW ?AT ,I WAS GOOD-NATUR$--RIITABLE1 YET NOT LIK+ TO ASK = MORE ?AN NE$S MU/1 %E SCORN$ TO PETITION :ILE PEOPLE C\LD ANY H[ BE MADE TO WAIT4 ,BUT N[1 %\LD %E BE TURN$ \T ( DOORS1 %E MU/ EXPECT NO?+ LESS ?AN TO LOSE ALL H] CU/OM]S1 & !N %E MU/ BEG OR />VE--& :AT W\LD BECOME ( H] *ILDR58--'HAD ,DANIEL NOT BE5 PRESS$--BUT ,GOD KN[S BE/--ALL ?IS C\LD NOT HAVE HAPP5$4' 0,I HAD TWO MATTRESSES ON MY B$2 :AT DID ,I WANT ) TWO1 :5 SU* A WOR?Y CREATURE MU/ LIE ON ! GR\ND8 ,MY MO!R W\LD BE ANGRY1 BUT ,I C\LD CONCEAL IT TILL MY UNCLE CAME D[N2 & !N ,I W\LD TELL HIM ALL ! :OLE TRU?1 & IF HE ABSOLV$ ME1 HEAV5 W\LD4 0,I BEGG$ ! H\SE-MAID TO COME UP /AIRS ) ME 7S]VANTS ALWAYS FEEL = ! DI/RESSES ( POV]TY1 & SO W\LD ! RI* IF !Y KNEW :AT IT WAS74 ,%E ASSI/$ ME TO TIE UP ! MATTRASS2 ,I DISCOV]+1 AT ! SAME TIME1 ?AT ONE BLANKET W\LD S]VE ME TILL W9T]1 C\LD ,I P]SUADE MY SI/]1 :O SLEPT ) ME1 TO KEEP MY SECRET4 ,%E 5T]+ 9 ! MID/ ( ! PACKAGE1 ,I GAVE H] SOME NEW FEA!RS1 TO SIL5CE H]4 ,WE GOT ! MATTRASS D[N ! BACK /AIRS1 UNP]CEIV$1 & ,I HELP$ TO C>RY IT1 TAK+ ) ME ALL ! MONEY ,I HAD1 & :AT ,I C\LD BORR[ FROM MY SI/]4 0,:5 ,I GOT TO ! COTTAGE1 ,PEGGY DECL>$ ?AT %E W\LD NOT TAKE :AT ,I HAD BR\T+ ) H] *ILDR51 AFT] KEEP+ !M SO LONG FROM BE+ ?R[N ON ! P>I%1 %E RELUCTANTLY CONS5T$4 0,MY PROJECT ( USEFULNESS 5D$ NOT H]E2 ,I DET]M9$ TO SPEAK TO ! ATTORNEY2 HE FREQU5TLY PAID ME COMPLIM5TS4 ,HIS *>ACT] DID NOT 9TIMIDATE ME2 BUT1 IMAG9+ ?AT ,PEGGY MU/ BE MI/AK51 & ?AT NO MAN C\LD TURN A DEAF E> TO SU* A TALE ( COMPLICAT$ DI/RESS1 ,I DET]M9$ TO WALK TO ! T[N ) ,M>Y ! NEXT MORN+1 & REQUE/ HIM TO WAIT = ! R5T1 & KEEP MY SECRET1 TILL MY UNCLE'S RETURN4 0,MY REPOSE WAS SWEET2 &1 WAK+ ) ! FIR/ DAWN ( DAY1 ,I B\ND$ TO ,M>Y'S COTTAGE4 ,:AT *>MS DO NOT A LIT SPREAD OV] NATURE6 ,EV]Y BIRD ?AT TWITT]$ 9 A BU%1 EV]Y FL[] ?AT 5LIV5$ ! H$GE1 SEEM$ PLAC$ !RE TO AWAK5 ME TO RAPTURE--YES2 TO RAPTURE4 ,! PRES5T MOM5T WAS FULL FRAUCELY HE$$ ,M>Y'S TE>S4 ,I DID NOT !N SUSPECT1 ?AT MY ELOQU5CE WAS 9 MY COMPLEXION1 ! BLU% ( SEV5TE51 OR ?AT1 9 A WORLD :]E HUMANITY TO WOM5 IS ! *>ACT]I/IC ( ADVANC+ CIVILIZATION1 ! BEAUTY ( A Y\NG GIRL WAS SO MU* MORE 9T]E/+ ?AN ! DI/RESS ( AN OLD ONE4 ,PRESS+ MY H&1 HE PROMIS$ TO LET ,PEGGY REMA9 9 ! H\SE AS LONG AS ,I WI%$4--,I MORE ?AN RETURN$ ! PRESSURE--,I WAS SO GRATEFUL & SO HAPPY4 ,EMBOLD5$ BY MY 9NOC5T W>M?1 HE !N KISS$ ME--& ,I DID NOT DRAW BACK--,I TOOK IT = A KISS ( *>ITY4 0,GAY AS A L>K1 ,I W5T TO D9E AT ,MR4 ,V5ABLES'4 ,I HAD PREVI\SLY OBTA9$ FIVE %ILL+S FROM MY FA!R1 T[>DS RE-CLO?+ ! POOR *ILDR5 ( MY C>E1 & PREVAIL$ ON MY MO!R TO TAKE ONE ( ! GIRLS 9TO ! H\SE1 :OM ,I DET]M9$ TO TEA* TO WORK & READ4 0,AFT] D9N]1 :5 ! Y\NG] P>T ( ! CIRCLE RETIR$ TO ! MUSIC ROOM1 ,I REC\NT$ ) 5]GY MY TALE2 ?AT IS1 ,I M5TION$ ,PEGGY'S DI/RESS1 )\T H9T+ AT ! /EPS ,I HAD TAK5 TO RELIEVE H]4 ,MISS ,V5ABLES GAVE ME HALF-A-CR[N2 ! HEIR FIVE %ILL+S2 BUT ,GEORGE SAT UNMOV$4 ,I WAS CRUELLY DI/RESS$ BY ! DISAPPO9TM5T--,I SC>CELY C\LD REMA9 ON MY *AIR2 &1 C\LD ,I HAVE GOT \T ( ! ROOM UNP]CEIV$1 ,I %\LD HAVE FL[N HOME1 AS IF TO RUN AWAY FROM MYSELF4 ,AFT] SEV]AL VA9 ATTEMPTS TO RISE1 ,I LEAN$ MY HEAD AGA9/ ! M>BLE *IMNEY-PIECE1 & GAZ+ ON ! EV]GRE5S ?AT FILL$ ! FIRE-PLACE1 MORALIZ$ ON ! VANITY ( HUMAN EXPECTATIONS2 REG>DLESS ( ! COMPANY4 ,I WAS R\S$ BY A G5TLE TAP ON MY %\LD] FROM BEH9D ,*>LOTTE'S *AIR4 ,I TURN$ MY HEAD1 & ,GEORGE SLID A GU9EA 9TO MY H&1 PUTT+ HIS F+] TO HIS M\?1 TO 5JO9 ME SIL5CE4 0,:AT A REVOLUTION TOOK PLACE1 NOT ONLY 9 MY TRA9 ( ?\T AS DEVOT$ TO VIRTUE1 :I* HAD ONLY OBEY$ A VIRTU\S IMPULSE4 ,! BITT] EXP]I5CE WAS YET TO COME1 ?AT HAS TAUE ! PR9CIPLES ( VIRTUE1 FROM ! CASUAL FEEL+S FROM :I* !Y G]M9ATE40 O ,*APT] #h 0,I HAVE P]HAPS DWELT TOO LONG ON A CIRCUM/ANCE1 :I* IS ONLY ( IMPORTANCE AS IT M>KS ! PROGRESS ( A DECEPTION ?AT HAS BE5 SO FATAL TO MY PEACE2 & 9TRODUCES TO Y\R NOTICE A POOR GIRL1 :OM1 9T5D+ TO S]VE1 ,I L$ TO RU94 ,/ILL IT IS PROBABLE ?AT ,I WAS NOT 5TIRELY ! VICTIM ( MI/AKE2 & ?AT Y\R FA!R1 GRADUALLY FA%ION$ BY ! WORLD1 DID NOT QUICKLY BECOME :AT ,I HESITATE TO CALL HIM--\T ( RESPECT TO MY DAUL+1 MY BRO!R ,ROB]T1 HAD A VIOL5T EFFECT ON H] WEAK5$ M9D2 =1 ?\< BOYS MAY BE RECKON$ ! PILL>S ( ! H\SE )\T DOORS1 GIRLS >E (T5 ! ONLY COM=T )94 ,!Y BUT TOO FREQU5TLY WA/E !IR HEAL? & SPIRITS ATT5D+ A DY+ P>5T1 :O LEAVES !M 9 COMP>ATIVE POV]TY4 ,AFT] CLOS+1 ) FILIAL PIETY1 A FA!R'S EYES1 !Y >E *AS$ FROM ! PAT]NAL RO(1 TO MAKE ROOM = ! FIR/-BORN1 ! SON1 :O IS TO C>RY ! EMPTY FAMILY-NAME D[N TO PO/]ITY2 ?\<1 OCCUPI$ ) HIS [N PLEASURES1 HE SC>CELY ?\G+1 9 ! DECL9E ( HIS P>5T'S LIFE1 ! DEBT CONTRACT$ 9 HIS *ILDHOOD4 ,MY MO!R'S CONDUCT L$ ME TO MAKE !SE REFLECTIONS4 ,GREAT AS WAS ! FATIGUE ,I 5DUR$1 & ! AFFECTION MY UNCEAS+ SOLICITUDE EV9C$1 ( :I* MY MO!R SEEM$ P]FECTLY S5SIBLE1 /ILL1 :5 MY BRO!R1 :OM ,I C\LD H>DLY P]SUADE TO REMA9 A QU>T] ( AN H\R 9 H] *AMB]1 WAS ) H] ALONE1 A %ORT TIME BE=E H] DEA?1 %E GAVE HIM A LITTLE HO>D1 :I* %E HAD BE5 SOME YE>S ACCUMULAT+4 0,DUR+ MY MO!R'S ILLNESS1 ,I WAS OBLIG$ TO MANAGE MY FA!R'S TEMP]1 :O1 FROM ! L+]+ NATURE ( H] MALADY1 BEGAN TO IMAG9E ?AT IT WAS M]ELY FANCY4 ,AT ?IS P]IOD1 AN >TFUL K9D ( UPP] S]VANT ATTRACT$ MY FA!R'S ATT5TION1 & ! NEIKS ON ! F9]Y1 NOT HONE/LY GOT1 EXHIBIT$ AT EV5+ S]VICE4 ,BUT ,I WAS TOO MU* OCCUPI$ ) MY MO!R TO OBS]VE ANY *ANGE 9 H] DRESS OR BEHAVIOR1 OR TO LI/5 TO ! :ISP] ( SC&AL4 0,I %ALL NOT DWELL ON ! DEA?-B$ SC5E1 LIVELY AS IS ! REMEMBRANCE1 OR ON ! EMOTION PRODUC$ BY ! LA/ GRASP ( MY MO!R'S COLD H&2 :5 BLESS+ ME1 %E ADD$1 ',A LITTLE PATI5CE1 & ALL WILL BE OV]6' ,AH6 MY *ILD1 H[ (T5 HAVE ?OSE WORDS RUNG M\RNFULLY 9 MY E>S--& ,I HAVE EXCLAIM$--',A LITTLE MORE PATI5CE1 & ,I TOO %ALL BE AT RE/6' 0,MY FA!R WAS VIOL5TLY AFFECT$ BY H] DEA?1 RECOLLECT$ 9/ANCES ( HIS UNK9DNESS1 & WEPT LIKE A *ILD4 0,MY MO!R HAD SOLEMNLY RECOMM5D$ MY SI/]S TO MY C>E1 & BID ME BE A MO!R TO !M4 ,!Y1 9DE$1 BECAME MORE DE> TO ME AS !Y BECAME MORE =LORN2 =1 DUR+ MY MO!R'S ILLNESS1 ,I DISCOV]$ ! RU9$ /ATE ( MY FA!R'S CIRCUM/ANCES1 & ?AT HE HAD ONLY BE5 ABLE TO KEEP UP APPE>ANCES1 BY ! SUMS :I* HE BORR[$ ( MY UNCLE4 0,MY FA!R'S GRIEF1 & CONSEQU5T T5D]NESS TO HIS *ILDR51 QUICKLY ABAT$1 ! H\SE GREW /ILL MORE GLOOMY OR RIOT\S2 & MY REFUGE FROM C>E WAS AGA9 AT ,MR4 ,V5ABLES'2 ! Y\NG 'SQUIRE HAV+ TAK5 HIS FA!R'S PLACE1 & ALL[+1 = ! PRES5T1 HIS SI/] TO PRESIDE AT HIS TABLE4 ,GEORGE1 ?\< DISSATISFI$ ) HIS PORTION ( ! =TUNE1 :I* HAD TILL LATELY BE5 ALL 9 TRADE1 VISIT$ ! FAMILY AS USUAL4 ,HE WAS N[ FULL ( SPECULATIONS 9 TRADE1 & HIS BR[ BECAME CL\D$ BY C>E4 ,HE SEEM$ TO RELAX 9 HIS ATT5TION TO ME1 :5 ! PRES5CE ( MY UNCLE GAVE A NEW TURN TO HIS BEHAVIOR4 ,I WAS TOO UNSUSPECT+1 TOO DIS9T]E/$1 TO TRACE !SE *ANGES TO !IR S\RCE4 0,MY HOME EV]Y DAY BECAME MORE & MORE DISAGREEABLE TO ME2 MY LIB]TY WAS UNNECESS>ILY ABRIDG$1 & MY BOOKS1 ON ! PRETEXT ?AT !Y MADE ME IDLE1 TAK5 FROM ME4 ,MY FA!R'S MI/RESS WAS ) *ILD1 & HE1 DOAT+ ON H]1 ALL[$ OR OV]LOOK$ H] VULG> MANN] ( TYRANNIZ+ OV] US4 ,I WAS 9DIGNANT1 ESPECIALLY :5 ,I SAW H] 5DEAVOR+ TO ATTRACT1 %ALL ,I SAY S$UCE8 MY Y\NG] BRO!R4 ,BY ALL[+ WOM5 BUT ONE WAY ( RIS+ 9 ! WORLD1 ! FO/]+ ! LIB]T9ISM ( M51 SOCIETY MAKES MON/]S ( !M1 & !N !IR IGNOBLE VICES >E BR\D AS A PRO( ( 9F]IORITY ( 9TELLECT4 0,! WE>ISOM5ESS ( MY SITUATION CAN SC>CELY BE DESCRIB$4 ,?\< MY LIFE HAD NOT PASS$ 9 ! MO/ EV5 T5\R ) MY MO!R1 IT WAS P>ADISE TO ?AT ,I WAS DE/9$ TO 5DURE ) MY FA!R'S MI/RESS1 JEAL\S ( H] ILLEGITIMATE AU?ORITY4 ,MY FA!R'S =M] OCCASIONAL T5D]NESS1 9 SPITE ( HIS VIOL5CE ( TEMP]1 HAD BE5 SOO?+ TO ME2 BUT N[ HE ONLY MET ME ) REPRO(S OR PORT5T\S FR[NS4 ,! H\SE-KEEP]1 AS %E WAS N[ T]M$1 WAS ! VULG> DESPOT ( ! FAMILY2 & ASSUM+ ! NEW *>ACT] ( A F9E LADY1 %E C\LD NEV] =GIVE ! CONTEMPT :I* WAS SOMETIMES VISIBLE 9 MY C\NT5ANCE1 :5 %E UTT]$ ) POMPOSITY H] BAD ,5GLI%1 OR AFFECT$ TO BE WELL BR$4 0,TO MY UNCLE ,I V5TUR$ TO OP5 MY HE>T2 & HE1 ) HIS WONT$ B5EVOL5CE1 BEGAN TO CONSID] 9 :AT MANN] HE C\LD EXTRICATE ME \T ( MY PRES5T IRKSOME SITUATION4 ,9 SPITE ( HIS [N DISAPPO9TM5T1 OR1 MO/ PROBABLY1 ACTUAT$ BY ! FEEL+S ?AT HAD BE5 PETRIFI$1 NOT COOL$1 9 ALL !IR SANGU9E F]VOR1 LIKE A BOIL+ TORR5T ( LAVA SUDD5LY DA% + 9TO ! SEA1 HE ?\RIAGE ( MUTUAL 9CL9ATION 7W\LD 5VI\S />S P]MIT IT7 ! ONLY *ANCE = HAPP9ESS 9 ?IS DISA/R\S WORLD4 ,GEORGE ,V5ABLES HAD ! REPUTATION ( BE+ ATT5TIVE TO BUS9ESS1 & MY FA!R'S EXAMPLE GAVE GREAT WEIK1 ) ALL DUE DEF]5CE TO HIS SUP]IOR JUDGM5T2 SO ?AT MY UNCLE SELDOM LEFT HIS COMPANY )\T OBS]V+1 ?AT ! Y\NG MAN HAD MORE 9 HIM ?AN PEOPLE SUPPOS$4 0,9 ?IS OP9ION HE WAS NOT S+UL>2 YET1 BELIEVE ME1 & ,I AM NOT SWAY$ BY RES5TM5T1 !SE SPEE*ES SO JU/LY POIZ$1 ?IS SIL5T DEF]5CE1 :5 ! ANIMAL SPIRITS ( O!R Y\NG PEOPLE W]E ?R[+ (F Y\?FUL EBULLITIONS1 W]E NOT ! EFFECT ( ?\R5NESS ( M9D1 & WANT ( IMAG9ATION4 ,A COLT ( METTLE WILL CURVET & %EW HIS PACES4 ,YES2 MY DE> GIRL1 !SE PRUD5T Y\NG M5 WANT ALL ! FIRE NECESS>Y TO F]M5T !IR FACULTIES1 & >E *>ACT]IZ$ AS WISE1 ONLY BECAUSE !Y >E NOT FOOLI%4 ,IT IS TRUE1 ?AT ,GEORGE WAS BY NO MEANS SO GREAT A FAVORITE ( M9E AS DUR+ ! FIR/ YE> ( \R ACQUA9TANCE2 /ILL1 AS HE (T5 CO9CID$ 9 OP9ION ) ME1 & E*O$ MY S5TIM5TS2 & HAV+ MYSELF NO O!R ATTA*M5T1 ,I HE>D ) PLEASURE MY UNCLE'S PROPOSAL2 BUT ?\T SWELL$ ) GRATITUDE--,I KNEW NOT ?AT MY UNCLE HAD PROMIS$ HIM FIVE ?\S& P\NDS4 0,HAD ?IS TRULY G5]\S MAN M5TION$ HIS 9T5TION TO ME1 ,I %\LD HAVE 9SI/$ ON A ?\S& P\NDS BE+ SETTL$ ON EA* ( MY SI/]S2 ,GEORGE W\LD HAVE CONTE/$2 ,I %\LD HAVE SE5 HIS SELFI% S\L2 &--GRACI\S ,GOD6 HAVE BE5 SP>$ ! MIS]Y ( DISCOV]+1 :5 TOO LATE1 ?AT ,I WAS UNIT$ TO A HE>TLESS1 UNPR9CIPL$ WRET*4 ,ALL MY S*EMES ( USEFULNESS W\LD NOT !N HAVE BE5 BLA/$4 ,! T5D]NESS ( MY HE>T W\LD NOT HAVE HEAT$ MY IMAG9ATION ) VISIONS ( ! 9EFFABLE DELIDLY ACQUIR$1 TO BE UND]M9$ BY UNAVAIL+ REGRET4 ,LET ME HA/5 =W>D TO DESCRIBE ! TURBID /REAM 9 :I* ,I HAD TO WADE--BUT LET ME EXULT+LY DECL>E ?AT IT IS PASS$--MY S\L HOLDS FELL[%IP ) HIM NO MORE4 ,HE CUT ! ,GORDIAN KNOT1 :I* MY PR9CIPLES1 MI/AK5 ONES1 RESPECT$2 HE DISSOLV$ ! TIE1 ! FETT]S RA!R1 ?AT ATE 9TO MY V]Y VITALS--& ,I %\LD REJOICE1 CONSCI\S ?AT MY M9D IS FRE$1 ?\< CONF9$ 9 HELL ITSELF1 ! ONLY PLACE ?AT EV5 FANCY CAN IMAG9E MORE DREADFUL ?AN MY PRES5T ABODE4 0,!SE V>Y+ EMOTIONS WILL NOT ALL[ ME TO PROCE$4 ,I HEAVE SI< AFT] SI<2 YET MY HE>T IS /ILL OPPRESS$4 ,= :AT AM ,I RES]V$8 ,:Y WAS ,I NOT BORN A MAN1 OR :Y WAS ,I BORN AT ALL80 O ,*APT] #i 0,I RESUME MY P5 TO FLY FROM ?\RI$2 & WE HA/5$ TO ,LONDON4 ,I HAD PURPOS$ TAK+ ONE ( MY SI/]S ) ME2 = A /RONG MOTIVE = M>RY+1 WAS ! DESIRE ( HAV+ A HOME AT :I* ,I C\LD RECEIVE !M1 N[ !IR [N GREW SO UNCOM=TABLE1 AS NOT TO DES]VE ! *E]+ APPELLATION4 ,AN OBJECTION WAS MADE TO H] ACCOMPANY+ ME1 ?AT APPE>$ PLAUSIBLE2 & ,I RELUCTANTLY ACQUIESC$4 ,I WAS H[EV] WILL+LY ALL[$ TO TAKE ) ME ,MOLLY1 POOR ,PEGGY'S DAUE IDEAS COMMONLY ASSOCIAT$ 9 ! C\NTRY2 &1 AS BLOOM+ AS ,MAY1 %E BADE ADIEU TO ,PEGGY ) WEEP+ EYES4 ,I DID NOT EV5 FEEL HURT AT ! REFUSAL 9 RELATION TO MY SI/]1 TILL HE>+ :AT MY UNCLE HAD DONE = ME1 ,I HAD ! SIMPLICITY TO REQUE/1 SPEAK+ ) W>M? ( !IR SITUATION1 ?AT HE W\LD GIVE !M A ?\S& P\NDS A-PIECE1 :I* SEEM$ TO ME BUT JU/ICE4 ,HE ASK$ ME1 GIV+ ME A KISS1 ',IF ,I HAD LO/ MY S5SES8' ,I />T$ BACK1 AS IF ,I HAD F\ND A WASP 9 A ROSE-BU%4 ,I EXPO/ULAT$4 ,HE SNE]$3 & ! DEMON ( DISCORD 5T]$ \R P>ADISE1 TO POISON ) HIS PE/IF]\S BREA? EV]Y OP5+ JOY4 0,I HAD SOMETIMES OBS]V$ DEFECTS 9 MY HUSB&'S UND]/&+2 BUT1 L$ A/RAY BY A PREVAIL+ OP9ION1 ?AT GOODNESS ( DISPOSITION IS ( ! FIR/ IMPORTANCE 9 ! RELATIVE SITUATIONS ( LIFE1 9 PROPORTION AS ,I P]CEIV$ ! N>R[NESS ( HIS UND]/&+1 FANCY 5L>G$ ! B\ND>Y ( HIS HE>T4 ,FATAL ]ROR6 ,H[ QUICKLY IS ! SO MU* VAUNT$ MILK9ESS ( NATURE TURN$ 9TO GALL1 BY AN 9T]C\RSE ) ! WORLD1 IF MORE G5]\S JUICES DO NOT SU/A9 ! VITAL S\RCE ( VIRTUE6 0,ONE TRAIT 9 MY *>ACT] WAS EXTREME CR$ULITY2 BUT1 :5 MY EYES W]E ONCE OP5$1 ,I SAW BUT TOO CLE>LY ALL ,I HAD BE=E OV]LOOK$4 ,MY HUSB& WAS SUNK 9 MY E/EEM2 /ILL !RE >E Y\?FUL EMOTIONS1 :I*1 = A :ILE1 FILL UP ! *ASM ( LOVE & FRI5D%IP4 ,BESIDES1 IT REQUIR$ SOME TIME TO 5ABLE ME TO SEE HIS :OLE *>ACT] 9 A JU/ LIK ( VIRTUE 9 HIMSELF1 HE BEGAN TO IMAG9E ?AT IT NO :]E EXI/$4 0,DO NOT LET ME LEAD Y\ A/RAY1 MY *ILD1 ,I DO NOT MEAN TO ASS]T1 ?AT ANY HUMAN BE+ IS 5TIRELY 9CAPABLE ( FEEL+ ! G5]\S EMOTIONS1 :I* >E ! F\NDATION ( EV]Y TRUE PR9CIPLE ( VIRTUE2 BUT !Y >E FREQU5TLY1 ,I FE>1 SO FEEBLE1 ?AT1 LIKE ! 9FLAMMABLE QUALITY :I* MORE OR LESS LURKS 9 ALL BODIES1 !Y (T5 LIE = EV] DORMANT2 ! CIRCUM/ANCES NEV] OCCURR+1 NECESS>Y TO CALL !M 9TO ACTION4 0,I DISCOV]$ H[EV] BY *ANCE1 ?AT1 9 CONSEQU5CE ( SOME LOSSES 9 TRADE1 ! NATURAL EFFECT ( HIS GAMBL+ DESIRE TO />T SUDD5LY 9TO RI*ES1 ! FIVE ?\S& P\NDS GIV5 ME BY MY UNCLE1 HAD BE5 PAID V]Y OPPORTUNELY4 ,?IS DISCOV]Y1 /RANGE AS Y\ MAY ?9K ! ASS]TION1 GAVE ME PLEASURE2 MY HUSB&'S EMB>RASSM5TS 5DE>$ HIM TO ME4 ,I WAS GLAD TO F9D AN EXCUSE = HIS CONDUCT TO MY SI/]S1 & MY M9D BECAME CALM]4 0,MY UNCLE 9TRODUC$ ME TO SOME LIT]>Y SOCIETY2 & ! !AT]S W]E A NEV]-FAIL+ S\RCE ( AMUSEM5T TO ME4 ,MY DELIILY REPEAT$ AFT] H]1 9 ! SAME TONE1 & ) A LONG-DRAWN SI<1 ',HE>TS LIKE \R'S W]E PAIR'D--NOT MAT*'D4' 0,!SE W]E1 AT FIR/1 SPONTANE\S EMOTIONS1 ?\<1 BECOM+ ACQUA9T$ ) M5 ( WIT & POLI%$ MANN]S1 ,I C\LD NOT SOMETIMES HELP REGRETT+ MY E>LY M>RIAGE2 & ?AT1 9 MY HA/E TO ESCAPE FROM A TEMPOR>Y DEP5D5CE1 & EXP& MY NEWLY FL$G$ W+S1 9 AN UNKN[N SKY1 ,I HAD BE5 CAUD = ME1 MADE SEV]AL MON?S GLIDE AWAY4 ,YET1 NOT =GETT+ ! SITUATION ( MY SI/]S1 :O W]E /ILL V]Y Y\NG1 ,I PREVAIL$ ON MY UNCLE TO SETTLE A ?\S& P\NDS ON EA*2 & TO PLACE !M 9 A S*OOL NE> T[N1 :]E ,I C\LD FREQU5TLY VISIT1 AS WELL AS HAVE !M AT HOME ) ME4 0,I N[ TRI$ TO IMPROVE MY HUSB&'S TA/E1 BUT WE HAD FEW SUBJECTS 9 COMMON2 9DE$ HE SOON APPE>$ TO HAVE LITTLE RELI% = MY SOCIETY1 UNLESS HE WAS H9T+ TO ME ! USE HE C\LD MAKE ( MY UNCLE'S WEAL?4 ,:5 WE HAD COMPANY1 ,I WAS DISGU/$ BY AN O/5TATI\S DISPLAY ( RI*ES1 & ,I HAVE (T5 QUITT$ ! ROOM1 TO AVOID LI/5+ TO EXAGG]AT$ TALES ( MONEY OBTA9$ BY LUCKY HITS4 0,) ALL MY ATT5TION & AFFECTIONATE 9T]E/1 ,I P]CEIV$ ?AT ,I C\LD NOT BECOME ! FRI5D OR CONFID5T ( MY HUSB&4 ,EV]Y ?+ ,I LE>N$ RELATIVE TO HIS AFFAIRS ,I GA!R$ UP BY ACCID5T2 & ,I VA9LY 5DEAVOR$ TO E/ABLI%1 AT \R FIRE-SIDE1 ?AT SOCIAL CONV]SE1 :I* (T5 R5D]S PEOPLE ( DIFF]5T *>ACT]S DE> TO EA* O!R4 ,RETURN+ FROM ! !AT]1 OR ANY AMUS+ P>TY1 ,I FREQU5TLY BEGAN TO RELATE :AT ,I HAD SE5 & HIMS ( Y\? W]E VANI%+ ) ITS VIVACITY4 0,I GIVE Y\ ONE VIEW ( ! SUBJECT2 BUT !SE EXP]IM5TS & ALT]ATIONS TOOK UP ! SPACE ( FIVE YE>S2 DUR+ :I* P]IOD1 ,I HAD MO/ RELUCTANTLY EXTORT$ SEV]AL SUMS FROM MY UNCLE1 TO SAVE MY HUSB&1 TO USE HIS [N WORDS1 FROM DE/RUCTION4 ,AT FIR/ IT WAS TO PREV5T BILLS BE+ NOT$1 TO ! 9JURY ( HIS CR$IT2 !N TO BAIL HIM2 & AFT]W>DS TO PREV5T AN EXECUTION FROM 5T]+ ! H\SE4 ,I BEGAN AT LA/ TO CONCLUDE1 ?AT HE W\LD HAVE MADE MORE EX]TIONS ( HIS [N TO EXTRICATE HIMSELF1 HAD HE NOT RELI$ ON M9E1 CRUEL AS WAS ! TASK HE IMPOS$ ON ME2 & ,I FIRMLY DET]M9$ ?AT ,I W\LD MAKE USE ( NO MORE PRETEXTS4 0,FROM ! MOM5T ,I PRON\NC$ ?IS DET]M9ATION1 9DIFF]5CE ON HIS P>T WAS *ANG$ 9TO RUD5ESS1 OR SOME?+ WORSE4 0,HE N[ SELDOM D9$ AT HOME1 & CONT9UALLY RETURN$ AT A LATE H\R1 DRUNK1 TO B$4 ,I RETIR$ TO ANO!R AP>TM5T2 ,I WAS GLAD1 ,I [N1 TO ESCAPE FROM HIS2 = P]SONAL 9TIMACY )\T AFFECTION1 SEEM$1 TO ME ! MO/ DEGRAD+1 AS WELL AS ! MO/ PA9FUL /ATE 9 :I* A WOMAN ( ANY TA/E1 NOT TO SPEAK ( ! PECULI> DELICACY ( FO/]$ S5SIBILITY1 C\LD BE PLAC$4 ,BUT MY HUSB&'S FONDNESS = WOM5 WAS ( ! GROSSE/ K9D1 & IMAG9ATION WAS SO :OLLY \T ( ! QUE/ION1 AS TO R5D] HIS 9DULG5CES ( ?IS SORT 5TIRELY PROMISCU\S1 & ( ! MO/ BRUTAL NATURE4 ,MY HEAL? SUFF]$1 BE=E MY HE>T WAS 5TIRELY E/RANG$ BY ! LOA?SOME 9=MATION2 C\LD ,I !N HAVE RETURN$ TO HIS SULLI$ >MS1 BUT AS A VICTIM TO ! PREJUDICES ( MANK9D1 :O HAVE MADE WOM5 ! PROP]TY ( !IR HUSB&S8 ,I DISCOV]$ EV51 BY HIS CONV]SATION1 :5 9TOXICAT$ ?AT HIS FAVORITES W]E WANTONS ( ! L[E/ CLASS1 :O C\LD BY !IR VULG>1 9DEC5T MIR?1 :I* HE CALL$ NATURE1 R\SE HIS SLUGGI% SPIRITS4 ,M]ETRICI\S ORNAM5TS & MANN]S W]E NECESS>Y TO ATTRACT HIS ATT5TION4 ,HE SELDOM LOOK$ TWICE AT A MODE/ WOMAN1 & SAT SIL5T 9 !IR COMPANY2 & ! *>MS ( Y\? & BEAUTY HAD NOT ! SLICASMS LEVEL$ AT !M1 BY M5 :O DO NOT ALL[ !M TO HAVE M9DS1 BECAUSE M9D W\LD BE AN IMP$IM5T TO GROSS 5JOYM5T4 ,M5 :O >E 9F]IOR TO !IR FELL[ M51 >E ALWAYS MO/ ANXI\S TO E/ABLI% !IR SUP]IORITY OV] WOM54 ,BUT :]E >E !SE REFLECTIONS LEAD+ ME8 0,WOM5 :O HAVE LO/ !IR HUSB&'S AFFECTION1 >E JU/LY REPROV$ = NEGLECT+ !IR P]SONS1 & NOT TAK+ ! SAME PA9S TO KEEP1 AS TO GA9 A HE>T2 BUT :O ?9KS ( GIV+ ! SAME ADVICE TO M51 ?\< WOM5 >E CONT9UALLY /IGMATIZ$ = BE+ ATTA*$ TO FOPS2 & FROM ! NATURE ( !IR $UCATION1 >E MORE SUSCEPTIBLE ( DISGU/8 ,YET :Y A WOMAN %\LD BE EXPECT$ TO 5DURE A SLOV51 ) MORE PATI5CE ?AN A MAN1 & MAGNANIM\SLY TO GOV]N H]SELF1 ,I CANNOT CONCEIVE2 UNLESS IT BE SUPPOS$ >ROGANT 9 H] TO LOOK = RESPECT AS WELL AS A MA9T5ANCE4 ,IT IS NOT EASY TO BE PLEAS$1 BECAUSE1 AFT] PROMIS+ TO LOVE1 9 DIFF]5T CIRCUM/ANCES1 WE >E TOLD ?AT IT IS \R DUTY4 ,I CANNOT1 ,I AM SURE 7?\<1 :5 ATT5D+ ! SICK1 ,I NEV] FELT DISGU/7 =GET MY [N S5SATIONS1 :5 RIS+ ) HEAL? & SPIRIT1 & AFT] SC5T+ ! SWEET MORN+1 ,I HAVE MET MY HUSB& AT ! BREAKFA/ TABLE4 ,! ACTIVE ATT5TION ,I HAD BE5 GIV+ TO DOME/IC REGULATIONS1 :I* W]E G5]ALLY SETTL$ BE=E HE ROSE1 OR A WALK1 GAVE A GL[ TO MY C\NT5ANCE1 ?AT CONTRA/$ ) HIS SQUALLID APPE>ANCE4 ,! SQUEAMI%NESS ( /OMA* ALONE1 PRODUC$ BY ! LA/ NIM-*AIR1 9 A DIRTY P[D]+ G[N1 SOIL$ L951 UNG>T]$ /OCK+S1 & TANGL$ HAIR1 YAWN+ & /RET*+ HIMSELF4 ,! NEWSPAP] WAS IMM$IATELY CALL$ =1 IF NOT BR\D1 FROM :I* HE W\LD SC>CELY LIFT HIS EYES :ILE ,I P\R$ \T ! TEA1 EXCEPT+ TO ASK = SOME BR&Y TO PUT 9TO IT1 OR TO DECL>E ?AT HE C\LD NOT EAT4 ,9 ANSW] TO ANY QUE/ION1 9 HIS BE/ HUMOR1 IT WAS A DRAWL+ ',:AT DO Y\ SAY1 *ILD8' ,BUT IF ,I DEM&$ MONEY = ! H\SE EXP5CES1 :I* ,I PUT (F TILL ! LA/ MOM5T1 HIS CU/OM>Y REPLY1 (T5 PREFAC$ ) AN OA?1 WAS1 ',DO Y\ ?9K ME1 MADAM1 MADE ( MONEY8'--,! BUT*]1 ! BAK]1 MU/ WAIT2 &1 :AT WAS WORSE1 ,I WAS (T5 OBLIG$ TO WITNESS HIS SURLY DISMISSION ( TRADESM51 :O W]E 9 WANT ( !IR MONEY1 & :OM ,I SOMETIMES PAID ) ! PRES5TS MY UNCLE GAVE ME = MY [N USE4 0,AT ?IS JUNCTURE MY FA!R'S MI/RESS1 BY T]RIFY+ HIS CONSCI5CE1 PREVAIL$ ON HIM TO M>RY H]2 HE WAS ALREADY BECOME A ME?ODI/2 & MY BRO!R1 :O N[ PRACTIC$ = HIMSELF1 HAD DISCOV]$ A FLAW 9 ! SETTLEM5T MADE ON MY MO!R'S *ILDR51 :I* SET IT ASIDE1 & HE ALL[$ MY FA!R1 :OSE DI/RESS MADE HIM SUBMIT TO ANY ?+1 A TI! ( HIS [N1 OR RA!R \R =TUNE4 0,MY SI/]S HAD LEFT S*OOL1 BUT W]E UNABLE TO 5DURE HOME1 :I* MY FA!R'S WIFE R5D]$ AS DISAGREEABLE AS POSSIBLE1 TO GET RID ( GIRLS :OM %E REG>D$ AS SPIES ON H] CONDUCT4 ,!Y W]E ACCOMPLI%$1 YET Y\ CAN 7MAY Y\ NEV] BE R$UC$ TO ! SAME DE/ITUTE /ATE67 SC>CELY CONCEIVE ! TR\BLE ,I HAD TO PLACE !M 9 ! SITUATION ( GOV]NESSES1 ! ONLY ONE 9 :I* EV5 A WELL-$UCAT$ WOMAN1 ) MORE ?AN ORD9>Y TAL5TS1 CAN /RUGGLE = A SUBSI/5CE2 & EV5 ?IS IS A DEP5D5CE NEXT TO M5IAL4 ,IS IT !N SURPRIS+1 ?AT SO MANY =LORN WOM51 ) HUMAN PASSIONS & FEEL+S1 TAKE REFUGE 9 9FAMY8 ,ALONE 9 L>GE MANSIONS1 ,I SAY ALONE1 BECAUSE !Y HAD NO COMPANIONS ) :OM !Y C\LD CONV]SE ON EQUAL T]MS1 OR FROM :OM !Y C\LD EXPECT ! 5DE>M5TS ( AFFECTION1 !Y GREW MELAN*OLY1 & ! S\ND ( JOY MADE !M SAD2 & ! Y\NGE/1 HAV+ A MORE DELICATE FRAME1 FELL 9TO A DECL9E4 ,IT WAS ) GREAT DIFFICULTY ?AT ,I1 :O N[ ALMO/ SUPPORT$ ! H\SE BY LOANS FROM MY UNCLE1 C\LD PREVAIL ON ! MA/] ( IT1 TO ALL[ H] A ROOM TO DIE 94 ,I WAT*$ H] SICK B$ = SOME MON?S1 & !N CLOS$ H] EYES1 G5TLE SPIRIT6 = EV]4 ,%E WAS PRETTY1 ) V]Y 5GAG+ MANN]S2 YET HAD NEV] AN OPPORTUNITY TO M>RY1 EXCEPT+ TO A V]Y OLD MAN4 ,%E HAD ABILITIES SUFFICI5T TO HAVE %ONE 9 ANY PR(ESSION1 HAD !RE BE5 ANY PR(ESSIONS = WOM51 ?\< %E %RUNK AT ! NAME ( MILL9] OR MANTUA-MAK] AS DEGRAD+ TO A G5TLEWOMAN4 ,I W\LD NOT T]M ?IS FEEL+ FALSE PRIDE TO ANY ONE BUT Y\1 MY *ILD1 :OM ,I FONDLY HOPE TO SEE 7YES2 ,I WILL 9DULGE ! HOPE = A MOM5T67 POSSESS$ ( ?AT 5]GY ( *>ACT] :I* GIVES DIGNITY TO ANY /ATION2 & ) ?AT CLE>1 FIRM SPIRIT ?AT WILL 5ABLE Y\ TO *OOSE A SITUATION = Y\RSELF1 OR SUBMIT TO BE CLASS$ 9 ! L[E/1 IF IT BE ! ONLY ONE 9 :I* Y\ CAN BE ! MI/RESS ( Y\R [N ACTIONS4 0,SOON AFT] ! DEA? ( MY SI/]1 AN 9CID5T OCCURR$1 TO PROVE TO ME ?AT ! HE>T ( A LIB]T9E IS DEAD TO NATURAL AFFECTION2 & TO CONV9CE ME1 ?AT ! BE+ :O HAS APPE>$ ALL T5D]NESS1 TO GRATIFY A SELFI% PASSION1 IS AS REG>DLESS ( ! 9NOC5T FRUIT ( IT1 AS ( ! OBJECT1 :5 ! FIT IS OV]4 ,I HAD CASUALLY OBS]V$ AN OLD1 MEANLOOK+ WOMAN1 :O CALL$ ON MY HUSB& EV]Y TWO OR ?REE MON?S TO RECEIVE SOME MONEY4 ,ONE DAY 5T]+ ! PASSAGE ( HIS LITTLE C\NT+-H\SE1 AS %E WAS GO+ \T1 ,I HE>D H] SAY1 ',! *ILD IS V]Y WEAK2 %E CANNOT LIVE LONG1 %E WILL SOON DIE \T ( Y\R WAY1 SO Y\ NE$ NOT GRUDGE H] A LITTLE PHYSIC4' 0',SO MU* ! BETT]1' HE REPLI$1' & PRAY M9D Y\R [N BUS9ESS1 GOOD WOMAN4' 0,I WAS /RUCK BY HIS UNFEEL+1 9HUMAN TONE ( VOICE1 & DREW BACK1 DET]M9$ :5 ! WOMAN CAME AGA91 TO TRY TO SPEAK TO H]1 NOT \T ( CURIOSITY1 ,I HAD HE>D 5\<1 BUT ) ! HOPE ( BE+ USEFUL TO A POOR1 \TCA/ GIRL4 0,A MON? OR TWO ELAPS$ BE=E ,I SAW ?IS WOMAN AGA92 & !N %E HAD A *ILD 9 H] H& ?AT TOTT]$ ALONG1 SC>CELY ABLE TO SU/A9 H] [N WEILOR4 ,%E HESITAT$1 YET OBEY$4 ,I ASSUR$ H] ?AT ,I %\LD NOT M5TION TO MY HUSB& 7! WORD SEEM$ TO WEI< ON MY RESPIRATION71 ?AT ,I HAD SE5 H]1 OR HIS *ILD4 ,! WOMAN />$ AT ME ) A/ONI%M5T2 & ,I TURN$ MY EYES ON ! SQUALID OBJECT . ,%E C\LD H>DLY SUPPORT H]SELF1 H] COMPLEXION WAS SALL[1 & H] EYES 9FLAM$1 ) AN 9DESCRIBABLE LOOK ( CUNN+1 MIX$ ) ! WR9KLES PRODUC$ BY ! PEEVI%NESS ( PA94 0,POOR *ILD6' ,I EXCLAIM$4 ',AH6 Y\ MAY WELL SAY POOR *ILD1' REPLI$ ! WOMAN4 ',I BR\T TO LOOK AT H]1 & NOT GET SOME ADVICE4 ,I DO NOT KN[ :AT !Y DES]VE :O NURS$ H]4 ,:Y1 H] LEGS B5T UND] H] LIKE A B[ :5 %E CAME TO ME1 & %E HAS NEV] BE5 WELL S9CE2 BUT1 IF !Y W]E NO BETT] PAID ?AN ,I AM1 IT IS NOT TO BE WOND]$ AT1 SURE 5\<4' 0,ON FUR!R 9QUIRY ,I WAS 9=M$1 ?AT ?IS MIS]ABLE SPECTACLE WAS ! DAURIAGE HE S5T H] AWAY1 H] SITUATION BE+ TOO VISIBLE4 ,AFT] H] DELIV]Y1 %E WAS ?R[N ON ! T[N2 & DI$ 9 AN HOSPITAL )9 ! YE>4 ,! BABE WAS S5T TO A P>I%-NURSE1 & AFT]W>DS TO ?IS WOMAN1 :O DID NOT SEEM MU* BETT]2 BUT :AT WAS TO BE EXPECT$ FROM SU* A CLOSE B>GA98 ,%E WAS ONLY PAID ?REE %ILL+S A WEEK = BO>D & WA%+4 0,! WOMAN BEGG$ ME TO GIVE H] SOME OLD CLO!S = ! *ILD1 ASSUR+ ME1 ?AT %E WAS ALMO/ AFRAID TO ASK MA/] = MONEY TO BUY EV5 A PAIR ( %OES4 0,I GREW SICK AT HE>T4 ,&1 FE>+ ,MR4 ,V5ABLES MI O ,*APT] #a 0,MY FA!R'S SITUATION WAS N[ SO DI/RESS+1 ?AT ,I PREVAIL$ ON MY UNCLE TO ACCOMPANY ME TO VISIT HIM2 & TO L5D ME HIS ASSI/ANCE1 TO PREV5T ! :OLE PROP]TY ( ! FAMILY FROM BECOM+ ! PREY ( MY BRO!R'S RAPACITY2 =1 TO EXTRICATE HIMSELF \T ( PRES5T DIFFICULTIES1 MY FA!R WAS TOTALLY REG>DLESS ( FUTURITY4 ,I TOOK D[N ) ME SOME PRES5TS = MY /EP-MO!R2 IT DID NOT REQUIRE AN EF=T = ME TO TREAT H] ) CIVILITY1 OR TO =GET ! PA/4 0,?IS WAS ! FIR/ TIME ,I HAD VISIT$ MY NATIVE VILLAGE1 S9CE MY M>RIAGE4 ,BUT ) :AT DIFF]5T EMOTIONS DID ,I RETURN FROM ! BUSY WORLD1 ) A HEAVY WEIT6 ,! FIR/ SC5T ( ! WILD FL[]S FROM ! HEA?1 ?RILL$ ?R\< MY VE9S1 AWAK5+ EV]Y S5SE TO PLEASURE4 ,! ICY H& ( DESPAIR SEEM$ TO BE REMOV$ FROM MY BOSOM2 &--=GETT+ MY HUSB&--! NURTUR$ VISIONS ( A ROMANTIC M9D1 BUR/+ ON ME ) ALL !IR ORIG9AL WILDNESS & GAY EXUB]ANCE1 W]E AGA9 HAIL$ AS SWEET REALITIES4 ,I =GOT1 ) EQUAL FACILITY1 ?AT ,I EV] FELT SORR[1 OR KNEW C>E 9 ! C\NTRY2 :ILE A TRANSI5T RA9B[ /OLE A?W>T ! CL\DY SKY ( DESPOND5CY4 ,! PICTURESQUE =M ( SEV]AL FAVORITE TREES1 & ! POR*ES ( RUDE COTTAGES1 ) !IR SMIL+ H$GES1 W]E RECOGNIZ$ ) ! GLADSOME PLAYFULNESS ( *ILDI% VIVACITY4 ,I C\LD HAVE KISS$ ! *ICK5S ?AT PECK$ ON ! COMMON2 & LONG$ TO PAT ! C[S1 & FROLIC ) ! DOGS ?AT SPORT$ ON IT4 ,I GAZ$ ) DELI GRE5 LANE1 :I* L$ DIRECTLY TO ! VILLAGE1 ! S\ND ( ! WELL-KN[N ROOK]Y GAVE ?AT S5TIM5TAL T+E TO ! V>Y+ S5SATIONS ( MY ACTIVE S\L1 :I* ONLY S]V$ TO HEID1 & TE>S ( AFFECTION1 SU* WAS ! EFFECT ( MY IMAG9ATION1 B$EW$ MY MO!R'S GRAVE6 ,SORR[ GAVE PLACE TO DEVOTIONAL FEEL+S4 ,I W&]$ ?R\< ! *UR* 9 FANCY1 AS ,I US$ SOMETIMES TO DO ON A ,SATURDAY EV5+4 ,I RECOLLECT$ ) :AT F]VOR ,I ADDRESS$ ! ,GOD ( MY Y\?3 & ONCE MORE ) RAPTUR\S LOVE LOOK$ ABOVE MY SORR[S TO ! ,FA!R ( NATURE4 ,I PAUSE--FEEL+ =CIBLY ALL ! EMOTIONS ,I AM DESCRIB+2 & 7REM9D$1 AS ,I REGI/] MY SORR[S1 ( ! SUBLIME CALM ,I HAVE FELT1 :5 9 SOME TREM5D\S SOLITUDE1 MY S\L RE/$ ON ITSELF1 & SEEM$ TO FILL ! UNIV]SE7 ,I 9S5SIBLY BREA! S(T1 HU%+ EV]Y WAYW>D EMOTION1 AS IF FE>+ TO SULLY ) A SI<1 A CONT5TM5T SO EXTATIC4 0,HAV+ SETTL$ MY FA!R'S AFFAIRS1 &1 BY MY EX]TIONS 9 HIS FAVOR1 MADE MY BRO!R MY SWORN FOE1 ,I RETURN$ TO ,LONDON4 ,MY HUSB&'S CONDUCT WAS N[ *ANG$2 ,I HAD DUR+ MY ABS5CE1 RECEIV$ SEV]AL AFFECTIONATE1 P5IT5TIAL LETT]S FROM HIM2 & HE SEEM$ ON MY >RIVAL1 TO WI% BY HIS BEHAVIOR TO PROVE HIS S9C]ITY4 ,I C\LD NOT !N CONCEIVE :Y HE ACT$ ?US2 &1 :5 ! SUSPICION D>T$ 9TO MY HEAD1 ?AT IT MIISE FROM OBS]V+ MY 9CREAS+ 9FLU5CE ) MY UNCLE1 ,I ALMO/ DESPIS$ MYSELF = IMAG9+ ?AT SU* A DEGREE ( DEBAS+ SELFI%NESS C\LD EXI/4 0,HE BECAME1 UNACC\NTABLE AS WAS ! *ANGE1 T5D] & ATT5TIVE2 &1 ATTACK+ MY WEAK SIDE1 MADE A CONFESSION ( HIS FOLLIES1 & LAM5T$ ! EMB>RASSM5TS 9 :I* ,I1 :O M]IT$ A F> DIFF]5T FATE1 MIT4 0,?IS CONDUCT ONLY 9SPIR$ ME ) COMPASSION4 ,I WI%$ TO BE HIS FRI5D2 BUT LOVE HAD SPREAD HIS ROSY P9IONS & FL$ F>1 F> AWAY2 & HAD NOT 7LIKE SOME EXQUISITE P]FUMES1 ! F9E SPIRIT ( :I* IS CONT9UALLY M+L+ ) ! AIR7 LEFT A FRAGRANCE BEH9D1 TO M>K :]E HE HAD %OOK HIS W+S4 ,MY HUSB&'S R5EW$ C>ESSES !N BECAME HATEFUL TO ME2 HIS BRUTALITY WAS TOL]ABLE1 COMP>$ TO HIS DI/A/EFUL FONDNESS4 ,/ILL1 COMPASSION1 & ! FE> ( 9SULT+ HIS SUPPOS$ FEEL+S1 BY A WANT ( SYMPA?Y1 MADE ME DISSEMBLE1 & DO VIOL5CE TO MY DELICACY4 ,:AT A TASK6 0,?OSE :O SUPPORT A SY/EM ( :AT ,I T]M FALSE REF9EM5T1 & WILL NOT ALL[ GREAT P>T ( LOVE 9 ! FEMALE1 AS WELL AS MALE BREA/1 TO SPR+ 9 SOME RESPECTS 9VOLUNT>ILY1 MAY NOT ADMIT ?AT *>MS >E AS NECESS>Y TO FE$ ! PASSION1 AS VIRTUES TO CONV]T ! MELL[+ SPIRIT 9TO FRI5D%IP4 ,TO SU* OBS]V]S ,I HAVE NO?+ TO SAY1 ANY MORE ?AN TO ! MORALI/S1 :O 9SI/ ?AT WOM5 \T TREMBL+LY ALIVE TO Y\R FUTURE CONDUCT1 SOME OBS]VATIONS1 DICTAT$ BY MY PRES5T FEEL+S1 ON CALMLY REVIEW+ ?IS P]IOD ( MY LIFE4 ,:5 NOVELI/S OR MORALI/S PRAISE AS A VIRTUE1 A WOMAN'S COLDNESS ( CON/ITUTION1 & WANT ( PASSION2 & MAKE H] YIELD TO ! >DOR ( H] LOV] \T ( %E] COMPASSION1 OR TO PROMOTE A FRIGID PLAN ( FUTURE COM=T1 ,I AM DISGU/$4 ,!Y MAY BE GOOD WOM51 9 ! ORD9>Y ACCEPTATION ( ! PHRASE1 & DO NO H>M2 BUT !Y APPE> TO ME NOT TO HAVE ?OSE 'F9ELY FA%ION$ N]VES1' :I* R5D] ! S5SES EXQUISITE4 ,!Y MAY POSSESS T5D]NESS2 BUT !Y WANT ?AT FIRE ( ! IMAG9ATION1 :I* PRODUCES ACTIVE S5SIBILITY1 & POSITIVE VIRTUE4 ,H[ DOES ! WOMAN DES]VE TO BE *>ACT]IZ$1 :O M>RIES ONE MAN1 ) A HE>T & IMAG9ATION DEVOT$ TO ANO!R8 ,IS %E NOT AN OBJECT ( PITY OR CONTEMPT1 :5 ?US SACRILEGI\SLY VIOLAT+ ! PURITY ( H] [N FEEL+S8 ,NAY1 IT IS AS 9DELICATE1 :5 %E IS 9DIFF]5T1 UNLESS %E BE CON/ITUTIONALLY 9S5SIBLE2 !N 9DE$ IT IS A M]E AFFAIR ( B>T]2 & ,I HAVE NO?+ TO DO ) ! SECRETS ( TRADE4 ,YES2 EAG]LY AS ,I WI% Y\ TO POSSESS TRUE RECTITUDE ( M9D1 & PURITY ( AFFECTION1 ,I MU/ 9SI/ ?AT A HE>TLESS CONDUCT IS ! CONTR>Y ( VIRTU\S4 ,TRU? IS ! ONLY BASIS ( VIRTUE2 & WE CANNOT1 )\T DEPRAV+ \R M9DS1 5DEAVOR TO PLEASE A LOV] OR HUSB&1 BUT 9 PROPORTION AS HE PLEASES US4 ,M51 MORE EFFECTUALLY TO 5?RALL$ US1 MAY 9CULCATE ?IS P>TIAL MORALITY1 & LOSE SITICUL> /ATIONS2 BUT LET US NOT BLU% = NATURE )\T A CAUSE6 0,AFT] !SE REM>KS1 ,I AM A%AM$ TO [N1 ?AT ,I WAS PREGNANT4 ,! GREATE/ SACRIFICE ( MY PR9CIPLES 9 MY :OLE LIFE1 WAS ! ALL[+ MY HUSB& AGA9 TO BE FAMILI> ) MY P]SON1 ?\< TO ?IS CRUEL ACT ( SELF-D5IAL1 :5 ,I WI%$ ! E>? TO OP5 & SWALL[ ME1 Y\ [E Y\R BIR?2 & ,I ! UNUTT]ABLE PLEASURE ( BE+ A MO!R4 ,!RE WAS SOME?+ ( DELICACY 9 MY HUSB&'S BRIDAL ATT5TIONS2 BUT N[ HIS TA9T$ BREA?1 PIMPL$ FACE1 & BLOOD-%OT EYES1 W]E NOT MORE REPUGNANT TO MY S5SES1 ?AN HIS GROSS MANN]S1 & LOVELESS FAMILI>ITY TO MY TA/E4 0,A MAN W\LD ONLY BE EXPECT$ TO MA9TA92 YES1 B>ELY GRANT A SUBSI/5CE1 TO A WOMAN R5D]$ ODI\S BY HABITUAL 9TOXICATION2 BUT :O W\LD EXPECT HIM1 OR ?9K IT POSSIBLE TO LOVE H]8 ,& UNLESS 'Y\?1 & G5IAL YE>S W]E FL[N1' IT W\LD BE ?\ =FEIT+ ALMO/ EV]Y ?+ RECKON$ VALUABLE 9 LIFE1 ?AT HE %\LD NOT LOVE ANO!R3 :IL/ WOMAN1 WEAK 9 REASON1 IMPOT5T 9 WILL1 IS REQUIR$ TO MORALIZE1 S5TIM5TALIZE H]SELF TO /ONE1 & P9E H] LIFE AWAY1 LABOR+ TO RE=M H] EMBRUT$ MATE4 ,HE MAY EV5 SP5D 9 DISSIPATION1 & 9TEMP]ANCE1 ! V]Y 9TEMP]ANCE :I* R5D]S HIM SO HATEFUL1 H] PROP]TY1 & BY /9T+ H] EXP5CES1 NOT P]MIT H] TO BEGUILE 9 SOCIETY1 A WE>ISOME1 JOYLESS LIFE2 = OV] !IR MUTUAL =TUNE %E HAS NO P[]1 IT MU/ ALL PASS ?R\< HIS H&4 ,& IF %E BE A MO!R1 & 9 ! PRES5T /ATE ( WOM51 IT IS A GREAT MIS=TUNE TO BE PREV5T$ FROM DIS*>G+ ! DUTIES1 & CULTIVAT+ ! AFFECTIONS ( ONE1 :AT HAS %E NOT TO 5DURE8--,BUT ,I HAVE SUFF]$ ! T5D]NESS ( ONE TO LEAD ME 9TO REFLECTIONS ?AT ,I DID NOT ?9K ( MAK+1 TO 9T]RUPT MY N>RATIVE--YET ! FULL HE>T WILL OV]FL[4 0,MR4 ,V5ABLES' EMB>RASSM5TS DID NOT N[ 5DE> HIM TO ME2 /ILL1 ANXI\S TO BEFRI5D HIM1 ,I 5DEAVOR$ TO PREVAIL ON HIM TO RETR5* HIS EXP5CES2 BUT HE HAD ALWAYS SOME PLAUSIBLE EXCUSE TO GIVE1 TO JU/IFY HIS NOT FOLL[+ MY ADVICE4 ,HUMANITY1 COMPASSION1 & ! 9T]E/ PRODUC$ BY A HABIT ( LIV+ TOGE!R1 MADE ME TRY TO RELIEVE1 & SYMPA?IZE ) HIM2 BUT1 :5 ,I RECOLLECT$ ?AT ,I WAS B\ND TO LIVE ) SU* A BE+ = EV]--MY HE>T DI$ )9 ME2 MY DESIRE ( IMPROVEM5T BECAME LANGUID1 & BALEFUL1 CORROD+ MELAN*OLY TOOK POSSESSION ( MY S\L4 ,M>RIAGE HAD BA/ILL$ ME = LIFE4 ,I DISCOV]$ 9 MYSELF A CAPACITY = ! 5JOYM5T ( ! V>I\S PLEASURES EXI/5CE AF=DS2 YET1 FETT]$ BY ! P>TIAL LAWS ( SOCIETY1 ?IS FAIR GLOBE WAS TO ME AN UNIV]SAL BLANK4 0,:5 ,I EXHORT$ MY HUSB& TO ECONOMY1 ,I REF]R$ TO HIMSELF4 ,I WAS OBLIG$ TO PRACTICE ! MO/ RIGID1 OR CONTRACT DEBTS1 :I* ,I HAD TOO MU* REASON TO FE> W\LD NEV] BE PAID4 ,I DESPIS$ ?IS PALTRY PRIVILEGE ( A WIFE1 :I* CAN ONLY BE ( USE TO ! VICI\S OR 9CONSID]ATE1 & DET]M9$ NOT TO 9CREASE ! TORR5T ?AT WAS BE>+ HIM D[N4 ,I WAS !N IGNORANT ( ! EXT5T ( HIS FRAUDUL5T SPECULATIONS1 :OM ,I WAS B\ND TO HONOR & OBEY4 0,A WOMAN NEGLECT$ BY H] HUSB&1 OR :OSE MANN]S =M A /RIK+ CONTRA/ ) HIS1 WILL ALWAYS HAVE M5 ON ! WAT* TO SOO! & FLATT] H]4 ,BESIDES1 ! =LORN /ATE ( A NEGLECT$ WOMAN1 NOT DE/ITUTE ( P]SONAL *>MS1 IS P>TICUL>LY 9T]E/+1 & R\SES ?AT SPECIES ( PITY1 :I* IS SO NE> AK91 IT EASILY SLIDES 9TO LOVE4 ,A MAN ( FEEL+ ?9KS NOT ( S$UC+1 HE IS HIMSELF S$UC$ BY ALL ! NOBLE/ EMOTIONS ( HIS S\L4 ,HE FIGURES TO HIMSELF ALL ! SACRIFICES A WOMAN ( S5SIBILITY MU/ MAKE1 & EV]Y SITUATION 9 :I* HIS IMAG9ATION PLACES H]1 T\*ES HIS HE>T1 & FIRES HIS PASSIONS4 ,LONG+ TO TAKE TO HIS BOSOM ! %ORN LAMB1 & BID ! DROOP+ BUDS ( HOPE REVIVE1 B5EVOL5CE *ANGES 9TO PASSION3 & %\LD HE !N DISCOV] ?AT HE IS BELOV$1 HONOR B9DS HIM FA/1 ?\< =ESEE+ ?AT HE MAY AFT]W>DS BE OBLIG$ TO PAY SEV]E DAMAGES TO ! MAN1 :O NEV] APPE>$ TO VALUE HIS WIFE'S SOCIETY1 TILL HE F\ND ?AT !RE WAS A *ANCE ( HIS BE+ 9DEMNIFI$ = ! LOSS ( IT4 0,SU* >E ! P>TIAL LAWS 5ACT$ BY M52 =1 ONLY TO LAY A /RESS ON ! DEP5D5T /ATE ( A WOMAN 9 ! GR& QUE/ION ( ! COM=TS >IS+ FROM ! POSSESSION ( PROP]TY1 %E IS .TICLE.> MU* MORE 9JUR$ BY ! LOSS ( ! HUSB&'S AFFECTION1 ?AN HE BY ?AT ( HIS WIFE2 YET :]E IS %E1 CONDEMN$ TO ! SOLITUDE ( A DES]T$ HOME1 TO LOOK = A COMP5SATION FROM ! WOMAN1 :O S$UCES HIM FROM H]8 ,%E CANNOT DRIVE AN UNFAI?FUL HUSB& FROM HIS H\SE1 NOR SEP>ATE1 OR TE>1 HIS *ILDR5 FROM HIM1 H[EV] CULPABLE HE MAY BE2 & HE1 /ILL ! MA/] ( HIS [N FATE1 5JOYS ! SMILES ( A WORLD1 ?AT W\LD BR& H] ) 9FAMY1 DID %E1 SEEK+ CONSOLATION1 V5TURE TO RETALIATE4 0,!SE REM>KS >E NOT DICTAT$ BY EXP]I5CE2 BUT M]ELY BY ! COMPASSION ,I FEEL = MANY AMIABLE WOM51 ! \TLAWS ( ! WORLD4 ,= MYSELF1 NEV] 5C\RAG+ ANY ( ! ADVANCES ?AT W]E MADE TO ME1 MY LOV]S DROPP$ (F LIKE ! UNTIMELY %OOTS ( SPR+4 ,I DID NOT EV5 COQUET ) !M2 BECAUSE ,I F\ND1 ON EXAM9+ MYSELF1 ,I C\LD NOT COQUET ) A MAN )\T LOV+ HIM A LITTLE2 & ,I P]CEIV$ ?AT ,I %\LD NOT BE ABLE TO /OP AT ! L9E ( :AT >E T]M$ 9NOC5T FRE$OMS1 DID ,I SUFF] ANY4 ,MY RES]VE WAS !N ! CONSEQU5CE ( DELICACY4 ,FRE$OM ( CONDUCT HAS EMANCIPAT$ MANY WOM5'S M9DS2 BUT MY CONDUCT HAS MO/ RIGIDLY BE5 GOV]N$ BY MY PR9CIPLES1 TILL ! IMPROVEM5T ( MY UND]/&+ HAS 5ABL$ ME TO DISC]N ! FALLACY ( PREJUDICES AT W> ) NATURE & REASON4 0,%ORTLY AFT] ! *ANGE ,I HAVE M5TION$ 9 MY HUSB&'S CONDUCT1 MY UNCLE WAS COMPELL$ BY HIS DECL9+ HEAL?1 TO SEEK ! SUCCOR ( A MILD] CLIMATE1 & EMB>K = ,LISBON4 ,HE LEFT HIS WILL 9 ! H&S ( A FRI5D1 AN EM95T SOLICITOR2 HE HAD PREVI\SLY QUE/ION$ ME RELATIVE TO MY SITUATION & /ATE ( M9D1 & DECL>$ V]Y FREELY1 ?AT HE C\LD PLACE NO RELIANCE ON ! /ABILITY ( MY HUSB&'S PR(ESSIONS4 ,HE HAD BE5 DECEIV$ 9 ! UNFOLD+ ( HIS *>ACT]2 HE N[ ?\TURE1 :I* WE SP5T ALONE TOGE!R1 HE FOLD$ ME TO HIS HE>T1 UTT]+ ! 5DE>+ APPELLATION ( '*ILD4'--,MY MORE ?AN FA!R6 :Y WAS ,I NOT P]MITT$ TO P]=M ! LA/ DUTIES ( ONE1 & SMOO? ! PILL[ ( DEA?8 ,HE SEEM$ BY HIS MANN] TO BE CONV9C$ ?AT HE %\LD NEV] SEE ME MORE2 YET REQUE/$ ME1 MO/ E>NE/LY1 TO COME TO HIM1 %\LD ,I BE OBLIG$ TO LEAVE MY HUSB&4 ,HE HAD BE=E EXPRESS$ HIS SORR[ AT HE>+ ( MY PREGNANCY1 HAV+ DET]M9$ TO PREVAIL ON ME TO ACCOMPANY HIM1 TILL ,I 9=M$ HIM ( ?AT CIRCUM/ANCE4 ,HE EXPRESS$ HIMSELF UNFEIGN$LY SORRY ?AT ANY NEW TIE %\LD B9D ME TO A MAN :OM HE ?\RIAGE /ATE IS C]TA9LY ?AT 9 :I* WOM51 G5]ALLY SPEAK+1 CAN BE MO/ USEFUL2 BUT ,I AM F> FROM ?9K+ ?AT A WOMAN1 ONCE M>RI$1 \D H] = SACRIFIC+ H] FEEL+S7 9 CASE H] HUSB& M]ITS NEI!R H] LOVE1 NOR E/EEM4 ,E/EEM WILL (T5 SUPPLY ! PLACE ( LOVE2 & PREV5T A WOMAN FROM BE+ WRET*$1 ?\< IT MAY NOT MAKE H] HAPPY4 ,! MAGNITUDE ( A SACRIFICE \ SOME PROPORTION TO ! UTILITY 9 VIEW2 & = A WOMAN TO LIVE ) A MAN1 = :OM %E CAN *]I% NEI!R AFFECTION NOR E/EEM1 OR EV5 BE ( ANY USE TO HIM1 EXCEPT+ 9 ! LIACT] MID G5]AL RULES4 0,BUT ! MIS=TUNE IS1 ?AT MANY WOM5 ONLY SUBMIT 9 APPE>ANCE1 & =FEIT !IR [N RESPECT TO SECURE !IR REPUTATION 9 ! WORLD4 ,! SITUATION ( A WOMAN SEP>AT$ FROM H] HUSB&1 IS UND\BT$LY V]Y DIFF]5T FROM ?AT ( A MAN :O HAS LEFT HIS WIFE4 ,HE1 ) LORDLY DIGNITY1 HAS %AK5 ( A CLOG2 & ! ALL[+ H] FOOD & RAIM5T1 IS ?\ANCE4 ,SU* IS ! RESPECT PAID TO ! MA/]-KEY ( PROP]TY6 ,A WOMAN1 ON ! CONTR>Y1 RESIGN+ :AT IS T]M$ H] NATURAL PROTECTOR 7?\< HE NEV] WAS SO1 BUT 9 NAME7 IS DESPIS$ & %UNN$1 = ASS]T+ ! 9DEP5D5CE ( M9D DI/9CTIVE ( A RATIONAL BE+1 & SPURN+ AT SLAV]Y4' 0,DUR+ ! REMA9D] ( ! EV5+1 MY UNCLE'S T5D]NESS L$ HIM FREQU5TLY TO REV]T TO ! SUBJECT1 & UTT]1 ) 9CREAS+ W>M?1 S5TIM5TS TO ! SAME PURPORT4 ,AT L5G? IT WAS NECESS>Y TO SAY ',F>EWELL6'--& WE P>T$--GRACI\S ,GOD6 TO MEET NO MORE40 O ,*APT] #aa 0,A G5TLEMAN ( L>GE =TUNE & ( POLI%$ MANN]S1 HAD LATELY VISIT$ V]Y FREQU5TLY AT \R H\SE1 & TREAT$ ME1 IF POSSIBLE1 ) MORE RESPECT ?AN ,MR4 ,V5ABLES PAID HIM2 MY PREGNANCY WAS NOT YET VISIBLE1 HIS SOCIETY WAS A GREAT RELIEF TO ME1 AS ,I HAD = SOME TIME PA/1 TO AVOID EXP5CE1 CONF9$ MYSELF V]Y MU* AT HOME4 ,I EV] DISDA9$ UNNECESS>Y1 P]HAPS EV5 PRUD5T CONCEALM5TS2 & MY HUSB&1 ) GREAT EASE1 DISCOV]$ ! AM\NT ( MY UNCLE'S P>T+ PRES5T4 ,A COPY ( A WRIT WAS ! /ALE PRETEXT TO EXTORT IT FROM ME2 & ,I HAD SOON REASON TO BELIEVE ?AT IT WAS FABRICAT$ = ! PURPOSE4 ,I ACKN[L$GE MY FOLLY 9 ?US SUFF]+ MYSELF TO BE CONT9UALLY IMPOS$ ON4 ,I HAD ADH]$ TO MY RESOLUTION NOT TO APPLY TO MY UNCLE1 ON ! P>T ( MY HUSB&1 ANY MORE2 YET1 :5 ,I HAD RECEIV$ A SUM SUFFICI5T TO SUPPLY MY [N WANTS1 & TO 5ABLE ME TO PURSUE A PLAN ,I HAD 9 VIEW1 TO SETTLE MY Y\NG] BRO!R 9 A RESPECTABLE EMPLOYM5T1 ,I ALL[$ MYSELF TO BE DUP$ BY ,MR4 ,V5ABLES' %ALL[ PRET5SES1 & HYPOCRITICAL PR(ESSIONS4 0,?US DID HE PILLAGE ME & MY FAMILY1 ?US FRU/RATE ALL MY PLANS ( USEFULNESS4 ,YET ?IS WAS ! MAN ,I WAS B\ND TO RESPECT & E/EEM3 AS IF RESPECT & E/EEM DEP5D$ ON AN >BITR>Y WILL ( \R [N6 ,BUT A WIFE BE+ AS MU* A MAN'S PROP]TY AS HIS HORSE1 OR HIS ASS1 %E HAS NO?+ %E CAN CALL H] [N4 ,HE MAY USE ANY MEANS TO GET AT :AT ! LAW CONSID]S AS HIS1 ! MOM5T HIS WIFE IS 9 POSSESSION ( IT1 EV5 TO ! =C+ ( A LOCK1 AS ,MR4 ,V5ABLES DID1 TO SE>* = NOTES 9 MY WRIT+-DESK--& ALL ?IS IS DONE ) A %[ ( EQUITY1 BECAUSE1 =SOO?1 HE IS RESPONSIBLE = H] MA9T5ANCE4 0,! T5D] MO!R CANNOT LAWFULLY SNAT* FROM ! GRIPE ( ! GAMBL+ SP5D?RIFT1 OR BEA/LY DRUNK>D1 UNM9DFUL ( HIS (FSPR+1 ! =TUNE :I* FALLS TO H] BY *ANCE2 OR 7SO FLAGRANT IS ! 9JU/ICE7 :AT %E E>NS BY H] [N EX]TIONS4 ,NO2 HE CAN ROB H] ) IMPUNITY1 EV5 TO WA/E PUBLICLY ON A C\RTEZAN2 & ! LAWS ( H] C\NTRY--IF WOM5 HAVE A C\NTRY--AF=D H] NO PROTECTION OR R$RESS FROM ! OPPRESSOR1 UNLESS %E HAVE ! PLEA ( BODILY FE>2 YET H[ MANY WAYS >E !RE ( GOAD+ ! S\L ALMO/ TO MADNESS1 EQUALLY UNMANLY1 ?\< NOT SO MEAN8 ,:5 SU* LAWS W]E FRAM$1 %\LD NOT IMP>TIAL LAWGIV]S HAVE FIR/ DECRE$1 9 ! /YLE ( A GREAT ASSEMBLY1 :O RECOGNIZ$ ! EXI/5CE ( AN ETRE SUPREME1 TO FIX ! NATIONAL BELIEF1 ?AT ! HUSB& %\LD ALWAYS BE WIS] & MORE VIRTU\S ?AN HIS WIFE1 9 ORD] TO 5TITLE HIM1 ) A %[ ( JU/ICE1 TO KEEP ?IS IDIOT1 OR P]PETUAL M9OR1 = EV] 9 BONDAGE4 ,BUT ,I MU/ HAVE DONE--ON ?IS SUBJECT1 MY 9DIGNATION CONT9UALLY RUNS AWAY ) ME4 0,! COMPANY ( ! G5TLEMAN ,I HAVE ALREADY M5TION$1 :O HAD A G5]AL ACQUA9TANCE ) LIT]ATURE & SUBJECTS ( TA/E1 WAS GRATEFUL TO ME2 MY C\NT5ANCE BRIM1 ,I 5DEAVOR$1 RA!R BY RAILL]Y ?AN S]I\S EXPO/ULATION1 TO GIVE A DIFF]5T TURN TO HIS CONV]SATION4 ,HE ASSUM$ A NEW MODE ( ATTACK1 & ,I WAS1 = A :ILE1 ! DUPE ( HIS PRET5D$ FRI5D%IP4 0,I HAD1 M]ELY 9 ! /YLE ( BAD9AGE1 BOA/$ ( MY CONQUE/1 & REPEAT$ HIS LOV]-LIKE COMPLIM5TS TO MY HUSB&4 ,BUT HE BEGG$ ME1 = ,GOD'S SAKE1 NOT TO AFFRONT HIS FRI5D1 OR ,I %\LD DE/ROY ALL HIS PROJECTS1 & BE HIS RU94 ,HAD ,I HAD MORE AFFECTION = MY HUSB&1 ,I %\LD HAVE EXPRESS$ MY CONTEMPT ( ?IS TIME-S]V+ POLIT5ESS3 N[ ,I IMAG9$ ?AT ,I ONLY FELT PITY2 YET IT W\LD HAVE PUZZL$ A CASUI/ TO PO9T \T 9 :AT ! EXACT DIFF]5CE CONSI/$4 0,?IS FRI5D BEGAN N[1 9 CONFID5CE1 TO DISCOV] TO ME ! REAL /ATE ( MY HUSB&'S AFFAIRS4 ',NECESSITY1' SAID ,MR4 ,S----2 :Y %\LD ,I REVEAL HIS NAME8 = HE AFFECT$ TO PALLIATE ! CONDUCT HE C\LD NOT EXCUSE1 'HAD L$ HIM TO TAKE SU* /EPS1 BY ACCOMMODATION BILLS1 BUY+ GOODS ON CR$IT1 TO SELL !M = READY MONEY1 & SIMIL> TRANSACTIONS1 ?AT HIS *>ACT] 9 ! COMM]CIAL WORLD WAS GONE4 ,HE WAS CONSID]$1' HE ADD$1 L[]+ HIS VOICE1 'ON ',*ANGE AS A SW9DL]4' 0,I FELT AT ?AT MOM5T ! FIR/ MAT]NAL PANG4 ,AW>E ( ! EVILS MY SEX HAVE TO /RUGGLE )1 ,I /ILL WI%$1 = MY [N CONSOLATION1 TO BE ! MO!R ( A DAU TO ?9K1 ?AT ! S9S ( H] FA!R'S 5TAIL$ DISGRACE1 %\LD BE ADD$ TO ! ILLS TO :I* WOMAN IS HEIR4 0,SO COMPLETELY WAS ,I DECEIV$ BY !SE %[S ( FRI5D%IP 7NAY1 ,I BELIEVE1 ACCORD+ TO HIS 9T]PRETATION1 ,MR4 ,S---- REALLY WAS MY FRI5D7 ?AT ,I BEGAN TO CONSULT HIM RESPECT+ ! BE/ MODE ( RETRIEV+ MY HUSB&'S *>ACT]3 IT IS ! GOOD NAME ( A WOMAN ONLY ?AT SETS TO RISE NO MORE4 ,I KNEW NOT ?AT HE HAD BE5 DRAWN 9TO A :IRLPOOL1 \T ( :I* HE HAD NOT ! 5]GY TO ATTEMPT TO ESCAPE4 ,HE SEEM$ 9DE$ DE/ITUTE ( ! P[] ( EMPLOY+ HIS FACULTIES 9 ANY REGUL> PURSUIT4 ,HIS PR9CIPLES ( ACTION W]E SO LOOSE1 & HIS M9D SO UNCULTIVAT$1 ?AT EV]Y ?+ LIKE ORD] APPE>$ TO HIM 9 ! %APE ( RE/RA9T2 &1 LIKE M5 9 ! SAVAGE /ATE1 HE REQUIR$ ! /RONG /IMULUS ( HOPE OR FE>1 PRODUC$ BY WILD SPECULATIONS1 9 :I* ! 9T]E/S ( O!RS W5T = NO?+1 TO KEEP HIS SPIRITS AWAKE4 ,HE ONE TIME PR(ESS$ PATRIOTISM1 BUT HE KNEW NOT :AT IT WAS TO FEEL HONE/ 9DIGNATION2 & PRET5D$ TO BE AN ADVOCATE = LIB]TY1 :51 ) AS LITTLE AFFECTION = ! HUMAN RACE AS = 9DIVIDUALS1 HE ?\I\S PRET5SES1 HIS FRI5D CONT9U$ TO VISIT ME2 &1 OBS]V+ MY WANT ( MONEY1 HE TRI$ TO 9DUCE ME TO ACCEPT ( PECUNI>Y AID2 BUT ?IS (F] ,I ABSOLUTELY REJECT$1 ?\< IT WAS MADE ) SU* DELICACY1 ,I C\LD NOT BE DISPLEAS$4 0,ONE DAY HE CAME1 AS ,I ?\D = HIM1 & HOP$ ?AT HE HAD AN EQUAL FRI5D%IP = ME4 ,I !RE=E BEGAN MILDLY TO EXPO/ULATE ) HIM4 ,?IS G5TL5ESS HE MI/OOK = COY 5C\RAGEM5T2 & HE W\LD NOT BE DIV]T$ FROM ! SUBJECT4 ,P]CEIV+ HIS MI/AKE1 ,I S]I\SLY ASK$ HIM H[1 US+ SU* LANGUAGE TO ME1 HE C\LD PR(ESS TO BE MY HUSB&'S FRI5D8 ,A SIGNIFICANT SNE] EXCIT$ MY CURIOSITY1 & HE1 SUPPOS+ ?IS TO BE MY ONLY SCRUPLE1 TOOK A LETT] DELIB]ATELY \T ( HIS POCKET1 SAY+1 ',Y\R HUSB&'S HONOR IS NOT 9FLEXIBLE4 ,H[ C\LD Y\1 ) Y\R DISC]NM5T1 ?9K IT SO8 ,:Y1 HE LEFT ! ROOM ?IS V]Y DAY ON PURPOSE TO GIVE ME AN OPPORTUNITY TO EXPLA9 MYSELF2 HE ?\DY4 0,I SNAT*$ ! LETT] ) 9DESCRIBABLE EMOTION4 ,! PURPORT ( IT WAS TO 9VITE HIM TO D9N]1 & TO RIDICULE HIS *IVALR\S RESPECT = ME4 ,HE ASSUR$ HIM1 '?AT EV]Y WOMAN HAD H] PRICE1 &1 ) GROSS 9DEC5CY1 H9T$1 ?AT HE %\LD BE GLAD TO HAVE ! DUTY ( A HUSB& TAK5 (F HIS H&S4 ,!SE HE T]M$ LIB]AL S5TIM5TS4 ,HE ADVIS$ HIM NOT TO %OCK MY ROMANTIC NOTIONS1 BUT TO ATTACK MY CR$UL\S G5]OSITY1 & WEAK PITY2 & CONCLUD$ ) REQUE/+ HIM TO L5D HIM FIVE HUNDR$ P\NDS = A MON? OR SIX WEEKS4' ,I READ ?IS LETT] TWICE OV]2 & ! FIRM PURPOSE IT 9SPIR$1 CALM$ ! RIS+ TUMULT ( MY S\L4 ,I ROSE DELIB]ATELY1 REQUE/$ ,MR4 ,S---- TO WAIT A MOM5T1 & 9/ANTLY GO+ 9TO ! C\NT+-H\SE1 DESIR$ ,MR4 ,V5ABLES TO RETURN ) ME TO ! D9+-P>LOR4 0,HE LAID D[N HIS P51 & 5T]$ ) ME1 )\T OBS]V+ ANY *ANGE 9 MY C\NT5ANCE4 ,I %UT ! DOOR1 &1 GIV+ HIM ! LETT]1 SIMPLY ASK$1 ':E!R HE WROTE IT1 OR WAS IT A =G]Y8' 0,NO?+ C\LD EQUAL HIS CONFUSION4 ,HIS FRI5D'S EYE MET HIS1 & HE MUTT]$ SOME?+ AB\T A JOKE--,BUT ,I 9T]RUPT$ HIM--',IT IS SUFFICI5T--,WE P>T = EV]4' 0,I CONT9U$1 ) SOLEMNITY1 ',I HAVE BORNE ) Y\R TYRANNY & 9FIDELITIES4 ,I DISDA9 TO UTT] :AT ,I HAVE BORNE )4 ,I ?\E N[ TO 9SULT ME1 BY SELL+ ME TO PRO/ITUTION6--,YES--EQUALLY LO/ TO DELICACY & PR9CIPLE--Y\ D>$ SACRILEGI\SLY TO B>T] ! HONOR ( ! MO!R ( Y\R *ILD4' 0,!N1 TURN+ TO ,MR4 ,S----1 ,I ADD$1 ',I CALL ON Y\1 ,SIR1 TO WITNESS1' & ,I LIFT$ MY H&S & EYES TO HEAV51 '?AT1 AS SOLEMNLY AS ,I TOOK HIS NAME1 ,I N[ ABJURE IT1' ,I PULL$ (F MY R+1 & PUT IT ON ! TABLE2 '& ?AT ,I MEAN IMM$IATELY TO QUIT HIS H\SE1 NEV] TO 5T] IT MORE4 ,I WILL PROVIDE = MYSELF & *ILD4 ,I LEAVE HIM AS FREE AS ,I AM DET]M9$ TO BE MYSELF--HE %ALL BE ANSW]ABLE = NO DEBTS ( M9E4' 0,A/ONI%M5T CLOS$ !IR LIPS1 TILL ,MR4 ,V5ABLES1 G5TLY PU%+ HIS FRI5D1 ) A =C$ SMILE1 \T ( ! ROOM1 NATURE = A MOM5T PREVAIL$1 &1 APPE>+ LIKE HIMSELF1 HE TURN$ R\ND1 BURN+ ) RAGE1 TO ME3 BUT !RE WAS NO T]ROR 9 ! FR[N1 EXCEPT+ :5 CONTRA/$ ) ! MALIGNANT SMILE :I* PREC$$ IT4 ,HE BADE ME 'LEAVE ! H\SE AT MY P]IL2 TOLD ME HE DESPIS$ MY ?REATS2 ,I HAD NO RES\RCE2 ,I C\LD NOT SWE> ! PEACE AGA9/ HIM6--,I WAS NOT AFRAID ( MY LIFE6--HE HAD NEV] /RUCK ME6' 0,HE ?REW ! LETT] 9 ! FIRE1 :I* ,I HAD 9CAUTI\SLY LEFT 9 HIS H&S2 &1 QUITT+ ! ROOM1 LOCK$ ! DOOR ON ME4 0,:5 LEFT ALONE1 ,I WAS A MOM5T OR TWO BE=E ,I C\LD RECOLLECT MYSELF--,ONE SC5E HAD SUCCE$$ ANO!R ) SU* RAPIDITY1 ,I ALMO/ D\BT$ :E!R ,I WAS REFLECT+ ON A REAL EV5T4 ',WAS IT POSSIBLE8 ,WAS ,I1 9DE$1 FREE8'--,YES2 FREE ,I T]M$ MYSELF1 :5 ,I DECID$LY P]CEIV$ ! CONDUCT ,I \7 FELT AS IF ,I C\LD HAVE DISSOLV$ 9 ! S(T BALMY GALE ?AT KISS$ MY *EEK1 OR HAVE GLID$ BEL[ ! HORIZON ON ! GL[+1 DESC5D+ BEAMS4 ,A S]APHIC SATISFACTION ANIMAT$1 )\T AGITAT+ MY SPIRITS2 & MY IMAG9ATION COLLECT$1 9 VISIONS SUBLIMELY T]RIBLE1 OR SOO?+LY BEAUTIFUL1 AN IMM5SE V>IETY ( ! 5DLESS IMAGES1 :I* NATURE AF=DS1 & FANCY COMB9ES1 ( ! GR& & FAIR4 ,! LU/] ( !SE BRIT4 0,!RE MAY BE ADVOCATES = MATRIMONIAL OB$I5CE1 :O1 MAK+ A DI/9CTION BETWE5 ! DUTY ( A WIFE & ( A HUMAN BE+1 MAY BLAME MY CONDUCT4--,TO !M ,I WRITE NOT--MY FEEL+S >E NOT = !M TO ANALYZE2 & MAY Y\1 MY *ILD1 NEV] BE ABLE TO ASC]TA91 BY HE>T-R5D+ EXP]I5CE1 :AT Y\R MO!R FELT BE=E ! PRES5T EMANCIPATION ( H] M9D6 0,I BEGAN TO WRITE A LETT] TO MY FA!R1 AFT] CLOS+ ONE TO MY UNCLE2 NOT TO ASK ADVICE1 BUT TO SIGNIFY MY DET]M9ATION2 :5 ,I WAS 9T]RUPT$ BY ! 5TRANCE ( ,MR4 ,V5ABLES4 ,HIS MANN] WAS *ANG$4 ,HIS VIEWS ON MY UNCLE'S =TUNE MADE HIM AV]SE TO MY QUITT+ HIS H\SE1 OR HE W\LD1 ,I AM CONV9C$1 HAVE BE5 GLAD TO HAVE %AK5 (F EV5 ! SLI FROM HAV+ AN AFFECTION = ME1 HE REALLY HAT$ ME1 BECAUSE HE WAS CONV9C$ ?AT ,I MU/ DESPISE HIM4 0,HE TOLD ME1 ?AT ',AS ,I N[ HAD HAD TIME TO COOL & REFLECT1 HE DID NOT D\BT BUT ?AT MY PRUD5CE1 & NICE S5SE ( PROPRIETY1 W\LD LEAD ME TO OV]LOOK :AT WAS PASS$4' 0',REFLECTION1' ,I REPLI$1 'HAD ONLY CONFIRM$ MY PURPOSE1 & NO P[] ON E>? C\LD DIV]T ME FROM IT4' 0,5DEAVOR+ TO ASSUME A SOO?+ VOICE & LOOK1 :5 HE W\LD WILL+LY HAVE TORTUR$ ME1 TO =CE ME TO FEEL HIS P[]1 HIS C\NT5ANCE HAD AN 9F]NAL EXPRESSION1 :5 HE DESIR$ ME1 ',NOT TO EXPOSE MYSELF TO ! S]VANTS1 BY OBLIG+ HIM TO CONF9E ME 9 MY AP>TM5T2 IF !N ,I W\LD GIVE MY PROMISE NOT TO QUIT ! H\SE PRECIPITATELY1 ,I %\LD BE FREE--&--4' ,I DECL>$1 9T]RUPT+ HIM1 '?AT ,I W\LD PROMISE NO?+4 ,I HAD NO MEASURES TO KEEP ) HIM--,I WAS RESOLV$1 & W\LD NOT CONDESC5D TO SUBT]FUGE4' 0,HE MUTT]$1 '?AT ,I %\LD SOON REP5T ( !SE PREPO/]\S AIRS2' &1 ORD]+ TEA TO BE C>RI$ 9TO MY LITTLE /UDY1 :I* HAD A COMMUNICATION ) MY B$-*AMB]1 HE ONCE MORE LOCK$ ! DOOR UPON ME1 & LEFT ME TO MY [N M$ITATIONS4 ,I HAD PASSIVELY FOLL[$ HIM UP /AIRS1 NOT WI%+ TO FATIGUE MYSELF ) UNAVAIL+ EX]TION4 0,NO?+ CALMS ! M9D LIKE A FIX$ PURPOSE4 ,I FELT AS IF ,I HAD HEAV$ A ?\S& WEIT2 ! ATMOSPH]E SEEM$ LID$ PRES5T 9CONV5I5CES1 :5 MY M9D HAD DONE /RUGGL+ ) ITSELF1--:5 REASON & 9CL9ATION HAD %AK5 H&S & W]E AT PEACE4 ,I HAD NO LONG] ! CRUEL TASK BE=E ME1 9 5DLESS P]SPECTIVE1 AYE1 DUR+ ! T$I\S = EV] ( LIFE1 ( LABOR+ TO OV]COME MY REPUGNANCE--( LABOR+ TO EXT+UI% ! HOPES1 ! MAYBES ( A LIVELY IMAG9ATION4 ,DEA? ,I HAD HAIL$ AS MY ONLY *ANCE = DELIV]ANCE2 BUT1 :ILE EXI/5CE HAD /ILL SO MANY *>MS1 & LIFE PROMIS$ HAPP9ESS1 ,I %RUNK FROM ! ICY >MS ( AN UNKN[N TYRANT1 ?\< F> MORE 9VIT+ ?AN ?OSE ( ! MAN1 TO :OM ,I SUPPOS$ MYSELF B\ND )\T ANY O!R ALT]NATIVE2 & WAS CONT5T TO L+] A LITTLE LONG]1 WAIT+ = ,I KNEW NOT :AT1 RA!R ?AN LEAVE '! W>M PREC9CTS ( ! *E]FUL DAY1' & ALL ! UN5JOY$ AFFECTION ( MY NATURE4 0,MY PRES5T SITUATION GAVE A NEW TURN TO MY REFLECTION2 & ,I WOND]$ 7N[ ! FILM SEEM$ TO BE )DRAWN1 ?AT OBSCUR$ ! PI]C+ SI TO MY SEX4 ',>E NOT1' ,I ?\E MU* MORE 9HUMAN1 :I* =GE ADAMANT9E FETT]S TO B9D M9DS TOGE!R1 ?AT NEV] CAN M+LE 9 SOCIAL COMMUNION6 ,:AT 9DE$ CAN EQUAL ! WRET*$NESS ( ?AT /ATE1 9 :I* !RE IS NO ALT]NATIVE1 BUT TO EXT+UI% ! AFFECTIONS1 OR 5C\NT] 9FAMY8'0 O ,*APT] #ab 0,T[>DS MIDNI+ TO GO TO B$1 HE BADE ME MAKE HA/E1 '= ?AT WAS ! BE/ PLACE = HUSB&S & WIVES TO 5D !IR DIFF]5CES4 ,HE HAD BE5 DR9K+ PL5TIFULLY TO AID HIS C\RAGE4 0,I DID NOT AT FIR/ DEIGN TO REPLY4 ,BUT P]CEIV+ ?AT HE AFFECT$ TO TAKE MY SIL5CE = CONS5T1 ,I TOLD HIM ?AT1 ',IF HE W\LD NOT GO TO ANO!R B$1 OR ALL[ ME1 ,I %\LD SIT UP 9 MY /UDY ALL NI\ND ME1 PREP>$ = SLEEP ON A SOPHA4 ,&1 SO =TUNATE SEEM$ MY DELIV]ANCE1 SO SACR$ ! PLEASURE ( BE+ ?US WRAPP$ UP 9 MYSELF1 ?AT ,I SLEPT PR(\NDLY1 & WOKE ) A M9D COMPOS$ TO 5C\NT] ! /RUGGLES ( ! DAY4 ,MR4 ,V5ABLES DID NOT WAKE TILL SOME H\RS AFT]2 & !N HE CAME TO ME HALF-DRESS$1 YAWN+ & /RET*+1 ) HAGG>D EYES1 AS IF HE SC>CELY RECOLLECT$ :AT HAD PASS$ ! PREC$+ EV5+4 ,HE FIX$ HIS EYES ON ME = A MOM5T1 !N1 CALL+ ME A FOOL1 ASK$ ',H[ LONG ,I 9T5D$ TO CONT9UE ?IS PRETTY F>CE8 ,= HIS P>T1 HE WAS DEVILI% SICK ( IT2 BUT ?IS WAS ! PLAGUE ( M>RY+ WOM5 :O PRET5D$ TO KN[ SOME?+4' 0,I MADE NO O!R REPLY TO ?IS H>ANGUE1 ?AN TO SAY1 ',?AT HE \E ACT+ A P>T 9 REAL LIFE4' 0,HE UTT]$ ?IS SPEE* ) A SELF-SATISFI$ AIR1 & W5T D[N /AIRS TO DRESS4 0,9 AB\T AN H\R HE CAME TO ME AGA92 & 9 ! SAME TONE SAID1 ',?AT HE CAME AS MY G5TLEMAN-U%] TO H& ME D[N TO BREAKFA/4 0',( ! BLACK ROD8' ASK$ ,I4 0,?IS QUE/ION1 & ! TONE 9 :I* ,I ASK$ IT1 A LITTLE DISCONC]T$ HIM4 ,TO SAY ! TRU?1 ,I N[ FELT NO RES5TM5T2 MY FIRM RESOLUTION TO FREE MYSELF FROM MY IGNOBLE ?RALLDOM1 HAD ABSORB$ ! V>I\S EMOTIONS :I*1 DUR+ SIX YE>S1 HAD RACK$ MY S\L4 ,! DUTY PO9T$ \T BY MY PR9CIPLES SEEM$ CLE>2 & NOT ONE T5D] FEEL+ 9TRUD$ TO MAKE ME SW]VE3 ,! DISLIKE :I* MY HUSB& HAD 9SPIR$ WAS /RONG2 BUT IT ONLY L$ ME TO WI% TO AVOID1 TO WI% TO LET HIM DROP \T ( MY MEMORY2 !RE WAS NO MIS]Y1 NO TORTURE ?AT ,I W\LD NOT DELIB]ATELY HAVE *OS51 RA!R ?AN R5EW MY LEASE ( S]VITUDE4 0,DUR+ ! BREAKFA/1 HE ATTEMPT$ TO REASON ) ME ON ! FOLLY ( ROMANTIC S5TIM5TS2 = ?IS WAS ! 9DISCRIM9ATE EPI!T HE GAVE TO EV]Y MODE ( CONDUCT OR ?9K+ SUP]IOR TO HIS [N4 ,HE ASS]T$1 '?AT ALL ! WORLD W]E GOV]N$ BY !IR [N 9T]E/2 ?OSE :O PRET5D$ TO BE ACTUAT$ BY DIFF]5T MOTIVES1 W]E ONLY DEEP] KNAVES1 OR FOOLS CRAZ$ BY BOOKS1 :O TOOK = GOSPEL ALL ! RODOMANTADE NONS5SE WRITT5 BY M5 :O KNEW NO?+ ( ! WORLD4 ,= HIS P>T1 HE ?ANK$ ,GOD1 HE WAS NO HYPOCRITE2 &1 IF HE /RET*$ A PO9T SOMETIMES1 IT WAS ALWAYS ) AN 9T5TION ( PAY+ EV]Y MAN HIS [N4' 0,HE !N >TFULLY 9S9UAT$1 '?AT HE DAILY EXPECT$ A VESSEL TO >RIVE1 A SUCCESSFUL SPECULATION1 ?AT W\LD MAKE HIM EASY = ! PRES5T1 & ?AT HE HAD SEV]AL O!R S*EMES ACTUALLY DEP5D+1 ?AT C\LD NOT FAIL4 ,HE HAD NO D\BT ( BECOM+ RI* 9 A FEW YE>S1 ?\< HE HAD BE5 ?R[N BACK BY SOME UNLUCKY ADV5TURES AT ! SETT+ \T4' 0,I MILDLY REPLI$1 ',?AT ,I WI%$ HE MI$ ) A M]E SPURT ( RES5TM5T4 ,HE KNEW NOT :AT IT WAS TO FEEL 9DIGNATION AGA9/ VICE1 & (T5 BOA/$ ( HIS PLACABLE TEMP]1 & READ9ESS TO =GIVE 9JURIES4 ,TRUE2 = HE ONLY CONSID]$ ! BE+ DECEIV$1 AS AN EF=T ( SKILL HE HAD NOT GU>D$ AGA9/2 & !N1 ) A CANT ( C&OR1 W\LD OBS]VE1 '?AT HE DID NOT KN[ H[ HE MIT NEV] OP5$ TO FRI5D%IP1 IT NEV] WAS W\ND$ BY DISAPPO9TM5T4 ,EV]Y NEW ACQUA9TANCE HE PROTE/$1 IT IS TRUE1 WAS '! CLEV]E/ FELL[ 9 ! WORLD2 & HE REALLY ?\RI$ PEOPLE1 :O W]E ABOVE VULG> PREJUDICES1 TACITLY CONS5T TO LET EA* O!R FOLL[ !IR [N 9CL9ATION8--,HE MEANT NO?+ MORE1 9 ! LETT] ,I MADE ! GR\ND ( COMPLA9T2 & ! PLEASURE :I* ,I SEEM$ TO TAKE 9 ,MR4 ,S4'S COMPANY1 L$ HIM TO CONCLUDE1 ?AT HE WAS NOT DISAGREEABLE TO ME4' 0,A CL]K BR\ TO ?OSE ,I HAVE FELT1 9 VIEW+ ! SQUALID 9HABITANTS ( SOME ( ! LANES & BACK /REETS ( ! METROPOLIS1 MORTIFI$ AT BE+ COMPELL$ TO CONSID] !M AS MY FELL[-CREATURES1 AS IF AN APE HAD CLAIM$ K9DR$ ) ME4 ,OR1 AS :5 SURR\ND$ BY A MEPHITICAL FOG1 ,I HAVE WI%$ TO HAVE A VOLLEY ( CANNON FIR$1 TO CLE> ! 5CUMB]$ ATMOSPH]E1 & GIVE ME ROOM TO BREA! & MOVE4 0,MY SPIRITS W]E ALL 9 >MS1 & ,I PLAY$ A K9D ( EXTEMPOR>Y PRELUDE4 ,! CAD5CE WAS PROBABLY WILD & IMPASSION$1 :ILE1 LO/ 9 ?\ NO MORE ROMANTIC /UFF1 WELL 5\< 9 A MISS JU/ COME FROM BO>D+ S*OOL2' & W5T1 AS WAS HIS CU/OM1 TO ! C\NT+-H\SE4 ,I /ILL CONT9U$ PLAY+2 &1 TURN+ TO A SPRID FOOT/EPS APPROA* ! DOOR1 & WAS SOON CONV9C$ ?AT ,MR4 ,V5ABLES WAS LI/5+2 ! CONSCI\SNESS ONLY GAVE MORE ANIMATION TO MY F+]S4 ,HE W5T D[N 9TO ! KIT*51 & ! COOK1 PROBABLY BY HIS DESIRE1 CAME TO ME1 TO KN[ :AT ,I W\LD PLEASE TO ORD] = D9N]4 ,MR4 ,V5ABLES CAME 9TO ! P>LOR AGA91 ) APP>5T C>ELESSNESS4 ,I P]CEIV$ ?AT ! CUNN+ MAN WAS OV]REA*+ HIMSELF2 & ,I GAVE MY DIRECTIONS AS USUAL1 & LEFT ! ROOM4 0,:ILE ,I WAS MAK+ SOME ALT]ATION 9 MY DRESS1 ,MR4 ,V5ABLES PEEP$ 91 &1 BEGG+ MY P>DON = 9T]RUPT+ ME1 DISAPPE>$4 ,I TOOK UP SOME WORK 7,I C\LD NOT READ71 & TWO OR ?REE MESSAGES W]E S5T TO ME1 PROBABLY = NO O!R PURPOSE1 BUT TO 5ABLE ,MR4 ,V5ABLES TO ASC]TA9 :AT ,I WAS AB\T4 0,I LI/5$ :5EV] ,I HE>D ! /REET-DOOR OP52 AT LA/ ,I IMAG9$ ,I C\LD DI/+UI% ,MR4 ,V5ABLES' /EP1 GO+ \T4 ,I LAID ASIDE MY WORK2 MY HE>T PALPITAT$2 /ILL ,I WAS AFRAID HA/ILY TO 9QUIRE2 & ,I WAIT$ A LONG HALF H\R1 BE=E ,I V5TUR$ TO ASK ! BOY :E!R HIS MA/] WAS 9 ! C\NT+-H\SE8 0,BE+ ANSW]$ 9 ! NEGATIVE1 ,I BADE HIM CALL ME A COA*1 & COLLECT+ A FEW NECESS>IES HA/ILY TOGE!R1 ) A LITTLE P>CEL ( LETT]S & PAP]S :I* ,I HAD COLLECT$ ! PREC$+ EV5+1 ,I HURRI$ 9TO IT1 DESIR+ ! COA*MAN TO DRIVE TO A DI/ANT P>T ( ! T[N4 0,I ALMO/ FE>$ ?AT ! COA* W\LD BREAK D[N BE=E ,I GOT \T ( ! /REET2 &1 :5 ,I TURN$ ! CORN]1 ,I SEEM$ TO BREA! A FRE] AIR4 ,I WAS READY TO IMAG9E ?AT ,I WAS RIS+ ABOVE ! ?ICK ATMOSPH]E ( E>?2 OR ,I FELT1 AS WE>I$ S\LS MIM ( EXPECT+ TO SEE ,MR4 ,V5ABLES 5T]4 0,I LOOK$ AT SEV]AL LODG+S2 BUT F9D+ ?AT ,I C\LD NOT1 )\T A REF]5CE TO SOME ACQUA9TANCE1 :O MITM5T--M5 HAVE NOT ALL ?IS TR\BLE--,I ?\REL BETWE5 ME & ,MR4 ,V5ABLES W\LD NEV] BE MADE UP1 /ILL %E AGRE$ TO CONCEAL ME = ! PRES5T2 YET ASSUR+ ME AT ! SAME TIME1 %AK+ H] HEAD1 ?AT1 :5 A WOMAN WAS ONCE M>RI$1 %E MU/ BE> EV]Y ?+4 ,H] PALE FACE1 ON :I* APPE>$ A ?\S& HAGG>D L9ES & DELV+ WR9KLES1 PRODUC$ BY :AT IS EMPHATICALLY T]M$ FRETT+1 9=C$ H] REM>K2 & ,I HAD AFT]W>DS AN OPPORTUNITY ( OBS]V+ ! TREATM5T %E HAD TO 5DURE1 :I* GRIZZL$ H] 9TO PATI5CE4 ,%E TOIL$ FROM MORN+ TILL NID H]1 AS USUAL1 TALK TO H] DE> ,JOHNNY--HE1 =SOO?1 WAS H] MA/]2 NO SLAVE 9 ! ,WE/ ,9DIES HAD ONE MORE DESPOTIC2 BUT =TUNATELY %E WAS ( ! TRUE ,RUSSIAN BRE$ ( WIVES4 0,MY M9D1 DUR+ ! FEW PA/ DAYS1 SEEM$1 AS IT W]E1 DIS5GAG$ FROM MY BODY2 BUT1 N[ ! /RUGGLE WAS OV]1 ,I FELT V]Y =CIBLY ! EFFECT :I* P]TURBATION ( SPIRITS PRODUCES ON A WOMAN 9 MY SITUATION4 0,! APPREH5SION ( A MISC>RIAGE1 OBLIG$ ME TO CONF9E MYSELF TO MY AP>TM5T NE> A =TNINE/LY 9TREAT$ HIM1 NOT TO M5TION MY PLACE ( ABODE TO ANY ONE1 LE/ MY HUSB&--SU* ! LAW CONSID]$ HIM--%\LD DI/URB ! M9D HE C\LD NOT CONQU]4 ,I M5TION$ MY 9T5TION ( SETT+ \T = ,LISBON1 TO CLAIM MY UNCLE'S PROTECTION1 ! MOM5T MY HEAL? W\LD P]MIT4' 0,! TRANQUILITY H[EV]1 :I* ,I WAS RECOV]+1 WAS SOON 9T]RUPT$4 ,MY L&LADY CAME UP TO ME ONE DAY1 ) EYES SWOLL5 ) WEEP+1 UNABLE TO UTT] :AT %E WAS COMM&$ TO SAY4 ,%E DECL>$1 ',?AT %E WAS NEV] SO MIS]ABLE 9 H] LIFE2 ?AT %E MU/ APPE> AN UNGRATEFUL MON/]2 & ?AT %E W\LD READILY GO D[N ON H] KNEES TO ME1 TO 9TREAT ME TO =GIVE H]1 AS %E HAD DONE TO H] HUSB& TO SP>E H] ! CRUEL TASK4' ,SOBS PREV5T$ H] FROM PROCE$+1 OR ANSW]+ MY IMPATI5T 9QUIRIES1 TO KN[ :AT %E MEANT4 0,:5 %E BECAME A LITTLE MORE COMPOS$1 %E TOOK A NEWSPAP] \T ( H] POCKET1 DECL>+1 '?AT H] HE>T SMOTE H]1 BUT :AT C\LD %E DO8--%E MU/ OBEY H] HUSB&4' ,I SNAT*$ ! PAP] FROM H]4 ,AN ADV]TISEM5T QUICKLY MET MY EYE1 PURPORT+1 ?AT ',M>IA ,V5ABLES HAD1 )\T ANY ASSIGNABLE CAUSE1 ABSCOND$ FROM H] HUSB&2 & ANY P]SON H>BOR+ H]1 WAS M5AC$ ) ! UTMO/ SEV]ITY ( ! LAW4' 0,P]FECTLY ACQUA9T$ ) ,MR4 ,V5ABLES' MEANNESS ( S\L1 ?IS /EP DID NOT EXCITE MY SURPRISE1 & SC>CELY MY CONTEMPT4 ,RES5TM5T 9 MY BREA/1 NEV] SURVIV$ LOVE4 ,I BADE ! POOR WOMAN1 9 A K9D TONE1 WIPE H] EYES1 & REQUE/ H] HUSB& TO COME UP1 & SPEAK TO ME HIMSELF4 0,MY MANN] AW$ HIM4 ,HE RESPECT$ A LADY1 ?\< NOT A WOMAN2 & BEGAN TO MUTT] \T AN APOLOGY4 0',MR4 ,V5ABLES WAS A RI* G5TLEMAN2 HE WI%$ TO OBLIGE ME1 BUT HE HAD SUFF]$ 5\< BY ! LAW ALREADY1 TO TREMBLE AT ! ?\Y TO KEEP+ US ASUND]4--,A HUSB& & WIFE W]E1 ,GOD KN[S1 JU/ AS ONE1--& ALL W\LD COME R\ND AT LA/4' ,HE UTT]$ A DRAWL+ ',HEM6' & !N ) AN >* LOOK1 ADD$--',MA/] MIT6--M5 W\LD BE M5 :ILE ! WORLD /&S4' 0,TO >GUE ) ?IS PRIVILEG$ FIR/-BORN ( REASON1 ,I P]CEIV$1 W\LD BE VA94 ,I !RE=E ONLY REQUE/$ HIM TO LET ME REMA9 ANO!R DAY AT HIS H\SE1 :ILE ,I S\D ! P5T-UP *OL] BUR/ =? 9 CURSES1 :5 HE MET HIS WIFE1 :O WAS WAIT+ IMPATI5TLY AT ! FOOT ( ! /AIRS1 TO KN[ :AT EFFECT MY EXPO/ULATIONS W\LD HAVE ON HIM4 0,)\T WA/+ ANY TIME 9 ! FRUITLESS 9DULG5CE ( VEXATION1 ,I ONCE MORE SET \T 9 SE>* ( AN ABODE 9 :I* ,I C\LD HIDE MYSELF = A FEW WEEKS4 0,AGREE+ TO PAY AN EXORBITANT PRICE1 ,I HIR$ AN AP>TM5T1 )\T ANY REF]5CE BE+ REQUIR$ RELATIVE TO MY *>ACT]3 9DE$1 A GLANCE AT MY %APE SEEM$ TO SAY1 ?AT MY MOTIVE = CONCEALM5T WAS SUFFICI5TLY OBVI\S4 ,?US WAS ,I OBLIG$ TO %R\D MY HEAD 9 9FAMY4 0,TO AVOID ALL DANG] ( DETECTION--,I USE ! APPROPRIATE WORD1 MY *ILD1 = ,I WAS HUNT$ \T LIKE A FELON--,I DET]M9$ TO TAKE POSSESSION ( MY NEW LODG+S ?AT V]Y EV5+4 0,I DID NOT 9=M MY L&LADY :]E ,I WAS GO+4 ,I KNEW ?AT %E HAD A S9C]E AFFECTION = ME1 & W\LD WILL+LY HAVE RUN ANY RISK TO %[ H] GRATITUDE2 YET ,I WAS FULLY CONV9C$1 ?AT A FEW K9D WORDS FROM ,JOHNNY W\LD HAVE F\ND ! WOMAN 9 H]1 & H] DE> B5EFACTRESS1 AS %E T]M$ ME 9 AN AGONY ( TE>S1 W\LD HAVE BE5 SACRIFIC$1 TO RECOMP5SE H] TYRANT = CONDESC5D+ TO TREAT H] LIKE AN EQUAL4 ,HE C\LD BE K9DHE>T$1 AS %E EXPRESS$ IT1 :5 HE PLEAS$4 ,& ?IS ?AW$ /]NNESS1 CONTRA/$ ) HIS HABITUAL BRUTALITY1 WAS ! MORE ACCEPTABLE1 & C\LD NOT BE PUR*AS$ AT TOO DE> A RATE4 0,! SI ?AT \MS ( BEAUTY OR GRACE4 ,HE SEEM$ AT A LOSS :AT TO ADVISE ME TO DO1 TO EVADE MY HUSB&'S SE>*1 )\T HA/5+ TO MY UNCLE1 :OM1 HE HESITAT+ SAID1 ,I MIRIVAL ( ! NEXT PACKET2 (F]$ ME :AT MONEY ,I WANT$1 & PROMIS$ TO VISIT ME4 0,HE KEPT HIS WORD2 /ILL NO LETT] >RIV$ TO PUT AN 5D TO MY PA9FUL /ATE ( SUSP5SE4 ,I PROCUR$ SOME BOOKS & MUSIC1 TO BEGUILE ! T$I\S SOLIT>Y DAYS4 ',COME1 EV] SMIL+ ,LIB]TY1 ',& ) !E BR+ ?Y JOCUND TRA93' ,I SUNG--& SUNG TILL1 SADD5$ BY ! /RA9 ( JOY1 ,I BITT]LY LAM5T$ ! FATE ?AT DEPRIV$ ME ( ALL SOCIAL PLEASURE4 ,COMP>ATIVE LIB]TY 9DE$ ,I HAD POSSESS$ MYSELF (2 BUT ! JOCUND TRA9 LAGG$ F> BEH9D60 O ,*APT] #ac 0,BY WAT*+ MY ONLY VISITOR1 MY UNCLE'S FRI5D1 OR BY SOME O!R MEANS1 ,MR4 ,V5ABLES DISCOV]$ MY RESID5CE1 & CAME TO 9QUIRE = ME4 ,! MAID-S]VANT ASSUR$ HIM !RE WAS NO SU* P]SON 9 ! H\SE4 ,A BU/LE 5SU$--,I CAUM--LI/5$--DI/+UI%$ HIS VOICE1 & IMM$IATELY LOCK$ ! DOOR4 ,!Y SUDD5LY GREW /ILL2 & ,I WAIT$ NE> A QU>T] ( AN H\R1 BE=E ,I HE>D HIM OP5 ! P>LOR DOOR1 & M\NT ! /AIRS ) ! MI/RESS ( ! H\SE1 :O OBSEQUI\SLY DECL>$ ?AT %E KNEW NO?+ ( ME4 0,F9D+ MY DOOR LOCK$1 %E REQUE/$ ME TO OP5 IT1 & PREP>E TO GO HOME ) MY HUSB&1 POOR G5TLEMAN6 TO :OM ,I HAD ALREADY OCCASION$ SUFFICI5T VEXATION4' ,I MADE NO REPLY4 ,MR4 ,V5ABLES !N1 9 AN ASSUM$ TONE ( S(TNESS1 9TREAT$ ME1 'TO CONSID] :AT HE SUFF]$1 & MY [N REPUTATION1 & GET ! BETT] ( *ILDI% RES5TM5T4' ,HE RAN ON 9 ! SAME /RA91 PRET5D+ TO ADDRESS ME1 BUT EVID5TLY ADAPT+ HIS DISC\RSE TO ! CAPACITY ( ! L&LADY2 :O1 AT EV]Y PAUSE1 UTT]$ AN EXCLAMATION ( PITY2 OR ',YES1 TO BE SURE--,V]Y TRUE1 SIR4' 0,SICK ( ! F>CE1 & P]CEIV+ ?AT ,I C\LD NOT AVOID ! HAT$ 9T]VIEW1 ,I OP5$ ! DOOR1 & HE 5T]$4 ,ADVANC+ ) EASY ASSURANCE TO TAKE MY H&1 ,I %RUNK FROM HIS T\*1 ) AN 9VOLUNT>Y />T1 AS ,I %\LD HAVE DONE FROM A NOISOME REPTILE1 ) MORE DISGU/ ?AN T]ROR4 ,HIS CONDUCTRESS WAS RETIR+1 TO GIVE US1 AS %E SAID1 AN OPPORTUNITY TO ACCOMMODATE MATT]S4 ,BUT ,I BADE H] COME 91 OR ,I W\LD GO \T2 & CURIOSITY IMPELL$ H] TO OBEY ME4 0,MR4 ,V5ABLES BEGAN TO EXPO/ULATE2 & ?IS WOMAN1 PR\D ( HIS CONFID5CE1 TO SECOND HIM4 ,BUT ,I CALMLY SIL5C$ H]1 9 ! MID/ ( A VULG> H>ANGUE1 & TURN+ TO HIM1 ASK$1 ',:Y HE VA9LY TORM5T$ ME8 DECL>+ ?AT NO P[] ON E>? %\LD =CE ME BACK TO HIS H\SE4' 0,AFT] A LONG ALT]CATION1 ! P>TICUL>S ( :I*1 IT W\LD BE TO NO PURPOSE TO REPEAT1 HE LEFT ! ROOM4 ,SOME TIME WAS SP5T 9 L\D CONV]SATION 9 ! P>LOR BEL[1 & ,I DISCOV]$ ?AT HE HAD BR\AGRAPH FOLL[+ IS PREC$$ BY ?REE L9ES ( A/]ISKS .<,PUBLI%]'S NOTE.>4 0,! TUMULT ON ! L&+ PLACE1 BR\TM5TS 9 ! H\SE2 HE 9QUIR$ :Y ,I WAS ?US ASSAIL$8"9 ,! VOLUBLE ATTORNEY 9/ANTLY REPEAT$ ! TRITE TALE4 ,! /RANG] TURN$ TO ME1 OBS]V+1 ) ! MO/ SOO?+ POLIT5ESS & MANLY 9T]E/1 ?AT 'MY C\NT5ANCE TOLD A V]Y DIFF]5T /ORY4' ,HE ADD$1 '?AT ,I %\LD NOT BE 9SULT$1 OR =C$ \T ( ! H\SE1 BY ANY BODY4' "9 ,! 9TRODUCTION ( ,D>N=D AS ! DELIV]] ( ,M>IA1 9 AN E>LY /AGE ( ! HI/ORY1 IS ALREADY /AT$ 7,*AP4 ,I,I,I47 TO HAVE BE5 AN AFT]-?\N=D IS ! /RANG] 9T5D$ 9 ?IS PLACE4 ,IT APPE>S FROM ,*AP4 ,X,V,I,I1 ?AT AN 9T]F]5CE ( A MORE DECISIVE NATURE WAS DESIGN$ TO BE ATTRIBUT$ TO HIM4 ,$,I,T,O,R4 .<,GODW9'S NOTE.> 0',NOT BY H] HUSB&8' ASK$ ! ATTORNEY4 0',NO1 SIR1 NOT BY H] HUSB&4' ,MR4 ,V5ABLES ADVANC$ T[>DS HIM--,BUT !RE WAS A DECISION 9 HIS ATTITUDE1 ?AT SO WELL SECOND$ ?AT ( HIS VOICE1 "9 ,!Y LEFT ! H\SE3 AT ! SAME TIME PROTE/+1 ?AT ANY ONE ?AT %\LD D>E TO PROTECT ME1 %\LD BE PROSECUT$ ) ! UTMO/ RIGOR4 "9 ,TWO & A HALF L9ES ( A/]ISKS APPE> H]E 9 ! ORIG9AL .<,PUBLI%]'S NOTE.>4 0,!Y W]E SC>CELY \T ( ! H\SE1 :5 MY L&LADY CAME UP TO ME AGA91 & BEGG$ MY P>DON1 9 A V]Y DIFF]5T TONE4 ,=1 ?\< ,MR4 ,V5ABLES HAD BID H]1 AT H] P]IL1 H>BOR ME1 HE HAD NOT ATT5D$1 ,I F\ND1 TO H] BROAD H9TS1 TO DIS*>GE ! LODG+4 ,I 9/ANTLY PROMIS$ TO PAY H]1 & MAKE H] A PRES5T TO COMP5SATE = MY ABRUPT DEP>TURE1 IF %E W\LD PROCURE ME ANO!R LODG+1 AT A SUFFICI5T DI/ANCE2 & %E1 9 RETURN1 REPEAT+ ,MR4 ,V5ABLES' PLAUSIBLE TALE1 ,I RAIS$ H] 9DIGNATION1 & EXCIT$ H] SYMPA?Y1 BY TELL+ H] BRIEFLY ! TRU?4 0,%E EXPRESS$ H] COMMIS]ATION ) SU* HONE/ W>M?1 ?AT ,I FELT SOO!D2 = ,I HAVE NONE ( ?AT FA/IDI\S S5SITIV5ESS1 :I* A VULG> ACC5T OR GE/URE CAN AL>M TO ! DISREG>D ( REAL K9DNESS4 ,I WAS EV] GLAD TO P]CEIVE 9 O!RS ! HUMANE FEEL+S ,I DELIACT]I/IC CIRCUM/ANCES1 :I* HAVE OCCURR$ 9 A MOM5T ( EMOTION1 HAS CONVULS$ ME ) LAUE/ GIRL1 BE+ EV] PRES5T TO ME :ILE ,I WRITE1 ,I NOTE !SE FEEL+S1 BECAUSE WOM51 MORE ACCU/OM$ TO OBS]VE MANN]S ?AN ACTIONS1 >E TOO MU* ALIVE TO RIDICULE4 ,SO MU* SO1 ?AT !IR BOA/$ S5SIBILITY IS (T5 /IFL$ BY FALSE DELICACY4 ,TRUE S5SIBILITY1 ! S5SIBILITY :I* IS ! AUXILI>Y ( VIRTUE1 & ! S\L ( G5IUS1 IS 9 SOCIETY SO OCCUPI$ ) ! FEEL+S ( O!RS1 AS SC>CELY TO REG>D ITS [N S5SATIONS4 ,) :AT REV]5CE HAVE ,I LOOK$ UP AT MY UNCLE1 ! DE> P>5T ( MY M9D6 :5 ,I HAVE SE5 ! S5SE ( HIS [N SUFF]+S1 ( M9D & BODY1 ABSORB$ 9 A DESIRE TO COM=T ?OSE1 :OSE MIS=TUNES W]E COMP>ATIVELY TRIVIAL4 ,HE W\LD HAVE BE5 A%AM$ ( BE+ AS 9DULG5T TO HIMSELF1 AS HE WAS TO O!RS4 ',G5U9E =TITUDE1' HE W\LD ASS]T1 'CONSI/$ 9 GOV]N+ \R [N EMOTIONS1 & MAK+ ALL[ANCE = ! WEAKNESSES 9 \R FRI5DS1 ?AT WE W\LD NOT TOL]ATE 9 \RSELVES4' ,BUT :]E IS MY FOND REGRET LEAD+ ME6 0',WOM5 MU/ BE SUBMISSIVE1' SAID MY L&LADY4 ',9DE$ :AT C\LD MO/ WOM5 DO8 ,:O HAD !Y TO MA9TA9 !M1 BUT !IR HUSB&S8 ,EV]Y WOMAN1 & ESPECIALLY A LADY1 C\LD NOT GO ?R\< R\< & SMOO?1 AS %E HAD DONE1 TO E>N A LITTLE BREAD4' 0,%E WAS 9 A TALK+ MOOD1 & PROCE$$ TO 9=M ME H[ %E HAD BE5 US$ 9 ! WORLD4 ',%E KNEW :AT IT WAS TO HAVE A BAD HUSB&1 OR %E DID NOT KN[ :O %\LD4' ,I P]CEIV$ ?AT %E W\LD BE V]Y MU* MORTIFI$1 W]E ,I NOT TO ATT5D TO H] TALE1 & ,I DID NOT ATTEMPT TO 9T]RUPT H]1 ?\< ,I WI%$ H]1 AS SOON AS POSSIBLE1 TO GO \T 9 SE>* ( A NEW ABODE = ME1 :]E ,I C\LD ONCE MORE HIDE MY HEAD4 0,%E BEGAN BY TELL+ ME1 ',?AT %E HAD SAV$ A LITTLE MONEY 9 S]VICE2 & WAS OV]-P]SUAD$ 7WE MU/ ALL BE 9 LOVE ONCE 9 \R LIVES7 TO M>RY A LIKELY MAN1 A FOOTMAN 9 ! FAMILY1 NOT WOR? A GROAT4 ,MY PLAN1' %E CONT9U$1 'WAS TO TAKE A H\SE1 & LET \T LODG+S2 & ALL W5T ON WELL1 TILL MY HUSB& GOT ACQUA9T$ ) AN IMPUD5T SLUT1 :O *OSE TO LIVE ON O!R PEOPLE'S MEANS--& !N ALL W5T TO RACK & RU94 ,HE RAN 9 DEBT TO BUY H] F9E CLO!S1 SU* CLO!S AS ,I NEV] ?\+ MYSELF1 &--W\LD Y\ BELIEVE IT8--HE SIGN$ AN EXECUTION ON MY V]Y GOODS1 B\D TO GET2 & !Y CAME & TOOK MY B$ FROM UND] ME1 BE=E ,I HE>D A WORD ( ! MATT]4 ,AYE1 MADAM1 !SE >E MIS=TUNES ?AT Y\ G5TLEFOLKS KN[ NO?+ (1--BUT SORR[ IS SORR[1 LET IT COME :I* WAY IT WILL4 0',I S\D1 AFT] HAV+ A H\SE ( MY [N6--BUT HE US$ TO FOLL[ ME1 & KICK UP SU* A RIOT :5 HE WAS DRUNK1 ?AT ,I C\LD NOT KEEP A PLACE2 NAY1 HE EV5 /OLE MY CLO!S1 & PAWN$ !M2 & :5 ,I W5T TO ! PAWNBROK]'S1 & (F]$ TO TAKE MY OA? ?AT !Y W]E NOT B\?+ ( HIS MONEY1 !Y SAID1 ',IT WAS ALL AS ONE1 MY HUSB& HAD A RIV$ MYSELF1 TILL ,I ONCE MORE GOT BE=E-H& 9 ! WORLD4 0',AFT] AN ABS5CE ( SIX YE>S 7,GOD =GIVE ME6 ,I ?\RE/$ HIM2 &1 HE SELL+ MY GOODS1 ,I F\ND MYSELF ONCE MORE R$UC$ TO BEGG>Y2 = ,I WAS NOT AS WELL ABLE TO WORK1 GO TO B$ LATE1 & RISE E>LY1 AS :5 ,I QUITT$ S]VICE2 & !N ,I ?\D 5\<4 ,HE WAS SOON TIR$ ( ME1 :5 !RE WAS NO?+ MORE TO BE HAD1 & LEFT ME AGA94 0,I WILL NOT TELL Y\ H[ ,I WAS BUFFET$ AB\T1 TILL1 HE>+ = C]TA9 ?AT HE HAD DI$ 9 AN HOSPITAL ABROAD1 ,I ONCE MORE RETURN$ TO MY OLD OCCUPATION2 BUT HAVE NOT YET BE5 ABLE TO GET MY HEAD ABOVE WAT]3 SO1 MADAM1 Y\ MU/ NOT BE ANGRY IF ,I AM AFRAID TO RUN ANY RISK1 :5 ,I KN[ SO WELL1 ?AT WOM5 HAVE ALWAYS ! WOR/ ( IT1 :5 LAW IS TO DECIDE4' 0,AFT] UTT]+ A FEW MORE COMPLA9TS1 ,I PREVAIL$ ON MY L&LADY TO GO \T 9 QUE/ ( A LODG+2 &1 TO BE MORE SECURE1 ,I CONDESC5D$ TO ! MEAN %IFT ( *ANG+ MY NAME4 0,BUT :Y %\LD ,I DWELL ON SIMIL> 9CID5TS6--,I WAS HUNT$1 LIKE AN 9FECT$ BEA/1 FROM ?REE DIFF]5T AP>TM5TS1 & %\LD NOT HAVE BE5 ALL[$ TO RE/ 9 ANY1 HAD NOT ,MR4 ,V5ABLES1 9=M$ ( MY UNCLE'S DANG]\S /ATE ( HEAL?1 BE5 9SPIR$ ) ! FE> ( HURRY+ ME \T ( ! WORLD AS ,I ADVANC$ 9 MY PREGNANCY1 BY ?US TORM5T+ & OBLIG+ ME TO TAKE SUDD5 J\RNEYS TO AVOID HIM2 & !N HIS SPECULATIONS ON MY UNCLE'S =TUNE MU/ PROVE ABORTIVE4 0,ONE DAY1 :5 HE HAD PURSU$ ME TO AN 9N1 ,I FA9T$1 HURRY+ FROM HIM2 &1 FALL+ D[N1 ! SIM$ HIM1 & OBTA9$ A RESPITE = ME4 ,IT IS /RANGE ?AT HE %\LD HAVE RETA9$ ANY HOPE1 AFT] OBS]V+ MY UNWAV]+ DET]M9ATION2 BUT1 FROM ! MILDNESS ( MY BEHAVIOR1 :5 ,I F\ND ALL MY 5DEAVORS TO *ANGE HIS DISPOSITION UNAVAIL+1 HE =M$ AN ]RONE\S OP9ION ( MY *>ACT]1 IMAG9+ ?AT1 W]E WE ONCE MORE TOGE!R1 ,I %\LD P>T ) ! MONEY HE C\LD NOT LEGALLY =CE FROM ME1 ) ! SAME FACILITY AS =M]LY4 ,MY =BE>ANCE & OCCASIONAL SYMPA?Y HE HAD MI/AK5 = WEAKNESS ( *>ACT]2 &1 BECAUSE HE P]CEIV$ ?AT ,I DISLIK$ RESI/ANCE1 HE ?\ ( BE+ UNJU/1 OR ( UNNECESS>ILY W\ND+ ! FEEL+S ( ANO!R1 WAS MU* MORE PA9FUL TO ME1 ?AN ANY ?+ ,I C\LD HAVE TO 5DURE MYSELF4 ,P]HAPS IT WAS PRIDE :I* MADE ME IMAG9E1 ?AT ,I C\LD BE> :AT ,I DREAD$ TO 9FLICT2 & ?AT IT WAS (T5 EASI] TO SUFF]1 ?AN TO SEE ! SUFF]+S ( O!RS4 0,I =GOT TO M5TION ?AT1 DUR+ ?IS P]SECUTION1 ,I RECEIV$ A LETT] FROM MY UNCLE1 9=M+ ME1 '?AT HE ONLY F\ND RELIEF FROM CONT9UAL *ANGE ( AIR2 & ?AT HE 9T5D$ TO RETURN :5 ! SPR+ WAS A LITTLE MORE ADVANC$ 7IT WAS N[ ! MIDDLE ( ,FEBRU>Y71 & !N WE W\LD PLAN A J\RNEY TO ,ITALY1 LEAV+ ! FOGS & C>ES ( ,5GL& F> BEH9D4' ,HE APPROV$ ( MY CONDUCT1 PROMIS$ TO ADOPT MY *ILD1 & SEEM$ TO HAVE NO D\BT ( OBLIG+ ,MR4 ,V5ABLES TO HE> REASON4 ,HE WROTE TO HIS FRI5D1 BY ! SAME PO/1 DESIR+ HIM TO CALL ON ,MR4 ,V5ABLES 9 HIS NAME2 &1 9 CONSEQU5CE ( ! REMON/RANCES HE DICTAT$1 ,I WAS P]MITT$ TO LIE-9 TRANQUILLY4 0,! TWO OR ?REE WEEKS PREVI\S1 ,I HAD BE5 ALL[$ TO RE/ 9 PEACE2 BUT1 SO ACCU/OM$ WAS ,I TO PURSUIT & AL>M1 ?AT ,I SELDOM CLOS$ MY EYES )\T BE+ HAUNT$ BY ,MR4 ,V5ABLES' IMAGE1 :O SEEM$ TO ASSUME T]RIFIC OR HATEFUL =MS TO TORM5T ME1 :]EV] ,I TURN$4--,SOMETIMES A WILD CAT1 A RO>+ BULL1 OR HIDE\S ASSASS91 :OM ,I VA9LY ATTEMPT$ TO FLY2 AT O!RS HE WAS A DEMON1 HURRY+ ME TO ! BR9K ( A PRECIPICE1 PLUNG+ ME 9TO D>K WAVES1 OR HORRID GULFS2 & ,I WOKE1 9 VIOL5T FITS ( TREMBL+ ANXIETY1 TO ASSURE MYSELF ?AT IT WAS ALL A DREAM1 & TO 5DEAVOR TO LURE MY WAK+ ?\T-5L>G+ VIRTUES ( ANTIQUITY1 FROM ! TURMOIL ( C>ES ?AT HAD DEPRESS$ ALL ! D>+ PURPOSES ( MY S\L4 ,BUT ,I WAS NOT LONG ALL[$ TO CALM MY M9D BY ! EX]CISE ( MY IMAG9ATION2 = ! ?IRD DAY AFT] Y\R BIR?1 MY *ILD1 ,I WAS SURPRIS$ BY A VISIT FROM MY ELD] BRO!R2 :O CAME 9 ! MO/ ABRUPT MANN]1 TO 9=M ME ( ! DEA? ( MY UNCLE4 ,HE HAD LEFT ! GREAT] P>T ( HIS =TUNE TO MY *ILD1 APPO9T+ ME ITS GU>DIAN2 9 %ORT1 EV]Y /EP WAS TAK5 TO 5ABLE ME TO BE MI/RESS ( HIS =TUNE1 )\T PUTT+ ANY P>T ( IT 9 ,MR4 ,V5ABLES' P[]4 ,MY BRO!R CAME TO V5T HIS RAGE ON ME1 = HAV+1 AS HE EXPRESS$ HIMSELF1 'DEPRIV$ HIM1 MY UNCLE'S ELDE/ NEPHEW1 ( HIS 9H]ITANCE2' ?\< MY UNCLE'S PROP]TY1 ! FRUIT ( HIS [N EX]TION1 BE+ ALL 9 ! FUNDS1 OR ON L&$ SECURITIES1 !RE WAS NOT A %AD[ ( JU/ICE 9 ! *>GE4 0,AS ,I S9C]ELY LOV$ MY UNCLE1 ?IS 9TELLIG5CE BR\T TO SUCKLE Y\1 MY POOR BABE4 ,Y\ SEEM$ MY ONLY TIE TO LIFE1 A *]UB1 TO :OM ,I WI%$ TO BE A FA!R1 AS WELL AS A MO!R2 & ! D\BLE DUTY APPE>$ TO ME TO PRODUCE A PROPORTIONATE 9CREASE ( AFFECTION4 ,BUT ! PLEASURE ,I FELT1 :ILE SU/A9+ Y\1 SNAT*$ FROM ! WRECK ( HOPE1 WAS CRUELLY DAMP$ BY MELAN*OLY REFLECTIONS ON MY WID[$ /ATE--WID[$ BY ! DEA? ( MY UNCLE4 ,( ,MR4 ,V5ABLES ,I ?\E S(T5$ BY A HUSB&'S T5D]NESS4--',\S W\LD FL[4 ',:Y WAS ,I1' ,I W\LD ASK !E1 BUT ?\ DID/ NOT HE$ ME1--'CUT (F FROM ! P>TICIPATION ( ! SWEETE/ PLEASURE ( LIFE8' ,I IMAG9$ ) :AT EXTACY1 AFT] ! PA9S ( *ILD-B$1 ,I %\LD HAVE PRES5T$ MY LITTLE /RANG]1 :OM ,I HAD SO LONG WI%$ TO VIEW1 TO A RESPECTABLE FA!R1 & ) :AT MAT]NAL FONDNESS ,I %\LD HAVE PRESS$ !M BO? TO MY HE>T6--,N[ ,I KISS$ H] ) LESS DELI+ COMPASSION1 POOR HELPLESS ONE6 :5 ,I P]CEIV$ A SLIT HEAV$1 & ,I PRESS$ ! 9NOC5T TO MY BOSOM1 AS IF TO PURIFY IT--YES1 ,I BLU%$ TO ?9K ?AT ITS PURITY HAD BE5 SULLI$1 BY ALL[+ SU* A MAN TO BE ITS FA!R4 0,AFT] MY RECOV]Y1 ,I BEGAN TO ?9K ( TAK+ A H\SE 9 ! C\NTRY1 OR ( MAK+ AN EXCURSION ON ! CONT95T1 TO AVOID ,MR4 ,V5ABLES2 & TO OP5 MY HE>T TO NEW PLEASURES & AFFECTION4 ,! SPR+ WAS MELT+ 9TO SUMM]1 & Y\1 MY LITTLE COMPANION1 BEGAN TO SMILE--?AT SMILE MADE HOPE BUD \T AFRE%1 ASSUR+ ME ! WORLD WAS NOT A DES]T4 ,Y\R GE/URES W]E EV] PRES5T TO MY FANCY2 & ,I DWELT ON ! JOY ,I %\LD FEEL :5 Y\ W\LD BEG9 TO WALK & LISP4 ,WAT*+ Y\R WAK5+ M9D1 & %IELD+ FROM EV]Y RUDE BLA/ MY T5D] BLOSSOM1 ,I RECOV]$ MY SPIRITS--,I DREAM$ NOT ( ! FRO/--'! KILL+ FRO/1' TO :I* Y\ W]E DE/9$ TO BE EXPOS$4--,BUT ,I LOSE ALL PATI5CE--& EXECRATE ! 9JU/ICE ( ! WORLD--FOLLY6 IGNORANCE6--,I %\LD RA!R CALL IT2 BUT1 %UT UP FROM A FREE CIRCULATION ( ?\I\S ILLS MY SEX >E FAT$ TO BE>--,I FEEL ?AT ! EVILS !Y >E SUBJECT TO 5DURE1 DEGRADE !M SO F> BEL[ !IR OPPRESSORS1 AS ALMO/ TO JU/IFY !IR TYRANNY2 LEAD+ AT ! SAME TIME SUP]FICIAL REASON]S TO T]M ?AT WEAKNESS ! CAUSE1 :I* IS ONLY ! CONSEQU5CE ( %ORT-SI* ( ! *E]FULNESS1 ?AT NATURALLY RESULTS FROM A *ANGE ( SC5E1 UNLESS WE C>RY ! B>B$ >R[ ) US1 & ONLY SEE :AT WE FEEL4 0,DUR+ ! P]IOD NECESS>Y TO PREP>E = A LONG ABS5CE1 ,I S5T A SUPPLY TO PAY MY FA!R'S DEBTS1 & SETTL$ MY BRO!RS 9 ELIGIBLE SITUATIONS2 BUT MY ATT5TION WAS NOT :OLLY 5GROSS$ BY MY FAMILY1 ?\< ,I DO NOT ?9K IT NECESS>Y TO 5UM]ATE ! COMMON EX]TIONS ( HUMANITY4 ,! MANN] 9 :I* MY UNCLE'S PROP]TY WAS SETTL$1 PREV5T$ ME FROM MAK+ ! ADDITION TO ! =TUNE ( MY SURVIV+ SI/]1 ?AT ,I C\LD HAVE WI%$2 BUT ,I HAD PREVAIL$ ON HIM TO BEQUEA? H] TWO ?\S& P\NDS1 & %E DET]M9$ TO M>RY A LOV]1 TO :OM %E HAD BE5 SOME TIME ATTA*$4 ,HAD IT NOT BE5 = ?IS 5GAGEM5T1 ,I %\LD HAVE 9VIT$ H] TO ACCOMPANY ME 9 MY T\R2 & ,I MITFULLY DUG 9 MY PA?1 :5 ,I WAS ! LEA/ AW>E ( DANG]4 0,I HAD ?\TURE4 ,A FRI5D ( ,MR4 ,V5ABLES1 ! SAME ATTORNEY :O HAD ACCOMPANI$ HIM 9 SEV]AL EXCURSIONS TO HUNT ME FROM MY HID+ PLACES1 WAIT$ ON ME TO PROPOSE A RECONCILIATION4 ,ON MY REFUSAL1 HE 9DIRECTLY ADVIS$ ME TO MAKE OV] TO MY HUSB&--= HUSB& HE W\LD T]M HIM--! GREAT] P>T ( ! PROP]TY ,I HAD AT COMM&1 M5AC+ ME ) CONT9UAL P]SECUTION UNLESS ,I COMPLI$1 & ?AT1 AS A LA/ RESORT1 HE W\LD CLAIM ! *ILD4 ,I DID NOT1 ?\< 9TIMIDAT$ BY ! LA/ 9S9UATION1 SCRUPLE TO DECL>E1 ?AT ,I W\LD NOT ALL[ HIM TO SQU&] ! MONEY LEFT TO ME = F> DIFF]5T PURPOSES1 BUT (F]$ HIM FIVE HUNDR$ P\NDS1 IF HE W\LD SIGN A BOND NOT TO TORM5T ME ANY MORE4 ,MY MAT]NAL ANXIETY MADE ME ?US APPE> TO WAV] FROM MY FIR/ DET]M9ATION1 & PROBABLY SUGGE/$ TO HIM1 OR HIS DIABOLICAL AG5T1 ! 9F]NAL PLOT1 :I* HAS SUCCE$$ BUT TOO WELL4 0,! BOND WAS EXECUT$2 /ILL ,I WAS IMPATI5T TO LEAVE ,5GL&4 ,MIS*IEF HUNG 9 ! AIR :5 WE BREA!D ! SAME2 ,I WANT$ SEAS TO DIVIDE US1 & WAT]S TO ROLL BETWE51 TILL HE HAD =GOTT5 ?AT ,I HAD ! MEANS ( HELP+ HIM ?R\< A NEW S*EME4 ,DI/URB$ BY ! LATE OCCURR5CES1 ,I 9/ANTLY PREP>$ = MY DEP>TURE4 ,MY ONLY DELAY WAS WAIT+ = A MAID-S]VANT1 :O SPOKE ,FR5* FLU5TLY1 & HAD BE5 W>MLY RECOMM5D$ TO ME4 ,A VALET ,I WAS ADVIS$ TO HIRE1 :5 ,I FIX$ ON MY PLACE ( RESID5CE = ANY TIME4 0,MY ,GOD1 ) :AT A LIT DID ,I SET \T = ,DOV]6--,IT WAS NOT MY C\NTRY1 BUT MY C>ES1 ?AT ,I WAS LEAV+ BEH9D4 ,MY HE>T SEEM$ TO B\ND ) ! :EELS1 OR RA!R APPE>$ ! C5T] ON :I* !Y TWIRL$4 ,I CLASP$ Y\ TO MY BOSOM1 EXCLAIM+ ',& Y\ WILL BE SAFE--QUITE SAFE--:5--WE >E ONCE ON BO>D ! PACKET4--,W\LD WE W]E !RE6' ,I SMIL$ AT MY IDLE FE>S1 AS ! NATURAL EFFECT ( CONT9UAL AL>M2 & ,I SC>CELY [N$ TO MYSELF ?AT ,I DREAD$ ,MR4 ,V5ABLES'S CUNN+1 OR WAS CONSCI\S ( ! HORRID DELIE--,I NEV] REA*$ ! PACKET--,I NEV] SAW !E MORE4--,I GR[ BREA?LESS4 ,I HAVE SC>CELY PATI5CE TO WRITE D[N ! DETAILS4 ,! MAID--! PLAUSIBLE WOMAN ,I HAD HIR$--PUT1 D\BTLESS1 SOME /UPEFY+ POTION 9 :AT ,I ATE OR DRANK1 ! MORN+ ,I LEFT T[N4 ,ALL ,I KN[ IS1 ?AT %E MU/ HAVE QUITT$ ! *AISE1 %AMELESS WRET*6 & TAK5 7FROM MY BREA/7 MY BABE ) H]4 ,H[ C\LD A CREATURE 9 A FEMALE =M SEE ME C>ESS !E1 & /EAL !E FROM MY >MS6 ,I MU/ /OP1 /OP TO REPRESS A MO!R'S ANGUI%2 LE/1 9 BITT]NESS ( S\L1 ,I IMPRECATE ! WRA? ( HEAV5 ON ?IS TIG]1 :O TORE MY ONLY COM=T FROM ME4 0,H[ LONG ,I SLEPT ,I KN[ NOT2 C]TA9LY MANY H\RS1 = ,I WOKE AT ! CLOSE ( DAY1 9 A /RANGE CONFUSION ( ?\$ ?AT IT HAD FALL5 \T ( MY LAP1 :ILE ,I HAD SO /RANGELY =GOTT5 H]2 &1 SU* WAS ! VAGUE 9TOXICATION1 ,I CAN GIVE IT NO O!R NAME1 9 :I* ,I WAS PLUNG$1 ,I C\LD NOT RECOLLECT :5 OR :]E ,I LA/ SAW Y\2 BUT ,I SI<$1 AS IF MY HE>T WANT$ ROOM TO CLE> MY HEAD4 0,! GATES OP5$ HEAVILY1 & ! SULL5 S\ND ( MANY LOCKS & BOLTS DRAWN BACK1 GRAT$ ON MY V]Y S\L1 BE=E ,I WAS APPALL$ BY ! CREEK+ ( ! DISMAL H+ES1 AS !Y CLOS$ AFT] ME4 ,! GLOOMY PILE WAS BE=E ME1 HALF 9 RU9S2 SOME ( ! AG$ TREES ( ! AV5UE W]E CUT D[N1 & LEFT TO ROT :]E !Y FELL2 & AS WE APPROA*$ SOME MOLD]+ /EPS1 A MON/R\S DOG D>T$ =W>DS TO ! L5G? ( HIS *A91 & B>K$ & GR[L$ 9F]NALLY4 0,! DOOR WAS OP5$ SL[LY1 & A MURD]\S VISAGE PEEP$ \T1 ) A LANT]N4 ',HU%6' HE UTT]$1 9 A ?REATN+ TONE1 & ! AFFRIMS >\ND ME4 ,IT WAS C]TA9LY ! EFFECT ( ! SOPORIFIC DRAFT1 =1 9/EAD ( EX]T+ MY /R5G?1 ,I SUNK )\T MOTION1 ?\< NOT )\T S5SE1 ON HIS %\LD]1 MY LIMBS REFUS+ TO OBEY MY WILL4 ,I WAS C>RI$ UP ! /EPS 9TO A CLOSE-%UT HALL4 ,A C&LE FL>+ 9 ! SOCKET1 SC>CELY DISP]S$ ! D>KNESS1 ?\< IT DISPLAY$ TO ME ! F]OCI\S C\NT5ANCE ( ! WRET* :O HELD ME4 0,HE M\NT$ A WIDE /AIRCASE4 ,L>GE FIGURES PA9T$ ON ! WALLS SEEM$ TO />T ON ME1 & GL>+ EYES TO MEET ME AT EV]Y TURN4 ,5T]+ A LONG GALL]Y1 A DISMAL %RIEK MADE ME SPR+ \T ( MY CONDUCTOR'S >MS1 ) ,I KN[ NOT :AT MY/]I\S EMOTION ( T]ROR2 BUT ,I FELL ON ! FLOOR1 UNABLE TO SU/A9 MYSELF4 0,A /RANGE-LOOK+ FEMALE />T$ \T ( ONE ( ! RECESSES1 & OBS]V$ ME ) MORE CURIOSITY ?AN 9T]E/2 TILL1 /]NLY BID RETIRE1 %E FLITT$ BACK LIKE A %AD[4 ,O!R FACES1 /RONGLY M>K$1 OR DI/ORT$1 PEEP$ ?R\< ! HALF-OP5$ DOORS1 & ,I HE>D SOME 9COH]5T S\NDS4 ,I HAD NO DI/9CT IDEA :]E ,I C\LD BE--,I LOOK$ ON ALL SIDES1 & ALMO/ D\BT$ :E!R ,I WAS ALIVE OR DEAD4 0,?R[N ON A B$1 ,I IMM$IATELY SUNK 9TO 9S5SIBILITY AGA92 & NEXT DAY1 GRADUALLY RECOV]+ ! USE ( REASON1 ,I BEGAN1 />T+ AFFRIE ! EV5TS ( ?Y MO!R'S LIFE TO ?IS DREADFUL MOM5T--,%\LD %E EV] ESCAPE FROM ! FANGS ( H] 5EMIES1 %E WILL ADD ! SECRETS ( H] PRISON-H\SE--&--0 ,SOME L9ES W]E H]E CROSS$ \T1 & ! MEMOIRS BROKE (F ABRUPTLY ) ! NAMES ( ,JEMIMA & ,D>N=D4 ,A,P,P,5,D,I,X ,A,D,V,],T,I,S,E,M,5,T"9 ,! P]=MANCE1 ) A FRAGM5T ( :I* ! READ] HAS N[ BE5 PRES5T$1 WAS DESIGN$ TO CONSI/ ( ?REE P>TS4 ,! PREC$+ %EETS W]E CONSID]$ AS CON/ITUT+ ONE ( ?OSE P>TS4 ,?OSE P]SONS :O 9 ! P]USAL ( ! *APT]S1 ALREADY WRITT5 & 9 SOME DEGREE F9I%$ BY ! AU?OR1 HAVE FELT !IR HE>TS AWAK5$1 & !IR CURIOSITY EXCIT$ AS TO ! SEQUEL ( ! /ORY1 WILL1 ( C\RSE1 GLADLY ACCEPT EV5 ( ! BROK5 P>AGRAPHS & HALF-F9I%$ S5T5CES1 :I* HAVE BE5 F\ND COMMITT$ TO PAP]1 AS MAT]IALS = ! REMA9D]4 ,! FA/IDI\S & COLDHE>T$ CRITIC MAY P]HAPS FEEL HIMSELF REPELL$ BY ! 9COH]5T =M 9 :I* !Y >E PRES5T$4 ,BUT AN 9QUISITIVE TEMP] WILL+LY ACCEPTS ! MO/ IMP]FECT & MUTILAT$ 9=MATION1 :]E BETT] IS NOT TO BE HAD3 & READ]S1 :O 9 ANY DEGREE RESEMBLE ! AU?OR 9 H] QUICK APPREH5SION ( S5TIM5T1 & ( ! PLEASURES & PA9S ( IMAG9ATION1 WILL1 ,I BELIEVE1 F9D GRATIFICATION1 9 CONTEMPLAT+ SKET*ES1 :I* W]E DESIGN$ 9 A %ORT TIME TO HAVE RECEIV$ ! F9I%+ T\*ES ( H] G5IUS2 BUT :I* MU/ N[ = EV] REMA9 A M>K TO RECORD ! TRIUMPHS ( MORTALITY1 OV] S*EMES ( USEFULNESS1 & PROJECTS ( PUBLIC 9T]E/4 "9 ,PRESUM$ TO HAVE BE5 WRITT5 BY ,GODW9 .<,PUBLI%]'S NOTE.>4 O ,*APT] #ae ,D>N=D RETURN$ ! MEMOIRS TO ,M>IA1 ) A MO/ AFFECTIONATE LETT]1 9 :I* HE REASON$ ON 0! ABSURDITY ( ! LAWS RESPECT+ MATRIMONY1 :I*1 TILL DIVORCES C\LD BE MORE EASILY OBTA9$1 WAS10 HE DECL>$1 0! MO/ 9SUFF]ABLE BONDAGE40 ,TIES ( ?IS NATURE C\LD NOT B9D M9DS GOV]N$ BY SUP]IOR PR9CIPLES2 & SU* BE+S W]E PRIVILEG$ TO ACT ABOVE ! DICTATES ( LAWS !Y HAD NO VOICE 9 FRAM+1 IF !Y HAD SUFFICI5T /R5G? ( M9D TO 5DURE ! NATURAL CONSEQU5CE4 ,9 H] CASE1 TO TALK ( DUTY1 WAS A F>CE1 EXCEPT+ :AT WAS DUE TO H]SELF4 ,DELICACY1 AS WELL AS REASON1 =BADE H] EV] TO ?9K ( RETURN+ TO H] HUSB&3 WAS %E !N TO RE/RA9 H] *>M+ S5SIBILITY ?R\< M]E PREJUDICE8 ,!SE >GUM5TS W]E NOT ABSOLUTELY IMP>TIAL1 = HE DISDA9$ TO CONCEAL1 ?AT1 :5 HE APPEAL$ TO H] REASON1 HE FELT ?AT HE HAD SOME 9T]E/ 9 H] HE>T4--,! CONVICTION WAS NOT MORE TRANSPORT+1 ?AN SACR$--A ?\S& TIMES A DAY1 HE ASK$ HIMSELF H[ HE HAD M]IT$ SU* HAPP9ESS8--& AS (T5 HE DET]M9$ TO PURIFY ! HE>T %E DEIGN$ TO 9HABIT--,HE 9TREAT$ TO BE AGA9 ADMITT$ TO H] PRES5CE4 ,HE WAS2 & ! TE> :I* GLI/5$ 9 HIS EYE1 :5 HE RESPECTFULLY PRESS$ H] TO HIS BOSOM1 R5D]$ HIM PECULI>LY DE> TO ! UN=TUNATE MO!R4 ,GRIEF HAD /ILL$ ! TRANSPORTS ( LOVE1 ONLY TO R5D] !IR MUTUAL T5D]NESS MORE T\*+4 ,9 =M] 9T]VIEWS1 ,D>N=D HAD CONTRIV$1 BY A HUNDR$ LITTLE PRETEXTS1 TO SIT NE> H]1 TO TAKE H] H&1 OR TO MEET H] EYES--N[ IT WAS ALL SOO?+ AFFECTION1 & E/EEM SEEM$ TO HAVE RIVAL$ LOVE4 ,HE ADV]T$ TO H] N>RATIVE1 & SPOKE ) W>M? ( ! OPPRESSION %E HAD 5DUR$4--,HIS EYES1 GL[+ ) A LAMB5T FLAME1 TOLD H] H[ MU* HE WI%$ TO RE/ORE H] TO LIB]TY & LOVE2 BUT HE KISS$ H] H&1 AS IF IT HAD BE5 ?AT ( A SA9T2 & SPOKE ( ! LOSS ( H] *ILD1 AS IF IT HAD BE5 HIS [N4--,:AT C\LD HAVE BE5 MORE FLATT]+ TO ,M>IA8--,EV]Y 9/ANCE ( SELF-D5IAL WAS REGI/]$ 9 H] HE>T1 & %E LOV$ HIM1 = LOV+ H] TOO WELL TO GIVE WAY TO ! TRANSPORTS ( PASSION4 ,!Y MET AGA9 & AGA92 & ,D>N=D DECL>$1 :ILE PASSION SUFFUS$ HIS *EEKS1 ?AT HE NEV] BE=E KNEW :AT IT WAS TO LOVE4-- ,ONE MORN+ ,JEMIMA 9=M$ ,M>IA1 ?AT H] MA/] 9T5D$ TO WAIT ON H]1 & SPEAK TO H] )\T WITNESSES4 ,HE CAME1 & BR\IA ANSW]$ ) W>M?1 0,?AT %E HAD NO T]MS TO MAKE ) ! MURD]] ( H] BABE1 NOR W\LD %E PUR*ASE LIB]TY AT ! PRICE ( H] [N RESPECT40 ,%E BEGAN TO EXPO/ULATE ) H] JAIL]2 BUT HE /]NLY BADE H] 0,BE SIL5T--HE HAD NOT GONE SO F>1 NOT TO GO FUR!R40 ,D>N=D CAME 9 ! EV5+4 ,JEMIMA WAS OBLIG$ TO BE ABS5T1 & %E1 AS USUAL1 LOCK$ ! DOOR ON !M1 TO PREV5T 9T]RUPTION OR DISCOV]Y4--,! LOV]S W]E1 AT FIR/1 EMB>RASS$2 BUT FELL 9S5SIBLY 9TO CONFID5TIAL DISC\RSE4 ,D>N=D REPRES5T$1 0?AT !Y MIT$10 & WI%$ H] 0TO PUT IT \T ( ! P[] ( FATE TO SEP>ATE !M40 ,AS H] HUSB& %E N[ RECEIV$ HIM1 & HE SOLEMNLY PL$G$ HIMSELF AS H] PROTECTOR--& ET]NAL FRI5D4-- ,!RE WAS ONE PECULI>ITY 9 ,M>IA'S M9D3 %E WAS MORE ANXI\S NOT TO DECEIVE1 ?AN TO GU>D AGA9/ DECEPTION2 & HAD RA!R TRU/ )\T SUFFICI5T REASON1 ?AN BE = EV] ! PREY ( D\BT4 ,BESIDES1 :AT >E WE1 :5 ! M9D HAS1 FROM REFLECTION1 A C]TA9 K9D ( ELEVATION1 :I* EXALTS ! CONTEMPLATION ABOVE ! LITTLE CONC]NS ( PRUD5CE6 ,WE SEE :AT WE WI%1 & MAKE A WORLD ( \R [N--&1 ?\< REALITY MAY SOMETIMES OP5 A DOOR TO MIS]Y1 YET ! MOM5TS ( HAPP9ESS PROCUR$ BY ! IMAG9ATION1 MAY1 )\T A P>ADOX1 BE RECKON$ AMONG ! SOLID COM=TS ( LIFE4 ,M>IA N[1 IMAG9+ ?AT %E HAD F\ND A BE+ ( CELE/IAL MOLD--WAS HAPPY1--NOR WAS %E DECEIV$4--,HE WAS !N PLA/IC 9 H] IMPASSION$ H&--& REFLECT$ ALL ! S5TIM5TS :I* ANIMAT$ & W>M$ H]4"9 "9 ,TWO & A HALF L9ES ( DA%ES FOLL[ H]E 9 ! ORIG9AL .<,PUBLI%]'S NOTE.>4 O ,*APT] #af ,ONE MORN+ CONFUSION SEEM$ TO REIGN 9 ! H\SE1 & ,JEMIMA CAME 9 T]ROR1 TO 9=M ,M>IA1 0?AT H] MA/] HAD LEFT IT1 ) A DET]M9ATION1 %E WAS ASSUR$ 7& TOO MANY CIRCUM/ANCES CORROBORAT$ ! OP9ION1 TO LEAVE A D\BT ( ITS TRU?7 ( NEV] RETURN+4 ,I AM PREP>$ !N10 SAID ,JEMIMA1 0TO ACCOMPANY Y\ 9 Y\R FLIIA />T$ UP1 H] EYES D>T+ T[>DS ! DOOR1 AS IF AFRAID ?AT SOME ONE %\LD FA/5 IT ON H] = EV]4 ,JEMIMA CONT9U$1 0,I HAVE P]HAPS NO RIN=D60--EXCLAIM$ ,M>IA1 M\RNFULLY--SITT+ D[N AGA91 & CROSS+ H] >MS--0,I HAVE NO *ILD TO GO TO1 & LIB]TY HAS LO/ ITS SWEETS40 0,I AM MU* MI/AK51 IF ,D>N=D IS NOT ! CAUSE ( MY MA/]'S FLID5-GATE4 ,WRITE Y\R LETT] :ILE ,I MAKE !SE >RANGEM5TS1 BUT LOSE NO TIME60 ,9 AN AGITATION ( SPIRIT1 NOT TO BE CALM$1 ,M>IA BEGAN TO WRITE TO ,D>N=D4 ,%E CALL$ HIM BY ! SACR$ NAME ( 0HUSB&10 & BADE HIM 0HA/5 TO H]1 TO %>E H] =TUNE1 OR %E W\LD RETURN TO HIM40--,AN HOTEL 9 ! ,ADELPHI WAS ! PLACE ( R5DEZV\S4 ,! LETT] WAS SEAL$ & GIV5 9 *>GE2 & ) LICELY BREA?+1 & ) AN 9DI/9CT FE> ?AT %E %\LD NEV] GET \T AT ! G>D5 GATE4 ,JEMIMA W5T FIR/4 ,A BE+1 ) A VISAGE ?AT W\LD HAVE SUIT$ ONE POSSESS$ BY A DEVIL1 CROSS$ ! PA?1 & SEIZ$ ,M>IA BY ! >M4 ,M>IA HAD NO FE> BUT ( BE+ DETA9$--0,:O >E Y\8 :AT >E Y\80 = ! =M WAS SC>CELY HUMAN4 0,IF Y\ >E MADE ( FLE% & BLOOD10 HIS $ ON H]1 0DO NOT /OP ME60 0,WOMAN10 9T]RUPT$ A SEPUL*RAL VOICE1 0:AT HAVE ,I TO DO ) !E80--,/ILL HE GRASP$ H] H&1 MUTT]+ A CURSE4 0,NO1 NO2 Y\ HAVE NO?+ TO DO ) ME10 %E EXCLAIM$1 0?IS IS A MOM5T ( LIFE & DEA?60-- ,) SUP]NATURAL =CE %E BROKE FROM HIM1 &1 ?R[+ H] >MS R\ND ,JEMIMA1 CRI$1 0,SAVE ME60 ,! BE+1 FROM :OSE GRASP %E HAD LOOS$ H]SELF1 TOOK UP A /ONE AS !Y OP5$ ! DOOR1 & ) A K9D ( HELLI% SPORT ?REW IT AFT] !M4 ,!Y W]E \T ( HIS REA*4 ,:5 ,M>IA >RIV$ 9 T[N1 %E DROVE TO ! HOTEL ALREADY FIX$ ON4 ,BUT %E C\LD NOT SIT /ILL--H] *ILD WAS EV] BE=E H]2 & ALL ?AT HAD PASS$ DUR+ H] CONF9EM5T1 APPE>$ TO BE A DREAM4 ,%E W5T TO ! H\SE 9 ! SUBURBS1 :]E1 AS %E N[ DISCOV]$1 H] BABE HAD BE5 S5T4 ,! MOM5T %E 5T]$1 H] HE>T GREW SICK2 BUT %E WOND]$ NOT ?AT IT HAD PROV$ ITS GRAVE4 ,%E MADE ! NECESS>Y 9QUIRIES1 & ! *UR*-Y>D WAS PO9T$ \T1 9 :I* IT RE/$ UND] A TURF4 ,A LITTLE FROCK :I* ! NURSE'S *ILD WORE 7,M>IA HAD MADE IT H]SELF7 CAUIA HA/5$ AWAY ) ! RELIC1 &1 RE5T]+ ! HACKNEY-COA* :I* WAIT$ = H]1 GAZ$ ON IT1 TILL %E REA*$ H] HOTEL4 ,%E !N WAIT$ ON ! ATTORNEY :O HAD MADE H] UNCLE'S WILL1 & EXPLA9$ TO HIM H] SITUATION4 ,HE READILY ADVANC$ H] SOME ( ! MONEY :I* /ILL REMA9$ 9 HIS H&S1 & PROMIS$ TO TAKE ! :OLE ( ! CASE 9TO CONSID]ATION4 ,M>IA ONLY WI%$ TO BE P]MITT$ TO REMA9 9 QUIET--,%E F\ND ?AT SEV]AL BILLS1 APP>5TLY ) H] SIGNATURE1 HAD BE5 PRES5T$ TO H] AG5T1 NOR WAS %E = A MOM5T AT A LOSS TO GUESS BY :OM !Y HAD BE5 =G$2 YET1 EQUALLY AV]SE TO ?REAT5 OR 9TREAT1 %E REQUE/$ H] FRI5D . TO CALL ON ,MR4 ,V5ABLES4 ,HE WAS NOT TO BE F\ND AT HOME2 BUT AT L5G? HIS AG5T1 ! ATTORNEY1 (F]$ A CONDITIONAL PROMISE TO ,M>IA1 TO LEAVE H] 9 PEACE1 AS LONG AS %E BEHAV$ ) PROPRIETY1 IF %E W\LD GIVE UP ! NOTES4 ,M>IA 9CONSID]ATELY CONS5T$--,D>N=D WAS >RIV$1 & %E WI%$ TO BE ONLY ALIVE TO LOVE2 %E WI%$ TO =GET ! ANGUI% %E FELT :5EV] %E ?\Y /IP5D4 ,ON NO O!R T]MS W\LD %E REMA9 ) H] FRI5D4 ,D>N=D WAS 9DEFATIGABLE 9 TRAC+ ! MY/]I\S CIRCUM/ANCES ( HIS CONF9EM5T4 ,! CAUSE WAS SIMPLY1 ?AT A RELATION1 A V]Y DI/ANT ONE1 TO :OM HE WAS HEIR1 HAD DI$ 9TE/ATE1 LEAV+ A CONSID]ABLE =TUNE4 ,ON ! NEWS ( ,D>N=D'S >RIVAL .<9 ,5GL&1 A P]SON1 5TRU/$ ) ! MANAGEM5T ( ! PROP]TY1 & :O HAD ! WRIT+S 9 HIS POSSESSION1 DET]M9+1 BY ONE BOLD /ROKE1 TO /RIP ,D>N=D ( ! SUCCESSION1.> HAD PLANN$ HIS CONF9EM5T2 & . ! KEEP] ( ! PRIVATE MAD-H\SE1 LEFT ! K+DOM4 ,D>N=D1 :O /ILL PURSU$ HIS 9QUIRIES1 AT LA/ DISCOV]$ ?AT !Y HAD FIX$ !IR PLACE ( REFUGE AT ,P>IS4 ,M>IA & HE DET]M9$ !RE=E1 ) ! FAI?FUL ,JEMIMA1 TO VISIT ?AT METROPOLIS1 & ACCORD+LY W]E PREP>+ = ! J\RNEY1 :5 !Y W]E 9=M$ ?AT ,MR4 ,V5ABLES HAD COMM5C$ AN ACTION AGA9/ ,D>N=D = S$UCTION & ADULT]Y4 ,! 9DIGNATION ,M>IA FELT CANNOT BE EXPLA9$2 %E REP5T$ ( ! =BE>ANCE %E HAD EX]CIS$ 9 GIV+ UP ! NOTES4 ,D>N=D C\LD NOT PUT (F HIS J\RNEY1 )\T RISK+ ! LOSS ( HIS PROP]TY3 ,M>IA !RE=E FURNI%$ HIM ) MONEY = HIS EXP$ITION2 & DET]M9$ TO REMA9 9 ,LONDON TILL ! T]M9ATION ( ?IS AFFAIR4 ,%E VISIT$ SOME LADIES ) :OM %E HAD =M]LY BE5 9TIMATE1 BUT WAS REFUS$ ADMITTANCE2 & AT ! OP]A1 OR ,RANELA<1 !Y C\LD NOT RECOLLECT H]4 ,AMONG !SE LADIES !RE W]E SOME1 NOT H] MO/ 9TIMATE ACQUA9TANCE1 :O W]E G5]ALLY SUPPOS$ TO AVAIL !MSELVES ( ! CLOKE ( M>RIAGE1 TO CONCEAL A MODE ( CONDUCT1 ?AT W\LD = EV] HAVE DAMN$ !IR FAME1 HAD !Y BE5 9NOC5T1 S$UC$ GIRLS4 ,!SE P>TICUL>LY /OOD ALO(4--,HAD %E REMA9$ ) H] HUSB&1 PRACTIC+ 9S9C]ITY1 & NEGLECT+ H] *ILD TO MANAGE AN 9TRIGUE1 %E W\LD /ILL HAVE BE5 VISIT$ & RESPECT$4 ,IF1 9/EAD ( OP5LY LIV+ ) H] LOV]1 %E C\LD HAVE CONDESC5D$ TO CALL 9TO PLAY A ?\S& >TS1 :I*1 DEGRAD+ H] [N M9D1 MIESS$ & TREAT$ LIKE AN HONORABLE WOMAN4 0,& ,BRUTUS"9 IS AN HONORABLE MAN60 SAID ,M>K-,ANTONY ) EQUAL S9C]ITY4 "9 ,! NAME 9 ! MANUSCRIPT IS BY MI/AKE WRITT5 ,CES>4 ,$,I,T,O,R4 .<,GODW9'S NOTE.> ,) ,D>N=D %E DID NOT TA/E UN9T]RUPT$ FELICITY2 !RE WAS A VOLATILITY 9 HIS MANN] :I* (T5 DI/RESS$ H]2 BUT LOVE GLADD5$ ! SC5E2 BESIDES1 HE WAS ! MO/ T5D]1 SYMPA?IZ+ CREATURE 9 ! WORLD4 ,A FONDNESS = ! SEX (T5 GIVES AN APPE>ANCE ( HUMANITY TO ! BEHAVIOR ( M51 :O HAVE SMALL PRET5SIONS TO ! REALITY2 & !Y SEEM TO LOVE O!RS1 :5 !Y >E ONLY PURSU+ !IR [N GRATIFICATION4 ,D>N=D APPE>$ EV] WILL+ TO AVAIL HIMSELF ( H] TA/E & ACQUIREM5TS1 :ILE %E 5DEAVOR$ TO PR(IT BY HIS DECISION ( *>ACT]1 & TO ]ADICATE SOME ( ! ROMANTIC NOTIONS1 :I* HAD TAK5 ROOT 9 H] M9D1 :ILE 9 ADV]SITY %E HAD BROOD$ OV] VISIONS ( UNATTA9ABLE BLISS4 ,! REAL AFFECTIONS ( LIFE1 :5 !Y >E ALL[$ TO BUR/ =?1 >E BUDS PREGNANT ) JOY & ALL ! SWEET EMOTIONS ( ! S\L2 YET !Y BRAN* \T ) WILD EASE1 UNLIKE ! >TIFICIAL =MS ( FELICITY1 SKET*$ BY AN IMAG9ATION PA9FUL ALIVE4 ,! SUB/ANTIAL HAPP9ESS1 :I* 5L>GES & CIVILIZES ! M9D1 MAY BE COMP>$ TO ! PLEASURE EXP]I5C$ 9 ROV+ ?R\< NATURE AT L>GE1 9HAL+ ! SWEET GALE NATURAL TO ! CLIME2 :ILE ! REV]IES ( A FEV]I% IMAG9ATION CONT9UALLY SPORT !MSELVES 9 G>D5S FULL ( >OMATIC %RUBS1 :I* CLOY :ILE !Y DELIS1 9 ?IS LIFE1 OR 9 ?OSE EV]-SMIL+ REGIONS SURR\ND$ BY ! UNM>K$ OCEAN ( FUTURITY1 HAVE AN 9SIPID UNI=MITY :I* PALLS4 ,POETS HAVE IMAG9$ SC5ES ( BLISS2 BUT1 S5C+ \T SORR[1 ALL ! EXTATIC EMOTIONS ( ! ,S\L1 & EV5 ITS GR&EUR1 SEEM TO BE EQUALLY EXCLUD$4 ,WE DOSE OV] ! UNRUFFL$ LAKE1 & LONG TO SCALE ! ROCKS :I* F5CE ! HAPPY VALLEY ( CONT5TM5T1 ?\< S]P5TS HISS 9 ! PA?LESS DES]T1 & DANG] LURKS 9 ! UNEXPLOR$ WILES4 ,M>IA F\ND H]SELF MORE 9DULG5T AS %E WAS HAPPI]1 & DISCOV]$ VIRTUES1 9 *>ACT]S %E HAD BE=E DISREG>D$1 :ILE *AS+ ! PHANTOMS ( ELEGANCE & EXCELL5CE1 :I* SPORT$ 9 ! METEORS ?AT EXHALE 9 ! M>%ES ( MIS=TUNE4 ,! HE>T IS (T5 %UT BY ROMANCE AGA9/ SOCIAL PLEASURE2 &1 FO/]+ A SICKLY S5SIBILITY1 GR[S CALL\S TO ! S(T T\*ES ( HUMANITY4 ,TO P>T ) ,D>N=D WAS 9DE$ CRUEL4--,IT WAS TO FEEL MO/ PA9FULLY ALONE2 BUT %E REJOIC$ TO ?9K1 ?AT %E %\LD SP>E HIM ! C>E & P]PLEXITY ( ! SUIT1 & MEET HIM AGA91 ALL HIS [N4 ,M>RIAGE1 AS AT PRES5T CON/ITUT$1 %E CONSID]$ AS LEAD+ TO IMMORALITY--YET1 AS ! ODIUM ( SOCIETY IMP$ES USEFULNESS1 %E WI%$ TO AV[ H] AFFECTION TO ,D>N=D1 BY BECOM+ HIS WIFE ACCORD+ TO E/ABLI%$ RULES2 NOT TO BE CONF\ND$ ) WOM5 :O ACT FROM V]Y DIFF]5T MOTIVES1 ?\< H] CONDUCT W\LD BE JU/ ! SAME )\T ! C]EMONY AS ) IT1 & H] EXPECTATIONS FROM HIM NOT LESS FIRM4 ,! BE+ SUMMON$ TO DEF5D H]SELF FROM A *>GE :I* %E WAS DET]M9$ TO PLEAD GUILTY TO1 WAS /ILL GALL+1 AS IT R\S$ BITT] REFLECTIONS ON ! SITUATION ( WOM5 9 SOCIETY4 O ,*APT] #ag ,SU* WAS H] /ATE ( M9D :5 ! DOGS ( LAW W]E LET LOOSE ON H]4 ,M>IA TOOK ! TASK ( CONDUCT+ ,D>N=D'S DEF5SE UPON H]SELF4 ,%E 9/RUCT$ HIS C\NSEL TO PLEAD GUILTY TO ! *>GE ( ADULT]Y2 BUT TO D5Y ?AT ( S$UCTION4 ,! C\NSEL = ! PLA9TIFF OP5$ ! CAUSE1 BY OBS]V+1 0?AT HIS CLI5T HAD EV] BE5 AN 9DULG5T HUSB&1 & HAD BORNE ) SEV]AL DEFECTS ( TEMP]1 :ILE HE HAD NO?+ CRIM9AL TO LAY TO ! *>GE ( HIS WIFE4 ,BUT ?AT %E LEFT HIS H\SE )\T ASSIGN+ ANY CAUSE4 ,HE C\LD NOT ASS]T ?AT %E WAS !N ACQUA9T$ ) ! DEF5DANT2 YET1 :5 HE WAS ONCE 5DEAVOR+ TO BR+ H] BACK TO H] HOME1 ?IS MAN PUT ! PEACE-(FIC]S TO FLIY TO CONF9E H]4 ,BY SOME MEANS ! DEF5DANT 5ABL$ H] TO MAKE H] ESCAPE1 & !Y HAD LIV$ TOGE!R1 9 DESPITE ( ALL S5SE ( ORD] & DECORUM4 ,! ADULT]Y WAS ALL[$1 IT WAS NOT NECESS>Y TO BR+ ANY WITNESSES TO PROVE IT2 BUT ! S$UCTION1 ?\< HILY PROV$4--,IT WAS ( ! MO/ ATROCI\S K9D1 AS DEC5CY WAS SET AT DEFIANCE1 & RESPECT = REPUTATION1 :I* %[S 9T]NAL COMPUNCTION1 UTT]LY DISREG>D$40 ,A /RONG S5SE ( 9JU/ICE HAD SIL5C$ EV]Y MOTION1 :I* A MIXTURE ( TRUE & FALSE DELICACY MIIA'S BOSOM4 ,%E ONLY FELT 9 E>NE/ TO 9SI/ ON ! PRIVILEGE ( H] NATURE4 ,! S>CASMS ( SOCIETY1 & ! CONDEMNATIONS ( A MI/AK5 WORLD1 W]E NO?+ TO H]1 COMP>$ ) ACT+ CONTR>Y TO ?OSE FEEL+S :I* W]E ! F\NDATION ( H] PR9CIPLES4 .<,%E !RE=E EAG]LY PUT H]SELF =W>D1 9/EAD ( DESIR+ TO BE ABS5T1 ON ?IS MEMORABLE OCCASION4.> ,CONV9C$ ?AT ! SUBT]FUGES ( ! LAW W]E DISGRACEFUL1 %E WROTE A PAP]1 :I* %E EXPRESSLY DESIR$ MIRI$ :5 SC>CELY ABLE TO DI/+UI% ! NATURE ( ! 5GAGEM5T1 ,I YET SUBMITT$ TO ! RIGID LAWS :I* 5?RALL$ WOM51 & OBEY$ ! MAN :OM ,I C\LD NO LONG] LOVE4 ,:E!R ! DUTIES ( ! /ATE >E RECIPROCAL1 ,I MEAN NOT TO DISCUSS2 BUT ,I CAN PROVE REPEAT$ 9FIDELITIES :I* ,I OV]LOOK$ OR P>DON$4 ,WITNESSES >E NOT WANT+ TO E/ABLI% !SE FACTS4 ,I AT PRES5T MA9TA9 ! *ILD ( A MAID S]VANT1 SWORN TO HIM1 & BORN AFT] \R M>RIAGE4 ,I AM READY TO ALL[1 ?AT $UCATION & CIRCUM/ANCES LEAD M5 TO ?9K & ACT ) LESS DELICACY1 ?AN ! PRES]VATION ( ORD] 9 SOCIETY DEM&S FROM WOM52 BUT SURELY ,I MAY )\T ASSUMPTION DECL>E1 ?AT1 ?\< ,I C\LD EXCUSE ! BIR?1 ,I C\LD NOT ! DES]TION ( ?IS UN=TUNATE BABE3--&1 :ILE ,I DESPIS$ ! MAN1 IT WAS NOT EASY TO V5]ATE ! HUSB&4 ,) PROP] RE/RICTIONS H[EV]1 ,I REV]E ! 9/ITUTION :I* FRAT]NIZES ! WORLD4 ,I EXCLAIM AGA9/ ! LAWS :I* ?R[ ! :OLE WEII\S >E ! CASES1 9 :I* A WOMAN \ATE H]SELF FROM H] HUSB&2 & M9E1 ,I MAY BE ALL[$ EMPHATICALLY TO 9SI/1 COMES UND] ! DESCRIPTION ( ! MO/ AGGRAVAT$4 0,I WILL NOT 5L>GE ON ?OSE PROVOCATIONS :I* ONLY ! 9DIVIDUAL CAN E/IMATE2 BUT WILL BR+ =W>D SU* *>GES ONLY1 ! TRU? ( :I* IS AN 9SULT UPON HUMANITY4 ,9 ORD] TO PROMOTE C]TA9 DE/RUCTIVE SPECULATIONS1 ,MR4 ,V5ABLES PREVAIL$ ON ME TO BORR[ C]TA9 SUMS ( A WEAL?Y RELATION2 &1 :5 ,I REFUS$ FUR!R COMPLIANCE1 HE ?\T]+ MY P]SON2 & NOT ONLY ALL[$ OPPORTUNITIES TO1 BUT URG$1 A FRI5D FROM :OM HE BORR[$ MONEY1 TO S$UCE ME4 ,ON ! DISCOV]Y ( ?IS ACT ( ATROCITY1 ,I DET]M9$ TO LEAVE HIM1 & 9 ! MO/ DECID$ MANN]1 = EV]4 ,I CONSID] ALL OBLIGATIONS AS MADE VOID BY HIS CONDUCT2 & HOLD1 ?AT S*ISMS :I* PROCE$ FROM WANT ( PR9CIPLES1 CAN NEV] BE HEAL$4 0,HE RECEIV$ A =TUNE ) ME TO ! AM\NT ( FIVE ?\S& P\NDS4 ,ON ! DEA? ( MY UNCLE1 CONV9C$ ?AT ,I C\LD PROVIDE = MY *ILD1 ,I DE/ROY$ ! SETTLEM5T ( ?AT =TUNE4 ,I REQUIR$ NONE ( MY PROP]TY TO BE RETURN$ TO ME1 NOR %ALL 5UM]ATE ! SUMS EXTORT$ FROM ME DUR+ SIX YE>S ?AT WE LIV$ TOGE!R4 0,AFT] LEAV+1 :AT ! LAW CONSID]S AS MY HOME1 ,I WAS HUNT$ LIKE A CRIM9AL FROM PLACE TO PLACE1 ?\< ,I CONTRACT$ NO DEBTS1 & DEM&$ NO MA9T5ANCE--YET1 AS ! LAWS SANCTION SU* PROCE$+1 & MAKE WOM5 ! PROP]TY ( !IR HUSB&S1 ,I =BE> TO ANIMADV]T4 ,AFT] ! BIR? ( MY DAURIV+ AT :AT IS T]M$ YE>S ( DISCRETION1 PL$G$ MY FAI?1 ,I WAS TREAT$ BY ! WORLD1 AS B\ND = EV] TO A MAN :OSE VICES W]E NOTORI\S4 ,YET :AT >E ! VICES G5]ALLY KN[N1 TO ! V>I\S MIS]IES ?AT A WOMAN MAY BE SUBJECT TO1 :I*1 ?\< DEEPLY FELT1 EAT+ 9TO ! S\L1 ELUDE DESCRIPTION1 & MAY BE GLOSS$ OV]6 ,A FALSE MORALITY IS EV5 E/ABLI%$1 :I* MAKES ALL ! VIRTUE ( WOM5 CONSI/ 9 *A/ITY1 SUBMISSION1 & ! =GIV5ESS ( 9JURIES4 0,I P>DON MY OPPRESSOR--BITT]LY AS ,I LAM5T ! LOSS ( MY *ILD1 TORN FROM ME 9 ! MO/ VIOL5T MANN]4 ,BUT NATURE REVOLTS1 & MY S\L SICK5S AT ! B>E SUPPOSITION1 ?AT IT C\LD EV] BE A DUTY TO PRET5D AFFECTION1 :5 A SEP>ATION IS NECESS>Y TO PREV5T MY FEEL+ H\RLY AV]SION4 0,TO =CE ME TO GIVE MY =TUNE1 ,I WAS IMPRISON$--YES2 9 A PRIVATE MAD-H\SE4--,!RE1 9 ! HE>T ( MIS]Y1 ,I MET ! MAN *>G$ ) S$UC+ ME4 ,WE BECAME ATTA*$--,I DEEM$1 & EV] %ALL DEEM1 MYSELF FREE4 ,! DEA? ( MY BABE DISSOLV$ ! ONLY TIE :I* SUBSI/$ BETWE5 ME & MY1 :AT IS T]M$1 LAWFUL HUSB&4 0,TO ?IS P]SON1 ?US 5C\NT]$1 ,I VOLUNT>ILY GAVE MYSELF1 NEV] CONSID]+ MYSELF AS ANY MORE B\ND TO TRANSGRESS ! LAWS ( MORAL PURITY1 BECAUSE ! WILL ( MY HUSB& MITIFICIAL SOCIETY HAS.> ANNEX$ . PUNI%M5TS4--,:ILE NO COMM& ( A HUSB& CAN PREV5T A WOMAN FROM SUFF]+ = C]TA9 CRIMES1 %E MU/ BE ALL[$ TO CONSULT H] CONSCI5CE1 & REGULATE H] CONDUCT1 9 SOME DEGREE1 BY H] [N S5SE ( RIE ?AT ,I WILL NOT LIVE ) ! 9DIVIDUAL1 :O HAS VIOLAT$ EV]Y MORAL OBLIGATION :I* B9DS MAN TO MAN4 0,I PROTE/ EQUALLY AGA9/ ANY *>GE BE+ BR\RIVE AT AN AGE TO DIRECT MY [N ACTIONS1 ,I MU/ BY ?AT TIME HAVE >RIV$ AT IT4--,I ACT$ ) DELIB]ATION4--,MR4 ,D>N=D F\ND ME A =LORN & OPPRESS$ WOMAN1 & PROMIS$ ! PROTECTION WOM5 9 ! PRES5T /ATE ( SOCIETY WANT4--,BUT ! MAN :O N[ CLAIMS ME--WAS HE DEPRIV$ ( MY SOCIETY BY ?IS CONDUCT8 ,! QUE/ION IS AN 9SULT TO COMMON S5SE1 CONSID]+ :]E ,MR4 ,D>N=D MET ME4--,MR4 ,V5ABLES' DOOR WAS 9DE$ OP5 TO ME--NAY1 ?REATS & 9TREATIES W]E US$ TO 9DUCE ME TO RETURN2 BUT :Y8 ,WAS AFFECTION OR HONOR ! MOTIVE8--,I CANNOT1 IT IS TRUE1 DOVE 9TO ! RECESSES ( ! HUMAN HE>T--YET ,I PRESUME TO ASS]T1 .IETY ( CIRCUM/ANCES1.> ?AT HE WAS M]ELY 9FLU5C$ BY ! MO/ RAPACI\S AV>ICE4 0,I CLAIM !N A DIVORCE1 & ! LIB]TY ( 5JOY+1 FREE FROM MOLE/ATION1 ! =TUNE LEFT TO ME BY A RELATION1 :O WAS WELL AW>E ( ! *>ACT] ( ! MAN ) :OM ,I HAD TO CONT5D4--,I APPEAL TO ! JU/ICE & HUMANITY ( ! JURY--A BODY ( M51 :OSE PRIVATE JUDGM5T MU/ BE ALL[$ TO MODIFY LAWS1 ?AT MU/ BE UNJU/1 BECAUSE DEF9ITE RULES CAN NEV] APPLY TO 9DEF9ITE CIRCUM/ANCES--& ,I DEPRECATE PUNI%M5T UPON ! MAN ( MY *OICE1 FREE+ HIM1 AS ,I SOLEMNLY DO1 FROM ! *>GE ( S$UCTION4 0,I DID NOT PUT MYSELF 9TO A SITUATION TO JU/IFY A *>GE ( ADULT]Y1 TILL ,I HAD1 FROM CONVICTION1 %AK5 (F ! FETT]S :I* B\ND ME TO ,MR4 ,V5ABLES4--,:ILE ,I LIV$ ) HIM1 ,I DEFY ! VOICE ( CALUMNY TO SULLY :AT IS T]M$ ! FAIR FAME ( WOMAN4--,NEGLECT$ BY MY HUSB&1 ,I NEV] 5C\RAG$ A LOV]2 & PRES]V$ ) SCRUPUL\S C>E1 :AT IS T]M$ MY HONOR1 AT ! EXP5CE ( MY PEACE1 TILL HE1 :O %\LD HAVE BE5 ITS GU>DIAN1 LAID TRAPS TO 5SN>E ME4 ,FROM ?AT MOM5T ,I BELIEV$ MYSELF1 9 ! SI? %ALL =CE ME TO R5\NCE MY RESOLUTION40 ,! JUDGE1 9 SUMM+ UP ! EVID5CE1 ALLUD$ TO 0! FALLACY ( LETT+ WOM5 PLEAD !IR FEEL+S1 AS AN EXCUSE = ! VIOLATION ( ! M>RIAGE-V[4 ,= HIS P>T1 HE HAD ALWAYS DET]M9$ TO OPPOSE ALL 9NOVATION1 & ! NEWFANGL$ NOTIONS :I* 9CROA*$ ON ! GOOD OLD RULES ( CONDUCT4 ,WE DID NOT WANT ,FR5* PR9CIPLES 9 PUBLIC OR PRIVATE LIFE--&1 IF WOM5 W]E ALL[$ TO PLEAD !IR FEEL+S1 AS AN EXCUSE OR PALLIATION ( 9FIDELITY1 IT WAS OP5+ A FLOOD-GATE = IMMORALITY4 ,:AT VIRTU\S WOMAN ?\5TS & RELATIONS1 :O W]E QUALIFI$ BY !IR EXP]I5CE TO JUDGE BETT] = H]1 ?AN %E C\LD = H]SELF4 ,AS TO ! *>GES BR\ ?AT ( A P]SON ( SANE M9D4 ,/ILL SU* A MODE ( PROCE$+ C\LD NOT BE JU/IFI$1 & MI TO A S5T5CE ( SEP>ATION FROM B$ & BO>D1 DUR+ ! JO9T LIVES ( ! P>TIES2 BUT HE HOP$ ?AT NO ,5GLI%MAN W\LD LEGALIZE ADULT]Y1 BY 5ABL+ ! ADULT]ESS TO 5RI* H] S$UC]4 ,TOO MANY RE/RICTIONS C\LD NOT BE ?R[N 9 ! WAY ( DIVORCES1 IF WE WI%$ TO MA9TA9 ! SANCTITY ( M>RIAGE2 &1 ?\< !Y MI A LITTLE H>D ON A FEW1 V]Y FEW 9DIVIDUALS1 IT WAS EVID5TLY = ! GOOD ( ! :OLE40 O ,CONCLUSION ,B,Y ,! ,$,I,T,O,R "9 "9 I4E41 ,GODW9 .<,PUBLI%]'S NOTE.>4 ,V,],Y ,F,E,W H9TS EXI/ RESPECT+ ! PLAN ( ! REMA9D] ( ! WORK4 ,I F9D ONLY TWO DETA*$ S5T5CES1 & SOME SCATT]$ HEADS = ! CONT9UATION ( ! /ORY4 ,I TRANSCRIBE ! :OLE4 ,I4 0,D>N=D'S LETT]S W]E AFFECTIONATE2 BUT CIRCUM/ANCES OCCASION$ DELAYS1 & ! MISC>RIAGE ( SOME LETT]S R5D]$ ! RECEPTION ( WI%$-= ANSW]S D\BTFUL3 HIS RETURN WAS NECESS>Y TO CALM ,M>IA'S M9D40 ,I,I4 0,AS ,D>N=D HAD 9=M$ H] ?AT HIS BUS9ESS WAS SETTL$1 HIS DELAY+ TO RETURN SEEM$ EXTRAORD9>Y2 BUT LOVE TO EXCESS1 EXCLUDES FE> OR SUSPICION40 ,! SCATT]$ HEADS = ! CONT9UATION ( ! /ORY1 >E AS FOLL[4 "9 "9 ,TO UND]/& !SE M9UTES1 IT IS NECESS>Y ! READ] %\LD CONSID] EA* ( !M AS SETT+ \T FROM ! SAME PO9T 9 ! /ORY1 VIZ4 ! PO9T TO :I* IT IS BR\ ,I4 0,TRIAL = ADULT]Y--,M>IA DEF5DS H]SELF--,A SEP>ATION FROM B$ & BO>D IS ! CONSEQU5CE--,H] =TUNE IS ?R[N 9TO *ANC]Y--,D>N=D OBTA9S A P>T ( HIS PROP]TY--,M>IA GOES 9TO ! C\NTRY40 ,I,I4 0,A PROSECUTION = ADULT]Y COMM5C$--,TRIAL--,D>N=D SETS \T = ,FRANCE--,LETT]S--,ONCE MORE PREGNANT--,HE RETURNS--,MY/]I\S BEHAVIOR--,VISIT--,EXPECTATION--,DISCOV]Y--,9T]VIEW--,CONSEQU5CE40 ,I,I,I4 0,SU$ BY H] HUSB&--,DAMAGES AW>D$ TO HIM--,SEP>ATION FROM B$ & BO>D--,D>N=D GOES ABROAD--,M>IA 9TO ! C\NTRY--,PROVIDES = H] FA!R--,IS %UNN$--,RETURNS TO ,LONDON--,EXPECTS TO SEE H] LOV]--,! RACK ( EXPECTATION--,F9DS H]SELF AGA9 ) *ILD--,DELIRIAGE--,CONCLUSION40 ,I,V4 0,DIVORC$ BY H] HUSB&--,H] LOV] UNFAI?FUL--,PREGNANCY--,MISC>RIAGE--,SUICIDE40 .<,! FOLL[+ PASSAGE APPE>S 9 SOME RESPECTS TO DEVIATE FROM ! PREC$+ H9TS4 ,IT IS SUP]SCRIB$.> 0,! ,5,D4 0,%E SWALL[$ ! LAUDANUM2 H] S\L WAS CALM--! TEMPE/ HAD SUBSID$--& NO?+ REMA9$ BUT AN EAG] LONG+ TO =GET H]SELF--TO FLY FROM ! ANGUI% %E 5DUR$ TO ESCAPE FROM ?\MS1 EMBODI$ TO ASSAIL H]1 & PREV5T H] S9K+ 9TO ! SLEEP ( DEA?4--,H] MURD]$ *ILD AGA9 APPE>$ TO H]1 M\RN+ = ! BABE ( :I* %E WAS ! TOMB4--',& C\LD IT HAVE A NOBL]8--,SURELY IT IS BETT] TO DIE ) ME1 ?AN TO 5T] ON LIFE )\T A MO!R'S C>E6--,I CANNOT LIVE6--BUT C\LD ,I HAVE DES]T$ MY *ILD ! MOM5T IT WAS BORN8--?R[N IT ON ! TR\BL$ WAVE ( LIFE1 )\T A H& TO SUPPORT IT8'--,%E LOOK$ UP3 ',:AT HAVE ,I NOT SUFF]$6--MAY ,I F9D A FA!R :]E ,I AM GO+6--,H] HEAD TURN$2 A /UPOR 5SU$2 A FA9TNESS--',HAVE A LITTLE PATI5CE1' SAID ,M>IA1 HOLD+ H] SWIMM+ HEAD 7%E ?\IA />T$ (F ! B$1 & FA9T$4--,VIOL5T VOMIT+ FOLL[$4 0,:5 %E WAS RE/OR$ TO LIFE1 ,JEMIMA ADDRESS$ H] ) GREAT SOLEMNITY3 '----- L$ ME TO SUSPECT1 ?AT Y\R HUSB& & BRO!R HAD DECEIV$ Y\1 & SECRET$ ! *ILD4 ,I W\LD NOT TORM5T Y\ ) D\BTFUL HOPES1 & ,I LEFT Y\ 7AT A FATAL MOM5T7 TO SE>* = ! *ILD6--,I SNAT*$ H] FROM MIS]Y--& 7N[ %E IS ALIVE AGA97 W\LD Y\ LEAVE H] ALONE 9 ! WORLD1 TO 5DURE :AT ,I HAVE 5DUR$8' 0,M>IA GAZ$ WILDLY AT H]1 H] :OLE FRAME WAS CONVULS$ ) EMOTION2 :5 ! *ILD1 :OM ,JEMIMA HAD BE5 TUTOR+ ALL ! J\RNEY1 UTT]$ ! WORD ',MAMA6' ,%E CAUS--!N1 RE/+ ! *ILD G5TLY ON ! B$1 AS IF AFRAID ( KILL+ IT1--%E PUT H] H& TO H] EYES1 TO CONCEAL AS IT W]E ! AGONIZ+ /RUGGLE ( H] S\L4 ,%E REMA9$ SIL5T = FIVE M9UTES1 CROSS+ H] >MS OV] H] BOSOM1 & RECL9+ H] HEAD1--!N EXCLAIM$3 ',! CONFLICT IS OV]6--,I WILL LIVE = MY *ILD6'0 ,A FEW READ]S P]HAPS1 9 LOOK+ OV] !SE H9TS1 WILL WOND] H[ IT C\LD HAVE BE5 PRACTICABLE1 )\T T$I\SNESS1 OR REMITT+ 9 ANY DEGREE ! 9T]E/ ( ! /ORY1 TO HAVE FILL$1 FROM !SE SLIE1 >E PREGNANT ) PASSION & DI/RESS4 ,IT IS ! REFUGE ( B>R5 AU?ORS ONLY1 TO CR[D !IR FICTIONS ) SO GREAT A NUMB] ( EV5TS1 AS TO SUFF] NO ONE ( !M TO S9K 9TO ! READ]'S M9D4 ,IT IS ! PROV9CE ( TRUE G5IUS TO DEVELOP EV5TS1 TO DISCOV] !IR CAPABILITIES1 TO ASC]TA9 ! DIFF]5T PASSIONS & S5TIM5TS ) :I* !Y >E FRAUTICUL>LY ! DESIGN ( ! AU?OR1 9 ! PRES5T 9/ANCE1 TO MAKE H] /ORY SUBORD9ATE TO A GREAT MORAL PURPOSE1 ?AT 0( EXHIBIT+ ! MIS]Y & OPPRESSION1 PECULI> TO WOM51 ?AT >ISE \T ( ! 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